What happened to us Barry?
Life happened Carmel.
I feel...
like a orphan Barry.
When you coming out for the funeral?
Sorry Carmel.
I just can’t.
Would it have killed you to have gone to Antigua with Mum?
Do you understand that you are this close to losing her
and tearing our whole family apart?
Goodbye Barry.
I'm having to go to Antigua for grandad's funeral...
because you won't.
You need to connect with your grandson, again.
- Hello, Grandy. - Danny-Boy.
Let me tell you something.
Your actions and misdeeds will always have consequences.
All your Grandmother's things.
I say leave, so leave.
And take this, this homophobic shit noise with you.
Grandad, Grandad I, I swear, I never meant to...
Don't you speak to me.
"Life's tragedy is that we get old too soon and wise too late"
Benjamin Franklin, hm... And it's far too late.
DAD..! DAD! DAD, DAD WAKE UP!
PLEASE!
I'm awake... I'm awake. I'm awake. I'm awake!
Oh, oh, oh, thank ***.
Oh my God!
- Oh, oh... oh, yeah, steady. - Thank you Maxine.
Yeah hold, hold onto me, hold onto me...
Dad, Dad, this stinks, this is disgusting.
Come on let's take, let's take this off. Come on.
- Oh my God... Are you okay? - Yeah, oh...
Fell asleep.
Oh... Dad you scared me.
Oh my..!
Okay...
Ready?
Mmm...
Put your arm up for me.
I can do this.
No, no, Dad, I'm just trying to...
No, I can, I can... I can...
What day is it?
It's Tuesday.
- Tues..? - Eight thirty.
Eight thirty?
It's eight thirty in the morning. Look! See! Daylight!
I'm gonna get you some water, okay? Leave you to get dressed.
Dad... Come, sit up, sit up. I'm coming back.
If you need me just shout, okay?
Okay?!
I never got to tell Papi how I felt.
It's okay Carm, don't beat yourself up.
I spent my whole life trying to get away from Papi.
I hate him.
I do.
For what he did to Mummy.
For what he's made me.
Let it go, Carm.
The only person you're hurting is yourself.
Barry not coming?
I did ask him, but...
I hope you don't mind me saying Carm, this,
but I know you're grieving,
but you're looking tired.
Don't, don't let yourself go.
Years of marriage to that man has taken it's toll on you.
What you need, woman, is some TLC.
Who goin' ever love me?
You are!
You are...
Okay, come on.
What? No Maxine, no.
You must be dangerously dehydrated, you idiot, so drink.
Put the damn water in a glass.
I'm not a, I'm not a pot plant.
Come on.
You know, a minute or two later up there,
we would've been covering you in dirt.
When did you last eat?
Unbelievable.
So why the bender then?
No, come on. Something's gotta be up for it to be this bad.
For you to not answer your phone.
And I've been ringing and ringing, and Donna has too.
Yeah, you better batten down the hatches mate because Donna is back.
And she's gonna wanna know where her son is,
'cause like you, he hasn't answered his phone, or any texts in days.
He not here.
Okay, so where is he, then?
The shops or at his friends, where?
Mi not know.
What do you mean you don't know?
No, mm-mm...
No, no, no, no, no, try again.
What happened?
LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE!
How dare you!
Find your t'ings and *** off!
*** off!
I don't know.
That's not good enough.
That is nowhere near good enough.
Let's try again.
What happened?!
Cucksucker... Come burn...
me. 'Cause I suck ***!
Maxine, hold on. Where you goin'?
I can't help you if you're gonna be no help to me whatsoever.
I told you, he err, just, pick up and gone.
Yes, but how can you be so sure?
You've been out of it since God-knows-when.
Have you even checked properly..?
Like in here.
Wait, wait, wait!
Oh my God! Oh my god!
Dad...
What the actual..?
***! ***!
Look who it is. Welcome home, sis.
Where's Daniel?
Daniel?
Where's..? Daniel?
Daniel? Pumkin?!
Baby...?
What, what's going on in here?
Where, where's my son?! Where's my son?!
I don't know. I only just arrived and Dad doesn't know either.
Well, what, what happened to him?
What the hell happened in here?
Erm,
your son disrespected me,
he disrespected yuh mother, all her t'ings.
He disrespected this house...
so I put him out.
Did the only thing that was right. I tell him to leave.
You did what?!
I, I, I told him to leave.
Margot, it's err, Donna Walker,
Daniel's mum. Random question,
I don't suppose Dan's been staying with you has he?
Is that, Benedict?
Eddie, hi, it's...
