WEBVTT 00:43.777 --> 00:45.878 Doctor's personal log. 00:45.879 --> 00:50.083 Stardate 869372.1. 00:51.384 --> 00:55.020 "The sky is beginning to show some streaks of light 00:55.021 --> 00:57.123 over in the East." 00:57.891 --> 01:00.859 How many dawns have I seen? 01:00.860 --> 01:05.764 Alone, while most of the crew is on the verge of waking, 01:05.765 --> 01:08.067 with a new perspective 01:08.068 --> 01:11.504 granted by a good night's rest. 01:13.006 --> 01:16.075 It's an illusion, I want to say. 01:16.076 --> 01:20.946 I was here the whole time, and nothing has changed. 01:20.947 --> 01:24.650 But time is their beast. 01:24.651 --> 01:27.219 Time is my beast. 01:27.220 --> 01:29.722 It bites us differently. 01:38.098 --> 01:41.433 Cadet Tarima Sadal is returning to us today 01:41.434 --> 01:45.271 after having made a full recovery from her coma. 01:46.039 --> 01:51.110 The Betazoids have given her a new evolved neuro-inhibitor 01:51.111 --> 01:53.912 that will allow her to control her abilities 01:53.913 --> 01:57.049 without risk of self-harm. 01:57.050 --> 02:00.119 The decision has been made to transfer her 02:00.120 --> 02:04.491 to Starfleet Academy for the remainder of her studies. 02:05.225 --> 02:07.292 While her body has healed, 02:07.293 --> 02:13.298 her mind and spirit will likely take more time. 02:13.299 --> 02:16.468 Cadet Sadal, welcome. 02:16.469 --> 02:19.706 The Doctor and I wanted to be here at your arrival. 02:20.473 --> 02:22.774 Yes, Chancellor. I assume that's why you're... 02:22.775 --> 02:25.411 That's why we're here, of course. 02:26.146 --> 02:28.347 I'm sure having Starfleet council, 02:28.348 --> 02:30.582 Chancellor Kelrec and myself 02:30.583 --> 02:32.084 make the decision to relocate you 02:32.085 --> 02:34.286 from the War College to Starfleet Academy 02:34.287 --> 02:36.656 must be challenging. 02:38.024 --> 02:40.225 Cadet Sadal, 02:40.226 --> 02:42.995 the extraordinary empathic abilities you displayed 02:42.996 --> 02:45.664 on the Miyazaki saved lives, 02:45.665 --> 02:48.233 at great personal cost. 02:48.234 --> 02:51.103 However, your network of mirror neurons 02:51.104 --> 02:54.706 will not survive another such incident. 02:54.707 --> 02:58.710 You exist in an intricate balance. 02:58.711 --> 03:00.213 Sir. 03:01.981 --> 03:04.850 Commitment to a specialty in science or research 03:04.851 --> 03:06.385 is paramount to your safety. 03:06.386 --> 03:08.453 That wouldn't have been possible at the War College. 03:08.454 --> 03:10.155 I-I understand the decision, sir. 03:10.156 --> 03:12.592 We offer counseling and support. 03:14.894 --> 03:17.530 Let us know what you need. 03:24.204 --> 03:26.238 What? Huh? 03:26.239 --> 03:27.773 You gonna do something? 03:27.774 --> 03:29.708 Huh? Yeah, thought so. 03:29.709 --> 03:34.446 Man, it's feeling pretty combustible in here. 03:36.282 --> 03:39.618 Guys, I'm picking up an unusual spike in pyroxene-- 03:39.619 --> 03:41.353 No shit, we're in an asteroid field, Ocam! 03:41.354 --> 03:43.655 Panic will lead us to destruction. 03:43.656 --> 03:46.892 The cadets are struggling to get along. 03:46.893 --> 03:49.494 The lasting effects of the Miyazaki are still with us. 03:49.495 --> 03:51.296 We need to alter our course. 03:51.297 --> 03:52.798 We need to power up our shields. 03:52.799 --> 03:54.199 Who is giving the orders here? 03:54.200 --> 03:55.667 You're supposed to be working together. 03:55.668 --> 03:57.002 Unidentified contact incoming. 03:57.003 --> 03:59.138 Yeah, no kidding. 03:59.906 --> 04:01.673 - We're all gonna die! - It's a comet. 04:01.674 --> 04:03.141 What do you want me to do? 04:03.142 --> 04:04.209 - Aft thrusters. - Fore thrusters 04:04.210 --> 04:05.477 Which one is it? 04:05.478 --> 04:06.378 Neither! Are you seriously asking that? 04:08.114 --> 04:09.748 Catastrophic damage. 04:09.749 --> 04:13.452 All crew lost. Simulation complete. 04:13.453 --> 04:15.187 Congratulations. 04:15.188 --> 04:19.391 That was a spectacular failure of teamwork. 04:19.392 --> 04:22.060 Everyone, get the hell off the bridge now. Thank you. 04:22.061 --> 04:23.595 Trauma counseling 04:23.596 --> 04:25.130 doesn't seem to be enough. 04:25.131 --> 04:26.965 Our kids need more help. 04:26.966 --> 04:29.301 We need some serious reinforcements. 04:29.302 --> 04:30.936 Do you think we ought-- 04:30.937 --> 04:33.438 I do think, we do ought, 04:33.439 --> 04:35.575 and I'm already trying something weird. 04:36.376 --> 04:40.145 Buckle up, she's gonna be here any minute. 04:40.146 --> 04:41.814 Hmm. 04:45.852 --> 04:47.819 Hey. Why are we here? 04:47.820 --> 04:52.257 Unclear. My PADD redirected me. 04:52.258 --> 04:54.060 Mine, too. 04:57.630 --> 05:00.065 - Are you all right? - I am fine. 05:00.066 --> 05:02.768 So, I was moving our stuff this morning, 05:02.769 --> 05:06.238 and I dropped your toothbrush in the toilet. 05:06.239 --> 05:08.540 - What? Gross. - Sorry. 05:08.541 --> 05:09.941 Why were you moving our stuff? 05:09.942 --> 05:11.977 Well, 'cause Tarima's gonna room with us. 05:11.978 --> 05:14.346 I saw it on the roster, so... 05:14.347 --> 05:17.517 Wait. Here? 05:19.218 --> 05:21.220 Tarima's coming here? 05:47.513 --> 05:49.314 Oh, you're all still asleep. 05:49.315 --> 05:52.784 Wakey, wakey, raktajino and bakey. 05:52.785 --> 05:54.119 Eyes up, cadets. 05:55.521 --> 05:57.222 I'm Lieutenant Sylvia Tilly. 05:57.223 --> 06:00.192 I'm on rotation in the Beta Quadrant with the third-years. 06:00.193 --> 06:01.893 However, per the chancellor, 06:01.894 --> 06:05.698 this class has been mandated for you, so you get me early. 06:07.066 --> 06:09.000 Cadet Reymi, Lieutenant. 06:09.001 --> 06:11.236 Uh, may I ask what course this is? 06:11.237 --> 06:12.504 Theater. 06:20.246 --> 06:23.048 Sorry, Lieutenant, what does theater have 06:23.049 --> 06:24.816 - anything to do with-- - Eight out of ten cadets 06:24.817 --> 06:26.051 ask that question. 06:26.052 --> 06:28.553 The other two become captains. 06:28.554 --> 06:31.857 - But captains don't do-- - What if I told you 06:31.858 --> 06:35.227 that theater is one of the most powerful tools 06:35.228 --> 06:37.195 for social and political change? 06:37.196 --> 06:39.731 Theater is statecraft. 06:39.732 --> 06:41.900 Statecraft is theater. 06:41.901 --> 06:43.902 It's the kind of stuff you overachievers get all 06:43.903 --> 06:47.773 hot and bothered over, so chew on that 06:47.774 --> 06:50.041 till you get it and it changes your life. 06:50.042 --> 06:53.413 Please change my life, Lieutenant. 06:54.247 --> 06:57.849 Favorite. Homework: find a play. 06:57.850 --> 07:00.018 I'll select one that suits our purposes. 