When the night
Has come
Most people have no idea why they came into this world.
I do.
I was born in order to fulfill a very specific genetic purpose.
My name is Greta Álvarez and I came into this world to save my sister.
When Lucy was one and a half, she got leukemia.
Boom!
Doctors said she could be cured
with a stem cell transplant from a biological sibling.
That's where I came into the picture.
Aw.
Some call me the "miracle baby,"
the "medicine baby," or "savior sister."
The reality is that I tried absolutely everything to save my sister.
Thanks.
At first, the transplant worked, and Lucy and I got to grow together.
Sharing my cells.
If the sky that we look upon
But her immune system started to reject them.
And her life changed forever
as her body fiercely resisted being invaded.
More precisely, it resisted being invaded by pieces of me.
I won't cry
It's called Graft-versus-host disease.
And to treat it, her body's defenses, her immune system,
had to be suppressed so drastically,
Lucy suffered infections and complications constantly.
Maybe she'd have been better off with another sister…
But that, we'll never know.
What happens when the very reason for your existence ends up in an urn?
The solitude is so intense.
LUCY I LOVE YOU
You feel like a total fraud
and can't bring yourself to give a shit about what used to matter to you.
Stand by me
Oh, stand by me
Today's her birthday.
She would've turned 26.
We'd all be right here with her.
Celebrating at her favorite burger joint.
Clearly, that won't happen.
I gotta say, though,
sometimes I still feel her presence. Like she's here with me.
You're Greta Álvarez?
Yeah.
I'm Greta Álvarez.
My name's Will. I've got this for you.
Um, can I have it? Or…
Yeah, sure.
Sorry, I just didn't imagine you like this.
How'd you imagine me, in that case?
Kind of like her, I guess.
She wanted you to have this today.
She told me where to find you.
Your sister asked me to do this. Lucy.
She must have prepared this before…
Um, but I just received it.
You gotta open it now. In front of me.
THE MAP OF LONGING
Dear Greta,
there is no…
Gimme your phone number. Lucy said to take you somewhere.
Yeah, no. No, give me the note. What does it say?
I can't show you. Only once it's done.
And I've gotta hang onto this too.
Come on. Excuse me, but what's going on? Pretty macabre way to flirt.
No, this is just a game with challenges for us.
- For you too? - Yeah.
Right. Um, Will?
This is so not fucking funny.
I don't know you, I've never heard your name,
and all of a sudden you're calling the shots?
Not my intention. I just found out.
But you know, I'm here 'cause Lucy wanted me to be here.
Because you cared about her?
Yes, I really did.
How'd you even know my sister?
Or did she ask you not to tell me that too?
No, she doesn't mention that.
But I don't wanna tell you.
All right, then just tell me what she wants us to do.
Sure. If I were you, I'd follow her wishes.
- Bottom line, decisions yours. - The decision's never mine.
We constantly decide.
- Yeah? You think? - Yes.
All right then, I'm out. I'm a fucking mess right now.
I'm in no mood to just trust a total stranger who claims to know my sister.
But Lucy asked me to come here.
Do not speak for Lucy.
Okay, but can you admit this is your decision?
See you soon, Mia.
What should I do with this?
Do whatever the hell you want.
THE MAP OF LONGING
Grandpa, it's me!
Hello?
Grandpa?
Grandpa!
Fuck.
I'M AT YOUR HOUSE
My granddad's the one person who's always been there for me.
He taught me to ride a bike and took me to school.
Even picked me up when I had late nights out and needed a ride home.
My parents were busy taking care of their other daughter.
The one who had real problems.
That's why he's my favorite man in the world.
FAVORITES
There's also Olivia.
She was always there for me too.
Until she stopped talking to me, that is.
To be honest, I totally deserved it.
Holy shit.
Fuck.
I love your feet.
That says a lot. Feet never turn me on.
It's called podophilia.
Well, I'm podophilized by your feet, girl.
I love this toe…
and this right here.
How much do you love them? As much as your bike?
No, of course not.
As much as pizza but the real fancy ones that cost 15 euros.
How flattering.
- I'm outta here. - Don't go yet. Please, stay.
We can order some dinner and hang out.
Yeah, get a pizza.
Hey, what's the matter?
Do you see my panties?
- Oh, come on. Stay. - You didn't?
The village is called Orzola. It's at the northern end of the island.
