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[Phone vibrating]

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[Phone vibrating]

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[Horn honking]

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[Phone vibrating]

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Put this piece there.

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Jaya sir,

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You’ve been on this same piece
for two hours!

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- I'm trying.
- No let it be. I'll do it myself.

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Okay go ahead. Try.

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Mouni as a party,
to celebrate the award,

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We didn't expect to solve puzzles.

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I mean I thought there would be some
music and dancing...

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Mouni dancing?!!!

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Anyway she’s quit alcohol,
so that's not happening.

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[Jaya sir chuckles]

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Hello guys! Pizza?
Are you guys playing the puzzle?

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- Hi KP!
- Hello... Taanya...

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Keep it there.

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Tanaya... sorry.

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- Ta-na-ya
- What have you got on?

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- Have you sprayed something on yourself?
- No Mou di.

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As instructed, no perfume.

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I’m getting a whiff of something. For sure.

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No, I swear. Today I stopped
my hands in time.

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So as an actor you've learnt
to stop your hands in time. Finally!

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Shampoo?

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Oh fuck! Yes, I washed my hair today.

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You can smell it from under my cap?

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- Sorry sorry sorry Mouni.
- Move!

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What are you wearing?

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New headphones? They look very cool.

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It’s a neck fan.

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I swear, I thought it’s one of those new age headphones,

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in which, sound travels through the neckbone.

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Really?
- It's a thing.

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Are you acting?

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Well if you are, then you've
improved a lot I must say.

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Classic Mouni. The Mike Tyson of our film school.

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Yes, that was a knockout punch!

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- Guys, the pizza will get cold.
- We took a slice.

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Give me some too.

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[Birds chirping and phone vibrating]

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<i>'Bloody banker' calling...</i>

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Mouni, What new international
work have you been doing?

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Mouni is a star. She acts in a short film
and travels the world.

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And even after a 100-200
episodes of TV shows,

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we’re still on the stage of some
small time local award show.

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[Clanking sound]

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How do we get to Berlin and Venice?

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Cannes?

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We don't get to go.

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- We're just... stuck here.
- Hey!

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Did you bring the new car?
I want a drive ya please.

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I also saw the new car, on Instagram.

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- Mercedes!
- What a color!

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- Beautiful!
- One has to do all this.

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In the TV industry,
showing off is necessary.

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And everyone does it. It's not a big deal.

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Don’t talk rubbish. I can see through this fake humility.

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A fancy apartment in Mumbai!

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now a Mercedes,

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photographs splashed across front pages...

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Even you can do it.

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Just hire a PR manager.

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[Clanking sound]

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Then I’ll have to do work
which won't satisfy me,

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then get a car which I don’t need,

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wear clothes which I don’t want to wear,

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then hire papparazzi at the airport
to capture my ‘Airport Look’...etc. etc.

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Then work on my Instagram following.

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- Like you have. What is it, 1 point?
- 1.4 million. 1.5 actually.

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So basically do all of that, and in this whole
process, forget how to act!

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[KP chuckles]

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Yes, Mouni.

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You always say it like it is. Truly.

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Just like in film school.

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In fact I find it very cool,

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the way you’ve struck this balance...

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You sell your fragrance free soaps.

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and manage your expenses,
so you don’t have to compromise.

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You’re free to really act.

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This way, your art remains pure.

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You only do the work you really feel for.

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I think it's the best way to be.

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So I really respect that.

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What say, Tanu?

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Ya, I agree.

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[Birds chirping]

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Why are you being fake?

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What?

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When I came for your Netflix premiere,
you didn’t take my call.

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I called you more than twice.
That asshole watchman...

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fucking insulted me.

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Answer your phone,
and then act like we're friends.

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Can we please let this go?
It’s been two years.

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When will you see that...

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- We’re all here for you. We love you.
- Yes Mouni.

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In the middle of the night,
she took you to the hospital.

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So you want me to thank her
for making me bankrupt?!

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[Phone vibrating]

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Give me a second.

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Hey!

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What? How can she say that?

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- You know how she is...
- Let it go.

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Know what?

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We’ve known her for ages.

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You know her story...

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...saved money to go to London.

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To study Shakespeare.

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- Globe Theatre.
- Yeah.

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Was I supposed to leave her
unconscious?

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She fainted KP!

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How was I to know what
an appendix surgery costs?

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No one is blaming you.

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You did what was right.

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Yes, you did the right thing.

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I’m just saying that she also had her own...

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[Birds chirping]

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Mouni, help us with this!

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Yes, this puzzle...

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This is a tough one.

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I love this painting you know.

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Show us the award!

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The award is what we
all came to celebrate!

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It’s inside.

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I'll go get it.

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I’ll just try to put this one piece.

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[Jaya sir sniffing]

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[Muffled voices]

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Didi, please eat some pizza.

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I will.

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Try to finish the puzzle.

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Show! show! show!

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- Wow.
- Oh my god!

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Why haven’t you posted a photo?

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- This is quite cool!
- Let's take a photo now.

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- Oh yes, selfie time.
- I'm good.

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We can take it. I have no awards.

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We’ll post it and tag her.

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Give me your phone.

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[Jaya sir clicking pictures]

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This reminds me of that ‘I love Mumbai’
post of yours on Instagram.

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Yes, I just got a new dress.

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I don’t know whose amazing idea this was.

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To put these installations all over the city.

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Horrendous!

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Just like the city.

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[Happy music playing]

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I feel that the true nature of land,
always remains the same.

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[Happy music playing]

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No matter how many palaces you build.

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This ‘Spirit of Mumbai’ thing is all rubbish.

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[Upbeat music playing]

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It’s just an advertising gimmick. Marketing

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I don’t buy it.

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[Upbeat music playing]

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Mumbai was a marshland.

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So if it seems as if your life...

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perpetually feels like quick sand,
it’s not surprising is it?

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[Upbeat music playing]

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[Upbeat music playing]

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[Cycle bell ringing]

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[Music fades out]

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You shouldn’t have taken sick leave from work.

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I can’t believe that my daughter had to
take time off from work because of me.

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[Horn honking]

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It’s not like that.

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You did the same thing for me last year,

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when I was going through depression.

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You didn’t understand what was happening.

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But you came all the way to London
and spent a whole week with me.

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And there was so much work
you had to do at the bank.

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You didn’t know what was the right thing to say
or what was the right thing to do.

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But...

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I mean you did say some silly things to me,

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like the time when I was crying in the bathroom,

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you sat there with me but at the end,
you said, “Go to the gym tomorrow”.

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But you showed up
and spent all your time with me.

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You didn’t check your emails,
you didn’t check your phone once.

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[Dog barking]

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I’ll never forget that.

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[Clock tower chimes]

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[Clock tower chimes]

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[Clock tower chimes]

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What did the therapist say?

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Did you speak about starting medication?

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The therapist said that if I don’t feel better in
two weeks, then I’d have to start medication.

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I am not okay. I have anxiety.

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But I really don’t want to start medication.

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Don’t worry Papa.

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It's okay. We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.

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Don't worry.

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Okay listen! What did you do in college as a hobby?

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[Dog barking]

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I used to do theatre.
Performed some small characters.

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- What?
- Yes, only when I was in college.

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I didn't know that.

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Grandma didn’t share any pictures
of your theatre time with me.

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Actually...

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I used to be a tree in the background
in the play. Just a five minute role.

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I played the part of a tree when I was in school.

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Family profession, I guess.

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I think you should...
I think you should become an actor now.

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Or at least try it.

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- What?
- Yes.

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You can try acting.

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Don't be silly.

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You know I only played very small parts.

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[Adnan sniffing]

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What are you doing?

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What are you looking for?

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I think you should give an audition this weekend.

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- What?
- Yes!

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It’s Frankfurt, It’s a Saturday.
I’m sure there’s something happening.

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- Audition?
- Yes.

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- You mean I should go for an audition?
- Of course.

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And why would they shortlist me?

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" Wanted..."

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“Indian male between the ages of 45-55."

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"Must look like a working professional.”

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The suit.

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[Duck quacking]

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You should do it.

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No.

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[Birds chirping]

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You remember that film called 'Julia'?

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Directed by Stephen Shuttler.
We watched it on Netflix the other day.

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Yes. Yes.

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They're doing auditions for him.

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It's going to happen with one actor on Zoom in India,

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and one actor from here.

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The audition venue is close by.

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I think you should go. It'll be really fun.

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Make use of this retirement. Come on.
Do something fun for once.

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Adnan Baig.

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You can sit on that chair there.

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Yes, that one.

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Your co-actor is on the zoom call.

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Yes.

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[Clanking sound]

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[Paper rustling]

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Hey what’s going on? Just check?

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- Oh we tripped a fuse. It’ll be back on in a bit.
- Okay.

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Habit can change the stamp of nature.
Habit can change the stamp of nature. Habit can change...

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How long does it usually take for the audition process?

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A few hours. In total.

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These people are a little disorganised.

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There’s no electricity at the moment.
We don’t know when it will be back.

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Have you performed in theatre?

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Or have you acted in a film?

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I’m not an actor.

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I dabbled in theatre in college,

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Small roles, but that’s all.

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Nice.

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Are you a first time actor as well?

00:15:05.384 --> 00:15:06.425 align:center
Sorry?

00:15:07.864 --> 00:15:09.065 align:center
Is this your first time?

00:15:10.225 --> 00:15:11.024 align:center
Yes.

00:15:11.624 --> 00:15:13.065 align:center
No I’m a professional actor.

00:15:14.105 --> 00:15:15.705 align:center
Oh wow!

00:15:18.105 --> 00:15:19.105 align:center
Since when?

00:15:20.225 --> 00:15:21.425 align:center
The past twelve years.

00:15:22.705 --> 00:15:28.264 align:center
Are you a famous OTT actor?
Sorry I’m asking because I’m unaware.

00:15:29.744 --> 00:15:32.144 align:center
No. Just an actor.

00:15:32.425 --> 00:15:34.384 align:center
Wow. Just an actor.

00:15:43.465 --> 00:15:47.424 align:center
- What do you do?
- Managing Director of ACBC bank for ten years.

00:15:47.425 --> 00:15:50.465 align:center
I joined them thirty years ago as an intern.

00:15:52.065 --> 00:15:53.143 align:center
Wow.

00:15:53.144 --> 00:15:53.984 align:center
[Birds chirping]

00:15:54.264 --> 00:15:55.705 align:center
You must be very proud.

00:15:56.105 --> 00:15:57.545 align:center
I miss the job.

00:15:57.784 --> 00:16:01.305 align:center
- But...
- Okay. The electricity is back.

00:16:02.264 --> 00:16:03.185 align:center
[Adnan gasping]

00:16:03.664 --> 00:16:05.784 align:center
- Ready to go? Both actors?
- Yes sir.

00:16:06.664 --> 00:16:08.503 align:center
- Roll sound.
- Rolling.

00:16:08.504 --> 00:16:10.264 align:center
- Roll camera.
- Rolling.

00:16:13.065 --> 00:16:13.545 align:center
[Crow cawing]

00:16:15.585 --> 00:16:16.585 align:center
Action.

00:16:17.585 --> 00:16:18.904 align:center
You’re an alcoholic.

00:16:20.225 --> 00:16:22.984 align:center
It is time that you accept this truth. That’s it.

00:16:25.784 --> 00:16:27.065 align:center
You’re right doctor.

00:16:29.105 --> 00:16:31.024 align:center
I just wanted somebody to...

00:16:31.705 --> 00:16:33.545 align:center
put it straight I guess.

00:16:34.864 --> 00:16:35.545 align:center
[Mouni gasping]

00:16:38.345 --> 00:16:39.465 align:center
Now?

00:16:40.345 --> 00:16:45.264 align:center
Now you must complete the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.

00:16:53.585 --> 00:16:55.624 align:center
I’m very scared, doctor.

00:16:58.545 --> 00:17:01.023 align:center
I live alone and...

00:17:01.024 --> 00:17:02.504 align:center
I don’t have...

00:17:03.545 --> 00:17:04.023 align:center
[Mouni gasping]

00:17:04.024 --> 00:17:06.744 align:center
I don't have any extended family or friends here.

00:17:06.745 --> 00:17:12.065 align:center
I know, your brother informed me that you live alone.

00:17:12.305 --> 00:17:13.424 align:center
Don’t worry.

00:17:13.864 --> 00:17:16.105 align:center
"Assume a virtue, if you have it not."

00:17:16.664 --> 00:17:18.223 align:center
"That monster, custom..."

00:17:18.224 --> 00:17:19.183 align:center
Okay. Cut.

00:17:19.184 --> 00:17:21.505 align:center
You will have to go a little easy on the drama.

00:17:21.944 --> 00:17:24.105 align:center
- Just speak with ease.
- Okay sir.

00:17:24.664 --> 00:17:26.663 align:center
- Sorry.
- Yeah okay. We’ll go for one more?

00:17:26.664 --> 00:17:28.223 align:center
- Crew you’re ready to go?
- Ready.

00:17:28.224 --> 00:17:29.704 align:center
- Roll sound.
- Rolling.

00:17:30.065 --> 00:17:31.624 align:center
- Roll camera.
- Rolling.

00:17:32.384 --> 00:17:33.384 align:center
Action.

00:17:34.384 --> 00:17:35.704 align:center
You’re an alcoholic.

00:17:37.184 --> 00:17:40.424 align:center
It is time that you accept this truth. That’s it.

00:17:40.825 --> 00:17:41.944 align:center
Cut cut.

00:17:42.345 --> 00:17:45.223 align:center
We’ll have to go easier. It’s still too much drama.

00:17:45.224 --> 00:17:47.903 align:center
Just say it easier.
As if you’re speaking in your real life.

00:17:47.904 --> 00:17:49.184 align:center
Okay. Okay.

00:17:49.704 --> 00:17:51.424 align:center
- Like in normal life?
- Yeah, better.

00:17:52.424 --> 00:17:53.824 align:center
Roll sound.

00:17:53.825 --> 00:17:56.903 align:center
This is the last time. We won’t go again.
Roll camera.

00:17:56.904 --> 00:17:57.904 align:center
Rolling.

00:17:59.105 --> 00:17:59.944 align:center
Action.

00:18:00.464 --> 00:18:01.785 align:center
You’re an alcoholic.

00:18:02.505 --> 00:18:05.944 align:center
It is time that you accept this truth. That’s it.

00:18:07.025 --> 00:18:08.904 align:center
[Birds chirping]

00:18:09.305 --> 00:18:10.065 align:center
Yes.

00:18:11.224 --> 00:18:12.505 align:center
You’re right doctor.

00:18:14.224 --> 00:18:16.863 align:center
I just wanted somebody to put it straight I guess.

00:18:16.864 --> 00:18:20.704 align:center
Now you must complete the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.

00:18:23.224 --> 00:18:25.265 align:center
I’m very scared.

00:18:26.825 --> 00:18:29.305 align:center
I live alone, doctor and...

00:18:30.585 --> 00:18:32.624 align:center
I really don't know how to do this.

00:18:34.464 --> 00:18:38.423 align:center
I don’t have any extended family or friends really, so.

00:18:38.424 --> 00:18:42.305 align:center
I know, your brother informed me that you live alone.

00:18:43.704 --> 00:18:44.664 align:center
Don’t worry.

00:18:45.065 --> 00:18:46.383 align:center
"Refrain tonight,"

00:18:46.384 --> 00:18:48.505 align:center
"and that shall lend a kind of easiness."

00:18:51.904 --> 00:18:53.345 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

00:18:55.144 --> 00:18:56.224 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

00:18:58.144 --> 00:19:00.265 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

00:19:02.184 --> 00:19:04.143 align:center
Please don’t cry. I’m there for you.

00:19:04.144 --> 00:19:06.744 align:center
I’m sorry to cut you off, doctor. I...

00:19:06.745 --> 00:19:10.345 align:center
I can’t do this Alcoholics Anonymous doctor.

00:19:10.944 --> 00:19:12.224 align:center
[Mouni sobbing]

00:19:12.585 --> 00:19:13.863 align:center
Please...

00:19:13.864 --> 00:19:18.064 align:center
please help me, please save me from myself.

00:19:18.065 --> 00:19:19.785 align:center
Don’t cry. Don't cry.

00:19:21.505 --> 00:19:24.383 align:center
I’m there for you. Please don’t cry.

00:19:24.384 --> 00:19:26.305 align:center
Please have a glass of water.
There’s a bottle right next to you.