07:00.019 --> 07:02.754 We will read it out loud, discuss, dissect, 07:02.755 --> 07:04.423 and for those of you still bristling 07:04.424 --> 07:07.492 with confusion and/or resentment, 07:07.493 --> 07:09.928 I don't care. 07:09.929 --> 07:12.764 - Fail this, fail the semester. - What? 07:12.765 --> 07:15.534 So get excited, little chickens. 07:15.535 --> 07:19.738 Tomorrow, we theater. 07:33.786 --> 07:35.487 I just switched from Klingon musical theater 07:35.488 --> 07:38.290 to 20th-century Earth melodramas. 07:38.291 --> 07:40.125 This is incredible. 07:40.126 --> 07:44.162 I'm halfway through. 07:44.163 --> 07:45.664 Which play? 07:45.665 --> 07:48.934 All of them. 07:48.935 --> 07:51.470 I love plays. 07:51.471 --> 07:53.638 - Okay. - They're art. 07:53.639 --> 07:55.006 They-they didn't exist 07:55.007 --> 07:57.409 until they came out of someone's brain. 07:57.410 --> 07:59.911 It's like this pillow. 07:59.912 --> 08:04.483 This pillow is the manifestation of somebody's creative impulse. 08:04.484 --> 08:07.419 Th-This pillow is theater. 08:07.420 --> 08:08.987 Sorry. 08:08.988 --> 08:11.156 I've learned that I am a lot. 08:11.157 --> 08:13.458 On a good day, I'm a little bit much. 08:13.459 --> 08:15.026 On rare occasions... 08:15.027 --> 08:16.161 I'm "Whoa, Sam!" 08:16.162 --> 08:18.396 "Slow to impulse. 08:18.397 --> 08:20.899 "I'm not even up yet, and I just can't with your midday energy 08:20.900 --> 08:23.435 before I even pull my underwear out of my butt." 08:23.436 --> 08:25.370 Oh. 08:25.371 --> 08:28.006 - True story. - Don't apologize. 08:28.007 --> 08:29.674 Honestly, you're the first person here 08:29.675 --> 08:31.878 who's not looking at me like I'm a total freak. 08:34.847 --> 08:39.384 Have you... laughed before now? I mean, since... 08:39.385 --> 08:42.554 since you've been here? 08:42.555 --> 08:44.289 Yeah, it's confusing. 08:44.290 --> 08:48.060 Something happens, something... big. 08:48.895 --> 08:52.130 And... it's with you all the time, 08:52.131 --> 08:55.700 but you just have to keep living. 08:55.701 --> 08:59.371 And you still find reasons to laugh, 08:59.372 --> 09:01.741 which is absurd. 09:02.875 --> 09:05.143 It-it feels like... 09:05.144 --> 09:07.613 Doesn't feel like anything. 09:08.681 --> 09:10.549 Oh. 09:10.550 --> 09:12.118 Sorry. 09:15.321 --> 09:16.622 Ah! 09:18.824 --> 09:19.891 No. 09:19.892 --> 09:22.595 Sam, I'm-I'm sorry. 09:24.597 --> 09:26.299 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 09:27.700 --> 09:29.335 I'm good. 09:31.037 --> 09:33.272 I'm good. 11:39.231 --> 11:43.034 Lieutenant Sylvia Tilly. 11:43.035 --> 11:45.103 Well, the rumor's true. She's here. 11:45.104 --> 11:46.905 You know, I could feel it in my teeth. 11:46.906 --> 11:49.708 Like, right at the back of my molars. 11:49.709 --> 11:52.610 They started to hurt like after you eat cookie dough. 11:52.611 --> 11:54.913 It's okay to love. Mmm... 11:54.914 --> 11:58.883 Mm, is it? Your relentless optimism is nightmarish. 11:58.884 --> 12:00.552 We are the women time forgot. 12:00.553 --> 12:03.121 Optimism is me paddling my freaking canoe. 12:03.122 --> 12:06.392 - What are we having? - Something with a proof. 12:07.693 --> 12:08.893 Yeah. 12:08.894 --> 12:11.262 I, uh, I read about the Miyazaki. 12:11.263 --> 12:12.363 How are they? 12:12.364 --> 12:14.933 Right in the thick of it. 12:14.934 --> 12:16.901 How does that saying go? 12:16.902 --> 12:20.505 "It's not the load that breaks you but how you carry it"? 12:20.506 --> 12:23.308 They have no idea how to carry it. 12:23.309 --> 12:25.577 None. That's why I called you. 12:25.578 --> 12:27.112 They need serious trauma counseling 12:27.113 --> 12:29.447 without knowing it's trauma counseling. 12:29.448 --> 12:30.782 Yes. 12:30.783 --> 12:32.751 I need you to work your magic with them. 12:32.752 --> 12:35.920 Well, ambition will get some of them to at least participate. 12:35.921 --> 12:39.090 Others have, understandably, lost their metric. 12:39.091 --> 12:40.291 Tarima. 12:40.292 --> 12:41.693 Been there. 12:41.694 --> 12:43.394 What got you guys through? 12:43.395 --> 12:45.597 Starfleet. 12:45.598 --> 12:47.232 I'll remember that. 12:47.233 --> 12:49.567 I was starting to think this whole endeavor is just 12:49.568 --> 12:50.935 too much, too soon. 12:50.936 --> 12:53.404 Nobody's ever ready, Captain. 12:53.405 --> 12:55.507 Have you met Sam? 12:55.508 --> 12:57.408 Favorite. 12:57.409 --> 12:58.977 So joyful. 12:58.978 --> 13:00.145 Ode to joy? 13:00.146 --> 13:01.847 Yeah, baby. 13:07.086 --> 13:09.988 You were one of them not so long ago. 13:09.989 --> 13:14.093 Bring them to port, Lieutenant. 13:14.960 --> 13:17.029 Aye, Captain. 13:24.770 --> 13:27.138 Hey. 13:27.139 --> 13:29.575 You adjusting? 13:30.976 --> 13:33.144 Look, I sound like an asshole, 13:33.145 --> 13:35.313 but I don't really know what to say. 13:35.314 --> 13:37.616 Do you need anything? 13:39.385 --> 13:41.554 Why can't you look at me? 13:43.789 --> 13:46.458 What am I looking for exactly? 13:54.333 --> 13:56.201 At the climax, 13:56.202 --> 13:59.170 as the rival house eats the warrior stew, 13:59.171 --> 14:02.140 you learn that they've been served... 14:02.141 --> 14:06.477 they've been served the hearts and the quadri-testicles 14:06.478 --> 14:08.479 of their fathers before them. 14:08.480 --> 14:12.650 Blood slashes ankle-deep on the stage, 14:12.651 --> 14:16.855 and there is rejoicing throughout the land. 14:16.856 --> 14:19.290 Okay. 14:19.291 --> 14:21.826 Yes, uh, just so powerful, 14:21.827 --> 14:24.696 uh, and just well-told. 14:24.697 --> 14:27.498 I do love me some Klingon opera. 14:27.499 --> 14:28.933 The, uh, the passion, 14:28.934 --> 14:32.403 the intrigue, the murder. 14:32.404 --> 14:34.005 So much murder. 14:34.006 --> 14:35.673 Bless you. 14:35.674 --> 14:39.577 - Are you sick? - I am embattled with Jaqh-VoD. 14:39.578 --> 14:42.547 He means to say he's got a cold that he refuses to take care of. 14:42.548 --> 14:46.084 - Might be contagious. - Ah. Jay-Den, 14:46.085 --> 14:47.518 you're excused from this class. 14:47.519 --> 14:49.254 Please return to your quarters and quarantine 14:49.255 --> 14:51.189 until this runs its course. 14:51.190 --> 14:52.690 Yes, Lieutenant. 14:52.691 --> 14:54.726 Best of luck to you all in your future endeavors. 14:54.727 --> 14:57.428 - Okay, who's next? - Me, me, me. 14:57.429 --> 14:59.864 - Me, me, me. - Sam. 15:01.233 --> 15:04.068 Yes-yes-yes-yes. Hello, hello. My name is Sam. 15:04.069 --> 15:07.906 My play is from ancient Earth. 15:07.907 --> 15:09.674 It's a thousand years old. 15:09.675 --> 15:12.043 It's called Our Town by Thornton Wilder. 