WEBVTT
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No clouds in my stones
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Let it rain
I hydroplane in the bank
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Comin' down like the Dow
Jones...
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We fly higher than weather
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In G5s or better
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You know me
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In anticipation
for precipitation
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Stack chips for the rainy day
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Jay, Rain Man is back
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With Little Ms. Sunshine
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Rihanna, where you at?
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You have my heart
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And we'll never be
worlds apart
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Maybe in magazines
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But you'll still be my star
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Baby, 'cause in the dark
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You can't see shiny cars
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And that's when
you need me there
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No!
Aw.
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I thought you fixed it!
Ugh.
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Zoe.
Mmm?
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Come on.
Sorry. Here.
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Oh, come on, Captain
America, we're in a war zone.
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Just live a little.
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It's not like anyone's gonna
come anyway.
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Oh, shit, shit, shit!
Shh!
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Shit!
Shit!
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Aw, fuck.
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Hey, Ramirez.
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I see you are filling out
that blouse quite nicely.
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Ew.
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God, you are
such a mouth-breather.
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Hey, Charles!
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Lookin' as pretty as ever.
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Mmm-mmm.
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What do you want, Lewis?
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Oh, um, Sergeant Shepherd's
on his way.
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For real?
Yep.
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Cool, okay. Fuck off, Lewis.
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Geez! I was just
trying to help.
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Fuck off!
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Can I call you? Call me? No!
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Ugh!
All right.
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No, no, wait, wait,
let me just finish the song,
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I just... I can fix it.
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Zoe. I can fix it, I
can fix it, I can fix it.
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Just let me just do this, and I
think, if I just hold this like this...
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I got it, I got it,
I got it. Ready?
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I'll always share
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Because...
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When the sun shine
We shine together
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You believe Ventura got
medevacked out of here
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for that tiny little
fuckin' scratch?
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She almost got blown up.
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I just hope that
everything is okay with her...
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You know.
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Her internal organs?
No, her tits.
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She's got great tits.
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So she might have PTSD and need therapy,
but at least her tits are all right.
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Yeah. They're important.
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Can you promise me something?
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Can you promise me we
won't get, like, fucked up?
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That's too easy.
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Taliban can't touch this.
Come on.
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No, I mean, like,
in the head.
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You already fucked up in the
head, so what does that matter?
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Merit, I'm serious!
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What are you saying?
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I'm saying that
if you ever catch me
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in some sort of, like, dopey-ass,
PTSD group therapy bullshit,
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or any kind of therapy,
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you have permission
to fucking kill me.
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So,
we're all here?
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Good. Who wants to start?
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James.
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Uh...
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James. Sergeant, Marine Corps.
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2004, Al-Anbar province
in Iraq.
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Um, our job was to go look for IEDs,
find the guys putting 'em out there.
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Cool story, bro. Shh!
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Merit?
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- Everything okay?
- Mmm...
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Mm-hmm. Yes, sir.
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Go on, James.
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The, uh, negative,
unhelpful feelings
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that I'm trying to process
from that day are, um... Um...
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Oh, my God.
James, okay, okay.
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Aren't we better than this,
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than this woe-is-me shit?
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Didn't we join the most
powerful military of all time,
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did we survive the
dumbest wars of all time,
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just to sit here broken
and all kumbaya
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and "Oh, ouchie, my feelings"?
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No! Fuck!
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Get it together! God!
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Ugh. Let's get out
of here. Be quiet.
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I'm listening.
Merit?
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I'm sorry.
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I'm so... I'm so...
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I'm sorry, James.
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Look, sorry, James.
Go on.
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Good work.
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I can't sign that.
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I was here.
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Yeah, you were
here, physically.
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But you didn't share.
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You didn't give your
attention to the others.
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We all have pasts.
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You think
you're the only one
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who doesn't want
to talk about it, Merit?
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Fuck anybody else
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They don't know
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What we been through
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Fuck anybody else
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They don't know
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What the world did to you
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Fuck what they say
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They really got nothing
Good to say anyway
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Anytime, anyplace
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Fuck every one of them
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They ain't none of our friends
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All we need is this
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Two of us and a full clip
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No, they don't want beef
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They don't want nails, teeth
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They don't want knuckles, no
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They don't wanna bleed
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But I come for blood
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'Cause I fuckin'
love you, yeah
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Yeah, I'm crazy
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Crazy enough to say
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I'm crazy enough to swear
I'll die for you, yeah
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They don't know shit
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Don't know who they're
fuckin' with
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It's the power couple, ah
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Honey, you're home!
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It's 8:00 a.m.
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Do you know
why people hate runners?
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Flat stomachs?
Sculpted legs?
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It's selfish.
It's a selfish sport.
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What the hell am I supposed
to do while you're gone?
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You could work on our puzzle.
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Man. That VA counselor guy,
what a dick.
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Mmm!
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I just had a genius idea.
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We watch M*A*S*H again,
but it's a drinking game.
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Shit! That is not a no.
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Ugh. Why does she always
FaceTime? It's so creepy.
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Hi, Mom.
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Is talking to your mother
really that dreadful?
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No, Mom, it's...
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How's China?
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I'm in Hong Kong, honey.
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- There's a difference.
- Is there?
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I mean, they had some
limited autonomy then.
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So, how's the warehouse job?
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How's your life, boyfriend?
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Any friends?
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Mom, please. Stop.
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I'm sure you called
because you need something.
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I'm your mother, I'm allowed
to ask about your life.
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Okay, so what did you call
about? I need something.
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- I knew it.
- I knew it!
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It's your Grandpa Dale.
They found him wandering.
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What do you mean, wandering?
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Kwan found him
way out at her place.
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She took him to the hospital.
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Okay, so he's okay, then.
No, he's not...
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I just told you that your
grandpa was in the hospital.
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What is the matter with you?
Okay, Mom, I...
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Sorry.
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I gotta go.
No, no, no... No.
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I need you to go out there,
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I need you to go out to the lake
and check in on your grandpa,
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make sure he's all right.
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It smells like crayon.
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Merit?
I can't. I, um...
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I just started a new group.
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Oh.
At the VA.
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Like therapy, counseling?
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Mmm-hmm.
Did something happen?
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No, I...
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I chose to.
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It's good, it's, it's...
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I think it's really
gonna help me,
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but I-I can't miss
any sessions, or...
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That's wonderful news,
it really is.
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I will figure something out
for Grandpa.
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I'm really proud of you,
Merit, I really am.
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I know your dad would be, too.
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Okay, Mom, I gotta go,
I love you.
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I love you...
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Did you hear back yet?
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No.
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I'm probably not even
gonna get in. Come on.
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Merit, look, I think college
is stupid and mostly useless,
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but you, you can do
anything you want.
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So if you want it,
you're gonna get it.
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You're the smartest person
I know.
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Nine-sixteenths.
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Let's see,
what could you major in?
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Oh, '90s hip-hop,
you're good at that.
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Lumber sciences, is that
a thing? Yeah.
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Maybe, yeah.
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You know, 'cause your family
owns a Christmas tree farm?
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Just thinkin' of the
family biz. Mmm-hmm.
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You could run that shit
like Santa.
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What about you after this?
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I don't know.
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You know you could
do something epic.
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Mm-hmm.
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Okay. Sure.
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All right,
I thought, for today,
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we would try something
different.
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Follow the bouncing ball.
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This is stupid,
but I'll-I'll play ball.
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Hi. My name is Assia.
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I was a captain
in the army.
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Um...
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I was the only female
in every unit I served in.
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On my first deployment,
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I was not allowed to
stay with my team
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where they were sleeping, and, um,
it was only because I was a female.
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And so, every day,
for our targeting mission,
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I had to drive by myself
for six hours.
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One direction,
six hours, back.
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Um...
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And I'm here
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because I'm trying
to belong to myself again.
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Try Merit.
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You ready?
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My name is Merit.
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I was... army.
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You're doing great.
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All right. Why don't we
start with an easy one?
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Why did you join?
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I joined
because of my grandpa.
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Hmm.
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He's retired from
the army 22 years,
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lieutenant colonel.
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When I was a kid, we
would go to music in the park
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on the Fourth of July,
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and the band would play the fight song
for each branch of the military, you know?
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And if you were a veteran,
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you would stand
when they played your song.
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Can you email me
the rest of this?
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When they played
the army song,
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my grandpa would stand, and...
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I swear, he seemed
a hundred feet tall to me.
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And I wanted to be tall too,
you know?
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So...
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Now tell us why you're here.
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What I wanna
talk about is-is...
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...is not an incident, it's...
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- Back inside.
- Leave me alone!
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It's a... It's a person.
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Merit?
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Go on.
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I don't... I don't...
I don't feel like it today.
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Alicia, air force,
14 years.
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Security forces.
00:14:06.201 --> 00:14:07.619 align:center
MP, for you other folks.
00:14:09.621 --> 00:14:11.414 align:center
See you later.
Yeah.
00:14:14.793 --> 00:14:15.794 align:center
I'm sorry.
00:14:16.878 --> 00:14:19.381 align:center
Why? I shared.
00:14:20.048 --> 00:14:22.258 align:center
You shared why
you joined the army.
00:14:22.342 --> 00:14:24.761 align:center
You did not share
why you are here,
00:14:24.844 --> 00:14:26.262 align:center
which is the point.
00:14:27.138 --> 00:14:29.975 align:center
If you don't show up
and share,
00:14:30.058 --> 00:14:33.061 align:center
I will have no choice
but to inform the court
00:14:33.144 --> 00:14:36.606 align:center
that you did not
complete the group.
00:14:37.899 --> 00:14:39.067 align:center
I'm sorry.
00:14:50.161 --> 00:14:52.497 align:center
I actually do get why
you wanna reenlist.
00:14:53.164 --> 00:14:54.416 align:center
But you're wrong.
00:14:54.499 --> 00:14:57.210 align:center
Not everybody has a happy
fuckin' home to go back to, Merit.
00:15:00.422 --> 00:15:02.007 align:center
Ma'am,
did you hear me?
00:15:03.883 --> 00:15:05.176 align:center
Sorry, say again?
00:15:06.052 --> 00:15:07.595 align:center
Your grandfather was found.
00:15:09.597 --> 00:15:10.807 align:center
He was found wandering.
00:15:11.599 --> 00:15:13.393 align:center
He didn't seem
to know where he was.
00:15:13.476 --> 00:15:15.562 align:center
We're lucky
someone brought him in.
00:15:15.645 --> 00:15:17.188 align:center
Right, yeah, that's Kwan.
00:15:17.272 --> 00:15:18.916 align:center
She... She owns the
lake house next to ours.
00:15:18.940 --> 00:15:22.068 align:center
- This has happened before, so...
- No. That was last time.
00:15:22.152 --> 00:15:24.112 align:center
Dale was found
on the side of Highway 8.
00:15:24.195 --> 00:15:25.405 align:center
The police brought him in.
00:15:25.989 --> 00:15:28.324 align:center
Look. We ran some tests.
00:15:33.079 --> 00:15:35.665 align:center
I'm diagnosing him with
early-stage Alzheimer's.
00:15:38.543 --> 00:15:39.586 align:center
I'm sorry.
00:15:47.510 --> 00:15:50.388 align:center
Never thought I'd see the day
when a man can't go for a walk
00:15:50.472 --> 00:15:52.098 align:center
on his own property.
00:15:52.182 --> 00:15:54.100 align:center
You weren't on your
own property, Grandpa.
00:15:55.060 --> 00:15:56.436 align:center
You were on Highway 8.
00:15:57.604 --> 00:15:59.105 align:center
And Kwan's before that.
00:15:59.189 --> 00:16:01.649 align:center
Who?
Exactly.
00:16:01.733 --> 00:16:04.652 align:center
I know who Kwan is. You
just pronounced it wrong.
00:16:04.736 --> 00:16:07.655 align:center
How do you pronounce it?
Kwan.
00:16:07.739 --> 00:16:09.783 align:center
Kwan...
00:16:09.866 --> 00:16:11.242 align:center
Sounds the same to me.
00:16:17.082 --> 00:16:18.333 align:center
What the hell
is this thing?
00:16:18.416 --> 00:16:20.960 align:center
It's an iPod,
it plays music.
00:16:21.044 --> 00:16:24.964 align:center
Huh. I've seen AN/PRC-25
field radios in the garbage
00:16:25.048 --> 00:16:27.175 align:center
look like they play music
better than this thing.
00:16:29.302 --> 00:16:30.637 align:center
Dale's got jokes.
00:16:48.571 --> 00:16:50.198 align:center
Want me
to help you in?
00:16:50.281 --> 00:16:51.407 align:center
Help how?
00:16:59.165 --> 00:17:01.835 align:center
You sure you're all right?
I'm better than all right.
00:17:04.629 --> 00:17:06.381 align:center
You don't think
you should help him in?
00:17:07.507 --> 00:17:08.508 align:center
Nah.
00:17:09.634 --> 00:17:10.635 align:center
You heard him.
00:17:12.846 --> 00:17:14.389 align:center
He's better than all right.
00:17:56.764 --> 00:17:57.765 align:center
Hi, Merit!
00:17:59.434 --> 00:18:01.144 align:center
Not much of a talker,
are you?
00:18:02.478 --> 00:18:03.980 align:center
People talk enough.
00:18:04.063 --> 00:18:05.356 align:center
I meant in group.
00:18:06.065 --> 00:18:07.817 align:center
I mean,
that's kind of the point.
00:18:08.610 --> 00:18:10.653 align:center
Talking. Listening.
00:18:11.863 --> 00:18:12.947 align:center
Not being alone.
00:18:13.990 --> 00:18:15.825 align:center
It's not as simple
as you think.
00:18:15.909 --> 00:18:17.118 align:center
Who said it was simple?
00:18:18.453 --> 00:18:21.039 align:center
You think it's easy
for everybody, anybody?
00:18:21.122 --> 00:18:22.332 align:center
No, I...
00:18:23.291 --> 00:18:25.835 align:center
Honestly, I don't even know
if I should be here.
00:18:26.711 --> 00:18:28.338 align:center
Well, it's not
about you, Merit.
00:18:29.088 --> 00:18:30.882 align:center
There are other people
in there.
00:18:30.965 --> 00:18:33.092 align:center
People who need
your attention.
00:18:33.927 --> 00:18:36.888 align:center
If you can't talk openly
about your life, how can they?
00:18:40.058 --> 00:18:44.604 align:center
I was medevacked out
of Vietnam in November 1968.
00:18:45.230 --> 00:18:48.107 align:center
I was shot,
almost lost my fuckin' arm.
00:18:48.191 --> 00:18:53.529 align:center
And for a decade,
I was alone, self-medicating.
00:18:54.822 --> 00:18:57.492 align:center
Strong and silent,
so I thought at the time.