Luis says it's nothing like the south. The whole island…
Did you see that belted pouch we have for carrying money and ID papers?
The one we use when we travel. What's it called?
- A fanny pack? - Oh, yeah. A fanny pack.
Wait. Hold on, Mom. Why are you looking for a fanny pack?
It's fine. Rosi, don't worry about it. I really don't need to use it.
- Hey, grandpa. - Sweetheart.
- I went to your house. - Mm-hm.
You wanna sleep over tonight?
- Maybe, yeah. I don't know yet. - All right.
Rosi, just drop it.
Please, don't go to the trouble. I don't need it.
Yeah? You wanna get robbed?
- You wanted it? - Yeah.
Grandpa's going away.
So you didn't know about it either? He just told us.
- I just came to see how you're doing. - And to tell us you're leaving.
Where are you going though?
To Lanzarote.
Perfect. I heard the Canary Islands are great.
Yeah, that's why I wanna spend some time there.
Uh, hang on. What do you mean? For how long?
My friend Luis has been telling me to visit for a while and now's the time.
Because, well, you don't need me here anymore.
Unless one of you guys thinks otherwise.
It's fine. Do whatever suits you. You deserve it.
But what about all your plants and your med renewals?
Ah, Rosi, relax. Everything's under control.
Don't you worry about it. It'll be fine.
Besides, you all can come visit me any time.
Us, travel? Yeah right.
So, when are you leaving?
In a few days, dear.
I got an amazing deal on a flight. I couldn't pass it up.
Oh, come on. You don't just move away because you found a cheap ticket there.
- You gonna do any fishing? - You betcha.
- You bringing a rod? - I'm taking both of mine, actually.
- Right. I'm going to my room now. Later. - Wait, Greta.
You're gonna have a great time.
It's great.
Go and don't worry, 'cause I'm fine.
Dear Greta,
there's really no right way to start this letter.
I've tried everything.
Even really cliché stuff like,
"If you're reading this, I guess that means I'm dead."
I've tried to make it funny or to be deep,
but it all sounded forced.
Give it to me.
The truth is you've always led the way. You've always looked out for me.
- But not in board games. - Hey!
Hey!
That's why I wanted to do something for you before I leave.
Because the end is near, sister.
I know I don't have much longer.
But it's all right.
You feel me?
I am exhausted.
I would've loved to stick around a little longer
to grow alongside you but it is what it is.
And I am grateful for it all.
That's why I created The Map of Longing for you.
A sort of adventure with challenges for you to complete.
Get ready, I've planned lots of things.
And since I know you, I'm beyond sure you're gonna cheat.
That's why Will's joining in.
My friend Will Tucker. Hm?
Will Tucker?
Uh-huh.
But who the hell is he? Oh, right. Did you explain it in here?
I didn't but you'll find out.
All I wrote is where you can find him.
You gotta trust me, all right?
It would be messed up to deny a dying girl's wishes.
That's enough!
Don't you dare guilt trip me.
You don't get to 'cause you left and I'm all messed up.
Just getting out of bed every day is a fucking challenge.
Mom, why are you in the dark like that? You're gonna mess up your eyes.
- Is Dad coming home for lunch? - What? Um…
No, no. I… I don't know.
Are you okay? Want me to fix you something?
No, no. I… I'm not hungry.
- Hello? - Hello
- You okay? - Yeah, of course I am.
Great.
Uh, hi. I'm looking for Will. Any idea where he is?
What do you want?
To get something that's mine back from him.
He should've been here already but Will shows up only when he feels like it.
Not surprised.
I'll just wait for him then.
'Kay, uh, want something or you're good?
- Nah, I'm fine. - All right.
From The Little Prince?
What?
That tattoo right there. It's the boa that eats the elephant in The Little Prince.
Not at all. It's a Fedora.
Like the one Indiana Jones wore.
No way! Uh-uh. That's clearly the boa's eye there.
You got played, bro.
Yo, you're late again.
You left her waiting here. Uh, what's your name?
Greta. He knows my name already. Don't you, Will?
What do you think this is?
The game, where did you put it?
The boa from The Little Prince.
See?
I think you should add a little detail to it. Like a ribbon or even a hat.
You left it here?
Are you homeless or something?
No one knows where Will lives.
Sounds to me like he's in witness protection.
