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[Phone vibrating]
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[Phone vibrating]
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[Horn honking]
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[Phone vibrating]
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Put this piece there.
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Jaya sir,
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You’ve been on this same piece
for two hours!
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- I'm trying.
- No let it be. I'll do it myself.
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Okay go ahead. Try.
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Mouni as a party,
to celebrate the award,
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We didn't expect to solve puzzles.
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I mean I thought there would be some
music and dancing...
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Mouni dancing?!!!
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Anyway she’s quit alcohol,
so that's not happening.
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[Jaya sir chuckles]
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Hello guys! Pizza?
Are you guys playing the puzzle?
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- Hi KP!
- Hello... Taanya...
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Keep it there.
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Tanaya... sorry.
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- Ta-na-ya
- What have you got on?
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- Have you sprayed something on yourself?
- No Mou di.
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As instructed, no perfume.
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I’m getting a whiff of something. For sure.
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No, I swear. Today I stopped
my hands in time.
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So as an actor you've learnt
to stop your hands in time. Finally!
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Shampoo?
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Oh fuck! Yes, I washed my hair today.
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You can smell it from under my cap?
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- Sorry sorry sorry Mouni.
- Move!
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What are you wearing?
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New headphones? They look very cool.
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It’s a neck fan.
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I swear, I thought it’s one of those new age headphones,
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in which, sound travels through the neckbone.
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Really?
- It's a thing.
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Are you acting?
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Well if you are, then you've
improved a lot I must say.
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Classic Mouni. The Mike Tyson of our film school.
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Yes, that was a knockout punch!
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- Guys, the pizza will get cold.
- We took a slice.
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Give me some too.
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[Birds chirping and phone vibrating]
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'Bloody banker' calling...
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Mouni, What new international
work have you been doing?
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Mouni is a star. She acts in a short film
and travels the world.
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And even after a 100-200
episodes of TV shows,
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we’re still on the stage of some
small time local award show.
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[Clanking sound]
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How do we get to Berlin and Venice?
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Cannes?
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We don't get to go.
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- We're just... stuck here.
- Hey!
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Did you bring the new car?
I want a drive ya please.
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I also saw the new car, on Instagram.
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- Mercedes!
- What a color!
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- Beautiful!
- One has to do all this.
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In the TV industry,
showing off is necessary.
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And everyone does it. It's not a big deal.
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Don’t talk rubbish. I can see through this fake humility.
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A fancy apartment in Mumbai!
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now a Mercedes,
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photographs splashed across front pages...
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Even you can do it.
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Just hire a PR manager.
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[Clanking sound]
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Then I’ll have to do work
which won't satisfy me,
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then get a car which I don’t need,
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wear clothes which I don’t want to wear,
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then hire papparazzi at the airport
to capture my ‘Airport Look’...etc. etc.
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Then work on my Instagram following.
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- Like you have. What is it, 1 point?
- 1.4 million. 1.5 actually.
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So basically do all of that, and in this whole
process, forget how to act!
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[KP chuckles]
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Yes, Mouni.
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You always say it like it is. Truly.
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Just like in film school.
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In fact I find it very cool,
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the way you’ve struck this balance...
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You sell your fragrance free soaps.
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and manage your expenses,
so you don’t have to compromise.
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You’re free to really act.
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This way, your art remains pure.
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You only do the work you really feel for.
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I think it's the best way to be.
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So I really respect that.
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What say, Tanu?
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Ya, I agree.
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[Birds chirping]
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Why are you being fake?
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What?
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When I came for your Netflix premiere,
you didn’t take my call.
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I called you more than twice.
That asshole watchman...
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fucking insulted me.
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Answer your phone,
and then act like we're friends.
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Can we please let this go?
It’s been two years.
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When will you see that...
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- We’re all here for you. We love you.
- Yes Mouni.
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In the middle of the night,
she took you to the hospital.
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So you want me to thank her
for making me bankrupt?!
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[Phone vibrating]
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Give me a second.
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Hey!
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What? How can she say that?
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- You know how she is...
- Let it go.
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Know what?
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We’ve known her for ages.
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You know her story...
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...saved money to go to London.
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To study Shakespeare.
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- Globe Theatre.
- Yeah.
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Was I supposed to leave her
unconscious?
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She fainted KP!
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How was I to know what
an appendix surgery costs?
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No one is blaming you.
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You did what was right.
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Yes, you did the right thing.
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I’m just saying that she also had her own...
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[Birds chirping]
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Mouni, help us with this!
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Yes, this puzzle...
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This is a tough one.
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I love this painting you know.
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Show us the award!
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The award is what we
all came to celebrate!
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It’s inside.
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I'll go get it.
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I’ll just try to put this one piece.
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[Jaya sir sniffing]
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[Muffled voices]
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Didi, please eat some pizza.
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I will.
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Try to finish the puzzle.
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Show! show! show!
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- Wow.
- Oh my god!
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Why haven’t you posted a photo?
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- This is quite cool!
- Let's take a photo now.
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- Oh yes, selfie time.
- I'm good.
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We can take it. I have no awards.
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We’ll post it and tag her.
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Give me your phone.
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[Jaya sir clicking pictures]
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This reminds me of that ‘I love Mumbai’
post of yours on Instagram.
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Yes, I just got a new dress.
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I don’t know whose amazing idea this was.
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To put these installations all over the city.
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Horrendous!
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Just like the city.
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[Happy music playing]
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I feel that the true nature of land,
always remains the same.
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[Happy music playing]
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No matter how many palaces you build.
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This ‘Spirit of Mumbai’ thing is all rubbish.
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[Upbeat music playing]
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It’s just an advertising gimmick. Marketing
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I don’t buy it.
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[Upbeat music playing]
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Mumbai was a marshland.
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So if it seems as if your life...
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perpetually feels like quick sand,
it’s not surprising is it?
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[Upbeat music playing]
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[Upbeat music playing]
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[Cycle bell ringing]
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[Music fades out]
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You shouldn’t have taken sick leave from work.
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I can’t believe that my daughter had to
take time off from work because of me.
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[Horn honking]
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It’s not like that.
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You did the same thing for me last year,
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when I was going through depression.
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You didn’t understand what was happening.
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But you came all the way to London
and spent a whole week with me.
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And there was so much work
you had to do at the bank.
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You didn’t know what was the right thing to say
or what was the right thing to do.
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But...
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I mean you did say some silly things to me,
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like the time when I was crying in the bathroom,
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you sat there with me but at the end,
you said, “Go to the gym tomorrow”.
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But you showed up
and spent all your time with me.
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You didn’t check your emails,
you didn’t check your phone once.
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[Dog barking]
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I’ll never forget that.
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[Clock tower chimes]
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[Clock tower chimes]
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[Clock tower chimes]
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What did the therapist say?
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Did you speak about starting medication?
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The therapist said that if I don’t feel better in
two weeks, then I’d have to start medication.
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I am not okay. I have anxiety.
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But I really don’t want to start medication.
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Don’t worry Papa.
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It's okay. We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.
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Don't worry.
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Okay listen! What did you do in college as a hobby?
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[Dog barking]
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I used to do theatre.
Performed some small characters.
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- What?
- Yes, only when I was in college.
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I didn't know that.
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Grandma didn’t share any pictures
of your theatre time with me.
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Actually...
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I used to be a tree in the background
in the play. Just a five minute role.
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I played the part of a tree when I was in school.
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Family profession, I guess.
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I think you should...
I think you should become an actor now.
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Or at least try it.
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- What?
- Yes.
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You can try acting.
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Don't be silly.
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You know I only played very small parts.
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[Adnan sniffing]
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What are you doing?
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What are you looking for?
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I think you should give an audition this weekend.
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- What?
- Yes!
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It’s Frankfurt, It’s a Saturday.
I’m sure there’s something happening.
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- Audition?
- Yes.
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- You mean I should go for an audition?
- Of course.
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And why would they shortlist me?
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" Wanted..."
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“Indian male between the ages of 45-55."
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"Must look like a working professional.”
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The suit.
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[Duck quacking]
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You should do it.
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No.
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[Birds chirping]
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You remember that film called 'Julia'?
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Directed by Stephen Shuttler.
We watched it on Netflix the other day.
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Yes. Yes.
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They're doing auditions for him.
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It's going to happen with one actor on Zoom in India,
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and one actor from here.
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The audition venue is close by.
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I think you should go. It'll be really fun.
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Make use of this retirement. Come on.
Do something fun for once.
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Adnan Baig.
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You can sit on that chair there.
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Yes, that one.
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Your co-actor is on the zoom call.
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Yes.
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[Clanking sound]
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[Paper rustling]
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Hey what’s going on? Just check?
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- Oh we tripped a fuse. It’ll be back on in a bit.
- Okay.
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Habit can change the stamp of nature.
Habit can change the stamp of nature. Habit can change...
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How long does it usually take for the audition process?
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A few hours. In total.
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These people are a little disorganised.
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There’s no electricity at the moment.
We don’t know when it will be back.
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Have you performed in theatre?
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Or have you acted in a film?
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I’m not an actor.
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I dabbled in theatre in college,
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Small roles, but that’s all.
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Nice.
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Are you a first time actor as well?
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Sorry?
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Is this your first time?
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Yes.
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No I’m a professional actor.
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Oh wow!
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Since when?
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The past twelve years.
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Are you a famous OTT actor?
Sorry I’m asking because I’m unaware.
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No. Just an actor.
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Wow. Just an actor.
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- What do you do?
- Managing Director of ACBC bank for ten years.
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I joined them thirty years ago as an intern.
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Wow.
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[Birds chirping]
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You must be very proud.
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I miss the job.
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- But...
- Okay. The electricity is back.
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[Adnan gasping]
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- Ready to go? Both actors?
- Yes sir.
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- Roll sound.
- Rolling.
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- Roll camera.
- Rolling.
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[Crow cawing]
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Action.
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You’re an alcoholic.
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It is time that you accept this truth. That’s it.
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You’re right doctor.
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I just wanted somebody to...
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put it straight I guess.
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[Mouni gasping]
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Now?
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Now you must complete the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.
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I’m very scared, doctor.
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I live alone and...
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I don’t have...
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[Mouni gasping]
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I don't have any extended family or friends here.
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I know, your brother informed me that you live alone.
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Don’t worry.
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"Assume a virtue, if you have it not."
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"That monster, custom..."
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Okay. Cut.
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You will have to go a little easy on the drama.
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- Just speak with ease.
- Okay sir.
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- Sorry.
- Yeah okay. We’ll go for one more?
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- Crew you’re ready to go?
- Ready.
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- Roll sound.
- Rolling.
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- Roll camera.
- Rolling.
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Action.
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You’re an alcoholic.
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It is time that you accept this truth. That’s it.
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Cut cut.
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We’ll have to go easier. It’s still too much drama.
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Just say it easier.
As if you’re speaking in your real life.
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Okay. Okay.
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- Like in normal life?
- Yeah, better.
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Roll sound.
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This is the last time. We won’t go again.
Roll camera.
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Rolling.
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Action.
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You’re an alcoholic.
