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I'm still louder.
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Boys.
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Wait for me.
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Neither of you have the basket.
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Cal? Okay. Your brother's turn.
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"Some of the men who had been to…"
I lost my spot.
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You probably stopped right there.
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"The more we're told…"
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- Can we still eat them?
- Yeah.
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What's the Chinese word for rice?
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I told you your father doesn't want me
teaching you Cantonese anymore.
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- He wouldn't have to know.
- Cal.
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It's Aron's turn.
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- Why do we rinse the rice?
- So that it isn't gummy.
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Mm-hmm.
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Who taught you to cook?
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The man who raised me.
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He was a cook, like me.
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And what about your mother?
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My mother died when I was very young.
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Like yours.
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Are they lost?
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Well, the sky just opened up,
and there we were with the top down.
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I can't tell you how pleased
we were to find your ranch.
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Oh, come say how do you do, boys.
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I am Mr. Bacon, and this is Mrs. Bacon.
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My daughter's name is Abra,
and we live in Salinas.
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Children, why don't you go play?
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Go on now, dear.
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Abra, mind your dress.
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Aron, hurry up.
Let's go. Come on. Hurry up.
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Am I to understand
that you've never planted your land?
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Well, I guess I'm a lazy man.
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And my father didn't help when he left me
enough to go on without working.
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Well, a rich man
who doesn't work isn't lazy.
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He's simply using his head.
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- Hm.
- Are you all alone out here?
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Who takes care of the dear boys?
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Lee is their nursemaid and their tutor.
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A Chinaman's no substitute
for a mother or proper schooling.
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Can he… can he read?
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Lee try he best, missus.
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Very hard language, English.
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Why not move into Salinas so your sons
could attend our good public school?
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If you don't live off your land,
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there's no reason
why you shouldn't profit off it.
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My firm would be happy
to secure a reliable tenant for you.
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I could arrange things myself.
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Aron, let's play like we're grown
and this is our house.
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You'll be my husband,
and I'll be your wife.
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Maybe we could play something else?
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Like what?
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We could pretend you're my mother.
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Come here, my good little baby.
Put your head on Mother's lap.
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Do you wish you had a mother?
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Everyone wants a mother.
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Where is yours buried?
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Salinas, I guess.
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You should find out where
so you can put flowers on her grave.
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I know a secret.
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What is it?
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Aron will tell.
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He always tells.
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I wouldn't if you said not to.
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I heard some men saying
our mother isn't dead at all,
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that she only ran away.
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Who said?
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Some men in the post office at King City.
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They thought I couldn't hear.
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When I'm big, I'm gonna find
our mother and bring her back.
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Our mother's dead. Father said so.
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Maybe he told a lie.
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You're making this up!
What would our mother run away for?
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Maybe she didn't like us.
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Aron!
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Aron!
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Are they gone?
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I didn't much like them.
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Did you?
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You know that star Lee gave me to look at?
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He said
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it was our mother.
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And she would love us
as long as that light was there.
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Do you think Lee is a liar?
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I was only joking, Aron.
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Honest, it was only a joke.
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Samuel.
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Adam.
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Lee.
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It's a beautiful house still.
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Seems a shame to leave it half done.
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It's mine to do what I like.
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All these years sitting on your pile,
clinging to what you lost.
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Do you take pride
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in your hurt?
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Does it make you feel large and tragic?
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I didn't ask for a lecture, Samuel.
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Oh.
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Lee says you hardly speak to your sons.
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Your wife left them motherless.
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Don't leave them without a father.
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I haven't.
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Just because you haven't left
doesn't mean you're here, Adam.
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Did you ever hear a rumor
that Cathy was in Salinas?
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Oh, let it go, man,
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for the sake of the boys.
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Can I tell you what you do
so you won't think you invented it?
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When you go to bed at night,
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she stands in the doorway,
her nightgown sheer in the light.
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And she comes over to your bed,
and you smell her skin,
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and it smells like no other in the world.
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Stop. Stop it, goddamn you!
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A… a woman came to me like that.
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Night after month after year.
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And for Liza's sake,
I should have closed my heart to her,
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but I… I didn't.