00:18:59.244 --> 00:19:03.706 align:center
It wasn't until 1978 that I
finally started to talk about it.
00:19:05.124 --> 00:19:06.251 align:center
Respectfully, sir...
00:19:10.255 --> 00:19:12.715 align:center
I don't know if getting hurt is
the same as losing somebody.
00:19:18.179 --> 00:19:21.099 align:center
I don't know what
happened to you, Merit,
00:19:21.182 --> 00:19:22.892 align:center
what you lost, or who,
00:19:23.559 --> 00:19:26.688 align:center
but I do know that the kind of
behavior that brought you to me
00:19:27.438 --> 00:19:30.108 align:center
is not the kind of behavior
of a person who is healed.
00:19:30.191 --> 00:19:32.694 align:center
That behavior was
an accident, Dr. Cole.
00:19:32.777 --> 00:19:35.738 align:center
You dropped a forklift load
of television sets,
00:19:35.822 --> 00:19:37.365 align:center
almost crushed a coworker.
00:19:37.448 --> 00:19:39.301 align:center
Please! That guy at the
warehouse was all up in your shit.
00:19:39.325 --> 00:19:42.245 align:center
What you're
calling an accident,
00:19:42.328 --> 00:19:44.580 align:center
the court's calling
criminal negligence.
00:19:44.664 --> 00:19:45.665 align:center
Nobody died.
00:19:45.748 --> 00:19:47.667 align:center
Nobody died.
What?
00:19:49.377 --> 00:19:51.963 align:center
Merit, I know you think
you're above this.
00:19:52.630 --> 00:19:55.883 align:center
But... courage
is moving forward.
00:19:55.967 --> 00:19:58.720 align:center
I-It's not being unmoved.
00:19:59.595 --> 00:20:02.640 align:center
What is it that you are
so afraid to talk about?
00:20:02.724 --> 00:20:05.018 align:center
What is wrong with you?
00:20:05.101 --> 00:20:06.602 align:center
Get back inside!
00:20:07.687 --> 00:20:08.813 align:center
I just can't.
00:20:08.896 --> 00:20:10.773 align:center
If you don't show up
and participate
00:20:10.857 --> 00:20:13.776 align:center
and I don't sign off, you're
back on the mercy of the court.
00:20:14.902 --> 00:20:17.739 align:center
They'll fine you. Hell, they
may even put you in jail.
00:20:18.448 --> 00:20:20.283 align:center
If I were you,
00:20:21.492 --> 00:20:23.578 align:center
I would think
very seriously
00:20:24.370 --> 00:20:27.582 align:center
about what living
in the past is worth.
00:20:29.876 --> 00:20:30.960 align:center
Just sayin'.
00:20:43.139 --> 00:20:46.517 align:center
God, this literal shit
is literally killing me.
00:20:46.601 --> 00:20:48.644 align:center
We are light-wheel mechanics.
00:20:48.728 --> 00:20:50.188 align:center
This is not that. Ugh.
00:20:50.271 --> 00:20:53.066 align:center
Welcome to the army.
00:20:53.149 --> 00:20:57.820 align:center
Hey, did you give any more thought to
any of those supercool majors I suggested?
00:21:00.531 --> 00:21:02.617 align:center
What?
00:21:09.916 --> 00:21:11.376 align:center
Actually, uh...
00:21:14.128 --> 00:21:17.382 align:center
I got in... to Oregon.
00:21:20.134 --> 00:21:21.594 align:center
That's great.
00:21:26.599 --> 00:21:27.725 align:center
Thanks.
00:21:28.351 --> 00:21:29.644 align:center
Yeah, no, my, um...
00:21:30.645 --> 00:21:32.855 align:center
my cousin just, uh,
00:21:33.398 --> 00:21:35.858 align:center
told me he's gonna have a job
for me when I get out, so...
00:21:35.942 --> 00:21:37.276 align:center
Yeah? Your cousin?
That's cool.
00:21:37.360 --> 00:21:38.736 align:center
Mm-hmm.
Which one?
00:21:39.862 --> 00:21:40.947 align:center
Why didn't you tell me?
00:21:42.657 --> 00:21:44.033 align:center
I don't know, Zoe, I...
00:21:46.911 --> 00:21:48.788 align:center
I didn't know
how you would react.
00:21:50.790 --> 00:21:53.268 align:center
It's not like you've had anything
super positive to say about college.
00:21:53.292 --> 00:21:56.295 align:center
I love college.
I think college is amazing.
00:21:57.880 --> 00:22:00.299 align:center
Rich kids and snowflakes.
There it is.
00:22:02.593 --> 00:22:04.762 align:center
And I'm neither,
by the way. Okay.
00:22:06.722 --> 00:22:08.724 align:center
You know what I honestly
think? Here it goes.
00:22:08.808 --> 00:22:11.829 align:center
I think you get uncomfortable when anybody
talks about life after the military.
00:22:11.853 --> 00:22:13.705 align:center
Oh, is that what you think?
Yeah, that's what I think.
00:22:13.729 --> 00:22:17.108 align:center
Well... sorry you
misinterpreted me.
00:22:17.191 --> 00:22:18.693 align:center
I'm actually
really proud of you.
00:22:19.318 --> 00:22:21.612 align:center
I'm really excited for you.
Congratulations.
00:22:44.802 --> 00:22:46.220 align:center
Hey.
00:22:46.846 --> 00:22:49.974 align:center
Your mother called... again.
00:22:52.393 --> 00:22:54.562 align:center
If I were you, I would
not call her back.
00:22:55.938 --> 00:22:57.106 align:center
Ugh.
00:23:12.330 --> 00:23:13.873 align:center
You dropped him off?
00:23:13.956 --> 00:23:15.875 align:center
What is wrong with you?
Mom.
00:23:15.958 --> 00:23:17.627 align:center
Merit, you're gonna
go back there,
00:23:17.710 --> 00:23:19.754 align:center
you're gonna help me sell
that cabin.
00:23:19.837 --> 00:23:22.256 align:center
I've already contacted
a realtor.
00:23:22.340 --> 00:23:24.050 align:center
What? Grandpa
still lives there.
00:23:24.133 --> 00:23:26.969 align:center
And that was fine
as long as he was fine,
00:23:27.053 --> 00:23:29.764 align:center
but he's not anymore.
Where is he gonna live?
00:23:29.847 --> 00:23:31.390 align:center
He's going to
a retirement home,
00:23:31.474 --> 00:23:33.154 align:center
and I've already started
making some calls.
00:23:33.851 --> 00:23:37.104 align:center
This has to be done, Merit.
He needs help.
00:23:38.064 --> 00:23:40.358 align:center
Mom, I can't. I just
don't understand, Merit.
00:23:40.441 --> 00:23:42.527 align:center
There's no therapy
at the cabin.
00:23:42.610 --> 00:23:44.695 align:center
You used to spend so much
time with your grandpa.
00:24:01.963 --> 00:24:04.549 align:center
Time presses on
00:24:04.632 --> 00:24:09.595 align:center
And on and on and on
00:24:09.679 --> 00:24:15.309 align:center
Time presses on and on
00:24:17.562 --> 00:24:24.485 align:center
Time presses on
And on and on and on
00:24:24.569 --> 00:24:28.906 align:center
Me and my red guitar
Sitting on the hardwood floor
00:24:28.990 --> 00:24:33.369 align:center
Singing this song about how
I don't love you anymore
00:24:33.452 --> 00:24:35.997 align:center
Crank the bass, turn me up
00:24:36.080 --> 00:24:38.541 align:center
We're tryna race, burn it up
Whoo, uh
00:24:38.624 --> 00:24:41.043 align:center
Shake the place, tear it up
Shake it, whoop
00:24:41.127 --> 00:24:43.504 align:center
We the greats
know you heard of us!
00:24:50.428 --> 00:24:51.429 align:center
Shake it, whoo
00:24:51.512 --> 00:24:53.264 align:center
Yeah, we the greats
Know you heard of us
00:24:53.347 --> 00:24:54.932 align:center
Heard about us, uh
00:24:55.016 --> 00:24:56.809 align:center
Uh, driving like I know
I want it
00:24:56.892 --> 00:24:59.520 align:center
Uh, yeah Celebrate it
if you pull up on 'em
00:24:59.604 --> 00:25:00.855 align:center
Zone, what up
00:25:00.938 --> 00:25:02.690 align:center
Simon got that pretty woman
Uh, yeah...
00:25:02.773 --> 00:25:04.775 align:center
Wow. You didn't tell me
your grandfather lived
00:25:04.859 --> 00:25:06.569 align:center
on the set of a horror film.
00:25:08.613 --> 00:25:11.198 align:center
So which one of us do you
think is gonna get killed first?
00:25:12.408 --> 00:25:15.077 align:center
I mean, on the one hand,
you're Black.
00:25:15.161 --> 00:25:16.805 align:center
You guys don't make it long
in horror movies.
00:25:16.829 --> 00:25:18.414 align:center
But on the other hand,
I'm already dead.
00:25:18.497 --> 00:25:21.334 align:center
You seriously
need to stop.
00:25:21.417 --> 00:25:24.754 align:center
What? Isn't Oregon known
for its serial killers?
00:25:24.837 --> 00:25:27.089 align:center
Randall Woodfield,
the I-5 Bandit.
00:25:27.173 --> 00:25:30.551 align:center
Dayton Leroy Rogers,
the Molalla Forest Killer.
00:25:31.302 --> 00:25:32.613 align:center
There's something wrong
with your brain.
00:25:32.637 --> 00:25:34.055 align:center
Or is it yours?
00:25:52.239 --> 00:25:54.159 align:center
You know, this is exactly
how these movies start.
00:25:57.453 --> 00:25:59.664 align:center
Bunch of bees
over there.
00:26:05.836 --> 00:26:08.130 align:center
Wow, so secure.
00:26:08.214 --> 00:26:09.423 align:center
I feel very safe.
00:26:11.509 --> 00:26:12.551 align:center
Grandpa?
00:26:25.231 --> 00:26:26.691 align:center
Your grandma's so pretty.
00:26:28.776 --> 00:26:29.985 align:center
Yeah, she was.
00:26:31.404 --> 00:26:32.947 align:center
How come you never
talk about your dad?
00:26:36.784 --> 00:26:37.827 align:center
He died.
00:26:38.661 --> 00:26:40.329 align:center
Cancer. I was seven.
00:26:41.205 --> 00:26:45.167 align:center
Well, you should learn to talk about
your dead loved ones more often.
00:26:48.838 --> 00:26:50.756 align:center
That's an interesting place
for milk.
00:26:57.138 --> 00:26:58.889 align:center
Hey, there's your grandpa.
00:27:12.194 --> 00:27:13.320 align:center
Hey.
00:27:14.405 --> 00:27:15.489 align:center
Hi.
00:27:16.157 --> 00:27:17.158 align:center
Uh, hi.
00:27:17.241 --> 00:27:18.451 align:center
Wow, you're doing great.
00:27:18.534 --> 00:27:20.578 align:center
If you're here for
your grandmother's funeral,
00:27:20.661 --> 00:27:22.580 align:center
you're ten months late.
00:27:25.124 --> 00:27:28.544 align:center
I'm here to see you. No,
you're here to check on me.
00:27:28.627 --> 00:27:31.464 align:center
Your mother put you
up to it.
00:27:31.547 --> 00:27:33.424 align:center
I'm here
to see you, Grandpa.
00:27:33.507 --> 00:27:36.594 align:center
I'll bet she guilted you so
bad you just rushed right over here,
00:27:36.677 --> 00:27:38.471 align:center
didn't even remember to pack.
00:27:38.554 --> 00:27:40.806 align:center
We did forget the
toothpaste.
00:27:40.890 --> 00:27:43.601 align:center
- Am I wrong?
- I, um...
00:27:45.186 --> 00:27:46.437 align:center
I did talk to Mom,
00:27:47.021 --> 00:27:50.149 align:center
but I'm here because
I want to be.
00:27:55.988 --> 00:27:57.448 align:center
I'm sorry I left
the other day.
00:28:06.916 --> 00:28:09.835 align:center
Upstairs, second door
on the right.
00:28:12.213 --> 00:28:13.798 align:center
In case you don't remember.
00:28:20.346 --> 00:28:24.391 align:center
This house is legit spooky. I saw
a bat earlier. I'm not even kidding.
00:28:25.559 --> 00:28:27.561 align:center
So your Grandpa Dale does
not fuck around, does he?
00:28:27.645 --> 00:28:29.313 align:center
Yeah, nah, that's not
really his thing.
00:28:32.191 --> 00:28:33.359 align:center
No, no, no, no.
00:28:33.442 --> 00:28:35.587 align:center
When was the last time your
phone rang and it was good news?
00:28:35.611 --> 00:28:36.612 align:center
Don't pick that up.
00:28:44.537 --> 00:28:45.538 align:center
Hello?
00:28:46.121 --> 00:28:48.040 align:center
You missed
tonight's session, Merit.
00:28:48.666 --> 00:28:49.708 align:center
Yeah.
00:28:51.502 --> 00:28:54.088 align:center
Yeah, I don't... I don't...
I don't know what to tell you.
00:28:54.171 --> 00:28:55.673 align:center
I'm with my grandpa.
00:28:55.756 --> 00:28:57.675 align:center
He has
early stage Alzheimer's.
00:28:58.175 --> 00:28:59.927 align:center
I have to stay with him,
he lives alone...
00:29:00.010 --> 00:29:01.470 align:center
We've only got
two sessions left.
00:29:03.722 --> 00:29:05.516 align:center
We all have demons, Merit.
00:29:07.560 --> 00:29:09.478 align:center
But you don't have to
face them alone.
00:29:26.370 --> 00:29:28.205 align:center
Why is that guy
so obsessed with you?
00:29:28.289 --> 00:29:30.499 align:center
Ew.
Guess you still got it.
00:29:30.583 --> 00:29:32.918 align:center
Oh, please.
Still got it.
00:31:10.391 --> 00:31:14.186 align:center
Verl. Damn,
what a name. Hmm.
00:31:14.269 --> 00:31:16.981 align:center
1927 to 1944.
00:31:17.064 --> 00:31:18.857 align:center
What is that?
Seventeen.
00:31:20.275 --> 00:31:21.568 align:center
Probably died on D-Day.
00:31:22.277 --> 00:31:25.322 align:center
Damn, good for you,
Verl. Don't say that.
00:31:25.406 --> 00:31:28.283 align:center
What? I can joke about the
dead. These are my people.
00:31:35.499 --> 00:31:37.751 align:center
What is that?
Whatever it is, let it go.
00:31:40.254 --> 00:31:41.588 align:center
I said let it go.
00:31:43.298 --> 00:31:44.800 align:center
Hey!
00:31:46.802 --> 00:31:47.803 align:center
Hey!