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It is time that you accept this truth. That’s it.
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[Birds chirping]
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Yes.
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You’re right doctor.
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I just wanted somebody to put it straight I guess.
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Now you must complete the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.
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I’m very scared.
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I live alone, doctor and...
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I really don't know how to do this.
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I don’t have any extended family or friends really, so.
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I know, your brother informed me that you live alone.
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Don’t worry.
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"Refrain tonight,"
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"and that shall lend a kind of easiness."
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[Mouni sobbing softly]
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[Mouni sobbing softly]
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[Mouni sobbing softly]
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Please don’t cry. I’m there for you.
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I’m sorry to cut you off, doctor. I...
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I can’t do this Alcoholics Anonymous doctor.
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[Mouni sobbing]
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Please...
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please help me, please save me from myself.
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Don’t cry. Don't cry.
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I’m there for you. Please don’t cry.
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Please have a glass of water.
There’s a bottle right next to you.
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Please have a glass of water.
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Have a glass of water. Please.
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[Background horn honking]
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[Clanking sound]
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[Mouni sniffing]
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Can I meet you again?
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Please?
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Yes, of course. Why not?
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Do let me know what time suits you.
You can text me.
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Yes. Sure.
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Thank you, doctor.
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Cut.
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That was really nice man. Both of you were very nice.
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We’ll get back to both of you for the shortlisted audition. You both are shortlisted.
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Okay. Thanks.
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What the fuck was that?
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[Clanking sound]
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[Footsteps approaching]
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[Phone ringing]
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Hi Mouni.
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How are you video calling me?
How did you get my number?
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I took your number from the assistant director.
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The audition was crazy, right?
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I haven't felt this kind of excitement in me for years.
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It is time to rethink your life then.
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You are a terrific actor.
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So real. So truthful, you know.
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I haven’t seen an artist like you.
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- Go home. I’m coming.
- Okay.
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Actually...
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The talent you have...
You know when you said I should look into your eyes?
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And when I did feel that connection,
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it was such a treat to watch you.
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Amazing. The art you possess is one in a million.
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What’s with the flattery?
What do you want? Come to the point.
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I’m not flattering you.
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I am speaking the truth.
I have never seen an actor like you.
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I just need five minutes of your time over a coffee, please.
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I don’t have time for this. I’m busy.
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I just want to talk to you.
Just five minutes, please.
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Okay.
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- Five minutes.
- Only five minutes, yes.
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I’ll find a coffee shop and call you back.
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Thank you so much Mouni.
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Oh, she hung up.
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[Horn honking]
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[Lightening]
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[Vehicle passing]
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Rain at this time of the year?
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How weird is that!
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Yes. In Frankfurt,
it can rain on any day of the year.
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Unlike Mumbai.
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- One filter coffee.
- Yes ma’am.
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Tell me.
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Your full name is...
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What’s on this rag?
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Phenyl.
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Take this rag away from here right now!
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[Horn honking]
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[Horn honking]
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Are you suffering from
some kind of breathing disability?
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Like you not being able to act in there
was a behavioural disability?
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No no, I didn’t mean it like that. I was just asking...
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What’s that device?
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Banker boy, you have five minutes.
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And if for this entire five minutes
you want to chat about my neck fan, please, be my guest.
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Ok, I’ll check it out on google later.
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How did you learn how to act?
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What are the tricks of the trade?
What is the formula?
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How do you transport yourself like that?
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You remember the scene that we did inside?
Right now, in the audition?
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Do the same scene once more with me.
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But without any dialogue.
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Without any dialogue? How?
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Without any dialogue.
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With just your emotions.
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No extra facial expressions,
no using hands much.
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Okay.
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Cool.
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Just look into my eyes.
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[Cycle bell ringing]
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[Clanking sound]
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[Vehicle passing]
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[Mouni sobs softly]
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[Mouni sobs softly]
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[Mouni sniffing]
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[Clanking sound]
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[Water pouring]
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[Clanking sound]
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[Horn honking]
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Fuck.
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This is unbelievable.
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I haven’t experienced anything
of the sort in my entire life before.
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You’re a magician.
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Trust me.
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You know...
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do you even realise how cool this is?
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Okay Banker boy, five minutes over.
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I gotta go.
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I have to make a ton of deliveries. So,
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take care if you want to, otherwise
I don’t know... what to do.
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[Phone ringing]
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[Vehicle passing]
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What are you up to Mr. MD?
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Isn’t this called stalking in Germany?
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I’m really very sorry Mouni.
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Please let me explain.
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I quit my job in banking after thirty years.
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And in the past six months,
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I have experienced high levels of anxiety,
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reaching to the point of depression.
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I have never depended on anything in life,
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but now I feel scared that I will have to depend
on medication to fight these.
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I am afraid of the never ending cycle that it can be.
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And Mouni,
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it is my request. Please help me to stay away from that,
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and allow me to learn from you.
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If we end up together in the audition again,
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You know I'm a bad actor,
a very bad actor.
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I’m scared that my inability to act
will tarnish your performance too.
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Why are all you bankers like cunning foxes?
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You will sit in a breezy room,
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in your German palace,
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and treat acting as some form of play.
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While I am toiling in the heat of Mumbai,
working my way through local trains.
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No.
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It won’t work like that.
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Please...
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You walk around too if I’m walking around.
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Will you?
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Of course I will.
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If I take a cab, you’ll take a cab?
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Yes.
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And if I take a local train?
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I'll get into one...
I'll enthusiastically jump into one.
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Cool.
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I will call you once I get onto the local train.
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If you pass the train test,
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then I will consider teaching you.
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But remember I’m saying 'consider'.
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[Train horn blaring]
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[Train passing by]
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[Muffled voices]
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[Phone ringing]
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So you are in a train I see.
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In a tram, yes.
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Okay Mr. MD.
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Do you remember Donald Duck?
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I remember, vaguely.
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Vaguely.
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So vaguely Donald Duck would talk like this.
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“Hello! How are you?
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How’s life?
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Is it boring?”
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Oh, I remember now.
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So now just...
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try and follow. Focus.
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Whatever I do, try and react to it.
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Remember the scene we performed at the audition?
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Do that, but like Donald Duck.
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Yes,
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you’re right, doctor.
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I just...
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I just wanted someone to put it straight.
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What do I do now?
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You should follow the Alcoholics Anonymous...
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Get up, get up.
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[Train announcement]
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Now you must complete the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.
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Donald Duck! Remember Donald Duck!
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From the top!
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Your brother mentioned that there’s no family around you.
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- But don’t worry.
- Adnan!
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I need to hear Donald Duck.
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Not a senior citizen suffering from a cold and flu.
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Come on, move around.
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Yes.
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"Refrain tonight and that shall lend a kind of easiness."
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Energy! Where’s the energy?
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Your brother told me that there’s no family around you.
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You can't take such long pauses.
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Okay. Okay.
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- Alcoholics... yes yes.
- Let’s go from the top again.
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Yes, you’re right doctor.
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I just wanted someone to put it straight.
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What do I do now?
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Your brother told me
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that there’s no family around you.
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I can't see Donald Duck there!
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Last time.
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Last chance.
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Let’s see if you can do it or not.
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Let’s see if you have it in you
to be an actor.
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Your brother told me that there’s no family around you.
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Please don’t worry.
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"Assume a virtue if you have it not. That monster, custom,"
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"who all sense doth eat."
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"Refrain tonight, and that shall lend a kind of easiness."
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Oh, your brother told me.
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He had informed me that there's no one around you.
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Don’t worry. "Assume a virtue, if you have it not."
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"That shall lend a kind of easiness."
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Was that okay?
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My station has arrived.
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I’ll get off too.
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But was that okay?
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[Train rumbling by]
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[Vehicle passing by]
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[Sombre music playing]
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[Sombre music playing]
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How much time do you spend making rounds
of the city on work, every month?
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One week in a month.
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The rest is left for the craft of acting.
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Is there a window behind you with grills?
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Yes.
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Can you show it to me?
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Yes, yes I’ll show you.
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[Adnan clears throat]
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Thanks.
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If and when you see windows with grills like this one, please show them to me.
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Just a second. See this one then.
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Why shouldn’t we come there?
Of course we will.
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Had to push the trip because of covid.
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- Hi aunty.
- Okay, bye now.
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- Hi.
- Hi uncle.
32:39.624 --> 32:40.703
Were you talking to Shikha?
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Yes I was talking to her.
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- She’s in Heidelberg right?
- Yes.
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- This is Adnan.
- Hi.
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- He also lives in Germany.
- Is that so?
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We’re both working on an audition
for an international project.
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Oh, nice.
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One moment...
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You live in Germany?
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Greetings!
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Our daughter also studies in Germany.
In Heidelberg to be precise.
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[Door opens]
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We’ve never been to Europe.
Not even to Germany.
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Is everything safe there?
For girls?
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Heidelberg is very safe for women.
It’s a student’s town.
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Like Manipal or Pune in India.
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[Rustling sounds]
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I have to go home now.
33:47.904 --> 33:50.105
I need to restock for the next round of deliveries.
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I’ll take a taxi,
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you take one too.
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Stay in your taxi till I’m in one.
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Okay? We continue like that.
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I got my taxi.
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Excuse me,
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you haven’t put any perfume or air freshener in the cab?
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I'm so glad. Please keep it this way. It's great.
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For an actor, it’s crucial to transport their mind as far away from reality as possible.
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Whenever the need arises.
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To be able to throw yourself away from reality,
needs to be an everyday skill.
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And just like a classical musician
must practice everyday,
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an actor also must practice everyday.
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So, I’m going to ask you some questions.
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And you’ll have to answer.
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But be mindful,
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to throw your answers as far away
from the questions, as possible.
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Home run on each ball!
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Yes, I'll try.
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In your home, what’s the colour of your towel?
35:17.744 --> 35:19.784
The color of the trees here is a deep green.
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Ok. Nope.
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You allowed yourself to associate
with colour in your answer.
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Throw your answers even further away.
Less association.
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Oh.
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Okay?
35:31.385 --> 35:34.024
Are you afraid of loosing your hair?
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Today, a lady checked me out.
It felt good.
35:37.465 --> 35:40.465
When was the last time you travelled by bus or in a train?
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When one takes off from Frankfurt,
the city below looks very pretty.
35:45.664 --> 35:46.704
Do you like sausages?
35:46.905 --> 35:48.865
Gateway of India, in Mumbai, is a beautiful landmark.
35:49.065 --> 35:50.945
Are you a good father?
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I’m getting better and better at putting in golf.
35:54.744 --> 35:56.425
Are you a good son?
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Google is a great invention.
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It has answers to everything.
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Do you love your father?
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The sound of a sewing machine is so soothing.
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Ok. Cool.
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Now we shall examine and analyse your associations.
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But you’ll have to be a 100% honest
for this exercise to work.
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When I spoke to you about your hair fall,
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you automatically spoke about,
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the attention you recently got from the opposite sex.
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- The association here was very obvious.
- Yes.