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You know, I… I sifted through my mind
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the way men pan the dirt
under a barren floor for gold dust.
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You are too young a man
to be panning for memories.
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You should be getting yourself new ones.
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Did you come all this way
to recite poetry to me?
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No.
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No.
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I didn't.
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I, uh…
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I came to say goodbye.
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My daughter Olive has asked Liza and me
to go and stay with her in Salinas.
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So we're leaving our ranch.
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And when will you come back?
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I suspect we won't.
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Boys, why don't you get ready for bed?
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- Don't forget to wash behind your ears.
- Good night, Father.
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Mr. Hamilton.
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Good night, Aron.
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Good night, Caleb. Cal.
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You know, uh…
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They seem older than 11.
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With no woman around
to put a value on babies,
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it was never an advantage
to them to behave so.
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I have a parting gift for you, Sam.
Something I've been sitting on for years.
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- A present?
- A story.
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Do you remember
the day we named the twins,
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you read to us from Genesis?
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- Yeah. Cain and Abel.
- Yes.
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Right.
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There was one place
in the scripture that bothered me,
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when God rebukes Cain for his anger.
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In the King James Bible, God tells Cain,
"Thou shalt rule over sin."
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He makes him a promise.
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But then I got my hands on
the American Standard Bible,
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and in that version, God says,
"Do thou rule over him."
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More of an order.
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Exactly.
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So I began to wonder
what the original words had been
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that could produce such
vastly different meanings.
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Wait, don't tell me you studied Hebrew.
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With some assistance.
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Adam, did you know this?
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He doesn't talk to me
like he talks to you.
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That's because you weren't listening.
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My friend knew
some Jewish scholars in San Francisco.
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They identified the original Hebrew word.
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Timshel.
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It means "thou mayest."
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You may triumph over sin.
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And you think that's important?
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It might be
the most important word there is.
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It offers a choice.
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Our future isn't determined
by God or by our past.
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Even Cain, in his weakness and filth
and the murder of his brother,
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can still choose his course.
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Because timshel.
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Thou mayest.
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You've had this horse forever.
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And he was old when we first met.
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Aye, he's 33.
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I have to feed him mash with my fingers.
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Sometimes he cries in his sleep.
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You should put him out of his misery.
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Would you shoot him, Adam?
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Why not?
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His lifespan is long over.
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So you'd shoot this horse
because death might be more comfortable.
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Yes, I think I would.
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Hey.
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Do you like your life?
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Of course not.
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If I had a medicine that could cure you
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but also might kill you,
should I give it to you?
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- What medicine?
- Sam.
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Whatever happens, Lee,
I'll take responsibility.
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Do you want the medicine, Adam?
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Yes.
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Cathy is in Salinas.
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She goes by the name of Kate Albey.
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She was a whore.
Now she owns the whorehouse.
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And the house she runs
is the most vicious and depraved
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in this whole end of the country.
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You're a liar.
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I'm not.
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Your medicine acts like a poison.
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Thou mayest, Lee.
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Out of knowledge comes choice.
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And to have any chance,
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he had to know.
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I arranged to have a wreath sent
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and posted a card
to Mrs. Hamilton from all of us.
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- Will you see anyone you know there?
- Louis Lippo, perhaps.
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Rabbit Holman.
They were both friends of ours.
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Will you visit our mother?
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In the cemetery.
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In Salinas.
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Your mother's grave
is clear across the country.
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But how'd she get there?
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We put her on a train.
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It's not so unusual.
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Nearly every Chinese gets sent back
to China after they die.
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Be thou my vision…
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Samuel Hamilton was a jack-of-all-trades.
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Inventor, philosopher, jester, confidant,
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friend.
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But above all, husband and father,
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because his family
meant more to him than anything.
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Thou my best thought…
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Sam used to say a real man
had no right to let sorrow destroy him.
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Let it not destroy us now.
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Thy presence my light
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Cold out there.
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How about a rum
to knock the chill from your bones?
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Yes, thank you.
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We have rooms available
if you're planning to stay the night.
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- I'm just waiting out a train delay.
