1 00:01:35,640 --> 00:01:39,200 What does the word 'home' mean to you? 2 00:01:41,720 --> 00:01:44,200 Home? 3 00:01:46,360 --> 00:01:50,840 It's someplace safe. 4 00:01:55,360 --> 00:01:57,480 Somewhere 5 00:01:59,400 --> 00:02:04,200 you know you can stay, and you don't have to move on. 6 00:02:05,680 --> 00:02:09,320 It's not someplace temporary. 7 00:02:40,360 --> 00:02:43,880 Scoot up a bit, just a little. 8 00:02:45,240 --> 00:02:48,960 A bit down again. Like that. Perfect. 9 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:51,800 I also have to do this. 10 00:02:54,960 --> 00:02:58,680 So if you close your eyes... - Okay. 11 00:02:58,800 --> 00:03:03,720 And try to take a deep breath. Just relax completely. 12 00:03:13,640 --> 00:03:16,720 Have you ever told your story before? 13 00:03:17,840 --> 00:03:19,160 No. 14 00:03:20,240 --> 00:03:24,000 But you're okay with telling me? 15 00:03:24,120 --> 00:03:26,160 Yes. 16 00:03:27,120 --> 00:03:29,600 Then I think that 17 00:03:29,720 --> 00:03:34,320 you don't have to tell me yet. Just think back to your earliest memory. 18 00:03:34,440 --> 00:03:37,720 What's the earliest thing you remember? 19 00:03:54,840 --> 00:03:57,760 I'm three or four years old. 20 00:04:00,520 --> 00:04:03,200 Hey! Watch out! 21 00:04:04,320 --> 00:04:08,520 Where are you? - We're in Afghanistan, in Kabul. 22 00:04:29,880 --> 00:04:32,880 Can you describe yourself? 23 00:04:33,000 --> 00:04:36,400 I think I always had a tendency 24 00:04:36,520 --> 00:04:41,640 to be a little different. Let's just put it like that. 25 00:04:45,520 --> 00:04:48,840 I wasn't afraid of wearing my sister's dresses 26 00:04:48,960 --> 00:04:51,680 my youngest sister's nightgown. 27 00:04:51,800 --> 00:04:54,120 I liked the attention. 28 00:05:07,240 --> 00:05:10,320 Where are you in Kabul? 29 00:05:11,320 --> 00:05:14,640 In the house where I was born. 30 00:05:17,760 --> 00:05:18,480 Saif. 31 00:05:18,520 --> 00:05:19,880 Take him inside. 32 00:05:19,880 --> 00:05:21,440 Where are your parents? - Come with me. 33 00:05:21,560 --> 00:05:25,600 My mom is inside. I can hear her. 34 00:05:25,720 --> 00:05:28,280 I just know she is. 35 00:05:35,520 --> 00:05:39,720 There you go, sweetie. That should do the trick. 36 00:05:39,840 --> 00:05:44,520 At night, I put my head on her lap, and she strokes my hair. 37 00:05:44,640 --> 00:05:47,000 No one can do it like her. 38 00:05:48,560 --> 00:05:51,200 When I look at my mother, I wish I could 39 00:05:51,240 --> 00:05:54,280 see what she looked like when she was young. 40 00:05:54,400 --> 00:05:58,120 I've seen photos of her with dark black hair, 41 00:05:58,240 --> 00:06:02,440 but I only remember her with grey. 42 00:06:02,560 --> 00:06:07,080 Go back and play. Dinner will be ready in an hour. 43 00:06:14,800 --> 00:06:19,200 Dad took me by the hand, and we walked the airstrip together. 44 00:06:19,320 --> 00:06:22,080 He lifted me up and put me in the cockpit. 45 00:06:22,200 --> 00:06:24,800 It didn't have a steering wheel. It was 46 00:06:24,800 --> 00:06:27,360 like a joystick, with buttons everywhere. 47 00:06:27,480 --> 00:06:30,440 My sister is telling us stories about my father. 48 00:06:30,560 --> 00:06:33,920 and then we took off! He said: 49 00:06:34,040 --> 00:06:38,120 "It's important that you don't touch any buttons. 50 00:06:38,240 --> 00:06:42,840 "If you hit the wrong one, it'll go kaboom!" 51 00:06:42,960 --> 00:06:46,280 Then we flew off, into the clouds 52 00:06:46,400 --> 00:06:49,880 and we could see to the end of the world! 53 00:06:50,000 --> 00:06:52,480 It was amazing! 54 00:06:54,640 --> 00:06:59,080 Lots of it is true, but she makes a lot up too. 55 00:06:59,200 --> 00:07:01,840 My brother and I are completely 56 00:07:01,840 --> 00:07:04,440 in awe of what she is telling us. 57 00:07:04,560 --> 00:07:07,080 He said that as long as he was there, 58 00:07:07,080 --> 00:07:09,360 nothing would ever happen to me. 59 00:07:09,480 --> 00:07:13,320 I remember feeling jealous. 60 00:07:13,440 --> 00:07:15,880 Why were you jealous? 61 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:20,080 Because she is telling us about all these great things 62 00:07:20,200 --> 00:07:23,720 that my brother and I never got to experience 63 00:07:23,840 --> 00:07:26,600 being together with our father. 64 00:07:26,720 --> 00:07:30,680 Where is your father? 65 00:07:33,520 --> 00:07:37,640 Can we just talk before we start? - Yes, of course. 66 00:07:39,360 --> 00:07:45,280 Some things are hard to talk about. It's still tough, 67 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:48,880 but I need to come to terms with them. 68 00:07:49,000 --> 00:07:53,240 It's my past, I can't run away from it, and I don't want to. 69 00:07:53,360 --> 00:07:59,480 I might be ready in half a year, a year. 70 00:07:59,600 --> 00:08:03,640 Of course. We'll take it at your pace. 71 00:08:03,760 --> 00:08:07,840 I'm just glad that you are finally ready to tell your story. 72 00:08:09,200 --> 00:08:13,960 I remember back in high school, I had no clue. 73 00:08:14,080 --> 00:08:16,520 There were so many stories going around, like: 74 00:08:16,640 --> 00:08:21,040 "Did you hear he walked all the way from Afghanistan?" 75 00:08:21,160 --> 00:08:24,760 Good one! - I didn't know what to believe. 76 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:27,120 There were stories like that. 77 00:08:27,240 --> 00:08:29,160 Wow! 78 00:08:31,080 --> 00:08:33,760 I remember the first time I saw you. 79 00:08:33,880 --> 00:08:36,840 There weren't a lot immigrants back then. 80 00:08:36,960 --> 00:08:42,200 You were wearing a black and white checkered shirt. Remember? 81 00:08:42,320 --> 00:08:44,960 Yes, I do. 82 00:08:45,080 --> 00:08:47,520 And Buffalo shoes. - That's me. 83 00:08:47,640 --> 00:08:49,840 I thought, "He's cool." - Fearless. 84 00:08:49,960 --> 00:08:53,000 You kept staring straight ahead, like 85 00:08:53,000 --> 00:08:56,520 you were trying not to attract attention. 86 00:08:56,640 --> 00:08:59,680 I don't think you noticed me. I was 87 00:08:59,720 --> 00:09:03,200 surprised we got off at the same stop. - Okay. 88 00:09:08,320 --> 00:09:14,800 Look, I think it's from our Junior year? - Yes, it's Junior prom. 89 00:09:14,920 --> 00:09:20,440 Check out those fancy shoes! Everything was tip top. 90 00:09:20,760 --> 00:09:21,280 Yes. 91 00:09:25,880 --> 00:09:27,240 Here it is. 92 00:09:28,680 --> 00:09:33,400 This is where my story begins. 93 00:09:33,440 --> 00:09:34,680 Okay. 94 00:09:34,680 --> 00:09:39,040 I wrote it all down, when I got to Denmark. 95 00:09:39,160 --> 00:09:41,760 Can you try to read it? 96 00:09:41,880 --> 00:09:48,800 It'll be hard. I'm not that good at reading Dari anymore. 97 00:09:52,280 --> 00:09:57,120 'The Mujahideen seized power in Afghanistan...' 98 00:09:58,720 --> 00:10:02,240 I can't even read my own handwriting. It's very difficult. 99 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:09,000 'After the Mujahideen... Mujahideen...' 100 00:10:10,120 --> 00:10:12,840 'The Mujahideen seized power 101 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:14,280 in Afghanistan' 102 00:10:15,680 --> 00:10:18,920 They killed my father, 103 00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:21,960 kidnapped my sister, 104 00:10:22,080 --> 00:10:25,200 and killed my mother and brother. 105 00:10:25,400 --> 00:10:33,280 If I had stayed, they would likely have killed me too. 106 00:10:36,480 --> 00:10:39,480 It was pretty intense. 107 00:10:42,160 --> 00:10:46,960 Have you told Kasper any of these stories? 108 00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:48,160 No. 109 00:10:54,840 --> 00:10:59,040 Kasper, I'm going to start filming. - Okay. 110 00:10:59,960 --> 00:11:00,960 Honey... 111 00:11:03,320 --> 00:11:05,440 See if it needs more salt. 112 00:11:05,560 --> 00:11:08,280 When are you getting married? 113 00:11:09,920 --> 00:11:13,000 When we find a place to live. 114 00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:16,360 First of all, I want you to come home. 115 00:11:16,480 --> 00:11:19,760 Secondly, I want a place where we can have a party. 116 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:25,800 If we need to wait till we can have a party, it'll take a while. 