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[♪ Sharon Van Etten sings "Seventeen"]
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♪ I know what you wanna say ♪
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♪ I think that you're all the same ♪
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♪ Constantly being led astray ♪
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- [Maya] Good morning.
- [Kali] Hey.
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♪ You think you know...
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Shuffle forward just a little bit.
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Gonna go on three.
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One, two, three.
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♪ Downtown hot spot ♪
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♪ Halfway up the street ♪
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♪ I used to be free ♪
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♪ I used to be 17 ♪
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♪ Follow my shadow ♪
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[over earbuds] ♪ around your corner ♪
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[knocking]
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♪ I used to be 17 ♪
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♪ Now you're just like me, down...
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[knocking]
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[Charlie] Yeah.
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[door opens]
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- Hey.
- [song stops]
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Don't tell me. Maya.
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Charlie. Good to meet you.
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Did you text me?
Weren't you supposed to text me?
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- Uh, I texted, yeah.
- You did?
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Well, shit. Uh... [laughs]
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Sorry. Come on in.
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You can use it as a nightstand.
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You can put it at the foot of your couch.
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You can put books on it.
I mean, it's good for books.
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I was using it for that. I...
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You in sales?
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[chuckles]
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Um, no, I-- uh, it'd take me a while
to explain what I do.
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But I-I'm working towards my PhD.
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And are you a, uh, doctor or something?
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That's cool.
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I'm a nurse. Is this drawer decorative?
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What do you mean?
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- Sorry.
- That way. Sorry.
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- No, you're good.
- [drawer clattering]
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That's not right.
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[both chuckle]
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It is supposed to open.
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Like drawers should.
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- I'll give you 75.
- [sighs] Ah.
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My gosh. I know you from somewhere.
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[sighs] Have we met?
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No, I don't think so.
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Are you sure?
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Yeah, I don't think so.
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'Cause you're familiar to me
in a really specific way.
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And it's...
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it's great.
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Okay.
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Um...
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[smacks lips]
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Are you gonna negotiate or...?
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[Charlie] Those are pretty cool
shoes you got there.
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They're grippier than sneakers.
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You don't have to defend them to me.
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Good. Yeah, I wasn't.
Everyone wears these.
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Not everyone picks that color though.
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- Well, got everything you need?
- Yeah.
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Want to go out with me sometime?
[chuckles]
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Um...
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Maybe. Yeah, I'll think ab--
uh, I'll think about it.
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- [chuckles]
- Yeah, mull it over.
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[chuckles] And get some outside opinions.
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- I'll be here.
- [laughing]
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Text me. You have my number.
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Want a ride home or something?
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You gonna carry that?
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I got it. Y-Yeah.
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- Okay.
- Okay.
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- Bye. [chuckles]
- Have fun.
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[gentle music playing]
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I got it.
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[sighs] Shit.
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[cassette tape clicks]
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[gentle classical music playing
over headphones]
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♪ ♪
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I just can't believe you had a Walkman.
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It's pretty cool.
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[Maya] Yeah. I, um...
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Old box of my mom's stuff.
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So, um, you made this?
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Kind of hypnotized me.
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Yeah, it's just, uh, it's a phrase
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from an old recording,
this old brass piece that I love.
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A few measures, but, uh,
I spliced the tape together
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so it plays like a loop.
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Except it-it...
it changes a little each time.
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Uh, the more you play it,
the more the tape degrades, right?
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It's just-- it's iron oxide
glued to plastic.
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So it dissolves, you know, it disappears,
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and the music just sort of, uh...
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Dies?
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Yeah.
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Can I keep this?
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No, sorry.
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[both laugh]
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Yeah, of course.
Technically, you bought it, so...
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What?
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I want to know about you. [laughs]
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What do you want to know?
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Uh, your-your likes, dislikes.
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What's the hardest part about your job.
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What pisses you off.
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What you love.
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How you feel about your mom.
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[♪ Beach House sing "Wildflower"]
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Everything.
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Okay.
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ER is chaos.
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It's, um...
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It's like working in a restaurant where
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everyone's ordering off a different menu
and they all hate the food. [laughs]
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[Charlie] Sounds relaxing. [chuckles]
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[Maya] I like it though.
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[Charlie] I can imagine, though,
that'd be kind of...
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Yeah.
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You learn to compartmentalize.
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[Charlie] Uh, you know,
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I like math.
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Used to ask my brothers
if I could do their homework. Uh...
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- So you were a nerd.
- Yeah.
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- [laughs]
- It was, uh... it was bad.
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[Maya] Yeah, I was.
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I was really shy,
and then in, like, fourth grade,
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we played truth or dare
for the first time,
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and I... I did every single dare.
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- I... [laughs]
- That was it.
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The planets aligned. [chuckles]
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- [stammers] Like...
- Oh, my God.
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I-I let my...
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Yeah, I... I...
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[laughs]
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Everyone realized that I was
secretly a little freak.
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[Charlie] Truth or dare.
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- [Maya] Truth.
- I had a really good dare.
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[laughs]
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You want to have kids one day?
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Um...
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I don't know. [sighs]
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I always thought I did, but now I wonder
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if it's kind of messed up to have kids
at the end of the world.
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[Charlie] How do you know
it's the end of the world?
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[Maya] I don't know. Isn't it?
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[Charlie] What if it's not?
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[laughter]
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♪ The sky and what's left above it ♪
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♪ The way you want nothing of it ♪
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♪ Baby, I'm yours ♪
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♪ You built a city ♪
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♪ all in your head ♪
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♪ You know you're not losing your mind ♪
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[breathing heavily]
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♪ What's left, you make something of it ♪
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♪ The sky and what's left above it ♪
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[song fades]
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[breathing deeply]
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Sorry. [chuckles]
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I have, uh...
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- Asthma.
- [chuckles softly]
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Nurse.
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[chuckles]
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It's not usually an issue, but, um...
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[chuckles]
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Yeah, you're... you know.
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Y-You should take it as a compliment.
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Tastes sweet.
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[whispers] You're a freak.
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[chuckles]
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[whispers] You're a nerd.
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Yeah.
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[gentle music playing]
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[quiet chatter]
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- Good morning.
- Hey.
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Hmm. Fun night?
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What is this? What is this?
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What is this face?
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What's what face?
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You like someone.
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[gasps] Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
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I am... I'm shocked.
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I don't know whether to puke or cry.
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You better tell me everything.
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I like someone.
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[laughing]
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♪ ♪
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[Maya] So you were six months old?
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[Charlie] Yeah.
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It's sweet that your parents
wanted you so much.
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Yeah.
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My mom said I just wouldn't
stop laughing, as a baby.
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I was, like, a really happy baby.
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That tracks.
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[laughs]
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Yeah, she's, uh, she's pretty cool.
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What about you? What about your parents?
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I was the product of a one-night stand.
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It was a... all-inclusive resort.
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Sounds like it.
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[both laughing]
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Sorry.
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Um, yeah.
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He was Scottish.
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He went back to Scotland.
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That was that.
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He just was, like, he was gone?
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I mean, I don't really know him.
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I don't, uh, I don't talk to my dad.
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I don't know my dad.
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What about your mom?
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She was 22 when she had me,
so she was, like...
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I don't know,
there's definitely resentment there.
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And, um, when I went to college,
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she moved to Australia
with her weird boyfriend.
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A different weird boyfriend
than she has now.
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But you, like, see her
for, like, holidays and stuff?
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No, I always did...
I did holidays with Jason.
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He was always on his own, too.
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We'd make Stove Top and, you know,
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watch Addams Family Values
and make the best of it.
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[sniffs]
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It was good for me.
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I learned to be independent.
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[♪ Julian Casablancas sings
"Left & Right in the Dark"]
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- [lively chatter]
- [Jason] Yeah. Look, I mean...
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Do you want me to help?
I mean, I-I want to help.
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So just call me anytime.
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I mean, I'm usually at the office
at, like, uh, 6:00 a.m., so...
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[man] Uh, okay. Thanks, yeah.
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I'll probably call you
a little later than that.
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- Yeah. No, I--
- Release this poor person.
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- Okay. Yeah.
- Charlie's here.
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I want you to meet him. Come here.
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[stammers] Yeah, all right. Whoa. Sorry.
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- [Maya] Charlie.
- Hey.
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- Hey, what's up, dude?
- Jason.
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- Oh.
- Here, sorry. Can you hold this?
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Hey, I'm Jason.
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- Great to meet you.
- Nice to meet you, dude. Oh.
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[both laugh]
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- You got a firm handshake, man.
- Thank you.
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- Yeah.
- Yeah, thanks. You, too.
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Thanks, man. I've heard a lot about you.
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- Same, dude. Yeah. Yeah.
- Oh. [chuckles]
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Okay, Café Midnight
at the basement of Towers, right?
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Maya's there. She's doing her work-study.
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She's got the hairnet, the gloves.
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She's serving the curly fries,
the mozzarella sticks,
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the-the triangle pocket thing--
What are the--
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What were
the triangle pocket things called?
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- The ones we loved.
- Uh, triangle pockets.
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- No. Maya, the tr--
- [Maya laughing]
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Okay, whatever. Forget it.
They're delicious, right?
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And she would never share hers.
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- [laughing]
- So, anyways, I show up there
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with a bunch of the hockey guys.
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They had some stupid bet about,
like, how much, uh,
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what was it, like, hot sauce
that one of the goalies
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- could drink or something, so--
- [Charlie] Okay.
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Wh-What position did you play
on the hockey team?
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No, no. I didn't play hock-- I-I-I...
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A lot of the hockey guys
lived on my floor.
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So I just went with them.
I was bearing witness, I guess.
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I don't know. What-what was I doing there?
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Anyways-- Wait, wow, you thought
I was a hockey player?
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- Yeah.
- You just made my night.
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- Yeah?
- Hey.
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[Maya laughing]
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- He thought I played D1 hockey.
- [Charlie] Yeah.
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- [Jason] I love this guy.
- [laughter]
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[chuckles]
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I told you not to make so much.
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Yeah. Yeah.
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You're literally
the only person I've ever met
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who likes Long Island iced tea.
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That's not true.
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Jason had a lot.
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Okay? He had, like, I don't know, five?
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He was drinking them with me.
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Jason will drink anything.
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- [laughing]
- Yeah, well...
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- Yeah, but... I'm still--
- What'd you think of him?
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He's awesome.
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And we're going to Wally's
for blues night on Tuesday.
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Well, be prepared that
he might flake on you, okay?
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Or he might show up really late
or drunk or hungover or...
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What-what? [stammers]
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...ask you to pick him up in Eastie
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because he's crashed
some bachelorette party.
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It sounds like you're speaking
from experience. [laughs]
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You know, he and I, um...
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I wouldn't even call it dating.
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It was like two weeks before we realized
that was absolutely not happening.
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- Hey, Maya.
- Mm-hmm?
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I don't care. [laughs]
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I don't care.
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I'm gonna get him water.
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[gentle music playing]
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[water running]
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[Maya] You see your family all the time.
Can't I just come next time?
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So you don't want to go.
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I just told you, I'm exhausted.
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No. No, that's not what this is.
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I worked a 16-hour shift yesterday.
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I... [sputters]
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I did CPR on a guy twice my size.
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I broke up a fight
between two drunk assholes.
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- I cleaned up vomit. I got peed on.
- Okay. Okay.
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I mean, does that not sound
exhausting to you?
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No, I-- It does, okay?
It sounds exhausting.
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Okay, so I'm sorry I don't feel like
being around a bunch of people right now.
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It's not "a bunch of people."
It's my family.
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It's my mother. It's my brothers.
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They really want to meet you.
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Maya, this mean-- Come on.
This means something to me.
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Now you're just trying to guilt me.
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- I'm not trying to guilt you.
- You're being a baby.
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- You're being shitty.
- [scoffs]
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- Good one.
- [door opens]
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- Maya.
- [door slams]
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[exhales slowly]
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[♪ Ride sing "Vapour Trail"]
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♪ I'll love you anyway...
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[Charlie whistling a tune]
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What if they don't like me?
15:19.813 --> 15:21.646
What if I'm, um...
15:22.646 --> 15:24.479
[inhales deeply]
15:24.480 --> 15:26.895
...if I just don't know
how to act around them?
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I'm-I'm-I'm just-- I'm not good
with other people's families.
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I'm not good with families in general.
15:33.063 --> 15:34.813
[Charlie] Can I tell you something?
15:35.396 --> 15:38.354
I've never brought anyone home before.
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Never.
15:41.563 --> 15:44.313
That's how sure I am
that they're gonna love you.
15:45.480 --> 15:49.270
♪ La-la-la, la, la...
15:49.271 --> 15:50.730
[Charlie chuckles softly]
15:52.105 --> 15:53.229
[exhales heavily]
15:53.230 --> 15:54.937
[seagulls squawking]
15:54.938 --> 15:56.729
[Charlie] You good?
15:56.730 --> 15:58.104
[Maya] Yeah.
15:58.105 --> 15:59.521
Hey, Mom!
16:00.938 --> 16:03.354
- [Ruth] Ker, they're here!
- [dog barking inside]
16:03.355 --> 16:05.563
- How's it going?
- [laughs] Great.
16:06.980 --> 16:08.020
- [Maya] Hi.
- This is, uh...
16:08.021 --> 16:09.312
- I'm Ruth.
- So nice to meet you.
16:09.313 --> 16:11.812
Ah, same here. Oh, my goodness.
16:11.813 --> 16:13.729
I brought you some flowers, um,
16:13.730 --> 16:15.437
- but I also brought you beer, so...
- Thank you.
16:15.438 --> 16:17.187
- Better yet. [laughs]
- Okay, great.
16:17.188 --> 16:18.937
- Do you want me to carry these or...?
- No, no, no, no.
16:18.938 --> 16:20.145
I'm-I'm good. I'm hearty.
16:20.146 --> 16:21.229
- Hi.
- [chuckles] Hi.
16:21.230 --> 16:22.520
I'm Kerry. Good seeing you.
16:22.521 --> 16:24.062
- [Maya] So nice to meet you.
- [Kerry] Welcome, welcome.
16:24.063 --> 16:25.312
Come out back. Everybody's out back.
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[laughs]
16:26.688 --> 16:29.229
[Kerry] Even after I paid the fee,
16:29.230 --> 16:30.854
this kid looks me
straight in the eye, he says,
16:30.855 --> 16:34.937
"Dad, I'm not joining
because Mensa is elitist."
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- [Charlie] It is.
- [Kerry] I told him, "I don't care."
16:36.646 --> 16:38.937
I said, "You're gonna sign
on the dotted line, pal."
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You know, which he did, of course.
16:40.230 --> 16:41.645
He's always been good-natured.
16:41.646 --> 16:43.812
- And I was ten. [laughs]
- [Kerry] Ten and good-natured.
16:43.813 --> 16:45.479
[Colin] That was when
Charlie got obsessed with zero.
16:45.480 --> 16:47.812
[Kerry] Oh, my God, the zero phase.
16:47.813 --> 16:49.562
I mean, it's something
representing nothing.
16:49.563 --> 16:51.562
- Uh, come on. That's cool.
- [Kerry chuckles]
16:51.563 --> 16:53.812
Remember when, uh--
what were you, like, 11th grade
16:53.813 --> 16:55.770
for that paper you had to write?
16:55.771 --> 16:57.062
- Oh, yeah.
- [Kerry] The non-paper?
16:57.063 --> 16:58.437
- [Ruth laughs] The non-paper.
- [Kerry] Yes.
16:58.438 --> 16:59.770
[Ruth] He was, like, protesting
16:59.771 --> 17:03.062
the invention of writing
replacing the oral tradition--
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Yes, replace the oral tradition.
17:04.855 --> 17:05.937
- [Ruth] Right.
- [Kerry] That's right.
17:05.938 --> 17:08.270
[laughs] So he recorded it on...
17:08.271 --> 17:09.604
- on tape.
- [Kerry] He spoke it.
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- [Charlie] On principle...
- Yes.
17:10.688 --> 17:12.020
- [Ruth] Yeah.
- ...I think it was consistent
17:12.021 --> 17:13.229
with the theme of the class.
17:13.230 --> 17:14.729
Yeah, but it was creative writing.
17:14.730 --> 17:17.687
The only thing written on it was
the letter "F," which is what he got.