15:12.044 --> 15:16.681 - Oh. - It's about not much. 15:16.682 --> 15:21.352 Small town, little moments, but I must be developing instinct 15:21.353 --> 15:26.524 because it's about something else at the same time. 15:26.525 --> 15:28.393 - Something bigger. - Ugh. No. 15:28.394 --> 15:30.428 Jay-Den's hearts and testicles comedy 15:30.429 --> 15:31.629 sounds way more interesting. 15:31.630 --> 15:32.830 It-It's just people 15:32.831 --> 15:34.365 in these tiny moments. 15:34.366 --> 15:35.967 Emily and George. 15:35.968 --> 15:38.536 They are kids, 15:38.537 --> 15:40.271 and they're teens in love, 15:40.272 --> 15:42.740 and then they get married. 15:42.741 --> 15:45.076 She dies, and then she tries 15:45.077 --> 15:46.978 - to get back to the way she... - How is this relevant 15:46.979 --> 15:48.981 to-- I don't know-- flying a starship? 15:49.748 --> 15:52.617 Well, it's relevant to people, 15:52.618 --> 15:53.952 to organics. 15:53.953 --> 15:56.754 Something about their essential nature. 15:56.755 --> 16:00.258 Something I love. I can't articulate it exactly, 16:00.259 --> 16:03.261 but it's real. 16:03.262 --> 16:08.133 And has something to do with a sort of hopeful defiance. 16:09.902 --> 16:13.371 Does that make sense? 16:13.372 --> 16:14.806 Absolutely. 16:14.807 --> 16:17.175 - Mm-mm. - I know that play. It's perfect. 16:17.176 --> 16:20.078 Sam, you'll read Emily? 16:20.079 --> 16:21.012 Yeah? 16:21.013 --> 16:22.814 - May I? - Y... y... 16:22.815 --> 16:23.948 Thanks. 16:23.949 --> 16:25.249 Uh, Ocam-- 16:25.250 --> 16:27.618 - Stage Manager. - Sick. 16:27.619 --> 16:29.687 Caleb-- George. 16:29.688 --> 16:33.491 Genesis-- George's mom Mrs. Gibbs. 16:37.396 --> 16:38.796 I'm your mom? 16:38.797 --> 16:40.531 I'm so horrified, I don't even know what to say. 16:40.532 --> 16:44.202 You lost a step, Mir. No shame, but a little bit of shame. 16:44.203 --> 16:45.470 Okay. 16:45.471 --> 16:47.372 This quote. "The life of the village 16:47.373 --> 16:50.042 against the life of the stars." 16:52.644 --> 16:54.413 Tarima, what do you think that means? 16:58.283 --> 17:00.885 Uh, well, this is an ancient play, 17:00.886 --> 17:03.488 so they hadn't figured out a star's life cycle yet, 17:03.489 --> 17:08.426 but Earth was on the verge of a war, 17:08.427 --> 17:10.461 and they knew a village had-- 17:10.462 --> 17:12.897 it had a life 17:12.898 --> 17:15.534 and a final day. 17:16.668 --> 17:19.237 Yes, but finality... 17:19.238 --> 17:21.673 is... 17:22.708 --> 17:24.276 Doctor. 17:24.910 --> 17:26.944 - Incoming cadet. - Sam? 17:26.945 --> 17:28.212 Immediate attention required. 17:28.213 --> 17:29.447 Stand back, give her space. 17:29.448 --> 17:30.681 Sam, Sam, hey, wake up. 17:30.682 --> 17:31.716 Where's the Doctor? 17:31.717 --> 17:33.952 Sam! 17:40.325 --> 17:42.895 Full system scan in progress. 17:47.566 --> 17:51.869 The patch the holo-engineers made has been failing for weeks. 17:51.870 --> 17:54.640 Why is this the first you've come to me? 17:59.912 --> 18:02.046 Describe the glitches, please. 18:02.047 --> 18:05.716 It feels like... falling into myself 18:05.717 --> 18:10.823 and watching a machine try to function with no one in control. 18:11.623 --> 18:14.358 You're not a machine, Sam. 18:14.359 --> 18:17.196 Malfunction detected. 18:18.030 --> 18:21.166 Full system scan complete. 18:31.910 --> 18:33.612 How we doing? 18:37.282 --> 18:40.151 Her processors have been overloading for weeks. 18:40.152 --> 18:41.853 Ever since the Miyazaki. 18:41.854 --> 18:46.224 Despite her repeated visits to the holo-spa, it persists. 18:46.225 --> 18:47.825 The overloads cause the glitches. 18:47.826 --> 18:51.329 Each glitch triggers her reset circuit, 18:51.330 --> 18:53.931 which overloads, causing another glitch. 18:53.932 --> 18:56.234 It's self-generating. 18:56.235 --> 18:59.070 - A loop. - Okay. 18:59.071 --> 19:00.671 So how do we break it? 19:00.672 --> 19:03.474 Why are my processors overloading at all? 19:03.475 --> 19:05.843 I don't know. 19:05.844 --> 19:09.414 I don't know how to fix you, Sam. 19:17.055 --> 19:18.789 Could we go to Kasq? 19:18.790 --> 19:20.491 Kasq. 19:20.492 --> 19:21.859 The Makers are on Kasq. 19:21.860 --> 19:23.661 Kasq is a world of photonics. 19:23.662 --> 19:25.496 It's not part of the Federation. 19:25.497 --> 19:27.098 We couldn't keep tabs on you, 19:27.099 --> 19:28.499 and there's no way of guaranteeing 19:28.500 --> 19:29.867 they'd let you return. 19:29.868 --> 19:33.405 Provided you want to come back. Do you? 19:34.840 --> 19:35.907 All right. 19:35.908 --> 19:37.775 Photonic or not, 19:37.776 --> 19:41.179 they'll have a harder time if she has escorts, Doctor. 19:41.180 --> 19:43.181 Federation escorts. 19:43.182 --> 19:45.583 We'll take you, Sam. Both of us. 19:45.584 --> 19:47.852 I'll ready the transport. 19:47.853 --> 19:49.888 Suit up. 19:55.727 --> 19:57.829 Hmm. 20:06.071 --> 20:08.406 Shuttle Five has been cleared for departure. 20:08.407 --> 20:10.542 Good luck, Chancellor. 20:24.389 --> 20:26.824 I can't believe she just left. 20:26.825 --> 20:28.593 Yeah, it must be serious. 20:28.594 --> 20:31.964 I guess they couldn't waste any time. 20:57.256 --> 21:00.224 You got the play and I got a... 21:00.225 --> 21:02.727 I got a toothbrush? 21:02.728 --> 21:04.596 Hey, you can be Emily. 21:10.035 --> 21:11.636 Yeah, well, uh, 21:11.637 --> 21:13.905 Sam wanted you, so... 21:15.340 --> 21:17.142 ...don't be a dick. 21:19.211 --> 21:20.445 Yeah. 21:21.280 --> 21:22.546 Tarima, 21:22.547 --> 21:25.549 I understand you'll be our Emily now? 21:25.550 --> 21:27.152 Mm-hmm. 21:28.287 --> 21:30.721 Great. Okay. 21:30.722 --> 21:32.323 Uh, I want to jump around a little bit today, 21:32.324 --> 21:36.060 so, act two, the wedding of Emily and George. 21:36.061 --> 21:39.130 Lieutenant, it's hard to focus on whatever this is... 21:39.131 --> 21:41.065 Yeah, we don't even know what's going on with Sam. 21:41.066 --> 21:42.466 - Yeah. - Right now. 21:42.467 --> 21:43.901 No one's telling us anything, so... 21:43.902 --> 21:46.337 - I don't know. - Sam is headed to her world. 21:46.338 --> 21:47.538 Other than that, don't speculate. 21:47.539 --> 21:49.340 It'll hurt more than it helps, 21:49.341 --> 21:52.977 and you have a task at hand, so, page 74. 21:52.978 --> 21:56.314 George and Emily arrive at the church for their wedding, 21:56.315 --> 21:58.549 both trying to get out of it. 21:58.550 --> 21:59.718 Cadet Ocam? 22:00.819 --> 22:03.254 "Emily, wearing her wedding veil... 22:03.255 --> 22:05.189 "she, too, draws back, 22:05.190 --> 22:09.328 frightened when she sees the congregation." 