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When I spoke to you about travelling in a bus or a train,
you spoke about a plane instead,
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which I guess would’ve been the last mode
of public transportation you must’ve taken.
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Again, very obvious.
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When it came to the sausages question,
you finally ended up hitting a home run!
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But when I asked you about your dad,
you got uncomfortable.
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Because most men have complicated relationships
with their fathers.
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But,
37:06.385 --> 37:08.344
why the sewing machine?
37:15.664 --> 37:16.505
[Call disconnecting]
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[Facetime rings]
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[Call connected]
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Sorry I seem to have lost network completely.
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Till what point were you able to hear me?
What did you hear last?
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I missed most of it.
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Oh hello! Mr. Wolf of Wall Street.
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Do you want to do this class or not?
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I’m fine with terminating it right here and now!
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I don't care!
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[Phone ringing]
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Can we talk less about psychology
and more about acting?
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Oh I'm so sorry Mr. Baig,
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but acting is psychology.
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I'm sure you must've never spoken
about your childhood in a board meeting.
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Artists must wear their childhood on their sleeves.
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Nakedness.
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Vulnerability. Fragility.
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These are the bedrock
of what you’re seeking in life right now.
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Mr. Managing Director of ACBC Bank.
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Ok I’m done with this.
I can’t do this anymore.
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Ok hang on, hang on,
I’ll comply. I’ll do as you say.
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When you spoke about my hair,
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You were right.
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My relationship with my father
has always been complicated.
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The sewing machine is connected
with memories of my mom.
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My mother...
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can you see this scarf?
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She imbued most of the happiness,
sadness and anxieties of her life,
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into these scarves.
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Like an artist. She was a very capable artisan.
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Okay fine.
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Excuse me,
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There is an excitement in me,
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I want to question you
the way you have questioned me.
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- Are you ready to answer?
- What?
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What rubbish is this?
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I have reached home. I’m hanging up.
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Would you like to see Frankfurt?
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I’ll show you around.
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I will show you innumerable windows and grills.
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Will you roam around with me ?
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What is the busiest spot in Frankfurt?
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[Mouth organ playing]
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[Door opens]
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[Door closes]
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Mouni ma'am,
may I see your home?
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My home?
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[Rustling sound]
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Ok. Well, my home, my home, my home...
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This is my home.
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Oh wow!
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[Adnan clicking pictures]
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[Clanking sound]
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Let me show you Römerberg Square.
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Here you go.
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Look Mouni ma'am.
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This is the most crowded place in your city?!
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Even this is so beautiful.
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Here in Mumbai, we sit in a taxi and travel two hours
to see the beauty of the Gateway of India.
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Here, your whole city is The Gateway of India.
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Mouni ma'am,
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Thank you.
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I'm curious about one thing...
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for the past fifteen years,
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each month, each week and everyday,
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How do you deal with
this kind of professional insecurity?
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Knowing well that you are such a deserving artist,
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How do you live with this much insecurity of money and work?
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Anything for the craft.
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For that one thing that you love the most in the world,
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If you can’t sacrifice anything,
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what’s the point of living this life?
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What's your relationship with money?
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I mean...
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like common human beings,
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do you also feel the pinch of not having enough?
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Quite a while ago I’d understood this one truth,
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[Clanking sound]
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at some point, each person reaches
this milestone in their lives,
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when self-actualisation becomes the most important thing.
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Like in your life right now.
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It’s just that,
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I got there slightly sooner.
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Mouni ma'am,
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Have the sizes of Mumbai taxis
become larger of late?
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This car looks pretty big.
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No, I’m using some coupons I have earned
with points on the app. For XL cars.
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But what’s this got to do with acting?!
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Nothing, creatively. Just a technical question.
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Mouni ma’am, I saw some film posters in your home.
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Thelma and Louise for example.
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Which my daughter made me watch.
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What effect have all those varied characters
and performances had on your life and art?
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Why need I tell you that?
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Well, your inspiration and knowing about that,
might inspire me?
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Not necessary.
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I’d really like to know.
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Just like, whenever someone listens to a new song,
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It’s always that someone else has introduced them to it.
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I don’t perform these acts of service.
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I don’t recommend new films or songs. Not my thing.
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No, I don't mean like that...
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I just really want to know what those performances did to your psyche and how they inspire you as an artist...
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Okay.
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So what all did you notice?
Which films?
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‘Albert Pinto ko gussa kyoon aata hai?’,
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‘36 Chowringhee Lane’,
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and ‘Chandni Bar’...
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Chandni Bar.
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Tabu in Chandni Bar.
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Firstly, what a marvellous film.
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And now coming down to her performance in it,
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when she says absolutely nothing,
she says the most.
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When there are no dialogues,
just silence.
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Yes.
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Absolutely incredible!
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Those eyes....aaah!
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They’re like a receptacle of suppressed pain.
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And when even a drop
of that pain is let loose upon us...
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I don’t feel that words can even do justice to this...
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I’m a diehard fan of those eyes.
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Then Jennifer Kendal Kapoor
in 36 Chowringhee Lane.
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It’s not one of those films discussed
ad infinitum on Instagram nowadays,
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so people seem to have forgotten it.
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That actor has never gotten her due.
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It makes me angry.
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But to my mind,
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It's one of the most incredible
performances of Hindi Cinema.
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And of course, Jeanne Moreau in Jules et Jim.
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I just love her.
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I’d cross seven seas to steal her laugh.
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That was it. And then,
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And then of course the biggest inspiration
of my artistic life: Shakespeare;
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to play Lady Macbeth, Desdemona, Juliet,
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is one of my biggest dreams ever.
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But of course only with a good director,
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either on screen or on stage.
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Like how it’s done in London.
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Any human being talking with passion
exudes such pure beauty.
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I was completely lost in that description.
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For an artist, inspiration is so imperative.
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Unlike in banking.
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Oh absolutely.
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Without inspiration, not only does the art die,
but also the artist.
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Absolutely.
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Mouni ma'am,
could we do the disoriented exercise again?
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Disoriented?
Dissassociative.
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Yes.
Disassociation. Sorry.
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Should we do another round?
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You mean I’ll do it!
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What!?
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Why the hell should I?
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You see Mouni ma'am,
you’ve been inspired by so many performances,
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right?
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And you know that for me you’re
the only artist I know personally...
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I also want to be inspired.
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I’ll gladly do whatever exercises you make me do.
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But, to be inspired by my teacher
to perform better is so important.
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To see her in action.
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Nice try smart ass.
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Please Mouni ma'am, please.
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I’ll start.
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Due to lack of money, have you ever used
a pair of shoes that are completely worn out?
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Why is a damned banana always yellow?
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Your favourite author?
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I like honeybees more than flies.
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Due to lack of enough money,
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have you ever faced
a health emergency you couldn’t handle?
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A disease, any sudden health issue?
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When it rains each year in Mumbai,
the roads go completely to hell!
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Mouni ma'am,
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nowadays,
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even television actors alight
from fancy luxury cars when they go for auditions.
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You’re 35 years old,
48:04.865 --> 48:08.065
and you still alight from a rickshaw.
Does this ever bother you?
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The birdhouse in Dadar has a ton
of very beautiful pigeons. Isn’t it?
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Wow. Amazing.
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You were so much better than me.
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But those Mumbai roads going completely to hell
and you not having money,
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Seemed like there was some association there.
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The beautiful pigeons,
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being without a car...?
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Exercise done.
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- Exercise done.
- I felt some...
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It’s done. Over.
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Just one more round please.
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German Wolf of Wall Street!
We’re done.
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D-o-n-e.
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Mouni ma'am,
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Wall Street is for Stock Brokers,
I was a Banker.
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You see Mouni ma'am,
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if the both of us, don’t open up
about our lives equally,
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there is no point to this exercise. Right?
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In the upcoming audition,
the characters we are to play are equals.
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Who the fuck said anything about equality!
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I’m teaching, you’re learning. Period.
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Actually, you literally begged for me to teach you,
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and I had pity on you.
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That’s our true relationship.
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Why are you driving so slow?
Drive faster!
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[Mouni sighs]
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[Horn honking]
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[Adnan clicking picture]
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[Sombre music playing]
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In search of a verse
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So that I may make friends
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Will let go of myself
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So that I may make friends
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They and I, alike as waters
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But every chat...
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incendiary
50:44.264 --> 50:47.985
In search of an illusion
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So that I may make friends
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I'll give up all pretensions to reality
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So that I may make friends
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They and I, hand-in-hand
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But every word...
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incendiary
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[Sombre music playing]
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It’s time to change the gear.
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Why don’t you settle down somewhere?
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[Clanking sound]
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Okay.
Just give me a second to wear my cap.
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[Adnan gasps]
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Yes Mouni ma'am.
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Now, take off your shoes and socks.
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Mouni ma'am,
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please allow me to keep them on.
I’m fifty five.
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The cold is going into my bones!
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It's gotten very windy.
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I don’t do this with everyone by the way.
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Thank you very much.
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Try to feel happiness from your toes.
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Happiness from my toes?
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Try first. Just try.
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Mouni ma'am, you’ve had
some fantastic performers as your inspiration.
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I only have you.
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The teacher-student relationship,
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is a very important one.
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please just do it once so I can see
and then I’ll do exactly what you say.
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Don’t think I don’t see what you’re up to.
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Please Mouni ma'am, please.
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[Crow cawing]
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[Horn honking]
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[Mouni sobs softly]
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[Mouni sobs softly]
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[Crow cawing]
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[Mouni sniffs]
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[Crow cawing]
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[Mouni sobs softly]
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Okay,
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now you do it.
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Try to reach for the sky using your toes.
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Think of one such thing that makes you really happy.
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See if you feel any change in your body?
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You must be feeling some new sensations...
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[Adnan chuckles]
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Why am I unable to do this?
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Why am I not being able to do what you can?
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What made you cry?
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It’ll take time.
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Patience, practice.
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But a time will come,
55:34.505 --> 55:36.105
when you will
be able to do the same.
55:36.905 --> 55:38.824
And about the crying,
55:42.465 --> 55:44.385
after the happiest highs,
55:46.264 --> 55:47.865
often come the deepest sorrows.
55:48.744 --> 55:50.664
Hence the term, happy tears.
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And after the lowest low,
if you’re lucky,
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comes happiness.
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This process of using your body,
instead of your memories,
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is healthier for the mind.
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But if someone doesn’t have too much time,
what then?
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How would a person do this exercise?
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[Mouni gasps]
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If we don’t have time,
56:14.945 --> 56:16.984
then I’ll have to get into your past,
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into your memories,
56:20.344 --> 56:22.784
into your mind yet again.
56:24.784 --> 56:26.985
Mouni ma'am, as you said,
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the process of going inwards to outwards,
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must clearly take a lot of trust.
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So,
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did any filmmaker form
this bond of trust with your ever,
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or were you able to trust
a filmmaker to this extent ever?
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Which filmmaker was this, which film?
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In the year 2010, I met this director,
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spent a lot of time with her,
we spoke a lot.
56:53.784 --> 56:56.303
She was earnestly trying to get to know me,
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She introduced me to her boyfriend.