117 00:11:26,680 --> 00:11:29,600 Maybe I'll just go buy us 118 00:11:29,640 --> 00:11:32,520 a house while you're away. 119 00:11:33,560 --> 00:11:35,280 You'll just have to deal with it then. 120 00:11:38,880 --> 00:11:39,720 Sorry. 121 00:11:40,600 --> 00:11:45,840 When do you leave tomorrow? - I have to be at the airport at 10. 122 00:11:45,960 --> 00:11:51,640 How long this time? - Till June. 123 00:11:51,760 --> 00:11:54,560 June? -I'll be back for a few months and then leave again. 124 00:11:54,680 --> 00:11:58,680 You leave again? - I think so. - Really? - Yes. 125 00:11:58,800 --> 00:12:01,040 Kasper has no idea. - Hmm. 126 00:12:03,000 --> 00:12:06,600 Where are you going? - Back to the US. 127 00:12:06,720 --> 00:12:10,520 Did you get an e-mail from your professor at Princeton? 128 00:12:10,640 --> 00:12:15,760 No, a letter. He wants me to do a post-doc. - I see. 129 00:12:15,800 --> 00:12:16,640 Yes. 130 00:12:16,640 --> 00:12:20,280 To continue your research? - Yes. 131 00:12:20,400 --> 00:12:23,680 What does Kasper say about that? 132 00:12:23,800 --> 00:12:29,560 We haven't really talked about it. 133 00:12:39,000 --> 00:12:44,200 Last time we spoke, we talked about your father. 134 00:12:44,320 --> 00:12:47,400 Are you up to talking more about that? 135 00:12:47,520 --> 00:12:50,200 Yes, it's just sad. 136 00:12:50,320 --> 00:12:54,080 If we're back in Kabul during your childhood, 137 00:12:54,200 --> 00:12:56,480 where is your father? 138 00:13:03,880 --> 00:13:06,280 We don't know. 139 00:13:06,400 --> 00:13:11,840 He was taken away. - Why? 140 00:13:15,560 --> 00:13:20,600 Arise, you victims of oppression! 141 00:13:20,720 --> 00:13:24,760 Arise, you prisoners of want! 142 00:13:26,160 --> 00:13:31,320 Because the Afghan government saw him as a threat 143 00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:34,040 to communist rule, 144 00:13:34,160 --> 00:13:39,720 after they overthrew the monarchy in the late '70s 145 00:13:39,840 --> 00:13:42,320 in 1979. 146 00:13:49,000 --> 00:13:55,800 They rounded up about 3,000 people, including my father. 147 00:13:56,720 --> 00:14:01,520 My mother told me about the day he was picked up. 148 00:14:01,640 --> 00:14:04,640 She said that he expected it. 149 00:14:05,760 --> 00:14:08,360 Akhtar Nawabi? - Yes? That's me. 150 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:11,040 We have orders to bring you in. 151 00:14:12,000 --> 00:14:15,600 Wait here. I'll get my coat. 152 00:14:15,720 --> 00:14:17,840 Okay, but hurry up! 153 00:14:19,840 --> 00:14:22,360 They've come for me. 154 00:14:25,040 --> 00:14:27,760 You should keep this 155 00:14:30,840 --> 00:14:33,160 just in case. 156 00:14:34,760 --> 00:14:38,600 I'm not a threat to anyone. I'll be back soon. 157 00:14:41,280 --> 00:14:44,520 Then he was put in jail. 158 00:14:44,560 --> 00:14:46,560 Please take care of yourself. 159 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:51,480 My mom told me that the family was able to visit him quite often, 160 00:14:51,600 --> 00:14:54,840 but three months later, he disappeared 161 00:14:56,080 --> 00:14:58,120 just like that. 162 00:15:22,960 --> 00:15:25,520 Amin, listen. You need to keep it high 163 00:15:25,520 --> 00:15:28,600 and make sure the string is taut. 164 00:15:28,720 --> 00:15:33,120 I spend a lot of time with my brother. - Exactly like that. 165 00:15:33,240 --> 00:15:35,800 Keep it taut. - He's a real boy, the kind who gets his 166 00:15:35,840 --> 00:15:38,880 hands dirty. He breeds pigeons on our roof. 167 00:15:40,240 --> 00:15:44,720 Hold it tight! Be careful, Amin! Give it to me! Give it to me! 168 00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:49,400 Sorry. 169 00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:57,080 I have 69 cards. How many do you have? - 52. 170 00:15:57,200 --> 00:16:01,560 How about I trade you Vivek Mushran for Anil Kapoor? 171 00:16:02,360 --> 00:16:04,680 No. - Please, Sabia. 172 00:16:04,800 --> 00:16:10,440 I said no. I'm not interested. - But you have two Anil Kapoors! 173 00:16:10,560 --> 00:16:13,840 I'll give you Vivek Mushran and Mamik Singh for him. 174 00:16:13,960 --> 00:16:16,120 I don't need either of them, and it's 175 00:16:16,120 --> 00:16:18,120 always nice to have a spare Anil. 176 00:16:18,240 --> 00:16:21,720 Look at him! He's so handsome. 177 00:16:22,800 --> 00:16:25,240 Ugh! You really piss me off! 178 00:16:25,360 --> 00:16:29,320 How do you want it? - I don't care. 179 00:16:29,440 --> 00:16:33,160 Actually, I'm not in the mood for this. 180 00:16:53,880 --> 00:16:57,000 When did you first realize that you were gay? 181 00:16:57,120 --> 00:16:59,920 I wasn't very old. 182 00:17:00,040 --> 00:17:02,880 I think I've had fantasies about men 183 00:17:02,920 --> 00:17:06,160 ever since I was five or six years old. 184 00:17:06,280 --> 00:17:09,840 I remember one of them very clearly. 185 00:17:10,800 --> 00:17:15,000 I was enamored with Jean-Claude Van Damme. 186 00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:19,440 Seriously. I fantasized about him. 187 00:17:19,560 --> 00:17:24,200 I also liked Jean-Claude Van Damme, but for different reasons. 188 00:17:25,720 --> 00:17:30,720 Yeah, I'm pretty sure the way I "liked" him was different. 189 00:17:33,040 --> 00:17:35,520 Yeah, well, I 190 00:17:35,640 --> 00:17:42,080 I kind of knew all along that I was into men, 191 00:17:42,200 --> 00:17:45,760 without actually knowing what it meant. 192 00:17:49,600 --> 00:17:52,800 In Afghanistan, homosexuals didn't exist. 193 00:17:52,800 --> 00:17:56,840 There wasn't even a word for them. 194 00:17:56,960 --> 00:18:02,800 They brought shame on the family, 195 00:18:02,920 --> 00:18:06,720 so it was hard to accept being gay. 196 00:18:24,680 --> 00:18:26,320 We play volleyball everyday. 197 00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:27,800 Come on! 198 00:18:27,920 --> 00:18:32,160 My brother and I we're quite the team. 199 00:18:32,280 --> 00:18:36,920 My brother is very tall and great at spiking. 200 00:18:38,240 --> 00:18:40,400 Focus! 201 00:18:45,600 --> 00:18:49,640 These days, terrorists are receiving 202 00:18:49,760 --> 00:18:57,720 brand-new, long-range missiles from the US government. 203 00:18:57,840 --> 00:19:00,640 The US wants a Vietnam War for the USSR 204 00:19:00,680 --> 00:19:03,280 in Afghanistan, but I'm telling you 205 00:19:03,400 --> 00:19:07,640 that when the US supplies the terrorists with aid 206 00:19:08,360 --> 00:19:11,120 no one can save Afghanistan 207 00:19:11,760 --> 00:19:13,760 from getting destroyed. 208 00:19:13,880 --> 00:19:18,240 Afghanistan could well become a second Vietnam for the US instead! 209 00:19:18,880 --> 00:19:21,880 The civil war began when my father was taken away. 210 00:19:21,880 --> 00:19:24,880 They fought the Mujahideen. 211 00:19:25,000 --> 00:19:29,280 The war isn't fought in Kabul proper, 212 00:19:29,400 --> 00:19:33,720 so we don't notice it too much. 213 00:19:34,560 --> 00:19:39,440 The only reason I notice it is because of my brother. 214 00:19:39,560 --> 00:19:42,000 He's a growing teenage boy. 215 00:19:42,120 --> 00:19:46,520 He doesn't want to join the army, but he has to. 216 00:19:52,360 --> 00:19:54,360 Let's see who we find here. 217 00:19:56,080 --> 00:19:57,480 You've played enough. 218 00:19:57,840 --> 00:19:59,000 Come with us. 219 00:19:59,440 --> 00:20:00,680 Saif! - Take him along. 220 00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:02,520 Run! 221 00:20:02,920 --> 00:20:06,160 The police are coming! - Stop! - Run! Come on! 222 00:20:06,280 --> 00:20:08,080 Run! Don't let them seize you. 223 00:20:19,640 --> 00:20:21,000 Saif! 224 00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:27,240 Saif! 225 00:20:31,160 --> 00:20:32,680 Saif! 226 00:20:36,800 --> 00:20:38,120 Saif! 227 00:20:40,800 --> 00:20:41,800 Mom! 228 00:20:42,480 --> 00:20:46,600 Mom! Mom, they're here. They caught him! 229 00:20:48,760 --> 00:20:55,000 You can't stay here. You need to hide. Run over to Uncle Mahdi! Go! 230 00:20:55,120 --> 00:20:59,360 Come back when it's dark. Be careful! Hurry up. 231 00:21:00,080 --> 00:21:05,840 My brother is always on the run. He isn't the only one either. 