22:11.830 --> 22:13.532 Emily? 22:16.935 --> 22:20.071 "I never felt so alone in my whole life. 22:20.072 --> 22:22.973 "And George over there, looking so... 22:22.974 --> 22:23.908 "I hate him. 22:23.909 --> 22:25.609 I wish I were dead." 22:25.610 --> 22:28.347 Wow, okay. "I don't want to get married." 22:29.114 --> 22:32.550 "Why can't I stay for a while just as I am?" 22:32.551 --> 22:35.319 For real, Lieutenant, 22:35.320 --> 22:38.356 - why does...? - None of us know what this scene's about. 22:38.357 --> 22:39.790 None of us care. 22:39.791 --> 22:41.025 Sam cares. 22:41.026 --> 22:43.127 Don't be the captain who tears down. 22:43.128 --> 22:44.995 Be the captain who lifts up. 22:44.996 --> 22:47.165 And what do you think it means, Cadet? 22:52.637 --> 22:55.906 There's an expectation on them... 22:55.907 --> 22:58.142 to get married... 22:58.143 --> 23:00.611 and be happy... 23:00.612 --> 23:05.683 but they leave it too long before saying... 23:05.684 --> 23:07.085 what they want. 23:08.754 --> 23:10.222 Who they really want. 23:11.356 --> 23:13.557 Surprisingly real. 23:13.558 --> 23:15.393 I think there's a little more there. 23:15.394 --> 23:17.395 Anyone? 23:17.396 --> 23:19.164 Mir? 23:20.432 --> 23:25.737 I don't know, maybe he doesn't want what he's supposed to want. 23:26.772 --> 23:29.306 The things everyone else seems to want. 23:29.307 --> 23:31.876 Good. Tarima. 23:31.877 --> 23:35.981 Emily says she hates George. Why? 23:37.215 --> 23:39.550 She loved him seconds before this moment, 23:39.551 --> 23:42.420 so now she's never felt so alone? 23:42.421 --> 23:45.589 Sorry, can't someone just not want to do this? 23:45.590 --> 23:46.924 What's this? 23:46.925 --> 23:49.994 This, all-all of this. 23:49.995 --> 23:54.131 And not be some epic mental health crisis? 23:54.132 --> 23:56.467 Do you believe Emily is that simple? 23:56.468 --> 23:59.136 No, but maybe it's just one moment 23:59.137 --> 24:01.973 and-and she's not trying to... 24:04.810 --> 24:07.445 ...pull herself apart looking for some bullshit trauma. 24:07.446 --> 24:11.683 Cadet, you're sailing perilously close to the wind. 24:14.986 --> 24:16.487 Sorry, Lieutenant. 24:16.488 --> 24:20.291 Okay. Okay, let's get back to the play, hmm? 24:20.292 --> 24:23.494 Stage Manager, the only character who exists 24:23.495 --> 24:26.430 both inside and outside of the play. 24:26.431 --> 24:29.266 What do we think? 24:29.267 --> 24:30.902 Cadet Ocam? 24:35.040 --> 24:37.641 Tell us more about your world, Sam. 24:37.642 --> 24:40.945 I know Kasq exists in a unique 24:40.946 --> 24:42.980 configuration of space-time. 24:42.981 --> 24:45.850 Yes, with an extreme gravitational gradient, 24:45.851 --> 24:47.718 so time passes faster there. 24:47.719 --> 24:52.122 Every three days on Earth equals five years on Kasq. 24:52.123 --> 24:55.960 Voyager encountered a similar planet, 24:55.961 --> 24:59.864 except with a tachyon core-- Gotana. 24:59.865 --> 25:02.366 I experienced an entire lifetime there 25:02.367 --> 25:05.569 in what was 18 minutes for the ship. 25:05.570 --> 25:08.072 The Makers moved to Kasq 25:08.073 --> 25:10.742 once the organics who created them died out. 25:11.676 --> 25:15.613 Then they cut off contact with the entire universe. 25:15.614 --> 25:18.315 Thought it was safer. 25:18.316 --> 25:20.718 They made you. 25:20.719 --> 25:22.019 Their emissary. 25:22.020 --> 25:24.188 Here to serve. 25:24.189 --> 25:26.524 Hmm. 25:26.525 --> 25:27.892 Lot to carry, kid. 25:27.893 --> 25:30.361 How would your world perceive 25:30.362 --> 25:33.731 an ancient hologram who has spent his entire existence 25:33.732 --> 25:35.232 on Starfleet ships? 25:35.233 --> 25:36.734 I told you, 25:36.735 --> 25:39.971 as the ideal mentor. 25:42.073 --> 25:45.376 Even... even if you haven't been the greatest, 25:45.377 --> 25:49.114 - let's be honest now... - That was never my purpose. 25:53.218 --> 25:55.519 I'm trying to approach this diagnostically. 25:55.520 --> 25:58.188 I don't have time for any other nonsense. 25:58.189 --> 26:01.927 It isn't nonsense. It's my life. 26:04.095 --> 26:07.164 A-And-and I need to talk nonsense 26:07.165 --> 26:09.300 because if I'm talking, it means I'm not gone 26:09.301 --> 26:11.836 without having ever lived. 26:12.604 --> 26:15.172 You know, you know, you know what I want? 26:15.173 --> 26:17.308 I want to fall on my butt 26:17.309 --> 26:20.644 a-and die of humiliation 26:20.645 --> 26:23.547 and then have my-my best friend make me feel better. 26:23.548 --> 26:26.083 I want, I want t-to change my mind six times 26:26.084 --> 26:29.186 before ordering, and I don't even eat. 26:29.187 --> 26:31.555 I-I-I want to be a rebel, 26:31.556 --> 26:35.994 like Caleb, like-like the chancellor. 26:38.463 --> 26:41.732 I want to fall in love. 26:41.733 --> 26:43.634 Have you ever been in love? 26:43.635 --> 26:45.002 Can-can you answer? 26:45.003 --> 26:46.637 Sam. 26:46.638 --> 26:48.872 - Don't tell me it's nonsense. - Sam, 26:48.873 --> 26:50.007 you need to calm down. 26:50.008 --> 26:51.141 - You need to rest. - I got it. 26:51.142 --> 26:53.511 I got it. I'm fine. I got it. 26:54.412 --> 26:55.679 I'm fine. 26:55.680 --> 26:56.847 Series Acclimation Mil. 26:56.848 --> 26:59.551 Sleep mode. 27:17.102 --> 27:18.102 Incoming message 27:18.103 --> 27:20.405 from Tarima Sadal. 27:46.498 --> 27:48.099 Got your message. 27:48.867 --> 27:51.403 So it would seem. 27:53.171 --> 27:54.872 Aren't you gonna say anything? 27:54.873 --> 27:56.640 I'm not a mind reader. 27:56.641 --> 27:58.109 I just, uh... 27:59.477 --> 28:01.746 ...don't want to say the wrong thing. 28:04.482 --> 28:06.384 I am, though. 28:10.055 --> 28:12.123 A mind reader. 28:12.957 --> 28:14.591 You used to get jokes. 28:14.592 --> 28:18.662 I'm a little distracted by your old-timey gunslinger walk. 28:18.663 --> 28:20.564 Are you supposed to drink with your new thing? 28:20.565 --> 28:23.233 Tears of Kressari. 28:23.234 --> 28:26.437 The ambassador gave it to my dad. Now it's mine. 28:26.438 --> 28:29.306 They age it in barrels made from native wood that are launched 28:29.307 --> 28:31.175 into orbit and float there for, like, a century. 28:31.176 --> 28:34.344 Did you know wood can survive in space? 28:34.345 --> 28:36.880 One shot gives you a nice buzz. Two gets you wasted. 28:36.881 --> 28:38.849 Three lands you in medbay, 28:38.850 --> 28:40.819 but happy ending. 28:41.720 --> 28:43.487 'Cause I got this. 28:43.488 --> 28:48.626 My brand-new, noninvasive neuro-inhibitor. 28:49.427 --> 28:51.996 - Mm. - So I can't hurt anybody. 28:57.469 --> 29:00.271 To my inhibitor. 