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I could sense that,
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they were both trying to
make me feel comfortable.
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Then,
57:11.264 --> 57:15.184
she wanted to meet my family,
which I found a bit odd.
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So I just,
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so I just invited them home
for a meal instead.
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That was nice.
57:25.824 --> 57:29.984
Did you see a certain blooming of your performance
thanks to the trust formed?
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Of course!
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That was the film that
took me to Venice, to Busan,
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and many other places.
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and that is the film that gets me
all the audition calls.
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Including this one.
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One second please.
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Mouni ma'am, I think you've muted the call.
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I’m tired of playing this competition
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where you dish out as much nastiness as you can,
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And I take as much shit as I possibly can.
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I don’t even know after one full year of
spending time together,
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and having sex every week,
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whether you feel anything for me
in that cold heart of yours.
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Not one instance of softness in a year?
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Who the fuck can live with that?
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Given a chance,
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You should run from yourself too!
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Goodbye!
58:37.144 --> 58:42.144
The number you're calling is either switched off,
or not reachable at the moment.
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[Birds cooing]
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[Rustling noises]
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I’ll call you back.
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Okay.
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[Clinking sound]
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[Horn honking]
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[Phone ringing]
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Oh you’re on a terrace!
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I come here for soap deliveries.
I like this place a lot.
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Oh okay.
59:40.784 --> 59:42.264
Did you receive the email for the audition?
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Yes, I was just reading that.
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Oh you got the scenes!
59:46.624 --> 59:48.504
Yes I received the scenes.
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The two of us are paired together in the scene.
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It’s an amazing scene.
59:52.865 --> 59:56.985
The counsellor becomes an alcoholic
while helping his patient.
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It's madness!
01:00:00.105 --> 01:00:00.984
Yeah...
01:00:00.985 --> 01:00:04.025
This is not an easy scene to do.
01:00:04.184 --> 01:00:06.385
Yeah, maybe it won’t be easy for you.
01:00:07.945 --> 01:00:09.584
For me? Meaning?
01:00:09.585 --> 01:00:15.144
The energy of the scene depends
on both the performers, right?
01:00:16.025 --> 01:00:19.104
Both have to be equally talented
to make the scene happen.
01:00:19.105 --> 01:00:21.945
It's about throwing energy back and forth, right?
01:00:22.985 --> 01:00:23.824
So,
01:00:24.624 --> 01:00:27.344
shall we work on characterisation?
01:00:30.905 --> 01:00:33.904
So cool Mr. Adnan-El-Pacino!
01:00:33.905 --> 01:00:36.824
Stop this presentation that’s running in your head.
01:00:37.385 --> 01:00:39.224
Do what I am saying.
01:00:39.945 --> 01:00:42.664
Just settle down somewhere.
Find a place to sit.
01:00:44.065 --> 01:00:45.184
One minute. Okay.
01:00:45.465 --> 01:00:45.865
[Adnan sniffs]
01:00:48.545 --> 01:00:49.385
Wait...
01:00:53.025 --> 01:00:53.865
Ready.
01:00:54.865 --> 01:00:57.184
Can you frown? Try.
01:00:58.744 --> 01:01:00.624
A very deep one.
01:01:02.624 --> 01:01:04.344
Push your chest inwards.
01:01:05.304 --> 01:01:06.744
Chest inwards.
01:01:07.264 --> 01:01:08.743
No no no.
01:01:08.744 --> 01:01:10.424
Keep looking ahead in front of you.
01:01:10.425 --> 01:01:13.823
Try to take this frown deeper into yourself.
01:01:13.824 --> 01:01:15.424
Keep that frown.
01:01:15.425 --> 01:01:19.544
Dive into whatever it is that you’re feeling,
01:01:19.545 --> 01:01:20.945
take that leap!
01:01:21.744 --> 01:01:26.025
Hold onto that feeling. Feel it deeply. Intensely.
01:01:26.784 --> 01:01:27.744
Yes.
01:01:29.865 --> 01:01:30.824
Okay.
01:01:31.505 --> 01:01:34.425
Get up. Let’s try something different.
01:01:37.025 --> 01:01:39.065
Fall flat on your face.
01:01:40.184 --> 01:01:41.343
What?
01:01:41.344 --> 01:01:43.663
Lean in like you’re going to
fall flat on your face,
01:01:43.664 --> 01:01:47.624
and at the last second
bring out your hands to stop your fall.
01:01:48.905 --> 01:01:50.264
Let’s go. Let’s go.
01:01:53.585 --> 01:01:54.223
No no no!
01:01:54.224 --> 01:01:58.385
I said allow your hands
to support you in the nick of time.
01:02:01.264 --> 01:02:01.664
[Adnan sniffs]
01:02:02.105 --> 01:02:03.704
Try to fall first.
01:02:07.865 --> 01:02:09.465
Try again. Do it again.
01:02:09.985 --> 01:02:11.545
In the nick of time.
01:02:13.945 --> 01:02:14.865
Okay.
01:02:16.224 --> 01:02:18.025
Trust your body. Fall.
01:02:18.905 --> 01:02:19.904
[Adnan falls with a thud]
01:02:19.905 --> 01:02:21.344
Better. This was better.
01:02:21.824 --> 01:02:23.905
One more. Let’s try one more.
01:02:24.585 --> 01:02:26.144
Come on, you can do this.
01:02:27.304 --> 01:02:28.304
[Adnan inhales]
01:02:30.744 --> 01:02:32.304
Okay. Stop.
01:02:33.905 --> 01:02:35.985
This feeling you experienced,
01:02:37.065 --> 01:02:38.505
the feeling of falling.
01:02:39.144 --> 01:02:41.865
Can you feel it within you
without actually falling physically?
01:02:42.385 --> 01:02:43.865
Without falling?
01:02:44.025 --> 01:02:47.105
You just felt it. Think.
01:02:47.985 --> 01:02:51.544
That feeling where you were falling. Hold onto that.
01:02:51.545 --> 01:02:53.585
[Adnan gasps]
01:02:53.704 --> 01:02:55.865
Fall again and again,
01:02:56.344 --> 01:02:58.945
and again. Keep falling.
01:02:59.585 --> 01:03:01.224
Keep going there.
01:03:06.385 --> 01:03:08.344
Why am I not able to go back to it?
01:03:08.744 --> 01:03:10.704
I’m sorry.
I’m unable to find my way back to it.
01:03:11.344 --> 01:03:14.184
Okay let’s approach it differently.
01:03:17.465 --> 01:03:20.944
We were trying an outside-in approach,
and it's not working.
01:03:20.945 --> 01:03:22.864
There’s not enough time.
01:03:22.865 --> 01:03:25.384
Let’s work from the inside out.
01:03:25.385 --> 01:03:26.744
Tell me Adnan,
01:03:29.425 --> 01:03:31.704
did you ever want another child?
01:03:33.505 --> 01:03:35.465
I wanted two daughters,
01:03:36.144 --> 01:03:39.344
but Muskan didn’t.
01:03:41.304 --> 01:03:44.505
If you had a younger daughter
what would you have named her?
01:03:46.945 --> 01:03:48.343
Gayatri.
01:03:48.344 --> 01:03:50.224
Okay. Imagine,
01:03:51.264 --> 01:03:54.624
Gayatri exists. She is here.
01:03:55.545 --> 01:03:56.905
How is she?
01:03:57.865 --> 01:03:59.824
What kind of a person is she?
01:04:01.264 --> 01:04:03.464
And most importantly,
01:04:03.465 --> 01:04:08.504
what would you like to share with Gayatri,
01:04:08.505 --> 01:04:11.264
that you’re unable to share with your elder daughter?
01:04:14.985 --> 01:04:16.624
Nazia,
01:04:17.945 --> 01:04:20.264
Nazia is very different.
01:04:21.344 --> 01:04:23.783
She is studying to be an architect.
01:04:23.784 --> 01:04:25.303
She likes the arts,
01:04:25.304 --> 01:04:27.783
but she doesn’t have an interest in the movies.
01:04:27.784 --> 01:04:32.944
But if Gayatri was here, she would like to watch movies.
01:04:32.945 --> 01:04:37.105
We would watch my childhood favourites together.
01:04:37.425 --> 01:04:42.784
Like Star Wars, Mother India, Sholay, Deewaar.
01:04:43.184 --> 01:04:49.704
We’d sit and listen to old Hindi songs together.
01:04:50.065 --> 01:04:53.425
Introduced by the
then god like RJ of Hindi radio.
01:04:54.385 --> 01:04:58.545
I would go to watch theatre with her every Sunday.
01:05:00.865 --> 01:05:02.143
[Horn honking]
01:05:02.144 --> 01:05:04.025
How does Gayatri look?
01:05:06.105 --> 01:05:06.824
[Adnan gasps]
01:05:08.465 --> 01:05:11.905
She would be tall, with curly hair.
01:05:12.505 --> 01:05:13.864
And,
01:05:13.865 --> 01:05:16.783
She’d be someone who’d laugh easy
and laugh out loud.
01:05:16.784 --> 01:05:20.744
Not like me, I’m a miser when it comes to that.
01:05:21.184 --> 01:05:24.263
And she’d be a dancer. A fabulous dancer.
01:05:24.264 --> 01:05:27.064
What a thing of beauty
it would be to see her dance!
01:05:27.065 --> 01:05:28.425
Adnan...
01:05:29.545 --> 01:05:31.264
Can you see her dancing?
01:05:36.744 --> 01:05:39.585
Yes I can. I can see her.
01:05:40.144 --> 01:05:42.505
Keep seeing her.
01:05:47.585 --> 01:05:48.945
You’ve just got a call.
01:05:49.945 --> 01:05:51.864
It's from the hospital.
01:05:51.865 --> 01:05:52.264
[Adnan sniffs]
01:05:53.704 --> 01:05:56.104
There’s been an accident and...
01:05:56.105 --> 01:05:58.304
Gayatri is no more.
01:06:04.465 --> 01:06:05.985
[Adnan struggling]
01:06:10.264 --> 01:06:12.065
Adnan!
01:06:13.184 --> 01:06:15.343
No, I...
01:06:15.344 --> 01:06:18.104
- No I don’t think I can do this.
- What are you doing?
01:06:18.105 --> 01:06:20.303
We got here with such difficulty.
01:06:20.304 --> 01:06:23.865
I don’t want to do this. I can't.
01:06:26.065 --> 01:06:28.425
You know Mouni ma'am,
01:06:29.585 --> 01:06:34.585
I've let you into my life.
I've opened up to you about everything.
01:06:35.025 --> 01:06:37.504
I've shared with you my insecurities,
my fears, everything.
01:06:37.505 --> 01:06:39.064
But you’re not willing to share anything.
01:06:39.065 --> 01:06:40.263
Come on!
01:06:40.264 --> 01:06:44.143
I’ve allowed you to enter into my fear,
my insecurities, all of it,
01:06:44.144 --> 01:06:46.904
but it seems like you’ve shut a door.
01:06:46.905 --> 01:06:49.584
I’m standing outside knocking at that door.