17:17.688 --> 17:19.770
- But he still, he still aced the course.
- [Ruth] Yeah.
17:19.771 --> 17:21.645
[Kerry] That is our Charlie, right there.
17:21.646 --> 17:22.813
Brilliant?
17:23.521 --> 17:24.855
Passionate. [chuckles]
17:25.646 --> 17:27.479
[Matt] Hey, you guys want burgers, dogs?
17:27.480 --> 17:28.645
Maya?
17:28.646 --> 17:31.395
I'll take a burger, thank you.
17:31.396 --> 17:32.980
- [Kerry] Yeah, I'd like one.
- [Colin] Yeah, both.
17:36.355 --> 17:38.520
- What can I do to help?
- Nothing.
17:38.521 --> 17:40.104
- Thank you.
- You sure?
17:40.105 --> 17:42.145
Pretty much the state of things
around here.
17:42.146 --> 17:43.812
Just leave it.
17:43.813 --> 17:46.104
- Okay.
- Plus, the boys do the dishes.
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I realized a long time ago
that that's what sons are for.
17:49.980 --> 17:51.520
- Yeah, that's what we're for.
- [kids laughing]
17:51.521 --> 17:53.312
I'm building a fort!
I'm the king of the fortress.
17:53.313 --> 17:55.105
[Ruth chuckles] Yeah, not so much.
17:55.896 --> 17:57.354
Uh...
17:57.355 --> 17:58.770
You know what you can do?
17:58.771 --> 18:00.979
Uh, you can feed Wilma.
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- She was really good at dinner and--
- Sure.
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Yeah. Uh, the food's right there.
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Around there.
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Thank you.
18:12.521 --> 18:14.479
- [Maya] Is this Charlie?
- [Ruth chuckles] Yeah.
18:14.480 --> 18:17.770
It's the first photo we got of him
before we adopted him.
18:17.771 --> 18:21.355
Kerry just keeps putting it in all these
different places around the house.
18:24.021 --> 18:25.730
- So sweet.
- Yeah.
18:26.813 --> 18:29.105
You know, he's never
brought anyone home before.
18:30.896 --> 18:35.020
I know. He just told me that
in the car ride on the way over here.
18:35.021 --> 18:36.479
- Oh.
- I was shocked,
18:36.480 --> 18:39.854
because, I mean, you guys are so close.
18:39.855 --> 18:40.979
[softly] Yeah.
18:40.980 --> 18:42.354
Yeah. [chuckles]
18:42.355 --> 18:46.062
Well, must be pretty special, hmm?
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Let's go outside.
18:47.813 --> 18:48.895
Come on.
18:48.896 --> 18:50.229
[Maya] Okay.
18:50.230 --> 18:52.979
[kids chattering playfully]
18:52.980 --> 18:55.479
Who wants to go for a beach walk?
18:55.480 --> 18:57.937
[lively, playful chatter]
18:57.938 --> 18:59.354
[Wilma barks]
18:59.355 --> 19:01.438
[gentle music playing]
19:04.438 --> 19:08.020
[Maya] I didn't really know
this existed, but, um...
19:08.021 --> 19:10.145
- [Maya laughs]
- [Charlie] What?
19:10.146 --> 19:12.063
[Maya] Just... this.
19:13.230 --> 19:14.855
But I get it now.
19:20.563 --> 19:22.230
I love you.
19:25.688 --> 19:27.271
I love you.
19:31.146 --> 19:33.520
- [whooping and cheering]
- [Matt] Yeah!
19:33.521 --> 19:34.688
[laughs]
19:36.980 --> 19:39.313
[whooping and cheering continue]
19:43.855 --> 19:45.645
[horn honking]
19:45.646 --> 19:46.938
[Maya laughs]
19:54.355 --> 19:55.479
Thank you.
19:55.480 --> 19:58.270
[indistinct chatter]
19:58.271 --> 20:00.270
[laughing]
20:00.271 --> 20:02.355
[indistinct chatter continues]
20:06.355 --> 20:08.230
- Yeah?
- Yeah, you'll like that one.
20:11.980 --> 20:13.980
I know you mentioned it, but...
20:16.105 --> 20:17.187
This is beautiful.
20:17.188 --> 20:19.020
- [Charlie] Really?
- [Maya] Yeah.
20:19.021 --> 20:20.521
[chuckles]
20:22.771 --> 20:24.395
[reporter] I think "nasty"
is the perfect word
20:24.396 --> 20:25.687
- to describe it.
- [thunder rumbling]
20:25.688 --> 20:27.979
- We've seen pretty consistent rain...
- What do you think? Should we cancel?
20:27.980 --> 20:30.104
Everybody's gonna show up
even if there's a monsoon.
20:30.105 --> 20:33.604
Yeah. Yeah, it is my 30th birthday.
20:33.605 --> 20:35.854
I don't need an out.
20:35.855 --> 20:36.938
Do you?
20:37.980 --> 20:39.605
No. I'm good.
20:40.646 --> 20:43.687
Uh, Jason's gonna pick up my parents
from the train station.
20:43.688 --> 20:46.479
- Does he know to be on time?
- Come on, give him some credit.
20:46.480 --> 20:47.645
What do you think? Top button?
20:47.646 --> 20:49.812
Done? Undone? Should I get my jacket?
20:49.813 --> 20:51.105
Help me. [chuckles]
20:52.355 --> 20:54.313
I think you can save the jacket.
20:56.605 --> 20:58.312
What?
20:58.313 --> 21:00.146
- You're perfect.
- [thunder cracks]
21:01.355 --> 21:02.562
You kidding me?
21:02.563 --> 21:04.895
- [laughing]
- Seriously?
21:04.896 --> 21:06.270
[♪ Fleetwood Mac sing "Hold Me"]
21:06.271 --> 21:08.687
- [thunder rumbling]
- [lively chatter]
21:08.688 --> 21:10.771
[song continues faintly over speakers]
21:17.938 --> 21:20.813
- [lively chatter continues]
- [Charlie laughing]
21:21.855 --> 21:23.645
- Wait, literally?
- Just six months. One... Yeah.
21:23.646 --> 21:24.895
[Jason in distance] Charlie!
21:24.896 --> 21:26.687
- Oh, shit.
- Go. Go, go, go.
21:26.688 --> 21:28.020
Hey.
21:28.021 --> 21:29.729
- Hey, dude.
- Hey, hey. What's up?
21:29.730 --> 21:31.395
- Bro, you're so late.
- Y-Yeah, I'm sorry.
21:31.396 --> 21:33.270
- There's a freakin' thunderstorm, but...
- [Ruth] Happy birthday. Oh.
21:33.271 --> 21:34.687
- [Kerry] Hey, boy genius.
- [Charlie] Love you.
21:34.688 --> 21:35.895
- Hey, Dad.
- Happy birthday.
21:35.896 --> 21:36.979
- Sorry, guys.
- Oh, no.
21:36.980 --> 21:38.062
It's a thousand degrees in here.
21:38.063 --> 21:40.062
[chatter and music continue in distance]
21:40.063 --> 21:42.146
[thunder rumbling softly]
21:45.980 --> 21:47.521
[sighs heavily]
21:51.480 --> 21:52.645
[shushing]
21:52.646 --> 21:54.730
[chatter quiets]
21:56.355 --> 21:57.645
[music stops]
21:57.646 --> 21:59.480
[rain pattering]
22:00.521 --> 22:02.105
[cheering]
22:05.271 --> 22:06.270
[Maya] You told them.
22:06.271 --> 22:08.395
[laughter]
22:08.396 --> 22:10.438
- [Charlie] No.
- [laughter]
22:11.021 --> 22:14.020
I spend a lot of time, uh, in my work
22:14.021 --> 22:18.020
thinking about the...
the awe and-and wonder emotions,
22:18.021 --> 22:19.604
- we call them, uh...
- [thunder rumbling]
22:19.605 --> 22:23.687
What your brain chemistry does
when you marvel at really tiny things
22:23.688 --> 22:26.687
or stand close to really big ones.
22:26.688 --> 22:29.812
Just the things in this world that...
22:29.813 --> 22:31.771
they just make you feel really small...
22:33.105 --> 22:35.854
...but somehow...
22:35.855 --> 22:38.480
just really important
at the same time. [chuckles]
22:39.313 --> 22:41.729
It's just, you know in your soul
22:41.730 --> 22:45.187
that whatever you're looking at,
it's just, uh...
22:45.188 --> 22:47.480
man, it's-it's really special.
22:48.896 --> 22:49.895
[chuckles softly]
22:49.896 --> 22:52.771
Yeah, you just got to stand there
and take it in.
22:54.396 --> 22:56.730
Maya, I-I, uh... [chuckles]
22:58.230 --> 23:00.521
I-I get that feeling from you.
23:03.105 --> 23:04.813
- Every day of my life.
- [Maya chuckles]
23:06.271 --> 23:07.854
[chuckles] God, I'm so nervous.
23:07.855 --> 23:10.063
[laughter]
23:12.771 --> 23:14.771
- Charlie.
- Yes?
23:17.563 --> 23:21.479
I never even, uh, dreamed
of romantic love.
23:21.480 --> 23:23.563
[breathing heavily]
23:24.855 --> 23:26.855
I know how that sounds, but...
23:29.396 --> 23:32.146
...it wasn't something
that I thought I needed.
23:35.063 --> 23:36.938
And then...
23:37.896 --> 23:39.396
I met you.
23:45.021 --> 23:46.855
And you changed everything.
23:49.313 --> 23:51.313
You are my dream come true.
23:53.688 --> 23:56.770
You are the dream that I didn't even know
that I ever had. [chuckles]
23:56.771 --> 23:58.854
- [♪ The Lumineers sing "Ophelia"]
- ♪ You ♪
23:58.855 --> 24:02.438
- ♪ can't see past my blindness ♪
- [lively chatter and laughter]
24:03.438 --> 24:04.437
[exclaims]
24:04.438 --> 24:05.937
- ♪ Oh, Ophelia...
- [laughs]
24:05.938 --> 24:07.812
[Charlie] I really wish
you guys could stay.
24:07.813 --> 24:09.979
- Get home safe, okay?
- [Ruth] Yeah.
24:09.980 --> 24:11.354
- Way to go.
- Uh...
24:11.355 --> 24:12.645
[both laugh]
24:12.646 --> 24:13.729
- Don't go.
- Oh.
24:13.730 --> 24:16.479
We got you a hotel around the corner.
It was a surprise.
24:16.480 --> 24:17.645
[chuckles]
24:17.646 --> 24:18.895
It was a surprise.
24:18.896 --> 24:20.062
[laughs] And I'm just...
24:20.063 --> 24:23.062
I'm really just glad
that you got to do this
24:23.063 --> 24:24.813
the way you wanted to.
24:28.563 --> 24:30.355
- Love you, sweetie.
- [Charlie] Bye, Mom.
24:31.396 --> 24:33.146
- [Ruth] Happy birthday.
- [Charlie] Yeah.
24:34.438 --> 24:35.520
[silverware clinking on glass]
24:35.521 --> 24:36.812
- Excuse me. [clears throat]
- Here we go.
24:36.813 --> 24:37.895
- Here-here we go.
- [chatter quiets]
24:37.896 --> 24:40.520
I'm, uh, I'm-I'm Jason.
24:40.521 --> 24:44.187
I've-I've had the pleasure of knowing Maya
ever since college,
24:44.188 --> 24:47.187
and, um, and she has been my best friend.
24:47.188 --> 24:48.479
I mean, she's QB1.
24:48.480 --> 24:50.229
Never flinches, always shows up,
24:50.230 --> 24:53.937
- even if you need stitches at 3:00 a.m.
- [light laughter]
24:53.938 --> 24:56.729
She's the only person
I've ever wanted to hang out with
24:56.730 --> 24:59.729
until... she introduced me to Charlie.
24:59.730 --> 25:01.354
[laughter]
25:01.355 --> 25:03.520
How many people in here would...
25:03.521 --> 25:06.604
would consider Charlie
one of their best friends?
25:06.605 --> 25:08.104
[laughter]
25:08.105 --> 25:10.520
No, I-- Me, too. Me, too.
25:10.521 --> 25:11.979
It's-it's a dogfight, man. It is.
25:11.980 --> 25:15.312
You know? I mean, I met someone earlier
that was from your kindergarten class
25:15.313 --> 25:17.895
that-that still lists you
as his emergency contact.
25:17.896 --> 25:20.104
- [Charlie] Yeah, Chris.
- Y-Yeah, Chr-- [laughs]
25:20.105 --> 25:22.812
I don't think I've ever been listed
as emergency contact, okay?
25:22.813 --> 25:24.604
But...
25:24.605 --> 25:26.520
Maya wins.
25:26.521 --> 25:28.646
And, uh, and she deserves it.
25:29.230 --> 25:31.937
And that is the greatest compliment
that I could give either of you guys.
25:31.938 --> 25:35.604
I mean, what-what-what
must it be like to...
25:35.605 --> 25:38.395
to know the-the secrets of the universe
25:38.396 --> 25:40.895
while the rest of us are just...
25:40.896 --> 25:42.645
stumbling around?
25:42.646 --> 25:43.770
You know?
25:43.771 --> 25:45.812
Looking for that kind of meaning.
25:45.813 --> 25:48.937
And you two are always so cool about it.
25:48.938 --> 25:50.355
Congratulations, you guys.
25:51.396 --> 25:54.354
Yeah, you know, you won the jackpot,
and I-I feel like I did, too.
25:54.355 --> 25:55.854
[cheering and applause]
25:55.855 --> 25:57.854
[♪ Depeche Mode sing
"Just Can't Get Enough"]
25:57.855 --> 25:59.145
[Charlie] Dude, "secrets of the universe"?
25:59.146 --> 26:00.229
[chuckles]
26:00.230 --> 26:01.770
[camera clicks]
26:01.771 --> 26:03.355
[lively chatter]
26:08.480 --> 26:10.270
♪ When I'm with you, baby ♪
26:10.271 --> 26:12.104
♪ I go out of my head ♪
26:12.105 --> 26:16.437
♪ and I just can't get enough,
and I just can't get enough ♪
26:16.438 --> 26:18.604
♪ All the things you do to me
and everything you said...
26:18.605 --> 26:19.937
I'm married!
26:19.938 --> 26:21.105
[laughing]
26:21.813 --> 26:24.020
♪ I just can't get enough ♪
26:24.021 --> 26:26.770
- ♪ We slip and slide as we fall in love ♪
- [shouts]
26:26.771 --> 26:31.062
♪ and I just can't seem
to get enough of ♪
26:31.063 --> 26:32.354
[laughing]
26:32.355 --> 26:33.562
[coughs]
26:33.563 --> 26:36.021
Ah, it's so crazy we're married.
26:37.605 --> 26:39.104
Did you tell Jason?
26:39.105 --> 26:41.104
What?
26:41.105 --> 26:42.604
Like, before?
26:42.605 --> 26:44.020
No.
26:44.021 --> 26:45.896
No, I promised I wouldn't.
26:47.521 --> 26:48.604
He was really great.
26:48.605 --> 26:50.479
Yeah, he was.
26:50.480 --> 26:51.813
[Charlie chuckles softly]
26:52.813 --> 26:54.145
He's got soul. [laughs]
26:54.146 --> 26:55.895
He's got the soul of a poet.
26:55.896 --> 26:56.979
It's great.
26:56.980 --> 26:58.770
[both laugh]
26:58.771 --> 27:00.230
Ah, I'm so hot.
27:01.271 --> 27:03.063
So hot.
27:06.271 --> 27:07.979
I got an idea.
27:07.980 --> 27:09.312
What?
27:09.313 --> 27:10.437
[grunts, chuckles]
27:10.438 --> 27:12.479
- Where we going?
- Come here.
27:12.480 --> 27:14.562
[chuckles]
27:14.563 --> 27:16.645
- This is my idea. [laughing]
- Oh, really?
27:16.646 --> 27:18.229
Oh, my God. What was I thinking?
27:18.230 --> 27:20.229
This was a bad idea. [laughs]
27:20.230 --> 27:21.479
Ah, it's great.
27:21.480 --> 27:22.812
[both laugh]
27:22.813 --> 27:24.562
This is the best thing we've ever done.
27:24.563 --> 27:25.979
[exhales slowly]
27:25.980 --> 27:27.063
The ice bath?
