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<i>No clouds in my stones</i>

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<i>Let it rain
I hydroplane in the bank</i>

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<i>Comin' down like the Dow
Jones...</i>

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We fly higher than weather

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<i>In G5s or better</i>

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<i>You know me</i>

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<i>In anticipation
for precipitation</i>

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<i>Stack chips for the rainy day</i>

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<i>Jay, Rain Man is back</i>

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<i>With Little Ms. Sunshine</i>

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<i>Rihanna, where you at?</i>

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<i>You have my heart</i>

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<i>And we'll never be
worlds apart</i>

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<i>Maybe in magazines</i>

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<i>But you'll still be my star</i>

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<i>Baby, 'cause in the dark</i>

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<i>You can't see shiny cars</i>

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<i>And that's when
you need me there</i>

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No!
Aw.

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I thought you fixed it!
Ugh.

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Zoe.
Mmm?

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Come on.
Sorry. Here.

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Oh, come on, Captain
America, we're in a war zone.

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Just live a little.

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It's not like anyone's gonna
come anyway.

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Oh, shit, shit, shit!
Shh!

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Shit!
Shit!

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Aw, fuck.

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Hey, Ramirez.

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I see you are filling out
that blouse quite nicely.

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Ew.

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God, you are
such a mouth-breather.

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Hey, Charles!

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Lookin' as pretty as ever.

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Mmm-mmm.

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What do you want, Lewis?

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Oh, um, Sergeant Shepherd's
on his way.

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For real?
Yep.

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Cool, okay. Fuck off, Lewis.

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Geez! I was just
trying to help.

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Fuck off!

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Can I call you? Call me? No!

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Ugh!
All right.

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No, no, wait, wait,
let me just finish the song,

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I just... I can fix it.

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Zoe. I can fix it, I
can fix it, I can fix it.

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Just let me just do this, and I
think, if I just hold this like this...

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I got it, I got it,
I got it. Ready?

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<i>I'll always share</i>

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<i>Because...</i>

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<i>When the sun shine
We shine together</i>

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You believe Ventura got
medevacked out of here

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for that tiny little
fuckin' scratch?

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She almost got blown up.

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I just hope that
everything is okay with her...

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You know.

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Her internal organs?
No, her tits.

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She's got great tits.

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So she might have PTSD and need therapy,
but at least her tits are all right.

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Yeah. They're important.

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Can you promise me something?

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Can you promise me we
won't get, like, fucked up?

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That's too easy.

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Taliban can't touch this.
Come on.

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No, I mean, like,
in the head.

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You already fucked up in the
head, so what does that matter?

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Merit, I'm serious!

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What are you saying?

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I'm saying that
if you ever catch me

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in some sort of, like, dopey-ass,
PTSD group therapy bullshit,

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or any kind of therapy,

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you have permission
to fucking kill me.

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So,
we're all here?

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Good. Who wants to start?

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James.

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Uh...

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James. Sergeant, Marine Corps.

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2004, Al-Anbar province
in Iraq.

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Um, our job was to go look for IEDs,
find the guys putting 'em out there.

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Cool story, bro. Shh!

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Merit?

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- Everything okay?
- Mmm...

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Mm-hmm. Yes, sir.

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Go on, James.

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The, uh, negative,
unhelpful feelings

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that I'm trying to process
from that day are, um... Um...

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Oh, my God.
James, okay, okay.

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Aren't we better than this,

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than this woe-is-me shit?

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Didn't we join the most
powerful military of all time,

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did we survive the
dumbest wars of all time,

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just to sit here broken
and all kumbaya

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and "Oh, ouchie, my feelings"?

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No! Fuck!

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Get it together! God!

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Ugh. Let's get out
of here. Be quiet.

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I'm listening.
Merit?

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I'm sorry.

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I'm so... I'm so...

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I'm sorry, James.

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Look, sorry, James.
Go on.

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Good work.

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I can't sign that.

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I was here.

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Yeah, you were
here, physically.

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But you didn't share.

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You didn't give your
attention to the others.

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We all have pasts.

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You think
you're the only one

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who doesn't want
to talk about it, Merit?