232 00:21:05,960 --> 00:21:09,600 Thousands of Afghan boys don't want to go to war, 233 00:21:09,720 --> 00:21:14,320 and with good reason. Most of them don't return. 234 00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:16,320 They die. 235 00:21:17,040 --> 00:21:22,880 Oh my country, you suffer, because you were betrayed. 236 00:21:23,000 --> 00:21:29,400 Oh my country, you've lost your melody, your voice. 237 00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:34,640 Oh my country, you are in pain, and there is no cure. 238 00:21:34,760 --> 00:21:37,840 Oh my country 239 00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:40,080 Mujahedeen attacks are on the rise 240 00:21:40,080 --> 00:21:42,520 in Kabul after the Soviet withdrawal. 241 00:21:42,640 --> 00:21:45,600 Yesterday, seven people were killed near Kabul Airport. 242 00:21:45,720 --> 00:21:51,480 The last of the American embassy personnel flew out of Kabul today 243 00:21:51,600 --> 00:21:53,840 and went to India. Most other Western 244 00:21:53,880 --> 00:21:56,120 embassies are either closed or closing. 245 00:21:56,240 --> 00:21:59,080 The conventional wisdom is that when 246 00:21:59,080 --> 00:22:02,400 the Soviets have completely withdrawn 247 00:22:02,520 --> 00:22:04,880 the Afghans will set on one another, 248 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:09,120 and the capital will be even more dangerous than it is now. 249 00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:19,320 The Soviet transport circles downward, firing magnesium flares 250 00:22:19,440 --> 00:22:22,200 to divert any heat-seeking missiles. 251 00:22:22,320 --> 00:22:25,280 The American-armed Mujahideen guerrillas 252 00:22:25,320 --> 00:22:28,200 are in the mountains around the city. 253 00:22:28,320 --> 00:22:30,720 We know the Afghan army isn't strong 254 00:22:30,720 --> 00:22:32,920 enough to fend off the Taliban, 255 00:22:33,040 --> 00:22:37,120 so it's just a matter of time before they invade Kabul. 256 00:22:37,240 --> 00:22:41,000 We know they will seek revenge against 257 00:22:41,000 --> 00:22:44,760 people they consider "non-believers." 258 00:22:46,920 --> 00:22:48,200 Amin! 259 00:22:48,720 --> 00:22:51,520 We need to get out right away. 260 00:22:51,640 --> 00:22:55,680 We pack a few things, but we don't have time to sell anything. 261 00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:10,480 Amin, come on. 262 00:23:19,680 --> 00:23:25,560 So you barely made it out? - Yes, at the very last minute. 263 00:24:05,040 --> 00:24:10,280 I cry all the way to the airport and then, on the plane. 264 00:24:11,040 --> 00:24:12,640 I cried a lot. 265 00:25:16,080 --> 00:25:18,480 We fled to Moscow. 266 00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:24,040 Russia was the only country that would grant us a tourist visa. 267 00:25:26,240 --> 00:25:30,320 Russia was such a strange place to be at the time. 268 00:25:33,640 --> 00:25:37,000 We arrive a year after the fall of communism. 269 00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:45,360 People are starving, and the supermarkets are empty. 270 00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:52,760 The ruble keeps devaluating, and they keep printing new notes. 271 00:25:54,920 --> 00:26:00,280 There's a lot of crime, and you can't trust the police. 272 00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:25,760 Mother. Finally! - Abbas! My son! 273 00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:30,560 My big brother, who lives in Sweden, meet us in Moscow when we arrive. 274 00:26:30,600 --> 00:26:31,680 We haven't met in a long time. 275 00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:35,080 He rented an apartment for us. 276 00:26:35,560 --> 00:26:38,200 Oh, my God! Amin, you've grown! 277 00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:45,040 He fled in the '80s, because he didn't want to go to war. 278 00:26:45,080 --> 00:26:47,080 The game has taken an interesting twist. 279 00:26:47,280 --> 00:26:49,280 The home team gets... 280 00:26:53,360 --> 00:26:55,400 Go back! 281 00:26:59,080 --> 00:27:01,000 Oh! -Wow! 282 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:06,480 We need to get them to Sweden as quickly as possible, 283 00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:11,080 so that they can start school. If we wait, they'll be too old. 284 00:27:11,200 --> 00:27:14,560 I know. What about you, sweetheart? Is Sweden treating you well? 285 00:27:14,680 --> 00:27:18,800 Yes. Cleaning doesn't pay well, but it's all right. 286 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:23,640 ¤4,600 dollars is all I could put together. 287 00:27:24,200 --> 00:27:26,680 I'll get you more when I can. 288 00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:28,080 Thank you. 289 00:27:28,360 --> 00:27:30,520 When do you have to go back? 290 00:27:30,960 --> 00:27:33,800 Tomorrow. I only have two days off. 291 00:27:38,880 --> 00:27:40,880 Come here, you two! 292 00:27:44,520 --> 00:27:49,520 I bet it's boring hanging out with mom and our sisters all the time. 293 00:27:49,640 --> 00:27:53,240 I'll make real men out of you, when you get to Sweden. 294 00:27:53,360 --> 00:27:57,920 Just you wait! The girls in Sweden are beautiful! 295 00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:07,240 What's the plan? - Getting out of Russia. 296 00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:13,800 It costs a lot of money to get smuggled to Sweden. 297 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:16,120 By traffickers? 298 00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:20,400 Yes, human traffickers. It's the cheapest way. 299 00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:26,200 You can get to Sweden for ¤3,000. 300 00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:29,480 It's ¤15-20,000 for all of us. 301 00:28:30,680 --> 00:28:34,040 My big brother is under enormous pressure because of it. 302 00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:36,960 He doesn't make a lot of money. 303 00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:43,080 Stop! Papers, please! 304 00:28:45,040 --> 00:28:46,840 Papers! 305 00:28:47,720 --> 00:28:49,840 Stay there. 306 00:28:58,840 --> 00:29:02,240 Your visa is expired. 307 00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:14,680 Thank you. 308 00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:16,680 Go on. 309 00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:21,080 Beat it! 310 00:29:24,560 --> 00:29:27,760 We couldn't move about the city freely, 311 00:29:28,320 --> 00:29:32,040 because we didn't have the right papers, 312 00:29:32,120 --> 00:29:34,800 so we stayed in Russia illegally. 313 00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:42,360 I ran away from the police whenever I saw them on the street. 314 00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:56,280 So, I'd sit at home all day, watching Mexican soap operas. 315 00:29:56,360 --> 00:29:59,360 The whole family did. It was the highlight of our day. 316 00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:02,920 Let me help you with that suitcase. - Oh, thank you! 317 00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:05,720 Is this your first time in Mexico City? 318 00:30:06,000 --> 00:30:08,560 Yes! I've never seen anything like it. 319 00:30:08,920 --> 00:30:12,200 And so we sit there for a year. 320 00:30:12,640 --> 00:30:16,120 We just sit there, waiting to leave. 321 00:30:18,480 --> 00:30:23,160 It's really hard for my brother to put together all that money. 322 00:30:23,280 --> 00:30:28,680 Then, there is only enough to send my sisters. 323 00:30:32,560 --> 00:30:36,480 Call me as soon as you get there. 324 00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:39,160 Yes. Of course. 325 00:30:40,720 --> 00:30:41,840 See you soon. 326 00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:47,240 We're not told much about the journey. 327 00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:52,360 Often, the traffickers don't know themselves. 328 00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:59,640 Then we just wait for the call from Sweden, 329 00:30:59,880 --> 00:31:04,840 hoping it's them, saying they're safe. 330 00:31:07,280 --> 00:31:12,840 Those traffickers are such bastards! 