01:06:49.585 --> 01:06:51.663
Banker boy, it is you who needs me right now.
01:06:51.664 --> 01:06:54.024
And not the other way around.
01:06:54.025 --> 01:06:58.425
This is a false statement, absolutely wrong.
01:06:59.224 --> 01:06:59.865
[Adnan sniffs]
01:07:01.824 --> 01:07:06.505
I was only running
from my depression and anxiety.
01:07:07.505 --> 01:07:09.304
but you had a second chance.
01:07:10.905 --> 01:07:12.143
You understand?
01:07:12.144 --> 01:07:14.663
You had a chance to scale the same heights,
01:07:14.664 --> 01:07:17.465
that you did with your short film.
01:07:18.065 --> 01:07:19.183
Okay...
01:07:19.184 --> 01:07:20.545
so you mean to say,
01:07:20.945 --> 01:07:23.744
that I need this for my career?
01:07:24.344 --> 01:07:25.504
Hmm?
01:07:25.505 --> 01:07:27.865
And you need this just for your anxiety?
01:07:28.184 --> 01:07:29.944
So that you don’t end up killing yourself?
01:07:29.945 --> 01:07:31.344
Oh no!
01:07:32.144 --> 01:07:34.504
I have no intentions of killing myself.
01:07:34.505 --> 01:07:35.784
I was just running from myself.
01:07:36.585 --> 01:07:37.425
Do you understand?
01:07:38.585 --> 01:07:40.505
Why would I want to kill myself?
01:07:41.704 --> 01:07:43.944
You need this as much as I do.
01:07:43.945 --> 01:07:46.065
We both need each other.
01:07:48.025 --> 01:07:51.464
We can go ahead from here
only if you agree to talk about yourself.
01:07:51.465 --> 01:07:53.864
You'll have to tell me
what was it about that message
01:07:53.865 --> 01:07:56.183
that made you feel so angry and imbalanced?
01:07:56.184 --> 01:07:57.945
Tell me that!
01:08:00.264 --> 01:08:00.744
[Horn honking]
01:08:10.744 --> 01:08:17.625
[Sombre music playing]
01:08:35.584 --> 01:08:41.304
[Sombre music playing]
01:09:07.224 --> 01:09:07.945
[Message tone]
01:09:10.184 --> 01:09:16.104
I’m tired of playing this competition
where you dish out as much nastiness as you can,
01:09:16.105 --> 01:09:18.423
And I take as much shit as I possibly can.
01:09:18.424 --> 01:09:21.463
I don’t even know after one full year
of spending time together
01:09:21.464 --> 01:09:23.543
and having sex every week,
01:09:23.544 --> 01:09:26.184
whether you feel anything for me at all
in that cold heart of yours.
01:09:29.785 --> 01:09:35.424
[Phone ringing]
01:09:36.745 --> 01:09:38.584
Mouni ma'am tell me one thing.
01:09:38.905 --> 01:09:41.224
Did you work with that director again?
01:09:43.344 --> 01:09:46.384
The one who made the award winning
short film you in it?
01:09:48.144 --> 01:09:48.625
No.
01:09:49.105 --> 01:09:49.865
Why?
01:09:51.184 --> 01:09:51.665
[Mouni gasps]
01:09:52.865 --> 01:09:55.785
Because after winning the award in Venice,
01:09:56.344 --> 01:09:58.543
the director sold the film to a Chinese channel.
01:09:58.544 --> 01:10:00.625
She sold all the rights, everything,
01:10:02.065 --> 01:10:04.065
because she could name her price for it.
01:10:05.745 --> 01:10:08.543
But the people on whose lives,
the film was based,
01:10:08.544 --> 01:10:11.025
the people of this country,
they never got to see it.
01:10:12.424 --> 01:10:13.785
She got a lot of money for it.
01:10:14.985 --> 01:10:16.303
She didn’t share any of that either.
01:10:16.304 --> 01:10:18.785
And the film remained unseen in India.
01:10:20.865 --> 01:10:21.985
Damned sell-out!
01:10:25.065 --> 01:10:26.665
Art is for the people.
01:10:28.424 --> 01:10:30.064
To awaken those that are asleep,
01:10:30.065 --> 01:10:31.864
and to give comfort to the restless.
01:10:31.865 --> 01:10:35.104
So you had a problem with the fact,
that the film got sold to China?
01:10:35.105 --> 01:10:36.985
Or that you didn’t get
your share of the money?
01:10:38.384 --> 01:10:39.624
What’s your problem?
01:10:39.625 --> 01:10:40.624
No, no, I’m just asking.
01:10:40.625 --> 01:10:43.503
The people on whom the film
was based, didn’t get to see it.
01:10:43.504 --> 01:10:44.424
I just said that.
01:10:47.025 --> 01:10:47.985
So,
01:10:48.544 --> 01:10:50.144
have you acted in any ad film?
01:10:51.665 --> 01:10:53.384
Yes I have done two ad films.
01:10:54.424 --> 01:10:56.464
And both the directors were idiots.
01:10:57.665 --> 01:11:00.984
They’d discuss at length before the shot,
01:11:00.985 --> 01:11:04.584
what the texture of the foam
on the soap should look like.
01:11:05.304 --> 01:11:06.824
What is so funny?
Why are you laughing?
01:11:06.825 --> 01:11:08.344
I was laughing at the "texture of the foam..."
01:11:09.785 --> 01:11:13.105
Mouni ma'am don’t you think,
01:11:15.745 --> 01:11:17.304
that in any line of work,
01:11:17.865 --> 01:11:20.423
be it an art or a business,
01:11:20.424 --> 01:11:23.025
one should try to maintain
a long term relationship.
01:11:23.584 --> 01:11:26.423
It shouldn’t be like
you take on a project,
01:11:26.424 --> 01:11:28.905
and then leave because something triggered you.
01:11:29.304 --> 01:11:32.824
The “Only I’m right and everyone else
is a fool” attitude isn’t right.
01:11:32.825 --> 01:11:34.985
You don't subscribe to this feeling, do you?
01:11:36.825 --> 01:11:37.865
What sort of a question is this?
01:11:38.424 --> 01:11:39.704
What are you trying to say?
01:11:39.705 --> 01:11:42.424
I mean, I've read on Google
that in psychology,
01:11:43.665 --> 01:11:47.344
there’s nothing called a superiority complex.
There’s only inferiority complex.
01:11:49.065 --> 01:11:49.625
[Mouni gasps]
01:11:51.584 --> 01:11:52.224
You know what?
01:11:53.584 --> 01:11:54.065
Fuck you!
01:11:56.384 --> 01:11:56.985
What?
01:11:57.184 --> 01:11:59.584
Fuck you. ACBC bank’s managing director.
01:12:01.144 --> 01:12:04.705
What the fuck do you know
about the pain of an artist’s life?
01:12:05.825 --> 01:12:08.584
Do you even know what it is to be an artist?
01:12:08.745 --> 01:12:10.184
You know how difficult it is?
01:12:10.584 --> 01:12:12.704
Can you even begin to imagine
the struggle for financial security?
01:12:12.705 --> 01:12:14.824
To suppress all your desires?
01:12:14.825 --> 01:12:17.503
You indulge in the smallest of desires
at your whim and fancy.
01:12:17.504 --> 01:12:20.584
Whenever you feel like.
Let’s do this. Let’s buy that.
01:12:20.985 --> 01:12:22.384
We can't even think of it.
01:12:23.224 --> 01:12:26.784
No vacations abroad.
No car. No jewellery.
01:12:26.785 --> 01:12:28.864
We don’t even splurge often on food outside.
01:12:28.865 --> 01:12:30.865
We have very calculated lives.
01:12:31.144 --> 01:12:32.905
Every day and every minute.
01:12:33.625 --> 01:12:37.065
You don’t have an iota
of an understanding of an artist’s life.
01:12:37.584 --> 01:12:38.065
Fuck.
01:12:40.304 --> 01:12:43.423
It is very easy for you to say these things,
01:12:43.424 --> 01:12:44.624
with your Gucci shoes,
01:12:44.625 --> 01:12:47.583
Mont Blanc in your pocket, your Rolex watch.
01:12:47.584 --> 01:12:50.384
And every single thing you have on you.
01:12:53.424 --> 01:12:53.825
[Adnan chuckles]
01:12:54.504 --> 01:12:56.384
Wonderful Mouni ma'am!
01:12:57.105 --> 01:13:00.344
You got all my brands right.
Wow.
01:13:01.985 --> 01:13:05.705
I wonder, why do you think
so much about these brands?
01:13:06.745 --> 01:13:09.303
A while ago you said that,
01:13:09.304 --> 01:13:11.744
"self-actualisation" is very important.
01:13:11.745 --> 01:13:13.424
So what good is that realisation then?
01:13:18.705 --> 01:13:19.745
What is this Mouni ma'am?
01:13:24.785 --> 01:13:27.625
[Sombre music playing]
01:13:49.344 --> 01:13:56.184
[Phone ringing]
01:13:59.384 --> 01:14:00.584
[Phone ringing]
01:14:05.785 --> 01:14:06.544
[Facetime rings]
01:14:08.705 --> 01:14:09.625
[Facetime rings]
01:14:13.344 --> 01:14:16.865
[Phone ringing]
01:14:19.105 --> 01:14:22.625
[Phone ringing]
01:14:34.424 --> 01:14:39.504
[Phone ringing]
01:14:40.745 --> 01:14:42.704
Mouni ma'am, I sincerely apologise.
01:14:42.705 --> 01:14:45.344
Forgive me please.
I’m extremely sorry for what I said.
01:14:51.584 --> 01:14:55.705
I just want to say one thing Mouni ma'am,
01:14:58.144 --> 01:15:02.263
the passion with which you spoke about the films,
and the performances of the artists,
01:15:02.264 --> 01:15:05.665
I felt a bit jealous that I've never
been able to feel that passion in me.
01:15:06.705 --> 01:15:09.344
I felt like I’m rushing to reach a train station,
01:15:09.785 --> 01:15:12.144
but just as I reach, the train has left.
01:15:21.985 --> 01:15:23.544
I have a request to make of you,
01:15:25.464 --> 01:15:30.144
After which I will do
everything that you say, as you say.
01:15:30.504 --> 01:15:32.144
Can you perform for me,
01:15:32.785 --> 01:15:35.945
the saddest moment of your life, just once?
01:15:37.344 --> 01:15:39.784
After that even if you choose
to rattle me inside out,
01:15:39.785 --> 01:15:41.625
I won’t complain at all.
01:15:44.745 --> 01:15:45.344
Please.
01:15:46.224 --> 01:15:47.584
It is a request,
01:15:48.144 --> 01:15:50.424
as a student and as a co-actor.
01:16:04.424 --> 01:16:04.905
[Clanking sound]
01:16:11.905 --> 01:16:12.584
[Mouni clears throat]
01:16:26.464 --> 01:16:27.464
Mom,
01:16:27.985 --> 01:16:32.224
I need to return the report card tomorrow,
can you please sign it?
01:16:36.745 --> 01:16:38.904
No mom, that’s not a ten,
that’s a forty.