- Where you headed?
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Out near King City.
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You've been in this town long?
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- Since before it was a town.
- Hm.
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What do you know of a place called Kate's?
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You'll leave that alone.
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Yes?
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I wanna see Kate.
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You'll have to come back later.
We're not open yet.
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Tell her Adam Trask is here.
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Mister.
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She says she'll see you.
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Come in.
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Hello, Adam.
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Joe, you can go.
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Do you want another drink?
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By the smell of it,
you've been having rum.
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It's funny.
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For a long time, I expected you,
and then when you didn't come,
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I guess I…
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Well, I guess I forgot about you.
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I didn't forget you.
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Thank you.
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You still on that dusty old ranch?
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Yes.
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So you came all this way to see me?
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Oh, no. No, no.
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No. I… I came into town
for Sam Hamilton's funeral.
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I'm glad he's dead.
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Why?
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He was a good man.
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I didn't like the way he looked at me.
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You know, he looked at me too,
and it helped me.
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- The two of you, a pair of fools.
- Come on, Cathy.
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Kate.
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Were you always like this,
or have you changed?
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- No one stays 19, Adam.
- That's not what I meant.
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- You've gotten old too, you know.
- No. God…
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I want to understand
the woman that I loved.
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You didn't love me.
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I loved you more than anything.
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How can you love someone
you barely even know?
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All right, then tell me.
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Tell you what?
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Tell me who you are.
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Please.
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Please.
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I always knew…
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what stupid lying fools they all were.
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Who?
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My mother.
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My father, our neighbors, all of them.
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Pretending goodness,
but they didn't know me.
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"Isn't she sweet?" they'd say.
"Isn't she a pretty little thing?"
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I could do whatever I wanted to them,
and they didn't even see it.
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No one saw a thing.
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Like what?
What… what… what didn't they see?
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I…
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I made a man kill himself
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when I was 14.
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He pretended to be moral and kind,
but he wasn't.
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He just wanted to go to bed with me.
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And I was just a child.
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Is that what you wanted to hear?
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Is that what you wanted to know?
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So in the whole world,
there's only evil and folly?
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Is that what you think?
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- I know it. I can prove it.
- You can prove it?
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I can prove it.
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That's a state senator.
He thinks he's going to run for Congress.
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That's a councilman.
He owns half the county.
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That's a professor.
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He travels all the way from Berkeley
to have his face smashed into a toilet.
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That's a doctor.
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That's a judge.
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And that's the minister of the gospel.
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There's your proof
of who these men really are.
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And if they were ever a threat to me,
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those envelopes would find themselves
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in the place where they would do
the most damage.
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So these men are evil.
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And I'm a fool.
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So what about you?
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What about me?
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What kind of a mother
abandons her children?
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Is it an evil or is it a foolish one?
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I may be their mother, yes, but…
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how do you know you're the father?
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How many times did I let you come
close enough for us to have children?
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Charles, though…
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I think I could have loved him.
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He was like me in a way, don't you think?
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Aren't you gonna say anything?
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I feel sorry for you.
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You feel sorry for me?
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You know the ugliness in people,
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but you can't see the rest.
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You only see the one side.
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You don't believe that I really loved you.
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You don't believe
the men in those pictures
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could have goodness in them.
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You only see the one side,
and you think that that is all there is.
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- I see the truth.
- Maybe you do sense it.
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A goodness… all around.
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But how terrible it would be to know
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that it was there
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and not be able to reach it.
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What the hell are you talking about?
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Goodbye, Cathy.
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Adam? You think you're free?
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I could crook my little finger
and have you crawl back to me.
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Adam!
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You'll come crawling back!
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You'll come back begging!
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Oh…
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Aron. Cal. Come here.
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Come here.
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Oh…
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How would you boys like to move out
of this house and into Salinas?
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Hm? What do you think?
You can go to school with other children.
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We'd leave here?
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Yes, we'd find a new home in town.
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- Could we go to a baseball game?
- Sure. Why not?
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We can do whatever we like.
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Boys, you have your chores.
We can talk about this later.
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The chores can wait, Lee.