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<i>Fuck anybody else</i>

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<i>They don't know</i>

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<i>What we been through</i>

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<i>Fuck anybody else</i>

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<i>They don't know</i>

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<i>What the world did to you</i>

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<i>Fuck what they say</i>

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<i>They really got nothing
Good to say anyway</i>

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<i>Anytime, anyplace</i>

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<i>Fuck every one of them</i>

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<i>They ain't none of our friends</i>

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<i>All we need is this</i>

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<i>Two of us and a full clip</i>

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<i>No, they don't want beef</i>

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<i>They don't want nails, teeth</i>

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<i>They don't want knuckles, no</i>

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<i>They don't wanna bleed</i>

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<i>But I come for blood</i>

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<i>'Cause I fuckin'
love you, yeah</i>

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<i>Yeah, I'm crazy</i>

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<i>Crazy enough to say</i>

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<i>I'm crazy enough to swear
I'll die for you, yeah</i>

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<i>They don't know shit</i>

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<i>Don't know who they're
fuckin' with</i>

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<i>It's the power couple, ah</i>

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Honey, you're home!

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It's 8:00 a.m.

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Do you know
why people hate runners?

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Flat stomachs?
Sculpted legs?

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It's selfish.
It's a selfish sport.

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What the hell am I supposed
to do while you're gone?

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You could work on our puzzle.

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Man. That VA counselor guy,
what a dick.

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Mmm!

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I just had a genius idea.

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We watch <i>M*A*S*H</i> again,
but it's a drinking game.

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Shit! That is not a no.

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Ugh. Why does she always
FaceTime? It's so creepy.

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Hi, Mom.

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<i>Is talking to your mother
really that dreadful?</i>

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No, Mom, it's...

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How's China?

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<i>I'm in Hong Kong, honey.</i>

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<i>- There's a difference.</i>
- Is there?

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I mean, they had some
limited autonomy then.

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<i>So, how's the warehouse job?</i>

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<i>How's your life, boyfriend?</i>

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<i>Any friends?</i>

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Mom, please. Stop.

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I'm sure you called
because you need something.

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<i>I'm your mother, I'm allowed
to ask about your life.</i>

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Okay, so what did you call
about? <i>I need something.</i>

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- I knew it.
- I knew it!

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<i>It's your Grandpa Dale.
They found him wandering.</i>

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What do you mean, wandering?

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<i>Kwan found him
way out at her place.</i>

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<i>She took him to the hospital.</i>

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Okay, so he's okay, then.
<i>No, he's not...</i>

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<i>I just told you that your
grandpa was in the hospital.</i>

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<i>What is the matter with you?</i>
Okay, Mom, I...

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Sorry.

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I gotta go.
<i>No, no, no... No.</i>

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<i>I need you to go out there,</i>

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<i>I need you to go out to the lake
and check in on your grandpa,</i>

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<i>make sure he's all right.</i>

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<i>It smells like crayon.</i>

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<i>Merit?</i>
I can't. I, um...

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I just started a new group.

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<i>Oh.</i>
At the VA.

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<i>Like therapy, counseling?</i>

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Mmm-hmm.
<i>Did something happen?</i>

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No, I...

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I chose to.

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It's good, it's, it's...

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I think it's really
gonna help me,

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but I-I can't miss
any sessions, or...

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<i>That's wonderful news,
it really is.</i>

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<i>I will figure something out
for Grandpa.</i>

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<i>I'm really proud of you,
Merit, I really am.</i>

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<i>I know your dad would be, too.</i>

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Okay, Mom, I gotta go,
I love you.

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<i>I love you...</i>

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Did you hear back yet?

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No.

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I'm probably not even
gonna get in. Come on.

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Merit, look, I think college
is stupid and mostly useless,

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but you, you can do
anything you want.

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So if you want it,
you're gonna get it.

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You're the smartest person
I know.

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Nine-sixteenths.

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Let's see,
what could you major in?

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Oh, '90s hip-hop,
you're good at that.

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Lumber sciences, is that
a thing? Yeah.

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Maybe, yeah.

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You know, 'cause your family
owns a Christmas tree farm?

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Just thinkin' of the
family biz. Mmm-hmm.

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You could run that shit
like Santa.

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What about you after this?

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I don't know.

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You know you could
do something epic.

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Mm-hmm.

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Okay. Sure.

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All right,
I thought, for today,

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we would try something
different.