Ah, that explains the name.
If you need me, whistle.
So you're in now?
- Nope. I want to take it home. - Not possible
It is. Just watch me.
Be mad if you want to but I made a promise to Lucy.
I owe her.
Oh, yeah? Why?
I don't wanna tell you.
Cut the crap, man.
I don't know who you are, what you want or where you're from, even.
- There's no way I can trust you. - You're right.
And I don't want you to have my game.
She created all of it for me. It's mine. You don't get to have it.
I wasn't gonna pry.
You haven't earned my trust.
Look, if I can't have it, throw it out.
- Okay. - Seriously, do it.
- Fine. Should I just get rid of it? - Yeah.
Sure, go for it.
Great.
He's throwing it out.
Hey!
Stop!
What are you doing?
Could you please stop? Hang on a minute!
No! Don't throw it out!
You serious?
Quit it. For fuck's sake.
God dammit, I can't reach it.
I could use a hand!
Can you ask nicely?
Could you please help me get it out?
You ready?
Yeah, lift me up.
- Yeah? - How though?
Don't know.
- Really lift me. - You got it.
- I'm diving in, 'kay? - Yup.
Oh boy.
A little higher.
- Yeah, no. That's too much! Too much! - Sorry, sorry.
- Okay, I got it. Lift me out. - Yeah? You got it?
Yeah, careful. Fuck me.
- You win this, Will Tucker. - I haven't won anything. You don't get it.
- Your pride's getting the best of you. - What?
She wanted you to have this. She went to the trouble.
Her gift is fucking bullshit!
I get it. But you really don't wanna experience what she'd planned?
I'm not sure I do. Tell me what it is, come on.
- What does the first box say? - Are you always this annoying,
- or just when you're wasted? - I'm not wasted!
I gotta get in there or Pablo will have me out of a job.
No, no, no, wait. Please, just wait a minute, okay?
Um, I want the opportunity to try.
I'll try one! Let's do one! Mm? Let's try a challenge, all right?
- You're in no shape to play chess. - Let's play checkers, then.
Or the first one to laugh loses.
- I know I'll win. - No, I will.
- Haven't laughed once in two years. - Hm. Try not laughing half your life.
If you laugh first, you play without complaining, you hear?
- Okay. Okay. - Like Lucy said. Without being a pain.
All right!
Okay. I'm ready.
You're on.
Wait a minute.
Just a minute, hm?
It looks like maybe I am a little wasted.
How about I sit right here for a moment?
So you give up?
No. No.
Just a little rest, then I'm ready.
I'll win.
Wait and see, you'll lose.
You seriously gonna stay there?
Both of us know It's in the back of your head
It's a matter of time
For things to be sad
The lump in my throat
The pit in my chest
It's a game that we've played
And it's come to an end
Not a word left to say Why won't you stay the night?
I'm not gonna lie, I like you better when you're asleep.
Just so you know.
Why are you still here?
We closed early.
Drink this.
It's cold now but coffee's coffee.
Thank you.
All right.
Ready to be defeated?
You wish, yeah.
All right.
One.
Two.
And three.
Colder and colder
We've grown older
Colder and colder
We've grown older
Oh my God, that face is crazy.
Are you made of marble or something?
Told you I'd win.
Now give me your phone number. I'll come get you at 5:00 on Thursday.
Are you free then?
Colder and colder
We've grown older
Guess you're in charge of this, Will Tucker.
Colder and colder
We've grown older
- My, oh my. Well, well. - What?
- Well, what do we have here? - What?
Wow, you're so trendy.
What? Trendy how?
You look like a slash rocker.
Yeah. An 80-year-old rocker dude.
- That's silly! I always dress like this. - Is it? Rock and roll, sister. You rule.
- It's about time! - Oh, right. Enjoy it!
Actually, you're not gonna like this probably.
Please don't be mad, 'kay?
Why would you say that?
Mm.
Greta, get in now.
Let's go.
- We're running late. - I was sitting here 20 minutes waiting.
Yeah, well, I couldn't get the car started.
Your car is so filthy. No wonder it won't start.
Yeah.
So I'm guessing you're not gonna say where we're going?
You guessed it.
And put your seatbelt on.
Of course.
Hey, are we listening to the radio? Or is this your music?
What's the radio? You straight out of 2004, or something?
The call's from Patricia A. Should I answer?