00:31:48.929 --> 00:31:50.347 align:center
Hey!
00:31:50.431 --> 00:31:53.100 align:center
Holy shit. Sorry.
00:31:53.809 --> 00:31:55.394 align:center
Whew.
00:31:55.477 --> 00:31:57.730 align:center
What the
hell are you doing?
00:31:57.813 --> 00:32:00.399 align:center
Oh, man, you scared
me. Hi. This is a cemetery.
00:32:00.482 --> 00:32:03.610 align:center
Yeah, thank you
for the observation.
00:32:03.694 --> 00:32:06.822 align:center
You're noise polluting, and
you're disturbing the visitors.
00:32:06.905 --> 00:32:09.241 align:center
To be fair,
there's one visitor,
00:32:09.324 --> 00:32:10.743 align:center
singular, and, uh,
00:32:10.826 --> 00:32:12.995 align:center
how do you know
you're not disturbing me?
00:32:14.621 --> 00:32:16.165 align:center
Look, guy...
00:32:16.248 --> 00:32:17.541 align:center
My name's Alex.
00:32:17.624 --> 00:32:19.251 align:center
It's not even 8:00 a.m.
00:32:19.334 --> 00:32:21.253 align:center
I'm sorry,
did I wake you?
00:32:21.336 --> 00:32:23.922 align:center
Were you... Were you sleeping
behind a grave over there?
00:32:24.006 --> 00:32:25.090 align:center
What's going on?
00:32:25.174 --> 00:32:27.051 align:center
Right now in the morning,
00:32:27.134 --> 00:32:28.427 align:center
when it's early before work,
00:32:28.510 --> 00:32:30.095 align:center
that's-that's when
I'm free, okay?
00:32:30.179 --> 00:32:31.180 align:center
You don't work here?
00:32:31.263 --> 00:32:33.098 align:center
You're Weedwacking
and you don't work here?
00:32:33.182 --> 00:32:35.184 align:center
No, my grandparents
are buried over there.
00:32:35.893 --> 00:32:36.953 align:center
I know
what you're thinking.
00:32:36.977 --> 00:32:38.854 align:center
It's very cool that
I'm descended from
00:32:38.937 --> 00:32:41.190 align:center
one of the first Indian
families in Portland.
00:32:41.273 --> 00:32:42.733 align:center
Unless you don't think
it's cool
00:32:42.816 --> 00:32:44.777 align:center
that my thatha and
my patti are buried here,
00:32:44.860 --> 00:32:48.322 align:center
in which case, you're
a racist.
00:32:48.405 --> 00:32:51.533 align:center
I'm playing, it's the dandelions.
They grow like damn weeds.
00:32:51.617 --> 00:32:52.868 align:center
Well, they are a weed.
00:32:52.951 --> 00:32:55.329 align:center
Yeah, well, I cleaned my, uh...
my grandparents' tombstones,
00:32:55.412 --> 00:32:56.538 align:center
and they look beautiful,
00:32:56.622 --> 00:32:58.624 align:center
but then all the other ones
look like shit.
00:32:58.707 --> 00:33:02.169 align:center
And I-I got this thing
about cleanliness, so...
00:33:02.252 --> 00:33:04.588 align:center
And then you stomped in
and you started yelling at me.
00:33:06.381 --> 00:33:08.217 align:center
It's weirdly...
Selfless?
00:33:08.300 --> 00:33:10.260 align:center
Considerate.
It's very selfless.
00:33:10.344 --> 00:33:12.012 align:center
But it's weirdly
considerate.
00:33:14.681 --> 00:33:17.976 align:center
You should get a quieter one.
They're better for the environment.
00:33:18.060 --> 00:33:20.604 align:center
You're right, thank
you for the tip, stranger.
00:33:21.980 --> 00:33:23.565 align:center
Merit.
Merit.
00:33:23.649 --> 00:33:25.234 align:center
Wrap it up, high-speed.
00:33:31.490 --> 00:33:33.867 align:center
Okay, have a good run.
00:33:33.951 --> 00:33:35.702 align:center
Get a quieter one!
00:33:36.703 --> 00:33:39.456 align:center
But
first, let me introduce today's guest.
00:33:39.540 --> 00:33:43.293 align:center
Bill Stokes is the author of the
Birder's Conservation Handbook.
00:33:43.377 --> 00:33:46.839 align:center
He's also an ornithologist at
the Oregon Songbird Initiative.
00:33:46.922 --> 00:33:48.215 align:center
He joins us today
from Portland.
00:33:48.298 --> 00:33:50.759 align:center
Thanks for talking with us
today, Bill. BILL: Thanks, Tessa.
00:33:50.843 --> 00:33:53.470 align:center
Let's talk about some of
the birds you cover in your book.
00:33:56.306 --> 00:33:57.307 align:center
Want a hand?
00:33:58.517 --> 00:33:59.518 align:center
No.
00:34:00.477 --> 00:34:03.230 align:center
Reckon you'll just tell me
it ought to be replaced.
00:34:04.481 --> 00:34:06.775 align:center
Isn't that what
your generation does?
00:34:07.484 --> 00:34:10.195 align:center
Something needs repair,
you just get a new one.
00:34:10.279 --> 00:34:12.698 align:center
Well, I can't speak for my
generation, but I was a 63 Bravo,
00:34:12.781 --> 00:34:14.741 align:center
so I can repair
just about anything.
00:34:16.660 --> 00:34:18.412 align:center
There.
00:34:26.753 --> 00:34:29.464 align:center
Wow, Merit,
you're great at affection.
00:34:30.174 --> 00:34:32.801 align:center
Well, as long
as you're here.
00:34:34.136 --> 00:34:36.138 align:center
Paper goes in six,
remember?
00:34:38.348 --> 00:34:41.810 align:center
We don't live in the city. We
sort our own trash out here.
00:34:43.020 --> 00:34:44.563 align:center
Paper...
00:34:47.024 --> 00:34:49.067 align:center
...goes in six.
00:34:52.905 --> 00:34:55.199 align:center
Metal in one,
compost in two,
00:34:55.282 --> 00:34:57.659 align:center
plastic in three,
burn in four,
00:34:57.743 --> 00:35:00.412 align:center
trash in five,
paper in six.
00:35:01.830 --> 00:35:06.919 align:center
Hmm? Metal, compost,
plastic, burn, trash, paper.
00:35:09.129 --> 00:35:11.089 align:center
Got it?
Got it.
00:35:12.507 --> 00:35:13.926 align:center
Do you got it?
00:35:15.177 --> 00:35:16.511 align:center
I don't got it.
00:35:18.722 --> 00:35:21.058 align:center
What's the little one for?
Is that just a mystery?
00:35:23.936 --> 00:35:25.687 align:center
Okay, Mom,
I'm on my way.
00:35:59.638 --> 00:36:01.556 align:center
Yes, yes.
00:36:18.573 --> 00:36:19.700 align:center
Hi, sorry I'm late.
00:36:19.783 --> 00:36:22.452 align:center
My mother called ahead about
a room for Dale Tillman.
00:36:22.536 --> 00:36:23.829 align:center
Said you need a family
signature.
00:36:23.912 --> 00:36:26.999 align:center
Where's the sugar-free candy?
We used to...
00:36:27.624 --> 00:36:28.625 align:center
Oh, hey.
00:36:28.709 --> 00:36:30.794 align:center
Uh, it was
"stranger," right?
00:36:30.877 --> 00:36:32.254 align:center
Merit.
Merit, hi.
00:36:32.337 --> 00:36:33.755 align:center
Alex.
Yeah.
00:36:33.839 --> 00:36:34.923 align:center
Wow, you remembered.
00:36:35.757 --> 00:36:37.426 align:center
So you work here?
Yep.
00:36:37.509 --> 00:36:39.386 align:center
Actually, my family
owns the place.
00:36:39.469 --> 00:36:42.347 align:center
You know, they decided not
to go into the hotel industry
00:36:42.431 --> 00:36:43.640 align:center
'cause my dad was like...
00:36:43.724 --> 00:36:47.311 align:center
"Hmm,
assisted living. Recession-proof."
00:36:48.812 --> 00:36:52.566 align:center
My dad is apparently
Yoda. I don't know why I did that. Um...
00:36:53.525 --> 00:36:57.195 align:center
Wo... Uh, would you like
to see the room?
00:36:57.779 --> 00:36:59.823 align:center
Is-Is that how-how
it normally goes?
00:36:59.906 --> 00:37:01.158 align:center
People normally wanna see it?
00:37:01.241 --> 00:37:03.660 align:center
Uh, yeah, unless they hate
their parents,
00:37:03.744 --> 00:37:06.955 align:center
then they usually just drop 'em
on the curb outside.
00:37:07.998 --> 00:37:09.916 align:center
Okay.
Okay. Thank you.
00:37:12.669 --> 00:37:13.795 align:center
Just this way.
00:37:13.879 --> 00:37:16.256 align:center
Dr. Castro,
how you doin'?
00:37:19.926 --> 00:37:20.927 align:center
So...
00:37:23.305 --> 00:37:25.974 align:center
Is it, um... Yeah,
it's right up in here.
00:37:26.725 --> 00:37:28.018 align:center
Here we are.
00:37:32.272 --> 00:37:35.525 align:center
Closet, bathroom,
and bedroom's back there.
00:37:40.072 --> 00:37:43.450 align:center
People normally sign right
away? Yeah, it's in high demand.
00:37:44.868 --> 00:37:46.971 align:center
Yeah, my mom says these rooms
are harder to get into than...
00:37:46.995 --> 00:37:47.996 align:center
Yale.
00:37:48.080 --> 00:37:49.800 align:center
Yeah, let me guess,
did your mom go to Yale?
00:37:54.795 --> 00:37:56.129 align:center
Can I ask you a question?
00:37:57.089 --> 00:37:58.173 align:center
Sure.
00:37:59.132 --> 00:38:00.592 align:center
Is this a good place?
00:38:01.551 --> 00:38:03.595 align:center
A lot of people wish
they could be in here.
00:38:06.139 --> 00:38:07.974 align:center
My grandfather's particular.
00:38:10.560 --> 00:38:11.645 align:center
My grandmother...
00:38:12.813 --> 00:38:15.941 align:center
When she died, he became a
different version of himself, you know?
00:38:17.192 --> 00:38:21.196 align:center
Not worse,
but not better.
00:38:22.322 --> 00:38:24.074 align:center
It's like when
you lose someone,
00:38:25.659 --> 00:38:27.452 align:center
you don't know who you are
without 'em.
00:38:28.412 --> 00:38:30.664 align:center
You want to know
if he'll find a home here.
00:38:33.792 --> 00:38:36.294 align:center
Yeah.
It's a hard decision. Um...
00:38:37.462 --> 00:38:39.172 align:center
Take a few days
to think about it.
00:38:39.256 --> 00:38:41.967 align:center
And, uh,
I'm not supposed to do this,
00:38:42.050 --> 00:38:44.344 align:center
but I'll-I'll hold
the room for you.
00:38:45.512 --> 00:38:47.055 align:center
Really?
Yeah. I mean,
00:38:47.139 --> 00:38:49.141 align:center
even the Yale of assisted
livings has an A-list.
00:38:49.933 --> 00:38:51.977 align:center
You're scared of my mom.
I'm terrified.
00:38:52.060 --> 00:38:54.187 align:center
Thank you.
Mm-hmm.
00:38:55.105 --> 00:38:56.982 align:center
Hey, I know... I know
you don't like noise,
00:38:57.065 --> 00:38:59.234 align:center
and I'm guessing you probably
don't like people either,
00:38:59.317 --> 00:39:02.028 align:center
but sometimes I go to this
bar called the WildHorse.
00:39:02.112 --> 00:39:08.410 align:center
Sometimes, um, like
tonight around 8:00-ish.
00:39:13.123 --> 00:39:14.124 align:center
Okay.
00:39:14.791 --> 00:39:15.792 align:center
Okay.
00:39:29.806 --> 00:39:32.976 align:center
So you're really thinking
about taking him away from this place?
00:39:47.782 --> 00:39:49.326 align:center
Oh, what the hell?
00:39:49.993 --> 00:39:50.994 align:center
Grandpa?
00:39:53.955 --> 00:39:54.956 align:center
You all right?
00:39:57.125 --> 00:39:58.335 align:center
Not especially, no.
00:39:59.753 --> 00:40:01.546 align:center
'Cause paper goes
in goddamn six.
00:40:02.172 --> 00:40:05.759 align:center
Metal, compost, plastic,
burn, trash, paper.
00:40:06.593 --> 00:40:07.886 align:center
Is that hard?
00:40:08.470 --> 00:40:10.013 align:center
Is that impossible?
00:40:10.096 --> 00:40:11.932 align:center
You know, you come here,
00:40:12.015 --> 00:40:14.392 align:center
you eat my food,
you use my water.
00:40:15.393 --> 00:40:16.603 align:center
Fine, have at it.
00:40:16.686 --> 00:40:20.106 align:center
But it defies imagination that you and I
were in the same branch of the service.
00:40:20.190 --> 00:40:22.817 align:center
If you'd learned anything in the
army, you'd have learned respect.
00:40:24.319 --> 00:40:25.695 align:center
Do you think I'm crazy?
00:40:27.155 --> 00:40:28.949 align:center
Your mother thinks I'm crazy.
00:40:29.032 --> 00:40:30.033 align:center
Fine!
00:40:30.116 --> 00:40:33.995 align:center
But as long as you're under my
roof, paper goes in goddamn six!
00:40:38.792 --> 00:40:39.876 align:center
Clean it up!
00:40:51.930 --> 00:40:53.640 align:center
Where does
plastic go again?
00:40:57.894 --> 00:41:01.690 align:center
You know, I've read
about us vets getting PTSD,
00:41:01.773 --> 00:41:03.984 align:center
but good for your granddad.
00:41:04.067 --> 00:41:06.069 align:center
Not a lot of vets
trying to give PTSD.
00:41:09.864 --> 00:41:12.242 align:center
You sure about this?
He's just angry.
00:41:13.535 --> 00:41:16.413 align:center
But he is not gonna scare
me off.
00:41:34.889 --> 00:41:36.266 align:center
Gran...
00:42:13.136 --> 00:42:14.220 align:center
How's it going over there?
00:42:19.100 --> 00:42:20.101 align:center
Hmm.
00:42:24.397 --> 00:42:28.902 align:center
It-It can be complicated,
the trash system.
00:42:38.536 --> 00:42:39.936 align:center
How's that bird feeder
repair going?
00:42:40.747 --> 00:42:42.332 align:center
Oh, it's going.
00:42:56.221 --> 00:42:58.932 align:center
You're really gonna go meet
this guy, the Weedwacker?
00:42:59.015 --> 00:43:01.976 align:center
I just thought
it would be...
00:43:03.728 --> 00:43:05.021 align:center
good to...