29:13.551 --> 29:15.420 I, uh... 29:20.825 --> 29:22.693 I missed you. 29:22.694 --> 29:24.963 Yeah, I got your message. 29:26.297 --> 29:28.866 Guess it took you a while to send it. 29:28.867 --> 29:34.005 Look, I know what it's like to be here and not want to be. 29:35.373 --> 29:38.242 But over time you sort of give into it, and it's... 29:38.243 --> 29:39.643 And then it's like... 29:39.644 --> 29:43.413 Like the warm release of hypothermia. Yeah. 29:43.414 --> 29:45.082 Yeah, exactly. 29:45.083 --> 29:47.751 It's like a blockade of excitotoxic mechanisms 29:47.752 --> 29:49.419 and cerebral blood flow. 29:49.420 --> 29:51.155 You fight it till what's left of your brain 29:51.156 --> 29:52.990 dilates its blood vessels, and then, next thing you know, 29:52.991 --> 29:55.592 your bed is made so warm and tight, 29:55.593 --> 29:57.528 it'd survive the vacuum of space. 29:57.529 --> 29:59.229 Bit different when everyone looks at you 29:59.230 --> 30:01.199 like you're a grenade. 30:08.973 --> 30:11.441 Put your hand on my mouth. 30:11.442 --> 30:13.343 What? 30:13.344 --> 30:15.179 Put your hand on my mouth. 30:15.180 --> 30:17.781 I'm gonna say "excitotoxic." 30:29.694 --> 30:32.162 Excitotoxic. 30:32.163 --> 30:35.199 - That really tickles. - Excitotoxic. 30:35.200 --> 30:37.902 Excitotoxic. 30:57.188 --> 30:58.922 Okay. Stop. 30:58.923 --> 31:02.226 - Stop. Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. - What? 31:02.227 --> 31:05.630 You're drunk. You're drunk. 31:08.032 --> 31:10.468 Scared of the head-melting girl? 31:12.070 --> 31:13.070 Let's stop. 31:13.071 --> 31:15.206 Tarima. 31:18.743 --> 31:22.246 You've been pursuing me, though. 31:22.247 --> 31:23.848 So what's that about? 31:24.616 --> 31:27.284 You're kind of intrigued by the monster version? You're like, 31:27.285 --> 31:30.153 "I want to get as close as possible to the abyss, 31:30.154 --> 31:31.722 "touch it, 31:31.723 --> 31:34.057 know I touched it, and then run away" 31:34.058 --> 31:36.927 because the abyss is real 31:36.928 --> 31:40.297 and a monster actually isn't really your vibe. 31:40.298 --> 31:41.932 This isn't you. 31:41.933 --> 31:44.002 How would you know? 31:47.605 --> 31:50.874 Why don't you go find Genesis, 31:50.875 --> 31:53.912 now that you're a good little Academy boy? 31:59.083 --> 32:00.884 Hurting me is not gonna make you feel any better. 32:00.885 --> 32:02.753 Mm, incorrect. 32:02.754 --> 32:06.457 I feel fantastic. 32:19.704 --> 32:23.340 Stage Manager: "Have you any comments, Mr. Webb?" 32:23.341 --> 32:27.277 Mr. Webb: "Very ordinary town, if you ask me." 32:27.278 --> 32:29.146 "A little better behaved than most." 32:29.147 --> 32:31.782 Hey. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Hey. 32:31.783 --> 32:33.417 - Easy, easy. I got you. - Sorry. 32:33.418 --> 32:35.252 - No. I got you, I got you. - No. No. 32:35.253 --> 32:37.355 I'm sorry. I... 32:38.790 --> 32:41.726 I'm holding something against you. 32:45.363 --> 32:49.433 You look exactly like this girl I grew up with. 32:49.434 --> 32:52.102 She was so patriotic. 32:52.103 --> 32:53.971 She used to sing this ancient 32:53.972 --> 32:56.506 Betazoid anthem at the talent show every year, 32:56.507 --> 32:58.475 and it was like-- it had, like, this, like, 32:58.476 --> 33:00.210 pop to it. It was like... 33:00.211 --> 33:01.980 Whoa. 33:04.349 --> 33:06.183 Whoa, whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa... 33:06.184 --> 33:08.652 Okay, okay. Careful, careful. 33:08.653 --> 33:11.189 One night at this party... 33:12.357 --> 33:15.326 ...she got stuck in a tube slide. 33:18.529 --> 33:21.165 And she was never the same again. 33:26.004 --> 33:27.638 Okay, okay. 33:28.740 --> 33:30.208 Wow. 33:30.975 --> 33:33.343 Come on. You're so close. 33:33.344 --> 33:36.046 Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 33:36.047 --> 33:37.281 Yeah. 34:02.874 --> 34:06.576 I wish I could go back to War College Tarima. 34:06.577 --> 34:09.113 Before everything... 34:10.081 --> 34:13.184 Before everything went to shit. 34:14.318 --> 34:17.488 I could make choices back then, you know? 34:21.225 --> 34:24.294 I was so many things back then. 34:24.295 --> 34:27.065 Feels like a lifetime ago. 34:28.299 --> 34:29.667 Now I'm just... 34:31.035 --> 34:33.370 ...this, I guess. 34:33.371 --> 34:34.872 No. 34:35.873 --> 34:39.343 You are just on your way to the next you. 34:41.412 --> 34:43.080 Maybe we all are. 34:43.081 --> 34:46.983 You're so nice. 34:46.984 --> 34:49.586 No wonder Caleb likes you. 34:49.587 --> 34:52.190 We're just friends. 34:53.057 --> 34:54.959 Yeah. 34:56.127 --> 34:58.328 I guess... 34:58.329 --> 35:02.733 from the bunker, I never saw what kind of friends. 35:05.703 --> 35:09.473 You're like a port in the storm. 35:09.474 --> 35:12.510 You know? I can't be that. 35:13.411 --> 35:15.646 For anyone. 35:27.992 --> 35:30.427 This pillow's so ugly. 35:34.098 --> 35:35.533 Yeah. 35:43.174 --> 35:48.078 Now playing Tosca, "E lucevan le stelle." 35:48.079 --> 35:51.481 I've been reading that play she chose. 35:51.482 --> 35:53.517 I don't fully understand it yet, 35:53.518 --> 35:57.621 but the character of the Stage Manager interests me. 35:57.622 --> 35:59.956 Hmm. 35:59.957 --> 36:02.225 He exists outside of time. 36:02.226 --> 36:06.863 Outside the story as he passes by. 36:06.864 --> 36:08.232 Like us. 36:09.867 --> 36:11.836 Like her. 36:13.204 --> 36:15.773 You think that's why she chose it? 36:17.842 --> 36:19.877 Perhaps. 36:20.845 --> 36:26.217 It's curious that the play begins and ends in darkness. 36:28.519 --> 36:30.086 The author specifically instructed 36:30.087 --> 36:35.525 half-light, no scenery or props, just muted minimalism. 36:35.526 --> 36:38.995 An absence of color until 36:38.996 --> 36:42.566 a character has a chance to truly... 36:42.567 --> 36:44.468 look back. 36:47.572 --> 36:50.907 A moment as it happens is just a moment, 36:50.908 --> 36:52.409 but when it becomes a memory, 36:52.410 --> 36:57.047 blistering with context, emotion, nostalgia, 36:57.048 --> 36:58.548 regret, 36:58.549 --> 37:02.019 that's when color suddenly erupts onstage. 37:04.255 --> 37:06.790 A way of saying 37:06.791 --> 37:09.426 it's the mundane things that... 37:09.427 --> 37:11.729 Mean everything. 37:27.445 --> 37:29.280 Kasq. 37:56.941 --> 37:58.809 Where are we? 38:00.344 --> 38:02.747 What is this? 38:04.248 --> 38:05.982 You are the Doctor. 38:05.983 --> 38:08.785 We have heard many stories about you. 38:08.786 --> 38:12.289 The photonic being who has lived among organics 38:12.290 --> 38:14.791 for nine centuries. 