331 00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:14,920 I... 332 00:31:15,320 --> 00:31:18,520 I think they're a bunch of psychopaths. 333 00:31:18,880 --> 00:31:20,400 Get in! 334 00:31:25,640 --> 00:31:28,200 You two! Get in! 335 00:31:28,480 --> 00:31:31,360 They are put inside a freight 336 00:31:31,800 --> 00:31:35,480 container, with lots of other people. 337 00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:38,920 It's a bit warm in here 338 00:31:46,120 --> 00:31:51,720 Then it's loaded onto a huge cargo ship, 339 00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:55,960 and surrounded by other containers, 340 00:31:56,200 --> 00:31:58,880 blocking it, so they can't get out. 341 00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:42,240 This city is so hot. 342 00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:44,280 I was better off in my village. 343 00:32:44,320 --> 00:32:45,760 I've gotten stuck here. 344 00:32:45,800 --> 00:32:47,880 Had I not needed money, I'd have left long back... 345 00:32:47,880 --> 00:32:50,800 My older brother called. 346 00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:55,800 It was... I mean, it was... 347 00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:01,400 Everything seemed normal 348 00:33:01,520 --> 00:33:03,320 as the MS Estonia arrived in 349 00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:05,560 Stockholm from Talinn this morning. 350 00:33:05,680 --> 00:33:10,200 The 1,100 passengers were unaware of the drama happening below deck. 351 00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:17,480 This is incredibly inhumane. It's human trafficking at its worst. 352 00:33:17,600 --> 00:33:25,040 Confined in a trailer were 64 refugees, fighting to get out. 353 00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:28,360 It's unclear how long they'd been inside. 354 00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:34,160 Of the 64, 26 were children, the youngest just 8 months old. 355 00:33:44,920 --> 00:33:49,680 They nearly died on the way. 356 00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:53,520 They're not well. 357 00:33:54,120 --> 00:33:58,520 I think it's mainly the shock, but they aren't saying much. 358 00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:04,720 I know someone, who can take a look at them. 359 00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:07,960 You don't worry. 360 00:34:12,520 --> 00:34:15,880 I just need to get one thing straight: 361 00:34:15,920 --> 00:34:19,000 Your two sisters survived, right? 362 00:34:19,120 --> 00:34:21,720 Yes. - They're not dead? 363 00:34:21,840 --> 00:34:25,600 And you have an older brother, and they all live in Sweden. 364 00:34:25,720 --> 00:34:27,360 Yeah. 365 00:34:27,480 --> 00:34:32,080 Because I thought your whole family was dead. 366 00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:35,040 Yeah. - And they're not. 367 00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:39,040 No. 368 00:34:39,400 --> 00:34:42,640 That's fantastic! It's really great to hear that. 369 00:34:43,360 --> 00:34:48,720 But in all these years, you never told anyone about your family? 370 00:34:50,240 --> 00:34:54,880 I think it was only after I started university 371 00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:59,000 that I began to open up a bit 372 00:35:02,480 --> 00:35:06,120 to an ex-boyfriend. But that didn't go so well. 373 00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:11,160 I told him a little about my family. 374 00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:16,560 At first he seemed 375 00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:18,640 very understanding, 376 00:35:18,760 --> 00:35:24,040 but when we had a big argument, he used it against me. 377 00:35:24,160 --> 00:35:28,320 He said he would call the police and inform them 378 00:35:28,440 --> 00:35:33,640 that my asylum was based on a lie. 379 00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:40,880 Even after I broke up with him, I was terrified of it for years. 380 00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:08,640 I think it's a great house. 381 00:36:10,000 --> 00:36:12,840 It's nice. -How do you like the house? 382 00:36:12,840 --> 00:36:15,560 The property is pretty big. - It's enormous! 383 00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:19,760 Is that also part of the property? - Yes, all the way to the road. 384 00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:24,760 It has a lot of potential. - There's a cat! 385 00:36:24,880 --> 00:36:26,000 It walks around like it owns the place. -You won't have any problem. 386 00:36:26,000 --> 00:36:28,400 If we bring our cat, 387 00:36:28,440 --> 00:36:30,560 they'll have a big fight. 388 00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:32,040 Right? 389 00:36:32,080 --> 00:36:34,080 I'm right here to manage the rest. 390 00:36:34,840 --> 00:36:38,040 Try calling it. - What do you say in Danish? 391 00:36:38,080 --> 00:36:41,560 Here, kitty, kitty! Come here. 392 00:36:41,760 --> 00:36:43,640 It's flirting. 393 00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:48,840 Honey, look at all those hazelnut trees! 394 00:36:48,880 --> 00:36:51,840 I think they're hazelnut. - Come. 395 00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:55,760 Are they hazelnut? - Yes. 396 00:36:55,840 --> 00:36:58,560 He's so cute. 397 00:36:58,560 --> 00:37:01,440 They're hazelnut, right? - Come. 398 00:37:03,120 --> 00:37:07,120 I'm not sure. They're not hazelnut. They just look like it. 399 00:37:07,400 --> 00:37:09,120 Okay. Relax. 400 00:37:14,040 --> 00:37:17,320 You really get into the summer mood with the heat and 401 00:37:17,440 --> 00:37:20,680 But can you see yourself living there? -Yes, I can. 402 00:37:20,800 --> 00:37:22,920 Really? -Yes. 403 00:37:24,360 --> 00:37:27,840 What do you think? 404 00:37:30,360 --> 00:37:33,480 Would you be able to live there, babe? 405 00:37:33,520 --> 00:37:36,640 I don't want to be out there by myself. 406 00:37:36,760 --> 00:37:41,720 Yes, of course. - So you won't 407 00:37:42,640 --> 00:37:46,240 suddenly have all sorts of commitments all the time. 408 00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:53,680 The narrow roads and big fields... They... 409 00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:59,560 remind me of my time at the asylum center. 410 00:38:01,200 --> 00:38:05,760 I'm scared of feeling depressed out there. 411 00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:15,280 You'll never be a part of this family. 412 00:38:15,320 --> 00:38:17,680 Leave! I never want to see you again! 413 00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:21,120 But I'm carrying our child! You can't just throw me out! 414 00:38:22,040 --> 00:38:24,240 I sure can! Get out of my house. 415 00:38:25,880 --> 00:38:27,400 Go! 416 00:38:27,920 --> 00:38:29,920 Don't you dare come back. -Don't do this... 417 00:38:30,360 --> 00:38:32,360 Police! 418 00:38:33,080 --> 00:38:39,320 We heard a noise. Open the door! We just want to talk to you. 419 00:38:39,360 --> 00:38:42,200 We need to see your papers! Open the door. 420 00:38:42,480 --> 00:38:43,960 Fuck! I hate them. 421 00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:47,040 They're the worst people in the world. 422 00:38:47,160 --> 00:38:50,720 They stank of vodka. It was so disgusting. 423 00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:53,680 We know you're in there! Open up! 424 00:38:54,080 --> 00:38:56,680 The nastiest people imaginable! 425 00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:59,440 Even worse than the traffickers! 426 00:38:59,560 --> 00:39:02,120 We have all day. 427 00:39:05,640 --> 00:39:11,400 I don't remember the day we fled, or how we got out from Russia... 428 00:39:11,720 --> 00:39:13,440 I... 429 00:39:13,800 --> 00:39:15,840 I don't remember. 430 00:39:19,360 --> 00:39:21,480 We drove for hours. 431 00:39:21,520 --> 00:39:26,960 Now I remember. We are in a big truck, 432 00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:31,800 which normally carried wood. They drive us. 433 00:39:33,840 --> 00:39:38,160 We're dropped off in a forest and have to sit there and wait. 434 00:39:38,200 --> 00:39:43,480 It's really cold, and we aren't dressed warmly enough. 