00:19:27.065 --> 00:19:28.464 align:center
Please have a glass of water.

00:19:31.785 --> 00:19:33.144 align:center
Have a glass of water. Please.

00:19:36.384 --> 00:19:37.864 align:center
[Background horn honking]

00:19:38.505 --> 00:19:39.065 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:19:40.025 --> 00:19:40.345 align:center
[Mouni sniffing]

00:19:42.505 --> 00:19:44.384 align:center
Can I meet you again?

00:19:45.785 --> 00:19:46.784 align:center
Please?

00:19:46.785 --> 00:19:48.384 align:center
Yes, of course. Why not?

00:19:48.585 --> 00:19:52.984 align:center
Do let me know what time suits you.
You can text me.

00:19:52.985 --> 00:19:54.985 align:center
Yes. Sure.

00:19:57.944 --> 00:19:59.624 align:center
Thank you, doctor.

00:20:02.864 --> 00:20:03.663 align:center
Cut.

00:20:03.664 --> 00:20:06.345 align:center
That was really nice man. Both of you were very nice.

00:20:06.585 --> 00:20:11.305 align:center
We’ll get back to both of you for the shortlisted audition. You both are shortlisted.

00:20:12.345 --> 00:20:13.265 align:center
Okay. Thanks.

00:20:18.424 --> 00:20:20.184 align:center
What the fuck was that?

00:20:24.144 --> 00:20:24.505 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:20:25.184 --> 00:20:27.384 align:center
[Footsteps approaching]

00:20:28.944 --> 00:20:33.305 align:center
[Phone ringing]

00:20:35.664 --> 00:20:36.824 align:center
Hi Mouni.

00:20:36.825 --> 00:20:39.824 align:center
How are you video calling me?
How did you get my number?

00:20:39.825 --> 00:20:42.785 align:center
I took your number from the assistant director.

00:20:43.265 --> 00:20:45.184 align:center
The audition was crazy, right?

00:20:46.065 --> 00:20:49.584 align:center
I haven't felt this kind of excitement in me for years.

00:20:49.585 --> 00:20:51.704 align:center
It is time to rethink your life then.

00:20:54.345 --> 00:20:56.545 align:center
You are a terrific actor.

00:20:56.904 --> 00:20:59.224 align:center
So real. So truthful, you know.

00:20:59.505 --> 00:21:01.345 align:center
I haven’t seen an artist like you.

00:21:01.785 --> 00:21:03.623 align:center
- Go home. I’m coming.
- Okay.

00:21:03.624 --> 00:21:04.663 align:center
Actually...

00:21:04.664 --> 00:21:08.423 align:center
The talent you have...
You know when you said I should look into your eyes?

00:21:08.424 --> 00:21:10.184 align:center
And when I did feel that connection,

00:21:10.664 --> 00:21:13.304 align:center
it was such a treat to watch you.

00:21:13.305 --> 00:21:18.623 align:center
Amazing. The art you possess is one in a million.

00:21:18.624 --> 00:21:21.984 align:center
What’s with the flattery?
What do you want? Come to the point.

00:21:21.985 --> 00:21:23.545 align:center
I’m not flattering you.

00:21:23.944 --> 00:21:26.863 align:center
I am speaking the truth.
I have never seen an actor like you.

00:21:26.864 --> 00:21:31.664 align:center
I just need five minutes of your time over a coffee, please.

00:21:33.424 --> 00:21:35.784 align:center
I don’t have time for this. I’m busy.

00:21:35.785 --> 00:21:39.184 align:center
I just want to talk to you.
Just five minutes, please.

00:21:40.825 --> 00:21:41.943 align:center
Okay.

00:21:41.944 --> 00:21:44.384 align:center
- Five minutes.
- Only five minutes, yes.

00:21:44.704 --> 00:21:46.985 align:center
I’ll find a coffee shop and call you back.

00:21:47.265 --> 00:21:49.143 align:center
Thank you so much Mouni.

00:21:49.144 --> 00:21:50.664 align:center
Oh, she hung up.

00:21:53.664 --> 00:21:54.065 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:21:55.184 --> 00:21:58.464 align:center
[Lightening]

00:22:04.944 --> 00:22:06.704 align:center
[Vehicle passing]

00:22:08.545 --> 00:22:10.264 align:center
Rain at this time of the year?

00:22:10.265 --> 00:22:11.704 align:center
How weird is that!

00:22:12.224 --> 00:22:14.304 align:center
Yes. In Frankfurt,
it can rain on any day of the year.

00:22:14.305 --> 00:22:15.704 align:center
Unlike Mumbai.

00:22:17.585 --> 00:22:19.944 align:center
- One filter coffee.
- Yes ma’am.

00:22:21.904 --> 00:22:22.864 align:center
Tell me.

00:22:23.345 --> 00:22:24.825 align:center
Your full name is...

00:22:27.265 --> 00:22:28.345 align:center
What’s on this rag?

00:22:29.664 --> 00:22:30.943 align:center
Phenyl.

00:22:30.944 --> 00:22:32.545 align:center
Take this rag away from here right now!

00:22:40.025 --> 00:22:41.704 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:22:44.864 --> 00:22:45.305 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:22:46.144 --> 00:22:49.944 align:center
Are you suffering from
some kind of breathing disability?

00:22:50.664 --> 00:22:54.624 align:center
Like you not being able to act in there
was a behavioural disability?

00:22:55.505 --> 00:22:58.265 align:center
No no, I didn’t mean it like that. I was just asking...

00:23:01.545 --> 00:23:03.143 align:center
What’s that device?

00:23:03.144 --> 00:23:06.025 align:center
Banker boy, you have five minutes.

00:23:06.704 --> 00:23:12.144 align:center
And if for this entire five minutes
you want to chat about my neck fan, please, be my guest.

00:23:14.105 --> 00:23:15.704 align:center
Ok, I’ll check it out on google later.

00:23:17.144 --> 00:23:18.785 align:center
How did you learn how to act?

00:23:19.345 --> 00:23:21.864 align:center
What are the tricks of the trade?
What is the formula?

00:23:22.305 --> 00:23:25.505 align:center
How do you transport yourself like that?

00:23:27.424 --> 00:23:31.025 align:center
You remember the scene that we did inside?
Right now, in the audition?

00:23:31.825 --> 00:23:34.265 align:center
Do the same scene once more with me.

00:23:35.985 --> 00:23:37.785 align:center
But without any dialogue.

00:23:39.664 --> 00:23:42.825 align:center
Without any dialogue? How?

00:23:43.464 --> 00:23:44.944 align:center
Without any dialogue.

00:23:45.704 --> 00:23:47.065 align:center
With just your emotions.

00:23:49.345 --> 00:23:53.585 align:center
No extra facial expressions,
no using hands much.

00:23:55.624 --> 00:23:56.424 align:center
Okay.

00:23:56.704 --> 00:23:57.624 align:center
Cool.

00:23:59.025 --> 00:24:00.664 align:center
Just look into my eyes.

00:24:04.904 --> 00:24:06.345 align:center
[Cycle bell ringing]

00:24:09.745 --> 00:24:10.545 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:24:20.505 --> 00:24:22.345 align:center
[Vehicle passing]

00:24:23.384 --> 00:24:24.745 align:center
[Mouni sobs softly]

00:24:27.585 --> 00:24:28.624 align:center
[Mouni sobs softly]

00:24:35.184 --> 00:24:35.624 align:center
[Mouni sniffing]

00:24:39.305 --> 00:24:39.664 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:24:42.384 --> 00:24:43.664 align:center
[Water pouring]

00:24:45.545 --> 00:24:46.184 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:24:49.144 --> 00:24:49.704 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:24:52.464 --> 00:24:53.664 align:center
Fuck.

00:24:58.184 --> 00:24:59.944 align:center
This is unbelievable.

00:25:01.704 --> 00:25:04.704 align:center
I haven’t experienced anything
of the sort in my entire life before.

00:25:05.424 --> 00:25:06.785 align:center
You’re a magician.

00:25:07.065 --> 00:25:08.025 align:center
Trust me.

00:25:08.585 --> 00:25:09.623 align:center
You know...

00:25:09.624 --> 00:25:11.864 align:center
do you even realise how cool this is?

00:25:12.105 --> 00:25:14.184 align:center
Okay Banker boy, five minutes over.

00:25:14.464 --> 00:25:15.585 align:center
I gotta go.

00:25:16.904 --> 00:25:19.305 align:center
I have to make a ton of deliveries. So,

00:25:20.464 --> 00:25:23.305 align:center
take care if you want to, otherwise
I don’t know... what to do.

00:25:33.864 --> 00:25:39.144 align:center
[Phone ringing]

00:25:39.384 --> 00:25:39.904 align:center
[Vehicle passing]

00:25:41.105 --> 00:25:43.184 align:center
What are you up to Mr. MD?

00:25:43.904 --> 00:25:45.864 align:center
Isn’t this called stalking in Germany?

00:25:45.985 --> 00:25:47.825 align:center
I’m really very sorry Mouni.

00:25:48.025 --> 00:25:49.184 align:center
Please let me explain.

00:25:50.105 --> 00:25:53.505 align:center
I quit my job in banking after thirty years.

00:25:53.825 --> 00:25:55.864 align:center
And in the past six months,

00:25:56.745 --> 00:25:58.384 align:center
I have experienced high levels of anxiety,

00:25:59.065 --> 00:26:01.143 align:center
reaching to the point of depression.

00:26:01.144 --> 00:26:03.785 align:center
I have never depended on anything in life,

00:26:04.305 --> 00:26:07.265 align:center
but now I feel scared that I will have to depend
on medication to fight these.

00:26:08.025 --> 00:26:12.025 align:center
I am afraid of the never ending cycle that it can be.

00:26:14.345 --> 00:26:15.545 align:center
And Mouni,

00:26:15.864 --> 00:26:19.424 align:center
it is my request. Please help me to stay away from that,

00:26:20.305 --> 00:26:22.065 align:center
and allow me to learn from you.

00:26:23.065 --> 00:26:25.584 align:center
If we end up together in the audition again,

00:26:25.585 --> 00:26:27.824 align:center
You know I'm a bad actor,
a very bad actor.

00:26:27.825 --> 00:26:31.825 align:center
I’m scared that my inability to act
will tarnish your performance too.

00:26:35.105 --> 00:26:38.585 align:center
Why are all you bankers like cunning foxes?

00:26:40.184 --> 00:26:42.663 align:center
You will sit in a breezy room,

00:26:42.664 --> 00:26:45.304 align:center
in your German palace,

00:26:45.305 --> 00:26:47.224 align:center
and treat acting as some form of play.

00:26:47.545 --> 00:26:51.025 align:center
While I am toiling in the heat of Mumbai,
working my way through local trains.

00:26:51.585 --> 00:26:52.464 align:center
No.

00:26:53.105 --> 00:26:54.305 align:center
It won’t work like that.

00:26:54.785 --> 00:26:55.944 align:center
Please...

00:26:56.345 --> 00:26:58.704 align:center
You walk around too if I’m walking around.

00:26:59.904 --> 00:27:01.304 align:center
Will you?

00:27:01.305 --> 00:27:02.463 align:center
Of course I will.

00:27:02.464 --> 00:27:04.104 align:center
If I take a cab, you’ll take a cab?

00:27:04.105 --> 00:27:04.903 align:center
Yes.

00:27:04.904 --> 00:27:06.104 align:center
And if I take a local train?

00:27:06.105 --> 00:27:08.304 align:center
I'll get into one...
I'll enthusiastically jump into one.

00:27:08.305 --> 00:27:09.464 align:center
Cool.

00:27:11.065 --> 00:27:14.184 align:center
I will call you once I get onto the local train.

00:27:14.624 --> 00:27:16.624 align:center
If you pass the train test,

00:27:17.265 --> 00:27:19.184 align:center
then I will consider teaching you.

00:27:19.664 --> 00:27:22.384 align:center
But remember I’m saying 'consider'.

00:27:28.025 --> 00:27:29.025 align:center
[Train horn blaring]

00:27:30.545 --> 00:27:34.464 align:center
[Train passing by]

00:27:39.265 --> 00:27:42.065 align:center
[Muffled voices]

00:27:58.105 --> 00:28:01.985 align:center
[Phone ringing]

00:28:04.505 --> 00:28:05.944 align:center
So you are in a train I see.

00:28:06.704 --> 00:28:07.545 align:center
In a tram, yes.

00:28:09.144 --> 00:28:10.345 align:center
Okay Mr. MD.

00:28:10.785 --> 00:28:11.944 align:center
Do you remember Donald Duck?

00:28:12.825 --> 00:28:13.944 align:center
I remember, vaguely.

00:28:14.424 --> 00:28:15.505 align:center
Vaguely.

00:28:15.985 --> 00:28:18.025 align:center
So vaguely Donald Duck would talk like this.

00:28:18.505 --> 00:28:20.903 align:center
“Hello! How are you?

00:28:20.904 --> 00:28:22.305 align:center
How’s life?

00:28:22.704 --> 00:28:23.825 align:center
Is it boring?”

00:28:24.105 --> 00:28:25.904 align:center
Oh, I remember now.

00:28:26.224 --> 00:28:27.265 align:center
So now just...

00:28:28.664 --> 00:28:29.944 align:center
try and follow. Focus.

00:28:30.585 --> 00:28:32.745 align:center
Whatever I do, try and react to it.

00:28:33.025 --> 00:28:36.144 align:center
Remember the scene we performed at the audition?

00:28:36.904 --> 00:28:39.144 align:center
Do that, but like Donald Duck.

00:28:42.585 --> 00:28:43.505 align:center
Yes,

00:28:44.184 --> 00:28:45.825 align:center
you’re right, doctor.

00:28:46.825 --> 00:28:48.065 align:center
I just...

00:28:49.545 --> 00:28:51.944 align:center
I just wanted someone to put it straight.

00:28:54.265 --> 00:28:55.545 align:center
What do I do now?

00:28:58.585 --> 00:29:00.223 align:center
You should follow the Alcoholics Anonymous...

00:29:00.224 --> 00:29:01.224 align:center
Get up, get up.

00:29:01.505 --> 00:29:05.184 align:center
[Train announcement]

00:29:05.505 --> 00:29:09.264 align:center
Now you must complete the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.

00:29:09.265 --> 00:29:11.544 align:center
Donald Duck! Remember Donald Duck!

00:29:11.545 --> 00:29:12.424 align:center
From the top!

00:29:13.545 --> 00:29:18.064 align:center
Your brother mentioned that there’s no family around you.

00:29:18.065 --> 00:29:19.504 align:center
- But don’t worry.
- Adnan!

00:29:19.505 --> 00:29:21.664 align:center
I need to hear Donald Duck.

00:29:21.864 --> 00:29:24.704 align:center
Not a senior citizen suffering from a cold and flu.

00:29:25.464 --> 00:29:26.985 align:center
Come on, move around.

00:29:27.505 --> 00:29:28.345 align:center
Yes.

00:29:31.585 --> 00:29:34.383 align:center
"Refrain tonight and that shall lend a kind of easiness."

00:29:34.384 --> 00:29:36.144 align:center
Energy! Where’s the energy?

00:29:36.464 --> 00:29:40.305 align:center
Your brother told me that there’s no family around you.

00:29:40.704 --> 00:29:42.305 align:center
You can't take such long pauses.

00:29:42.545 --> 00:29:43.424 align:center
Okay. Okay.

00:29:43.904 --> 00:29:46.825 align:center
- Alcoholics... yes yes.
- Let’s go from the top again.

00:29:47.184 --> 00:29:49.745 align:center
Yes, you’re right doctor.

00:29:50.305 --> 00:29:53.424 align:center
I just wanted someone to put it straight.

00:29:53.785 --> 00:29:54.984 align:center
What do I do now?

00:29:54.985 --> 00:29:58.345 align:center
Your brother told me

00:29:58.704 --> 00:30:00.463 align:center
that there’s no family around you.

00:30:00.464 --> 00:30:02.985 align:center
I can't see Donald Duck there!

00:30:08.184 --> 00:30:09.464 align:center
Last time.

00:30:09.745 --> 00:30:11.184 align:center
Last chance.

00:30:12.345 --> 00:30:14.065 align:center
Let’s see if you can do it or not.

00:30:14.384 --> 00:30:17.065 align:center
Let’s see if you have it in you
to be an actor.