00:43:06.731 --> 00:43:08.233 align:center
I don't know,
get a change of scenery.
00:43:08.316 --> 00:43:09.984 align:center
You mean you don't want
to see me.
00:43:10.068 --> 00:43:12.028 align:center
It's just for tonight.
Mmm.
00:43:12.654 --> 00:43:13.863 align:center
What if he's a murderer?
00:43:13.988 --> 00:43:16.308 align:center
You don't think he would've
murdered me when we were alone?
00:43:17.075 --> 00:43:18.326 align:center
Like in the cemetery?
00:43:21.496 --> 00:43:23.039 align:center
It's just for tonight,
I promise.
00:43:24.708 --> 00:43:25.709 align:center
Just for tonight.
00:43:28.253 --> 00:43:30.690 align:center
The forecast
that we have up at Mount Hood today,
00:43:30.714 --> 00:43:33.133 align:center
we are going to stay sunny...
00:43:53.737 --> 00:43:54.964 align:center
They were
supposed to be kids,
00:43:54.988 --> 00:43:56.590 align:center
but I think they're actually
like adult women.
00:43:56.614 --> 00:43:57.949 align:center
Really?
I'm not even kidding.
00:43:58.032 --> 00:43:59.909 align:center
The handwriting, you
can tell.
00:44:00.744 --> 00:44:03.371 align:center
The Dynamic Duo.
00:44:03.455 --> 00:44:04.497 align:center
Hey, Ramirez.
00:44:04.581 --> 00:44:05.749 align:center
Fuck off, Lewis.
00:44:06.374 --> 00:44:07.459 align:center
What's up?
00:44:07.542 --> 00:44:08.793 align:center
Green to green.
00:44:08.877 --> 00:44:10.920 align:center
Threatcon got bumped up
to amber.
00:44:11.004 --> 00:44:13.590 align:center
Some jackass from first platoon
said there's a sniper out there.
00:44:13.673 --> 00:44:16.009 align:center
Look, we didn't see anything.
Sounds like the bogeyman.
00:44:16.092 --> 00:44:19.179 align:center
Ser. Charles, you girls
gonna be okay out there?
00:44:19.262 --> 00:44:20.472 align:center
Listen, Ser...
00:44:20.555 --> 00:44:22.158 align:center
Hey, you talk to her
like that one more time,
00:44:22.182 --> 00:44:24.392 align:center
I'm gonna make you wish
that sniper got you.
00:44:24.476 --> 00:44:25.602 align:center
What'd you just
say to me?
00:44:25.685 --> 00:44:26.686 align:center
You heard me.
00:44:27.187 --> 00:44:29.689 align:center
See me after your shift,
Specialist.
00:44:31.566 --> 00:44:32.859 align:center
Ooh.
00:44:35.028 --> 00:44:36.154 align:center
Bye, Ramirez.
00:44:48.750 --> 00:44:50.251 align:center
You didn't have to do that.
00:44:50.877 --> 00:44:52.295 align:center
That guy's a fuckin' dork.
00:44:53.338 --> 00:44:54.881 align:center
Well, at any rate...
00:44:58.968 --> 00:44:59.969 align:center
So...
00:45:01.596 --> 00:45:02.597 align:center
Your cousin.
00:45:02.680 --> 00:45:04.933 align:center
Yeah, I think
he's moving to Florida.
00:45:06.059 --> 00:45:07.435 align:center
Okay, you think you'll go?
00:45:07.519 --> 00:45:10.688 align:center
What, and leave all this?
Right.
00:45:11.564 --> 00:45:12.982 align:center
It's not like you're
gonna reenlist.
00:45:14.192 --> 00:45:15.985 align:center
I don't know, maybe.
00:45:17.362 --> 00:45:18.947 align:center
Why would you reenlist?
00:45:19.030 --> 00:45:21.115 align:center
I don't know, Merit,
maybe because it's an option
00:45:21.199 --> 00:45:22.575 align:center
that's actually
available to me.
00:45:24.494 --> 00:45:26.704 align:center
I see you talk about
your grandma and your grandpa,
00:45:26.788 --> 00:45:29.457 align:center
and I think to myself,
"Man, she's got a home,
00:45:29.541 --> 00:45:31.584 align:center
she's got a family,
she's got a...
00:45:31.668 --> 00:45:34.921 align:center
A whole life with meaning
to go back to," you know?
00:45:35.630 --> 00:45:37.024 align:center
I bet when you take
those career tests,
00:45:37.048 --> 00:45:39.467 align:center
you don't even think about
how expensive the results are,
00:45:39.551 --> 00:45:43.054 align:center
how much it would cost to
be an artist or a psychologist.
00:45:43.137 --> 00:45:45.682 align:center
Do you want to be an artist
or a psychologist?
00:45:45.765 --> 00:45:48.726 align:center
Because you could be. No.
No, I can't, Merit, that's my point.
00:45:48.810 --> 00:45:50.079 align:center
The world is not
my fucking oyster.
00:45:50.103 --> 00:45:51.288 align:center
You think the world
is my oyster?
00:45:51.312 --> 00:45:52.456 align:center
I'm a Black woman in America.
00:45:52.480 --> 00:45:53.690 align:center
With a lake house.
00:45:55.316 --> 00:45:57.318 align:center
It's my grandparents'
lake house. It is not mine.
00:46:00.405 --> 00:46:01.573 align:center
Still a lake house.
00:46:03.283 --> 00:46:05.243 align:center
Don't worry,
nothing is set in stone yet.
00:46:06.452 --> 00:46:08.705 align:center
Your aim is definitely not
set in stone. Oh, shut up.
00:46:13.376 --> 00:46:15.545 align:center
But it's time to move on
00:46:19.757 --> 00:46:22.969 align:center
The good times
00:46:23.052 --> 00:46:25.305 align:center
They're not the same...
00:46:36.524 --> 00:46:37.692 align:center
Hey.
00:46:39.485 --> 00:46:41.321 align:center
Hi. You...
00:46:41.905 --> 00:46:43.573 align:center
I didn't think, um...
00:46:44.949 --> 00:46:47.827 align:center
You want to sit down?
Uh, yeah.
00:46:49.370 --> 00:46:50.830 align:center
Sorry, I ordered already.
00:46:50.914 --> 00:46:52.457 align:center
Um, I didn't...
00:46:52.540 --> 00:46:53.833 align:center
I'm a natural pessimist.
00:46:53.917 --> 00:46:57.211 align:center
Me, too.
Yeah.
00:46:57.295 --> 00:47:00.757 align:center
To be honest, I wasn't sure if
you were too good to be true
00:47:00.840 --> 00:47:04.719 align:center
'cause in my line of work, the
women I usually talk to are...
00:47:05.428 --> 00:47:08.765 align:center
You know, they remember where
they were when we stormed Normandy.
00:47:20.151 --> 00:47:22.612 align:center
Have-Have you
ever played Buck Hunter?
00:47:22.695 --> 00:47:23.696 align:center
No.
00:47:24.906 --> 00:47:26.658 align:center
That's one, that's two.
00:47:27.283 --> 00:47:30.870 align:center
That's all three. You nailed
it! That's a new record!
00:47:31.162 --> 00:47:32.830 align:center
Well, damn.
00:47:32.914 --> 00:47:36.167 align:center
If I knew I was playing with
a sniper, I'd have dressed up.
00:47:36.709 --> 00:47:38.544 align:center
Light-wheel
mechanic, actually.
00:47:38.628 --> 00:47:40.588 align:center
There it is,
military service.
00:47:41.422 --> 00:47:42.882 align:center
I'm impressed 'cause,
you know,
00:47:42.966 --> 00:47:47.470 align:center
I actually talked to a woman today
who drafted the Truman Doctrine.
00:47:47.553 --> 00:47:50.640 align:center
How could I
ever compete with that?
00:47:52.225 --> 00:47:53.893 align:center
How'd you get into
the military?
00:47:56.270 --> 00:47:58.022 align:center
My grandfather, actually.
00:47:58.106 --> 00:48:01.275 align:center
Oh, our prospective
resident. That's right.
00:48:02.110 --> 00:48:05.071 align:center
Retired 22 years from the
army. Lieutenant colonel.
00:48:06.155 --> 00:48:07.740 align:center
Two tours in Vietnam.
00:48:12.787 --> 00:48:16.457 align:center
He used to let me play with
his medals and his patches.
00:48:18.710 --> 00:48:21.963 align:center
He would sit me down, tell me
a story about each one of them.
00:48:23.381 --> 00:48:24.966 align:center
I was just talking
about this.
00:48:26.509 --> 00:48:28.261 align:center
But every Fourth of July,
00:48:29.303 --> 00:48:31.584 align:center
my entire family would stay
at my grandparents' lake house
00:48:31.639 --> 00:48:33.575 align:center
and we would drive into town
for music in the park.
00:48:33.599 --> 00:48:35.119 align:center
Yeah, every year, of
course. The fireworks.
00:48:35.143 --> 00:48:36.477 align:center
And the local
chamber orchestra
00:48:36.561 --> 00:48:38.122 align:center
would play the Battle
Hymn. Right. If you served.
00:48:38.146 --> 00:48:39.731 align:center
Yeah.
Yeah. You stand up.
00:48:39.814 --> 00:48:41.274 align:center
I remember every year,
00:48:41.357 --> 00:48:44.736 align:center
my grandpa would get up
out of his... His old folding chair
00:48:45.486 --> 00:48:48.990 align:center
and he would tip his hat
to everybody.
00:48:49.073 --> 00:48:50.575 align:center
That's so cool.
Yeah.
00:48:54.370 --> 00:48:56.748 align:center
There's a new sheriff in town.
00:48:58.416 --> 00:49:00.376 align:center
First to fight
for the right
00:49:00.460 --> 00:49:02.003 align:center
And to build
the nation's might
00:49:02.086 --> 00:49:03.087 align:center
What?
00:49:03.171 --> 00:49:05.590 align:center
And the army...
Goes rolling along
00:49:05.673 --> 00:49:07.008 align:center
How... Who-Who
taught you that?
00:49:07.091 --> 00:49:08.652 align:center
Miss Truman Doctrine
taught you that, huh?
00:49:08.676 --> 00:49:10.344 align:center
No, she can't sing.
00:49:10.428 --> 00:49:13.765 align:center
Like, seriously, you should
see her on karaoke night, it hurts.
00:49:13.848 --> 00:49:15.391 align:center
My parents, however,
00:49:16.059 --> 00:49:18.227 align:center
uh, well, we just had
the immigrant experience
00:49:18.311 --> 00:49:20.855 align:center
where you double down on
being American, you know?
00:49:20.938 --> 00:49:22.690 align:center
So we celebrate
every holiday,
00:49:22.774 --> 00:49:26.569 align:center
and my dad loves
fireworks and hot dogs.
00:49:26.652 --> 00:49:29.030 align:center
So, I mean, you put
a firework in a bun
00:49:29.113 --> 00:49:32.408 align:center
and that would blow
his mind.
00:49:33.451 --> 00:49:35.411 align:center
All right, let's see what I
can do. Are you ready?
00:49:35.495 --> 00:49:38.414 align:center
I'm ready, let me see.
Okay, oof, oof, oof.
00:49:39.123 --> 00:49:41.250 align:center
Oh, no, he got away.
00:49:41.334 --> 00:49:43.503 align:center
- Mmm-hmm.
- Pick a spot.
00:49:43.586 --> 00:49:44.754 align:center
You need spectacles.
00:49:44.837 --> 00:49:47.924 align:center
Okay, so, so, so,
you know, zero...
00:49:48.007 --> 00:49:49.175 align:center
Well...
...deer.
00:49:49.258 --> 00:49:51.302 align:center
Um...
I-I shoot around them.
00:49:51.385 --> 00:49:52.970 align:center
I'm a pacifist...
Right.
00:49:53.054 --> 00:49:55.056 align:center
...so you help them scatter
so they can be free.
00:49:57.266 --> 00:49:59.477 align:center
You're way better at this
than I am.
00:49:59.560 --> 00:50:00.978 align:center
Well, you're-you're
a pacifist.
00:50:01.062 --> 00:50:02.271 align:center
Indeed, I am.
00:50:05.608 --> 00:50:07.568 align:center
So, um, so...
00:50:08.861 --> 00:50:09.862 align:center
Drinks?
Yes.
00:50:09.946 --> 00:50:11.781 align:center
Probably? Yeah,
I'm sure they're ready.
00:50:12.281 --> 00:50:13.616 align:center
Food, probably not.
Okay.
00:50:13.699 --> 00:50:15.699 align:center
Yeah, we might have to
wait till tomorrow for that.
00:50:21.624 --> 00:50:22.625 align:center
Hey, you.
00:50:23.417 --> 00:50:25.920 align:center
Zeke, you...
You've seen Merit?
00:50:27.213 --> 00:50:28.381 align:center
Sorry, Dr. Cole.
00:50:30.716 --> 00:50:32.385 align:center
Have you always
lived in Molalla?
00:50:33.177 --> 00:50:34.428 align:center
Molalla?
00:50:34.512 --> 00:50:37.932 align:center
Yeah.
I was born and raised here.
00:50:38.015 --> 00:50:39.767 align:center
Um, and then my dad,
of course,
00:50:39.851 --> 00:50:43.813 align:center
wanted me to take over the
family business at Shady Acres, um,
00:50:43.896 --> 00:50:46.774 align:center
but I did, I moved away for a
little while when I got married.
00:50:47.650 --> 00:50:49.068 align:center
When you got... What?
00:50:49.152 --> 00:50:50.862 align:center
Uh, formerly married.
00:50:50.945 --> 00:50:52.572 align:center
Formerly married.
00:50:52.655 --> 00:50:54.365 align:center
Oh.
00:50:54.448 --> 00:50:55.533 align:center
Six years.
00:50:55.616 --> 00:50:58.452 align:center
You were married for six years, or
you've been divorced for six years?
00:50:58.536 --> 00:50:59.871 align:center
Actually, both.
00:51:00.580 --> 00:51:02.456 align:center
That's a long time.
00:51:04.250 --> 00:51:05.251 align:center
Sorry, d...
00:51:06.127 --> 00:51:07.604 align:center
Does that...
Does that make you nervous
00:51:07.628 --> 00:51:08.897 align:center
to talk about the past?
What? No.
00:51:08.921 --> 00:51:12.258 align:center
No, I'm not nervous
about the past. I'm-I'm...
00:51:12.758 --> 00:51:15.553 align:center
I'm, uh, well...
I'm nervous about you, so...
00:51:16.971 --> 00:51:19.390 align:center
Indian people aren't
supposed to get divorced.
00:51:20.016 --> 00:51:22.101 align:center
It's definitely not
in the job description,
00:51:22.185 --> 00:51:25.730 align:center
so, um, I was... I was
just... I was so ashamed.