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Well, the horses need to be fed.
Boys, go on.
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Oh.
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Let's go. Come on.
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Okay.
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You saw her, didn't you?
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I never knew her, Lee.
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The wife I had, I made up.
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I… I feel free now.
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I can leave this place.
I can be with my boys.
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I can start a new life.
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Well, if you're free,
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maybe you could let me go.
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You wanna leave?
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Haven't you been happy with us?
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I'm not sure I've ever known
what people call happiness.
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It's hard to be content
with so many things left undone.
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Like what?
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One thing it's too late for.
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A wife.
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Sons of my own.
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Surely you still have time.
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There was another thing.
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I thought I might have my own business.
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Oh.
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A laundry?
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I think there are
enough Chinese laundries, don't you?
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No, I dreamed of having a bookshop.
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In San Francisco,
with books in both English and Chinese.
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- I… I can lend you the money to start.
- I have the money already.
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Then why haven't you left?
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Being needed is hard bait
for a lonely man.
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Could you wait?
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Until I get the boys settled in Salinas.
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Help see us through the change.
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Dear brother Charles,
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I think you will be surprised to hear
from me after all this time.
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I have twin sons.
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Their mother is no longer with us.
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For a number of years, I felt poorly.
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And now I'm finally well.
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Aron, walk. Aron, walk.
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We lived on a ranch in the valley
but are moving into Salinas town.
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Why don't you visit us?
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- It's a great country.
- And I will take these. Thank you.
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You might even find
a place of your own out here.
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I have much to tell you
that I can't put down.
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Write quick and say that you will visit.
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Your brother, Adam.
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P.S. Charles, I never hated you.
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No matter what.
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I always loved you
because you are my brother.
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Why does Father want
that hung in his room?
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- I thought he hated his father.
- People aren't just one thing.
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Stop that. Electricity is expensive.
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- Lee?
- Hmm?
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It's her,
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isn't it?
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Yes.
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Who?
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Our mother.
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She was beautiful.
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Is that a scar?
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Boys, why don't you go
finish up in your room, hm?
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Go on.
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You should tell the boys
the truth about their mother.
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Better they hear it from you
than someone else.
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Maybe, when they're older.
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She's just across the tracks, Adam,
not ten minutes' walk from here.
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They deserve to hold on to
the good thoughts of their mother,
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and I won't take that from them.
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Did you know my mother died
when I was a baby?
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No.
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Because in all the time
I've cared for your family,
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you've never asked about mine.
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The man who raised me
was a cook named Lau.
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Back in China,
Lau had had a debt he couldn't pay,
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so he signed himself up for the railroads.
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Lau discovered my mother at sea.
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She was dressed like a man,
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hiding her sex.
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They took a liking to each other.
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He told her stories.
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She told him her secret.
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She was pregnant.
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He promised to help her.
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In San Francisco,
they were pushed into cattle cars
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and brought up the Sierra Mountains
to dig the tunnels.
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My mother did her best
hiding her condition.
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Why wouldn't they just go to the bosses?
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They… they would've helped her.
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Do you know why
they brought only men from China?
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So we wouldn't breed here.
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God knows what they would have done
to her if they found out.
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So my parents made plans to escape.
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Days before they were going to flee,
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a little boulder jumped down a hill
and broke my father's leg.
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Whether with work or worry,
my mother went into early labor.
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When my father heard the shout…
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"Woman!"
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he knew.
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You see, these indentured men
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have been driven half-crazy with hunger
and exhaustion and loneliness,
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being treated as less than human.
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The many crimes
committed against those men
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flared up into a kind of madness.
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By the time my father got to her,
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my mother hadn't even eyes to see out of.
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She died
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on a pile of shale
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in the afternoon sun.
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My father managed to claw me out of her.
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Alive.
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My father told me that story again
and again from the time I was very young.
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I'm glad he didn't spare me.
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There's a beauty in the truth…
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even if it is a dreadful beauty.
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Lee…
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Adam, if you continue to tell your sons
this lie about their mother,
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it will infect everything.
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When they find out the truth,
and they will,
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they'll lose all trust in you.