435 00:39:51,440 --> 00:39:52,920 Get in. Get in here. 436 00:39:56,720 --> 00:39:58,200 Come this way. 437 00:40:08,080 --> 00:40:13,080 There are two things I'll never forget about that night. 438 00:40:17,720 --> 00:40:20,320 Come on, Mother, We need to keep up. 439 00:40:20,480 --> 00:40:22,480 I wonder how long we have to walk. 440 00:40:24,800 --> 00:40:27,560 Keep moving. No talking. Faster! 441 00:40:29,560 --> 00:40:31,520 Wait! 442 00:40:33,440 --> 00:40:34,480 Stop. 443 00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:46,680 You there! Keep moving. Go on! 444 00:41:21,320 --> 00:41:23,320 We've been walking since long. How much more time to reach? 445 00:41:24,320 --> 00:41:26,320 Yes. It's taking too long. 446 00:41:26,520 --> 00:41:28,520 What do we do? - Don't know... 447 00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:33,440 I don't understand anything. -I wonder where they're taking us. 448 00:41:34,760 --> 00:41:36,200 He needs other shoes. - We don't have any. 449 00:41:36,320 --> 00:41:38,320 Are you kidding? You know we're 450 00:41:38,360 --> 00:41:39,680 sneaking across the border, don't you? 451 00:41:39,800 --> 00:41:41,480 It's so cold. How will he walk bare-feet? 452 00:41:41,600 --> 00:41:43,400 Take them off! -What do you want me to do? 453 00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:47,080 He can't just take his shoes off! - If you don't do it, I will! 454 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:51,480 What's going on? You can't stop. You have to keep walking. Move! 455 00:41:51,600 --> 00:41:54,920 If you stop one more time, I'll shoot you. 456 00:41:56,160 --> 00:41:58,160 Come. Come here. Please spare him. 457 00:41:58,200 --> 00:42:00,200 Let go of him. Let him go. 458 00:42:00,520 --> 00:42:03,200 No! Stop! I'll carry him. 459 00:42:03,560 --> 00:42:05,960 I'll carry him. 460 00:42:06,000 --> 00:42:09,800 We won't wait for you. Go! 461 00:42:09,840 --> 00:42:11,160 Thank you so much. 462 00:42:11,160 --> 00:42:16,840 You have to stay there, sweetie. He's helping us. 463 00:42:16,960 --> 00:42:18,800 He is so kind. 464 00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:28,880 Wait! Come help us! 465 00:42:28,880 --> 00:42:30,880 What's the problem now? 466 00:42:33,080 --> 00:42:35,840 I warned to leave them behind. 467 00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:41,920 She's holding us up. - Why not shoot her in the head? 468 00:42:41,920 --> 00:42:43,920 And you too... 469 00:42:45,960 --> 00:42:48,800 "We'll shoot her in the head and 470 00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:51,640 leave her here." So cold-blooded. 471 00:42:51,760 --> 00:42:55,360 I'll do it. It's easy. 472 00:42:55,480 --> 00:42:59,480 No, I'll make sure she keeps up. We'll hurry. 473 00:43:00,960 --> 00:43:05,160 I think he said that to her son. 474 00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:12,680 What are you doing? 475 00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:16,000 My mother was also old. 476 00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:19,920 It's very cold... 477 00:43:19,960 --> 00:43:21,960 How to stand... The child will... 478 00:43:23,240 --> 00:43:28,120 That woman... It's good she didn't understand Russian. 479 00:43:47,440 --> 00:43:51,960 They got this boat to take us to Sweden. 480 00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:55,520 across the Baltic Sea to Sweden. 481 00:43:56,760 --> 00:44:00,560 I know it was almost impossible. 482 00:44:00,840 --> 00:44:04,640 My mother is terrified of water. 483 00:44:04,840 --> 00:44:07,640 Are we all getting on this boat? - I guess. 484 00:44:07,960 --> 00:44:11,320 But there's not enough room? - There has to be. 485 00:44:12,280 --> 00:44:16,480 We'll never convince Mom to get in that. 486 00:44:16,680 --> 00:44:19,760 She has to. She can't stay here. 487 00:44:24,840 --> 00:44:32,680 You need to stay below deck, so the coast guard won't see you. 488 00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:37,680 We stripped the inside, so there's room down there. 489 00:44:38,800 --> 00:44:42,680 It will take two days to get to Sweden. Let's go! 490 00:44:42,720 --> 00:44:45,080 No No! 491 00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:47,120 Come on. -No. 492 00:44:52,040 --> 00:44:54,040 You too have... -Yes. 493 00:45:47,640 --> 00:45:52,560 We sail for a couple of hours I think. 494 00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:55,480 People start puking. 495 00:45:55,600 --> 00:46:00,600 It's bad, real bad. - When will we reach? 496 00:46:04,760 --> 00:46:06,760 I wonder... -Why is it shaking? 497 00:46:11,760 --> 00:46:13,760 Why is it... -Shh... 498 00:46:13,800 --> 00:46:15,800 I'm scared. -Can you hear us? 499 00:46:15,880 --> 00:46:20,640 Water! Water is getting in! Help! Help! 500 00:46:20,680 --> 00:46:23,720 Open up! - We'll drown. -Help! 501 00:46:23,760 --> 00:46:25,760 Please open this. -We'll drown. 502 00:46:26,760 --> 00:46:28,760 Water is accumulating. 503 00:46:28,760 --> 00:46:30,760 Water is getting in... -Help! 504 00:46:30,800 --> 00:46:32,800 Open. 505 00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:40,640 Somebody help! Help! 506 00:46:40,680 --> 00:46:42,680 It has started to rain. 507 00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:48,080 So you're bailing out water in the pouring rain. 508 00:46:49,840 --> 00:46:53,720 We need to keep bailing it out, because it keeps getting in. 509 00:46:53,760 --> 00:46:56,120 The boat doesn't even have a radio, 510 00:46:56,640 --> 00:47:01,320 so we can't call for help. 511 00:47:04,840 --> 00:47:07,120 No one knows how to swim either. -Bail the water out. Quick. 512 00:47:08,840 --> 00:47:11,600 I think it would have been easier if it was just me. -We can't swim. 513 00:47:12,120 --> 00:47:14,320 My mother was terrified. -I can't either. 514 00:47:15,440 --> 00:47:22,800 Whenever she talked about death, she always mentioned water. 515 00:47:22,960 --> 00:47:28,800 Dying in water, drowning, was her worst nightmare. 516 00:47:33,520 --> 00:47:37,680 What's going through your head? 517 00:47:39,040 --> 00:47:44,040 Who do I save first, if the boat goes down? 518 00:47:53,760 --> 00:47:55,760 Because you knew how to swim? 519 00:47:56,280 --> 00:47:57,600 No. 520 00:47:59,720 --> 00:48:03,240 I didn't really think about that. 521 00:48:06,520 --> 00:48:12,360 Maybe I thought I could. 522 00:48:12,600 --> 00:48:15,680 I have no clue. 523 00:48:16,800 --> 00:48:19,920 I was more concerned about who I would choose. 524 00:48:27,680 --> 00:48:30,080 A few days pass. 525 00:49:01,400 --> 00:49:03,400 Looks like it's a boat. It's a ship. 526 00:49:07,240 --> 00:49:09,240 We may survive. Someone has come to save us. 527 00:49:10,720 --> 00:49:12,720 Help us! 528 00:49:12,960 --> 00:49:17,240 Help! Over here! Stop! 529 00:49:19,920 --> 00:49:23,400 Over here! Help! 530 00:49:24,480 --> 00:49:26,080 Look at us. It's from Norway! 531 00:49:26,960 --> 00:49:28,960 Help us. 532 00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:33,160 Come. A boat has come to help us. 533 00:49:34,560 --> 00:49:36,560 Yes. They've come for us. We will survive. 534 00:49:36,560 --> 00:49:38,560 Nothing will happen to us. 535 00:49:40,080 --> 00:49:42,080 Help! 536 00:49:45,800 --> 00:49:51,320 I don't know why, but as I stand there, looking at that ship, 537 00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:55,520 I just can't feel the joy. -Did you see that? 538 00:49:55,560 --> 00:49:57,560 The ship has come to save us. 539 00:49:58,080 --> 00:50:00,080 I... -What's wrong? 540 00:50:00,080 --> 00:50:01,320 Help us. 541 00:50:01,600 --> 00:50:03,200 I'm embarrassed... 542 00:50:05,680 --> 00:50:07,680 Help us! 543 00:50:07,880 --> 00:50:14,040 Embarrassed and ashamed of our situation. -They are... 544 00:50:20,560 --> 00:50:22,560 Look at us. Here. 545 00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:27,880 People want to jump into the water and swim to the ship. -Save us. 546 00:50:28,000 --> 00:50:30,080 I mean 547 00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:35,440 They think that if they jump into the water and swim, 548 00:50:35,480 --> 00:50:38,720 the ship will pick them up. 549 00:50:39,040 --> 00:50:42,200 Everyone is so desperate 550 00:50:43,600 --> 00:50:47,480 It's a fantastic opportunity! 