No, leave it. And no looking at my phone.
Patricia.
Patricia's a great name. Kinda fierce, right?
It sorta… sorta sounds deep and stuff.
But your name's pretty intense too. It's got bite.
Will Tucker.
You gonna tell me where it comes from
or are you really in the witness protection program?
No, not a witness. Quit it.
It's hard to believe that name's real.
Well, it is. It's my real name.
Then why though?
My father's British, and I was born in Wales.
For real, in Wales?
Wales. Yes, that's right.
Right. Looks like you're not the sharing kind.
Now you're getting it.
Hm.
So, why are we here?
Don't know.
Lucy said to tell you to go in and I'll meet you back out here in 45 minutes.
I'm not going in there, Will.
Clock starts now.
- No, no, I couldn't, okay? You get that? - Uh, Will, don't--
Sure, they are within their rights but it really has to go both ways.
No, all right. That's fine.
I've arranged different color chairs,
so you can choose the one that matches how you're mourning today.
Just feel into whatever's there. Where are you at today?
We've been journaling a lot, but I don't want you to do that now.
Just lean into it, see what happens.
What, so like on any color?
We're dealing with the stages of acceptance.
- It's cathartic. - Why, what's wrong?
Oh, hi.
You here for the meeting?
Well, is this a sort of Alcoholics Anonymous or something?
Well, in a way but… Mm.
It's for widows and orphans and stuff.
Come on in, dear. We're gonna play a game, join in.
Come, come.
I'm gonna move over so I don't have to listen to you.
Yes, you're welcome to join us, it's free.
My name's Lourdes. Join us.
You must be Greta.
Your sister came a few times last year.
She wanted to try our meetings out
to see if they could be useful to you and the rest of your family.
For you all to get support after she'd be gone.
She was lovely, a true sweetheart.
Mm. Yeah, she was fire.
It's great to have you here. Let's get started. You all ready?
- Mm-hm. - Adri.
Right. When I woke up the other day, I felt great.
I was all like, "Go for it, Adri, you've got this."
And I got the toaster out.
I even popped a slice of bread in.
But as soon as I heard the "click,"
I just fell to the ground. Kind of like I'd just gotten knocked out.
The night before the accident that took his wife,
they had a quick, easy dinner.
They toasted sandwiches.
Oh, Adrian.
It's like what we talked about so many times.
Our triggers don't send discreet signals.
Yeah, it has to run its course.
Greta…
You don't think this is a fit for you, right?
I mean, sorry to disappoint but…
I don't get why Lucy believed that this kind of stuff would help me.
I think because Lucy came here and got to talk about pain.
How pain can't be avoided. You have to go through it.
Kind of like being stuck in a traffic jam. Can you think of other examples?
I guess not. I don't drive.
Mm. Yeah, makes sense.
All you can do really is… relax, put some music on and keep moving forward.
Well, in a way, I guess we are the music.
Are you serious?
Great, that's so what I needed.
Didn't know you were there.
- 'Kay, done in a few minutes. - You sure?
Seems dirtier than before.
You think?
Is this the first time you wash a car?
First time ever.
Aren't you gonna ask why I've never washed my car before?
Or you'll just say whatever other shit you think of.
No.
I'm not 'cause I know how you feel. You just want me to shut up.
And?
How hard was it in there?
Well…
How about we grab a coffee?
For you.
You passed the first challenge.
Nice.
But I'm not going back.
Why don't you give it a chance?
Because my kind of fun is not
to participate in some kind of orgy of, you know, self-pity.
You're not gonna eat that at all?
No, go for it.
Great, thanks.
So why are you so averse to grieving?
'Cause self-pity brings you down.
It shows you come from privilege.
What was that?
Mm-hm.
Why do you think so?
It's obvious.
Because of your attitude.
Because only a rich brat would leave a 6 euro cake untouched.
3.40.
- Mm. - We're not at Ladurée.
- Ladu- what? - Ladurée.
- Ladurée? - Ladurée.
Only the most famous pastry shop in Paris.
You see? Will, that's my point. I've gotta ask you this.
Why else would a part-time waiter with no cash,
know the most famous pastry shop in Paris?
Because I had a lot of cash once.
- Bingo! I knew it. - But I didn't come from money.
I don't have any now.
Like I didn't have any before.
Before what?