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Follow the bouncing ball.

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This is stupid,
but I'll-I'll play ball.

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Hi. My name is Assia.

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I was a captain
in the army.

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Um...

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I was the only female
in every unit I served in.

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On my first deployment,

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I was not allowed to
stay with my team

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where they were sleeping, and, um,
it was only because I was a female.

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And so, every day,
for our targeting mission,

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I had to drive by myself
for six hours.

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One direction,
six hours, back.

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Um...

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And I'm here

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because I'm trying
to belong to myself again.

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Try Merit.

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You ready?

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My name is Merit.

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I was... army.

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You're doing great.

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All right. Why don't we
start with an easy one?

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Why did you join?

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I joined
because of my grandpa.

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Hmm.

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He's retired from
the army 22 years,

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lieutenant colonel.

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When I was a kid, we
would go to music in the park

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on the Fourth of July,

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and the band would play the fight song
for each branch of the military, you know?

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And if you were a veteran,

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you would stand
when they played your song.

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Can you email me
the rest of this?

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When they played
the army song,

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my grandpa would stand, and...

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I swear, he seemed
a hundred feet tall to me.

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And I wanted to be tall too,
you know?

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So...

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Now tell us why you're here.

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What I wanna
talk about is-is...

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...is not an incident, it's...

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<i>- Back inside.</i>
<i>- Leave me alone!</i>

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It's a... It's a person.

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Merit?

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Go on.

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I don't... I don't...
I don't feel like it today.

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Alicia, air force,
14 years.

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Security forces.

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MP, for you other folks.

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See you later.
Yeah.

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I'm sorry.

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Why? I shared.

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You shared why
you joined the army.

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You did not share
why you are here,

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which is the point.

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If you don't show up
and share,

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I will have no choice
but to inform the court

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that you did not
complete the group.

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I'm sorry.

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I actually do get why
you wanna reenlist.

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But you're wrong.

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Not everybody has a happy
fuckin' home to go back to, Merit.

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Ma'am,
did you hear me?

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Sorry, say again?

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Your grandfather was found.

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He was found wandering.

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He didn't seem
to know where he was.

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We're lucky
someone brought him in.

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Right, yeah, that's Kwan.

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She... She owns the
lake house next to ours.

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- This has happened before, so...
- No. That was last time.

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Dale was found
on the side of Highway 8.

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The police brought him in.

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Look. We ran some tests.

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I'm diagnosing him with
early-stage Alzheimer's.

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I'm sorry.

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Never thought I'd see the day
when a man can't go for a walk

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on his own property.

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You weren't on your
own property, Grandpa.

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You were on Highway 8.

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And Kwan's before that.

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Who?
Exactly.

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I know who Kwan is. You
just pronounced it wrong.

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How do you pronounce it?
Kwan.

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Kwan...

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Sounds the same to me.

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What the hell
is this thing?

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It's an iPod,
it plays music.

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Huh. I've seen AN/PRC-25
field radios in the garbage

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look like they play music
better than this thing.

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Dale's got jokes.

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Want me
to help you in?

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Help how?

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You sure you're all right?
I'm better than all right.

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You don't think
you should help him in?

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Nah.

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You heard him.

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He's better than all right.

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Hi, Merit!

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Not much of a talker,
are you?

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People talk enough.

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I meant in group.

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I mean,
that's kind of the point.

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Talking. Listening.

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Not being alone.

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It's not as simple
as you think.

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Who said it was simple?

18:18.453 --> 18:21.039
You think it's easy
for everybody, anybody?

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No, I...

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Honestly, I don't even know
if I should be here.

18:26.711 --> 18:28.338
Well, it's not
about you, Merit.

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There are other people
in there.

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People who need
your attention.

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If you can't talk openly
about your life, how can they?

18:40.058 --> 18:44.604
I was medevacked out
of Vietnam in November 1968.

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I was shot,
almost lost my fuckin' arm.

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And for a decade,
I was alone, self-medicating.

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Strong and silent,
so I thought at the time.

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It wasn't until 1978 that I
finally started to talk about it.

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Respectfully, sir...

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I don't know if getting hurt is
the same as losing somebody.