00:30:18.864 --> 00:30:27.663 align:center
Your brother told me that there’s no family around you.

00:30:27.664 --> 00:30:29.025 align:center
Please don’t worry.

00:30:29.985 --> 00:30:33.223 align:center
"Assume a virtue if you have it not. That monster, custom,"

00:30:33.224 --> 00:30:35.105 align:center
"who all sense doth eat."

00:30:36.864 --> 00:30:40.785 align:center
"Refrain tonight, and that shall lend a kind of easiness."

00:30:44.025 --> 00:30:46.143 align:center
Oh, your brother told me.

00:30:46.144 --> 00:30:48.703 align:center
He had informed me that there's no one around you.

00:30:48.704 --> 00:30:51.504 align:center
Don’t worry. "Assume a virtue, if you have it not."

00:30:51.505 --> 00:30:53.864 align:center
"That shall lend a kind of easiness."

00:30:54.384 --> 00:30:55.825 align:center
Was that okay?

00:30:56.065 --> 00:30:57.345 align:center
My station has arrived.

00:30:58.985 --> 00:31:01.065 align:center
I’ll get off too.

00:31:02.184 --> 00:31:03.464 align:center
But was that okay?

00:31:05.944 --> 00:31:07.065 align:center
[Train rumbling by]

00:31:11.184 --> 00:31:16.184 align:center
[Vehicle passing by]

00:31:17.265 --> 00:31:22.384 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

00:31:31.305 --> 00:31:34.105 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

00:31:34.825 --> 00:31:37.904 align:center
How much time do you spend making rounds
of the city on work, every month?

00:31:38.305 --> 00:31:39.545 align:center
One week in a month.

00:31:40.545 --> 00:31:44.624 align:center
The rest is left for the craft of acting.

00:31:50.464 --> 00:31:53.184 align:center
Is there a window behind you with grills?

00:31:55.464 --> 00:31:56.265 align:center
Yes.

00:31:57.505 --> 00:31:59.024 align:center
Can you show it to me?

00:31:59.025 --> 00:32:00.384 align:center
Yes, yes I’ll show you.

00:32:01.825 --> 00:32:02.585 align:center
[Adnan clears throat]

00:32:12.224 --> 00:32:13.265 align:center
Thanks.

00:32:14.184 --> 00:32:17.664 align:center
If and when you see windows with grills like this one, please show them to me.

00:32:18.785 --> 00:32:20.864 align:center
Just a second. See this one then.

00:32:30.464 --> 00:32:33.624 align:center
Why shouldn’t we come there?
Of course we will.

00:32:34.265 --> 00:32:35.784 align:center
Had to push the trip because of covid.

00:32:35.785 --> 00:32:36.784 align:center
- Hi aunty.
- Okay, bye now.

00:32:36.785 --> 00:32:38.424 align:center
- Hi.
- Hi uncle.

00:32:39.624 --> 00:32:40.703 align:center
Were you talking to Shikha?

00:32:40.704 --> 00:32:42.423 align:center
Yes I was talking to her.

00:32:42.424 --> 00:32:44.265 align:center
- She’s in Heidelberg right?
- Yes.

00:32:44.664 --> 00:32:47.464 align:center
- This is Adnan.
- Hi.

00:32:47.864 --> 00:32:50.264 align:center
- He also lives in Germany.
- Is that so?

00:32:50.265 --> 00:32:54.623 align:center
We’re both working on an audition
for an international project.

00:32:54.624 --> 00:32:55.864 align:center
Oh, nice.

00:32:58.424 --> 00:32:59.664 align:center
One moment...

00:33:03.785 --> 00:33:05.224 align:center
You live in Germany?

00:33:05.624 --> 00:33:06.704 align:center
Greetings!

00:33:07.105 --> 00:33:10.345 align:center
Our daughter also studies in Germany.
In Heidelberg to be precise.

00:33:17.184 --> 00:33:18.105 align:center
[Door opens]

00:33:19.224 --> 00:33:23.824 align:center
We’ve never been to Europe.
Not even to Germany.

00:33:23.825 --> 00:33:25.984 align:center
Is everything safe there?
For girls?

00:33:25.985 --> 00:33:30.184 align:center
Heidelberg is very safe for women.
It’s a student’s town.

00:33:30.704 --> 00:33:33.505 align:center
Like Manipal or Pune in India.

00:33:39.065 --> 00:33:41.065 align:center
[Rustling sounds]

00:33:45.224 --> 00:33:46.745 align:center
I have to go home now.

00:33:47.904 --> 00:33:50.105 align:center
I need to restock for the next round of deliveries.

00:33:54.704 --> 00:33:55.944 align:center
I’ll take a taxi,

00:33:56.825 --> 00:33:58.703 align:center
you take one too.

00:33:58.704 --> 00:34:01.785 align:center
Stay in your taxi till I’m in one.

00:34:02.305 --> 00:34:03.825 align:center
Okay? We continue like that.

00:34:09.385 --> 00:34:10.664 align:center
I got my taxi.

00:34:22.344 --> 00:34:23.184 align:center
Excuse me,

00:34:24.304 --> 00:34:26.664 align:center
you haven’t put any perfume or air freshener in the cab?

00:34:27.344 --> 00:34:29.905 align:center
I'm so glad. Please keep it this way. It's great.

00:34:32.264 --> 00:34:37.904 align:center
For an actor, it’s crucial to transport their mind as far away from reality as possible.

00:34:37.905 --> 00:34:39.425 align:center
Whenever the need arises.

00:34:41.385 --> 00:34:46.944 align:center
To be able to throw yourself away from reality,
needs to be an everyday skill.

00:34:46.945 --> 00:34:51.303 align:center
And just like a classical musician
must practice everyday,

00:34:51.304 --> 00:34:54.385 align:center
an actor also must practice everyday.

00:34:56.264 --> 00:34:58.464 align:center
So, I’m going to ask you some questions.

00:34:58.465 --> 00:34:59.624 align:center
And you’ll have to answer.

00:35:00.264 --> 00:35:01.743 align:center
But be mindful,

00:35:01.744 --> 00:35:05.263 align:center
to throw your answers as far away
from the questions, as possible.

00:35:05.264 --> 00:35:06.663 align:center
Home run on each ball!

00:35:06.664 --> 00:35:07.865 align:center
Yes, I'll try.

00:35:10.624 --> 00:35:13.624 align:center
In your home, what’s the colour of your towel?

00:35:17.744 --> 00:35:19.784 align:center
The color of the trees here is a deep green.

00:35:20.425 --> 00:35:21.263 align:center
Ok. Nope.

00:35:21.264 --> 00:35:23.905 align:center
You allowed yourself to associate
with colour in your answer.

00:35:24.505 --> 00:35:27.224 align:center
Throw your answers even further away.
Less association.

00:35:27.425 --> 00:35:28.143 align:center
Oh.

00:35:28.144 --> 00:35:29.184 align:center
Okay?

00:35:31.385 --> 00:35:34.024 align:center
Are you afraid of loosing your hair?

00:35:34.025 --> 00:35:37.144 align:center
Today, a lady checked me out.
It felt good.

00:35:37.465 --> 00:35:40.465 align:center
When was the last time you travelled by bus or in a train?

00:35:41.025 --> 00:35:45.385 align:center
When one takes off from Frankfurt,
the city below looks very pretty.

00:35:45.664 --> 00:35:46.704 align:center
Do you like sausages?

00:35:46.905 --> 00:35:48.865 align:center
Gateway of India, in Mumbai, is a beautiful landmark.

00:35:49.065 --> 00:35:50.945 align:center
Are you a good father?

00:35:51.264 --> 00:35:54.585 align:center
I’m getting better and better at putting in golf.

00:35:54.744 --> 00:35:56.425 align:center
Are you a good son?

00:36:04.105 --> 00:36:05.824 align:center
Google is a great invention.

00:36:07.264 --> 00:36:08.985 align:center
It has answers to everything.

00:36:09.624 --> 00:36:11.184 align:center
Do you love your father?

00:36:17.264 --> 00:36:21.144 align:center
The sound of a sewing machine is so soothing.

00:36:25.824 --> 00:36:26.905 align:center
Ok. Cool.

00:36:27.585 --> 00:36:30.183 align:center
Now we shall examine and analyse your associations.

00:36:30.184 --> 00:36:33.184 align:center
But you’ll have to be a 100% honest
for this exercise to work.

00:36:35.144 --> 00:36:37.664 align:center
When I spoke to you about your hair fall,

00:36:38.304 --> 00:36:40.385 align:center
you automatically spoke about,

00:36:40.865 --> 00:36:42.944 align:center
the attention you recently got from the opposite sex.

00:36:42.945 --> 00:36:45.223 align:center
- The association here was very obvious.
- Yes.

00:36:45.224 --> 00:36:50.183 align:center
When I spoke to you about travelling in a bus or a train,
you spoke about a plane instead,

00:36:50.184 --> 00:36:53.464 align:center
which I guess would’ve been the last mode
of public transportation you must’ve taken.

00:36:53.465 --> 00:36:54.945 align:center
Again, very obvious.

00:36:55.664 --> 00:36:58.384 align:center
When it came to the sausages question,
you finally ended up hitting a home run!

00:36:58.385 --> 00:37:01.144 align:center
But when I asked you about your dad,
you got uncomfortable.

00:37:01.824 --> 00:37:04.984 align:center
Because most men have complicated relationships
with their fathers.

00:37:04.985 --> 00:37:05.905 align:center
But,

00:37:06.385 --> 00:37:08.344 align:center
why the sewing machine?

00:37:15.664 --> 00:37:16.505 align:center
[Call disconnecting]

00:37:28.264 --> 00:37:29.144 align:center
[Facetime rings]

00:37:31.264 --> 00:37:32.224 align:center
[Call connected]

00:37:32.425 --> 00:37:34.585 align:center
Sorry I seem to have lost network completely.

00:37:34.865 --> 00:37:37.505 align:center
Till what point were you able to hear me?
What did you hear last?

00:37:38.385 --> 00:37:39.824 align:center
I missed most of it.

00:37:40.025 --> 00:37:41.663 align:center
Oh hello! Mr. Wolf of Wall Street.

00:37:41.664 --> 00:37:43.424 align:center
Do you want to do this class or not?

00:37:43.425 --> 00:37:45.944 align:center
I’m fine with terminating it right here and now!

00:37:45.945 --> 00:37:46.704 align:center
I don't care!

00:37:52.224 --> 00:37:57.025 align:center
[Phone ringing]

00:37:59.385 --> 00:38:04.104 align:center
Can we talk less about psychology
and more about acting?

00:38:04.105 --> 00:38:05.864 align:center
Oh I'm so sorry Mr. Baig,

00:38:05.865 --> 00:38:07.784 align:center
but acting is psychology.

00:38:08.264 --> 00:38:11.984 align:center
I'm sure you must've never spoken
about your childhood in a board meeting.

00:38:11.985 --> 00:38:14.984 align:center
Artists must wear their childhood on their sleeves.

00:38:14.985 --> 00:38:16.025 align:center
Nakedness.

00:38:16.585 --> 00:38:18.143 align:center
Vulnerability. Fragility.

00:38:18.144 --> 00:38:21.105 align:center
These are the bedrock
of what you’re seeking in life right now.

00:38:21.905 --> 00:38:23.985 align:center
Mr. Managing Director of ACBC Bank.

00:38:25.945 --> 00:38:27.303 align:center
Ok I’m done with this.
I can’t do this anymore.

00:38:27.304 --> 00:38:30.184 align:center
Ok hang on, hang on,
I’ll comply. I’ll do as you say.

00:38:30.505 --> 00:38:32.743 align:center
When you spoke about my hair,

00:38:32.744 --> 00:38:34.144 align:center
You were right.

00:38:36.065 --> 00:38:40.585 align:center
My relationship with my father
has always been complicated.

00:38:41.505 --> 00:38:44.744 align:center
The sewing machine is connected
with memories of my mom.

00:38:46.624 --> 00:38:48.385 align:center
My mother...

00:38:49.065 --> 00:38:50.824 align:center
can you see this scarf?

00:38:51.945 --> 00:38:57.024 align:center
She imbued most of the happiness,
sadness and anxieties of her life,

00:38:57.025 --> 00:38:59.425 align:center
into these scarves.

00:39:00.744 --> 00:39:03.824 align:center
Like an artist. She was a very capable artisan.

00:39:06.144 --> 00:39:07.065 align:center
Okay fine.

00:39:07.264 --> 00:39:08.584 align:center
Excuse me,

00:39:08.585 --> 00:39:10.304 align:center
There is an excitement in me,

00:39:11.425 --> 00:39:15.585 align:center
I want to question you
the way you have questioned me.

00:39:15.865 --> 00:39:17.263 align:center
- Are you ready to answer?
- What?

00:39:17.264 --> 00:39:18.385 align:center
What rubbish is this?

00:39:19.465 --> 00:39:21.385 align:center
I have reached home. I’m hanging up.

00:39:37.744 --> 00:39:39.704 align:center
Would you like to see Frankfurt?

00:39:40.105 --> 00:39:41.743 align:center
I’ll show you around.

00:39:41.744 --> 00:39:44.744 align:center
I will show you innumerable windows and grills.

00:39:45.545 --> 00:39:47.144 align:center
Will you roam around with me ?

00:39:49.744 --> 00:39:52.505 align:center
What is the busiest spot in Frankfurt?

00:39:53.264 --> 00:39:56.025 align:center
[Mouth organ playing]

00:39:56.264 --> 00:39:56.545 align:center
[Door opens]

00:40:00.704 --> 00:40:01.385 align:center
[Door closes]

00:40:05.025 --> 00:40:07.304 align:center
Mouni ma'am,
may I see your home?

00:40:07.985 --> 00:40:08.824 align:center
My home?

00:40:09.545 --> 00:40:11.505 align:center
[Rustling sound]

00:40:13.624 --> 00:40:15.865 align:center
Ok. Well, my home, my home, my home...

00:40:17.184 --> 00:40:18.144 align:center
This is my home.

00:40:18.505 --> 00:40:19.465 align:center
Oh wow!

00:40:23.465 --> 00:40:24.465 align:center
[Adnan clicking pictures]

00:40:30.624 --> 00:40:31.385 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:40:32.784 --> 00:40:36.464 align:center
Let me show you Römerberg Square.

00:40:36.465 --> 00:40:37.385 align:center
Here you go.

00:40:52.824 --> 00:40:54.025 align:center
Look Mouni ma'am.

00:41:10.784 --> 00:41:13.704 align:center
This is the most crowded place in your city?!

00:41:16.545 --> 00:41:18.065 align:center
Even this is so beautiful.

00:41:19.344 --> 00:41:24.264 align:center
Here in Mumbai, we sit in a taxi and travel two hours
to see the beauty of the Gateway of India.

00:41:24.664 --> 00:41:27.025 align:center
Here, your whole city is The Gateway of India.

00:41:28.264 --> 00:41:29.585 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

00:41:30.304 --> 00:41:30.985 align:center
Thank you.

00:41:31.824 --> 00:41:34.344 align:center
I'm curious about one thing...

00:41:35.224 --> 00:41:36.783 align:center
for the past fifteen years,

00:41:36.784 --> 00:41:39.264 align:center
each month, each week and everyday,

00:41:40.505 --> 00:41:44.105 align:center
How do you deal with
this kind of professional insecurity?

00:41:44.344 --> 00:41:47.904 align:center
Knowing well that you are such a deserving artist,

00:41:47.905 --> 00:41:51.184 align:center
How do you live with this much insecurity of money and work?

00:41:52.264 --> 00:41:53.545 align:center
Anything for the craft.

00:41:55.505 --> 00:41:58.144 align:center
For that one thing that you love the most in the world,

00:41:59.224 --> 00:42:01.744 align:center
If you can’t sacrifice anything,

00:42:02.664 --> 00:42:04.304 align:center
what’s the point of living this life?

00:42:04.744 --> 00:42:06.425 align:center
What's your relationship with money?

00:42:06.704 --> 00:42:07.784 align:center
I mean...

00:42:08.144 --> 00:42:10.224 align:center
like common human beings,

00:42:11.025 --> 00:42:12.905 align:center
do you also feel the pinch of not having enough?

00:42:13.664 --> 00:42:17.065 align:center
Quite a while ago I’d understood this one truth,

00:42:18.184 --> 00:42:18.545 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:42:19.465 --> 00:42:24.704 align:center
at some point, each person reaches
this milestone in their lives,

00:42:27.545 --> 00:42:31.025 align:center
when self-actualisation becomes the most important thing.