I know.
Did you leave Wales cause of that?
Because you lost everything back there?
Will, are you a registered criminal?
Guess that's why you have that scar and the tattoos?
Huh? No, no. Listen.
What's this about? Why would you care if I have a record?
Oh no, man. I care. I care.
Greta we need to get things straight. I'm here as a favor to Lucy.
Talking about me is off limits.
Fine.
- Yeah. - I agree with you.
I'll stop asking about you.
Everyone's got their own shit, right?
- Appreciate it. - Mm.
It's over. I won't even ask anything if you beg for it.
Yeah, no. Not a chance. I'm not planning on making you beg for anything.
I'll take the jacket.
- 'Cause I'm dead serious. Will. - Yeah, me too.
- I guess we'll see. - You need to remember this moment, okay?
'Cause one day you're gonna tell me everything. Willingly.
Don't think so.
- Oh, I do. Just wait for it. - Yeah, sure. My thoughts exactly.
We'll see what happens in just a few days from now.
There's no chance in hell.
Shit.
- Let's see. Try. - Fuck me.
It's not budging.
- You got it. It's fine. - Oh!
- You know how to care for the plants? - Yes.
Which ones need more water and the ones that don't drink so much?
- I got this, Grandpa. - All right.
And I'll look it up on the app if I don't know.
No, that app's a total waste of time.
- Just always check the soil first. - Got it.
Yeah. You gotta check them. Pay attention.
See if there are bugs at all, look at the leaves.
And if you have any doubts, give me a ring.
You have to call me too. Send me some photos.
- I will. - You remember how to do that?
- Uh, more or less. - I'll show you. Give me your phone.
All right. Here.
Yeah.
- Click on this. - That button there?
- The cab's not here. - I remember that. Of course.
I'll wait for you inside, 'kay?
She still struggles to leave the house?
She spends entire days glued to the TV.
She's here only for you. Otherwise, she'd have stayed home.
And your father?
My father's a real busy guy.
Nothing new there. He's always been that way.
Right.
I made you something.
Wow. Thanks a lot.
But this doesn't seem very accurate.
That's right. There's no such thing as a reliable compass.
Don't forget that.
I've got something to ask.
Have you ever heard of what Lucy left for me to do at all?
She had me make a wooden box for her but…
But she asked me not to tell you a single word about it.
Right.
- My ride's here. I've gotta get going. - I know. Mom, Grandpa's leaving.
- Come here. - We'll talk soon.
- Let's do that. - Mm. You're gonna love it.
- I promise I'll send pictures. - I'm holding you to it.
Yes, dear.
- Let's go. - Yup.
- Watch yourself. - Yeah, I will. Safe travels.
Oh. I won't insist on the fanny pack
- but don't you get robbed. - The fanny pack isn't at all necessary.
- Be careful. - Of course I will.
- You have your pills? - I've got it all.
And listen, if you've got a problem or medical issue, call me.
- Yes. I'll be sure to call you. All right? - Okay.
See you.
Bye.
Stay in touch.
You got another piercing on your ear?
- Had that two months, Mom. - Yeah.
- Hi. - Hi. I'm here to meet Ana about the ad.
Right, sure, come in.
Come on in.
- Hi. - Oh, hi! You want a coffee?
No. No, thanks.
Marvel! Hey! Shh!
He loves coffee.
It's decaffeinated.
I'll introduce you to him.
Marvel. Come here, baby.
Come take a look, sweetie. Come and look who's here.
See? He really loves it.
- What did you say your name was? - Uh, Greta. Greta Álvarez.
Are you Rosi's daughter?
Yeah.
Your mother and I used to work together but that was a long time ago.
And how's she doing now?
Well, no. I can imagine, dumb question.
Poor thing.
So sorry for your loss.
On another note,
you do like dogs, right?
Sure I do, yeah. Um…
The only thing is I never had a dog. But I would have loved to.
But, uh, what's your experience with animals?
Mm.
Well…
do guys in heat count at all?
You know what, that is quite enough.
Great.
Come on!
Marvel, see that?
That house is my second favorite house in the world.
After my grandfather's.
I haven't been there in a while.
The last time I showed up at the door, things took a pretty weird twist.
All right. Come on, Marvel.
Onto the next box. Pick you up tomorrow, 5:00 a.m. Don't be late.
Shit.