00:51:26.689 --> 00:51:30.193 align:center
I'd felt like
I'd failed at marriage,
00:51:30.276 --> 00:51:31.736 align:center
and it, um...
00:51:32.945 --> 00:51:37.617 align:center
Mmm, it, uh, it had... It had
a power over me and, um...
00:51:37.700 --> 00:51:39.869 align:center
But then, you know,
I just...
00:51:39.952 --> 00:51:41.954 align:center
Fuck it, I started
talking about it.
00:51:43.289 --> 00:51:44.540 align:center
It helped.
00:51:45.917 --> 00:51:47.376 align:center
Yeah, I mean,
it's not perfect.
00:51:47.460 --> 00:51:48.770 align:center
I still have PTSD
from my marriage.
00:51:48.794 --> 00:51:51.088 align:center
I mean, oh, my God,
I can hear her just...
00:51:52.882 --> 00:51:54.634 align:center
I'm so sorry,
that was so insensitive.
00:51:54.717 --> 00:51:56.802 align:center
Oh, no. It's all good.
No.
00:51:56.886 --> 00:51:58.447 align:center
No, there's no reason
for me to say that.
00:51:58.471 --> 00:52:01.599 align:center
You can relax, the
military doesn't own PTSD.
00:52:02.850 --> 00:52:04.727 align:center
We do happen to be
the best at it, though.
00:52:04.810 --> 00:52:06.646 align:center
Okay.
00:52:07.647 --> 00:52:11.609 align:center
How about you? Do you...
Do you have any war stories?
00:52:14.528 --> 00:52:15.571 align:center
Yeah.
00:52:17.406 --> 00:52:18.407 align:center
Yeah, I do.
00:52:19.951 --> 00:52:20.952 align:center
Um...
00:52:22.745 --> 00:52:25.790 align:center
Kind of third-wheeling it
tonight.
00:52:27.541 --> 00:52:28.876 align:center
Yeah, actually.
00:52:28.960 --> 00:52:31.629 align:center
Uh, when I was over there,
00:52:31.712 --> 00:52:33.256 align:center
um, Afghanistan, um...
00:52:33.339 --> 00:52:35.633 align:center
Actually,
00:52:36.425 --> 00:52:38.177 align:center
when I...
When I came back...
00:52:41.931 --> 00:52:43.140 align:center
Yeah.
00:52:46.394 --> 00:52:47.687 align:center
Um, I...
00:52:51.899 --> 00:52:53.567 align:center
Merit, are you...
00:52:53.651 --> 00:52:56.028 align:center
Hey, it's okay.
Are you all right?
00:52:56.112 --> 00:52:57.196 align:center
Are you okay?
00:52:57.280 --> 00:53:00.658 align:center
Um... I'm-I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, if, uh...
00:53:01.284 --> 00:53:02.368 align:center
Uh...
It's okay, it's okay.
00:53:02.451 --> 00:53:03.577 align:center
I gotta go.
It's okay.
00:53:15.548 --> 00:53:17.758 align:center
What was that?
What was what?
00:53:19.593 --> 00:53:21.721 align:center
Why would you
ruin that? Why?
00:53:22.680 --> 00:53:23.723 align:center
Zoe!
00:53:24.307 --> 00:53:25.891 align:center
That was
my first date since...
00:53:25.975 --> 00:53:27.143 align:center
Since what?
00:53:27.768 --> 00:53:29.812 align:center
Something traumatic
happened to you?
00:53:31.439 --> 00:53:33.607 align:center
Get the fuck
out of my face, Zoe.
00:53:34.692 --> 00:53:36.527 align:center
Get the fuck
out of my face!
00:53:37.445 --> 00:53:39.572 align:center
Damn, Merit,
never could take a joke.
00:53:52.501 --> 00:53:54.295 align:center
Oh, my God. Grandpa?
00:53:54.378 --> 00:53:55.921 align:center
Oh, my God.
00:53:56.005 --> 00:53:58.382 align:center
Grandpa, hey, hey.
00:53:58.466 --> 00:53:59.717 align:center
What?
00:53:59.800 --> 00:54:01.802 align:center
What happened?
Um...
00:54:02.678 --> 00:54:04.680 align:center
Oh, my God, you're
bleeding. I'm fine.
00:54:04.764 --> 00:54:06.307 align:center
Wait, are you...
Are you sure?
00:54:06.390 --> 00:54:07.975 align:center
Here, can you get up?
I can get up.
00:54:08.059 --> 00:54:09.935 align:center
I just didn't feel like it.
00:54:12.104 --> 00:54:14.148 align:center
Where were ya?
I was out.
00:54:14.231 --> 00:54:16.317 align:center
Well, I could've
used you here.
00:54:16.400 --> 00:54:18.235 align:center
Okay, here.
I'm-I'm fine.
00:54:19.528 --> 00:54:20.529 align:center
I'm fine.
00:54:22.907 --> 00:54:24.200 align:center
I'm fine.
00:54:29.914 --> 00:54:33.459 align:center
Thank goodness someone was
there to bring you back home.
00:54:53.521 --> 00:54:55.231 align:center
Hey, Mom.
Hey, sweetheart.
00:54:55.314 --> 00:54:56.482 align:center
What are you up to?
00:54:57.400 --> 00:55:00.069 align:center
Nothing, nothing. Just, um...
00:55:01.028 --> 00:55:02.822 align:center
hanging out with Grandpa
at the lake.
00:55:02.905 --> 00:55:04.865 align:center
Just, um, watching the geese.
00:55:04.949 --> 00:55:07.410 align:center
Well, that's great,
I'm glad you have time.
00:55:07.493 --> 00:55:09.954 align:center
So, I-I was thinking
the realtor could come by
00:55:10.037 --> 00:55:12.039 align:center
this afternoon at 2:00.
00:55:14.834 --> 00:55:16.674 align:center
Please leave your message...
00:55:17.920 --> 00:55:21.507 align:center
You know, when we met, I was sure
you were going to do the work, Merit.
00:55:23.509 --> 00:55:26.137 align:center
Guess it's never too late
to be surprised, hmm?
00:55:26.220 --> 00:55:27.346 align:center
Merit?
00:55:27.430 --> 00:55:29.723 align:center
Hello? Are you there?
Yeah, yeah, I'm here.
00:55:29.807 --> 00:55:31.767 align:center
Okay, great, so two
o'clock then, all right?
00:55:31.851 --> 00:55:33.727 align:center
Two o'clock they'll be there.
00:55:33.811 --> 00:55:36.147 align:center
Thanks so much, honey.
They'll see you at 2:00, bye.
00:55:48.909 --> 00:55:49.994 align:center
It's a gorgeous day.
00:55:52.204 --> 00:55:54.457 align:center
We should take the pontoon
boat out this afternoon,
00:55:54.540 --> 00:55:55.833 align:center
get some sun.
00:55:57.293 --> 00:55:59.420 align:center
The bird feeder
still needs fixing.
00:56:01.255 --> 00:56:04.467 align:center
Okay, well, we can go into town
and shop for new bird feeders.
00:56:04.550 --> 00:56:06.177 align:center
I got what I need.
00:56:06.260 --> 00:56:09.013 align:center
Maybe not new ones, but...
No, that would be crazy.
00:56:09.096 --> 00:56:10.097 align:center
...parts.
00:56:11.140 --> 00:56:13.017 align:center
What is this?
00:56:13.100 --> 00:56:14.101 align:center
Uh-oh.
00:56:14.185 --> 00:56:15.936 align:center
It's an iPod,
Grandpa, remember?
00:56:16.604 --> 00:56:17.605 align:center
Plays music.
00:56:18.314 --> 00:56:19.315 align:center
Let me see it.
00:56:20.191 --> 00:56:21.775 align:center
I put some new music
on it for you.
00:56:29.533 --> 00:56:31.035 align:center
Not bad.
00:56:31.702 --> 00:56:35.623 align:center
Still, I've seen AN/PRC-25
field radios in the trash
00:56:35.706 --> 00:56:37.666 align:center
that were capable
of playing music.
00:56:37.750 --> 00:56:40.920 align:center
That
funny feeling I caught the fever
00:56:41.003 --> 00:56:44.924 align:center
Seems I've had it for 18 years
00:56:46.592 --> 00:56:50.638 align:center
I thought I felt all right
But then it happened...
00:57:13.202 --> 00:57:16.038 align:center
You sure about the
pontoon boat? Yeah, I'm sure.
00:57:23.295 --> 00:57:26.966 align:center
Well, your grandpa is just
putting shit everywhere, isn't he?
00:57:28.842 --> 00:57:31.053 align:center
Hmm. Ooh.
00:57:31.720 --> 00:57:35.516 align:center
These expired in 2012. I
would still eat them, though.
00:57:36.475 --> 00:57:38.727 align:center
You know, my abuelo
was stubborn as hell, too.
00:57:38.811 --> 00:57:40.896 align:center
You don't have to...
No, no, really, he was.
00:57:41.397 --> 00:57:45.526 align:center
I mean, he loved us kids, but
anything we wanted to do was "no."
00:57:45.609 --> 00:57:47.152 align:center
"Want to go to the movies?"
"No."
00:57:47.236 --> 00:57:48.654 align:center
"Ice cream?" "No."
00:57:48.737 --> 00:57:50.656 align:center
Even shit he wanted to do
he wouldn't do.
00:57:51.365 --> 00:57:54.201 align:center
One time, I stole a Reader's
Digest from the library,
00:57:54.285 --> 00:57:55.720 align:center
and it had something
on the cover like,
00:57:55.744 --> 00:57:57.472 align:center
"A hundred fun things
to do with your grandkids,"
00:57:57.496 --> 00:57:59.176 align:center
and I put it in our mailbox
and just, like,
00:57:59.206 --> 00:58:00.850 align:center
pretended it got delivered
to the wrong address,
00:58:00.874 --> 00:58:02.793 align:center
and that con
worked like a charm.
00:58:02.876 --> 00:58:04.378 align:center
We had ice cream
that afternoon.
00:58:06.130 --> 00:58:07.631 align:center
Zoe, you're a genius.
00:58:07.715 --> 00:58:08.716 align:center
Thank you.
00:58:09.800 --> 00:58:11.093 align:center
Wait, why?
00:58:14.680 --> 00:58:17.158 align:center
Listen, my abuelo was kind of
dumb, and that was just ice cream.
00:58:17.182 --> 00:58:18.827 align:center
I don't think this is
gonna work the same way.
00:58:18.851 --> 00:58:19.852 align:center
No, it's gonna work.
00:58:21.770 --> 00:58:22.771 align:center
We just...
00:58:23.939 --> 00:58:25.566 align:center
Just gotta make
the ice cream his idea.
00:58:26.942 --> 00:58:29.486 align:center
Well, can we actually get
ice cream afterwards?
00:58:29.570 --> 00:58:32.031 align:center
'Cause now we've said it so
many times, I really want some.
00:58:44.835 --> 00:58:47.212 align:center
What in God's green hell
is that?
00:58:51.634 --> 00:58:53.010 align:center
Jesus.
00:58:53.093 --> 00:58:55.721 align:center
Goddamn it, Emmy! What...
00:58:56.972 --> 00:58:59.391 align:center
Jesus Christ.
Ooh, you did it now.
00:58:59.475 --> 00:59:00.559 align:center
This is the plan.
00:59:03.062 --> 00:59:05.356 align:center
You're gonna flood it.
00:59:05.439 --> 00:59:06.607 align:center
There it goes.
00:59:14.740 --> 00:59:17.409 align:center
Be a shame to squander
a beautiful day like this.
00:59:21.872 --> 00:59:23.332 align:center
Get in your seat.
00:59:23.957 --> 00:59:25.668 align:center
You're on rocks lookout.
00:59:26.460 --> 00:59:28.379 align:center
Charlie Mike.
00:59:55.614 --> 00:59:58.534 align:center
So, what's the plan then?
01:00:00.953 --> 01:00:02.454 align:center
The plan?
Yeah.
01:00:02.538 --> 01:00:05.958 align:center
You and your mom, I'm sure
there's some scheme afloat.
01:00:08.001 --> 01:00:09.294 align:center
She's just worried about you.
01:00:10.212 --> 01:00:11.797 align:center
Yeah, what about you?
01:00:14.299 --> 01:00:16.093 align:center
I just want you to be happy.
01:00:20.597 --> 01:00:22.878 align:center
I've actually been meaning
to talk to you about the cabin.
01:00:24.935 --> 01:00:28.772 align:center
You know, your grandma,
she loved this lake.
01:00:30.482 --> 01:00:32.401 align:center
Especially in the wintertime.
01:00:32.484 --> 01:00:34.737 align:center
She thought it was
prettiest then.
01:00:34.820 --> 01:00:37.072 align:center
Always preferred
the summers myself.
01:00:37.156 --> 01:00:39.032 align:center
"Too damn muggy," she'd say.
01:00:39.658 --> 01:00:43.495 align:center
"Didn't you get
enough humidity in Vietnam?"
01:00:44.788 --> 01:00:49.001 align:center
That was her one
Vietnam joke.
01:00:49.668 --> 01:00:51.378 align:center
That's what
I think about now...
01:00:53.714 --> 01:00:55.257 align:center
hot days like today.
01:00:59.428 --> 01:01:01.388 align:center
That's why your little
snot-nosed ass
01:01:01.472 --> 01:01:03.599 align:center
used to spend all those
summers out here with me.
01:01:04.808 --> 01:01:08.228 align:center
You didn't talk much,
and you...
01:01:08.979 --> 01:01:13.442 align:center
You were
a deadeye on rocks lookout.
01:01:13.525 --> 01:01:15.319 align:center
Perfect fisherman's mate.
01:01:15.944 --> 01:01:17.112 align:center
I loved it.
01:01:18.614 --> 01:01:21.700 align:center
I love being out here.
01:01:22.409 --> 01:01:24.411 align:center
Why haven't we seen you
in so long?
01:01:29.583 --> 01:01:33.837 align:center
I thought for sure you'd have shown
up during your grandma's final days.
01:01:36.799 --> 01:01:38.634 align:center
At her funeral.
01:01:41.011 --> 01:01:43.514 align:center
Do not tell him.
01:01:54.024 --> 01:01:57.110 align:center
I've... I've been dealing
with some things...
01:01:58.946 --> 01:02:00.197 align:center
from over there.
01:02:02.074 --> 01:02:03.408 align:center
Yeah, let me guess...
01:02:04.785 --> 01:02:06.036 align:center
PTSD?
01:02:09.873 --> 01:02:11.542 align:center
You Iraq and Afghan vets,
01:02:11.625 --> 01:02:14.795 align:center
you know, your whole
entitled generation really,
01:02:14.878 --> 01:02:18.298 align:center
blame everything on
something or someone else.