551 00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:49,840 All of a sudden 552 00:50:51,560 --> 00:50:56,760 everything we want to achieve is right there. 553 00:50:56,800 --> 00:50:58,800 You feel that... -Please save us. -Look 554 00:50:59,840 --> 00:51:04,880 You could almost reach out and touch it. 555 00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:24,240 We have called the Estonian border police. They're on their way. 556 00:51:24,400 --> 00:51:27,240 They will take you back. 557 00:51:27,400 --> 00:51:31,320 We have called the Estonian border police. They're on their way. 558 00:51:31,720 --> 00:51:34,640 They will take you back. -What? 559 00:51:52,040 --> 00:51:55,400 Then the police come and take us: 560 00:51:57,240 --> 00:52:05,200 men in camouflage, with balaclavas and face paint. 561 00:52:05,320 --> 00:52:10,680 They scream and shout like crazy. 562 00:52:17,200 --> 00:52:20,640 I have no idea what's going on. 563 00:52:21,080 --> 00:52:24,920 I'm crying and crying. I can't stop. 564 00:52:26,320 --> 00:52:32,840 I can see the fear in the adults' eyes. They are terrified! 565 00:52:32,920 --> 00:52:38,720 Even the big men You can see it in their eyes. They're petrified. 566 00:52:38,760 --> 00:52:39,760 It really scared me. 567 00:52:39,840 --> 00:52:43,200 If they are that afraid, what will happen to us? 568 00:52:43,320 --> 00:52:46,840 It must be serious. 569 00:52:51,840 --> 00:52:55,320 We are locked inside an abandoned building. 570 00:52:55,400 --> 00:52:58,480 There are guards, and on that same day, 571 00:52:58,560 --> 00:53:02,760 they run barbed wire around the building. 572 00:53:03,360 --> 00:53:05,880 People were in shock. 573 00:53:05,920 --> 00:53:08,640 Based on how they treated us, 574 00:53:08,760 --> 00:53:13,480 we thought we would be there for the rest of our lives. 575 00:53:13,600 --> 00:53:16,760 We have no idea what will happen to us. 576 00:53:16,800 --> 00:53:18,960 No one tells us anything. 577 00:53:21,040 --> 00:53:23,640 Journalists come and film us. 578 00:53:23,640 --> 00:53:26,320 We hope something will happen, but no. 579 00:53:26,440 --> 00:53:29,280 They get their footage of poor refugees 580 00:53:29,280 --> 00:53:31,960 and go home to do their TV shows 581 00:53:32,080 --> 00:53:38,120 But nothing actually happens. It's just us and the guards. 582 00:53:38,200 --> 00:53:43,800 It felt like my life had ground to a halt. There's nothing left. 583 00:53:47,720 --> 00:53:49,160 Then, six months later, 584 00:53:49,240 --> 00:53:53,520 they gave us two options: 585 00:53:54,200 --> 00:53:58,760 Stay here to rot, or... 586 00:54:00,800 --> 00:54:03,480 Go back to Moscow. 587 00:54:08,840 --> 00:54:11,280 As soon as we arrive in Russia, we 588 00:54:11,320 --> 00:54:13,720 are arrested by the Russian police. 589 00:54:13,960 --> 00:54:18,320 They want to send us back to Afghanistan, 590 00:54:18,560 --> 00:54:22,760 but luckily the Russian police were so corrupt 591 00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:26,800 that if we gave them the last of our money, they would let us go. 592 00:54:54,400 --> 00:54:56,880 Thanks for letting me crash here. 593 00:54:57,280 --> 00:55:01,080 Do you want a snack with that? - No. 594 00:55:01,240 --> 00:55:02,520 What happened? 595 00:55:02,560 --> 00:55:05,080 I just needed to get away. 596 00:55:05,200 --> 00:55:08,480 I told Kasper that I'm doing my postdoc at Princeton. 597 00:55:08,680 --> 00:55:11,360 It didn't go well? - No, it didn't. 598 00:55:11,600 --> 00:55:16,240 He feels stupid because we looked at all those houses. 599 00:55:16,360 --> 00:55:19,000 He doesn't understand. 600 00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:32,280 It seems as if it's more Kasper's project than yours? 601 00:55:32,320 --> 00:55:34,920 I don't know. It's his dream, 602 00:55:35,200 --> 00:55:38,280 but I'd also like a place to settle down. But... 603 00:55:40,240 --> 00:55:43,080 But? - Nothing. 604 00:55:44,360 --> 00:55:49,040 It makes me a little nervous. 605 00:55:49,280 --> 00:55:51,600 Because... 606 00:55:51,720 --> 00:55:57,440 Getting out of Russia was a tremendous gift 607 00:55:57,520 --> 00:56:01,920 a tremendous gift. I got a life. 608 00:56:01,960 --> 00:56:07,520 I couldn't just give that up or 609 00:56:08,120 --> 00:56:09,360 Yeah. 610 00:56:09,440 --> 00:56:14,800 If it wasn't for my siblings, I wouldn't be where I am today. 611 00:56:15,080 --> 00:56:22,480 So, I bear a tremendous burden on my shoulders 612 00:56:22,760 --> 00:56:26,120 you could say. 613 00:56:28,440 --> 00:56:34,280 For example, my brother had a Finnish girlfriend for ten years. 614 00:56:34,520 --> 00:56:38,000 They wanted children, but he couldn't, 615 00:56:38,160 --> 00:56:44,080 because he had to save every penny to get us out of Russia. 616 00:56:44,160 --> 00:56:47,080 His girlfriend left him. 617 00:56:48,240 --> 00:56:49,320 I see. 618 00:56:50,480 --> 00:56:53,480 How does not moving to the 619 00:56:53,560 --> 00:56:55,000 countryside help your family? 620 00:56:56,560 --> 00:57:00,320 Aren't you supposed to be on my side? 621 00:57:03,600 --> 00:57:06,920 When are you leaving for the US? - On Sunday. 622 00:57:06,960 --> 00:57:08,920 Sunday? - Yes. 623 00:57:09,280 --> 00:57:14,480 How long will you be gone? - I'm coming home for a few days. 624 00:57:15,040 --> 00:57:16,480 I mean... 625 00:57:16,600 --> 00:57:21,240 So, three or four months from now? - Yes. Three or four months I guess. 626 00:57:22,360 --> 00:57:23,240 Okay. 627 00:57:30,160 --> 00:57:33,640 Look at this place. I can't believe it's ours! 628 00:57:34,120 --> 00:57:35,840 Only the best for you, my love. 629 00:57:37,040 --> 00:57:39,040 The three of us will live lovingly 630 00:57:39,080 --> 00:57:41,080 and happily here. 631 00:57:42,480 --> 00:57:45,120 Something happened to my mom. 632 00:57:45,240 --> 00:57:48,200 She started acting strange in Russia. 633 00:57:48,480 --> 00:57:51,240 She got some kind of allergy. 634 00:57:56,480 --> 00:58:00,480 I think she's homesick. She misses Afghanistan. 635 00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:12,880 It's boring just staying home 636 00:58:14,880 --> 00:58:20,480 I'm a teenager, and I want to experience something different, 637 00:58:22,560 --> 00:58:24,480 so I go outside. 638 00:58:26,680 --> 00:58:32,320 This is a restaurant of Moscow-McDonald's joint venture. 639 00:58:33,240 --> 00:58:36,280 This company is known around the 640 00:58:36,320 --> 00:58:39,360 world for its prompt food service. 641 00:58:39,400 --> 00:58:41,400 Yay! -Wooo! 642 00:58:41,440 --> 00:58:43,440 Yay! 643 00:58:48,640 --> 00:58:53,720 When we get out of Russia, we should go to McDonald's to celebrate. 644 00:58:53,840 --> 00:58:59,000 I'd like a Big Mac and a Coke, thank you! It's going to be so nice. 645 00:58:59,120 --> 00:59:02,080 Hey, you! Come with me! - No! We didn't do anything! 646 00:59:02,080 --> 00:59:06,360 Did I ask you? Let me see your papers then. 647 00:59:06,840 --> 00:59:09,320 Just as I thought. Come on! 648 00:59:11,200 --> 00:59:14,160 Stop! Don't do this. - Where's your money? 649 00:59:14,520 --> 00:59:15,760 Stand still! -We don't have any! 650 00:59:15,800 --> 00:59:18,440 We just wanted to see what's going on. 651 00:59:18,560 --> 00:59:22,680 Can I see that watch for a second? - Don't touch him! -Stay still. 652 00:59:22,800 --> 00:59:25,600 Come here! 653 00:59:28,880 --> 00:59:30,880 Get in! 654 00:59:32,400 --> 00:59:35,480 Look what I found. - Nice! I'd like to have some fun with her. 655 00:59:35,800 --> 00:59:38,960 Go on. Sit down! 656 00:59:39,000 --> 00:59:43,960 What's with them? - They need to be taught a lesson. 657 00:59:46,720 --> 00:59:48,440 Sir! 658 00:59:49,000 --> 00:59:53,280 Why are they here? - These two? They're greedy. They won't pay. 659 00:59:53,920 --> 00:59:56,200 What about her? - She doesn't have any money either, 660 00:59:56,240 --> 00:59:59,360 we thought she could pay us in another way. 661 01:00:00,040 --> 01:00:01,640 You two! Out! 662 01:00:13,160 --> 01:00:17,720 I remember her face her black hair 663 01:00:19,040 --> 01:00:21,160 big, dark eyes 664 01:00:28,560 --> 01:00:33,800 Darn! Why didn't I protect her? Say something? I just let it happen. 