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You will lose them.
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And what would you like me to tell them?
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That their mother is a whore?
That she is a mistress of whores?
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That she tried to kill me?
That she abandoned them?
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What exactly would you like me
to tell them?
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When you forbade me to teach
the boys Cantonese, did I protest?
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When you went months without so much
as looking at them, did I say a word?
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In this matter, I must insist.
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Tell them. Tell them enough
so that you all don't suffer later.
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I'll think about it.
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Hmm.
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- I'm done wasting my time on you.
- Don't talk to me like that.
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- Are you lying to yourself or just to me?
- Shut up!
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Your course is drawn, Adam!
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Faced with two morals,
you'll follow your training.
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What you call thinking won't change that.
What you call love won't change that.
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Nothing will change that!
You cannot change.
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Dessie Hamilton has agreed
to take in the washing.
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I left a box of recipes for easy meals.
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The boys can help.
They know their way around a kitchen.
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The boys can write to me at the Lee Tong.
It's a club of sorts.
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Oh.
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My books are in crates.
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If you don't mind,
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I'll ask you to ship them to me
when I find an apartment.
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You better hurry
if you're gonna make today's train.
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Cal! Aron!
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- We'll see each other.
- Make sure to come visit us.
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- Be good. Take care of yourselves.
- We'll try. I promise.
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As long as you write to us.
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Hey, boys!
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Let's go buy an automobile.
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Really?
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Why not?
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Come on, get ready. Hurry.
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Go, go, go. Hurry up, hurry up, hurry up.
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Uncle.
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Are you lost?
43:12.813 --> 43:15.021
Do you know the Lee Tong?
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I was certain it was here.
43:18.188 --> 43:19.813
The Lee Tong no longer exists.
43:19.896 --> 43:21.980
It was lost in the fires,
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after the earthquake.
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Do you know a scholar called Lau?
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Connected to the Lee Tong?
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Lucky Lau?
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Don't worry, uncle.
43:37.730 --> 43:39.105
He's alive and well
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and still running his baccarat game.
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You want in?
43:45.980 --> 43:48.230
You must be mistaken.
43:48.980 --> 43:50.730
This is a learned man,
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a principled man.
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Uncle.
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You need a place to stay?
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How many share this room?
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It depends,
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how many people come tonight.
44:36.480 --> 44:38.021
- Cheers.
- Cheers.
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My Cantonese isn't what it should be.
44:47.855 --> 44:50.230
It's been some time.
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Good news. My English is excellent.
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- Where are you from?
- Right here. I was born in California.
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An American uncle.
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What brings you to San Francisco?
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Well, I intend to open a bookstore.
45:12.230 --> 45:13.396
You need a protector.
45:13.980 --> 45:15.396
I can look after myself.
45:15.896 --> 45:17.938
How will you negotiate the tongs?
45:18.438 --> 45:21.646
Hm? Do you have funds
set aside to pay off the police?
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The Black Hand?
45:25.105 --> 45:26.563
What is your plan?
45:26.646 --> 45:27.855
It's funny.
45:28.355 --> 45:32.146
I've always been the one
preparing for every outcome,
45:32.230 --> 45:37.146
but now it seems my dream
has made me a stranger to myself.
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I think all dreams do this.
45:46.896 --> 45:49.355
It was a dream Lau and I shared,
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our bookstore.
45:52.146 --> 45:55.063
We wanted to make a place
to serve the community.
45:55.771 --> 45:57.646
Lau is serving the community.
45:59.438 --> 46:00.646
By taking their money?
46:00.730 --> 46:02.146
Even if they lose,
46:03.313 --> 46:06.855
all gamblers eat at Lucky Lau's.
46:15.063 --> 46:17.896
It must have been lonely,
46:18.730 --> 46:20.146
living so long in the white world.
46:20.980 --> 46:22.980
How did you survive it?
46:29.313 --> 46:31.480
I used to imagine I had a wife.
46:33.313 --> 46:37.855
I would tell her everything
about what I did, all my troubles.
46:39.730 --> 46:41.021
Did she say anything?
46:41.105 --> 46:42.688
She wasn't much of a talker.