01:16:38.905 --> 01:16:43.224
The teacher mindlessly used a red pen
but then changed it with black ink.
01:16:45.464 --> 01:16:50.504
Mom I didn’t fail,
I promise.
01:16:52.424 --> 01:16:54.905
No mom, I’m not lying.
01:16:55.464 --> 01:16:58.263
Mom please don’t tell dad. Please.
01:16:58.264 --> 01:17:01.665
No mom, no.
Please.
01:17:02.304 --> 01:17:05.304
Please don’t lock me in here.
01:17:05.985 --> 01:17:07.985
I can't breathe here.
01:17:08.344 --> 01:17:09.264
[Mouni struggling to breathe]
01:17:09.544 --> 01:17:11.584
Mom! Mom!
01:17:11.905 --> 01:17:14.344
I don’t have my inhaler.
01:17:15.065 --> 01:17:19.463
Mom, I'm really sorry mom.
Please don't tell dad.
01:17:19.464 --> 01:17:21.304
Mom please.
01:17:21.584 --> 01:17:26.304
I can't breathe in here. I can’t breathe.
01:17:26.544 --> 01:17:28.785
I can’t breathe.
01:17:30.504 --> 01:17:32.945
[Mouni struggling to breathe]
01:17:43.184 --> 01:17:46.025
Oh my god!
What a performance, Mouni ma'am.
01:17:46.945 --> 01:17:50.985
It was spectacular!
I’m blown away.
01:17:52.464 --> 01:17:56.144
I got goosebumps. See!
01:17:59.105 --> 01:18:00.184
Mouni ma'am,
01:18:00.584 --> 01:18:05.944
I’m so blessed to have a teacher like you,
01:18:05.945 --> 01:18:07.144
but there’s a catch.
01:18:08.304 --> 01:18:11.144
This aunt of yours whose daughter
studies in Heidelberg,
01:18:11.825 --> 01:18:13.825
She said that you’re an orphan.
01:18:27.544 --> 01:18:29.065
Fucking bitch!
01:18:56.224 --> 01:18:59.544
Ten, twenty, thirty, forty, fifty,
sixty, seventy, eighty, ninety, hundred.
01:19:00.304 --> 01:19:01.224
I’m the denner!
01:19:01.504 --> 01:19:06.224
[Mouni runs]
01:19:08.184 --> 01:19:09.464
Uncle and aunty have come!
01:19:10.945 --> 01:19:13.264
Hello uncle. Hello aunty.
01:19:13.945 --> 01:19:17.504
I’m Mouni, this is Mimi
and this is Rohan.
01:19:19.825 --> 01:19:20.825
You want Rohan?
01:19:23.264 --> 01:19:24.264
Bye Rohan!
01:19:24.705 --> 01:19:25.705
Bye.
01:19:27.424 --> 01:19:28.344
Bye.
01:19:36.025 --> 01:19:37.945
Now it's just the two of us here.
01:19:39.105 --> 01:19:42.104
Ten, twenty, thirty, forty, fifty,
sixty, seventy, eighty, ninety, hundred.
01:19:42.105 --> 01:19:43.064
It’s on you!
01:19:43.065 --> 01:19:47.665
[Mouni runs]
01:19:49.705 --> 01:19:50.825
Uncle and aunty?
01:19:52.264 --> 01:19:53.825
Hello uncle. Hello aunty.
01:19:55.785 --> 01:19:58.264
This is Mimi. My name is Mouni.
01:20:02.224 --> 01:20:02.905
Mimi?
01:20:05.264 --> 01:20:09.785
But we’re best friends and
we do everything together.
01:20:10.025 --> 01:20:12.344
We go everywhere together.
01:20:16.665 --> 01:20:19.264
Why would she want to leave alone?
01:20:20.865 --> 01:20:22.543
Mimi why don’t you say something?
01:20:22.544 --> 01:20:26.183
Say you won’t go alone!
Say we’ll go together!
01:20:26.184 --> 01:20:28.905
We do everything together.
Say something Mimi!
01:20:32.665 --> 01:20:34.025
Mimi?
01:20:34.304 --> 01:20:35.105
[Mouni sobbing softly]
01:20:35.264 --> 01:20:40.785
Please Mimi! Say something!
Please stay? Mimi!
01:20:49.705 --> 01:20:53.144
[Mouni sobbing softly]
01:21:05.304 --> 01:21:07.424
[Mouni sobbing softly]
01:21:13.065 --> 01:21:14.464
[Mouni sobbing]
01:21:17.705 --> 01:21:22.224
[Mouni continues sobbing]
01:21:29.264 --> 01:21:31.665
[Mouni trying to catch her breath]
01:21:33.144 --> 01:21:35.025
[Mouni sniffs inhaler]
01:21:36.304 --> 01:21:37.303
[Mouni sniffs inhaler]
01:21:37.304 --> 01:21:38.865
Mouni ma'am, are you okay?
01:21:43.025 --> 01:21:46.025
[Mouni catches breath and exhales]
01:21:56.544 --> 01:21:58.065
[Mouni sobbing softly]
01:22:19.184 --> 01:22:20.705
[Adnan exhales]
01:22:26.224 --> 01:22:31.105
Windows, grills.
01:22:34.905 --> 01:22:40.945
No one new came into a little girl’s life,
01:22:42.665 --> 01:22:45.825
and no one from the past ever came back.
01:22:55.584 --> 01:22:56.584
Mouni ma'am,
01:22:58.065 --> 01:23:02.143
have you used this pain for a performance?
01:23:02.144 --> 01:23:03.264
Never.
01:23:05.184 --> 01:23:08.624
There are better and healthier ways to...
01:23:08.625 --> 01:23:12.144
use your body instead of your memories.
01:23:19.905 --> 01:23:20.705
Just a second,
01:23:21.344 --> 01:23:23.105
Nazia is calling.
01:23:24.504 --> 01:23:26.144
Yes kiddo,
I’m walking homewards.
01:23:27.625 --> 01:23:32.825
And I’m bringing a lady along
I’m prepping for an audition with.
01:23:55.905 --> 01:24:01.105
[Phone ringing]
01:24:05.025 --> 01:24:07.264
[Phone continues to ring]
01:24:07.584 --> 01:24:08.184
[Call connects]
01:24:10.224 --> 01:24:11.344
Hi Mouni ma'am.
01:24:11.625 --> 01:24:12.944
This is my house.
01:24:12.945 --> 01:24:16.584
Twenty-five years ago Muskan and
I lived here together.
01:24:16.825 --> 01:24:18.143
We made this house by ourselves,
01:24:18.144 --> 01:24:20.303
Every brick, every design,
01:24:20.304 --> 01:24:22.544
we conceptualised it together.
01:24:22.985 --> 01:24:24.105
She left after that.
01:24:24.344 --> 01:24:27.144
Let me take you inside the house.
01:24:27.785 --> 01:24:28.384
Okay?
01:24:31.264 --> 01:24:34.344
This is my daughter Nazia’s room upstairs.
01:24:35.105 --> 01:24:36.224
And...
01:24:37.945 --> 01:24:39.025
This is the kitchen.
01:24:39.865 --> 01:24:43.024
I would never enter here before
and now I don't leave this place,
01:24:43.025 --> 01:24:45.223
because most of my time gets spent here,
01:24:45.224 --> 01:24:48.504
from breakfast to dinner,
reading the paper, everything.
01:24:49.785 --> 01:24:51.343
This is my daughter Nazia.
01:24:51.344 --> 01:24:52.383
- Hi dad.
- Nazia,
01:24:52.384 --> 01:24:53.945
this is my acting teacher Mouni ma'am.
01:24:54.705 --> 01:24:56.224
The great teacher in the world.
01:24:58.905 --> 01:25:00.264
You want to say something to her?
01:25:00.625 --> 01:25:03.263
Not much, but he’s been
sending me messages all day,
01:25:03.264 --> 01:25:05.504
and he looks really happy. Thank you.
01:25:07.945 --> 01:25:09.745
Mouni ma'am,
01:25:11.065 --> 01:25:12.384
This is a double bass.
01:25:14.584 --> 01:25:16.344
My daughter had made the demand,
01:25:17.504 --> 01:25:18.905
so I ordered it from Spain.
01:25:20.745 --> 01:25:22.905
It's a showpiece in your house.
01:25:23.184 --> 01:25:26.705
Yes, now it has become so.
She doesn’t play anymore.
01:25:26.985 --> 01:25:29.464
It's a custom made instrument.
01:25:30.105 --> 01:25:30.785
Yes.
01:25:31.224 --> 01:25:33.544
And is lying as a showpiece in your house!
01:25:38.264 --> 01:25:41.584
Let me show you the most extravagant thing.
01:25:42.985 --> 01:25:44.264
This flute.
01:25:46.224 --> 01:25:49.704
It was presented to me by a great man.
01:25:49.705 --> 01:25:51.024
He was called...
01:25:51.025 --> 01:25:54.624
Sorry he 'is' called...
01:25:54.625 --> 01:25:56.304
Mr. Hariprasad Chaurasia.
01:25:57.144 --> 01:25:59.984
You mean Maestro Pandit Hariprasad Chaurasia?
01:25:59.985 --> 01:26:02.424
Yes. Maestro Pandit Hariprasad Chaurasia?
01:26:03.224 --> 01:26:07.424
He was here for a show
that our bank had sponsored.
01:26:08.504 --> 01:26:10.583
I don’t know what made him feel
affectionate towards me,
01:26:10.584 --> 01:26:12.904
but he presented this to me while leaving.
01:26:12.905 --> 01:26:15.584
This too, is a showpiece at your home then?
01:26:16.745 --> 01:26:19.624
Showpiece? Maybe not.
I tried to learn but...
01:26:19.625 --> 01:26:22.504
But I guess you’re right.
Now it is so much of a showpiece.
01:26:23.785 --> 01:26:27.025
These are some photographs of my daughter.
01:26:27.584 --> 01:26:30.583
Some laughing, some crying, some being stubborn.
All her moods.
01:26:30.584 --> 01:26:34.504
All her moods.
All nine basic human emotions.
01:26:39.625 --> 01:26:42.625
These are photos of some awards I received.
01:26:43.105 --> 01:26:44.025
Show that photo!
01:26:45.584 --> 01:26:46.344
Sorry?
01:26:46.945 --> 01:26:48.504
That photo in the corner on the left.
01:26:50.144 --> 01:26:50.945
This one here? Look.
01:26:53.745 --> 01:26:54.985
That’s Globe Theatre!
01:26:55.785 --> 01:26:56.985
Yes, Globe Theatre.
01:26:57.625 --> 01:26:59.344
You have been to Globe Theatre?
01:27:00.785 --> 01:27:02.065
Yes, we had been there.
01:27:03.424 --> 01:27:05.065
We were on a ferry.
01:27:05.625 --> 01:27:07.263
Nazia wanted ice cream.
01:27:07.264 --> 01:27:10.664
So we went there, we got her the ice cream.
01:27:10.665 --> 01:27:13.665
Hopped back onto the ferry and returned.