00:42:33.784 --> 00:42:34.945 align:center
Like in your life right now.

00:42:37.065 --> 00:42:37.905 align:center
It’s just that,

00:42:38.505 --> 00:42:41.545 align:center
I got there slightly sooner.

00:42:55.545 --> 00:42:56.424 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

00:42:56.425 --> 00:42:58.904 align:center
Have the sizes of Mumbai taxis
become larger of late?

00:42:58.905 --> 00:43:00.344 align:center
This car looks pretty big.

00:43:01.264 --> 00:43:05.865 align:center
No, I’m using some coupons I have earned
with points on the app. For XL cars.

00:43:06.344 --> 00:43:08.183 align:center
But what’s this got to do with acting?!

00:43:08.184 --> 00:43:14.025 align:center
Nothing, creatively. Just a technical question.

00:43:14.865 --> 00:43:18.344 align:center
Mouni ma’am, I saw some film posters in your home.

00:43:19.784 --> 00:43:21.703 align:center
Thelma and Louise for example.

00:43:21.704 --> 00:43:23.824 align:center
Which my daughter made me watch.

00:43:25.425 --> 00:43:30.744 align:center
What effect have all those varied characters
and performances had on your life and art?

00:43:31.144 --> 00:43:32.184 align:center
Why need I tell you that?

00:43:32.744 --> 00:43:39.144 align:center
Well, your inspiration and knowing about that,
might inspire me?

00:43:39.344 --> 00:43:40.425 align:center
Not necessary.

00:43:40.664 --> 00:43:41.865 align:center
I’d really like to know.

00:43:42.905 --> 00:43:45.464 align:center
Just like, whenever someone listens to a new song,

00:43:45.465 --> 00:43:47.303 align:center
It’s always that someone else has introduced them to it.

00:43:47.304 --> 00:43:49.623 align:center
I don’t perform these acts of service.

00:43:49.624 --> 00:43:53.425 align:center
I don’t recommend new films or songs. Not my thing.

00:43:53.585 --> 00:43:55.905 align:center
No, I don't mean like that...

00:43:57.224 --> 00:44:07.025 align:center
I just really want to know what those performances did to your psyche and how they inspire you as an artist...

00:44:09.264 --> 00:44:10.344 align:center
Okay.

00:44:11.065 --> 00:44:15.183 align:center
So what all did you notice?
Which films?

00:44:15.184 --> 00:44:17.064 align:center
‘Albert Pinto ko gussa kyoon aata hai?’,

00:44:17.065 --> 00:44:18.864 align:center
‘36 Chowringhee Lane’,

00:44:18.865 --> 00:44:20.065 align:center
and ‘Chandni Bar’...

00:44:20.585 --> 00:44:21.664 align:center
Chandni Bar.

00:44:22.344 --> 00:44:24.184 align:center
Tabu in Chandni Bar.

00:44:25.744 --> 00:44:27.344 align:center
Firstly, what a marvellous film.

00:44:28.184 --> 00:44:31.664 align:center
And now coming down to her performance in it,

00:44:34.304 --> 00:44:37.505 align:center
when she says absolutely nothing,
she says the most.

00:44:38.744 --> 00:44:44.183 align:center
When there are no dialogues,
just silence.

00:44:44.184 --> 00:44:45.224 align:center
Yes.

00:44:46.144 --> 00:44:47.905 align:center
Absolutely incredible!

00:44:51.865 --> 00:44:53.664 align:center
Those eyes....aaah!

00:44:54.264 --> 00:44:57.944 align:center
They’re like a receptacle of suppressed pain.

00:44:57.945 --> 00:45:01.465 align:center
And when even a drop
of that pain is let loose upon us...

00:45:03.704 --> 00:45:06.703 align:center
I don’t feel that words can even do justice to this...

00:45:06.704 --> 00:45:10.784 align:center
I’m a diehard fan of those eyes.

00:45:13.545 --> 00:45:17.744 align:center
Then Jennifer Kendal Kapoor
in 36 Chowringhee Lane.

00:45:20.144 --> 00:45:23.823 align:center
It’s not one of those films discussed
ad infinitum on Instagram nowadays,

00:45:23.824 --> 00:45:25.624 align:center
so people seem to have forgotten it.

00:45:26.704 --> 00:45:31.865 align:center
That actor has never gotten her due.

00:45:33.664 --> 00:45:35.385 align:center
It makes me angry.

00:45:36.264 --> 00:45:38.024 align:center
But to my mind,

00:45:38.025 --> 00:45:43.744 align:center
It's one of the most incredible
performances of Hindi Cinema.

00:45:45.624 --> 00:45:49.385 align:center
And of course, Jeanne Moreau in Jules et Jim.

00:45:50.784 --> 00:45:52.264 align:center
I just love her.

00:45:54.025 --> 00:45:59.304 align:center
I’d cross seven seas to steal her laugh.

00:46:01.264 --> 00:46:03.065 align:center
That was it. And then,

00:46:05.545 --> 00:46:09.143 align:center
And then of course the biggest inspiration
of my artistic life: Shakespeare;

00:46:09.144 --> 00:46:13.343 align:center
to play Lady Macbeth, Desdemona, Juliet,

00:46:13.344 --> 00:46:16.184 align:center
is one of my biggest dreams ever.

00:46:17.865 --> 00:46:20.425 align:center
But of course only with a good director,

00:46:20.905 --> 00:46:22.865 align:center
either on screen or on stage.

00:46:23.905 --> 00:46:26.864 align:center
Like how it’s done in London.

00:46:26.865 --> 00:46:31.384 align:center
Any human being talking with passion
exudes such pure beauty.

00:46:31.385 --> 00:46:33.184 align:center
I was completely lost in that description.

00:46:33.585 --> 00:46:36.743 align:center
For an artist, inspiration is so imperative.

00:46:36.744 --> 00:46:37.985 align:center
Unlike in banking.

00:46:38.304 --> 00:46:39.304 align:center
Oh absolutely.

00:46:40.465 --> 00:46:43.783 align:center
Without inspiration, not only does the art die,
but also the artist.

00:46:43.784 --> 00:46:44.784 align:center
Absolutely.

00:46:46.264 --> 00:46:48.945 align:center
Mouni ma'am,
could we do the disoriented exercise again?

00:46:49.985 --> 00:46:52.385 align:center
Disoriented?
Dissassociative.

00:46:52.824 --> 00:46:54.784 align:center
Yes.
Disassociation. Sorry.

00:46:55.105 --> 00:46:56.064 align:center
Should we do another round?

00:46:56.065 --> 00:46:57.065 align:center
You mean I’ll do it!

00:46:57.585 --> 00:46:58.183 align:center
What!?

00:46:58.184 --> 00:46:59.144 align:center
Why the hell should I?

00:46:59.465 --> 00:47:03.385 align:center
You see Mouni ma'am,
you’ve been inspired by so many performances,

00:47:04.025 --> 00:47:04.784 align:center
right?

00:47:05.304 --> 00:47:09.105 align:center
And you know that for me you’re
the only artist I know personally...

00:47:09.465 --> 00:47:11.184 align:center
I also want to be inspired.

00:47:11.585 --> 00:47:14.264 align:center
I’ll gladly do whatever exercises you make me do.

00:47:14.664 --> 00:47:17.464 align:center
But, to be inspired by my teacher
to perform better is so important.

00:47:17.465 --> 00:47:18.584 align:center
To see her in action.

00:47:18.585 --> 00:47:21.184 align:center
Nice try smart ass.

00:47:21.385 --> 00:47:22.664 align:center
Please Mouni ma'am, please.

00:47:26.344 --> 00:47:27.585 align:center
I’ll start.

00:47:28.465 --> 00:47:33.784 align:center
Due to lack of money, have you ever used
a pair of shoes that are completely worn out?

00:47:34.344 --> 00:47:36.065 align:center
Why is a damned banana always yellow?

00:47:36.224 --> 00:47:37.704 align:center
Your favourite author?

00:47:37.945 --> 00:47:40.585 align:center
I like honeybees more than flies.

00:47:41.144 --> 00:47:42.424 align:center
Due to lack of enough money,

00:47:42.425 --> 00:47:44.663 align:center
have you ever faced
a health emergency you couldn’t handle?

00:47:44.664 --> 00:47:47.425 align:center
A disease, any sudden health issue?

00:47:49.344 --> 00:47:54.344 align:center
When it rains each year in Mumbai,
the roads go completely to hell!

00:47:56.824 --> 00:47:57.505 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

00:47:57.744 --> 00:47:59.104 align:center
nowadays,

00:47:59.105 --> 00:48:02.424 align:center
even television actors alight
from fancy luxury cars when they go for auditions.

00:48:02.425 --> 00:48:04.144 align:center
You’re 35 years old,

00:48:04.865 --> 00:48:08.065 align:center
and you still alight from a rickshaw.
Does this ever bother you?

00:48:10.065 --> 00:48:15.065 align:center
The birdhouse in Dadar has a ton
of very beautiful pigeons. Isn’t it?

00:48:16.025 --> 00:48:17.784 align:center
Wow. Amazing.

00:48:19.025 --> 00:48:21.385 align:center
You were so much better than me.

00:48:22.985 --> 00:48:25.944 align:center
But those Mumbai roads going completely to hell
and you not having money,

00:48:25.945 --> 00:48:28.544 align:center
Seemed like there was some association there.

00:48:28.545 --> 00:48:32.263 align:center
The beautiful pigeons,

00:48:32.264 --> 00:48:33.623 align:center
being without a car...?

00:48:33.624 --> 00:48:34.623 align:center
Exercise done.

00:48:34.624 --> 00:48:35.744 align:center
- Exercise done.
- I felt some...

00:48:36.585 --> 00:48:37.744 align:center
It’s done. Over.

00:48:38.385 --> 00:48:39.663 align:center
Just one more round please.

00:48:39.664 --> 00:48:42.344 align:center
German Wolf of Wall Street!
We’re done.

00:48:42.704 --> 00:48:43.664 align:center
D-o-n-e.

00:48:44.344 --> 00:48:45.144 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

00:48:45.425 --> 00:48:49.065 align:center
Wall Street is for Stock Brokers,
I was a Banker.

00:48:49.824 --> 00:48:51.264 align:center
You see Mouni ma'am,

00:48:51.985 --> 00:48:55.385 align:center
if the both of us, don’t open up
about our lives equally,

00:48:56.144 --> 00:48:57.823 align:center
there is no point to this exercise. Right?

00:48:57.824 --> 00:49:01.944 align:center
In the upcoming audition,
the characters we are to play are equals.

00:49:01.945 --> 00:49:04.344 align:center
Who the fuck said anything about equality!

00:49:05.664 --> 00:49:08.545 align:center
I’m teaching, you’re learning. Period.

00:49:09.945 --> 00:49:13.104 align:center
Actually, you literally begged for me to teach you,

00:49:13.105 --> 00:49:14.303 align:center
and I had pity on you.

00:49:14.304 --> 00:49:15.824 align:center
That’s our true relationship.

00:49:20.784 --> 00:49:22.865 align:center
Why are you driving so slow?
Drive faster!

00:49:28.545 --> 00:49:30.065 align:center
[Mouni sighs]

00:49:32.985 --> 00:49:35.385 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:49:43.744 --> 00:49:44.344 align:center
[Adnan clicking picture]

00:49:47.224 --> 00:49:52.144 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

00:50:05.824 --> 00:50:09.585 align:center
<i>In search of a verse</i>

00:50:12.304 --> 00:50:16.824 align:center
<i>So that I may make friends</i>

00:50:18.224 --> 00:50:22.385 align:center
<i>Will let go of myself</i>

00:50:25.144 --> 00:50:28.784 align:center
<i>So that I may make friends</i>

00:50:29.865 --> 00:50:35.184 align:center
<i>They and I, alike as waters</i>

00:50:35.585 --> 00:50:38.224 align:center
<i>But every chat...</i>

00:50:39.425 --> 00:50:41.585 align:center
<i>incendiary</i>

00:50:44.264 --> 00:50:47.985 align:center
<i>In search of an illusion</i>

00:50:50.824 --> 00:50:55.144 align:center
<i>So that I may make friends</i>

00:50:56.624 --> 00:51:01.585 align:center
<i>I'll give up all pretensions to reality</i>

00:51:03.585 --> 00:51:07.184 align:center
<i>So that I may make friends</i>

00:51:08.264 --> 00:51:13.264 align:center
<i>They and I, hand-in-hand</i>

00:51:14.065 --> 00:51:16.025 align:center
<i>But every word...</i>

00:51:17.704 --> 00:51:19.985 align:center
<i>incendiary</i>

00:51:24.425 --> 00:51:30.304 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

00:51:37.784 --> 00:51:39.865 align:center
It’s time to change the gear.

00:51:41.425 --> 00:51:42.905 align:center
Why don’t you settle down somewhere?

00:51:43.184 --> 00:51:43.704 align:center
[Clanking sound]

00:51:46.704 --> 00:51:49.224 align:center
Okay.
Just give me a second to wear my cap.

00:51:51.025 --> 00:51:52.065 align:center
[Adnan gasps]

00:51:56.744 --> 00:51:57.505 align:center
Yes Mouni ma'am.

00:51:58.545 --> 00:52:01.105 align:center
Now, take off your shoes and socks.

00:52:02.624 --> 00:52:03.623 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

00:52:03.624 --> 00:52:07.464 align:center
please allow me to keep them on.
I’m fifty five.

00:52:07.465 --> 00:52:09.584 align:center
The cold is going into my bones!

00:52:09.585 --> 00:52:11.425 align:center
It's gotten very windy.

00:52:12.624 --> 00:52:14.744 align:center
I don’t do this with everyone by the way.

00:52:15.545 --> 00:52:16.624 align:center
Thank you very much.

00:52:19.105 --> 00:52:24.144 align:center
Try to feel happiness from your toes.

00:52:25.985 --> 00:52:27.545 align:center
Happiness from my toes?

00:52:27.945 --> 00:52:29.105 align:center
Try first. Just try.

00:52:30.144 --> 00:52:33.425 align:center
Mouni ma'am, you’ve had
some fantastic performers as your inspiration.

00:52:33.985 --> 00:52:36.624 align:center
I only have you.

00:52:37.344 --> 00:52:39.743 align:center
The teacher-student relationship,

00:52:39.744 --> 00:52:41.664 align:center
is a very important one.

00:52:42.105 --> 00:52:45.024 align:center
please just do it once so I can see
and then I’ll do exactly what you say.

00:52:45.025 --> 00:52:47.703 align:center
Don’t think I don’t see what you’re up to.

00:52:47.704 --> 00:52:49.585 align:center
Please Mouni ma'am, please.

00:52:51.824 --> 00:52:52.344 align:center
[Crow cawing]

00:53:43.184 --> 00:53:44.585 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:54:07.385 --> 00:54:08.144 align:center
[Mouni sobs softly]

00:54:12.704 --> 00:54:13.945 align:center
[Mouni sobs softly]

00:54:18.105 --> 00:54:19.465 align:center
[Crow cawing]

00:54:23.344 --> 00:54:23.905 align:center
[Mouni sniffs]

00:54:26.344 --> 00:54:27.465 align:center
[Crow cawing]

00:54:30.784 --> 00:54:32.344 align:center
[Mouni sobs softly]

00:54:42.784 --> 00:54:43.304 align:center
Okay,

00:54:45.344 --> 00:54:45.945 align:center
now you do it.

00:54:48.505 --> 00:54:54.065 align:center
Try to reach for the sky using your toes.

00:54:56.184 --> 00:55:01.344 align:center
Think of one such thing that makes you really happy.

00:55:05.824 --> 00:55:08.505 align:center
See if you feel any change in your body?

00:55:09.905 --> 00:55:11.425 align:center
You must be feeling some new sensations...

00:55:11.545 --> 00:55:16.945 align:center
[Adnan chuckles]

00:55:18.065 --> 00:55:19.344 align:center
Why am I unable to do this?

00:55:19.784 --> 00:55:21.824 align:center
Why am I not being able to do what you can?

00:55:23.304 --> 00:55:25.065 align:center
What made you cry?

00:55:26.224 --> 00:55:27.465 align:center
It’ll take time.

00:55:28.505 --> 00:55:30.545 align:center
Patience, practice.