46:46.146 --> 46:47.396
But a wonderful listener.
46:47.896 --> 46:48.813
Hm.
46:50.271 --> 46:51.438
And then I…
46:53.438 --> 46:55.021
stopped talking to her.
46:58.730 --> 46:59.605
Why?
47:02.021 --> 47:03.730
Too busy, I suppose.
47:03.813 --> 47:09.021
In my job, I had many responsibilities.
Cook, housekeeper, accountant,
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nurse,
47:12.105 --> 47:12.938
tutor.
47:16.230 --> 47:19.396
It sounds like you were
someone else's imaginary wife.
47:21.813 --> 47:23.938
Hmm.
47:26.438 --> 47:27.313
Hm.
47:35.230 --> 47:37.313
Advance the spark, retard the gas.
47:37.396 --> 47:38.646
- Oh boy.
- That's what he said.
47:38.730 --> 47:39.771
Why isn't that going now?
47:40.730 --> 47:44.105
- Maybe the engine's too hot.
- I said, just give me a minute.
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Okay.
47:48.105 --> 47:50.855
Should I run and get the mechanic?
I'm sure he'd show you again.
47:51.396 --> 47:52.980
We don't need the mechanic.
47:53.063 --> 47:54.563
- Mr. Trask.
- What?
47:54.646 --> 47:55.646
Package for you.
47:56.230 --> 47:58.480
- Golly, is that your car?
- Yes.
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If he can ever get it to start.
48:00.605 --> 48:02.896
Did you toggle the switch to battery?
My brother always says
48:02.980 --> 48:04.688
he forgets to switch it to battery.
48:06.230 --> 48:08.021
- Yeah!
- There, you see?
48:08.105 --> 48:10.771
- Took you long enough.
- Tell your brother to stick it.
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Boys, I'll be right back.
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Father?
49:15.188 --> 49:16.063
Come on.
49:20.688 --> 49:21.646
I'm all right.
49:27.896 --> 49:28.813
I'm all right.
49:36.855 --> 49:38.021
I had a brother,
49:39.313 --> 49:40.313
just like you.
49:42.355 --> 49:43.313
Charles.
49:45.271 --> 49:47.355
We hadn't spoken in a long time.
49:49.813 --> 49:51.938
And I've just received word
that he's died.
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Okay. Oh, okay. Thank you.
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Thank you.
50:29.521 --> 50:30.646
Cal?
50:32.855 --> 50:36.355
The other night, it sounded
like Lee and Father were fighting.
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Do you think that's why Lee left?
50:40.855 --> 50:41.688
No.
50:42.521 --> 50:45.355
You got out of bed, didn't you?
50:46.355 --> 50:48.146
I woke up, and you were gone.
50:48.855 --> 50:51.230
Did you hear what they were arguing about?
50:52.646 --> 50:53.980
They…
50:57.271 --> 51:00.521
They weren't arguing.
They were only excited.
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What about?
51:05.146 --> 51:07.480
Father's gonna send
a wreath to our mother,
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to her grave.
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A big wreath of carnations.
51:13.480 --> 51:15.105
How's he gonna get it there?
51:15.605 --> 51:18.396
On a train. Don't talk so loud.
51:20.188 --> 51:22.230
But how's he gonna keep it fresh?
51:22.730 --> 51:24.563
They'll pack ice all around it.
51:25.396 --> 51:27.521
Won't it take a lot of ice?
51:27.605 --> 51:29.271
A whole hell of a lot of ice.
51:34.438 --> 51:35.646
A big wreath.
51:36.563 --> 51:37.688
That's nice.
51:39.188 --> 51:41.771
I hope it gets there nice and fresh.
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Dear Lord, please let me be like Aron.
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Don't let me be mean.
52:11.855 --> 52:13.563
Don't wanna be lonely.
52:15.271 --> 52:16.771
Don't wanna be mean.
52:19.271 --> 52:20.813
Don't wanna be mean.
52:23.771 --> 52:25.313
Don't let me be mean.
52:27.688 --> 52:29.230
Don't let me be mean.
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Cathy.