01:27:14.304 --> 01:27:16.464
You know what Globe Theatre is?
01:27:18.025 --> 01:27:19.665
Yes, I know plays happen there.
01:27:21.264 --> 01:27:22.544
And you didn’t go in?
01:27:23.025 --> 01:27:24.745
No we didn’t because we were short on time.
01:27:25.985 --> 01:27:29.544
You didn’t watch a play in Globe Theatre?
01:27:29.905 --> 01:27:32.343
No we had to go someplace. I had a meeting.
01:27:32.344 --> 01:27:34.704
And I think Nazia also had to be somewhere.
01:27:34.705 --> 01:27:36.503
We also had a restaurant reservation.
01:27:36.504 --> 01:27:39.705
Yes, we also had a restaurant reservation,
we planned to eat there.
01:27:45.344 --> 01:27:46.544
What happened Mouni ma'am?
01:28:00.304 --> 01:28:05.384
[Phone ringing]
01:28:26.785 --> 01:28:29.304
[Phone continues to ring]
01:28:40.344 --> 01:28:42.745
[Phone continues to ring]
01:28:47.384 --> 01:28:47.785
[Mouni angrily spitting]
01:28:51.105 --> 01:28:53.025
[Paper rustling]
01:28:54.945 --> 01:28:55.944
Hi.
01:28:55.945 --> 01:28:58.825
Sorry Wi-Fi problems.
01:29:00.224 --> 01:29:02.343
I had to restart the router.
01:29:02.344 --> 01:29:04.183
Oh, I was wondering what happened.
01:29:04.184 --> 01:29:05.423
Sorry about that.
01:29:05.424 --> 01:29:07.985
Adnan we have to do one last exercise.
01:29:08.665 --> 01:29:09.625
At this hour?
01:29:09.865 --> 01:29:11.944
Yes, one exercise is pending.
01:29:11.945 --> 01:29:14.945
And you’re not yet ready for tomorrow’s audition,
01:29:15.985 --> 01:29:17.184
So we must do it.
01:29:22.105 --> 01:29:24.544
Why don’t you take me to that place in Frankfurt,
01:29:25.905 --> 01:29:28.785
where your most painful memories reside.
01:29:35.544 --> 01:29:37.905
[Crickets chirping]
01:29:46.304 --> 01:29:46.584
[Car door closes]
01:29:47.544 --> 01:29:52.584
[Crickets chirping]
01:30:06.105 --> 01:30:06.985
[Door opens]
01:30:19.785 --> 01:30:22.745
This was my mother,
Saeeda Baig’s, favourite place.
01:30:32.344 --> 01:30:37.144
She would weave shawls
with her choice of colours.
01:30:38.665 --> 01:30:40.344
Maybe because,
01:30:41.384 --> 01:30:44.223
her life was devoid of colour,
01:30:44.224 --> 01:30:48.105
or because the importance of her will
was never taken care of.
01:30:50.184 --> 01:30:54.825
Against her wishes, she was married off
to a man whom she didn’t even know.
01:30:56.184 --> 01:30:58.825
The violence in Kashmir was at its peak.
01:31:00.224 --> 01:31:05.705
And she was suddenly and mindlessly
married off to that man.
01:31:10.625 --> 01:31:12.065
The violence outside,
01:31:14.105 --> 01:31:19.384
soon also seeped into her house
and became a part of her life.
01:31:24.384 --> 01:31:27.825
My father had the final say in everything.
I too was tired of that.
01:31:29.504 --> 01:31:32.463
One day I sat with my mother
and we decided that,
01:31:32.464 --> 01:31:33.905
I will escape that place.
01:31:36.625 --> 01:31:41.544
Took a student loan, got a scholarship
and came here to study.
01:31:44.865 --> 01:31:46.985
And I started my new life.
01:31:50.544 --> 01:31:54.784
After completing my studies, I was looking for a home
and I found a home in Muskan.
01:31:54.785 --> 01:31:56.384
And we got married.
01:32:00.905 --> 01:32:02.985
I was free.
01:32:06.625 --> 01:32:09.304
But not my mother.
01:32:12.144 --> 01:32:13.025
Anyway...
01:32:14.025 --> 01:32:16.303
My mother had started coughing long time ago,
01:32:16.304 --> 01:32:18.184
when I’d initially come to Germany.
01:32:19.745 --> 01:32:22.625
The doctors suggested that she undergo a biopsy.
01:32:24.665 --> 01:32:27.384
It was done but,
01:32:29.584 --> 01:32:32.424
my father forgot to get
the biopsy reports from the hospital.
01:32:32.865 --> 01:32:33.065
[Adnan chuckles]
01:32:38.065 --> 01:32:41.504
Stage three cancer had come knocking
at my mother’s door.
01:32:44.665 --> 01:32:49.144
I requested her to come here but she refused.
01:32:51.384 --> 01:32:56.905
Right then, I heard that, fortunately,
01:32:58.785 --> 01:33:02.745
a heart attack
had silenced my father forever.
01:33:03.464 --> 01:33:04.865
My mother was alone.
01:33:05.105 --> 01:33:06.664
I couldn’t wait any longer.
01:33:06.665 --> 01:33:09.463
I painstakingly convinced her to come here,
01:33:09.464 --> 01:33:11.304
and her treatment began.
01:33:13.625 --> 01:33:14.464
I think...
01:33:15.705 --> 01:33:17.625
she recovered within six months.
01:33:18.705 --> 01:33:25.304
She returned to her craft of weaving shawls.
01:33:27.144 --> 01:33:28.344
She was happy.
01:33:30.865 --> 01:33:34.664
One, because she was doing what she loved doing,
01:33:34.665 --> 01:33:37.463
and the second, because the houses here,
01:33:37.464 --> 01:33:39.625
reminded her of her house in Kashmir.
01:33:44.105 --> 01:33:46.264
Nazia was born around the same time.
01:33:49.304 --> 01:33:52.503
She had the chance to speak to
and be with her grandmother.
01:33:52.504 --> 01:33:54.384
I too would meet my mother every day.
01:33:57.424 --> 01:33:58.503
We were very happy.
01:33:58.504 --> 01:34:03.625
I think that was the happiest
and the most beautiful time of my life.
01:34:06.825 --> 01:34:07.544
But,
01:34:09.945 --> 01:34:11.825
I think God,
01:34:14.945 --> 01:34:17.025
he couldn’t allow that for too long.
01:34:20.384 --> 01:34:21.785
There was a relapse.
01:34:24.504 --> 01:34:25.825
But this time,
01:34:27.264 --> 01:34:29.584
the tumour wasn’t in the chest,
but in her brain.
01:34:32.304 --> 01:34:35.025
The doctors tried an advanced treatment for a month,
01:34:37.264 --> 01:34:38.945
but my mother didn’t survive.
01:34:47.304 --> 01:34:51.344
She was born on the 6th of April,
she died on the 7th of April.
01:34:54.025 --> 01:34:55.985
It’s not the cancer that killed her.
01:34:58.344 --> 01:34:59.344
Lack of love,
01:35:01.184 --> 01:35:02.464
and lack of care,
01:35:05.144 --> 01:35:06.544
is what killed her.
01:35:33.144 --> 01:35:34.785
I feel so sorry.
01:35:41.905 --> 01:35:46.025
That report always flashes before my eyes.
01:35:47.584 --> 01:35:50.424
Everyday.
I see it every day.
01:35:53.065 --> 01:35:54.624
That biopsy report.
01:35:54.625 --> 01:35:56.665
I wish I had been there.
01:35:58.665 --> 01:36:02.384
I wouldn’t have forgotten
to get that report from the hospital.
01:36:19.985 --> 01:36:20.825
Adnan...
01:36:22.504 --> 01:36:22.865
[Adnan sniffing]
01:36:23.504 --> 01:36:24.384
Yes?
01:36:28.865 --> 01:36:31.184
I want you to go outside this house.
01:36:36.504 --> 01:36:39.985
And stand before the door handle.
01:36:44.825 --> 01:36:45.144
[Door opens]
01:36:47.905 --> 01:36:51.665
Adnan look at this door handle, carefully.
01:36:54.065 --> 01:36:57.945
This is the door behind which you sat in comfort.
Away from your mother.
01:36:59.384 --> 01:37:01.665
On the other side of this,
miles away, was your mother.
01:37:03.424 --> 01:37:04.665
This door,
01:37:05.544 --> 01:37:07.944
symbolises the thousands of miles
between the two of you,
01:37:07.945 --> 01:37:11.464
because of which you couldn’t help her in time.
01:37:15.825 --> 01:37:17.025
Hold that handle.
01:37:18.945 --> 01:37:20.985
Adnan, remember what you had promised?
01:37:22.065 --> 01:37:26.384
You said you’ll do everything
that I say as a part of the exercise.
01:37:27.584 --> 01:37:28.785
Hold that handle.
01:37:37.025 --> 01:37:38.625
Tomorrow when you do the scene,
01:37:40.464 --> 01:37:42.705
you will think of this door.
01:37:52.544 --> 01:37:53.464
Okay out.
01:37:55.264 --> 01:37:56.584
You’re done for the day.
01:37:57.464 --> 01:38:00.025
I'll see you tomorrow for the audition.
01:38:03.105 --> 01:38:04.304
Good luck.
01:38:13.304 --> 01:38:13.825
[Koel cooing]
01:38:16.344 --> 01:38:17.544
[Birds chirping]
01:38:19.184 --> 01:38:19.785
[Birds chirping]
01:38:24.504 --> 01:38:25.424
Adnan Baig?
01:38:27.544 --> 01:38:28.504
Same as before.
01:38:39.224 --> 01:38:41.343
Okay you both. Ready?
01:38:41.344 --> 01:38:41.865
Yes.
01:38:43.264 --> 01:38:43.785
Yes.
01:38:44.105 --> 01:38:45.745
- Roll sound.
- Rolling.
01:38:45.945 --> 01:38:47.664
- Roll camera.
- Rolling.
01:38:47.665 --> 01:38:48.504
Action.
01:38:50.544 --> 01:38:53.745
Doctor, as you had asked,
I have written the letter.
01:38:54.785 --> 01:38:56.304
Should I read it out?
01:38:56.665 --> 01:38:57.304
Yes.
01:39:03.625 --> 01:39:04.705
Dear Alcohol,
01:39:06.544 --> 01:39:10.184
For many years you reminded me of Papa.
01:39:11.865 --> 01:39:13.424
Everything I missed in him,
01:39:14.424 --> 01:39:16.865
I seem to feel like I'd find in you.
01:39:18.224 --> 01:39:24.985
I thought you could make up
for his forehead kisses.
01:39:28.065 --> 01:39:29.905
When I broke up with Michelle,
01:39:31.584 --> 01:39:37.025
nudged by you, many times I took her back in.
01:39:38.504 --> 01:39:42.424
Knowing that Michelle wasn’t good for me,
01:39:45.304 --> 01:39:50.024
that lead to more drunken memories
of more drunken sex and
01:39:50.025 --> 01:39:51.344
more pain.