01:02:18.382 --> 01:02:21.301 align:center
You know, when we came
back, we didn't have any PTSD
01:02:21.385 --> 01:02:23.095 align:center
to blame everything on.
01:02:23.178 --> 01:02:25.556 align:center
Call it what you want. Combat
stress, shell shock, whatever.
01:02:25.639 --> 01:02:28.976 align:center
Goddamn it, don't
"whatever" me, young lady.
01:02:29.059 --> 01:02:31.103 align:center
Our wars were not the same.
01:02:33.397 --> 01:02:36.316 align:center
I read in the Army Times that
people line up at the airports
01:02:36.400 --> 01:02:39.528 align:center
and greet each and every one of
you when you return home from duty.
01:02:40.195 --> 01:02:41.196 align:center
Is that true?
01:02:41.864 --> 01:02:43.323 align:center
Did that happen to you?
01:02:45.367 --> 01:02:46.785 align:center
You know what
happened to me?
01:02:48.036 --> 01:02:53.834 align:center
I had to change out of my uniform
at SFO in a public bathroom.
01:02:53.917 --> 01:02:55.794 align:center
And I still got spit on.
01:02:58.463 --> 01:03:00.716 align:center
My short hair
and my green duffel,
01:03:01.884 --> 01:03:03.886 align:center
that's how they knew
I was a baby killer.
01:03:04.887 --> 01:03:07.431 align:center
I didn't know that.
You never talked about it.
01:03:07.514 --> 01:03:08.891 align:center
Well, why would I?
01:03:08.974 --> 01:03:10.559 align:center
Why burden any of you
with that?
01:03:10.642 --> 01:03:12.436 align:center
That's... That's
what a soldier does.
01:03:12.519 --> 01:03:15.105 align:center
We go out and do things
nobody else wants to do.
01:03:15.814 --> 01:03:16.982 align:center
And we suck it up.
01:03:17.858 --> 01:03:19.651 align:center
Well, I am sucking it up.
01:03:21.361 --> 01:03:22.529 align:center
Believe me.
01:03:26.533 --> 01:03:28.785 align:center
We have each other,
you know.
01:03:29.411 --> 01:03:30.621 align:center
Us veterans.
01:03:31.580 --> 01:03:34.625 align:center
You know, maybe I didn't talk
about my war with you guys,
01:03:34.708 --> 01:03:37.920 align:center
but I sure as hell talked
about it down at the VFW.
01:03:38.837 --> 01:03:41.214 align:center
Even brought your mom
a few times on bingo night
01:03:41.298 --> 01:03:44.509 align:center
when she was just knee-high
to a grasshopper.
01:03:44.593 --> 01:03:46.428 align:center
I bet she took bingo
very seriously.
01:03:46.511 --> 01:03:48.305 align:center
She played four boards
at a time.
01:03:48.388 --> 01:03:50.807 align:center
She used to yell at us
for talking too much.
01:03:57.648 --> 01:03:58.857 align:center
I should've been here.
01:04:03.820 --> 01:04:07.866 align:center
Okay, Em, why don't you come
on over here and steer us home?
01:04:09.034 --> 01:04:10.410 align:center
Yes, sir.
01:04:42.901 --> 01:04:43.986 align:center
Thanks.
01:04:52.077 --> 01:04:54.246 align:center
I thought you only ate
that gŸten-free stuff.
01:04:54.329 --> 01:04:56.540 align:center
Why,
because I live in the city?
01:04:57.499 --> 01:04:58.834 align:center
I'm still your
granddaughter.
01:04:58.917 --> 01:05:01.461 align:center
Yeah, you're gonna have
to speak up, darlin'.
01:05:02.504 --> 01:05:06.174 align:center
Everybody talks
so quietly these days. Jesus.
01:05:07.592 --> 01:05:11.304 align:center
So, the Fourth of July celebration
and craft show is tomorrow.
01:05:11.388 --> 01:05:12.973 align:center
You mean the crap show?
01:05:13.056 --> 01:05:16.351 align:center
I know you have everything
that you need here, but...
01:05:17.728 --> 01:05:19.938 align:center
I thought maybe we could go
to Roy Purdy's booth.
01:05:20.022 --> 01:05:23.108 align:center
I'll bet he has some spare parts
to fix that bird feeder of yours.
01:05:23.191 --> 01:05:25.736 align:center
Mmm, perhaps.
01:05:25.819 --> 01:05:27.112 align:center
I could drive us in.
01:05:28.447 --> 01:05:29.948 align:center
First thing in the morning.
01:05:31.950 --> 01:05:33.410 align:center
I'm goin' to bed.
01:05:41.960 --> 01:05:43.503 align:center
Not really hungry.
01:05:52.012 --> 01:05:55.015 align:center
Yeah, hi, I'm Richard,
semper fi.
01:05:55.098 --> 01:05:56.534 align:center
I was a marine lieutenant
in Vietnam.
01:05:56.558 --> 01:05:58.226 align:center
Platoon commander,
combat type.
01:05:58.310 --> 01:05:59.728 align:center
Navy commander,
trauma surgeon.
01:05:59.811 --> 01:06:02.022 align:center
I work the ER
over at St. John's.
01:06:02.105 --> 01:06:04.024 align:center
Army, staff sergeant, OIF1.
01:06:04.107 --> 01:06:08.111 align:center
I was deployed to Iraq twice
and Afghanistan once
01:06:08.195 --> 01:06:10.697 align:center
and now I'm a teacher.
01:06:10.781 --> 01:06:12.991 align:center
Going back to school,
get my MBA.
01:06:13.075 --> 01:06:15.160 align:center
You know, proving
that all marines aren't dumb.
01:06:15.243 --> 01:06:18.121 align:center
Now I work in finance,
but I hate it.
01:06:18.205 --> 01:06:21.833 align:center
So, um, I tried to find
something that I do love now,
01:06:21.917 --> 01:06:23.477 align:center
and it turns out
that's stand-up comedy,
01:06:23.502 --> 01:06:24.711 align:center
so I've been
giving that a try.
01:06:25.545 --> 01:06:27.547 align:center
"Being in the military's
a lot like being Asian.
01:06:28.381 --> 01:06:30.941 align:center
"We all kinda look alike and
everybody thinks we're the marines."
01:06:32.427 --> 01:06:34.721 align:center
The world has this impression
of who we are
01:06:34.805 --> 01:06:36.306 align:center
when we say
that we're veterans.
01:06:36.389 --> 01:06:38.517 align:center
Trying vulnerability
and talking to my friends,
01:06:38.600 --> 01:06:40.310 align:center
but realizing, like...
01:06:40.393 --> 01:06:43.855 align:center
I can't tell them about the
things that I've done or...
01:06:43.939 --> 01:06:46.775 align:center
Eh, all this Iraq
and Afghanistan stuff
01:06:46.858 --> 01:06:48.985 align:center
has brought up
some old tapes for me.
01:06:49.069 --> 01:06:52.114 align:center
So, I wanted to come here and
share with you what I could and...
01:06:52.197 --> 01:06:55.534 align:center
I've lost more guys back
home, though, than I did in Iraq.
01:06:56.493 --> 01:06:57.661 align:center
Thanks, James.
01:07:14.553 --> 01:07:15.804 align:center
- Hey.
- Hey.
01:07:15.887 --> 01:07:19.516 align:center
Uh, sorry, I haven't gotten
back to you about the room.
01:07:19.599 --> 01:07:22.060 align:center
Yeah, no, it's cool. You
still got two days anyways.
01:07:22.144 --> 01:07:23.436 align:center
I wasn't calling
about that.
01:07:23.520 --> 01:07:26.773 align:center
I was just... I was just
checking on you, soldier,
01:07:26.857 --> 01:07:29.359 align:center
um, 'cause last night, uh...
01:07:29.442 --> 01:07:30.777 align:center
Yeah, uh...
01:07:33.989 --> 01:07:36.700 align:center
I'm... I'm sorry,
I don't...
01:07:37.325 --> 01:07:40.078 align:center
Look, I'm a forgiving
and noble man.
01:07:40.162 --> 01:07:41.955 align:center
So, you're good.
01:07:42.038 --> 01:07:44.291 align:center
Yeah, and...
And considerate.
01:07:44.374 --> 01:07:49.504 align:center
And I'm also handsome and I
do my taxes on time usually, so...
01:07:51.965 --> 01:07:54.593 align:center
Um, when can I see you again?
01:07:57.179 --> 01:08:00.098 align:center
How about the Fourth of
July thing? You going to that?
01:08:00.182 --> 01:08:02.184 align:center
Yeah, well, I hope so.
01:08:02.726 --> 01:08:05.896 align:center
Yeah? Okay, uh, well, um,
thanks for picking up.
01:08:05.979 --> 01:08:08.940 align:center
And, um, good night, Merit.
01:08:09.024 --> 01:08:10.233 align:center
Good night.
01:08:15.739 --> 01:08:17.115 align:center
Oh, shit.
01:08:17.949 --> 01:08:19.576 align:center
You scared me, Zoe.
01:08:20.285 --> 01:08:22.621 align:center
I'm your shadow. Boo!
01:08:24.789 --> 01:08:25.790 align:center
Where else would I be?
01:08:29.002 --> 01:08:30.337 align:center
Hey, um...
01:08:32.672 --> 01:08:34.925 align:center
next time you want to tell
your granddad about me,
01:08:35.842 --> 01:08:38.762 align:center
why don't you tell him about
your big plans for him instead?
01:08:39.596 --> 01:08:42.057 align:center
How you're going to take
him away from his home,
01:08:42.140 --> 01:08:43.892 align:center
and his boat and his birds,
01:08:43.975 --> 01:08:46.770 align:center
and stick him in
a septuagenarian purgatory
01:08:46.853 --> 01:08:49.189 align:center
where he'll die confused
and alone.
01:08:56.196 --> 01:08:57.197 align:center
Coward.
01:09:49.749 --> 01:09:51.876 align:center
You got any other tunes
on this thing?
01:09:53.545 --> 01:09:54.713 align:center
Sir, yes, sir.
01:10:02.262 --> 01:10:03.805 align:center
Fine, this one
is a good one.
01:10:09.102 --> 01:10:12.522 align:center
Once I had a dream
that made me sad
01:10:12.605 --> 01:10:14.065 align:center
Made me sad
01:10:15.358 --> 01:10:19.154 align:center
How so many people can be bad
01:10:21.197 --> 01:10:23.950 align:center
Everybody wants
all they can grab
01:10:24.034 --> 01:10:25.660 align:center
They can grab
01:10:27.120 --> 01:10:30.915 align:center
No one's ever happy
with their share
01:10:35.795 --> 01:10:38.923 align:center
We're all here until
we know not when
01:10:39.007 --> 01:10:40.467 align:center
Not when
01:10:41.843 --> 01:10:45.680 align:center
Love has gone
And won't come back again
01:10:46.264 --> 01:10:47.265 align:center
There's Roy.
01:10:47.349 --> 01:10:49.225 align:center
Well, I'll be.
01:10:49.309 --> 01:10:50.643 align:center
Is that Dale?
01:10:50.727 --> 01:10:52.645 align:center
You're damn right it is.
01:10:52.729 --> 01:10:56.024 align:center
How the hell are ya, Roy?
Oh, you know, can't complain.
01:10:56.107 --> 01:10:57.484 align:center
Good to see you.
01:10:57.567 --> 01:11:00.278 align:center
Ah, we haven't seen you
since Angela passed.
01:11:01.738 --> 01:11:02.864 align:center
How you been holding up?
01:11:04.491 --> 01:11:07.452 align:center
Oh, fine. Doing fine.
Uh-huh.
01:11:07.535 --> 01:11:11.289 align:center
Listen, Roy, I need some material
for an old finch feeder I've got.
01:11:11.373 --> 01:11:14.209 align:center
I've had it for years and the
damn thing's falling apart on me.
01:11:14.918 --> 01:11:17.462 align:center
What do you think about a new
one, huh? Well, what do you got?
01:11:17.545 --> 01:11:19.464 align:center
I thought you didn't
want... Oh, hush.
01:11:19.547 --> 01:11:21.549 align:center
You must be...
Merit.
01:11:21.633 --> 01:11:24.010 align:center
Merit!
That's my granddaughter.
01:11:24.094 --> 01:11:25.678 align:center
She lives in the city.
01:11:25.762 --> 01:11:27.806 align:center
I don't believe it. Wow.
01:11:27.889 --> 01:11:29.933 align:center
Last time I saw you,
you were about this high,
01:11:30.016 --> 01:11:32.352 align:center
playing with G.I. Joes.
Ah.
01:11:32.977 --> 01:11:34.312 align:center
What are you up to
these days?
01:11:34.396 --> 01:11:35.772 align:center
Not much.
01:11:36.773 --> 01:11:38.108 align:center
She was in Afghanistan.
01:11:38.691 --> 01:11:39.943 align:center
Lightweight
vehicle mechanic.
01:11:40.026 --> 01:11:43.029 align:center
And then they stuck her on some
outpost near the Pakistan border
01:11:43.113 --> 01:11:46.574 align:center
pulling guard duty detail
for the 10th Mountain grunts.
01:11:47.283 --> 01:11:49.244 align:center
Army's run by a bunch
of yahoos these days.
01:11:49.327 --> 01:11:51.955 align:center
Well, thank you
for your service.
01:11:52.038 --> 01:11:54.332 align:center
Welcome home, young lady.
Thank you very much.
01:11:54.416 --> 01:11:55.834 align:center
How much is this one?
01:11:56.459 --> 01:11:59.254 align:center
Oh, $40.
For you, Dale, $50.
01:12:00.839 --> 01:12:03.091 align:center
Well, fine.
We'll take it.
01:12:04.175 --> 01:12:05.802 align:center
Good.
Do you have money?
01:12:05.885 --> 01:12:08.471 align:center
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
I think so.
01:12:08.555 --> 01:12:10.432 align:center
Good to see ya, Roy.
Good to see you.
01:12:11.683 --> 01:12:12.892 align:center
40.
It's 40.
01:12:13.518 --> 01:12:15.019 align:center
Sticking you
with the bill, huh?
01:12:17.063 --> 01:12:18.898 align:center
Doesn't he know
you're broke?
01:12:18.982 --> 01:12:23.736 align:center
We will continue tonight's program
with a salute to our nation's veterans.
01:12:23.820 --> 01:12:27.949 align:center
As is our tradition, if you've
served or are currently serving,
01:12:28.032 --> 01:12:30.285 align:center
when you hear your
branch's song played,
01:12:30.368 --> 01:12:32.996 align:center
please stand
and be recognized.