27:27.646 --> 27:29.145
No, the wedding, Maya.
27:29.146 --> 27:30.354
- [laughing]
- The wedding.
27:30.355 --> 27:32.354
- [♪ Bleachers sing "Blood Brothers"]
- ♪ Just to save you ♪
27:32.355 --> 27:34.520
♪ then ready to go ♪
27:34.521 --> 27:36.520
♪ Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
27:36.521 --> 27:38.562
♪ God, please ♪
27:38.563 --> 27:40.062
♪ make it all go slow ♪
27:40.063 --> 27:41.521
[playful chatter]
27:43.605 --> 27:47.980
♪ The bad beats, the radio ♪
27:48.980 --> 27:50.729
♪ Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪
27:50.730 --> 27:52.812
♪ Blood brother ♪
27:52.813 --> 27:55.979
♪ it's over soon ♪
27:55.980 --> 27:57.645
♪ I'll always carry you...
27:57.646 --> 28:00.604
Wait, wait! Not that one.
Not that one. Not that one.
28:00.605 --> 28:02.145
[Jason] Uh, Maya.
28:02.146 --> 28:03.729
Potato or sweet potato?
28:03.730 --> 28:05.145
- [Maya] Sweet potato.
- [smoke alarm beeping]
28:05.146 --> 28:07.187
Oh. [mutters]
28:07.188 --> 28:08.854
- [exclaims]
- Uh...
28:08.855 --> 28:11.479
- [coughs]
- Get the window.
28:11.480 --> 28:13.313
[urgent chatter]
28:16.938 --> 28:18.062
- It looks good.
- What?
28:18.063 --> 28:19.604
- [Charlie laughing]
- It looks good.
28:19.605 --> 28:21.187
- [Kali] Oh, it looks fine.
- [Charlie] Yeah, it's crispy.
28:21.188 --> 28:22.520
[beeping stops]
28:22.521 --> 28:25.813
♪ I'll meet you
in forever's parking lot...
28:27.771 --> 28:29.105
Foul. Foul.
28:30.146 --> 28:31.937
♪ God, please ♪
28:31.938 --> 28:33.938
♪ make it all go slow ♪
28:36.938 --> 28:39.145
♪ Blood brother ♪
28:39.146 --> 28:42.270
♪ it's over soon ♪
28:42.271 --> 28:43.729
- ♪ I'll always carry you ♪
- [song fades]
28:43.730 --> 28:45.687
Sorry to interrupt your date.
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- Mm. We don't mind a little third wheel.
- Yeah.
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How'd you find us?
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[Charlie and Jason laughing]
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- [food sizzling]
- [quiet chatter]
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You, uh... you think
this is gonna be a big thing?
28:57.438 --> 28:58.937
[newswoman over TV] ...here in the US.
28:58.938 --> 29:02.812
America's 15th case comes
as infections skyrocket
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across mainland China and spread...
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- [urgent chatter]
- [people coughing]
29:07.355 --> 29:09.187
We'll get you another blanket, okay?
29:09.188 --> 29:11.271
[urgent chatter and coughing continue]
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[Maya] Kali, any room in the ICU?
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- How's bed 19?
- No. And bad.
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[woman speaking Armenian over tablet]
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[Maya] Mr. Alvarez.
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We're still waiting on a room, but can I
get you a warm blanket while we wait?
29:41.021 --> 29:43.854
One of the nurses showed me the review
for your restaurant in the Globe.
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It looks amazing.
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I can't wait to bring my husband.
29:46.521 --> 29:47.687
He's gonna order half the menu.
29:47.688 --> 29:49.729
I'm gonna be right back
with your blanket, okay?
29:49.730 --> 29:52.230
[woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.]
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[woman speaking indistinctly
over speakers]
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[Maya] Hey, sweetie.
30:11.063 --> 30:13.563
[Charlie] Hey, babe. Be off in a second.
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Next, I think we'll get into
30:17.355 --> 30:20.520
the Attention Restoration Theory
using sound.
30:20.521 --> 30:22.562
- [dog barking over speakers]
- I know that, um...
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[man over speakers] Sorry,
I'll go on mute.
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[woman over speakers] Can you elaborate on
30:27.188 --> 30:31.104
the relationship between auditory stimuli
and neurodivergence?
30:31.105 --> 30:32.438
- [Charlie] Yeah. Actually...
- [shower knob squeaks]
30:38.146 --> 30:39.521
[Charlie] Hey.
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- Thank you.
- Yeah.
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[sighs] How was today?
30:47.146 --> 30:49.354
They turned the hockey rink into a morgue.
30:49.355 --> 30:50.646
[sighs]
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Well, uh...
30:54.230 --> 30:56.354
well, at least tomorrow you have...
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- Mm-mm.
- What?
30:59.605 --> 31:00.979
I have to go in.
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They're short-staffed. Everybody's sick.
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I think you need to go stay at your mom's.
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No.
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I'm staying here with you.
31:11.480 --> 31:12.979
- [door opens]
- Uh, take your time.
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- I'm starting dinner.
- [door closes]
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[sighs]
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[somber music playing]
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[breathes deeply]
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[kissing]
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[woman] We should cross.
31:40.438 --> 31:42.438
- [busy chatter]
- [people coughing]
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[device beeping]
31:45.271 --> 31:46.563
[Maya] Kali.
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We got this.
31:49.813 --> 31:51.312
[medical alarm beeping]
31:51.313 --> 31:53.729
- [man over P.A.] Code blue.
- [nurse] Coding. I need paddles.
31:53.730 --> 31:55.479
- Bed 15, Alvarez.
- [man over P.A.] Code blue.
31:55.480 --> 31:57.437
- [nurse] Go, go, go!
- [doctor] Shock.
31:57.438 --> 31:58.895
[electrical thump]
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[doctor 2] Starting compressions.
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- [defibrillator charging]
- [doctor 3] Reset.
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Charge to 300.
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[doctor 4] Clear.
32:04.063 --> 32:05.270
- [doctor] Shock.
- [electrical thump]
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♪ ♪
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- [glass clinks]
- [drink pours]
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Hey.
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[Maya sighs]
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Bad one?
32:37.896 --> 32:39.646
[sighs] That's really sweet.
32:49.771 --> 32:52.396
[♪ Nara Leão sings "Diz Que Vou Por Aí"]
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When all this is over,
I just want to run away.
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Can I come with you? [chuckles]
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Where you want to go?
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I want to go all the places
we talked about
33:03.105 --> 33:04.854
- but we haven't actually been.
- Okay, so Japan.
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You want to go there. I know that.
33:06.688 --> 33:08.229
- Yeah.
- Where else?
33:08.230 --> 33:10.687
- Portugal.
- Cool.
33:10.688 --> 33:11.812
Spain.
33:11.813 --> 33:14.312
Hold on. I'm writing this down.
33:14.313 --> 33:16.395
[song continues quietly
with lyrics in Portuguese]
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[sighs]
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Uh, so Japan's on there.
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What was the other-- Spain.
33:24.396 --> 33:26.187
Portugal.
33:26.188 --> 33:28.937
The whole I-Iberian Peninsula. [chuckles]
33:28.938 --> 33:30.479
What else?
33:30.480 --> 33:35.187
I've always wanted to do one of those,
um, swamp tour things.
33:35.188 --> 33:37.020
[chuckles] You serious?
33:37.021 --> 33:38.771
- What? [laughs]
- Okay.
33:39.480 --> 33:41.563
"Swamp tour things." Great.
33:43.355 --> 33:44.979
What if we really did?
33:44.980 --> 33:47.771
I mean, what if I took leave
for a while and...
33:49.313 --> 33:51.063
- ...we traveled?
- Really?
33:51.646 --> 33:52.646
Yeah.
33:53.646 --> 33:54.855
Okay.
33:56.146 --> 33:57.145
Okay, yeah.
33:57.146 --> 33:58.270
Hell yeah.
33:58.271 --> 33:59.979
I'll apply for a sabbatical.
33:59.980 --> 34:03.395
So, we travel the world,
you'll wrestle some alligators
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in the swamps. [chuckles]
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[laughing]
34:08.146 --> 34:09.687
And then what? What do you want to do?
34:09.688 --> 34:11.396
Come home and...?
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[both laugh]
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What? I didn't say anything.
34:19.146 --> 34:21.146
- I can hear you thinking.
- Can you?
34:23.896 --> 34:24.980
Uh, look, I...
34:27.230 --> 34:28.855
I want what you want.
34:29.980 --> 34:31.896
Okay? And we're already a family.
34:32.980 --> 34:33.980
And I love it.
34:35.980 --> 34:38.021
But I think we'd be really good at it.
34:38.980 --> 34:40.395
I do.
34:40.396 --> 34:42.146
And I think we'd have a lot of fun.
34:45.230 --> 34:46.854
[inhales sharply]
34:46.855 --> 34:50.520
It's always scared me so much
just to even...
34:50.521 --> 34:51.980
think about.
34:54.188 --> 34:56.020
But with you, I can really picture it.
34:56.021 --> 34:58.188
- Really?
- Yeah.
34:59.688 --> 35:00.979
Which is also scary.
35:00.980 --> 35:02.812
- [laughing]
- Yeah? [chuckles]
35:02.813 --> 35:03.895
I mean, yeah.
35:03.896 --> 35:06.395
[both laughing]
35:06.396 --> 35:08.187
Yeah.
35:08.188 --> 35:10.271
[siren wailing in distance]
35:11.646 --> 35:13.605
I'm gonna turn the music up, okay?
35:15.355 --> 35:16.813
Let me up.
35:21.605 --> 35:23.605
[siren continues]
35:25.396 --> 35:26.812
[music volume increases]
35:26.813 --> 35:28.896
[song continues with lyrics in Portuguese]
35:33.271 --> 35:34.645
[song ends]
35:34.646 --> 35:36.730
[crickets chirping]
35:39.938 --> 35:41.938
[Charlie coughing]
35:43.355 --> 35:45.729
[clearing throat]
35:45.730 --> 35:47.813
[Maya] I know, Ruth. I feel terrible.
35:50.105 --> 35:52.063
Yes. I'm well aware.
35:55.105 --> 35:57.479
- No, I'm positive, too, so I can't go in.
- [coughing]
35:57.480 --> 35:59.645
I'll be with him.
35:59.646 --> 36:02.020
- Don't worry. He'll be okay.
- [device beeps]
36:02.021 --> 36:04.145
- [TV playing quietly]
- [laughing]
36:04.146 --> 36:06.145
[Joe Exotic laughing over TV]
36:06.146 --> 36:08.270
Now it hurts. [laughing]
36:08.271 --> 36:10.270
[wheezing softly]
36:10.271 --> 36:12.355
[somber music playing]
36:17.438 --> 36:19.145
[Charlie coughing]
36:19.146 --> 36:21.271
[coughing]
36:24.230 --> 36:25.646
[coughs]
36:30.980 --> 36:32.020
[inhales deeply]
36:32.021 --> 36:33.480
[Maya] Jason dropped this off for you.
36:34.271 --> 36:38.312
He said he made it, but it tastes
suspiciously like Boston Market.
36:38.313 --> 36:39.895
[chuckles softly]
36:39.896 --> 36:41.854
[laughs]
36:41.855 --> 36:43.437
[coughing]
36:43.438 --> 36:44.604
[whispers] Shit.
36:44.605 --> 36:46.688
♪ ♪
36:52.105 --> 36:53.188
[beeps]
36:54.813 --> 36:55.896
[beeps]
36:57.813 --> 37:00.437
[Charlie breathing heavily]
37:00.438 --> 37:01.812
Sweetie.
37:01.813 --> 37:03.563
Yeah. Hey.
37:05.063 --> 37:07.645
Your O2's not great,
and you're short of breath.
37:07.646 --> 37:09.270
At 90, we're going in.
37:09.271 --> 37:11.312
No, they're, uh...
37:11.313 --> 37:14.062
[breathing heavily]
37:14.063 --> 37:16.063
They're not gonna let you
in there with me.
37:17.855 --> 37:19.896
We got to stay here at home.
37:21.563 --> 37:23.687
[Maya] How bad is it over there?
37:23.688 --> 37:25.604
[Kali over phone] Bring him in
if you absolutely have to,
37:25.605 --> 37:27.354
but we're still short on beds.
37:27.355 --> 37:28.562
- The hallway's overflowing.
- [coughing]
37:28.563 --> 37:29.896
It's not good.
37:32.521 --> 37:34.687
Sweetie, I'm gonna prop
your head up a little bit.
37:34.688 --> 37:36.063
[coughs]
37:41.771 --> 37:42.896
[coughs]
37:45.105 --> 37:46.855
[sighs, coughs]
37:50.646 --> 37:51.855
[inhales deeply]
37:53.938 --> 37:56.020
- It's 90.
- [weakly] Huh? What?
37:56.021 --> 37:57.687
It's 90. We're going.
37:57.688 --> 37:59.020
Oh, no.
37:59.021 --> 38:00.562
I'm bringing you to the hospital, sweetie.
38:00.563 --> 38:01.771
No. [coughs]
38:02.355 --> 38:04.562
I work at Boston General.
Can I please ride with him?
38:04.563 --> 38:06.062
[paramedic] Then you know
we can't take you.
38:06.063 --> 38:07.395
- You noted that he has asthma?
- We did.
38:07.396 --> 38:08.895
Will you please tell them
to call me the second
38:08.896 --> 38:10.687
- that he is triaged, please?
- [ambulance doors close]
38:10.688 --> 38:12.020
Sweetheart, I'll be right there, okay?
38:12.021 --> 38:13.270
I'm right behind you!
38:13.271 --> 38:14.937
[siren wailing]
38:14.938 --> 38:16.229
You have to get me in.
38:16.230 --> 38:17.395
[Kali over phone] I will do
what I can, Maya,
38:17.396 --> 38:18.562
but you know how strict they're being.
38:18.563 --> 38:19.937
But don't worry. I'm on radio with them.
38:19.938 --> 38:21.020
I'm gonna be down here when he arrives.
38:21.021 --> 38:22.437
What's his O2 sat? He has asthma.
38:22.438 --> 38:24.437
- He has to be first priority for a bed.
- [radio chatter over phone]
38:24.438 --> 38:25.937
Oh. Oh, shit, Maya. He just syncopized.
38:25.938 --> 38:27.020
I got to go.
38:27.021 --> 38:28.271
[line beeps]
38:29.605 --> 38:31.313
[keys jangling]
38:33.271 --> 38:34.895
[man coughing]
38:34.896 --> 38:36.729
Kali, I've tried everything,
and they're not letting me in.
38:36.730 --> 38:38.229
Will you please come down here
and get me inside?
38:38.230 --> 38:40.520
[Kali over phone] Maya, stop.
38:40.521 --> 38:42.854
I'm putting you on FaceTime, okay?
38:42.855 --> 38:44.062
What?
38:44.063 --> 38:46.146
[siren wailing in distance]
38:47.313 --> 38:49.479
- What?
- Look, we had to intubate him,
38:49.480 --> 38:52.687
and h-he's not doing well on the tube.
38:52.688 --> 38:54.770
- Well, do something else.
- I'm really sorry, Maya.
38:54.771 --> 38:56.270
We're trying everything.
38:56.271 --> 38:58.730
Whatever you need to say,
you need to say it now, okay?
39:03.646 --> 39:04.687
[stammers] Hi.
39:04.688 --> 39:06.312
Honey, honey, honey, honey, honey, honey.
39:06.313 --> 39:07.395
I'm right here.
39:07.396 --> 39:09.437
Sweetie, I'm right here with you, okay?
39:09.438 --> 39:10.645
I'm right here.
39:10.646 --> 39:12.979
You're okay. You're okay, okay?
39:12.980 --> 39:14.229
Just stay strong.
39:14.230 --> 39:15.562
You're so strong.
39:15.563 --> 39:17.645
I'm right here. You're so strong.
39:17.646 --> 39:19.979
You're so strong.
You're gonna be just fine.
39:19.980 --> 39:21.895
Just stay with me.
39:21.896 --> 39:23.937
Honey, we're gonna have babies.
39:23.938 --> 39:25.562
We're gonna have babies.
We're gonna have a family.
39:25.563 --> 39:26.854
We're gonna grow old together.
39:26.855 --> 39:28.645
We're gonna do
so many wonderful things, okay?