Oh, okay, Jonah, do you have this Ash's number?
Hi Ash erm...
He is?
Oh, could you, could you just put him on for me please?
Donna, I think it's best if...
Oh my baby, been so worried...
No, no, no, no, no, no, it's not your fault, Babycakes.
Uh-huh...
Really?!
He did what..?
Just, just give me a call when you want, okay?
Alright darling, okay.
That was Daniel... and he explained everything.
Everything?
Yes.
So he got a bit tipsy.
Silly boy.
But we all made mistakes at his age.
But he's so young and understandably very upset by your drunk,
and judging by the state of you, over-reaction.
Oh, God I'm shattered.
Oh...
Max, stick the kettle on, I'm dying for a cup of coffee.
Oh and maybe a sandwich if you can find anything edible in there...
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Mrs Walker, I'm sorry, would you like me to stop?
It's that there's so much tension in your body!
It's alright, carry on. Carry on.
Arghhhhhhhhh.
Right, I'm off to get some essentials.
I won't be long.
Huh,
just like Donna to weasel out of cleaning up
the mess her own precious son made!
Wow...
Okay,
where to begin?
Hmm...
Any idea where these dreadful things go?
Mm, are you still feeling rough, Daddy?
I think I have never felt rougher.
Well, let this be a warning then!
Lay off the booze.
You're way too old to be caning it.
That's not what I'm talking about.
Okay, well what, what are you talking about?
I don't know why he didn't...
Why Daniel never...? Why...?
To his mo...
Dad... what...
what actually happened here?
Because you were absolutely petrified when Donna was on the phone.
I saw you! Something is up.
I mean, it's not like Uncle Morris
not to be nipping at your ankles either.
Where is he and why haven't you mentioned him?
He wouldn't have let you go off the rails like this.
You could have killed yourself.
Come on.
Donna will be home with the shopping soon.
So tell me what I need to know before she does.
No, no, no, you get, get going Maxine and leave me be.
No! What is it?
Dad...
Talk to me.
I err,
I told you
Daniel and him friends.
Comin' here and they erm...
they were
trashing the place and...
blastin' their homophobic music and disrespecting my hou...
Disrespecting my house.
Your mother's home.
And disrespecting...
me...
Who I am.
Who I erm...
always... been...
A homosexual.
Gay or whatever them call it...
I've been in love with your Uncle Morris
and him in love with me for,
feel like my en...
my entire life.
Dad, this is huge.
How, how, how are you feeling?
I am...
petrified.
- Yeah... - Scared...
Have you, have you, have you told anyone else?
No... I'm...
how can I?
Maxine, how can I ever say this to your mother?
She will never forgive me.
And she will never understand.
Yeah, probably not.
But... And, and I know you're gonna find this hard to believe.
Putting yourself first is what's best.
For you and for Mum.
I thought you would hate me.
No...
All of my lies and
hurt to so many people and...
Oh... Okay, yeah, yeah, yes, you have been dishonest,
but Dad, you've also denied yourself for over five decades.
That's too long.
What gonna happen Maxine?
I don't know,
but I'm here,
through all of it.
Hmm...
And we live to see another day.
Hmm...
Thank you.
I'm so proud of you.
Hm...
Oh, you're leaving?
Well yes, 'cause all the tidying's been done
and I have places to go and people to see.
Nephews to lose.
I'm joking. Look, I've bought Chinese.
Oh wow, yeah, trans fat, MSG,
heart attack and blocked arteries.
Thank you, but not really my thing.
Oh, suit yourself.
You're welcome for all the help tidying by the way.
No?
Honestly, can you believe her?
Bye Dad.
Maxie.
Thank you.
Love you Dad.
Er...
I'm sorry.
Sorry for what?
Kicking off earlier about Daniel.
What I mean is, I went a bit overboard and I was just...
A bit rude?
I was just panicking about Daniel and I lost it.
I shouldn't have spoken to you like that.
'Cause I'm well aware that Daniel can be a little bit of a ***
when he wants to, but he's all I've got.
And when he goes off to Uni, that's it.
I mean, he's said as much.
I know he won't be coming back except to bring his dirty washing,
the way men do.
Still. Every cloud, as they say.
What I mean is, it frees you up, you know?
To find that erm, nice kind fella that you deserve,
somebody to treat you good.
Oh, it's just so hard to find a good-looking man
with a good job and his own house and no baggage.
And who, let's face it, is even into black women.
But Donna, darlin', you don't think that maybe you're just,
I don't know, being a bit too fussy?
Too fussy?!
I wasn't fussy enough with Frankie, was I?!