00:55:31.744 --> 00:55:33.624 align:center
But a time will come,

00:55:34.505 --> 00:55:36.105 align:center
when you will
be able to do the same.

00:55:36.905 --> 00:55:38.824 align:center
And about the crying,

00:55:42.465 --> 00:55:44.385 align:center
after the happiest highs,

00:55:46.264 --> 00:55:47.865 align:center
often come the deepest sorrows.

00:55:48.744 --> 00:55:50.664 align:center
Hence the term, happy tears.

00:55:51.945 --> 00:55:55.303 align:center
And after the lowest low,
if you’re lucky,

00:55:55.304 --> 00:55:57.025 align:center
comes happiness.

00:55:58.545 --> 00:56:02.144 align:center
This process of using your body,
instead of your memories,

00:56:02.945 --> 00:56:05.505 align:center
is healthier for the mind.

00:56:06.065 --> 00:56:08.704 align:center
But if someone doesn’t have too much time,
what then?

00:56:09.065 --> 00:56:10.824 align:center
How would a person do this exercise?

00:56:11.385 --> 00:56:11.905 align:center
[Mouni gasps]

00:56:12.425 --> 00:56:14.344 align:center
If we don’t have time,

00:56:14.945 --> 00:56:16.984 align:center
then I’ll have to get into your past,

00:56:16.985 --> 00:56:18.505 align:center
into your memories,

00:56:20.344 --> 00:56:22.784 align:center
into your mind yet again.

00:56:24.784 --> 00:56:26.985 align:center
Mouni ma'am, as you said,

00:56:29.425 --> 00:56:31.904 align:center
the process of going inwards to outwards,

00:56:31.905 --> 00:56:33.385 align:center
must clearly take a lot of trust.

00:56:34.105 --> 00:56:34.865 align:center
So,

00:56:36.144 --> 00:56:39.424 align:center
did any filmmaker form
this bond of trust with your ever,

00:56:39.425 --> 00:56:42.024 align:center
or were you able to trust
a filmmaker to this extent ever?

00:56:42.025 --> 00:56:44.585 align:center
Which filmmaker was this, which film?

00:56:45.465 --> 00:56:48.425 align:center
In the year 2010, I met this director,

00:56:50.065 --> 00:56:53.783 align:center
spent a lot of time with her,
we spoke a lot.

00:56:53.784 --> 00:56:56.303 align:center
She was earnestly trying to get to know me,

00:56:56.304 --> 00:56:58.144 align:center
She introduced me to her boyfriend.

00:57:01.144 --> 00:57:02.783 align:center
I could sense that,

00:57:02.784 --> 00:57:06.545 align:center
they were both trying to
make me feel comfortable.

00:57:09.264 --> 00:57:10.264 align:center
Then,

00:57:11.264 --> 00:57:15.184 align:center
she wanted to meet my family,
which I found a bit odd.

00:57:15.985 --> 00:57:18.184 align:center
So I just,

00:57:19.264 --> 00:57:21.664 align:center
so I just invited them home
for a meal instead.

00:57:23.624 --> 00:57:24.545 align:center
That was nice.

00:57:25.824 --> 00:57:29.984 align:center
Did you see a certain blooming of your performance
thanks to the trust formed?

00:57:29.985 --> 00:57:30.585 align:center
Of course!

00:57:32.224 --> 00:57:36.504 align:center
That was the film that
took me to Venice, to Busan,

00:57:36.505 --> 00:57:38.263 align:center
and many other places.

00:57:38.264 --> 00:57:42.224 align:center
and that is the film that gets me
all the audition calls.

00:57:43.425 --> 00:57:44.545 align:center
Including this one.

00:57:47.065 --> 00:57:49.144 align:center
One second please.

00:57:59.784 --> 00:58:02.065 align:center
Mouni ma'am, I think you've muted the call.

00:58:05.744 --> 00:58:08.703 align:center
I’m tired of playing this competition

00:58:08.704 --> 00:58:11.864 align:center
where you dish out as much nastiness as you can,

00:58:11.865 --> 00:58:14.544 align:center
And I take as much shit as I possibly can.

00:58:14.545 --> 00:58:17.743 align:center
I don’t even know after one full year of
spending time together,

00:58:17.744 --> 00:58:19.464 align:center
and having sex every week,

00:58:19.465 --> 00:58:22.984 align:center
whether you feel anything for me
in that cold heart of yours.

00:58:22.985 --> 00:58:25.623 align:center
Not one instance of softness in a year?

00:58:25.624 --> 00:58:27.425 align:center
Who the fuck can live with that?

00:58:27.985 --> 00:58:29.223 align:center
Given a chance,

00:58:29.224 --> 00:58:31.183 align:center
You should run from yourself too!

00:58:31.184 --> 00:58:31.945 align:center
Goodbye!

00:58:37.144 --> 00:58:42.144 align:center
The number you're calling is either switched off,
or not reachable at the moment.

00:58:42.704 --> 00:58:45.264 align:center
[Birds cooing]

00:58:52.065 --> 00:58:55.264 align:center
[Rustling noises]

00:58:56.105 --> 00:58:57.105 align:center
I’ll call you back.

00:58:57.585 --> 00:58:58.385 align:center
Okay.

00:59:01.624 --> 00:59:03.585 align:center
[Clinking sound]

00:59:07.224 --> 00:59:11.105 align:center
[Horn honking]

00:59:28.505 --> 00:59:31.264 align:center
[Phone ringing]

00:59:31.985 --> 00:59:33.304 align:center
Oh you’re on a terrace!

00:59:35.224 --> 00:59:39.304 align:center
I come here for soap deliveries.
I like this place a lot.

00:59:39.545 --> 00:59:40.224 align:center
Oh okay.

00:59:40.784 --> 00:59:42.264 align:center
Did you receive the email for the audition?

00:59:42.704 --> 00:59:44.664 align:center
Yes, I was just reading that.

00:59:44.824 --> 00:59:46.105 align:center
Oh you got the scenes!

00:59:46.624 --> 00:59:48.504 align:center
Yes I received the scenes.

00:59:48.505 --> 00:59:50.784 align:center
The two of us are paired together in the scene.

00:59:51.144 --> 00:59:52.864 align:center
It’s an amazing scene.

00:59:52.865 --> 00:59:56.985 align:center
The counsellor becomes an alcoholic
while helping his patient.

00:59:57.784 --> 00:59:59.425 align:center
It's madness!

01:00:00.105 --> 01:00:00.984 align:center
Yeah...

01:00:00.985 --> 01:00:04.025 align:center
This is not an easy scene to do.

01:00:04.184 --> 01:00:06.385 align:center
Yeah, maybe it won’t be easy for you.

01:00:07.945 --> 01:00:09.584 align:center
For me? Meaning?

01:00:09.585 --> 01:00:15.144 align:center
The energy of the scene depends
on both the performers, right?

01:00:16.025 --> 01:00:19.104 align:center
Both have to be equally talented
to make the scene happen.

01:00:19.105 --> 01:00:21.945 align:center
It's about throwing energy back and forth, right?

01:00:22.985 --> 01:00:23.824 align:center
So,

01:00:24.624 --> 01:00:27.344 align:center
shall we work on characterisation?

01:00:30.905 --> 01:00:33.904 align:center
So cool Mr. Adnan-El-Pacino!

01:00:33.905 --> 01:00:36.824 align:center
Stop this presentation that’s running in your head.

01:00:37.385 --> 01:00:39.224 align:center
Do what I am saying.

01:00:39.945 --> 01:00:42.664 align:center
Just settle down somewhere.
Find a place to sit.

01:00:44.065 --> 01:00:45.184 align:center
One minute. Okay.

01:00:45.465 --> 01:00:45.865 align:center
[Adnan sniffs]

01:00:48.545 --> 01:00:49.385 align:center
Wait...

01:00:53.025 --> 01:00:53.865 align:center
Ready.

01:00:54.865 --> 01:00:57.184 align:center
Can you frown? Try.

01:00:58.744 --> 01:01:00.624 align:center
A very deep one.

01:01:02.624 --> 01:01:04.344 align:center
Push your chest inwards.

01:01:05.304 --> 01:01:06.744 align:center
Chest inwards.

01:01:07.264 --> 01:01:08.743 align:center
No no no.

01:01:08.744 --> 01:01:10.424 align:center
Keep looking ahead in front of you.

01:01:10.425 --> 01:01:13.823 align:center
Try to take this frown deeper into yourself.

01:01:13.824 --> 01:01:15.424 align:center
Keep that frown.

01:01:15.425 --> 01:01:19.544 align:center
Dive into whatever it is that you’re feeling,

01:01:19.545 --> 01:01:20.945 align:center
take that leap!

01:01:21.744 --> 01:01:26.025 align:center
Hold onto that feeling. Feel it deeply. Intensely.

01:01:26.784 --> 01:01:27.744 align:center
Yes.

01:01:29.865 --> 01:01:30.824 align:center
Okay.

01:01:31.505 --> 01:01:34.425 align:center
Get up. Let’s try something different.

01:01:37.025 --> 01:01:39.065 align:center
Fall flat on your face.

01:01:40.184 --> 01:01:41.343 align:center
What?

01:01:41.344 --> 01:01:43.663 align:center
Lean in like you’re going to
fall flat on your face,

01:01:43.664 --> 01:01:47.624 align:center
and at the last second
bring out your hands to stop your fall.

01:01:48.905 --> 01:01:50.264 align:center
Let’s go. Let’s go.

01:01:53.585 --> 01:01:54.223 align:center
No no no!

01:01:54.224 --> 01:01:58.385 align:center
I said allow your hands
to support you in the nick of time.

01:02:01.264 --> 01:02:01.664 align:center
[Adnan sniffs]

01:02:02.105 --> 01:02:03.704 align:center
Try to fall first.

01:02:07.865 --> 01:02:09.465 align:center
Try again. Do it again.

01:02:09.985 --> 01:02:11.545 align:center
In the nick of time.

01:02:13.945 --> 01:02:14.865 align:center
Okay.

01:02:16.224 --> 01:02:18.025 align:center
Trust your body. Fall.

01:02:18.905 --> 01:02:19.904 align:center
[Adnan falls with a thud]

01:02:19.905 --> 01:02:21.344 align:center
Better. This was better.

01:02:21.824 --> 01:02:23.905 align:center
One more. Let’s try one more.

01:02:24.585 --> 01:02:26.144 align:center
Come on, you can do this.

01:02:27.304 --> 01:02:28.304 align:center
[Adnan inhales]

01:02:30.744 --> 01:02:32.304 align:center
Okay. Stop.

01:02:33.905 --> 01:02:35.985 align:center
This feeling you experienced,

01:02:37.065 --> 01:02:38.505 align:center
the feeling of falling.

01:02:39.144 --> 01:02:41.865 align:center
Can you feel it within you
without actually falling physically?

01:02:42.385 --> 01:02:43.865 align:center
Without falling?

01:02:44.025 --> 01:02:47.105 align:center
You just felt it. Think.

01:02:47.985 --> 01:02:51.544 align:center
That feeling where you were falling. Hold onto that.

01:02:51.545 --> 01:02:53.585 align:center
[Adnan gasps]

01:02:53.704 --> 01:02:55.865 align:center
Fall again and again,

01:02:56.344 --> 01:02:58.945 align:center
and again. Keep falling.

01:02:59.585 --> 01:03:01.224 align:center
Keep going there.

01:03:06.385 --> 01:03:08.344 align:center
Why am I not able to go back to it?

01:03:08.744 --> 01:03:10.704 align:center
I’m sorry.
I’m unable to find my way back to it.

01:03:11.344 --> 01:03:14.184 align:center
Okay let’s approach it differently.

01:03:17.465 --> 01:03:20.944 align:center
We were trying an outside-in approach,
and it's not working.

01:03:20.945 --> 01:03:22.864 align:center
There’s not enough time.

01:03:22.865 --> 01:03:25.384 align:center
Let’s work from the inside out.

01:03:25.385 --> 01:03:26.744 align:center
Tell me Adnan,

01:03:29.425 --> 01:03:31.704 align:center
did you ever want another child?

01:03:33.505 --> 01:03:35.465 align:center
I wanted two daughters,

01:03:36.144 --> 01:03:39.344 align:center
but Muskan didn’t.

01:03:41.304 --> 01:03:44.505 align:center
If you had a younger daughter
what would you have named her?

01:03:46.945 --> 01:03:48.343 align:center
Gayatri.

01:03:48.344 --> 01:03:50.224 align:center
Okay. Imagine,

01:03:51.264 --> 01:03:54.624 align:center
Gayatri exists. She is here.

01:03:55.545 --> 01:03:56.905 align:center
How is she?

01:03:57.865 --> 01:03:59.824 align:center
What kind of a person is she?

01:04:01.264 --> 01:04:03.464 align:center
And most importantly,

01:04:03.465 --> 01:04:08.504 align:center
what would you like to share with Gayatri,

01:04:08.505 --> 01:04:11.264 align:center
that you’re unable to share with your elder daughter?

01:04:14.985 --> 01:04:16.624 align:center
Nazia,

01:04:17.945 --> 01:04:20.264 align:center
Nazia is very different.

01:04:21.344 --> 01:04:23.783 align:center
She is studying to be an architect.

01:04:23.784 --> 01:04:25.303 align:center
She likes the arts,

01:04:25.304 --> 01:04:27.783 align:center
but she doesn’t have an interest in the movies.

01:04:27.784 --> 01:04:32.944 align:center
But if Gayatri was here, she would like to watch movies.

01:04:32.945 --> 01:04:37.105 align:center
We would watch my childhood favourites together.

01:04:37.425 --> 01:04:42.784 align:center
Like Star Wars, Mother India, Sholay, Deewaar.

01:04:43.184 --> 01:04:49.704 align:center
We’d sit and listen to old Hindi songs together.

01:04:50.065 --> 01:04:53.425 align:center
Introduced by the
then god like RJ of Hindi radio.

01:04:54.385 --> 01:04:58.545 align:center
I would go to watch theatre with her every Sunday.

01:05:00.865 --> 01:05:02.143 align:center
[Horn honking]

01:05:02.144 --> 01:05:04.025 align:center
How does Gayatri look?

01:05:06.105 --> 01:05:06.824 align:center
[Adnan gasps]

01:05:08.465 --> 01:05:11.905 align:center
She would be tall, with curly hair.

01:05:12.505 --> 01:05:13.864 align:center
And,

01:05:13.865 --> 01:05:16.783 align:center
She’d be someone who’d laugh easy
and laugh out loud.

01:05:16.784 --> 01:05:20.744 align:center
Not like me, I’m a miser when it comes to that.

01:05:21.184 --> 01:05:24.263 align:center
And she’d be a dancer. A fabulous dancer.

01:05:24.264 --> 01:05:27.064 align:center
What a thing of beauty
it would be to see her dance!

01:05:27.065 --> 01:05:28.425 align:center
Adnan...

01:05:29.545 --> 01:05:31.264 align:center
Can you see her dancing?

01:05:36.744 --> 01:05:39.585 align:center
Yes I can. I can see her.

01:05:40.144 --> 01:05:42.505 align:center
Keep seeing her.

01:05:47.585 --> 01:05:48.945 align:center
You’ve just got a call.

01:05:49.945 --> 01:05:51.864 align:center
It's from the hospital.

01:05:51.865 --> 01:05:52.264 align:center
[Adnan sniffs]

01:05:53.704 --> 01:05:56.104 align:center
There’s been an accident and...

01:05:56.105 --> 01:05:58.304 align:center
Gayatri is no more.

01:06:04.465 --> 01:06:05.985 align:center
[Adnan struggling]

01:06:10.264 --> 01:06:12.065 align:center
Adnan!

01:06:13.184 --> 01:06:15.343 align:center
No, I...

01:06:15.344 --> 01:06:18.104 align:center
- No I don’t think I can do this.
- What are you doing?

01:06:18.105 --> 01:06:20.303 align:center
We got here with such difficulty.

01:06:20.304 --> 01:06:23.865 align:center
I don’t want to do this. I can't.

01:06:26.065 --> 01:06:28.425 align:center
You know Mouni ma'am,

01:06:29.585 --> 01:06:34.585 align:center
I've let you into my life.
I've opened up to you about everything.

01:06:35.025 --> 01:06:37.504 align:center
I've shared with you my insecurities,
my fears, everything.