39:28.646 --> 39:29.770
You just stay right here with me.
39:29.771 --> 39:30.854
- [medical alarm beeping over phone]
- [Kali] Coding.
39:30.855 --> 39:31.979
[Maya] You just stay right here.
39:31.980 --> 39:33.229
[Kali] Put the bed down!
39:33.230 --> 39:34.312
[urgent chatter over phone]
39:34.313 --> 39:35.395
[doctor] Prepare to shock.
39:35.396 --> 39:36.979
[Maya] Kali?
39:36.980 --> 39:38.062
- [doctor] Charging.
- Kali?
39:38.063 --> 39:39.145
- [Kali] Come on, Charlie.
- [doctor 2] Clear.
39:39.146 --> 39:41.062
[defibrillator charging over phone]
39:41.063 --> 39:42.562
- [doctor] Shock.
- [electrical thump over phone]
39:42.563 --> 39:43.729
Kali, Kali, Kali!
39:43.730 --> 39:45.104
[doctor 2] No pulse.
39:45.105 --> 39:46.979
[doctor] Resetting.
39:46.980 --> 39:48.270
- Charging.
- [defibrillator charging over phone]
39:48.271 --> 39:50.187
[Kali] Come on, Charlie. Come on.
39:50.188 --> 39:51.604
[doctor 2] Clear.
39:51.605 --> 39:52.895
- [doctor] Shock.
- [electrical thump over phone]
39:52.896 --> 39:54.980
[Maya sobbing]
39:57.605 --> 40:01.187
[coughing]
40:01.188 --> 40:03.271
[sobbing]
40:09.313 --> 40:10.687
[coughing, gasping]
40:10.688 --> 40:12.187
[muttering]
40:12.188 --> 40:14.271
- [gasping]
- [line ringing]
40:16.021 --> 40:17.937
[hyperventilating]
40:17.938 --> 40:19.146
[line continues ringing]
40:21.146 --> 40:22.355
[sniffles]
40:23.605 --> 40:25.687
[Ruth over phone] Hi, Maya.
How's he doing?
40:25.688 --> 40:27.687
[sniffling]
40:27.688 --> 40:28.812
[sobbing softly]
40:28.813 --> 40:30.645
Sorry, the TV is loud.
40:30.646 --> 40:31.854
Where's the clicker?
40:31.855 --> 40:33.146
Kerry.
40:34.563 --> 40:36.562
Hey. Hi.
40:36.563 --> 40:37.855
- How's he doing?
- [gasps]
40:48.605 --> 40:51.563
[phone vibrating]
41:02.105 --> 41:04.105
[phone vibrating]
41:18.480 --> 41:20.480
[car door opens and closes outside]
41:21.771 --> 41:23.937
[dog barking in distance]
41:23.938 --> 41:26.437
[doorbell buzzing]
41:26.438 --> 41:28.145
[Ruth from outside] Maya!
41:28.146 --> 41:30.604
[doorbell buzzing]
41:30.605 --> 41:33.021
Maya, it's Ruth! Let me up!
41:34.063 --> 41:36.145
[doorbell buzzing]
41:36.146 --> 41:38.604
- [crying] Maya.
- [breathing heavily]
41:38.605 --> 41:40.854
They won't let me into the hospital.
41:40.855 --> 41:42.646
Maya, I need your help.
41:44.813 --> 41:46.562
They won't let me into the... [sobbing]
41:46.563 --> 41:48.145
- [doorbell buzzing]
- Maya!
41:48.146 --> 41:50.437
[doorbell buzzing continuously]
41:50.438 --> 41:52.605
- It's Ruth!
- [buzzing stops]
42:11.938 --> 42:13.938
- [bird cooing]
- [wings flapping]
42:43.938 --> 42:46.646
[tram rumbling]
42:49.313 --> 42:51.062
[man speaking Portuguese over P.A.]
42:51.063 --> 42:53.146
[air brakes hissing]
43:03.105 --> 43:05.105
[pensive music playing]
43:07.438 --> 43:08.813
[tram bell rings]
43:13.396 --> 43:15.230
♪ ♪
43:29.771 --> 43:31.395
[Maya] Your surgery was Tuesday?
43:31.396 --> 43:33.104
[man over laptop] Yes, uh,
Tuesday morning.
43:33.105 --> 43:34.604
I tried my best to stay off of it,
43:34.605 --> 43:37.229
but if I have to go up
and use the bathroom,
43:37.230 --> 43:39.979
uh, I can't put any weight
down on it whatsoever.
43:39.980 --> 43:41.979
Did you finish your round of antibiotics?
43:41.980 --> 43:43.688
[lively chatter]
43:46.563 --> 43:48.520
Excuse me.
Can I get another glass of wine?
43:48.521 --> 43:49.854
[waitress speaks Portuguese]
43:49.855 --> 43:52.021
[man] Hey, are you American?
43:53.438 --> 43:54.562
[man 2] Us, too.
43:54.563 --> 43:56.562
We're here for a wedding, actually.
43:56.563 --> 43:57.729
Are you here on, like, vacation?
43:57.730 --> 43:58.813
[Maya] No.
44:02.063 --> 44:04.063
[man] Uh, s-so you live here?
44:07.980 --> 44:09.270
Sort of.
44:09.271 --> 44:11.395
Well, you should join us.
44:11.396 --> 44:13.145
Next round's on me.
44:13.146 --> 44:14.479
Yeah, I think about it.
44:14.480 --> 44:15.937
Like, I know the dance,
44:15.938 --> 44:18.729
I could do the dance now,
but whether it would--
44:18.730 --> 44:20.313
- [vomiting]
- [groans]
44:21.980 --> 44:23.395
- [retches]
- Are you okay?
44:23.396 --> 44:25.187
You still want to...?
44:25.188 --> 44:27.104
Oh, uh...
44:27.105 --> 44:29.312
uh, yeah, I'm good.
44:29.313 --> 44:31.396
[quiet chatter]
44:36.688 --> 44:38.229
[Maya] What color is your mucus?
44:38.230 --> 44:39.812
[patient over laptop] Maybe beige.
I don't know.
44:39.813 --> 44:43.480
It's just really thick and not nice.
44:44.813 --> 44:46.812
[Maya] I used to rehab antiques.
44:46.813 --> 44:47.896
Um...
44:48.688 --> 44:50.063
...like, fix things up.
44:51.063 --> 44:52.562
[smacks lips, inhales]
44:52.563 --> 44:54.104
[sighs] I-I don't know.
44:54.105 --> 44:56.895
I really don't,
I don't want stuff anymore.
44:56.896 --> 45:00.062
What about an entirely new activity?
45:00.063 --> 45:02.146
Something you've never tried before.
45:03.230 --> 45:05.770
And not connected to Charlie
45:05.771 --> 45:08.562
or your past interests.
45:08.563 --> 45:10.270
It's okay if you don't feel ready.
45:10.271 --> 45:14.396
I mean, sometimes we need action
to come before motivation.
45:15.896 --> 45:20.187
[group] ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
45:20.188 --> 45:23.687
- ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
- [man laughs]
45:23.688 --> 45:25.062
- [man] Come on.
- [man 2] Hey!
45:25.063 --> 45:29.270
♪ Happy birthday, dear Fábio ♪
45:29.271 --> 45:30.937
[man] Oh, oh! Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
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[urgent chatter in English and Portuguese]
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Ice, ice!
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- Get them some ice.
- [man 3] Ice.
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[man] We have butter here. Come on.
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[man 2] Give me your hand, man.
Give me your hand.
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[woman speaking Portuguese]
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Please don't put butter on that burn.
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[chatter stops]
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Just gonna trap the heat in
and get infected.
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I'm a nurse.
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[Felix] What do you reckon?
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- It looks good.
- Yeah?
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Blistering normally.
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Leave it like that for 15 minutes,
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- and you'll be good.
- Fifteen minutes?
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Get comfortable.
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What's the little bird?
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Oh, um, that's for my daughter.
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It's a character from her favorite book.
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She's five.
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So, like, what do you... what do you do?
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You... you nurse.
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You work, uh, work in a hospital or...?
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I used to. [sighs]
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- Oh, cool.
- [smacks lips]
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- That's nice.
- Million years ago.
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- Yeah, yeah.
- Okay.
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You're not, you're not staying?
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I've got a drink to finish.
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Let me get you a fresh one.
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I'll take you out for a fresh drink.
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In about... 13 minutes.
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You don't like fresh drinks?
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- What about your friends?
- They won't care.
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I've been with them all day.
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- I'm not really a good time.
- I am.
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And you look like you need a distraction.
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[ethereal music playing]
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So, um, when you're not doing telehealth
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and, um, rescuing people at bars...?
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I wander around, and I, uh...
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...I eat and I drink.
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Probably too much of both.
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So that's what brought you to Europe?
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Solitary hedonism?
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Distraction.
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In your words.
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We should go in here.
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I don't really dance anymore.
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What are you talking about?
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Let's go.
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[muffled dance music playing]
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[dance music continues]
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[singer vocalizing]
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[Maya] My husband died three years ago.
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[Felix] I'm so sorry.
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[Maya] Thanks.
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It's amazing how much you can
talk about your dead husband
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and people still want to sleep with you.
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I don't mean you.
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- I just mean generally.
- [laughs] Oh.
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I know, I know, I know. That's, um...
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That's a good observation, to be fair.
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- So, do you like mustard?
- Yeah.
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Do you like mustard
or do you love mustard?
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- I love mustard.
- We'll see.
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Say when.
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When. [laughing]
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Oh, you really like mustard.
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You really like mustard.
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So, what you, um, what you gonna do
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once you finished
distracting yourself traveling?
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I don't know. Kill myself?
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My brother killed himself.
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Shit.
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You didn't know, did you?
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You didn't know.
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[chuckles] Why you got that face on?
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You're fine.
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What was his name?
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Leon. Lee.
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Yeah, that's my guy.
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And thank you for asking as well.
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A lot of people, they just kind of...
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You know.
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- My husband was Charlie.
- Mm?
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- My husband was Charlie.
- Charlie.
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Leon and Charlie.
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And then you get, like... I don't know.
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People just say the dumbest shit, like,
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"Oh, you know, he's...
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...he's in a better place now, Felix."
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Eh, or, like...
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you know, "He's alive,
but he's alive in you now."
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And I'm like, "Bro, what?"
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Like, what... what does that even...
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what does that even mean?
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I know it, I know it's,
I know it's love and--
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But, like, that's not helping me.
[chuckles]
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At all.
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Sometimes I wish I could just forget.
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But I can't.
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I remember everything.
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I remember the way
that he... chewed his pens.
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How he made friends everywhere we went.
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He was just present and curious and...
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I don't know.
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I'm not special.
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I just met the person
that makes everything magical
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and interesting and...
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I-I-I got the thing.
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I got the thing that everyone wants.
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You know, I... I won the lottery.
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I...
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[sighs]
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And then...
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[sighs]
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Sorry. I don't know what I'm... [chuckles]
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Don't be.
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[atmospheric music playing]
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[bells chiming in distance]
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[chuckles]
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Take care of that burn.
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[gentle classical music playing]
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[phone vibrating]
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[doorbell buzzing repeatedly]
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[buzzing fades]
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[gentle classical music continues]
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[instructing in Portuguese]
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[♪ Kiko Rodriguez sings "Hoy Te Vi Pasar"]
53:50.646 --> 53:52.646
[teacher continues instructing
in Portuguese]
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[music stops]
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[instructing in Portuguese]
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Meo português no é bono.
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[chuckles] Don't worry.
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You just follow me.
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["Hoy Te Vi Pasar" resumes playing]
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[teacher instructing in Portuguese]
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[song continues with lyrics in Portuguese]
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[teacher continues instructing
in Portuguese]
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♪ ♪
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[chuckles] Sorry.
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- One, two. One, two.
- [song fades]
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[man singing "Fado Novembro"
with lyrics in Portuguese]
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[playing gentle guitar music]
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[singing continues]
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[Beatriz] I used to hate fado.
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[Maya] How come?
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The Salazar regime.
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They took it. They use it.
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So it reminded me of that time.
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But these young, beautiful people,
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they make it new again.
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So now, uh, I think I like it.
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And you, too.
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So young and beautiful.
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I don't feel very young.
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Don't say that.
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[both laugh]
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I don't like you
when you say those things.
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- [laughing] Please.
- [laughing]
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I mean, I-I don't feel...
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I don't feel very young inside.
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Don't choose to be unhappy.
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It's lazy, and it's harder.
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- [Beatriz laughs]
- Okay.
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Valentona.
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Understand?
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I think so.
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["Fado Novembro" continues
with lyrics in Portuguese]
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[lively chatter]
56:33.938 --> 56:35.938
♪ ♪
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[keys clatter]
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[moaning]
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[song ends]
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[Felix sighs]
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I'm going to the Algarve.
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It's a site visit for work.
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And then I'm going back to London.
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Um...
57:13.230 --> 57:17.229
I was just wondering
if you wanted to, um...
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join me at the beach before I go back.
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You don't have to say anything.
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Um, you know, you can,
you can come or, um,
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obviously, you can not come.
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[chuckles] Yeah.
57:33.188 --> 57:36.854
But, um, yeah, I leave 12:00 tomorrow.
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On the train.
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Um... yeah.
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Bye.
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[door opens, closes]
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[woman speaking Portuguese over P.A.]
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[busy chatter]
57:59.646 --> 58:02.730
[♪ Cigarettes After Sex sing "Apocalypse"]
58:10.855 --> 58:12.855
♪ ♪
58:13.938 --> 58:16.271
[seagulls squawking]
58:21.021 --> 58:22.646
[laughs]
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[Felix] Henrique. Hello, mate.
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Um, it's Felix again.
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Uh, we're locked out.
58:31.105 --> 58:33.562
Give us a call back as soon as you can.
My phone's about to die.
58:33.563 --> 58:38.188
♪ Watching cityscapes turn to dust ♪
58:41.105 --> 58:44.187
♪ Filming helicopters crashing ♪
58:44.188 --> 58:47.437
♪ in the ocean from way above ♪
58:47.438 --> 58:49.937
Me and Leon used to do this all the time
58:49.938 --> 58:51.895
in Brighton as kids.
58:51.896 --> 58:54.479
♪ Got the music in you, baby ♪
58:54.480 --> 58:57.062
♪ Tell me why ♪
58:57.063 --> 58:59.562
♪ Got the music in you, baby ♪
58:59.563 --> 59:02.104
♪ Tell me why ♪
59:02.105 --> 59:04.895
♪ You've been locked in here forever ♪
59:04.896 --> 59:08.396
♪ and you just can't say goodbye ♪
59:13.146 --> 59:16.187
♪ Kisses on the foreheads of the lovers ♪
59:16.188 --> 59:19.188
♪ wrapped in your arms ♪
59:22.605 --> 59:26.645
♪ You've been hiding them
in hollowed-out pianos ♪
59:26.646 --> 59:29.605
♪ left in the dark ♪
59:33.146 --> 59:35.770
♪ Got the music in you, baby ♪
59:35.771 --> 59:38.229
♪ Tell me why ♪
59:38.230 --> 59:40.520
♪ Got the music in you, baby ♪
59:40.521 --> 59:43.270
♪ Tell me why ♪
59:43.271 --> 59:45.770
♪ You've been locked in here forever ♪
59:45.771 --> 59:49.480
♪ and you just can't say goodbye ♪
59:54.396 --> 59:56.396
♪ ♪
01:00:08.188 --> 01:00:10.146
♪ Oh ♪
01:00:11.188 --> 01:00:15.480
♪ When you're all alone ♪
01:00:16.313 --> 01:00:19.688
♪ I will reach for you ♪
01:00:21.146 --> 01:00:22.895
♪ When you're feeling low ♪
01:00:22.896 --> 01:00:26.729
So we've been working on this site
for the past two years.
01:00:26.730 --> 01:00:28.937
♪ I will be there, too ♪
01:00:28.938 --> 01:00:31.145
- Bom dia.
- Bom dia.
01:00:31.146 --> 01:00:33.230
♪ ♪
01:00:46.313 --> 01:00:48.229
[song fades]
01:00:48.230 --> 01:00:50.480
- [Maya] Wow.
- [Felix] Goûter.
01:00:51.480 --> 01:00:53.520
That's, um, that's what Noelle calls it.