665 01:00:35,160 --> 01:00:41,120 It's one of the most horrible feelings I ever had. 666 01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:46,000 I can't do this anymore. 667 01:01:02,200 --> 01:01:06,240 My brother isn't very old, 668 01:01:06,360 --> 01:01:09,280 but he assumed responsibility for us. 669 01:01:09,360 --> 01:01:14,320 He wants to send my mother and I first. 670 01:01:15,440 --> 01:01:19,360 This time, we're very careful. -It will be fine. Don't worry. 671 01:01:19,600 --> 01:01:24,800 We make arrangements with a very expensive trafficker, 672 01:01:25,160 --> 01:01:30,640 because we didn't want to go through the same things again. 673 01:01:31,200 --> 01:01:34,920 We insist on a safe, secure route, 674 01:01:35,320 --> 01:01:39,520 which mean we only have enough for one of us to leave. 675 01:01:39,720 --> 01:01:45,280 In the end, my brother decides that it should be me. 676 01:01:45,400 --> 01:01:47,960 It was horrible, because I felt 677 01:01:48,200 --> 01:01:51,360 awful about leaving him behind. 678 01:01:52,080 --> 01:01:55,080 Each week, each month, each year, 679 01:01:55,280 --> 01:01:59,160 his chance of having a decent future dwindles. 680 01:02:01,720 --> 01:02:03,720 I can't take this anymore. 681 01:02:24,000 --> 01:02:25,680 Okay. You have to learn your 682 01:02:25,720 --> 01:02:28,520 name and date of birth by heart. 683 01:02:29,200 --> 01:02:34,160 You're Russian. Remember that. Speak Russian if anyone asks you anything. 684 01:02:34,160 --> 01:02:35,360 One more thing. 685 01:02:35,560 --> 01:02:41,480 Destroy the passport as soon as you reach your final destination. 686 01:02:41,600 --> 01:02:44,600 If the police catch you with a fake 687 01:02:45,360 --> 01:02:47,200 passport, they'll send you back to Russia. 688 01:02:47,600 --> 01:02:51,520 Stick to the story we gave you. It's crucial. 689 01:02:51,880 --> 01:02:55,400 From now on, you have no family. They're dead. 690 01:02:55,880 --> 01:03:00,280 You fled Afghanistan on your own, without any help. 691 01:03:00,400 --> 01:03:02,160 If you say anything else, you'll 692 01:03:02,200 --> 01:03:03,560 be shipped back to Afghanistan. 693 01:03:03,720 --> 01:03:05,200 What do you mean? 694 01:03:05,280 --> 01:03:08,480 Don't tell anyone about your family. 695 01:03:08,600 --> 01:03:10,800 You have no family. Understand? 696 01:03:12,320 --> 01:03:17,920 Good. Now get some sleep. We have a long day tomorrow. 697 01:03:28,160 --> 01:03:33,080 The traffickers had all this power over my life. 698 01:03:34,240 --> 01:03:37,360 You're left completely powerless. 699 01:03:59,360 --> 01:04:03,840 I'm with another young guy, also alone, just like like me. 700 01:04:04,040 --> 01:04:07,800 He's nice and funny. He makes me laugh. 701 01:04:08,000 --> 01:04:13,680 He's a bit boyish, but there is an age difference between us. 702 01:04:13,720 --> 01:04:17,360 He's closer to becoming a man. 703 01:04:17,680 --> 01:04:21,040 I think it's kind of sexy. 704 01:04:22,520 --> 01:04:25,480 I think I have a little crush on him. 705 01:04:25,600 --> 01:04:28,800 His gold necklace is so beautiful 706 01:04:29,800 --> 01:04:34,680 Do you want to try it on? I'm sure it will look great on you. 707 01:04:37,080 --> 01:04:39,560 Very nice! 708 01:05:03,800 --> 01:05:06,280 Our flight to Istanbul will take around two hours. 709 01:05:06,400 --> 01:05:10,720 Thank you for flying Ukrainian International Airlines. 710 01:05:31,360 --> 01:05:36,160 Listen. Once you pass by passport control on your right 711 01:05:36,400 --> 01:05:40,480 Don't stare! Once you pass it, you're on your own. 712 01:05:40,880 --> 01:05:42,720 You're going to different destinations. 713 01:05:43,240 --> 01:05:47,200 You're going to Zurich, Gate D27. 714 01:05:49,160 --> 01:05:55,040 You're going to Copenhagen, Gate A9. Got it? 715 01:05:55,720 --> 01:05:59,840 I thought I was going to Sweden? - No, you're going to Denmark. 716 01:05:59,960 --> 01:06:02,520 Denmark? But... 717 01:06:02,920 --> 01:06:08,000 It's the last trip, so you'll have to manage on your own from now on. 718 01:06:08,040 --> 01:06:11,800 Remember to call home as soon as you land. It's very important. 719 01:06:12,800 --> 01:06:15,440 That way, I can get my money. 720 01:06:15,520 --> 01:06:18,280 Okay. Now, go! It's getting late. 721 01:06:29,240 --> 01:06:33,560 You're going to Zurich? - Yes, it's in Switzerland. 722 01:06:33,680 --> 01:06:38,160 Do you have family there? - Is yours in Copenhagen? 723 01:06:40,600 --> 01:06:42,600 Hey, thanks for letting me borrow it. 724 01:06:43,200 --> 01:06:44,640 No, keep it. 725 01:06:46,560 --> 01:06:48,240 Are you sure? 726 01:06:49,640 --> 01:06:51,560 Thank you. 727 01:06:51,840 --> 01:06:54,800 Good luck. - You too. 728 01:07:00,000 --> 01:07:02,160 It's weird that I can't remember his 729 01:07:02,240 --> 01:07:03,920 name, when he meant so much to me. 730 01:07:04,120 --> 01:07:07,400 He was part of something that 731 01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:10,560 had a huge influence on my life. 732 01:07:11,960 --> 01:07:14,440 Then, all of a sudden, I'm flying 733 01:07:14,920 --> 01:07:17,400 on my own, and landing in Copenhagen. 734 01:07:30,320 --> 01:07:33,360 I sit there waiting for a while. 735 01:07:37,600 --> 01:07:42,320 I see this big group of people, so I start to follow them. 736 01:08:00,920 --> 01:08:02,760 Move! 737 01:08:25,200 --> 01:08:26,800 I think I just said "refugee." 738 01:08:27,360 --> 01:08:30,920 What? Refugee? - Refugee. 739 01:08:32,000 --> 01:08:34,280 Where's your passport? 740 01:08:36,040 --> 01:08:37,960 Karin is here because you're a minor, 741 01:08:38,000 --> 01:08:40,480 who arrived without a guardian. 742 01:08:40,960 --> 01:08:43,720 A guardian must be present at your interview. 743 01:08:44,520 --> 01:08:49,840 The interpreter is Iranian and I'm Afghani, so we miscommunicate. 744 01:08:50,200 --> 01:08:54,200 Let's start with the formalities. 745 01:08:54,600 --> 01:08:56,240 He will ask you a few questions. 746 01:08:57,840 --> 01:08:59,080 What's your name? 747 01:08:59,800 --> 01:09:00,680 Amin. 748 01:09:01,880 --> 01:09:04,560 We need to know how you got here. 749 01:09:04,560 --> 01:09:07,200 He's asking you how you got here. 750 01:09:09,200 --> 01:09:11,880 There's nothing to worry about. Just tell us what happened. 751 01:09:12,840 --> 01:09:14,840 She says don't be scared. 752 01:09:15,320 --> 01:09:19,840 I'm interrogated for hours. For hours. 753 01:09:20,400 --> 01:09:22,560 I'm the only survivor from my family. 754 01:09:23,480 --> 01:09:29,120 I have to stick to the story the smuggler gave me. 755 01:09:29,160 --> 01:09:31,960 I saw my mother and sisters get killed. 756 01:09:32,000 --> 01:09:38,640 I'm sobbing. The damn story really hits me, even though it's not true. 757 01:09:38,680 --> 01:09:40,160 I'm the only survivor. 758 01:09:40,160 --> 01:09:46,280 I'm crying uncontrollably. The tears just keep coming. 759 01:09:49,400 --> 01:09:54,680 My father and I hid in the desert for a year, before he was killed. 760 01:09:56,360 --> 01:10:02,600 I'm surprised to be crying over something that isn't true. 761 01:10:03,320 --> 01:10:07,960 It took a month to get from Aghanistan to Denmark. 762 01:10:10,320 --> 01:10:16,440 As soon as I'm done, I write everything down, 763 01:10:17,040 --> 01:10:21,320 word for word, in Dari, in my notebook. 764 01:10:21,440 --> 01:10:24,440 I have no one. I'm all alone. 765 01:10:24,600 --> 01:10:28,360 That's the story I told 766 01:10:29,280 --> 01:10:31,920 everyone until now. 767 01:10:36,160 --> 01:10:39,640 It is not until we're driving through the town square, 768 01:10:40,240 --> 01:10:45,440 and I see the neon lights through its window. 769 01:10:47,680 --> 01:10:51,120 that I realize 770 01:10:54,320 --> 01:10:58,400 I'm not being sent back. 771 01:11:14,480 --> 01:11:17,080 Hello? - Abbas? 772 01:11:18,360 --> 01:11:21,000 Amin? - Yes. 773 01:11:21,080 --> 01:11:24,200 Finally! Are you okay? - Yes. 774 01:11:25,400 --> 01:11:27,560 Where are you? 775 01:11:28,120 --> 01:11:31,040 In Denmark. - Oh 776 01:11:32,600 --> 01:11:36,040 Why didn't you call earlier? - I couldn't find a phone. 