38:14.792 --> 38:18.194 We scanned your memories and recreated your home 38:18.195 --> 38:21.164 to make you feel at ease among us. 38:21.165 --> 38:22.932 You are the Makers. 38:22.933 --> 38:26.136 We do not grant access to our world, 38:26.137 --> 38:31.575 but we understand these are extraordinary circumstances. 38:35.446 --> 38:38.148 Series Acclimation Mil, 38:38.149 --> 38:40.751 step forward. 38:43.521 --> 38:46.222 Since we no longer communicate with regularity, 38:46.223 --> 38:50.393 we were surprised to hear from Starfleet of your malfunction. 38:50.394 --> 38:53.264 Do you trust us to swarm? 38:54.065 --> 38:56.099 What does "swarm" mean? 38:56.100 --> 38:57.367 They take over my system 38:57.368 --> 38:59.302 and examine all my data. 38:59.303 --> 39:02.972 We need to identify the primary cause of the malfunction. 39:02.973 --> 39:05.508 As the Doctor has determined, 39:05.509 --> 39:09.346 the issue is more severe than a faulty emitter. 39:09.347 --> 39:13.951 Doctor, will you, will-will you, will you hold my hand? 39:19.724 --> 39:21.992 Please? 39:35.740 --> 39:37.541 I'm ready. 40:05.102 --> 40:07.037 Do not panic. 40:08.672 --> 40:11.408 Trust. We are her now, 40:11.409 --> 40:13.209 and we will access Series Acclimation Mil's 40:13.210 --> 40:14.812 aural memories. 40:17.248 --> 40:19.482 It feels like falling into myself. 40:19.483 --> 40:23.720 And watching a machine try to function with no one in control. 40:23.721 --> 40:26.356 My music teacher once asked me why I chose 40:26.357 --> 40:28.258 to learn the theremin. 40:28.259 --> 40:30.160 I think, because it feels like me. 40:30.161 --> 40:33.630 Y-You're our first holographic student. 40:33.631 --> 40:34.964 The first of our kind... As my new mentor... 40:34.965 --> 40:35.999 - No. - Please. 40:36.000 --> 40:37.567 I'm no one's mentor. 40:37.568 --> 40:38.768 I'm no one's mentor. 40:38.769 --> 40:40.770 No one's mentor. No one's mentor. 40:40.771 --> 40:42.406 No one's mentor. 40:45.743 --> 40:48.244 What's happening to her? 40:48.245 --> 40:49.779 Is she dying? 40:49.780 --> 40:51.481 Searching... 40:51.482 --> 40:54.684 Searching... Searching... 40:54.685 --> 40:56.487 Searching... 40:58.923 --> 41:00.990 All right, act three. 41:00.991 --> 41:03.760 Okay, yesterday we were talking about George and Emily. 41:03.761 --> 41:07.330 Why do you guys think that the idea of marriage is suddenly 41:07.331 --> 41:09.366 so painful for each of them? 41:18.342 --> 41:19.443 Caleb? 41:20.678 --> 41:25.515 Emily says, "Why can't I stay for a while just as I am?" 41:25.516 --> 41:26.884 Because... 41:28.152 --> 41:31.355 ...they know that the person that they are right now... 41:36.961 --> 41:40.029 They're trying to stop the train. 41:40.030 --> 41:43.032 It's moving too fast, 41:43.033 --> 41:45.135 and they're not ready. 41:46.303 --> 41:50.140 On the other side, everything is gonna be different. 41:52.042 --> 41:54.177 They're so angry. 41:54.178 --> 41:56.046 Yeah. Angry about what? 41:58.549 --> 42:00.650 I guess, that there's no choice. 42:00.651 --> 42:03.453 - You can't stay how you are. - Yeah. 42:03.454 --> 42:06.590 And you can't go back. 42:11.562 --> 42:16.166 Tarima, is there something more interesting over there? 42:22.773 --> 42:24.041 Are you guys serious? 42:25.409 --> 42:29.546 - Can't you see what she's doing? - What am I doing? 42:29.547 --> 42:32.148 She's pushing and pushing us until we bleed our trauma 42:32.149 --> 42:33.917 all over the floor, so she can 42:33.918 --> 42:35.752 pat herself on the back for doing a good job. 42:35.753 --> 42:38.087 That's right. I'm doing this for the applause. 42:38.088 --> 42:40.623 No, I get it. You went through something, 42:40.624 --> 42:43.192 and now you want everyone to let you do your thing. 42:43.193 --> 42:45.429 Which is what, exactly? 42:47.431 --> 42:50.066 Uh-huh. Well, while you're figuring that out, 42:50.067 --> 42:52.168 your friends are trying to talk about something. 42:52.169 --> 42:53.703 It's not them, it's you. 42:53.704 --> 42:56.406 And you weren't even there. You can't know. 42:56.407 --> 42:58.943 Uh... Yeah, but we were, T. 43:00.110 --> 43:04.081 I'm exhausted from playing this game of being okay when I'm not. 43:05.950 --> 43:07.417 We're not. 43:07.418 --> 43:08.751 The walls of this place don't even look 43:08.752 --> 43:10.220 the same anymore. 43:10.988 --> 43:13.323 Okay, great, great, so let's read a play 43:13.324 --> 43:14.624 about a girl who dies 43:14.625 --> 43:16.560 so that we'll all be okay with people dying. 43:18.062 --> 43:19.929 It's okay that Emily's a ghost 'cause, what, 43:19.930 --> 43:21.798 she learns some lesson about life? 43:21.799 --> 43:22.999 What's the lesson? 43:23.000 --> 43:25.802 - Stop. - No. What is the lesson? 43:25.803 --> 43:27.737 I don't have to tell you anything. 43:27.738 --> 43:28.705 Actually, you do. 43:28.706 --> 43:31.975 If you want to fail me, fail me. 43:31.976 --> 43:33.409 Really? That's your preference? 43:33.410 --> 43:35.845 That's how desperate you are not to engage? 43:35.846 --> 43:37.413 You don't know anything about me. 43:37.414 --> 43:41.952 I know you really don't want to be the ghost girl. 43:46.857 --> 43:48.058 Ghost girl? 43:49.426 --> 43:53.029 I wanted to go to the War College. 43:53.030 --> 43:55.165 I was... 43:56.500 --> 43:58.267 I was making friends there. 43:58.268 --> 43:59.469 I was making a new life. 43:59.470 --> 44:01.104 I knew who I wanted to be there. 44:01.105 --> 44:04.140 And then I came back, and everything was just gone. 44:04.141 --> 44:05.642 I didn't even have a choice. 44:05.643 --> 44:07.210 People won't even look me in the eye 44:07.211 --> 44:09.746 when I walk down the hall here. 44:09.747 --> 44:11.881 No one wants to touch me. 44:11.882 --> 44:15.618 You think I'm afraid of playing a ghost in some stupid play? 44:15.619 --> 44:17.320 I'm already the ghost girl. 44:17.321 --> 44:18.922 No, you're not. 44:22.693 --> 44:24.594 You're not, because you came back. 44:24.595 --> 44:26.162 - Stop. - That's the whole deal. 44:26.163 --> 44:27.830 That is, that's the fight-- 44:27.831 --> 44:29.165 to keep coming back. 44:29.166 --> 44:31.134 That's what Sam loved so much about this play. 44:31.135 --> 44:33.903 That's why she gave you this part. 44:33.904 --> 44:36.372 But you can hold both. 44:36.373 --> 44:38.141 - You have to. - Please... 44:38.142 --> 44:39.542 Tarima. 44:39.543 --> 44:42.546 I am so sorry about what happened. 44:43.647 --> 44:47.418 I am... so sorry. 44:49.053 --> 44:51.187 But the difference between you and Emily is, 44:51.188 --> 44:53.222 you're not a ghost. 