01:00:53.521 --> 01:00:57.520
It's a snack French kids eat after school.
01:00:57.521 --> 01:00:59.145
What does "goûter" mean?
01:00:59.146 --> 01:01:02.270
Um, "chocolate sandwich"?
01:01:02.271 --> 01:01:03.520
"Chocolate baguette"?
01:01:03.521 --> 01:01:04.770
[chuckles] I don't know.
01:01:04.771 --> 01:01:06.895
I just know that that's what she likes.
01:01:06.896 --> 01:01:08.479
I can tell you like being a dad.
01:01:08.480 --> 01:01:10.980
[chuckles] Yeah, I do.
01:01:11.730 --> 01:01:13.979
Her mum and I have a...
we have a good setup.
01:01:13.980 --> 01:01:15.229
How'd you two meet?
01:01:15.230 --> 01:01:16.479
Um, art school.
01:01:16.480 --> 01:01:17.812
And I was awful.
01:01:17.813 --> 01:01:20.020
But, like, not like regular awful.
01:01:20.021 --> 01:01:22.187
I was really, really bad.
01:01:22.188 --> 01:01:25.229
And she was this...
01:01:25.230 --> 01:01:29.229
ultra-gifted, talented student
who, like, went on
01:01:29.230 --> 01:01:31.187
to open her own firm in London.
01:01:31.188 --> 01:01:33.145
And that's where I'm at
when I'm not working away.
01:01:33.146 --> 01:01:34.563
London boy.
01:01:35.730 --> 01:01:38.854
Did you two ever talk about kids or...
01:01:38.855 --> 01:01:40.979
is that not something you...?
01:01:40.980 --> 01:01:42.938
- [sighs] We did. Yeah.
- Yeah?
01:01:46.521 --> 01:01:48.605
Now I kind of wish that...
01:01:50.188 --> 01:01:51.188
Yeah.
01:01:53.230 --> 01:01:54.980
Have a piece of him left, you know?
01:02:01.521 --> 01:02:05.605
It's funny, I used to think
it was selfish to have kids.
01:02:07.063 --> 01:02:08.271
But...
01:02:10.396 --> 01:02:12.187
...now I think it's some kind of hope.
01:02:12.188 --> 01:02:13.562
Yeah.
01:02:13.563 --> 01:02:15.895
Noelle was, um, well, she was unplanned,
01:02:15.896 --> 01:02:21.104
so I never really had to...
01:02:21.105 --> 01:02:23.479
like, tangle with that, but...
01:02:23.480 --> 01:02:24.729
she is a hope.
01:02:24.730 --> 01:02:25.896
It's true.
01:02:26.896 --> 01:02:28.980
[atmospheric music playing]
01:02:30.980 --> 01:02:33.062
[lively chatter and laughter]
01:02:33.063 --> 01:02:35.271
[♪ Grupo Folclórico De Faro
play "Alma Algarvia"]
01:02:37.855 --> 01:02:39.855
- [whooping]
- [rhythmic clapping]
01:02:43.105 --> 01:02:45.729
- [song fades]
- [atmospheric music continues]
01:02:45.730 --> 01:02:48.645
[Maya] I feel like I'm living again,
01:02:48.646 --> 01:02:50.605
but it's someone else's life.
01:02:54.980 --> 01:02:56.187
[Felix] What does it feel like,
01:02:56.188 --> 01:02:58.313
being this other person?
01:03:03.938 --> 01:03:05.438
Like a fantasy.
01:03:19.771 --> 01:03:21.562
[Felix] I have to leave tomorrow.
01:03:21.563 --> 01:03:23.687
Noelle got a cold,
01:03:23.688 --> 01:03:26.687
and, um, they're headed home.
01:03:26.688 --> 01:03:29.937
I told her that I'd be home
before they got back.
01:03:29.938 --> 01:03:31.020
So...
01:03:31.021 --> 01:03:32.480
Of course.
01:03:33.313 --> 01:03:36.270
You probably don't want to come to...
01:03:36.271 --> 01:03:37.980
To London?
01:03:39.521 --> 01:03:41.813
I mean, we could say goodbye now, but...
01:03:42.980 --> 01:03:45.271
...I mean, obviously,
I don't want to do that.
01:03:46.521 --> 01:03:51.438
- [♪ Remy Bond sings "Cherry Red Balloon"]
- ♪ Cherry red balloon ♪
01:03:59.896 --> 01:04:01.437
[laughing]
01:04:01.438 --> 01:04:05.229
♪ I've run out of patience ♪
01:04:05.230 --> 01:04:08.437
♪ at gasoline stations ♪
01:04:08.438 --> 01:04:13.313
♪ It sounds kind of sad but true ♪
01:04:15.938 --> 01:04:16.937
- [laughs] Me?
- [laughs] Yeah.
01:04:16.938 --> 01:04:18.895
Must be impressive. Oh, here we go.
01:04:18.896 --> 01:04:20.187
- [Maya] Thank you.
- [waiter] And for you, sir.
01:04:20.188 --> 01:04:21.688
- [Felix] Thank you so much.
- [Maya] Pretty.
01:04:22.313 --> 01:04:23.645
Looks nice. Do you want to share that?
01:04:23.646 --> 01:04:25.270
- Yeah.
- Okay.
01:04:25.271 --> 01:04:27.355
[song fades]
01:04:29.021 --> 01:04:30.230
What's up?
01:04:31.896 --> 01:04:33.146
Um...
01:04:35.938 --> 01:04:37.605
- Maya.
- [murmurs softly]
01:04:39.563 --> 01:04:40.980
Maya?
01:04:44.230 --> 01:04:45.520
[chuckles]
01:04:45.521 --> 01:04:46.855
Hi.
01:04:48.021 --> 01:04:49.563
Hi. I-- You're, wha--
01:04:51.063 --> 01:04:53.104
Wow. How-how-how... how are you?
01:04:53.105 --> 01:04:54.563
Uh, uh...
01:04:56.021 --> 01:04:57.313
What are you doing here?
01:04:57.896 --> 01:04:59.812
[chuckles] I... Sorry.
01:04:59.813 --> 01:05:02.479
I-I-I've spent so long trying
to get in touch with you.
01:05:02.480 --> 01:05:03.562
I-I--
01:05:03.563 --> 01:05:07.063
Um, I haven't really been reachable.
01:05:08.605 --> 01:05:09.938
Uh-huh.
01:05:11.896 --> 01:05:13.437
Yeah, I'm-I'm here with friends.
01:05:13.438 --> 01:05:16.520
We're here for-for work. Are you...
01:05:16.521 --> 01:05:17.605
You-you live here now?
01:05:19.396 --> 01:05:20.813
No.
01:05:23.480 --> 01:05:24.521
[chuckles softly]
01:05:25.896 --> 01:05:28.021
[chuckles] Sorry, I'm-I'm...
01:05:29.730 --> 01:05:31.395
I-- This is...
01:05:31.396 --> 01:05:33.354
[Felix] I'm Felix.
01:05:33.355 --> 01:05:34.729
[Jason] Hey, man. I'm-I'm Jason.
01:05:34.730 --> 01:05:36.020
[Felix] Jason. Nice to meet you, mate.
01:05:36.021 --> 01:05:38.313
- [Jason] Yeah, nice to meet you.
- [Felix] Nice to meet you.
01:05:39.396 --> 01:05:43.187
Jason is, um, my friend from Boston.
01:05:43.188 --> 01:05:45.271
[Felix] Nice. Nice.
01:05:47.105 --> 01:05:49.188
"Friend from Boston"?
01:05:50.230 --> 01:05:51.395
Really?
01:05:51.396 --> 01:05:52.979
We were, we were family, Maya.
01:05:52.980 --> 01:05:55.604
We-we... we spent holidays together.
01:05:55.605 --> 01:05:57.562
I mean, we-we...
01:05:57.563 --> 01:05:58.854
We did 12 Thanksgivings toget--
01:05:58.855 --> 01:06:02.729
I-I... I made the speech at your wedding.
01:06:02.730 --> 01:06:04.354
[chuckles] That's a lot of Thanksgivings.
01:06:04.355 --> 01:06:05.812
Do you want to... do you want
to come and join us?
01:06:05.813 --> 01:06:08.437
- No.
- Uh...
01:06:08.438 --> 01:06:13.271
I mean, you, uh, got your...
dinner to go to.
01:06:17.771 --> 01:06:19.270
What are you, what are you...
01:06:19.271 --> 01:06:20.354
I mean, what-what are...
01:06:20.355 --> 01:06:22.187
What the hell? What are you...
01:06:22.188 --> 01:06:24.105
That's all you're gonna say to me?
01:06:25.313 --> 01:06:26.645
I don't know what you want from me.
01:06:26.646 --> 01:06:28.937
What I want from you?
I mean, you-you-you left.
01:06:28.938 --> 01:06:30.020
You left, Maya.
01:06:30.021 --> 01:06:31.604
I mean, you-you didn't say goodbye.
You didn't say any--
01:06:31.605 --> 01:06:33.104
Do you know how long we spent
looking for you,
01:06:33.105 --> 01:06:34.770
trying to get in touch with you
to make sure
01:06:34.771 --> 01:06:37.020
that you were okay,
that everything was-was fine?
01:06:37.021 --> 01:06:38.562
- I didn't ask you to do that.
- I know, but--
01:06:38.563 --> 01:06:39.937
- I think that's enough. Thank you.
- It's okay. It's okay, really.
01:06:39.938 --> 01:06:41.020
Will you just get out of here, please?
01:06:41.021 --> 01:06:43.312
Will you just leave me alone?
Please? Go have a drink.
01:06:43.313 --> 01:06:45.271
Go have ten drinks. Forget about this.
01:06:45.855 --> 01:06:46.855
Okay?
01:06:50.771 --> 01:06:51.980
Yeah.
01:06:55.396 --> 01:06:57.396
[somber music playing]
01:07:02.355 --> 01:07:03.729
Um...
01:07:03.730 --> 01:07:05.771
- What was that?
- Can we get out of here?
01:07:06.813 --> 01:07:08.937
I put... [breath trembles]
01:07:08.938 --> 01:07:12.605
everything I needed in two suitcases.
01:07:14.021 --> 01:07:18.770
I took his phone, his keys
and his birth certificate,
01:07:18.771 --> 01:07:21.062
and I put them in a Stop & Shop bag,
01:07:21.063 --> 01:07:25.270
and I left it outside of Jason's door.
01:07:25.271 --> 01:07:26.938
Um...
01:07:30.688 --> 01:07:32.688
I didn't answer my phone.
01:07:35.063 --> 01:07:37.063
I didn't even answer for his mom.
01:07:39.355 --> 01:07:40.855
I...
01:07:44.563 --> 01:07:45.979
[sobs softly] I don't know.
01:07:45.980 --> 01:07:47.438
I mean... [stammers]
01:07:49.480 --> 01:07:50.563
[sniffles]
01:07:51.646 --> 01:07:53.271
I guess I...
01:07:54.855 --> 01:07:59.021
I couldn't be around, um...
01:08:00.521 --> 01:08:02.812
...just for them to hate me, you know?
01:08:02.813 --> 01:08:06.230
And blame me and...
01:08:08.438 --> 01:08:09.771
You know.
01:08:11.188 --> 01:08:14.145
Tell me that I should've
st-stayed somewhere else
01:08:14.146 --> 01:08:16.563
and kept him safe and... [sniffles]
01:08:17.646 --> 01:08:18.855
Um...
01:08:21.438 --> 01:08:24.687
Yeah. I mean, and then there's...
01:08:24.688 --> 01:08:26.437
Jason and what was, like...
01:08:26.438 --> 01:08:28.020
[sniffles]
01:08:28.021 --> 01:08:29.937
I don't know.
I just couldn't deal with it.
01:08:29.938 --> 01:08:31.438
I'm...
01:08:32.646 --> 01:08:34.355
I, uh...
01:08:37.813 --> 01:08:39.895
I called a Taskrabbit,
01:08:39.896 --> 01:08:44.145
and I had them pack up my apartment
01:08:44.146 --> 01:08:47.187
and put it in a storage unit,
and I went to the airport,
01:08:47.188 --> 01:08:49.354
and I threw my phone away in a trash can,
01:08:49.355 --> 01:08:51.771
and then I just didn't go back.
01:08:52.396 --> 01:08:53.396
[Maya sniffles]
01:08:54.938 --> 01:08:56.230
[Maya sighs]
01:08:57.271 --> 01:09:00.854
It's clarifying, I guess,
01:09:00.855 --> 01:09:02.104
to have nobody.
01:09:02.105 --> 01:09:03.937
Um, I don't know.
01:09:03.938 --> 01:09:05.145
[laughs]
01:09:05.146 --> 01:09:09.145
Just... float around like
a useless piece of matter in the void.
01:09:09.146 --> 01:09:11.562
[laughs, sniffles]
01:09:11.563 --> 01:09:12.980
Uh...
01:09:14.521 --> 01:09:15.938
[sighs heavily]
01:09:21.730 --> 01:09:25.438
They say you can't run away
from your life, but you can. [sniffles]
01:09:27.521 --> 01:09:29.521
It just makes you a monster.
01:09:42.646 --> 01:09:44.646
[somber music continues]
01:10:00.188 --> 01:10:01.854
Thank you.
01:10:01.855 --> 01:10:03.396
Yeah. You're welcome.
01:10:16.480 --> 01:10:20.105
What if we just acknowledged
that there actually is something here?
01:10:22.813 --> 01:10:24.813
What if we took that risk?
01:10:27.605 --> 01:10:31.605
I mean, I know he was
the love of your life, and, um...
01:10:34.021 --> 01:10:35.938
...I-I think that's beautiful.
01:10:39.313 --> 01:10:41.313
But who's to say you can only have one?
01:10:43.605 --> 01:10:45.605
♪ ♪
01:10:57.438 --> 01:10:59.271
- [Felix speaking indistinctly]
- [kids chattering playfully]
01:11:00.980 --> 01:11:02.312
[Felix] Hey.
01:11:02.313 --> 01:11:03.895
Do you know who this is?
01:11:03.896 --> 01:11:05.020
I do.
01:11:05.021 --> 01:11:06.979
And I've seen her before.
01:11:06.980 --> 01:11:09.604
Noelle, this is our friend Maya.
01:11:09.605 --> 01:11:11.645
- Hi.
- Hi.
01:11:11.646 --> 01:11:14.020
- So nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you, too.
01:11:14.021 --> 01:11:15.520
Papa.
01:11:15.521 --> 01:11:17.104
[Felix] Yeah, that's a...
01:11:17.105 --> 01:11:18.604
that's a nice one. Yeah.
01:11:18.605 --> 01:11:21.854
So we're-we're very into signs right now,
aren't we?
01:11:21.855 --> 01:11:24.229
Especially signs with a slash through it.
01:11:24.230 --> 01:11:27.979
If it has a "no" or a slash,
we really like those signs.
01:11:27.980 --> 01:11:30.021
- Really love them right now, don't we?
- Mm-hmm.
01:11:30.730 --> 01:11:32.604
I...
01:11:32.605 --> 01:11:36.229
I might have something
you could help me with.
01:11:36.230 --> 01:11:38.937
I saw this sign in Madrid.
01:11:38.938 --> 01:11:43.063
It didn't have a slash or a "no,"
but I thought it was pretty cool.
01:11:44.105 --> 01:11:45.854
- [Noelle] What does it mean?
- I don't know.
01:11:45.855 --> 01:11:47.604
I was thinking maybe you might know.
01:11:47.605 --> 01:11:49.729
You seen that one before?
01:11:49.730 --> 01:11:51.479
Never seen it before.
01:11:51.480 --> 01:11:53.645
It's kind of existential.
01:11:53.646 --> 01:11:55.396
- Isn't it?
- [whispering indistinctly]
01:11:57.063 --> 01:11:59.270
Euh, en anglais, s'il te plaît.
01:11:59.271 --> 01:12:00.395
Oh, it's a secret.
01:12:00.396 --> 01:12:03.395
[whispering indistinctly]
01:12:03.396 --> 01:12:05.395
Um...
01:12:05.396 --> 01:12:07.104
I don't know, babe. Maybe.
01:12:07.105 --> 01:12:08.979
Yeah? Maybe. We'll see.
01:12:08.980 --> 01:12:11.062
We'll go and then we'll talk about it
a little bit later.