01:06:37.505 --> 01:06:39.064 align:center
But you’re not willing to share anything.

01:06:39.065 --> 01:06:40.263 align:center
Come on!

01:06:40.264 --> 01:06:44.143 align:center
I’ve allowed you to enter into my fear,
my insecurities, all of it,

01:06:44.144 --> 01:06:46.904 align:center
but it seems like you’ve shut a door.

01:06:46.905 --> 01:06:49.584 align:center
I’m standing outside knocking at that door.

01:06:49.585 --> 01:06:51.663 align:center
Banker boy, it is you who needs me right now.

01:06:51.664 --> 01:06:54.024 align:center
And not the other way around.

01:06:54.025 --> 01:06:58.425 align:center
This is a false statement, absolutely wrong.

01:06:59.224 --> 01:06:59.865 align:center
[Adnan sniffs]

01:07:01.824 --> 01:07:06.505 align:center
I was only running
from my depression and anxiety.

01:07:07.505 --> 01:07:09.304 align:center
but you had a second chance.

01:07:10.905 --> 01:07:12.143 align:center
You understand?

01:07:12.144 --> 01:07:14.663 align:center
You had a chance to scale the same heights,

01:07:14.664 --> 01:07:17.465 align:center
that you did with your short film.

01:07:18.065 --> 01:07:19.183 align:center
Okay...

01:07:19.184 --> 01:07:20.545 align:center
so you mean to say,

01:07:20.945 --> 01:07:23.744 align:center
that I need this for my career?

01:07:24.344 --> 01:07:25.504 align:center
Hmm?

01:07:25.505 --> 01:07:27.865 align:center
And you need this just for your anxiety?

01:07:28.184 --> 01:07:29.944 align:center
So that you don’t end up killing yourself?

01:07:29.945 --> 01:07:31.344 align:center
Oh no!

01:07:32.144 --> 01:07:34.504 align:center
I have no intentions of killing myself.

01:07:34.505 --> 01:07:35.784 align:center
I was just running from myself.

01:07:36.585 --> 01:07:37.425 align:center
Do you understand?

01:07:38.585 --> 01:07:40.505 align:center
Why would I want to kill myself?

01:07:41.704 --> 01:07:43.944 align:center
You need this as much as I do.

01:07:43.945 --> 01:07:46.065 align:center
We both need each other.

01:07:48.025 --> 01:07:51.464 align:center
We can go ahead from here
only if you agree to talk about yourself.

01:07:51.465 --> 01:07:53.864 align:center
You'll have to tell me
what was it about that message

01:07:53.865 --> 01:07:56.183 align:center
that made you feel so angry and imbalanced?

01:07:56.184 --> 01:07:57.945 align:center
Tell me that!

01:08:00.264 --> 01:08:00.744 align:center
[Horn honking]

01:08:10.744 --> 01:08:17.625 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:08:35.584 --> 01:08:41.304 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:09:07.224 --> 01:09:07.945 align:center
[Message tone]

01:09:10.184 --> 01:09:16.104 align:center
I’m tired of playing this competition
where you dish out as much nastiness as you can,

01:09:16.105 --> 01:09:18.423 align:center
And I take as much shit as I possibly can.

01:09:18.424 --> 01:09:21.463 align:center
I don’t even know after one full year
of spending time together

01:09:21.464 --> 01:09:23.543 align:center
and having sex every week,

01:09:23.544 --> 01:09:26.184 align:center
whether you feel anything for me at all
in that cold heart of yours.

01:09:29.785 --> 01:09:35.424 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:09:36.745 --> 01:09:38.584 align:center
Mouni ma'am tell me one thing.

01:09:38.905 --> 01:09:41.224 align:center
Did you work with that director again?

01:09:43.344 --> 01:09:46.384 align:center
The one who made the award winning
short film you in it?

01:09:48.144 --> 01:09:48.625 align:center
No.

01:09:49.105 --> 01:09:49.865 align:center
Why?

01:09:51.184 --> 01:09:51.665 align:center
[Mouni gasps]

01:09:52.865 --> 01:09:55.785 align:center
Because after winning the award in Venice,

01:09:56.344 --> 01:09:58.543 align:center
the director sold the film to a Chinese channel.

01:09:58.544 --> 01:10:00.625 align:center
She sold all the rights, everything,

01:10:02.065 --> 01:10:04.065 align:center
because she could name her price for it.

01:10:05.745 --> 01:10:08.543 align:center
But the people on whose lives,
the film was based,

01:10:08.544 --> 01:10:11.025 align:center
the people of this country,
they never got to see it.

01:10:12.424 --> 01:10:13.785 align:center
She got a lot of money for it.

01:10:14.985 --> 01:10:16.303 align:center
She didn’t share any of that either.

01:10:16.304 --> 01:10:18.785 align:center
And the film remained unseen in India.

01:10:20.865 --> 01:10:21.985 align:center
Damned sell-out!

01:10:25.065 --> 01:10:26.665 align:center
Art is for the people.

01:10:28.424 --> 01:10:30.064 align:center
To awaken those that are asleep,

01:10:30.065 --> 01:10:31.864 align:center
and to give comfort to the restless.

01:10:31.865 --> 01:10:35.104 align:center
So you had a problem with the fact,
that the film got sold to China?

01:10:35.105 --> 01:10:36.985 align:center
Or that you didn’t get
your share of the money?

01:10:38.384 --> 01:10:39.624 align:center
What’s your problem?

01:10:39.625 --> 01:10:40.624 align:center
No, no, I’m just asking.

01:10:40.625 --> 01:10:43.503 align:center
The people on whom the film
was based, didn’t get to see it.

01:10:43.504 --> 01:10:44.424 align:center
I just said that.

01:10:47.025 --> 01:10:47.985 align:center
So,

01:10:48.544 --> 01:10:50.144 align:center
have you acted in any ad film?

01:10:51.665 --> 01:10:53.384 align:center
Yes I have done two ad films.

01:10:54.424 --> 01:10:56.464 align:center
And both the directors were idiots.

01:10:57.665 --> 01:11:00.984 align:center
They’d discuss at length before the shot,

01:11:00.985 --> 01:11:04.584 align:center
what the texture of the foam
on the soap should look like.

01:11:05.304 --> 01:11:06.824 align:center
What is so funny?
Why are you laughing?

01:11:06.825 --> 01:11:08.344 align:center
I was laughing at the "texture of the foam..."

01:11:09.785 --> 01:11:13.105 align:center
Mouni ma'am don’t you think,

01:11:15.745 --> 01:11:17.304 align:center
that in any line of work,

01:11:17.865 --> 01:11:20.423 align:center
be it an art or a business,

01:11:20.424 --> 01:11:23.025 align:center
one should try to maintain
a long term relationship.

01:11:23.584 --> 01:11:26.423 align:center
It shouldn’t be like
you take on a project,

01:11:26.424 --> 01:11:28.905 align:center
and then leave because something triggered you.

01:11:29.304 --> 01:11:32.824 align:center
The “Only I’m right and everyone else
is a fool” attitude isn’t right.

01:11:32.825 --> 01:11:34.985 align:center
You don't subscribe to this feeling, do you?

01:11:36.825 --> 01:11:37.865 align:center
What sort of a question is this?

01:11:38.424 --> 01:11:39.704 align:center
What are you trying to say?

01:11:39.705 --> 01:11:42.424 align:center
I mean, I've read on Google
that in psychology,

01:11:43.665 --> 01:11:47.344 align:center
there’s nothing called a superiority complex.
There’s only inferiority complex.

01:11:49.065 --> 01:11:49.625 align:center
[Mouni gasps]

01:11:51.584 --> 01:11:52.224 align:center
You know what?

01:11:53.584 --> 01:11:54.065 align:center
Fuck you!

01:11:56.384 --> 01:11:56.985 align:center
What?

01:11:57.184 --> 01:11:59.584 align:center
Fuck you. ACBC bank’s managing director.

01:12:01.144 --> 01:12:04.705 align:center
What the fuck do you know
about the pain of an artist’s life?

01:12:05.825 --> 01:12:08.584 align:center
Do you even know what it is to be an artist?

01:12:08.745 --> 01:12:10.184 align:center
You know how difficult it is?

01:12:10.584 --> 01:12:12.704 align:center
Can you even begin to imagine
the struggle for financial security?

01:12:12.705 --> 01:12:14.824 align:center
To suppress all your desires?

01:12:14.825 --> 01:12:17.503 align:center
You indulge in the smallest of desires
at your whim and fancy.

01:12:17.504 --> 01:12:20.584 align:center
Whenever you feel like.
Let’s do this. Let’s buy that.

01:12:20.985 --> 01:12:22.384 align:center
We can't even think of it.

01:12:23.224 --> 01:12:26.784 align:center
No vacations abroad.
No car. No jewellery.

01:12:26.785 --> 01:12:28.864 align:center
We don’t even splurge often on food outside.

01:12:28.865 --> 01:12:30.865 align:center
We have very calculated lives.

01:12:31.144 --> 01:12:32.905 align:center
Every day and every minute.

01:12:33.625 --> 01:12:37.065 align:center
You don’t have an iota
of an understanding of an artist’s life.

01:12:37.584 --> 01:12:38.065 align:center
Fuck.

01:12:40.304 --> 01:12:43.423 align:center
It is very easy for you to say these things,

01:12:43.424 --> 01:12:44.624 align:center
with your Gucci shoes,

01:12:44.625 --> 01:12:47.583 align:center
Mont Blanc in your pocket, your Rolex watch.

01:12:47.584 --> 01:12:50.384 align:center
And every single thing you have on you.

01:12:53.424 --> 01:12:53.825 align:center
[Adnan chuckles]

01:12:54.504 --> 01:12:56.384 align:center
Wonderful Mouni ma'am!

01:12:57.105 --> 01:13:00.344 align:center
You got all my brands right.
Wow.

01:13:01.985 --> 01:13:05.705 align:center
I wonder, why do you think
so much about these brands?

01:13:06.745 --> 01:13:09.303 align:center
A while ago you said that,

01:13:09.304 --> 01:13:11.744 align:center
"self-actualisation" is very important.

01:13:11.745 --> 01:13:13.424 align:center
So what good is that realisation then?

01:13:18.705 --> 01:13:19.745 align:center
What is this Mouni ma'am?

01:13:24.785 --> 01:13:27.625 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:13:49.344 --> 01:13:56.184 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:13:59.384 --> 01:14:00.584 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:14:05.785 --> 01:14:06.544 align:center
[Facetime rings]

01:14:08.705 --> 01:14:09.625 align:center
[Facetime rings]

01:14:13.344 --> 01:14:16.865 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:14:19.105 --> 01:14:22.625 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:14:34.424 --> 01:14:39.504 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:14:40.745 --> 01:14:42.704 align:center
Mouni ma'am, I sincerely apologise.

01:14:42.705 --> 01:14:45.344 align:center
Forgive me please.
I’m extremely sorry for what I said.

01:14:51.584 --> 01:14:55.705 align:center
I just want to say one thing Mouni ma'am,

01:14:58.144 --> 01:15:02.263 align:center
the passion with which you spoke about the films,
and the performances of the artists,

01:15:02.264 --> 01:15:05.665 align:center
I felt a bit jealous that I've never
been able to feel that passion in me.

01:15:06.705 --> 01:15:09.344 align:center
I felt like I’m rushing to reach a train station,

01:15:09.785 --> 01:15:12.144 align:center
but just as I reach, the train has left.

01:15:21.985 --> 01:15:23.544 align:center
I have a request to make of you,

01:15:25.464 --> 01:15:30.144 align:center
After which I will do
everything that you say, as you say.

01:15:30.504 --> 01:15:32.144 align:center
Can you perform for me,

01:15:32.785 --> 01:15:35.945 align:center
the saddest moment of your life, just once?

01:15:37.344 --> 01:15:39.784 align:center
After that even if you choose
to rattle me inside out,

01:15:39.785 --> 01:15:41.625 align:center
I won’t complain at all.

01:15:44.745 --> 01:15:45.344 align:center
Please.

01:15:46.224 --> 01:15:47.584 align:center
It is a request,

01:15:48.144 --> 01:15:50.424 align:center
as a student and as a co-actor.

01:16:04.424 --> 01:16:04.905 align:center
[Clanking sound]

01:16:11.905 --> 01:16:12.584 align:center
[Mouni clears throat]

01:16:26.464 --> 01:16:27.464 align:center
Mom,

01:16:27.985 --> 01:16:32.224 align:center
I need to return the report card tomorrow,
can you please sign it?

01:16:36.745 --> 01:16:38.904 align:center
No mom, that’s not a ten,
that’s a forty.

01:16:38.905 --> 01:16:43.224 align:center
The teacher mindlessly used a red pen
but then changed it with black ink.

01:16:45.464 --> 01:16:50.504 align:center
Mom I didn’t fail,
I promise.

01:16:52.424 --> 01:16:54.905 align:center
No mom, I’m not lying.

01:16:55.464 --> 01:16:58.263 align:center
Mom please don’t tell dad. Please.

01:16:58.264 --> 01:17:01.665 align:center
No mom, no.
Please.

01:17:02.304 --> 01:17:05.304 align:center
Please don’t lock me in here.

01:17:05.985 --> 01:17:07.985 align:center
I can't breathe here.

01:17:08.344 --> 01:17:09.264 align:center
[Mouni struggling to breathe]

01:17:09.544 --> 01:17:11.584 align:center
Mom! Mom!

01:17:11.905 --> 01:17:14.344 align:center
I don’t have my inhaler.

01:17:15.065 --> 01:17:19.463 align:center
Mom, I'm really sorry mom.
Please don't tell dad.

01:17:19.464 --> 01:17:21.304 align:center
Mom please.

01:17:21.584 --> 01:17:26.304 align:center
I can't breathe in here. I can’t breathe.

01:17:26.544 --> 01:17:28.785 align:center
I can’t breathe.

01:17:30.504 --> 01:17:32.945 align:center
[Mouni struggling to breathe]

01:17:43.184 --> 01:17:46.025 align:center
Oh my god!
What a performance, Mouni ma'am.

01:17:46.945 --> 01:17:50.985 align:center
It was spectacular!
I’m blown away.

01:17:52.464 --> 01:17:56.144 align:center
I got goosebumps. See!

01:17:59.105 --> 01:18:00.184 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

01:18:00.584 --> 01:18:05.944 align:center
I’m so blessed to have a teacher like you,

01:18:05.945 --> 01:18:07.144 align:center
but there’s a catch.

01:18:08.304 --> 01:18:11.144 align:center
This aunt of yours whose daughter
studies in Heidelberg,

01:18:11.825 --> 01:18:13.825 align:center
She said that you’re an orphan.

01:18:27.544 --> 01:18:29.065 align:center
Fucking bitch!

01:18:56.224 --> 01:18:59.544 align:center
Ten, twenty, thirty, forty, fifty,
sixty, seventy, eighty, ninety, hundred.

01:19:00.304 --> 01:19:01.224 align:center
I’m the denner!

01:19:01.504 --> 01:19:06.224 align:center
[Mouni runs]

01:19:08.184 --> 01:19:09.464 align:center
Uncle and aunty have come!

01:19:10.945 --> 01:19:13.264 align:center
Hello uncle. Hello aunty.

01:19:13.945 --> 01:19:17.504 align:center
I’m Mouni, this is Mimi
and this is Rohan.

01:19:19.825 --> 01:19:20.825 align:center
You want Rohan?

01:19:23.264 --> 01:19:24.264 align:center
Bye Rohan!

01:19:24.705 --> 01:19:25.705 align:center
Bye.

01:19:27.424 --> 01:19:28.344 align:center
Bye.

01:19:36.025 --> 01:19:37.945 align:center
Now it's just the two of us here.

01:19:39.105 --> 01:19:42.104 align:center
Ten, twenty, thirty, forty, fifty,
sixty, seventy, eighty, ninety, hundred.

01:19:42.105 --> 01:19:43.064 align:center
It’s on you!

01:19:43.065 --> 01:19:47.665 align:center
[Mouni runs]

01:19:49.705 --> 01:19:50.825 align:center
Uncle and aunty?

01:19:52.264 --> 01:19:53.825 align:center
Hello uncle. Hello aunty.

01:19:55.785 --> 01:19:58.264 align:center
This is Mimi. My name is Mouni.

01:20:02.224 --> 01:20:02.905 align:center
Mimi?

01:20:05.264 --> 01:20:09.785 align:center
But we’re best friends and
we do everything together.