01:39:52.544 --> 01:39:55.544
But today I have decided to stop living in the past.
01:39:56.344 --> 01:40:00.184
To genuinely stop trying
to use you as my Time Machine.
01:40:01.625 --> 01:40:06.224
I only want to live in the present
and in the tomorrow to come,
01:40:08.785 --> 01:40:10.384
and you are a part of neither.
01:40:13.264 --> 01:40:14.504
I choose,
01:40:16.344 --> 01:40:18.065
to let my Papa go.
01:40:20.825 --> 01:40:23.144
I choose to let college go.
01:40:25.464 --> 01:40:27.344
I choose to let Michelle go.
01:40:29.745 --> 01:40:32.343
I choose to let yesterday go,
01:40:32.344 --> 01:40:35.065
and I choose to let you go.
01:40:37.025 --> 01:40:37.905
Now.
01:40:45.344 --> 01:40:46.584
[Birds cooing]
01:40:51.504 --> 01:40:52.464
Great job.
01:40:54.745 --> 01:40:59.344
You have completed the twelve steps
of the Alcoholics Anonymous program.
01:41:00.184 --> 01:41:01.224
Successfully.
01:41:02.985 --> 01:41:06.384
And you have been
sober for ninety days straight.
01:41:07.544 --> 01:41:09.184
You’ve made this happen all by yourself.
01:41:09.945 --> 01:41:13.504
You chose to save yourself and there is
nothing greater than that in life.
01:41:14.304 --> 01:41:15.745
But this letter,
01:41:16.464 --> 01:41:18.504
please don’t take it with you.
01:41:19.184 --> 01:41:20.544
Leave it behind.
01:41:24.424 --> 01:41:26.905
And I’m here for you.
01:41:28.464 --> 01:41:31.343
You can message or call me anytime.
01:41:31.344 --> 01:41:32.624
You can fix an appointment if you need.
01:41:32.625 --> 01:41:34.584
I'm always there for you.
01:41:35.825 --> 01:41:37.344
Thank you, doctor.
01:41:38.504 --> 01:41:39.304
Thank you.
01:41:40.025 --> 01:41:40.985
Good to go.
01:42:06.264 --> 01:42:07.584
Dad...
01:42:36.544 --> 01:42:37.464
[Adnan opens the drawer]
01:42:48.825 --> 01:42:50.384
[Adnan closes the drawer]
01:43:03.865 --> 01:43:04.424
[Adnan sobbing softly]
01:43:10.224 --> 01:43:11.264
[Adnan sobbing softly]
01:43:18.464 --> 01:43:19.705
[Adnan sobbing softly]
01:43:35.865 --> 01:43:36.745
Cut.
01:43:42.745 --> 01:43:45.424
Wow! You guys.
01:43:48.105 --> 01:43:52.745
That was so real.
01:43:54.745 --> 01:43:57.105
Where did you learn to do this?
01:44:01.625 --> 01:44:04.105
Have you been an actor for a long time?
01:44:05.745 --> 01:44:09.504
The improvised part was really good.
Didn’t see that coming.
01:44:13.985 --> 01:44:15.984
You were really really good.
01:44:15.985 --> 01:44:18.785
- Thank you.
- I’ve heard there’s a bustling industry in India.
01:44:19.464 --> 01:44:21.304
Yes. There is.
01:44:22.985 --> 01:44:24.025
Did he leave?
01:44:25.144 --> 01:44:26.745
Adnan? Mr. Adnan?
01:44:27.304 --> 01:44:28.583
Yes he left.
01:44:28.584 --> 01:44:31.304
I guess he wasn’t feeling so well.
01:44:32.544 --> 01:44:33.344
Okay.
01:44:33.464 --> 01:44:35.704
[Music starts playing]
01:44:35.705 --> 01:44:41.504
[Dial tone]
01:44:44.344 --> 01:44:47.665
[Phone ringing]
01:45:00.625 --> 01:45:04.304
[Dial tone]
01:45:04.905 --> 01:45:08.224
[Busy dial tone]
01:45:19.264 --> 01:45:19.625
[Car door opening]
01:45:25.264 --> 01:45:25.905
[Message tone]
01:45:26.264 --> 01:45:27.065
Adnan,
01:45:28.065 --> 01:45:31.625
I taught you how to enter the labyrinth,
01:45:32.825 --> 01:45:34.264
but not the way out.
01:45:35.304 --> 01:45:40.025
When we teach professional actors
how to reopen their wounds...
01:45:41.144 --> 01:45:43.945
We also teach them how to heal...
01:45:47.144 --> 01:45:49.464
I didn't do that.
01:45:50.985 --> 01:45:52.584
Please answer my call.
01:45:54.304 --> 01:45:59.184
[Upbeat music playing]
01:45:59.464 --> 01:46:01.424
Dad, I forgot my earphones.
01:46:27.745 --> 01:46:32.584
[Violin playing]
01:46:34.945 --> 01:46:36.424
[Message tone]
01:46:37.105 --> 01:46:37.905
Hey Mouni.
01:46:39.625 --> 01:46:44.024
Unfortunately this message
is not bringing good news.
01:46:44.025 --> 01:46:47.384
Adnan Baig’s daughter has informed us
that he isn’t feeling too well.
01:46:48.344 --> 01:46:50.543
And so he won’t be able to do
the next round of auditions.
01:46:50.544 --> 01:46:52.665
We were looking forward
because we really liked his work.
01:46:53.105 --> 01:46:54.065
But...
01:46:54.865 --> 01:46:56.904
here they take mental health very seriously,
01:46:56.905 --> 01:46:59.263
and if someone calls in to say
that they’re not feeling right,
01:46:59.264 --> 01:47:00.224
then that’s that.
01:47:01.865 --> 01:47:02.824
Anyway,
01:47:02.825 --> 01:47:04.503
we’re looking forward to your audition.
01:47:04.504 --> 01:47:06.503
And best of luck for it.
01:47:06.504 --> 01:47:09.224
We are really excited to have you over again.
01:47:09.905 --> 01:47:13.384
[Violin playing]
01:48:09.384 --> 01:48:14.504
[Upbeat music playing]
01:48:20.224 --> 01:48:22.544
[Music fades out]
01:48:37.184 --> 01:48:42.865
[Atmospheric music playing]
01:49:07.745 --> 01:49:08.665
Mouni ma'am,
01:49:10.865 --> 01:49:13.705
I have reflected a lot
on the day we spent together.
01:49:21.544 --> 01:49:24.504
The release you seek
isn’t something you’ll find here.
01:49:25.424 --> 01:49:29.224
Despite my forgiveness,
you still have to live with yourself.
01:49:33.224 --> 01:49:37.384
What you seek isn’t to be found
in the forgiveness of other’s alone.
01:49:37.905 --> 01:49:39.865
That road ahead is within.
01:49:44.865 --> 01:49:46.464
To rid you of yourself,
01:49:47.224 --> 01:49:49.024
and to still have compassion towards another,
01:49:49.025 --> 01:49:50.785
even when you are in immense pain.
01:49:51.785 --> 01:49:52.745
Sorry Mouni ma'am,
01:49:53.985 --> 01:49:57.144
I cannot forgive you.
01:50:12.144 --> 01:50:15.065
[Sombre music playing]
01:50:31.825 --> 01:50:32.705
[Sombre music playing]
01:50:55.184 --> 01:50:56.905
[Vehicle passing by]
01:51:12.504 --> 01:51:13.424
[Vehicle passing by]
01:51:17.384 --> 01:51:22.945
Ma’am, I've been actively seeking the forgiveness
of those I've hurt as an alcoholic.
01:51:23.464 --> 01:51:24.584
It has been ten weeks,
01:51:25.544 --> 01:51:27.664
and there has been no relapse.
01:51:27.665 --> 01:51:28.224
Good.
01:51:29.384 --> 01:51:31.704
This last week I didn't even feel an urge once.
01:51:31.705 --> 01:51:32.625
Very good.
01:51:33.865 --> 01:51:36.504
You should try this thing called 'Rescue Night.'
01:51:59.544 --> 01:52:02.785
And we have two new members with us today.
01:52:04.705 --> 01:52:06.544
No. I’m not ready.
01:52:07.144 --> 01:52:07.985
Okay.
01:52:08.344 --> 01:52:09.264
No problem.
01:52:20.985 --> 01:52:22.625
My name is Mouni.
01:52:30.665 --> 01:52:33.344
I’m an alcoholic.
01:52:53.825 --> 01:52:54.625
[Horn honking]
01:52:56.665 --> 01:52:58.224
[Sombre music playing]
01:53:27.865 --> 01:53:29.504
[Music fades out]
01:53:36.105 --> 01:53:36.544
[Clock tower ringing]
01:53:43.384 --> 01:53:44.945
[Sombre music playing]
01:54:09.105 --> 01:54:11.224
[Birds cooing]
01:54:24.065 --> 01:54:25.625
Adnan!
01:54:27.224 --> 01:54:27.985
Adnan!
01:54:29.464 --> 01:54:30.264
Adnan!
01:54:52.344 --> 01:54:53.384
Adnan...
01:54:54.625 --> 01:54:55.785
Two weeks!
01:54:57.224 --> 01:54:58.343
Two weeks!
01:54:58.344 --> 01:55:02.785
I've been to all those locations,
I could remember from our video calls.
01:55:05.625 --> 01:55:06.985
Römerberg,
01:55:08.344 --> 01:55:11.143
all those lanes with those windows and grills.
01:55:11.144 --> 01:55:13.024
I went to that children’s park,
01:55:13.025 --> 01:55:14.504
and this riverside too.
01:55:16.224 --> 01:55:17.905
And it is now that I am seeing you.
01:55:22.025 --> 01:55:23.625
Adnan, I'm really sorry.
01:55:24.464 --> 01:55:25.904
I'm really sorry.
01:55:25.905 --> 01:55:29.504
I allowed my jealousy to take over everything.
01:55:31.264 --> 01:55:32.625
I’m sorry.
01:55:34.825 --> 01:55:37.745
Your performance that day, was very honest.
01:55:41.825 --> 01:55:44.584
You have it in you to be a good, solid actor.
01:55:45.344 --> 01:55:47.624
It took me time to understand,
01:55:47.625 --> 01:55:51.584
the pleasure of teaching
a sincere student like you.
01:55:55.105 --> 01:55:57.825
I've spent a lot of time
thinking about the day we spent together.
01:55:59.025 --> 01:56:03.785
And you don’t deserve what I did to you.
01:56:06.905 --> 01:56:08.304
Please forgive me.
01:56:10.865 --> 01:56:11.705
Please...
01:56:12.424 --> 01:56:15.705
Please give me another chance
to be your teacher?
01:56:17.065 --> 01:56:18.105
To teach you,
01:56:18.905 --> 01:56:21.184
what I love the most.
01:56:21.985 --> 01:56:22.985
Please...
01:56:26.504 --> 01:56:27.625
Please...
01:56:33.544 --> 01:56:34.745
[Sombre music playing]
01:58:03.705 --> 01:58:05.544
[Music fades out]