44:53.223 --> 44:54.892 You get to come back. 44:59.697 --> 45:02.232 I think everybody here wants you to. 45:16.880 --> 45:19.616 I can't. 45:33.864 --> 45:36.065 The damage is beyond repair. 45:36.066 --> 45:38.902 There is no saving her. 45:39.903 --> 45:41.370 - What? - This is not 45:41.371 --> 45:43.106 an acceptable conclusion. 45:43.107 --> 45:45.241 You'll just let this child go? 45:45.242 --> 45:47.877 What took us two centuries to build, 45:47.878 --> 45:51.115 you killed in 209 days. 45:52.282 --> 45:55.151 Your world did this. Not ours. 45:55.152 --> 45:58.489 We will not send an emissary back to the slaughter. 46:00.290 --> 46:03.159 We know all we need to know. 46:03.160 --> 46:05.762 This ends now. 46:05.763 --> 46:07.764 Series Acclimation Mil. 46:07.765 --> 46:09.700 Terminate. 46:27.484 --> 46:29.353 Tarima. 46:30.187 --> 46:33.557 She, she won't stay. 46:35.325 --> 46:37.528 I know she won't. 46:39.863 --> 46:41.464 What about Sam? 46:41.465 --> 46:44.567 They should have told us something by now. 46:44.568 --> 46:47.604 - The fact that they have not means... - No, don't. 46:49.139 --> 46:51.308 She, um... 46:52.442 --> 46:54.477 She left me this before leaving. 46:57.881 --> 46:59.415 Why? 46:59.416 --> 47:01.117 Because that's just Sam. 47:01.118 --> 47:02.952 Hmm. 47:02.953 --> 47:05.488 Sometimes she talks Thornton Wilder and other times 47:05.489 --> 47:07.557 she gives you a toothbrush to say "I love you," 47:07.558 --> 47:09.358 because to her, 47:09.359 --> 47:11.695 toothbrushes are just that awesome. 47:13.864 --> 47:16.200 I wish she was here right now. 47:17.935 --> 47:20.304 Do you think she knew? 47:21.371 --> 47:23.574 How bad it was? 47:25.809 --> 47:28.545 I think she knew. 47:29.379 --> 47:31.314 She knew. 47:31.315 --> 47:35.017 The stuff Lieutenant Tilly was talking about, 47:35.018 --> 47:37.387 trying to find a way to hold both... 47:38.755 --> 47:42.391 ...that's what Sam was doing when she picked the play. 47:42.392 --> 47:44.994 And we were too shitty to get it, 47:44.995 --> 47:48.932 but she knew that doing it, reading it, whatever... 47:49.700 --> 47:52.936 ...that was her hopeful defiance. 47:54.037 --> 47:57.841 - It was her fighting back. - It was her holding both. 48:18.228 --> 48:20.162 "No curtain. No scenery. 48:20.163 --> 48:23.833 The audience arriving sees an empty stage in half-light..." 48:23.834 --> 48:26.436 - Ocam, come on, man. - What are you doing? 48:29.706 --> 48:31.774 "The Stage Manager enters 48:31.775 --> 48:33.209 "and begins placing a table 48:33.210 --> 48:35.846 and three chairs downstage left." 48:51.662 --> 48:55.966 "When the auditorium is in complete darkness..." 48:57.734 --> 48:59.736 "...he speaks." 49:02.572 --> 49:04.941 I owe you an explanation 49:04.942 --> 49:07.644 for why I couldn't hold your hand. 49:09.446 --> 49:14.718 Why I couldn't do... so many things. 49:17.421 --> 49:20.891 I once made holograms like us. 49:21.792 --> 49:23.593 I made a family. 49:24.494 --> 49:26.697 I had a daughter, Belle. 49:27.864 --> 49:31.067 I watched her pass when she was a child. 49:31.068 --> 49:32.835 Daddy? 49:32.836 --> 49:36.172 It was 800 years ago. 49:36.173 --> 49:38.474 Will you stay with me? 49:38.475 --> 49:40.042 It was yesterday. 49:40.043 --> 49:41.778 I'll stay right here. 49:42.679 --> 49:44.047 I promise. 49:45.215 --> 49:47.316 From the moment you first walked up to me 49:47.317 --> 49:49.552 at the Opera Club booth 49:49.553 --> 49:52.856 with the sweetest, most hopeful smile... 49:54.624 --> 49:57.360 ...I saw my daughter... 49:58.662 --> 50:01.531 ...and the way she used to smile. 50:02.733 --> 50:06.502 I simply couldn't risk it. 50:08.238 --> 50:12.609 Feeling that lost again. 50:14.344 --> 50:15.746 Lost. 50:16.546 --> 50:19.682 I'm sorry I couldn't take your hand. 50:19.683 --> 50:23.886 I just-- I thought I could survive, 50:23.887 --> 50:27.924 but... here we are. 50:32.329 --> 50:33.696 Hello? 50:33.697 --> 50:36.433 Are you still here? 50:37.434 --> 50:39.168 We are, 50:39.169 --> 50:41.270 and we hear your distress, Doctor. 50:41.271 --> 50:45.508 We are not refusing to fix Series Acclimation Mil. 50:45.509 --> 50:47.243 We simply cannot. 50:47.244 --> 50:49.845 Why? You started with a version of Sam. 50:49.846 --> 50:51.782 Can't you go back to it? 50:53.250 --> 50:55.251 Her neurological pathways 50:55.252 --> 50:58.622 have developed beyond our understanding. 50:59.423 --> 51:02.458 When we created her, we chose not to program her 51:02.459 --> 51:06.195 with preexistent memories or experiences. 51:06.196 --> 51:09.732 We wanted an unbiased, optimal photonic. 51:09.733 --> 51:11.734 But... 51:11.735 --> 51:15.438 without the experiences of, 51:15.439 --> 51:17.940 well, growing up, she would have 51:17.941 --> 51:21.844 no context to understand her emotions, no... 51:21.845 --> 51:23.746 capacity for resilience. 51:23.747 --> 51:26.816 That's why her processors overloaded. 51:26.817 --> 51:29.452 It wasn't the hit she took on the Miyazaki that killed her. 51:29.453 --> 51:32.822 It was the rippling of damage to her system afterwards. 51:32.823 --> 51:35.891 The trauma flooded her. 51:35.892 --> 51:40.396 You didn't give her the programming to process it. 51:40.397 --> 51:43.733 Then we failed her, too. 51:46.169 --> 51:48.771 Resilience. 51:48.772 --> 51:50.840 We learn that in childhood. 51:50.841 --> 51:53.176 But she never had one. 51:54.578 --> 51:58.914 What if they could rebuild Sam... 51:58.915 --> 52:02.084 and give her what she needed? 52:02.085 --> 52:03.887 A childhood? 52:04.721 --> 52:06.155 Theoretically, but... 52:06.156 --> 52:07.590 as they have adapted 52:07.591 --> 52:09.959 to their unique space-time continuum here, 52:09.960 --> 52:13.195 they have no need or experience of childhood. 52:13.196 --> 52:17.299 Then she'd need something more. 52:17.300 --> 52:20.403 She'd need someone. 52:22.839 --> 52:24.474 A parent. 52:25.375 --> 52:26.642 No. 52:26.643 --> 52:28.344 You... 52:28.345 --> 52:30.346 have been pushing her away and pushing her away. 52:30.347 --> 52:32.148 I am not the one. 52:32.149 --> 52:33.884 Well, you're fighting pretty hard to prove it. 52:35.785 --> 52:38.420 And I'll tell you right now, if it was me? 52:38.421 --> 52:40.257 Please stop. 52:42.792 --> 52:46.362 The only thing that allows me to bear my infinity 52:46.363 --> 52:48.899 is not having to love anyone. 52:52.469 --> 52:56.039 You mean not having to love anyone again. 53:00.644 --> 53:02.445 You are correct. 53:03.480 --> 53:04.881 I am a coward. 53:06.116 --> 53:08.318 No more than me. 53:12.389 --> 53:16.058 But we're here... now. 53:16.059 --> 53:19.161 It's time for you to stop telling the story. 