01:20:10.025 --> 01:20:12.344 align:center
We go everywhere together.

01:20:16.665 --> 01:20:19.264 align:center
Why would she want to leave alone?

01:20:20.865 --> 01:20:22.543 align:center
Mimi why don’t you say something?

01:20:22.544 --> 01:20:26.183 align:center
Say you won’t go alone!
Say we’ll go together!

01:20:26.184 --> 01:20:28.905 align:center
We do everything together.
Say something Mimi!

01:20:32.665 --> 01:20:34.025 align:center
Mimi?

01:20:34.304 --> 01:20:35.105 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

01:20:35.264 --> 01:20:40.785 align:center
Please Mimi! Say something!
Please stay? Mimi!

01:20:49.705 --> 01:20:53.144 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

01:21:05.304 --> 01:21:07.424 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

01:21:13.065 --> 01:21:14.464 align:center
[Mouni sobbing]

01:21:17.705 --> 01:21:22.224 align:center
[Mouni continues sobbing]

01:21:29.264 --> 01:21:31.665 align:center
[Mouni trying to catch her breath]

01:21:33.144 --> 01:21:35.025 align:center
[Mouni sniffs inhaler]

01:21:36.304 --> 01:21:37.303 align:center
[Mouni sniffs inhaler]

01:21:37.304 --> 01:21:38.865 align:center
Mouni ma'am, are you okay?

01:21:43.025 --> 01:21:46.025 align:center
[Mouni catches breath and exhales]

01:21:56.544 --> 01:21:58.065 align:center
[Mouni sobbing softly]

01:22:19.184 --> 01:22:20.705 align:center
[Adnan exhales]

01:22:26.224 --> 01:22:31.105 align:center
Windows, grills.

01:22:34.905 --> 01:22:40.945 align:center
No one new came into a little girl’s life,

01:22:42.665 --> 01:22:45.825 align:center
and no one from the past ever came back.

01:22:55.584 --> 01:22:56.584 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

01:22:58.065 --> 01:23:02.143 align:center
have you used this pain for a performance?

01:23:02.144 --> 01:23:03.264 align:center
Never.

01:23:05.184 --> 01:23:08.624 align:center
There are better and healthier ways to...

01:23:08.625 --> 01:23:12.144 align:center
use your body instead of your memories.

01:23:19.905 --> 01:23:20.705 align:center
Just a second,

01:23:21.344 --> 01:23:23.105 align:center
Nazia is calling.

01:23:24.504 --> 01:23:26.144 align:center
Yes kiddo,
I’m walking homewards.

01:23:27.625 --> 01:23:32.825 align:center
And I’m bringing a lady along
I’m prepping for an audition with.

01:23:55.905 --> 01:24:01.105 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:24:05.025 --> 01:24:07.264 align:center
[Phone continues to ring]

01:24:07.584 --> 01:24:08.184 align:center
[Call connects]

01:24:10.224 --> 01:24:11.344 align:center
Hi Mouni ma'am.

01:24:11.625 --> 01:24:12.944 align:center
This is my house.

01:24:12.945 --> 01:24:16.584 align:center
Twenty-five years ago Muskan and
I lived here together.

01:24:16.825 --> 01:24:18.143 align:center
We made this house by ourselves,

01:24:18.144 --> 01:24:20.303 align:center
Every brick, every design,

01:24:20.304 --> 01:24:22.544 align:center
we conceptualised it together.

01:24:22.985 --> 01:24:24.105 align:center
She left after that.

01:24:24.344 --> 01:24:27.144 align:center
Let me take you inside the house.

01:24:27.785 --> 01:24:28.384 align:center
Okay?

01:24:31.264 --> 01:24:34.344 align:center
This is my daughter Nazia’s room upstairs.

01:24:35.105 --> 01:24:36.224 align:center
And...

01:24:37.945 --> 01:24:39.025 align:center
This is the kitchen.

01:24:39.865 --> 01:24:43.024 align:center
I would never enter here before
and now I don't leave this place,

01:24:43.025 --> 01:24:45.223 align:center
because most of my time gets spent here,

01:24:45.224 --> 01:24:48.504 align:center
from breakfast to dinner,
reading the paper, everything.

01:24:49.785 --> 01:24:51.343 align:center
This is my daughter Nazia.

01:24:51.344 --> 01:24:52.383 align:center
- Hi dad.
- Nazia,

01:24:52.384 --> 01:24:53.945 align:center
this is my acting teacher Mouni ma'am.

01:24:54.705 --> 01:24:56.224 align:center
The great teacher in the world.

01:24:58.905 --> 01:25:00.264 align:center
You want to say something to her?

01:25:00.625 --> 01:25:03.263 align:center
Not much, but he’s been
sending me messages all day,

01:25:03.264 --> 01:25:05.504 align:center
and he looks really happy. Thank you.

01:25:07.945 --> 01:25:09.745 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

01:25:11.065 --> 01:25:12.384 align:center
This is a double bass.

01:25:14.584 --> 01:25:16.344 align:center
My daughter had made the demand,

01:25:17.504 --> 01:25:18.905 align:center
so I ordered it from Spain.

01:25:20.745 --> 01:25:22.905 align:center
It's a showpiece in your house.

01:25:23.184 --> 01:25:26.705 align:center
Yes, now it has become so.
She doesn’t play anymore.

01:25:26.985 --> 01:25:29.464 align:center
It's a custom made instrument.

01:25:30.105 --> 01:25:30.785 align:center
Yes.

01:25:31.224 --> 01:25:33.544 align:center
And is lying as a showpiece in your house!

01:25:38.264 --> 01:25:41.584 align:center
Let me show you the most extravagant thing.

01:25:42.985 --> 01:25:44.264 align:center
This flute.

01:25:46.224 --> 01:25:49.704 align:center
It was presented to me by a great man.

01:25:49.705 --> 01:25:51.024 align:center
He was called...

01:25:51.025 --> 01:25:54.624 align:center
Sorry he 'is' called...

01:25:54.625 --> 01:25:56.304 align:center
Mr. Hariprasad Chaurasia.

01:25:57.144 --> 01:25:59.984 align:center
You mean Maestro Pandit Hariprasad Chaurasia?

01:25:59.985 --> 01:26:02.424 align:center
Yes. Maestro Pandit Hariprasad Chaurasia?

01:26:03.224 --> 01:26:07.424 align:center
He was here for a show
that our bank had sponsored.

01:26:08.504 --> 01:26:10.583 align:center
I don’t know what made him feel
affectionate towards me,

01:26:10.584 --> 01:26:12.904 align:center
but he presented this to me while leaving.

01:26:12.905 --> 01:26:15.584 align:center
This too, is a showpiece at your home then?

01:26:16.745 --> 01:26:19.624 align:center
Showpiece? Maybe not.
I tried to learn but...

01:26:19.625 --> 01:26:22.504 align:center
But I guess you’re right.
Now it is so much of a showpiece.

01:26:23.785 --> 01:26:27.025 align:center
These are some photographs of my daughter.

01:26:27.584 --> 01:26:30.583 align:center
Some laughing, some crying, some being stubborn.
All her moods.

01:26:30.584 --> 01:26:34.504 align:center
All her moods.
All nine basic human emotions.

01:26:39.625 --> 01:26:42.625 align:center
These are photos of some awards I received.

01:26:43.105 --> 01:26:44.025 align:center
Show that photo!

01:26:45.584 --> 01:26:46.344 align:center
Sorry?

01:26:46.945 --> 01:26:48.504 align:center
That photo in the corner on the left.

01:26:50.144 --> 01:26:50.945 align:center
This one here? Look.

01:26:53.745 --> 01:26:54.985 align:center
That’s Globe Theatre!

01:26:55.785 --> 01:26:56.985 align:center
Yes, Globe Theatre.

01:26:57.625 --> 01:26:59.344 align:center
You have been to Globe Theatre?

01:27:00.785 --> 01:27:02.065 align:center
Yes, we had been there.

01:27:03.424 --> 01:27:05.065 align:center
We were on a ferry.

01:27:05.625 --> 01:27:07.263 align:center
Nazia wanted ice cream.

01:27:07.264 --> 01:27:10.664 align:center
So we went there, we got her the ice cream.

01:27:10.665 --> 01:27:13.665 align:center
Hopped back onto the ferry and returned.

01:27:14.304 --> 01:27:16.464 align:center
You know what Globe Theatre is?

01:27:18.025 --> 01:27:19.665 align:center
Yes, I know plays happen there.

01:27:21.264 --> 01:27:22.544 align:center
And you didn’t go in?

01:27:23.025 --> 01:27:24.745 align:center
No we didn’t because we were short on time.

01:27:25.985 --> 01:27:29.544 align:center
You didn’t watch a play in Globe Theatre?

01:27:29.905 --> 01:27:32.343 align:center
No we had to go someplace. I had a meeting.

01:27:32.344 --> 01:27:34.704 align:center
And I think Nazia also had to be somewhere.

01:27:34.705 --> 01:27:36.503 align:center
We also had a restaurant reservation.

01:27:36.504 --> 01:27:39.705 align:center
Yes, we also had a restaurant reservation,
we planned to eat there.

01:27:45.344 --> 01:27:46.544 align:center
What happened Mouni ma'am?

01:28:00.304 --> 01:28:05.384 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:28:26.785 --> 01:28:29.304 align:center
[Phone continues to ring]

01:28:40.344 --> 01:28:42.745 align:center
[Phone continues to ring]

01:28:47.384 --> 01:28:47.785 align:center
[Mouni angrily spitting]

01:28:51.105 --> 01:28:53.025 align:center
[Paper rustling]

01:28:54.945 --> 01:28:55.944 align:center
Hi.

01:28:55.945 --> 01:28:58.825 align:center
Sorry Wi-Fi problems.

01:29:00.224 --> 01:29:02.343 align:center
I had to restart the router.

01:29:02.344 --> 01:29:04.183 align:center
Oh, I was wondering what happened.

01:29:04.184 --> 01:29:05.423 align:center
Sorry about that.

01:29:05.424 --> 01:29:07.985 align:center
Adnan we have to do one last exercise.

01:29:08.665 --> 01:29:09.625 align:center
At this hour?

01:29:09.865 --> 01:29:11.944 align:center
Yes, one exercise is pending.

01:29:11.945 --> 01:29:14.945 align:center
And you’re not yet ready for tomorrow’s audition,

01:29:15.985 --> 01:29:17.184 align:center
So we must do it.

01:29:22.105 --> 01:29:24.544 align:center
Why don’t you take me to that place in Frankfurt,

01:29:25.905 --> 01:29:28.785 align:center
where your most painful memories reside.

01:29:35.544 --> 01:29:37.905 align:center
[Crickets chirping]

01:29:46.304 --> 01:29:46.584 align:center
[Car door closes]

01:29:47.544 --> 01:29:52.584 align:center
[Crickets chirping]

01:30:06.105 --> 01:30:06.985 align:center
[Door opens]

01:30:19.785 --> 01:30:22.745 align:center
This was my mother,
Saeeda Baig’s, favourite place.

01:30:32.344 --> 01:30:37.144 align:center
She would weave shawls
with her choice of colours.

01:30:38.665 --> 01:30:40.344 align:center
Maybe because,

01:30:41.384 --> 01:30:44.223 align:center
her life was devoid of colour,

01:30:44.224 --> 01:30:48.105 align:center
or because the importance of her will
was never taken care of.

01:30:50.184 --> 01:30:54.825 align:center
Against her wishes, she was married off
to a man whom she didn’t even know.

01:30:56.184 --> 01:30:58.825 align:center
The violence in Kashmir was at its peak.

01:31:00.224 --> 01:31:05.705 align:center
And she was suddenly and mindlessly
married off to that man.

01:31:10.625 --> 01:31:12.065 align:center
The violence outside,

01:31:14.105 --> 01:31:19.384 align:center
soon also seeped into her house
and became a part of her life.

01:31:24.384 --> 01:31:27.825 align:center
My father had the final say in everything.
I too was tired of that.

01:31:29.504 --> 01:31:32.463 align:center
One day I sat with my mother
and we decided that,

01:31:32.464 --> 01:31:33.905 align:center
I will escape that place.

01:31:36.625 --> 01:31:41.544 align:center
Took a student loan, got a scholarship
and came here to study.

01:31:44.865 --> 01:31:46.985 align:center
And I started my new life.

01:31:50.544 --> 01:31:54.784 align:center
After completing my studies, I was looking for a home
and I found a home in Muskan.

01:31:54.785 --> 01:31:56.384 align:center
And we got married.

01:32:00.905 --> 01:32:02.985 align:center
I was free.

01:32:06.625 --> 01:32:09.304 align:center
But not my mother.

01:32:12.144 --> 01:32:13.025 align:center
Anyway...

01:32:14.025 --> 01:32:16.303 align:center
My mother had started coughing long time ago,

01:32:16.304 --> 01:32:18.184 align:center
when I’d initially come to Germany.

01:32:19.745 --> 01:32:22.625 align:center
The doctors suggested that she undergo a biopsy.

01:32:24.665 --> 01:32:27.384 align:center
It was done but,

01:32:29.584 --> 01:32:32.424 align:center
my father forgot to get
the biopsy reports from the hospital.

01:32:32.865 --> 01:32:33.065 align:center
[Adnan chuckles]

01:32:38.065 --> 01:32:41.504 align:center
Stage three cancer had come knocking
at my mother’s door.

01:32:44.665 --> 01:32:49.144 align:center
I requested her to come here but she refused.

01:32:51.384 --> 01:32:56.905 align:center
Right then, I heard that, fortunately,

01:32:58.785 --> 01:33:02.745 align:center
a heart attack
had silenced my father forever.

01:33:03.464 --> 01:33:04.865 align:center
My mother was alone.

01:33:05.105 --> 01:33:06.664 align:center
I couldn’t wait any longer.

01:33:06.665 --> 01:33:09.463 align:center
I painstakingly convinced her to come here,

01:33:09.464 --> 01:33:11.304 align:center
and her treatment began.

01:33:13.625 --> 01:33:14.464 align:center
I think...

01:33:15.705 --> 01:33:17.625 align:center
she recovered within six months.

01:33:18.705 --> 01:33:25.304 align:center
She returned to her craft of weaving shawls.

01:33:27.144 --> 01:33:28.344 align:center
She was happy.

01:33:30.865 --> 01:33:34.664 align:center
One, because she was doing what she loved doing,

01:33:34.665 --> 01:33:37.463 align:center
and the second, because the houses here,

01:33:37.464 --> 01:33:39.625 align:center
reminded her of her house in Kashmir.

01:33:44.105 --> 01:33:46.264 align:center
Nazia was born around the same time.

01:33:49.304 --> 01:33:52.503 align:center
She had the chance to speak to
and be with her grandmother.

01:33:52.504 --> 01:33:54.384 align:center
I too would meet my mother every day.

01:33:57.424 --> 01:33:58.503 align:center
We were very happy.

01:33:58.504 --> 01:34:03.625 align:center
I think that was the happiest
and the most beautiful time of my life.

01:34:06.825 --> 01:34:07.544 align:center
But,

01:34:09.945 --> 01:34:11.825 align:center
I think God,

01:34:14.945 --> 01:34:17.025 align:center
he couldn’t allow that for too long.

01:34:20.384 --> 01:34:21.785 align:center
There was a relapse.

01:34:24.504 --> 01:34:25.825 align:center
But this time,

01:34:27.264 --> 01:34:29.584 align:center
the tumour wasn’t in the chest,
but in her brain.

01:34:32.304 --> 01:34:35.025 align:center
The doctors tried an advanced treatment for a month,

01:34:37.264 --> 01:34:38.945 align:center
but my mother didn’t survive.

01:34:47.304 --> 01:34:51.344 align:center
She was born on the 6th of April,
she died on the 7th of April.

01:34:54.025 --> 01:34:55.985 align:center
It’s not the cancer that killed her.

01:34:58.344 --> 01:34:59.344 align:center
Lack of love,

01:35:01.184 --> 01:35:02.464 align:center
and lack of care,

01:35:05.144 --> 01:35:06.544 align:center
is what killed her.

01:35:33.144 --> 01:35:34.785 align:center
I feel so sorry.

01:35:41.905 --> 01:35:46.025 align:center
That report always flashes before my eyes.

01:35:47.584 --> 01:35:50.424 align:center
Everyday.
I see it every day.