01:12:11.063 --> 01:12:12.937
Yeah? Shall we give that
back to Maya? Yeah?
01:12:12.938 --> 01:12:15.895
So it don't break,
'cause phones are expensive.
01:12:15.896 --> 01:12:17.770
- Mm-hmm.
- And...
01:12:17.771 --> 01:12:19.855
you go and grab your scooter, yeah?
01:12:20.980 --> 01:12:21.979
Oh.
01:12:21.980 --> 01:12:23.354
Oh, skills.
01:12:23.355 --> 01:12:26.687
[♪ Dustin O'Halloran sings "New Day"]
01:12:26.688 --> 01:12:27.854
Ah, you can ride off.
01:12:27.855 --> 01:12:29.855
Just don't go too, too far, yeah?
01:12:34.896 --> 01:12:37.521
What did Noelle whisper to you
at the park earlier?
01:12:38.730 --> 01:12:39.729
Oh.
01:12:39.730 --> 01:12:40.979
[chuckles] She, um...
01:12:40.980 --> 01:12:45.063
She just asked me if you wanted
to come to her birthday party.
01:12:46.896 --> 01:12:48.313
[chuckles softly]
01:12:50.480 --> 01:12:52.230
If it's too much...
01:12:56.771 --> 01:12:57.938
[doorbell buzzes]
01:13:01.230 --> 01:13:02.730
Yeah, it's Mouse Trap.
01:13:03.730 --> 01:13:05.188
The game.
01:13:07.646 --> 01:13:09.646
- [playful chatter]
- [upbeat music playing]
01:13:13.146 --> 01:13:14.187
Hey.
01:13:14.188 --> 01:13:16.312
Felix! Ça va?
01:13:16.313 --> 01:13:17.604
Oui. Ça va.
01:13:17.605 --> 01:13:19.104
- Wow, looking sharp.
- Thank you.
01:13:19.105 --> 01:13:20.855
And, Maya, hi.
01:13:21.855 --> 01:13:24.145
Welcome. It's so lovely to have you.
01:13:24.146 --> 01:13:25.812
Uh, you're so French.
01:13:25.813 --> 01:13:27.062
- [laughs]
- Sorry.
01:13:27.063 --> 01:13:28.770
- Yes, I-I have been told that.
- I told you.
01:13:28.771 --> 01:13:31.062
[laughs] Sorry, I can't hide it.
01:13:31.063 --> 01:13:33.187
- Thank you so much.
- [box rattles]
01:13:33.188 --> 01:13:34.854
- Good job, Papa.
- [Felix] Thank you.
01:13:34.855 --> 01:13:36.937
- I know exactly what this is.
- Yeah, I listen, don't I?
01:13:36.938 --> 01:13:38.854
- Yeah, you did.
- See? Do you want a drink?
01:13:38.855 --> 01:13:40.604
- Yes, please.
- Yeah? Okay.
01:13:40.605 --> 01:13:43.687
You're probably well aware
of our particular theme.
01:13:43.688 --> 01:13:46.604
- That cake is incredible.
- Ah, thank you.
01:13:46.605 --> 01:13:48.312
I actually wanted to do "no smoking,"
01:13:48.313 --> 01:13:50.062
but Felix said it was inappropriate.
01:13:50.063 --> 01:13:51.562
[Felix] It was inappropriate.
01:13:51.563 --> 01:13:53.229
- Absolutely, it was.
- [whispers] It was appropriate. It was.
01:13:53.230 --> 01:13:54.437
- [woman] Anna?
- [Anna] Yeah?
01:13:54.438 --> 01:13:55.645
[woman] Do you have any more red?
01:13:55.646 --> 01:13:56.770
[Anna] Yes. I'll be right back.
01:13:56.771 --> 01:13:57.979
- Okay.
- Should we say "happy birthday"?
01:13:57.980 --> 01:13:59.104
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
01:13:59.105 --> 01:14:00.520
Hey, hey, happy birthday.
01:14:00.521 --> 01:14:02.395
Where's the birthday girl? Where is she?
01:14:02.396 --> 01:14:04.312
[grunting playfully]
01:14:04.313 --> 01:14:06.604
Happy birthday. Do you remember Maya?
01:14:06.605 --> 01:14:07.937
- Should we say, "Hi, Maya"?
- Hi.
01:14:07.938 --> 01:14:09.020
- Hi, Maya.
- Hi, Maya.
01:14:09.021 --> 01:14:11.105
[playful chatter and music continue]
01:14:23.396 --> 01:14:24.813
You okay?
01:14:29.313 --> 01:14:31.313
Want me to go get your mom?
01:14:38.146 --> 01:14:39.646
[Maya sighs]
01:14:46.355 --> 01:14:47.729
[somber music playing]
01:14:47.730 --> 01:14:49.145
[humming a tune]
01:14:49.146 --> 01:14:50.229
Oh, thank you.
01:14:50.230 --> 01:14:53.270
Just leave that here
or anywhere you can find a space.
01:14:53.271 --> 01:14:55.104
- Okay.
- Thank you so much.
01:14:55.105 --> 01:14:56.437
Of course.
01:14:56.438 --> 01:14:58.521
[humming a tune]
01:14:59.980 --> 01:15:01.770
I'll hold it until the marble drops out.
01:15:01.771 --> 01:15:02.938
Ready?
01:15:04.188 --> 01:15:05.187
[exhales]
01:15:05.188 --> 01:15:07.271
[Felix continues talking indistinctly]
01:15:09.813 --> 01:15:12.313
Do you ever worry that something's
gonna happen to her?
01:15:13.980 --> 01:15:16.312
Um... [laughing]
01:15:16.313 --> 01:15:18.187
I mean...
01:15:18.188 --> 01:15:20.520
do you, do you love her so much
that you sometimes
01:15:20.521 --> 01:15:21.770
- worry about, you know?
- [laughs]
01:15:21.771 --> 01:15:23.730
No, I-I understand the question.
01:15:24.480 --> 01:15:26.480
- Okay.
- [chuckles]
01:15:27.355 --> 01:15:29.687
All the time.
01:15:29.688 --> 01:15:32.563
It's... abject terror.
01:15:34.438 --> 01:15:36.230
It's also love, I suppose.
01:15:37.271 --> 01:15:39.145
[footsteps]
01:15:39.146 --> 01:15:41.230
[dishes clinking]
01:15:42.355 --> 01:15:43.854
[Felix in other room] Yeah. That's right.
01:15:43.855 --> 01:15:45.896
What do you feel like for dinner?
01:15:46.980 --> 01:15:48.395
We got the curry in the fridge.
01:15:48.396 --> 01:15:53.229
Um... which you might not want twice.
01:15:53.230 --> 01:15:55.645
Um, if not, we could pop out
a little bit later
01:15:55.646 --> 01:15:58.146
and go to that place you like
around the corner.
01:16:00.980 --> 01:16:02.687
I can't.
01:16:02.688 --> 01:16:03.770
Huh?
01:16:03.771 --> 01:16:04.854
[smacks lips]
01:16:04.855 --> 01:16:06.271
I can't do this.
01:16:07.313 --> 01:16:09.562
What... what do you mean?
01:16:09.563 --> 01:16:11.979
I can't get entangled
in somebody else's life.
01:16:11.980 --> 01:16:13.855
Not again. I'm sorry.
01:16:16.855 --> 01:16:18.230
Um...
01:16:23.146 --> 01:16:25.687
Uh, was it, was it the party
or... what was it?
01:16:25.688 --> 01:16:27.562
All of it. It's all of it. It's...
01:16:27.563 --> 01:16:29.480
You guys are a family.
01:16:30.855 --> 01:16:32.105
Are-are you serious?
01:16:35.230 --> 01:16:36.730
You're not.
01:16:38.355 --> 01:16:40.854
You-- but you knew I had a...
you knew I had a daughter
01:16:40.855 --> 01:16:42.520
and I'm co-parenting.
01:16:42.521 --> 01:16:45.646
Like, that's... that's, like,
stuff you knew.
01:16:48.521 --> 01:16:50.187
S-So, what-what do you, what do you want?
01:16:50.188 --> 01:16:51.729
[stammers] Is...
01:16:51.730 --> 01:16:53.937
Do you want, like, just me and you
and the Algarve?
01:16:53.938 --> 01:16:55.104
- Is that--
- I-I don't--
01:16:55.105 --> 01:16:57.813
- I don't know.
- Do you want to be alone?
01:17:04.146 --> 01:17:05.812
[stammers]
01:17:05.813 --> 01:17:07.896
Maya, you know, you're...
01:17:09.396 --> 01:17:11.312
...you're so...
01:17:11.313 --> 01:17:14.563
you're so full of crap sometimes.
01:17:16.146 --> 01:17:17.146
Do you know that?
01:17:18.646 --> 01:17:20.562
This-this whole story about
01:17:20.563 --> 01:17:23.895
you avoiding human connection
when it's clear that that's...
01:17:23.896 --> 01:17:25.312
that's actually everything you want.
01:17:25.313 --> 01:17:27.146
I can't do this!
01:17:33.105 --> 01:17:34.938
Okay, fine. Yeah, go.
01:17:37.563 --> 01:17:38.855
I'm not gonna chase you.
01:17:42.563 --> 01:17:44.355
I'll leave your shit at the door!
01:18:00.646 --> 01:18:02.146
[cassette tape clicks]
01:18:02.771 --> 01:18:05.104
[gentle classical music playing]
01:18:05.105 --> 01:18:07.188
[cassette tape grinding softly]
01:18:11.521 --> 01:18:13.521
♪ ♪
01:18:26.646 --> 01:18:28.063
[Ruth] Maya!
01:18:30.646 --> 01:18:33.230
Maya, it's Ruth! Let me up!
01:18:35.021 --> 01:18:36.229
[breathing heavily]
01:18:36.230 --> 01:18:37.521
[Ruth from outside] Maya.
01:18:38.521 --> 01:18:40.521
♪ ♪
01:18:43.563 --> 01:18:44.855
[doorbell buzzes]
01:18:45.688 --> 01:18:47.437
[doorbell buzzing continuously]
01:18:47.438 --> 01:18:48.895
Maya!
01:18:48.896 --> 01:18:50.020
It's Ruth!
01:18:50.021 --> 01:18:52.312
[dance music playing faintly]
01:18:52.313 --> 01:18:55.312
They won't let me into the hospital, Maya.
01:18:55.313 --> 01:18:56.729
[from outside] I need your help.
01:18:56.730 --> 01:18:59.812
- [dance music fades]
- [gentle classical music continues]
01:18:59.813 --> 01:19:01.520
Maya!
01:19:01.521 --> 01:19:04.229
You need to come d-down here
and tell me what happened.
01:19:04.230 --> 01:19:06.604
You need to come down here, Maya,
01:19:06.605 --> 01:19:09.312
[sobbing] and tell me what happened
01:19:09.313 --> 01:19:12.604
to my son.
01:19:12.605 --> 01:19:13.979
Maya, look at me!
01:19:13.980 --> 01:19:16.104
Look at my face.
01:19:16.105 --> 01:19:18.145
[sobs, sniffles]
01:19:18.146 --> 01:19:19.229
You coward!
01:19:19.230 --> 01:19:21.895
Get down here.
01:19:21.896 --> 01:19:23.729
After you got him sick!
01:19:23.730 --> 01:19:25.395
You did this!
01:19:25.396 --> 01:19:26.896
You did it!
01:19:28.646 --> 01:19:31.854
[sobbing] You look at my face, you coward!
01:19:31.855 --> 01:19:33.313
You c...
01:19:35.396 --> 01:19:37.395
[breathing heavily]
01:19:37.396 --> 01:19:40.104
[gentle classical music continues]
01:19:40.105 --> 01:19:42.187
What have you done?
01:19:42.188 --> 01:19:44.062
[sobbing] What have you done, Maya?
01:19:44.063 --> 01:19:45.520
What have you done?
01:19:45.521 --> 01:19:47.812
[sobbing] Charlie, oh, my God.
01:19:47.813 --> 01:19:49.230
No.
01:19:50.688 --> 01:19:52.688
[grief therapist] Stay with it, Maya.
01:19:54.646 --> 01:19:56.521
I really think we're getting somewhere.
01:20:00.771 --> 01:20:02.771
[gentle classical music ends]
01:20:09.605 --> 01:20:11.270
- [door opens]
- [entry bell jingles]
01:20:11.271 --> 01:20:13.521
- [quiet chatter]
- [door closes]
01:20:19.438 --> 01:20:21.438
- Hi.
- Hi.
01:20:28.855 --> 01:20:29.896
It's been months.
01:20:31.563 --> 01:20:32.937
[sighs] Yeah.
01:20:32.938 --> 01:20:35.145
I, um...
01:20:35.146 --> 01:20:38.229
think I've, like, lost all sense of time
at this point.
01:20:38.230 --> 01:20:39.520
[chuckles softly]
01:20:39.521 --> 01:20:41.646
Yeah. Huh.
01:20:43.146 --> 01:20:44.520
I got you a green tea.
01:20:44.521 --> 01:20:46.229
- Wicked. Yeah, nice, nice.
- Want to sit down?
01:20:46.230 --> 01:20:47.313
Thank you.
01:20:49.980 --> 01:20:51.480
[Maya sighs]
01:20:54.480 --> 01:20:56.396
Uh, well, how are you?
01:20:57.438 --> 01:20:59.188
Yeah. You look well.
01:21:01.188 --> 01:21:04.062
Thanks. I just, um...
01:21:04.063 --> 01:21:06.729
I just got back from Tokyo, actually.
01:21:06.730 --> 01:21:08.187
[chuckles softly]
01:21:08.188 --> 01:21:09.854
[Maya sighs]
01:21:09.855 --> 01:21:12.271
I'm just gonna say this. Um, I...
01:21:13.313 --> 01:21:17.187
Uh, I really don't want to, um...
01:21:17.188 --> 01:21:18.480
[smacks lips]
01:21:19.521 --> 01:21:21.645
I don't want to give up on us.
01:21:21.646 --> 01:21:22.730
Wait.
01:21:24.688 --> 01:21:26.521
Maya, uh...
01:21:29.521 --> 01:21:32.645
You-you, uh, you were gone
for a long time.
01:21:32.646 --> 01:21:34.437
You know?
01:21:34.438 --> 01:21:35.980
Um...
01:21:39.896 --> 01:21:42.645
Oh. [laughs]
01:21:42.646 --> 01:21:45.604
Um, Anna and I, we...
01:21:45.605 --> 01:21:47.062
Oh. [laughs]
01:21:47.063 --> 01:21:49.855
Yeah. Yeah. Um...
01:21:52.313 --> 01:21:55.104
I don't know. You-you and I had...
01:21:55.105 --> 01:21:59.229
And, um, now you sort of just...
01:21:59.230 --> 01:22:01.062
called my phone out of the blue,
01:22:01.063 --> 01:22:04.730
and I don't really know
what to do with that, to be fair.
01:22:07.605 --> 01:22:09.645
- Sorry.
- I just...
01:22:09.646 --> 01:22:12.479
I-I... wasn't ready.
01:22:12.480 --> 01:22:14.146
Yeah. No, I-I get that.
01:22:15.105 --> 01:22:16.313
Yeah.
01:22:18.688 --> 01:22:19.854
[laughs]
01:22:19.855 --> 01:22:21.396
Uh...
01:22:23.438 --> 01:22:26.563
This is... what I get.
01:22:29.480 --> 01:22:32.021
Maya, you've got to stop
feeling sorry for yourself.
01:22:33.563 --> 01:22:35.854
Just because we didn't,
01:22:35.855 --> 01:22:38.520
or we couldn't, doesn't mean that, um...
01:22:38.521 --> 01:22:40.980
[breathes deeply]
01:22:42.813 --> 01:22:44.855
What I'm trying to say is...
01:22:46.480 --> 01:22:48.229
...this wasn't nothing.
01:22:48.230 --> 01:22:53.604
And if you need to call me
in a year or two or five
01:22:53.605 --> 01:22:56.479
just to make sure, then I will answer
01:22:56.480 --> 01:22:58.771
and let you know that it was something.
01:23:03.896 --> 01:23:06.104
I won't do that, but thank you. [chuckles]
01:23:06.105 --> 01:23:08.104
- That's very nice.
- Is it? I don't know.