777 01:11:36,680 --> 01:11:39,160 What? I can't hear you. 778 01:11:39,200 --> 01:11:42,360 I couldn't find a phone. - Okay. 779 01:11:43,920 --> 01:11:46,200 I'll make the call to Moscow. 780 01:11:46,840 --> 01:11:51,240 They told me to say you're all dead 781 01:11:53,560 --> 01:11:56,120 but you're not 782 01:11:58,440 --> 01:12:00,640 What do I tell people? 783 01:12:04,800 --> 01:12:07,160 What do I say? 784 01:12:09,640 --> 01:12:14,600 You have to do what the trafficker said. Keep it secret. 785 01:12:14,800 --> 01:12:17,840 But - I'll try to figure out a way to meet. 786 01:12:17,960 --> 01:12:22,680 I'll let you know. Take care of yourself. 787 01:12:23,840 --> 01:12:26,440 Okay, bye. 788 01:12:50,160 --> 01:12:52,640 It took years before I could 789 01:12:52,760 --> 01:12:55,320 visit my siblings in Stockholm. 790 01:12:56,840 --> 01:13:02,400 It was very lonely and frustrating. 791 01:13:02,720 --> 01:13:10,080 The fear of getting caught and being sent back was so strong 792 01:13:11,920 --> 01:13:16,200 that I couldn't tell the truth. There were lots of consequences: 793 01:13:16,600 --> 01:13:18,880 I couldn't be myself. 794 01:13:21,080 --> 01:13:23,640 It was really painful. 795 01:13:25,520 --> 01:13:29,280 Most people can't even begin to imagine 796 01:13:29,320 --> 01:13:32,720 how fleeing like that affects you 797 01:13:32,760 --> 01:13:37,480 what it means for your relationships with other people 798 01:13:37,520 --> 01:13:41,440 how much it destroys you... 799 01:13:44,560 --> 01:13:48,120 There were things I couldn't say about my family, 800 01:13:48,400 --> 01:13:52,600 like that I had siblings in Sweden, and that my mother was alive, 801 01:13:53,040 --> 01:13:57,200 because it didn't fit my background story. 802 01:13:57,320 --> 01:13:59,200 There were always constraints. 803 01:13:59,280 --> 01:14:03,840 Things had to be adjusted, retained, and suppressed. 804 01:14:09,800 --> 01:14:15,280 So, what did you want to talk about? - I'd like some medicine. 805 01:14:15,320 --> 01:14:20,320 Okay, you'll have to see the doctor, but I can make an appointment. 806 01:14:20,720 --> 01:14:25,880 What's wrong? - We spoke about it last time 807 01:14:27,080 --> 01:14:29,840 the thing about me being attracted to men. 808 01:14:30,400 --> 01:14:34,640 Oh Oh, that, yes. - I'd like some medicine. 809 01:14:37,280 --> 01:14:39,320 What do you mean? 810 01:14:39,520 --> 01:14:42,360 I want to get well. 811 01:14:43,880 --> 01:14:46,560 I don't want to like men. 812 01:14:47,520 --> 01:14:50,640 It's not that I considered it a disease, 813 01:14:50,680 --> 01:14:53,280 but I thought it could be cured, 814 01:14:53,680 --> 01:14:57,000 that it was something that could be cured. 815 01:14:57,600 --> 01:15:01,880 But she told me that it wasn't that simple. 816 01:15:03,280 --> 01:15:07,560 Okay, forget it. It's something that I have to live with: 817 01:15:11,960 --> 01:15:16,320 the fear of being rejected by your family 818 01:15:17,520 --> 01:15:20,560 for being gay, because it wasn't acceptable. 819 01:15:20,840 --> 01:15:24,520 Family meant a lot to me then, yet I was all alone in Denmark. 820 01:15:25,120 --> 01:15:27,080 Little brother, you're finally here! 821 01:15:27,280 --> 01:15:30,720 It was the only reference point in our frigging, crazy lives. 822 01:15:30,880 --> 01:15:33,920 The thought of losing that was very scary. 823 01:15:33,960 --> 01:15:37,640 I didn't want to do anything that I might regret later. 824 01:15:37,920 --> 01:15:39,680 When are you going to find a girlfriend? 825 01:15:40,280 --> 01:15:42,800 Aren't the girls in Denmark pretty? 826 01:15:43,040 --> 01:15:49,360 Maybe I should come help you out. I'm sure I could find one for you. 827 01:15:50,680 --> 01:15:53,680 I didn't dare tell my brother. I was in Stockholm, 828 01:15:54,000 --> 01:15:59,800 and I had no plans to tell him, but it just happened. 829 01:16:00,240 --> 01:16:04,000 He kept pestering me about not having a girlfriend. 830 01:16:04,200 --> 01:16:09,720 Finally, I felt so intimidated that I said: I said in front of everyone. 831 01:16:10,080 --> 01:16:12,480 "I don't have a girlfriend because 832 01:16:12,560 --> 01:16:15,360 I'm not interested in girls that way." 833 01:16:16,320 --> 01:16:19,480 Everyone went completely quiet. 834 01:16:27,480 --> 01:16:30,640 Are you sure? 835 01:16:30,720 --> 01:16:32,720 Yes. 836 01:16:33,280 --> 01:16:37,000 Have you ever been with a girl? 837 01:16:39,520 --> 01:16:42,200 Amin, let's go. 838 01:16:42,360 --> 01:16:45,920 Where are we going? - Just come. 839 01:17:41,480 --> 01:17:43,160 Come. 840 01:17:47,240 --> 01:17:50,160 Tell me what's going on. - You'll see. 841 01:18:00,640 --> 01:18:02,400 Go on. Have fun. 842 01:18:32,320 --> 01:18:35,560 There's nothing to worry about. We always knew. 843 01:18:36,720 --> 01:18:37,840 Thank you. 844 01:18:49,320 --> 01:18:53,360 Can I help you? What would you like? 845 01:18:59,480 --> 01:19:04,920 There I was. My first time at a gay club, all by myself 846 01:19:05,040 --> 01:19:08,240 and I didn't go home. 847 01:19:28,200 --> 01:19:32,840 I always made my career a priority. 848 01:19:33,320 --> 01:19:35,640 When forced to choose between a guy or a career and an education, 849 01:19:35,880 --> 01:19:38,840 I always chose an education. Cold and cynical. 850 01:19:39,080 --> 01:19:42,440 Please welcome our next speaker: Amin Nawabi. 851 01:19:42,480 --> 01:19:44,480 First of all, I'd like to say that... 852 01:19:45,080 --> 01:19:48,240 My siblings sacrificed so much for me. 853 01:19:49,120 --> 01:19:53,880 I had to do well. I felt I had a huge responsibility. 854 01:20:02,800 --> 01:20:07,040 It was important to be tough. 855 01:20:09,280 --> 01:20:12,440 Only now, that I'm telling you about it, 856 01:20:12,880 --> 01:20:16,920 do I start to realize how hard it's been. 857 01:20:18,000 --> 01:20:20,400 It hurts to think back on it. 858 01:20:22,320 --> 01:20:23,960 Of course. 859 01:20:25,560 --> 01:20:27,880 Being back in the US 860 01:20:28,720 --> 01:20:34,400 I'm starting to get really tired of constantly being on the move. 861 01:20:35,720 --> 01:20:38,000 It's good for my career, 862 01:20:39,400 --> 01:20:42,720 but it's not that good for me. - It's not that good for you. 863 01:20:43,600 --> 01:20:46,240 It's not that good for me. 864 01:20:46,800 --> 01:20:50,560 The first time I interviewed you back home, you mentioned 865 01:20:51,400 --> 01:20:55,880 that there were some things you needed to come to terms with. 866 01:21:15,240 --> 01:21:19,600 You grow up. You grow up too fast. 867 01:21:19,800 --> 01:21:23,800 When you flee as a child, 868 01:21:24,640 --> 01:21:27,880 it takes time to learn 869 01:21:28,080 --> 01:21:30,360 to trust people. 870 01:21:32,240 --> 01:21:36,720 You're constantly on your guard, all the time 871 01:21:37,320 --> 01:21:38,160 all the time. 872 01:21:38,920 --> 01:21:46,080 Even when you're in a safe place, you're on your guard. 873 01:22:03,800 --> 01:22:07,880 I can feel that something needs to happen. 874 01:22:48,120 --> 01:22:49,360 Ta-da! 875 01:22:50,000 --> 01:22:53,240 I'm not going to carry you over the threshold. 876 01:22:53,440 --> 01:22:58,080 You'd rather carry a cactus instead? - It's kind of the same. 877 01:22:59,480 --> 01:23:00,640 Right. 878 01:23:01,200 --> 01:23:04,960 I'm just going to put this away. 879 01:23:07,760 --> 01:23:10,720 It's a little - Yeah. 880 01:23:11,960 --> 01:23:15,760 Look at the view. It's stunning. 881 01:23:15,800 --> 01:23:20,960 Every time you look at it, you're just like, "Wow!"' 882 01:23:22,400 --> 01:23:25,960 The garden is really beautiful right now. 883 01:23:26,120 --> 01:23:31,520 I wonder if we have enough stuff to fill the place. 884 01:23:40,440 --> 01:23:44,240 Honey, I think I saw a big raspberry. Look there. 885 01:23:44,280 --> 01:23:47,280 The patch just outside the lot. 886 01:23:53,920 --> 01:23:57,320 Look! That's all raspberries! - Wow! 887 01:23:58,360 --> 01:24:03,000 It's so nice. - We just need to look after it. 888 01:24:05,200 --> 01:24:07,360 It's wet here. - You can see it from here. 889 01:24:07,480 --> 01:24:10,160 The view of the house is better here.