01:35:53.065 --> 01:35:54.624 align:center
That biopsy report.

01:35:54.625 --> 01:35:56.665 align:center
I wish I had been there.

01:35:58.665 --> 01:36:02.384 align:center
I wouldn’t have forgotten
to get that report from the hospital.

01:36:19.985 --> 01:36:20.825 align:center
Adnan...

01:36:22.504 --> 01:36:22.865 align:center
[Adnan sniffing]

01:36:23.504 --> 01:36:24.384 align:center
Yes?

01:36:28.865 --> 01:36:31.184 align:center
I want you to go outside this house.

01:36:36.504 --> 01:36:39.985 align:center
And stand before the door handle.

01:36:44.825 --> 01:36:45.144 align:center
[Door opens]

01:36:47.905 --> 01:36:51.665 align:center
Adnan look at this door handle, carefully.

01:36:54.065 --> 01:36:57.945 align:center
This is the door behind which you sat in comfort.
Away from your mother.

01:36:59.384 --> 01:37:01.665 align:center
On the other side of this,
miles away, was your mother.

01:37:03.424 --> 01:37:04.665 align:center
This door,

01:37:05.544 --> 01:37:07.944 align:center
symbolises the thousands of miles
between the two of you,

01:37:07.945 --> 01:37:11.464 align:center
because of which you couldn’t help her in time.

01:37:15.825 --> 01:37:17.025 align:center
Hold that handle.

01:37:18.945 --> 01:37:20.985 align:center
Adnan, remember what you had promised?

01:37:22.065 --> 01:37:26.384 align:center
You said you’ll do everything
that I say as a part of the exercise.

01:37:27.584 --> 01:37:28.785 align:center
Hold that handle.

01:37:37.025 --> 01:37:38.625 align:center
Tomorrow when you do the scene,

01:37:40.464 --> 01:37:42.705 align:center
you will think of this door.

01:37:52.544 --> 01:37:53.464 align:center
Okay out.

01:37:55.264 --> 01:37:56.584 align:center
You’re done for the day.

01:37:57.464 --> 01:38:00.025 align:center
I'll see you tomorrow for the audition.

01:38:03.105 --> 01:38:04.304 align:center
Good luck.

01:38:13.304 --> 01:38:13.825 align:center
[Koel cooing]

01:38:16.344 --> 01:38:17.544 align:center
[Birds chirping]

01:38:19.184 --> 01:38:19.785 align:center
[Birds chirping]

01:38:24.504 --> 01:38:25.424 align:center
Adnan Baig?

01:38:27.544 --> 01:38:28.504 align:center
Same as before.

01:38:39.224 --> 01:38:41.343 align:center
Okay you both. Ready?

01:38:41.344 --> 01:38:41.865 align:center
Yes.

01:38:43.264 --> 01:38:43.785 align:center
Yes.

01:38:44.105 --> 01:38:45.745 align:center
- Roll sound.
- Rolling.

01:38:45.945 --> 01:38:47.664 align:center
- Roll camera.
- Rolling.

01:38:47.665 --> 01:38:48.504 align:center
Action.

01:38:50.544 --> 01:38:53.745 align:center
Doctor, as you had asked,
I have written the letter.

01:38:54.785 --> 01:38:56.304 align:center
Should I read it out?

01:38:56.665 --> 01:38:57.304 align:center
Yes.

01:39:03.625 --> 01:39:04.705 align:center
Dear Alcohol,

01:39:06.544 --> 01:39:10.184 align:center
For many years you reminded me of Papa.

01:39:11.865 --> 01:39:13.424 align:center
Everything I missed in him,

01:39:14.424 --> 01:39:16.865 align:center
I seem to feel like I'd find in you.

01:39:18.224 --> 01:39:24.985 align:center
I thought you could make up
for his forehead kisses.

01:39:28.065 --> 01:39:29.905 align:center
When I broke up with Michelle,

01:39:31.584 --> 01:39:37.025 align:center
nudged by you, many times I took her back in.

01:39:38.504 --> 01:39:42.424 align:center
Knowing that Michelle wasn’t good for me,

01:39:45.304 --> 01:39:50.024 align:center
that lead to more drunken memories
of more drunken sex and

01:39:50.025 --> 01:39:51.344 align:center
more pain.

01:39:52.544 --> 01:39:55.544 align:center
But today I have decided to stop living in the past.

01:39:56.344 --> 01:40:00.184 align:center
To genuinely stop trying
to use you as my Time Machine.

01:40:01.625 --> 01:40:06.224 align:center
I only want to live in the present
and in the tomorrow to come,

01:40:08.785 --> 01:40:10.384 align:center
and you are a part of neither.

01:40:13.264 --> 01:40:14.504 align:center
I choose,

01:40:16.344 --> 01:40:18.065 align:center
to let my Papa go.

01:40:20.825 --> 01:40:23.144 align:center
I choose to let college go.

01:40:25.464 --> 01:40:27.344 align:center
I choose to let Michelle go.

01:40:29.745 --> 01:40:32.343 align:center
I choose to let yesterday go,

01:40:32.344 --> 01:40:35.065 align:center
and I choose to let you go.

01:40:37.025 --> 01:40:37.905 align:center
Now.

01:40:45.344 --> 01:40:46.584 align:center
[Birds cooing]

01:40:51.504 --> 01:40:52.464 align:center
Great job.

01:40:54.745 --> 01:40:59.344 align:center
You have completed the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.

01:41:00.184 --> 01:41:01.224 align:center
Successfully.

01:41:02.985 --> 01:41:06.384 align:center
And you have been
sober for ninety days straight.

01:41:07.544 --> 01:41:09.184 align:center
You’ve made this happen all by yourself.

01:41:09.945 --> 01:41:13.504 align:center
You chose to save yourself and there is
nothing greater than that in life.

01:41:14.304 --> 01:41:15.745 align:center
But this letter,

01:41:16.464 --> 01:41:18.504 align:center
please don’t take it with you.

01:41:19.184 --> 01:41:20.544 align:center
Leave it behind.

01:41:24.424 --> 01:41:26.905 align:center
And I’m here for you.

01:41:28.464 --> 01:41:31.343 align:center
You can message or call me anytime.

01:41:31.344 --> 01:41:32.624 align:center
You can fix an appointment if you need.

01:41:32.625 --> 01:41:34.584 align:center
I'm always there for you.

01:41:35.825 --> 01:41:37.344 align:center
Thank you, doctor.

01:41:38.504 --> 01:41:39.304 align:center
Thank you.

01:41:40.025 --> 01:41:40.985 align:center
Good to go.

01:42:06.264 --> 01:42:07.584 align:center
Dad...

01:42:36.544 --> 01:42:37.464 align:center
[Adnan opens the drawer]

01:42:48.825 --> 01:42:50.384 align:center
[Adnan closes the drawer]

01:43:03.865 --> 01:43:04.424 align:center
[Adnan sobbing softly]

01:43:10.224 --> 01:43:11.264 align:center
[Adnan sobbing softly]

01:43:18.464 --> 01:43:19.705 align:center
[Adnan sobbing softly]

01:43:35.865 --> 01:43:36.745 align:center
Cut.

01:43:42.745 --> 01:43:45.424 align:center
Wow! You guys.

01:43:48.105 --> 01:43:52.745 align:center
That was so real.

01:43:54.745 --> 01:43:57.105 align:center
Where did you learn to do this?

01:44:01.625 --> 01:44:04.105 align:center
Have you been an actor for a long time?

01:44:05.745 --> 01:44:09.504 align:center
The improvised part was really good.
Didn’t see that coming.

01:44:13.985 --> 01:44:15.984 align:center
You were really really good.

01:44:15.985 --> 01:44:18.785 align:center
- Thank you.
- I’ve heard there’s a bustling industry in India.

01:44:19.464 --> 01:44:21.304 align:center
Yes. There is.

01:44:22.985 --> 01:44:24.025 align:center
Did he leave?

01:44:25.144 --> 01:44:26.745 align:center
Adnan? Mr. Adnan?

01:44:27.304 --> 01:44:28.583 align:center
Yes he left.

01:44:28.584 --> 01:44:31.304 align:center
I guess he wasn’t feeling so well.

01:44:32.544 --> 01:44:33.344 align:center
Okay.

01:44:33.464 --> 01:44:35.704 align:center
[Music starts playing]

01:44:35.705 --> 01:44:41.504 align:center
[Dial tone]

01:44:44.344 --> 01:44:47.665 align:center
[Phone ringing]

01:45:00.625 --> 01:45:04.304 align:center
[Dial tone]

01:45:04.905 --> 01:45:08.224 align:center
[Busy dial tone]

01:45:19.264 --> 01:45:19.625 align:center
[Car door opening]

01:45:25.264 --> 01:45:25.905 align:center
[Message tone]

01:45:26.264 --> 01:45:27.065 align:center
Adnan,

01:45:28.065 --> 01:45:31.625 align:center
I taught you how to enter the labyrinth,

01:45:32.825 --> 01:45:34.264 align:center
but not the way out.

01:45:35.304 --> 01:45:40.025 align:center
When we teach professional actors
how to reopen their wounds...

01:45:41.144 --> 01:45:43.945 align:center
We also teach them how to heal...

01:45:47.144 --> 01:45:49.464 align:center
I didn't do that.

01:45:50.985 --> 01:45:52.584 align:center
Please answer my call.

01:45:54.304 --> 01:45:59.184 align:center
[Upbeat music playing]

01:45:59.464 --> 01:46:01.424 align:center
Dad, I forgot my earphones.

01:46:27.745 --> 01:46:32.584 align:center
[Violin playing]

01:46:34.945 --> 01:46:36.424 align:center
[Message tone]

01:46:37.105 --> 01:46:37.905 align:center
Hey Mouni.

01:46:39.625 --> 01:46:44.024 align:center
Unfortunately this message
is not bringing good news.

01:46:44.025 --> 01:46:47.384 align:center
Adnan Baig’s daughter has informed us
that he isn’t feeling too well.

01:46:48.344 --> 01:46:50.543 align:center
And so he won’t be able to do
the next round of auditions.

01:46:50.544 --> 01:46:52.665 align:center
We were looking forward
because we really liked his work.

01:46:53.105 --> 01:46:54.065 align:center
But...

01:46:54.865 --> 01:46:56.904 align:center
here they take mental health very seriously,

01:46:56.905 --> 01:46:59.263 align:center
and if someone calls in to say
that they’re not feeling right,

01:46:59.264 --> 01:47:00.224 align:center
then that’s that.

01:47:01.865 --> 01:47:02.824 align:center
Anyway,

01:47:02.825 --> 01:47:04.503 align:center
we’re looking forward to your audition.

01:47:04.504 --> 01:47:06.503 align:center
And best of luck for it.

01:47:06.504 --> 01:47:09.224 align:center
We are really excited to have you over again.

01:47:09.905 --> 01:47:13.384 align:center
[Violin playing]

01:48:09.384 --> 01:48:14.504 align:center
[Upbeat music playing]

01:48:20.224 --> 01:48:22.544 align:center
[Music fades out]

01:48:37.184 --> 01:48:42.865 align:center
[Atmospheric music playing]

01:49:07.745 --> 01:49:08.665 align:center
Mouni ma'am,

01:49:10.865 --> 01:49:13.705 align:center
I have reflected a lot
on the day we spent together.

01:49:21.544 --> 01:49:24.504 align:center
The release you seek
isn’t something you’ll find here.

01:49:25.424 --> 01:49:29.224 align:center
Despite my forgiveness,
you still have to live with yourself.

01:49:33.224 --> 01:49:37.384 align:center
What you seek isn’t to be found
in the forgiveness of other’s alone.

01:49:37.905 --> 01:49:39.865 align:center
That road ahead is within.

01:49:44.865 --> 01:49:46.464 align:center
To rid you of yourself,

01:49:47.224 --> 01:49:49.024 align:center
and to still have compassion towards another,

01:49:49.025 --> 01:49:50.785 align:center
even when you are in immense pain.

01:49:51.785 --> 01:49:52.745 align:center
Sorry Mouni ma'am,

01:49:53.985 --> 01:49:57.144 align:center
I cannot forgive you.

01:50:12.144 --> 01:50:15.065 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:50:31.825 --> 01:50:32.705 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:50:55.184 --> 01:50:56.905 align:center
[Vehicle passing by]

01:51:12.504 --> 01:51:13.424 align:center
[Vehicle passing by]

01:51:17.384 --> 01:51:22.945 align:center
Ma’am, I've been actively seeking the forgiveness
of those I've hurt as an alcoholic.

01:51:23.464 --> 01:51:24.584 align:center
It has been ten weeks,

01:51:25.544 --> 01:51:27.664 align:center
and there has been no relapse.

01:51:27.665 --> 01:51:28.224 align:center
Good.

01:51:29.384 --> 01:51:31.704 align:center
This last week I didn't even feel an urge once.

01:51:31.705 --> 01:51:32.625 align:center
Very good.

01:51:33.865 --> 01:51:36.504 align:center
You should try this thing called 'Rescue Night.'

01:51:59.544 --> 01:52:02.785 align:center
And we have two new members with us today.

01:52:04.705 --> 01:52:06.544 align:center
No. I’m not ready.

01:52:07.144 --> 01:52:07.985 align:center
Okay.

01:52:08.344 --> 01:52:09.264 align:center
No problem.

01:52:20.985 --> 01:52:22.625 align:center
My name is Mouni.

01:52:30.665 --> 01:52:33.344 align:center
I’m an alcoholic.

01:52:53.825 --> 01:52:54.625 align:center
[Horn honking]

01:52:56.665 --> 01:52:58.224 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:53:27.865 --> 01:53:29.504 align:center
[Music fades out]

01:53:36.105 --> 01:53:36.544 align:center
[Clock tower ringing]

01:53:43.384 --> 01:53:44.945 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:54:09.105 --> 01:54:11.224 align:center
[Birds cooing]

01:54:24.065 --> 01:54:25.625 align:center
Adnan!

01:54:27.224 --> 01:54:27.985 align:center
Adnan!

01:54:29.464 --> 01:54:30.264 align:center
Adnan!

01:54:52.344 --> 01:54:53.384 align:center
Adnan...

01:54:54.625 --> 01:54:55.785 align:center
Two weeks!

01:54:57.224 --> 01:54:58.343 align:center
Two weeks!

01:54:58.344 --> 01:55:02.785 align:center
I've been to all those locations,
I could remember from our video calls.

01:55:05.625 --> 01:55:06.985 align:center
Römerberg,

01:55:08.344 --> 01:55:11.143 align:center
all those lanes with those windows and grills.

01:55:11.144 --> 01:55:13.024 align:center
I went to that children’s park,

01:55:13.025 --> 01:55:14.504 align:center
and this riverside too.

01:55:16.224 --> 01:55:17.905 align:center
And it is now that I am seeing you.

01:55:22.025 --> 01:55:23.625 align:center
Adnan, I'm really sorry.

01:55:24.464 --> 01:55:25.904 align:center
I'm really sorry.

01:55:25.905 --> 01:55:29.504 align:center
I allowed my jealousy to take over everything.

01:55:31.264 --> 01:55:32.625 align:center
I’m sorry.

01:55:34.825 --> 01:55:37.745 align:center
Your performance that day, was very honest.

01:55:41.825 --> 01:55:44.584 align:center
You have it in you to be a good, solid actor.

01:55:45.344 --> 01:55:47.624 align:center
It took me time to understand,

01:55:47.625 --> 01:55:51.584 align:center
the pleasure of teaching
a sincere student like you.

01:55:55.105 --> 01:55:57.825 align:center
I've spent a lot of time
thinking about the day we spent together.

01:55:59.025 --> 01:56:03.785 align:center
And you don’t deserve what I did to you.

01:56:06.905 --> 01:56:08.304 align:center
Please forgive me.

01:56:10.865 --> 01:56:11.705 align:center
Please...

01:56:12.424 --> 01:56:15.705 align:center
Please give me another chance
to be your teacher?

01:56:17.065 --> 01:56:18.105 align:center
To teach you,

01:56:18.905 --> 01:56:21.184 align:center
what I love the most.

01:56:21.985 --> 01:56:22.985 align:center
Please...

01:56:26.504 --> 01:56:27.625 align:center
Please...

01:56:33.544 --> 01:56:34.745 align:center
[Sombre music playing]

01:58:03.705 --> 01:58:05.544 align:center
[Music fades out]