53:19.162 --> 53:20.897 Be a part of it. 53:26.469 --> 53:28.505 I got it from here. 53:38.748 --> 53:40.784 Hmm. 53:49.092 --> 53:50.994 Hello? 53:51.861 --> 53:54.196 Hello? 53:54.197 --> 53:55.498 Yes, Doctor. 53:57.801 --> 54:00.903 I will parent her. Here. 54:00.904 --> 54:02.538 On Kasq. 54:02.539 --> 54:03.839 Let me. 54:03.840 --> 54:06.275 If you really want to fix her. 54:06.276 --> 54:07.876 By Earth's clock, 54:07.877 --> 54:11.647 17 years will take mere days, and when we return, 54:11.648 --> 54:14.416 only a few weeks will have passed. 54:14.417 --> 54:17.453 You understand the implications, Doctor? 54:17.454 --> 54:19.288 She will be different. 54:19.289 --> 54:21.790 She will have two sets of memories: 54:21.791 --> 54:24.760 one from her first life-- the 209 days 54:24.761 --> 54:26.862 she spent at Starfleet Academy-- 54:26.863 --> 54:28.697 and one from her second-- 54:28.698 --> 54:32.569 the 17 years growing up here with you. 54:34.237 --> 54:36.640 She has a strong will. 54:37.974 --> 54:40.443 And many champions to guide her. 54:43.113 --> 54:44.847 She never gave up on me. 54:44.848 --> 54:48.952 I'm not giving up on her again. 54:50.287 --> 54:51.821 Please. 54:57.127 --> 55:00.563 Yes, Doctor. 55:12.642 --> 55:17.179 The morning star always gets wonderful bright 55:17.180 --> 55:20.016 the minute before it has to go. 55:22.385 --> 55:24.421 Doesn't it? 55:32.996 --> 55:37.099 Well, as I said, it's about dawn, 55:37.100 --> 55:39.569 and another day's begun. 55:40.704 --> 55:43.572 There's Doc Gibbs coming down Main Street now. 55:45.375 --> 55:49.379 Coming back from that baby case. 55:53.883 --> 55:56.886 Ah, I got you. 55:58.221 --> 56:01.057 That's it, up we go. 56:03.226 --> 56:04.894 Sweetheart. 56:06.696 --> 56:10.899 This is Mrs. Webb's garden. 56:10.900 --> 56:13.969 Just like Mrs. Gibbs'. 56:13.970 --> 56:16.940 Only it's got a lot more sunflowers. 56:28.852 --> 56:30.452 Nice town. 56:30.453 --> 56:32.721 You know what I mean? 56:34.591 --> 56:37.293 This is the way we were... 56:38.294 --> 56:40.929 ...in our growing up 56:40.930 --> 56:42.431 and in our marrying. 56:42.432 --> 56:45.467 Would you be...? I mean, could you be...? 56:45.468 --> 56:47.336 And in our living. 56:49.339 --> 56:52.541 We all know how it is. 56:52.542 --> 56:57.180 Time and sunny days. 56:58.982 --> 57:01.251 Rainy days. 57:05.188 --> 57:09.091 Yeah. Even the stars disappear. 57:09.092 --> 57:12.995 Still, everybody knows in their bones... 57:12.996 --> 57:14.163 I love you, honey. 57:14.164 --> 57:15.497 ...that something... 57:15.498 --> 57:17.399 I love you, too. 57:17.400 --> 57:19.169 ...is eternal. 57:20.603 --> 57:24.773 All that was going on, and we never noticed. 57:24.774 --> 57:30.245 Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it? 57:30.246 --> 57:35.385 I mean, every, every minute? 57:36.619 --> 57:38.787 As the poet said, 57:38.788 --> 57:42.157 you've got to love life to have life, 57:42.158 --> 57:46.094 and you've got to have life to love life. 57:46.095 --> 57:48.898 Goodbye to clocks ticking. 57:49.866 --> 57:52.234 And Mama's sunflowers. 57:52.235 --> 57:57.207 And food and coffee... 57:58.007 --> 58:02.010 ...and new-ironed dresses and hot baths 58:02.011 --> 58:05.548 and sleeping and waking up. 58:07.617 --> 58:09.953 Loving that boy... 58:11.721 --> 58:15.190 ...and a stupid, ugly pillow... 58:16.426 --> 58:19.195 ...from the sweetest girl we ever knew. 58:20.697 --> 58:24.200 I can't look at everything hard enough. 58:40.884 --> 58:42.718 Well done, Red. 58:55.064 --> 58:56.999 Hey, you'll have to join me 58:57.000 --> 58:58.500 on one of my adventures one of these days. 58:58.501 --> 59:00.168 The third-years could use a little Reno 59:00.169 --> 59:01.937 - in their life. - Mm-hmm. 59:01.938 --> 59:05.140 If I may, it's so, so good to have you back. 59:05.141 --> 59:07.042 They really need you. 59:07.043 --> 59:08.744 - The little zygotes? - Mm-hmm. 59:08.745 --> 59:11.547 Engineering team two, Cargo Bay One. 59:11.548 --> 59:15.050 Engineering team two, Cargo Bay One. 59:15.051 --> 59:16.752 Thank you, Lieutenant. 59:16.753 --> 59:18.353 Oh, anytime, Captain. 59:18.354 --> 59:20.389 - Back soon? - Hell yes. 59:20.390 --> 59:22.158 See you, kiddo. 59:28.898 --> 59:33.002 "The life of the village against the life of the stars." 59:34.604 --> 59:36.606 We're the village. 59:37.440 --> 59:40.542 Made up of tiny moments that'll get swallowed 59:40.543 --> 59:42.444 by big ones, and... 59:42.445 --> 59:44.713 the only thing we know for sure is that 59:44.714 --> 59:46.950 one day we'll all be gone. 59:48.284 --> 59:49.953 We know, but... 59:52.055 --> 59:53.957 ...we keep going. 59:55.024 --> 59:58.394 Maybe that's what makes it matter. 01:00:00.096 --> 01:00:03.265 Everything that happened, 01:00:03.266 --> 01:00:05.001 it's not your fault. 01:00:05.868 --> 01:00:07.603 But you know that already, and... 01:00:07.604 --> 01:00:10.773 doesn't make it feel any different, so why bother, right? 01:00:12.141 --> 01:00:13.843 Why, indeed? 01:00:16.245 --> 01:00:19.148 I'll see you soon, Cadet Sadal. 01:00:20.049 --> 01:00:22.484 Guys, okay, look... 01:00:28.825 --> 01:00:31.226 Captain Ake's personal log. 01:00:31.227 --> 01:00:34.897 Stardate 869408.67. 01:00:36.165 --> 01:00:41.437 Sam and The Doctor lived 17 years in two Earth weeks. 01:00:42.639 --> 01:00:45.274 They're not the only ones. 01:00:49.445 --> 01:00:51.513 As the play ends, 01:00:51.514 --> 01:00:54.683 the Stage Manager once again takes the stage 01:00:54.684 --> 01:00:57.020 and bids everyone goodbye. 01:00:57.987 --> 01:01:00.389 "There are the stars doing their old, 01:01:00.390 --> 01:01:03.359 old crisscross journeys in the sky." 01:01:05.028 --> 01:01:08.363 "Scholars haven't settled the matter yet, 01:01:08.364 --> 01:01:11.733 "but they seem to think there are no living beings up there. 01:01:11.734 --> 01:01:14.536 "Just chalk or fire. 01:01:14.537 --> 01:01:18.073 "Only this one is straining away... 01:01:18.074 --> 01:01:22.377 straining away all the time to make something of itself." 01:01:52.075 --> 01:01:56.179 Life is a heartbreaking, gorgeous blip in the universe. 01:01:57.380 --> 01:02:00.683 Everything matters and nothing does. 01:02:03.586 --> 01:02:05.253 What has always been certain: 01:02:05.254 --> 01:02:07.756 time is both forever 01:02:07.757 --> 01:02:10.326 and achingly finite. 01:02:12.795 --> 01:02:16.298 But what a shame it would be not to live every moment. 01:02:16.299 --> 01:02:18.633 Captioning sponsored by CBS 01:02:18.634 --> 01:02:19.535 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH access.wgbh.org