01:23:08.105 --> 01:23:09.187
[both chuckle]
01:23:09.188 --> 01:23:11.271
[lively chatter]
01:23:14.771 --> 01:23:17.020
[♪ Depeche Mode sing
"Just Can't Get Enough"]
01:23:17.021 --> 01:23:20.437
♪ When I'm with you, baby,
I go out of my head ♪
01:23:20.438 --> 01:23:24.437
♪ and I just can't get enough,
and I just can't get enough ♪
01:23:24.438 --> 01:23:28.020
♪ All the things you do to me
and everything you said ♪
01:23:28.021 --> 01:23:31.480
♪ I just can't get enough,
I just can't get enough ♪
01:23:32.188 --> 01:23:35.229
♪ We slip and slide as we fall in love ♪
01:23:35.230 --> 01:23:39.812
♪ and I just can't seem
to get enough of ♪
01:23:39.813 --> 01:23:41.896
♪ ♪
01:23:56.646 --> 01:23:58.645
[jet engine whooshing]
01:23:58.646 --> 01:24:00.730
[song fades]
01:24:03.480 --> 01:24:05.729
[woman over P.A.] Flight 291
is now boarding.
01:24:05.730 --> 01:24:08.687
Passengers, please proceed to gate four.
01:24:08.688 --> 01:24:10.771
[busy chatter]
01:24:15.271 --> 01:24:16.854
[applause]
01:24:16.855 --> 01:24:19.230
[Maya] Wow. So many of you. [chuckles]
01:24:19.813 --> 01:24:20.812
Bear with me.
01:24:20.813 --> 01:24:24.145
Um, public speaking is not my usual thing,
01:24:24.146 --> 01:24:28.645
but I really wanted to be a part
of this discussion about self-care.
01:24:28.646 --> 01:24:31.104
- I know. Cue eye roll.
- [laughter]
01:24:31.105 --> 01:24:35.854
But it's because I was an ED nurse
for the first few months of COVID
01:24:35.855 --> 01:24:39.020
before I burnt out
and switched to telehealth.
01:24:39.021 --> 01:24:40.770
Over the past six years,
01:24:40.771 --> 01:24:44.104
we've begun to process
how that trauma affected our profession.
01:24:44.105 --> 01:24:47.896
Not to mention the personal loss
that so many of us experienced.
01:24:50.396 --> 01:24:53.812
But we have to take responsibility
for ourselves
01:24:53.813 --> 01:24:55.521
in the same way that we do our patients.
01:24:56.271 --> 01:24:57.687
And I'm here to remind you
01:24:57.688 --> 01:25:00.062
of some of the tools
that are available for you to do it.
01:25:00.063 --> 01:25:02.062
[automated voice] You may hang up
or press one
01:25:02.063 --> 01:25:04.020
- for more options.
- [line beeps]
01:25:04.021 --> 01:25:05.229
[inhales deeply]
01:25:05.230 --> 01:25:07.063
Uh, hey. Um...
01:25:08.438 --> 01:25:10.188
This is Maya. I...
01:25:11.188 --> 01:25:14.479
I don't even know if this is
the right number anymore, but...
01:25:14.480 --> 01:25:18.562
I am actually in New Orleans right now.
01:25:18.563 --> 01:25:21.395
It's kind of crazy
to be back in the States.
01:25:21.396 --> 01:25:25.062
I guess I was hoping
I could reconnect with you.
01:25:25.063 --> 01:25:26.312
So... [sighs]
01:25:26.313 --> 01:25:28.020
call me, uh, if you can.
01:25:28.021 --> 01:25:29.813
Or, um...
01:25:31.438 --> 01:25:33.062
Call me if you want to.
01:25:33.063 --> 01:25:34.645
- [phone vibrating]
- Okay.
01:25:34.646 --> 01:25:36.895
I hope you're good. Bye.
01:25:36.896 --> 01:25:39.270
[somber music playing]
01:25:39.271 --> 01:25:40.688
Hello?
01:25:54.188 --> 01:25:55.521
[sighs]
01:25:57.396 --> 01:26:00.562
[♪ St. Paul & The Broken Bones
sing "Half the City"]
01:26:00.563 --> 01:26:02.646
[quiet chatter]
01:26:08.730 --> 01:26:11.645
♪ Oh, this poor and lonely heart ♪
01:26:11.646 --> 01:26:13.812
[Jason] Maya. [clears throat]
01:26:13.813 --> 01:26:15.895
♪ It is made of pure steel ♪
01:26:15.896 --> 01:26:17.563
- Hi.
- Hi.
01:26:19.313 --> 01:26:20.812
♪ And you can't let it cry...
01:26:20.813 --> 01:26:22.313
How are you?
01:26:23.605 --> 01:26:25.062
I'm...
01:26:25.063 --> 01:26:26.980
[both chuckle]
01:26:28.271 --> 01:26:30.230
I don't even know where to start. Um...
01:26:31.271 --> 01:26:33.604
[laughs]
01:26:33.605 --> 01:26:36.104
I... uh, I'm gonna get some...
01:26:36.105 --> 01:26:37.770
- Excuse me.
- [waiter] Yes?
01:26:37.771 --> 01:26:39.187
[Maya] Is there any way
I could get some water?
01:26:39.188 --> 01:26:40.979
[waiter] Absolutely.
01:26:40.980 --> 01:26:42.770
[Maya] Thank you.
01:26:42.771 --> 01:26:44.520
Actually, do you want to put in drinks?
01:26:44.521 --> 01:26:46.229
- Can we do, like...
- [Jason] Uh...
01:26:46.230 --> 01:26:48.395
...two dirty martinis, extra filthy,
01:26:48.396 --> 01:26:50.104
- with all the little pickles and stuff?
- Maya, I'm...
01:26:50.105 --> 01:26:52.645
Just, um, a sparkling water
for me, please.
01:26:52.646 --> 01:26:54.480
- [waiter] Sure thing.
- [Jason] Yeah. Thank you.
01:26:55.730 --> 01:26:57.063
Um...
01:26:59.146 --> 01:27:00.312
- [Jason laughs] Yeah.
- Wow.
01:27:00.313 --> 01:27:02.605
- [chuckles] Okay.
- That's-that's shocking, huh?
01:27:03.605 --> 01:27:04.604
Yeah.
01:27:04.605 --> 01:27:07.187
[both laughing]
01:27:07.188 --> 01:27:09.354
Um, we're...
01:27:09.355 --> 01:27:10.895
different people, I guess, now.
01:27:10.896 --> 01:27:11.980
Are we?
01:27:12.563 --> 01:27:14.145
I mean, look at you.
01:27:14.146 --> 01:27:15.229
- Look at me.
- [chuckles]
01:27:15.230 --> 01:27:17.812
You'd think that I'd spent
the last six years, um,
01:27:17.813 --> 01:27:22.020
in a room talking to myself,
but I have not done that though.
01:27:22.021 --> 01:27:24.980
Well, it-it hasn't been six years, but...
01:27:33.230 --> 01:27:34.396
I'm so sorry.
01:27:35.438 --> 01:27:37.354
I was awful.
01:27:37.355 --> 01:27:40.770
That doesn't make it
any better, but I, um...
01:27:40.771 --> 01:27:42.062
[smacks lips]
01:27:42.063 --> 01:27:43.770
...I hadn't told the guy I was with
anything,
01:27:43.771 --> 01:27:45.104
and I really didn't want him to know.
01:27:45.105 --> 01:27:47.312
Yeah, no, I-I-I figured.
01:27:47.313 --> 01:27:49.563
I mean, after the fact, but it was...
01:27:50.813 --> 01:27:52.146
Yeah.
01:27:57.105 --> 01:27:58.230
[sighs]
01:28:00.271 --> 01:28:01.271
You were my best friend.
01:28:04.396 --> 01:28:05.771
Um...
01:28:06.355 --> 01:28:08.688
To leave you like that was just...
01:28:12.563 --> 01:28:13.813
[Maya sighs]
01:28:15.105 --> 01:28:17.854
I've spent a lot of time,
um, thinking about
01:28:17.855 --> 01:28:20.687
how the pain made me want to run
01:28:20.688 --> 01:28:23.895
and how... [sighs]
01:28:23.896 --> 01:28:26.437
the running gave me... [sniffles]
01:28:26.438 --> 01:28:30.687
all of this shame,
and I was just destructive.
01:28:30.688 --> 01:28:33.854
I basically wanted to just obliterate
01:28:33.855 --> 01:28:38.395
all the love in my life, I think,
so that I couldn't be hurt again.
01:28:38.396 --> 01:28:40.604
You know? Um...
01:28:40.605 --> 01:28:44.770
But I am in a lot of therapy now,
and I probably always will be.
01:28:44.771 --> 01:28:46.437
Um...
01:28:46.438 --> 01:28:47.605
[smacks lips]
01:28:48.605 --> 01:28:50.855
But I just wanted to tell you that...
01:28:52.938 --> 01:28:56.021
I am... totally humiliated...
01:28:57.313 --> 01:29:00.271
...and I'm really, really sorry.
01:29:11.563 --> 01:29:14.104
[both chuckle]
01:29:14.105 --> 01:29:15.229
[laughs]
01:29:15.230 --> 01:29:16.438
What?
01:29:18.230 --> 01:29:19.895
- Are you enjoying this?
- Little bit.
01:29:19.896 --> 01:29:22.895
- Are you loving me groveling?
- [laughs]
01:29:22.896 --> 01:29:24.770
[laughs]
01:29:24.771 --> 01:29:26.104
You're sick. [laughs]
01:29:26.105 --> 01:29:27.604
- You're twisted.
- [laughs]
01:29:27.605 --> 01:29:29.188
I guess we're, uh...
01:29:30.480 --> 01:29:31.854
...we're still the same people.
01:29:31.855 --> 01:29:33.354
[♪ Jessica Pratt sings "Life Is"]
01:29:33.355 --> 01:29:34.479
Can I buy you lunch?
01:29:34.480 --> 01:29:36.437
Can I get you
a ridiculously overpriced steak?
01:29:36.438 --> 01:29:39.563
Mm. You're not gonna like this.
[clears throat]
01:29:40.355 --> 01:29:41.605
I'm a vegan now.
01:29:42.646 --> 01:29:44.645
[laughs] Well, that's-that's...
01:29:44.646 --> 01:29:46.854
I mean, it's these co-ops,
communal housing,
01:29:46.855 --> 01:29:49.104
totally self-sufficient and sustainable.
01:29:49.105 --> 01:29:51.770
It's this whole new world.
01:29:51.771 --> 01:29:54.062
I mean, do you ever ask yourself, like,
01:29:54.063 --> 01:29:56.312
who gets to live where, you know?
01:29:56.313 --> 01:29:58.729
And then if we actually want to go and try
to interrogate that system,
01:29:58.730 --> 01:30:00.187
then how do we want to live?
01:30:00.188 --> 01:30:03.187
♪ Life is ♪
01:30:03.188 --> 01:30:04.645
♪ It's never what you think it's for...
01:30:04.646 --> 01:30:07.312
- [laughs]
- [laughs] What?
01:30:07.313 --> 01:30:09.604
I have a place in Luxembourg.
01:30:09.605 --> 01:30:13.270
I've actually been there
for two years now.
01:30:13.271 --> 01:30:16.354
I... I have a kitchen garden.
01:30:16.355 --> 01:30:18.438
- Wow.
- I know my neighbors.
01:30:19.896 --> 01:30:21.020
Yeah.
01:30:21.021 --> 01:30:25.645
And the guy that you were with
when I saw you?
01:30:25.646 --> 01:30:28.438
Uh... [sighs] that didn't work out.
01:30:31.105 --> 01:30:32.979
But it was like a, um...
01:30:32.980 --> 01:30:34.354
I'm glad it happened.
01:30:34.355 --> 01:30:36.146
It was important.
01:30:37.313 --> 01:30:39.438
It was important because of...?
01:30:41.730 --> 01:30:43.020
- Um...
- What?
01:30:43.021 --> 01:30:44.271
No, I...
01:30:45.480 --> 01:30:48.688
I don't know how to talk about this
without talking about him.
01:30:51.521 --> 01:30:52.812
Let's talk about him.
01:30:52.813 --> 01:30:54.729
No, we don't have to. I just was...
01:30:54.730 --> 01:30:56.438
I want to.
01:30:58.771 --> 01:31:01.480
Trust me.
He used to be all I talked about.
01:31:02.563 --> 01:31:04.437
Even inside of my own head.
01:31:04.438 --> 01:31:05.730
[chuckles]
01:31:07.438 --> 01:31:09.354
Yeah, I, uh...
01:31:09.355 --> 01:31:11.687
I miss him.
01:31:11.688 --> 01:31:12.980
A lot.
01:31:14.063 --> 01:31:17.937
- ♪ Time is time and time and time again ♪
- ♪ And what would you say...
01:31:17.938 --> 01:31:19.730
Me, too. [sighs]
01:31:23.313 --> 01:31:26.437
- ♪ Time is time and time ♪
- ♪ To make your escape ♪
01:31:26.438 --> 01:31:30.480
- ♪ and time again ♪
- ♪ you've captured the captor's fear ♪
01:31:32.063 --> 01:31:33.062
♪ 'Cause I...
01:31:33.063 --> 01:31:34.770
[Jason] If you end up coming to Austin,
01:31:34.771 --> 01:31:37.229
then you got to go to Diego's
and hear it for yourself.
01:31:37.230 --> 01:31:38.562
[Maya] Was that an invitation?
01:31:38.563 --> 01:31:39.645
Yeah.
01:31:39.646 --> 01:31:42.312
I can't believe you go to the same place
and listen to the same band
01:31:42.313 --> 01:31:44.687
- every Friday night.
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
01:31:44.688 --> 01:31:46.187
First off, Diego's is
an institution, okay?
01:31:46.188 --> 01:31:48.645
- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
- And the band is absolutely--
01:31:48.646 --> 01:31:51.104
It's just-- it's a very-- it's a routine.
01:31:51.105 --> 01:31:52.854
Yeah, but I'm Mr. Routine now.
I mean, I love routines.
01:31:52.855 --> 01:31:54.687
- You're Mr. Routine now?
- Yes.
01:31:54.688 --> 01:31:56.395
I love routines,
because in all the-the just--
01:31:56.396 --> 01:31:58.229
- [laughs] You're Mr. Routine now?
- [laughs] Yes, in the--
01:31:58.230 --> 01:32:01.104
[Maya] Oh, God. These things.
01:32:01.105 --> 01:32:02.562
I do not approve.
01:32:02.563 --> 01:32:03.937
- I kind of love them.
- You love them?
01:32:03.938 --> 01:32:05.479
- Yes.
- [laughs]
01:32:05.480 --> 01:32:06.645
- No, no.
- Why?
01:32:06.646 --> 01:32:08.437
'Cause you can talk to them. Watch.
01:32:08.438 --> 01:32:09.520
[clears throat]
01:32:09.521 --> 01:32:11.020
Excuse me. Ooh.
01:32:11.021 --> 01:32:12.687
- [laughs]
- Excuse me, little buddy.
01:32:12.688 --> 01:32:15.187
Um, pardon my-my friend's rudeness
over here.
01:32:15.188 --> 01:32:17.062
I just... I wanted to know:
01:32:17.063 --> 01:32:20.229
Do you think we're put on Earth
for a reason?
01:32:20.230 --> 01:32:22.229
Like, is there any meaning to any of this?
01:32:22.230 --> 01:32:24.229
[delivery robot] Humans
can find profundity
01:32:24.230 --> 01:32:25.854
in banal experiences,
01:32:25.855 --> 01:32:28.187
though most human lives
are an amalgamation
01:32:28.188 --> 01:32:30.937
of random events devoid of significance.
01:32:30.938 --> 01:32:32.562
- [Jason] Mm.
- This is just my personal feeling...
01:32:32.563 --> 01:32:34.229
[Jason] Eh, this one must be broken.
01:32:34.230 --> 01:32:35.645
[delivery robot] ...and in no way
reflects the views...
01:32:35.646 --> 01:32:36.854
[Maya] It was not that bad.
01:32:36.855 --> 01:32:38.895
[Jason] No, it-it was though.
I mean, it was basically a mullet.
01:32:38.896 --> 01:32:41.604
I was like an-an '80s wrestler
without any muscles.