01:12:41.713 --> 01:12:43.840 align:center
March along
01:12:43.923 --> 01:12:45.758 align:center
Sing our song
01:12:45.842 --> 01:12:49.804 align:center
With the army of the free
01:12:49.888 --> 01:12:53.558 align:center
Count the brave
Count the true
01:12:53.641 --> 01:12:56.728 align:center
Who have fought to victory
01:12:57.687 --> 01:13:01.357 align:center
We're the army and proud
of our name
01:13:01.441 --> 01:13:05.111 align:center
We're the army and proudly
proclaim...
01:13:56.621 --> 01:13:58.414 align:center
First to fight for the right
01:13:58.498 --> 01:14:00.667 align:center
And to build
the nation's might
01:14:00.750 --> 01:14:04.337 align:center
And the army
goes rolling along
01:14:04.420 --> 01:14:06.381 align:center
Proud of all we have done
01:14:06.464 --> 01:14:08.132 align:center
Fighting till the battle's won
01:14:08.216 --> 01:14:11.594 align:center
And the army
goes rolling along
01:14:11.678 --> 01:14:14.681 align:center
Then it's hi, hi, hey
01:14:14.764 --> 01:14:16.474 align:center
The army's on its way
01:14:16.558 --> 01:14:19.811 align:center
Count off the cadence
loud and strong
01:14:19.894 --> 01:14:23.940 align:center
For where'er we go
You will always know
01:14:24.023 --> 01:14:27.443 align:center
That the army
goes rolling along
01:14:46.838 --> 01:14:48.673 align:center
Seems like
right up here is good, yeah?
01:14:48.756 --> 01:14:50.008 align:center
Yeah, fine.
01:14:50.883 --> 01:14:52.135 align:center
Hey, Merit?
01:14:52.635 --> 01:14:53.636 align:center
Hey!
01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:54.762 align:center
What's up, stranger?
01:14:54.846 --> 01:14:57.307 align:center
Hey.
You look, uh, um...
01:14:57.390 --> 01:15:00.018 align:center
Hi, uh...
01:15:00.101 --> 01:15:01.477 align:center
You must be the colonel.
01:15:01.561 --> 01:15:04.689 align:center
Lieutenant colonel. Retired.
Who are you?
01:15:04.772 --> 01:15:08.026 align:center
Uh, hi, I'm Alex,
Manager First Class,
01:15:08.109 --> 01:15:10.028 align:center
Shady Acres
Assisted Living Facility.
01:15:14.240 --> 01:15:15.783 align:center
Come again? What?
01:15:15.867 --> 01:15:18.369 align:center
That's a retirement
home, right?
01:15:18.453 --> 01:15:21.205 align:center
I...
01:15:23.333 --> 01:15:25.168 align:center
How do you two
know each other?
01:15:26.294 --> 01:15:31.382 align:center
Uh, uh, we-we, uh...
We met at-at-at...
01:15:33.760 --> 01:15:36.679 align:center
Grandpa.
Traitor!
01:15:39.599 --> 01:15:41.434 align:center
Fuck.
I'm sorry, I didn't know.
01:15:41.517 --> 01:15:42.560 align:center
Of course you didn't!
01:15:42.644 --> 01:15:43.978 align:center
Hey, don't you think
01:15:44.062 --> 01:15:46.022 align:center
you should give him
some space? What?
01:15:46.105 --> 01:15:47.785 align:center
You used to be so good
at giving him space.
01:15:47.815 --> 01:15:49.108 align:center
Zoe, let me go.
01:15:52.904 --> 01:15:53.905 align:center
Grandpa!
01:16:01.204 --> 01:16:02.205 align:center
Grandpa!
01:16:32.902 --> 01:16:34.612 align:center
Get back inside!
01:16:34.696 --> 01:16:36.656 align:center
What is wrong
with you? Stop!
01:16:39.409 --> 01:16:41.994 align:center
Get back inside, now!
Why?
01:16:42.704 --> 01:16:43.830 align:center
No, no!
01:16:54.590 --> 01:16:55.842 align:center
Mom?
01:16:56.634 --> 01:16:57.927 align:center
I...
01:16:58.010 --> 01:16:59.011 align:center
Uh...
01:17:00.012 --> 01:17:01.055 align:center
Grandpa, uh...
01:17:01.139 --> 01:17:03.766 align:center
Yeah, don't worry.
He's here. He's here?
01:17:03.850 --> 01:17:05.685 align:center
He's in bed
and he is resting.
01:17:05.768 --> 01:17:07.353 align:center
Oh, thank God!
01:17:09.147 --> 01:17:11.524 align:center
I'm sorry, okay?
01:17:11.607 --> 01:17:14.360 align:center
It's... Listen,
listen to me, Mom.
01:17:14.444 --> 01:17:16.863 align:center
He got... He got upset. It
was so fast, he walked away...
01:17:16.946 --> 01:17:20.283 align:center
Merit, stop.
I can't.
01:17:22.618 --> 01:17:23.828 align:center
We'll talk in the morning.
01:17:51.230 --> 01:17:52.231 align:center
Hey.
01:17:53.149 --> 01:17:54.442 align:center
Hey!
01:17:54.525 --> 01:17:56.652 align:center
Hey, you gonna get that?
01:17:57.737 --> 01:17:58.738 align:center
I'll get it.
01:18:01.783 --> 01:18:03.576 align:center
S-O-G, this is ECP1.
01:18:03.659 --> 01:18:04.994 align:center
Green to green, over.
01:18:17.048 --> 01:18:18.841 align:center
I actually get
why you want to reenlist.
01:18:19.342 --> 01:18:20.343 align:center
Mmm?
01:18:21.135 --> 01:18:22.136 align:center
But you're wrong.
01:18:23.387 --> 01:18:24.472 align:center
Why?
01:18:24.555 --> 01:18:26.724 align:center
Aren't you the one that calls
us Imperial Stormtroopers
01:18:26.808 --> 01:18:28.559 align:center
tricked into
modern colonialism?
01:18:28.643 --> 01:18:30.686 align:center
Well, it's not not true.
01:18:30.770 --> 01:18:33.606 align:center
What about you could,
uh, I don't know, die?
01:18:35.149 --> 01:18:37.527 align:center
Well, then I will die in
a blaze of glory, I hope.
01:18:37.610 --> 01:18:39.320 align:center
Oh, fuck you.
01:18:39.403 --> 01:18:40.613 align:center
Ooh!
01:18:40.696 --> 01:18:42.406 align:center
Small words
from the college girl.
01:18:45.201 --> 01:18:47.078 align:center
All right, I got
a question for you then.
01:18:48.412 --> 01:18:51.791 align:center
Do you think we would be
friends back home?
01:18:52.333 --> 01:18:55.086 align:center
Where even is home for you?
You don't ever talk about it.
01:18:55.962 --> 01:18:56.963 align:center
Just answer me.
01:18:57.547 --> 01:18:58.965 align:center
Do you think
we would be friends?
01:18:59.590 --> 01:19:00.925 align:center
Of course we would.
01:19:01.008 --> 01:19:02.468 align:center
Okay, then how
would it work, like,
01:19:02.552 --> 01:19:04.053 align:center
honestly,
how would it work?
01:19:04.136 --> 01:19:06.681 align:center
Like, would we see
each other once a year
01:19:06.764 --> 01:19:10.685 align:center
and then, like, random calls,
and, I don't know,
01:19:10.768 --> 01:19:14.522 align:center
just eventually end up just liking
each other's Facebook posts and shit?
01:19:14.605 --> 01:19:17.483 align:center
I mean, yeah, why...
Why not?
01:19:17.567 --> 01:19:19.026 align:center
We can... We can
do whatever we want.
01:19:19.110 --> 01:19:20.695 align:center
Friendships evolve.
01:19:22.363 --> 01:19:24.243 align:center
Why don't you explain
where this is coming from?
01:19:25.116 --> 01:19:26.534 align:center
I'm just being realistic.
01:19:28.703 --> 01:19:31.581 align:center
I don't think you can explain
yourself, even if you wanted to.
01:19:31.664 --> 01:19:33.916 align:center
I have been explaining
myself. I told you, it's...
01:19:34.917 --> 01:19:37.628 align:center
Not everybody has a happy
fuckin' home to go back to, Merit.
01:19:37.712 --> 01:19:39.380 align:center
These are excuses, Zoe.
01:19:41.632 --> 01:19:43.384 align:center
You need to be honest.
Honest about what?
01:19:43.467 --> 01:19:44.844 align:center
That... That you're scared!
01:19:45.553 --> 01:19:48.514 align:center
You are scared
of what comes next.
01:19:50.308 --> 01:19:52.268 align:center
You wanna know where
your meals are coming from.
01:19:52.351 --> 01:19:54.395 align:center
You wanna be told
what to do every day.
01:19:56.063 --> 01:19:58.733 align:center
Okay, you think I'm scared?
01:19:58.816 --> 01:20:00.109 align:center
I think you're terrified.
01:20:09.452 --> 01:20:10.620 align:center
What are you doing?
01:20:11.287 --> 01:20:13.122 align:center
Where are you going?
What do you care?
01:20:19.378 --> 01:20:20.671 align:center
Zoe.
01:20:20.755 --> 01:20:23.049 align:center
What? Stop it!
01:20:24.467 --> 01:20:25.468 align:center
Zoe!
01:20:27.553 --> 01:20:28.554 align:center
Zoe!
01:20:54.622 --> 01:20:56.582 align:center
Mom was right.
You do feed them too much.
01:20:59.961 --> 01:21:01.671 align:center
You, your mother, Merit,
01:21:01.754 --> 01:21:05.466 align:center
you all seem to know a
lot about what's best for me.
01:21:09.637 --> 01:21:12.473 align:center
They are looking kind of
big. They're huge.
01:21:17.645 --> 01:21:21.190 align:center
Nice, having you and
your mom around, honey.
01:21:21.774 --> 01:21:22.817 align:center
Dad, Mom isn't here.
01:21:22.900 --> 01:21:27.571 align:center
Your mother and I, for 22 years,
went wherever the army sent me.
01:21:28.239 --> 01:21:30.116 align:center
And then
we bought this place.
01:21:30.992 --> 01:21:31.993 align:center
Together.
01:21:33.411 --> 01:21:36.163 align:center
Your mother wanted it
to stay in the family.
01:21:37.081 --> 01:21:40.251 align:center
I told you... I'm not
planning on letting her down.
01:21:42.086 --> 01:21:44.171 align:center
Long as I'm breathing,
I'm staying put.
01:22:12.867 --> 01:22:15.411 align:center
Mom... You know, when
the hospital called me
01:22:16.454 --> 01:22:19.081 align:center
to approve new medication for
your grandpa, I thanked them.
01:22:19.165 --> 01:22:22.084 align:center
I told them I was so happy
you were there as a proxy.
01:22:22.752 --> 01:22:26.505 align:center
And then when they told me you were
there 'cause your grandfather fell again,
01:22:26.589 --> 01:22:28.549 align:center
and I said, "Oh, I know,
no, Merit told me."
01:22:29.133 --> 01:22:30.134 align:center
Mom...
01:22:30.217 --> 01:22:31.260 align:center
You lied to me.
01:22:33.262 --> 01:22:35.097 align:center
Your grandfather
can't live on his own.
01:22:39.769 --> 01:22:40.853 align:center
I love you, Merit...
01:22:42.772 --> 01:22:43.814 align:center
but you've made a mess.
01:23:21.018 --> 01:23:22.311 align:center
What is wrong with you?
01:23:22.394 --> 01:23:23.479 align:center
Stop!
01:23:24.105 --> 01:23:25.731 align:center
Now, get back inside.
01:23:44.250 --> 01:23:46.377 align:center
Getting us both
fucking killed out here?
01:23:46.460 --> 01:23:48.754 align:center
Get back inside now.
No!
01:23:48.838 --> 01:23:51.274 align:center
Stop this, why are you acting like
your life doesn't mean anything?
01:23:51.298 --> 01:23:54.635 align:center
It doesn't, none of this means
anything. Yes, it does, stop.
01:23:54.718 --> 01:23:58.556 align:center
Why? Because I love
you and I care about you.
01:24:01.392 --> 01:24:03.227 align:center
Zoe,
01:24:04.145 --> 01:24:08.983 align:center
you're so big and your whole
life is ahead of you
01:24:09.066 --> 01:24:10.568 align:center
and you don't even see it.
01:24:10.651 --> 01:24:11.861 align:center
What life?
01:24:14.196 --> 01:24:15.489 align:center
We'll make it work.
01:24:17.700 --> 01:24:19.368 align:center
We will make it work.
01:24:20.578 --> 01:24:21.704 align:center
Okay?
01:24:24.123 --> 01:24:25.499 align:center
After the army.
01:24:28.335 --> 01:24:29.670 align:center
We'll figure it out.
01:24:31.714 --> 01:24:32.756 align:center
I swear.
01:24:40.222 --> 01:24:41.432 align:center
Zoe!
01:24:46.187 --> 01:24:47.229 align:center
You swore.
01:24:50.191 --> 01:24:51.650 align:center
Isn't that what you said?
01:24:52.443 --> 01:24:54.195 align:center
Me and you? You got me?
01:24:57.406 --> 01:24:59.074 align:center
I didn't reenlist
because of you.
01:25:29.813 --> 01:25:31.065 align:center
I believed you.
01:25:35.402 --> 01:25:36.445 align:center
I know.
01:25:38.530 --> 01:25:40.366 align:center
I know, I'm sorry.
01:25:41.575 --> 01:25:44.036 align:center
I'm sorry I convinced you
not to reenlist.
01:25:47.456 --> 01:25:49.750 align:center
I'm sorry I didn't see
how badly you were doing.
01:25:52.962 --> 01:25:54.421 align:center
And I am so sorry...
01:25:56.423 --> 01:25:58.634 align:center
I am so sorry
I didn't pick up.
01:27:14.418 --> 01:27:16.271 align:center
On behalf of the
President of the United States,
01:27:16.295 --> 01:27:18.756 align:center
the United States Army,
and a grateful nation,
01:27:18.839 --> 01:27:21.300 align:center
please accept this flag as
a symbol of our appreciation
01:27:21.383 --> 01:27:24.011 align:center
for your loved one's
honorable and faithful service.
01:27:25.554 --> 01:27:28.349 align:center
I hate my...
I hate myself.
01:27:28.432 --> 01:27:30.059 align:center
I hate myself for it.
01:27:31.393 --> 01:27:32.561 align:center
You, uh...
01:27:36.148 --> 01:27:37.191 align:center
Say it.
01:27:47.868 --> 01:27:49.912 align:center
You would still be alive
if it weren't for me.
01:27:59.463 --> 01:28:00.881 align:center
You can't tell anyone.
01:28:05.469 --> 01:28:07.805 align:center
I know,
and it's breaking me, Zoe.
01:28:11.892 --> 01:28:15.187 align:center
It's breaking me worse than
I'm already broken. I have to.