You're not telling me where you're taking me for this challenge either?
Just sit still. You'll see.
Doesn't all this seem weird to you?
Yeah, you know my sister sends us on some special mission after her death,
without us knowing each other.
Well, would it be less weird if I tell you what shoe size I wear or whatever?
Perhaps.
I wear ten and a half's and I studied law.
Even though I loved astronomy.
And you don't now?
I don't know.
It's been a while since I looked through a telescope.
- Fuck! Oh, no. Holy shit. - What?
Turn and we'll stop right there. Stop there.
All right. I'm going.
So what do we do now?
Wanna check out a new challenge?
Hm?
I've got an envelope in the car.
Hand it over. Will, this counts as extraordinary circumstances.
Okay. But we'll do the actual challenge some other day.
Yeah, sure.
She says to write a list of all the things I like most.
Great. Should be quite easy.
Mm. Not so sure about that.
I know the stuff I used to like before but nowadays,
I can be obsessed with something and just get tired of it and quit.
What are these obsessions?
Skating, Russian literature.
Mm… I love women painters.
And I even got brushes and stuff to paint but it wasn't for me.
Uh, and Klimt.
Klimt is fire. I've always loved his art.
- Well, that'll be the first point. - Uh, no.
I'm not going to tell you everything about me while you take notes.
Fine, then you write it down.
- I really don't care to know. - But you know nothing about me.
You're not a little curious?
You know, like am I…
more into mountains?
You like mountains? I'll write it down.
What kind of series do I like, and film?
Movies. Independent. Art house, I'm pretty sure.
Hm. More, the winter type over summer.
- Well, that was a real lucky guess. - Nah.
You love reading.
- You highlight passages. - How would you know that?
And I'm going on a limb here, your favorite color is…
Hey! I have you pretty figured out too, Will.
But a bit less so.
- Tow truck's here. - Mm.
Hey, Paco, how's it going?
- Here's great. - Here?
Yeah. Thanks.
- You got it. - Thanks, Paco.
Sure thing.
- Say hi to your wife for me, 'kay? - Will do.
You know what? I'm thrilled you two are doing the challenge. It was getting sad.
What are you up to now?
Well, we're making a list right now of all the things we like.
No. No, no, no, no, no. She's the one doing the list.
Mm. Here's a good one. Put cheese down. He loves it.
Hey! Quit it. All right?
Cheese, interesting.
- What? - What?
Should I continue?
- Give it a shot. - I'd say you love rock, for sure.
Bet that's the only thing you can think of.
- No. No. - That's it. It is.
Of course I can't! 'Cause your mouth is
sealed like an airtight container, Will Tucker.
Hey, you need to join in. Please play already.
So I'll say one, then it's your turn.
Fine. But you go first.
- Great. - All right.
Mm, okay. I'm a fan of… Mmm.
A fan of your cologne.
Wow. That's a pretty strong start.
Mm.
Okay. So I like… your footwear.
Mm.
All right.
I also like really colorful wigs.
And I also like…
I love sparkles. But you can't tell anybody.
I really like cozy rainy days.
I love when it's sunny.
Predictable.
- I like rock music too, actually. - That's just good taste.
Recreating conversations that are in my head
where I spit out exactly what I wanted to say.
Why, you don't usually say what you want to say?
Not a chance. No one would wanna hear that.
Yeah, well, I would love to hear whatever's on your mind.
Wow!
Pure summer. So up your alley, right?
All right, sure. I get the feeling you like to come off as a rebel
but you never dance.
You're probably the one who never dances.
- On the dance floor, I'm the king. - Come on, you're so full of it.
Floor's yours!
- Do it! Show me your moves. - No!
- See? I told you I had the best moves! - Oh dear, that's bad.
I see that.
What?
All you have to do is move the arms a little now.
Or not. Depends on…
For someone who hasn't laughed half her life, you're catching up quickly.
Go on. Dance with her.
You all right?
Yeah, Lucy always loved this song. That's all.
She knew all the words by heart.
- Should I change it? - No.
No, I think it's beautiful.
You're right.
It has come back once more
She's in your thoughts a lot?
She never leaves them.
Like a good warrior
I can rise to the occasion
She's always around. Always.
In every battle
And I have never surrendered
Because if I lose her
Why would I want to live?
I can
Reach Olympus
And steal the fire