01:32:41.605 --> 01:32:43.230
[Maya laughs]
01:32:44.230 --> 01:32:45.770
Wow.
01:32:45.771 --> 01:32:48.854
[Maya] Thanks so much
for coming to meet me here.
01:32:48.855 --> 01:32:51.771
It just... means a lot.
01:32:53.521 --> 01:32:55.521
Come on, Maya.
01:32:58.188 --> 01:33:00.562
You called, and I got in the car.
01:33:00.563 --> 01:33:03.020
How many times have you done that for me?
01:33:03.021 --> 01:33:05.605
[wistful music playing]
01:33:13.563 --> 01:33:17.271
[tour guide] Our wetlands are vital
in protecting the city against storms.
01:33:17.980 --> 01:33:22.104
You know, people ask me,
"How long will New Orleans last?
01:33:22.105 --> 01:33:25.230
Twenty-forty? Twenty-fifty?"
01:33:25.813 --> 01:33:28.479
And I say, "You're asking
the wrong question."
01:33:28.480 --> 01:33:31.771
Here's the question:
What are we doing about it?
01:33:32.521 --> 01:33:33.687
[Maya] It's so crazy.
01:33:33.688 --> 01:33:37.770
It's like, I know
that if you were still alive,
01:33:37.771 --> 01:33:42.313
we'd be together, we'd have kids,
we'd have grown up together.
01:33:43.563 --> 01:33:47.605
It's like there's
a whole other life that I...
01:33:49.021 --> 01:33:51.188
...obviously didn't live but I, like...
01:33:53.188 --> 01:33:54.438
...can imagine.
01:34:01.771 --> 01:34:04.688
- [busy chatter]
- [horns honking]
01:34:07.813 --> 01:34:09.480
- [grunts]
- [jet engine passing]
01:34:11.855 --> 01:34:13.813
So what's it gonna take to see you again?
01:34:15.021 --> 01:34:16.520
Another five or ten years?
01:34:16.521 --> 01:34:20.063
Run into you in some random restaurant
in Shanghai somewhere?
01:34:23.646 --> 01:34:26.313
I guess we'll just have to meet up
for Thanksgiving.
01:34:40.896 --> 01:34:42.896
[jet engine passing]
01:34:51.021 --> 01:34:53.063
- Safe flight.
- Thanks.
01:34:57.230 --> 01:34:58.646
[vehicle door opens]
01:35:00.355 --> 01:35:01.687
[vehicle door closes]
01:35:01.688 --> 01:35:03.771
[vehicle departing]
01:35:08.688 --> 01:35:10.688
[wistful music continues]
01:35:35.771 --> 01:35:37.395
[pensive music playing]
01:35:37.396 --> 01:35:39.062
Sorry. Excuse me.
01:35:39.063 --> 01:35:40.520
I'm just gonna squeeze by you.
01:35:40.521 --> 01:35:41.645
I'm...
01:35:41.646 --> 01:35:43.313
Excuse me.
01:35:55.396 --> 01:35:57.396
[seagulls squawking]
01:36:00.146 --> 01:36:02.146
♪ ♪
01:36:03.355 --> 01:36:04.771
[vehicle door opens]
01:36:06.313 --> 01:36:07.730
[vehicle door closes]
01:36:13.855 --> 01:36:16.646
Well, after a hundred years,
she finally shows up.
01:36:20.980 --> 01:36:22.605
I'm really sorry.
01:36:27.813 --> 01:36:29.105
Want one?
01:36:31.188 --> 01:36:32.938
[seagulls squawking in distance]
01:36:41.188 --> 01:36:44.105
Can I ask what happened when I left?
01:36:46.688 --> 01:36:48.688
What do you want to know?
01:36:51.688 --> 01:36:55.355
Do you want to know how hard it was
to get his body released?
01:36:56.771 --> 01:36:59.104
Well, you were the next of kin
and you were AWOL,
01:36:59.105 --> 01:37:03.813
so they kept him in a refrigerated truck
for two weeks.
01:37:09.063 --> 01:37:11.021
And then I planned his funeral.
01:37:12.688 --> 01:37:17.187
And I didn't know
what kind of music he liked.
01:37:17.188 --> 01:37:21.437
I didn't know
what music to play for my son.
01:37:21.438 --> 01:37:23.605
Um, but you would've known that.
01:37:24.271 --> 01:37:25.396
Right?
01:37:34.396 --> 01:37:36.313
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
01:37:37.855 --> 01:37:40.604
And I'm sorry...
01:37:40.605 --> 01:37:42.730
uh, for how I...
01:37:45.188 --> 01:37:47.730
...acted that night
outside your apartment.
01:37:49.271 --> 01:37:51.480
That was horrible. I'm sorry.
01:38:00.146 --> 01:38:02.020
Did you ever like me?
01:38:02.021 --> 01:38:04.105
[laughing]
01:38:05.521 --> 01:38:07.146
Uh, I didn't...
01:38:09.438 --> 01:38:11.438
...want to not like you.
01:38:13.021 --> 01:38:16.104
But at first you seemed so uncomfortable
01:38:16.105 --> 01:38:19.646
and then maybe
just a little too comfortable.
01:38:20.813 --> 01:38:23.187
And, uh...
01:38:23.188 --> 01:38:26.230
the wedding actually,
the wedding really threw me.
01:38:27.730 --> 01:38:29.854
The surprise of it all.
01:38:29.855 --> 01:38:33.480
I felt, like, sort of rejected.
01:38:36.271 --> 01:38:38.312
[chuckles] Did you like me?
01:38:38.313 --> 01:38:40.021
[chuckles] Never mind.
01:38:43.938 --> 01:38:44.938
I loved you.
01:38:50.021 --> 01:38:51.980
[sucks lips, sniffles]
01:38:55.396 --> 01:38:56.771
[sighs] God.
01:39:00.230 --> 01:39:02.230
[sighs, chuckles]
01:39:03.605 --> 01:39:04.980
We're all right.
01:39:08.521 --> 01:39:10.645
Grief is never finished.
01:39:10.646 --> 01:39:13.021
It's never finished. [chuckles]
01:39:14.855 --> 01:39:17.521
But neither is love.
01:39:19.563 --> 01:39:20.563
Yeah.
01:39:22.271 --> 01:39:24.645
I'm so stupid for...
01:39:24.646 --> 01:39:26.020
I keep trying. [sighs]
01:39:26.021 --> 01:39:28.812
What are you... why are you stupid?
01:39:28.813 --> 01:39:30.355
Keep trying.
01:39:32.021 --> 01:39:33.812
That's good.
01:39:33.813 --> 01:39:39.520
You don't know
what you at 60 or 70 or 80...
01:39:39.521 --> 01:39:42.645
will say about your life.
01:39:42.646 --> 01:39:45.104
If you did the right thing.
01:39:45.105 --> 01:39:47.396
If you made the right choices.
01:39:48.105 --> 01:39:52.104
That's why you really have to stay in love
with your own life
01:39:52.105 --> 01:39:55.813
while it's happening,
whatever it throws at you.
01:39:57.146 --> 01:39:58.896
Whatever it's thrown at us.
01:40:00.271 --> 01:40:01.937
That's what I tell my own kids.
01:40:01.938 --> 01:40:03.020
- [front door opens]
- [Wilma barking]
01:40:03.021 --> 01:40:04.104
[Kerry] Hi.
01:40:04.105 --> 01:40:05.604
- [door closes]
- [keys clink]
01:40:05.605 --> 01:40:08.104
Oh, look who it is, Wilma.
01:40:08.105 --> 01:40:09.562
Your old buddy.
01:40:09.563 --> 01:40:10.854
It's Maya.
01:40:10.855 --> 01:40:12.188
[chuckles]
01:40:15.188 --> 01:40:17.646
[pensive music playing]
01:40:30.480 --> 01:40:31.980
[sighs]
01:40:41.438 --> 01:40:44.187
[chuckling softly]
01:40:44.188 --> 01:40:46.271
[sobbing softly]
01:40:48.855 --> 01:40:50.855
[sobbing]
01:41:00.188 --> 01:41:01.770
[sniffles]
01:41:01.771 --> 01:41:03.855
[sobbing]
01:41:06.021 --> 01:41:07.271
[Charlie] Do me a favor.
01:41:08.063 --> 01:41:09.645
Just close your eyes real quick.
01:41:09.646 --> 01:41:11.104
- [quiet chatter]
- [dishes clinking]
01:41:11.105 --> 01:41:12.396
Please.
01:41:13.396 --> 01:41:15.105
Trust me.
01:41:15.813 --> 01:41:17.312
Okay.
01:41:17.313 --> 01:41:21.937
Okay, you hear forks clinking on plates.
01:41:21.938 --> 01:41:24.520
Hear my ice crackling in the glass.
01:41:24.521 --> 01:41:25.979
[ice crackling softly]
01:41:25.980 --> 01:41:28.270
- Traffic outside.
- [traffic passing]
01:41:28.271 --> 01:41:30.645
[woman laughing]
01:41:30.646 --> 01:41:32.020
A laugh.
01:41:32.021 --> 01:41:34.854
Now think about all the sounds
you might not notice.
01:41:34.855 --> 01:41:36.770
That hum of the neon lights in the window.
01:41:36.771 --> 01:41:37.854
[billiard balls clacking]
01:41:37.855 --> 01:41:40.895
The pool game in the back of the bar.
01:41:40.896 --> 01:41:42.687
It's just layers of auditory information
01:41:42.688 --> 01:41:44.812
that's creating this environment
you're in, right?
01:41:44.813 --> 01:41:46.895
Right, and that environment
gives you a feeling,
01:41:46.896 --> 01:41:48.937
consciously or subconsciously.
01:41:48.938 --> 01:41:51.146
And that feeling affects
your central nervous system.
01:41:52.188 --> 01:41:54.480
But, uh, you know all about that, so...
01:41:57.105 --> 01:41:58.521
Yeah. I do.
01:42:08.730 --> 01:42:12.562
What's gonna happen
when all the iron oxide powder wears off?
01:42:12.563 --> 01:42:14.645
Notes will still be there.
01:42:14.646 --> 01:42:18.271
But the, uh, tails will just get
shorter and shorter, and then...
01:42:20.438 --> 01:42:22.438
...it's just gonna be white noise.
01:42:23.813 --> 01:42:25.354
[cassette tape grinding softly]
01:42:25.355 --> 01:42:28.438
[gentle classical music playing,
distorted]
01:42:32.396 --> 01:42:34.312
[white noise hissing]
01:42:34.313 --> 01:42:36.396
[distorted classical music continues]
01:42:47.313 --> 01:42:49.229
[distorted music fading]
01:42:49.230 --> 01:42:51.313
[white noise hissing]
01:43:00.646 --> 01:43:02.646
[white noise continues]
01:43:15.938 --> 01:43:17.854
- [wind blowing]
- [birds chirping]
01:43:17.855 --> 01:43:19.938
[water sloshing]
01:43:21.813 --> 01:43:24.270
[kids chattering playfully]
01:43:24.271 --> 01:43:26.104
[woman laughing]
01:43:26.105 --> 01:43:28.145
[lively chatter]
01:43:28.146 --> 01:43:30.979
[train clacking rhythmically]
01:43:30.980 --> 01:43:33.063
[buoy bell clanging]
01:43:34.438 --> 01:43:36.438
- [dog barking]
- [lively chatter continues]
01:43:41.938 --> 01:43:43.938
[geese honking]
01:43:46.105 --> 01:43:48.938
[♪ Fleetwood Mac sing "Seven Wonders"]
01:43:54.646 --> 01:43:56.646
♪ ♪
01:44:03.230 --> 01:44:05.687
♪ So long ago ♪
01:44:05.688 --> 01:44:07.562
♪ Certain place ♪
01:44:07.563 --> 01:44:09.605
♪ Certain time ♪
01:44:11.271 --> 01:44:13.729
♪ You touched my hand ♪
01:44:13.730 --> 01:44:15.729
♪ on the way ♪
01:44:15.730 --> 01:44:19.312
♪ on the way down to Emmeline ♪
01:44:19.313 --> 01:44:24.270
♪ But if our paths never cross ♪
01:44:24.271 --> 01:44:26.812
♪ well, you know I'm sorry, but ♪
01:44:26.813 --> 01:44:30.770
♪ if I live to see the seven wonders ♪
01:44:30.771 --> 01:44:34.770
♪ I'll make a path to the rainbow's end ♪
01:44:34.771 --> 01:44:40.063
♪ I'll never live
to match the beauty again ♪
01:44:41.063 --> 01:44:43.855
♪ The rainbow's end ♪
01:44:46.771 --> 01:44:48.480
♪ Aaron ♪
01:44:50.855 --> 01:44:53.105
♪ Aaron ♪
01:44:59.646 --> 01:45:01.729
♪ So it's hard to find ♪
01:45:01.730 --> 01:45:07.604
♪ someone with that kind of intensity ♪
01:45:07.605 --> 01:45:09.520
♪ You touched my hand ♪
01:45:09.521 --> 01:45:12.145
♪ I played it cool ♪
01:45:12.146 --> 01:45:15.729
♪ and you reached out your hand to me ♪
01:45:15.730 --> 01:45:20.729
♪ But if our paths never cross ♪
01:45:20.730 --> 01:45:23.187
♪ well, no, I'm not sorry, but ♪
01:45:23.188 --> 01:45:27.145
♪ if I live to see the seven wonders ♪
01:45:27.146 --> 01:45:31.145
♪ I'll make a path to the rainbow's end ♪
01:45:31.146 --> 01:45:36.646
♪ I'll never live
to match the beauty again ♪
01:45:37.896 --> 01:45:40.979
♪ The rainbow's end ♪
01:45:40.980 --> 01:45:43.063
♪ ♪
01:45:51.313 --> 01:45:53.813
♪ Aaron ♪
01:45:59.521 --> 01:46:01.896
♪ Aaron ♪
01:46:04.271 --> 01:46:06.812
♪ So long ago ♪
01:46:06.813 --> 01:46:08.937
♪ It's a certain time ♪
01:46:08.938 --> 01:46:10.980
♪ It's a certain place ♪
01:46:12.521 --> 01:46:15.020
♪ You touched my hand ♪
01:46:15.021 --> 01:46:17.062
♪ and you smiled ♪
01:46:17.063 --> 01:46:20.937
♪ All the way back,
you held out your hand ♪
01:46:20.938 --> 01:46:25.604
♪ If I hope and if I pray ♪
01:46:25.605 --> 01:46:28.187
♪ ooh, it might work out someday ♪
01:46:28.188 --> 01:46:32.062
♪ If I live to see the seven wonders ♪
01:46:32.063 --> 01:46:36.104
♪ I'll make a path to the rainbow's end ♪
01:46:36.105 --> 01:46:41.563
♪ I'll never live
to match the beauty again ♪
01:46:44.355 --> 01:46:46.062
♪ If I live to see the seven wonders ♪
01:46:46.063 --> 01:46:48.229
♪ If I live to see
the seven wonders ♪
01:46:48.230 --> 01:46:50.354
♪ I'll make a path to the rainbow's end ♪
01:46:50.355 --> 01:46:52.312
♪ I'll make a path there ♪
01:46:52.313 --> 01:46:54.479
♪ I'll never live
to match the beauty again ♪
01:46:54.480 --> 01:46:57.854
♪ I'll never live to see
that beauty, that beauty ♪
01:46:57.855 --> 01:47:00.520
♪ that same, same beauty again ♪
01:47:00.521 --> 01:47:02.437
♪ If I live to see the seven wonders ♪
01:47:02.438 --> 01:47:04.479
♪ If I live to see the ♪
01:47:04.480 --> 01:47:08.520
♪ I'll make a path to the rainbow's end ♪
01:47:08.521 --> 01:47:11.479
♪ I'll never live
to match the beauty again ♪
01:47:11.480 --> 01:47:14.854
♪ Well, if I hope and I pray,
well, maybe it might ♪
01:47:14.855 --> 01:47:16.854
[song fades]
01:47:16.855 --> 01:47:18.938
[wistful music playing]
01:47:48.896 --> 01:47:50.896
♪ ♪
01:48:20.896 --> 01:48:22.896
♪ ♪
01:48:52.896 --> 01:48:54.896
♪ ♪
01:49:08.896 --> 01:49:10.896
[music ends]