01:28:16.647 --> 01:28:17.940 align:center
If you tell them,
01:28:18.899 --> 01:28:20.317 align:center
you will lose me forever.
01:28:21.235 --> 01:28:23.737 align:center
And I will never,
ever forgive you.
01:28:36.458 --> 01:28:37.459 align:center
No...
01:28:51.348 --> 01:28:52.516 align:center
But Zoe would have.
01:30:33.909 --> 01:30:34.910 align:center
Huh.
01:30:41.250 --> 01:30:42.251 align:center
Mom!
01:30:42.751 --> 01:30:45.546 align:center
Wait, you can't sign these.
Merit, what are you doing?
01:30:45.629 --> 01:30:47.798 align:center
I'm sorry, can...
I-I need to stop you.
01:30:50.008 --> 01:30:51.468 align:center
Hi.
Hi.
01:30:52.970 --> 01:30:54.388 align:center
Can I talk to you
for a second?
01:30:56.056 --> 01:30:58.225 align:center
Um, yeah.
Just over... Over here.
01:30:58.308 --> 01:30:59.851 align:center
I promise you
I'll explain. Just...
01:30:59.935 --> 01:31:01.655 align:center
I will explain, just
please don't sign them.
01:31:05.315 --> 01:31:07.317 align:center
Hey. So, sorry.
It's, um... What?
01:31:07.401 --> 01:31:08.902 align:center
Look, I know,
I know, I'm gonna...
01:31:09.736 --> 01:31:10.737 align:center
Um...
01:31:12.155 --> 01:31:13.782 align:center
I'm sorry.
What?
01:31:13.865 --> 01:31:14.992 align:center
I'm sorry for everything
01:31:15.075 --> 01:31:16.994 align:center
at the bar.
At the bar?
01:31:17.077 --> 01:31:19.663 align:center
I'm sorry about the park,
I-I didn't know.
01:31:19.746 --> 01:31:21.206 align:center
Oh, it's okay, I...
01:31:22.249 --> 01:31:23.500 align:center
I should've told him.
01:31:24.876 --> 01:31:27.713 align:center
But thank you and...
01:31:27.796 --> 01:31:29.798 align:center
I'm working through
a lot of stuff right now.
01:31:29.881 --> 01:31:32.009 align:center
And, um,
I'm gonna get through it.
01:31:32.092 --> 01:31:33.427 align:center
Yeah.
So...
01:31:35.262 --> 01:31:38.348 align:center
Second chance? Hey.
You're being a goofball.
01:31:38.432 --> 01:31:39.808 align:center
Okay?
01:31:42.185 --> 01:31:44.354 align:center
Y-Your mom's
looking at us. Is she?
01:31:45.188 --> 01:31:46.857 align:center
Yes, she is.
Yeah.
01:31:46.940 --> 01:31:48.042 align:center
Okay, all right,
I'm gonna...
01:31:48.066 --> 01:31:50.485 align:center
Yeah.
Yeah, okay.
01:31:51.278 --> 01:31:53.363 align:center
Okay, okay, Mom,
listen. Um...
01:31:54.072 --> 01:31:56.908 align:center
Yeah. Don't sign these.
01:32:08.837 --> 01:32:12.382 align:center
Should've used the Loctite,
much better glue.
01:32:12.466 --> 01:32:15.218 align:center
I would, Grandpa, if you would
store it in a normal location.
01:32:17.971 --> 01:32:19.056 align:center
Tell him the news.
01:32:21.808 --> 01:32:23.602 align:center
You're not going
to Shady Acres.
01:32:23.685 --> 01:32:24.978 align:center
No shit.
01:32:29.858 --> 01:32:31.360 align:center
I'd like to stay here.
01:32:32.069 --> 01:32:33.236 align:center
Where?
01:32:33.320 --> 01:32:35.572 align:center
Here. With you.
01:32:36.907 --> 01:32:38.909 align:center
I can help you
around the house,
01:32:39.993 --> 01:32:42.454 align:center
I could fix stuff,
drive you places.
01:32:43.830 --> 01:32:45.666 align:center
Build you an organizer
for your glues.
01:33:07.187 --> 01:33:09.481 align:center
You should start
with the water heater.
01:33:10.524 --> 01:33:12.484 align:center
You gonna be taking
those long-ass showers,
01:33:12.567 --> 01:33:13.819 align:center
we'll need it in tip-top.
01:33:22.202 --> 01:33:24.413 align:center
All right.
01:33:25.997 --> 01:33:27.332 align:center
You sure about this?
01:33:28.583 --> 01:33:29.710 align:center
I am sure.
01:33:30.293 --> 01:33:31.795 align:center
Okay, yeah.
Oh!
01:33:32.671 --> 01:33:34.256 align:center
I gotta go, um,
01:33:34.840 --> 01:33:37.592 align:center
I have so much to tell you
both, but I have to go now.
01:33:37.676 --> 01:33:39.386 align:center
I'll be back
as soon as I can.
01:33:41.138 --> 01:33:42.178 align:center
Where the hell's
she going?
01:33:42.222 --> 01:33:43.862 align:center
I don't know.
01:33:47.310 --> 01:33:50.313 align:center
And that's when
you need me there
01:33:50.397 --> 01:33:53.275 align:center
With you I'll always share
01:33:53.358 --> 01:33:55.193 align:center
Because when the sun...
01:33:55.277 --> 01:33:57.571 align:center
No! Fuck!
01:33:57.654 --> 01:33:59.757 align:center
If this thing dies one more
time I'm just gonna kill myself.
01:33:59.781 --> 01:34:01.461 align:center
Don't do that, what
would I do without you?
01:34:01.491 --> 01:34:03.577 align:center
Well, you know, you'll get
your own umbrella I guess.
01:34:06.496 --> 01:34:08.266 align:center
Come on, hurry up. I
got it, I got it... Ready?
01:34:08.290 --> 01:34:10.751 align:center
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
01:34:10.834 --> 01:34:14.004 align:center
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll al...
01:34:14.087 --> 01:34:16.465 align:center
Let me
see it, just give it to me.
01:34:17.632 --> 01:34:19.634 align:center
Come on.
01:34:21.219 --> 01:34:23.847 align:center
Said I'll always be a friend
01:34:23.930 --> 01:34:26.641 align:center
Took an oath
Gonna stick it out to the end
01:34:26.725 --> 01:34:29.561 align:center
Now that it's raining more
than ever
01:34:29.644 --> 01:34:32.606 align:center
Told you we'll still have
each other
01:34:32.689 --> 01:34:35.650 align:center
You can stand under
my umbrella
01:34:35.734 --> 01:34:38.612 align:center
You can stand under
my umbrella
01:34:38.695 --> 01:34:42.574 align:center
Ella-ella, eh, eh, eh
01:34:42.657 --> 01:34:44.743 align:center
Under my umbrella
01:34:44.826 --> 01:34:48.705 align:center
Ella-ella, eh, eh, eh
01:34:48.789 --> 01:34:50.916 align:center
Under my umbrella
01:34:54.169 --> 01:34:56.004 align:center
We'd been back home
for about four years.
01:34:56.963 --> 01:34:59.174 align:center
He was like the coolest
dude ever...
01:34:59.257 --> 01:35:03.762 align:center
...and the last person you'd
ever think that...
01:35:08.016 --> 01:35:09.810 align:center
Surprised to see you.
01:35:10.769 --> 01:35:12.270 align:center
Never too late
to be surprised.
01:35:13.563 --> 01:35:15.732 align:center
We'll see.
Sorry, James.
01:35:17.234 --> 01:35:19.820 align:center
It's fine.
Do you want to...
01:35:24.908 --> 01:35:26.117 align:center
You ready?
01:35:36.837 --> 01:35:38.213 align:center
My name is Merit.
01:35:40.799 --> 01:35:42.384 align:center
Served eight years
in the army.
01:35:43.760 --> 01:35:46.221 align:center
63 Bravo,
light-wheel mechanic.
01:35:46.304 --> 01:35:49.224 align:center
Deployed to Afghanistan
in 2016.
01:35:54.104 --> 01:35:55.480 align:center
And why I'm here...
01:35:59.651 --> 01:36:00.944 align:center
It's not an incident.
01:36:11.705 --> 01:36:12.956 align:center
It's a person.
01:36:23.633 --> 01:36:24.968 align:center
Her name was Zoe.
01:36:27.178 --> 01:36:30.390 align:center
I've lived my life
01:36:30.473 --> 01:36:34.603 align:center
Awaking with the dawn
01:36:36.354 --> 01:36:42.068 align:center
Working on this house
To make it a home
01:36:42.569 --> 01:36:45.322 align:center
Some kind of wild protection,
although it doesn't really do jack,
01:36:45.405 --> 01:36:48.199 align:center
but it makes me feel more
comforting on the inside.
01:36:48.283 --> 01:36:51.745 align:center
Did you serve
your country? Roger, I'm really proud.
01:36:51.828 --> 01:36:52.913 align:center
You know...
01:36:52.996 --> 01:36:55.707 align:center
Looking out
01:36:55.790 --> 01:37:00.879 align:center
Feet on the sunlit ground
01:37:04.007 --> 01:37:08.929 align:center
Oh, I'm a beautiful ruin
01:37:09.012 --> 01:37:13.516 align:center
Memories of loss in my chest
01:37:13.600 --> 01:37:17.812 align:center
I thought they'd be my undoing
01:37:17.896 --> 01:37:21.441 align:center
But I'm scared to death
I'll forget
01:37:27.572 --> 01:37:31.076 align:center
I'm scared to death
I'll forget
01:37:40.877 --> 01:37:46.925 align:center
I felt it in my bones
The storm had broken
01:37:50.512 --> 01:37:53.014 align:center
A house
with shattered windows
01:37:53.098 --> 01:37:55.934 align:center
Still lets the light in
01:37:59.312 --> 01:38:05.151 align:center
Lately I've been thinking
Of starting a garden
01:38:07.362 --> 01:38:10.323 align:center
Watching it grow
01:38:10.407 --> 01:38:12.158 align:center
Breathing
01:38:12.242 --> 01:38:16.871 align:center
Letting you go
01:38:18.581 --> 01:38:23.336 align:center
Oh, I'm a beautiful ruin
01:38:23.420 --> 01:38:27.882 align:center
Memories of loss in my chest
01:38:27.966 --> 01:38:32.137 align:center
I thought they'd be my undoing
01:38:32.220 --> 01:38:36.349 align:center
But I'm scared to death
I'll forget
01:38:41.938 --> 01:38:45.734 align:center
I'm scared to death
I'll forget
01:38:48.361 --> 01:38:53.575 align:center
Forget
01:39:43.666 --> 01:39:45.376 align:center
I'm out of breath
01:39:45.460 --> 01:39:48.338 align:center
Gave it all, nothing left
01:39:48.421 --> 01:39:51.132 align:center
Didn't fall, I told you
01:39:51.216 --> 01:39:52.550 align:center
Didn't I?
01:39:52.634 --> 01:39:55.220 align:center
Just do, you'll be fine
01:39:55.303 --> 01:39:56.638 align:center
I'm running
01:39:56.721 --> 01:39:58.139 align:center
Hurting
01:39:58.223 --> 01:39:59.307 align:center
Pushing
01:39:59.390 --> 01:40:00.892 align:center
I got it, though
01:40:00.975 --> 01:40:02.227 align:center
You breathe it
01:40:02.310 --> 01:40:03.812 align:center
You mean it
01:40:03.895 --> 01:40:06.606 align:center
You see it
It's how I know
01:40:06.689 --> 01:40:08.900 align:center
I'm standing on a hill
01:40:08.983 --> 01:40:11.778 align:center
Looking up, looking down
01:40:11.861 --> 01:40:14.614 align:center
Wanna remember how it feels
01:40:14.697 --> 01:40:17.075 align:center
Don't forget to look around
01:40:17.158 --> 01:40:22.497 align:center
It's amazing
01:40:22.580 --> 01:40:27.627 align:center
Oh, amazing
01:40:27.710 --> 01:40:30.130 align:center
Oh, oh, oh, oh
01:40:30.213 --> 01:40:31.840 align:center
But tomorrow
01:40:31.923 --> 01:40:35.760 align:center
Tomorrow's another day
01:40:35.844 --> 01:40:37.720 align:center
So we get low
01:40:37.804 --> 01:40:40.390 align:center
Go home, don't fade away
01:40:40.473 --> 01:40:43.143 align:center
I'm not done, not empty
01:40:43.226 --> 01:40:46.020 align:center
Got more blood inside of me
01:40:46.104 --> 01:40:49.107 align:center
Full lungs, inhale deep
01:40:49.190 --> 01:40:51.818 align:center
Exhale all the chattering
01:40:51.901 --> 01:40:53.069 align:center
Fighting
01:40:53.153 --> 01:40:54.529 align:center
Another one
01:40:54.612 --> 01:40:55.864 align:center
Keep it up
01:40:55.947 --> 01:40:57.490 align:center
Until it's done
01:40:57.574 --> 01:40:58.825 align:center
Taking ground
01:40:58.908 --> 01:41:00.201 align:center
From me
01:41:00.285 --> 01:41:03.121 align:center
Making sounds
and moving my feet
01:41:03.204 --> 01:41:05.540 align:center
I'm standing on a hill
01:41:05.623 --> 01:41:08.251 align:center
Looking up, looking down
01:41:08.334 --> 01:41:11.087 align:center
Wanna remember how it feels
01:41:11.171 --> 01:41:13.631 align:center
Don't forget to look around
01:41:13.715 --> 01:41:19.179 align:center
It's amazing
01:41:19.262 --> 01:41:23.933 align:center
Oh, amazing
01:41:24.017 --> 01:41:26.811 align:center
Oh, oh, oh, oh
01:41:26.895 --> 01:41:28.396 align:center
But tomorrow
01:41:28.479 --> 01:41:31.024 align:center
Tomorrow's another day
01:41:32.233 --> 01:41:34.194 align:center
So we get low
01:41:34.277 --> 01:41:38.031 align:center
Go home, don't fade away
01:41:38.114 --> 01:41:39.741 align:center
But tomorrow
01:41:39.824 --> 01:41:42.327 align:center
Tomorrow's another day
01:41:43.620 --> 01:41:45.622 align:center
So we get low
01:41:45.705 --> 01:41:48.708 align:center
Go home, don't fade away
01:42:12.232 --> 01:42:13.566 align:center
Tomorrow
01:42:13.650 --> 01:42:16.277 align:center
Tomorrow's another day
01:42:17.779 --> 01:42:19.447 align:center
So we get low
01:42:19.530 --> 01:42:22.242 align:center
Go home, don't fade away
01:42:23.534 --> 01:42:24.786 align:center
But tomorrow
01:42:24.869 --> 01:42:27.789 align:center
Tomorrow's another day