I don't believe it, you just don't get it, do you?!
- Get what? - That it's you!
You're to blame.
I can't trust men,
because of the pain you caused Mum her whole married life!
- Donna, listen, I... - No, no, no, don't even try
and deny it because I saw you that night.
At the cemetery.
I saw you with my own eyes.
I saw you, my dad.
With that ***.
A few nights later we were just watching telly.
You said you were off to have a drink at the pub.
So, in the interest of any doubt,
I followed you straight back to the gates of the cemetery
and in you went with the rest of the dirty old men!
I couldn't tell Mum, 'cause it would have broken her.
And I couldn't destroy Maxine's fantasy version of you!
No, no, no, no, no, no don't go anywhere, I haven't finished.
Donna the... the...
Yeah,
excuse me.
Run away like you always do...
You coward!
C'mon, let me in!
C'mon, you have to let me in!
- Hullo? - Hello?
Hello, Morris...
- Barry? - You see me?
It's me I, I, erm, no, no, don't, don't, don't, please,
don't hang up, okay?
Don't, don't hang up. Just hear me out, will you, please?
Just, I erm,
I, I was listening to you.
I was listening to you and everything yuh haffu say.
I was listening about erm, about erm,
George Michael and, and, and the boy Fashanu
and how brave they were.
And why you revere them for their bravery.
I don't know M-Morris, I,
I was wrong.
I was wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong.
About a whole heap of t'ings.
I was wrong.
I am a,
a stubborn old fool...
But I want to be brave, you know?
I want, I want to be brave...
for you.
I want to be brave for us,
Morris.
Morris?
Okay...
You hurt me, Barry.
I know.
I been meanin' to call you
and apologise and everything, but err, it's...
Morris, you know,
mi don't say this often enough.
I need you...
I really do. I need my spar.
Well, it don't mean you can keep hurting me this way.
That's right, that's right.
You is right, because a man as,
as special and as loyal and as loving
and as kind as you deserves more.
You know you, far,
far more.
And I am
sorry.
I'm sorry Morris,
because you are my anchor.
Always have been you. And without you I am...
Well,
truth is err,
I need yuh too.
I do.
I love you too, mm?
Mm-hmm...
I love you.
You know Morris,
you could pass for one of those buff middle-aged men,
pumping iron down at the gym, easy.
Very funny.
No for true man. Yuh is buff.
But you know, even if you wasn't,
I would still want you.
Love still goin' strong here.
Love still goin' strong!
You're getting soft on me.
Something go down in my absence?
You're different.
Man, you should have seen the place.
Trashed five ways to shit.
And them just standing there, smirking,
you know the way them rich, privilege white boys does do?
Mm-hmm...
And they're pumping out their homophobic, anti-man nonsense.
Mi just cyan take it.
So, I just fess up, fess up and tell him.
"Fi true man, I am a ***."
- You said that? - Shouted it.
In front-a Daniel?
- Lawd, Barry. - Hm...
You don't wanna end up like me Barry.
Mm-mm... Broke.
No access to yuh children or your grandchildren.
Like I said, I wasn't thinking.
But subsequently I been thinking about George
and Justin and everything you said about them.
How they didn't run, you know?
After they were outted.
How they took control of their own narrative and their own destiny.
So, yuh see me.
I am unashamed.
Are you sayin' what I think yuh sayin'?
It's not enough that I divorce Carmel.
Before somebody else can, I have to tell her the truth.
Have to tell her my truth. Not so?
Mm...
Carmel, that was amazing, amazing, fantastic, fantastic...
No need to be scared over there...
That was sensational. I mean truly, sensational.
Thank you, I was so nervous.
Oh, it felt so good.
Can I get you another drink?
Same again.
- Oh, can I get you..? - Oh, it's alright, thanks.
Alright.
Um-hm. There she is.
The Carmelita I remember.
Odette!
I can't thank you enough.
No need.
Just promise mi you'll allow her to continue to grow radiant
and strong before letting anybody else
pluck her again for them garden.
Need I remind you, I'm a married woman.
Happily?
It's complicated.
Listen, Carm!
There's no easy way to say this...
but there's something I need to tell you...
What?
It's about yuh husband!
Arghhhhhhh!
Carmel, I know you've not been happy for a long time now.
And that we...
have both been lonely...
in this antiquated union.
For which we once foolishly...
pledged to honour, love and obey...
one another till death us do part...
So rather than waste any more of...
our days. I...
freely admit finally that I have...
transgressed on all three.
'Cause you see, Carmel. I'm...
I'm... I...