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I don't know what
happened to you, Merit,

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what you lost, or who,

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but I do know that the kind of
behavior that brought you to me

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is not the kind of behavior
of a person who is healed.

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That behavior was
an accident, Dr. Cole.

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You dropped a forklift load
of television sets,

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almost crushed a coworker.

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Please! That guy at the
warehouse was all up in your shit.

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What you're
calling an accident,

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the court's calling
criminal negligence.

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Nobody died.

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Nobody died.
What?

19:49.377 --> 19:51.963
Merit, I know you think
you're above this.

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But... courage
is moving forward.

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I-It's not being unmoved.

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What is it that you are
so afraid to talk about?

20:02.724 --> 20:05.018
<i>What is wrong with you?</i>

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<i>Get back inside!</i>

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I just can't.

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If you don't show up
and participate

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and I don't sign off, you're
back on the mercy of the court.

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They'll fine you. Hell, they
may even put you in jail.

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If I were you,

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I would think
very seriously

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about what living
in the past is worth.

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Just sayin'.

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God, this literal shit
is literally killing me.

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We are light-wheel mechanics.

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This is not that. Ugh.

20:50.271 --> 20:53.066
Welcome to the army.

20:53.149 --> 20:57.820
Hey, did you give any more thought to
any of those supercool majors I suggested?

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What?

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Actually, uh...

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I got in... to Oregon.

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That's great.

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Thanks.

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Yeah, no, my, um...

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my cousin just, uh,

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told me he's gonna have a job
for me when I get out, so...

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Yeah? Your cousin?
That's cool.

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Mm-hmm.
Which one?

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Why didn't you tell me?

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I don't know, Zoe, I...

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I didn't know
how you would react.

21:50.790 --> 21:53.268
It's not like you've had anything
super positive to say about college.

21:53.292 --> 21:56.295
I love college.
I think college is amazing.

21:57.880 --> 22:00.299
Rich kids and snowflakes.
There it is.

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And I'm neither,
by the way. Okay.

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You know what I honestly
think? Here it goes.

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I think you get uncomfortable when anybody
talks about life after the military.

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Oh, is that what you think?
Yeah, that's what I think.

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Well... sorry you
misinterpreted me.

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I'm actually
really proud of you.

22:19.318 --> 22:21.612
I'm really excited for you.
Congratulations.

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Hey.

22:46.846 --> 22:49.974
Your mother called... again.

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If I were you, I would
not call her back.

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Ugh.

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<i>You dropped him off?</i>

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<i>What is wrong with you?</i>
Mom.

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<i>Merit, you're gonna
go back there,</i>

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<i>you're gonna help me sell
that cabin.</i>

23:19.837 --> 23:22.256
<i>I've already contacted
a realtor.</i>

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What? Grandpa
still lives there.

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<i>And that was fine
as long as he was fine,</i>

23:27.053 --> 23:29.764
<i>but he's not anymore.</i>
Where is he gonna live?

23:29.847 --> 23:31.390
<i>He's going to
a retirement home,</i>

23:31.474 --> 23:33.154
<i>and I've already started
making some calls.</i>

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<i>This has to be done, Merit.
He needs help.</i>

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Mom, I can't. <i>I just
don't understand, Merit.</i>

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There's no therapy
at the cabin.

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<i>You used to spend so much
time with your grandpa.</i>

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<i>Time presses on</i>

24:04.632 --> 24:09.595
<i>And on and on and on</i>

24:09.679 --> 24:15.309
<i>Time presses on and on</i>

24:17.562 --> 24:24.485
<i>Time presses on
And on and on and on</i>

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<i>Me and my red guitar
Sitting on the hardwood floor</i>

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<i>Singing this song about how
I don't love you anymore</i>

24:33.452 --> 24:35.997
<i>Crank the bass, turn me up</i>

24:36.080 --> 24:38.541
<i>We're tryna race, burn it up
Whoo, uh</i>

24:38.624 --> 24:41.043
<i>Shake the place, tear it up
Shake it, whoop</i>

24:41.127 --> 24:43.504
<i>We the greats
know you heard of us!</i>

24:50.428 --> 24:51.429
<i>Shake it, whoo</i>

24:51.512 --> 24:53.264
<i>Yeah, we the greats
Know you heard of us</i>

24:53.347 --> 24:54.932
<i>Heard about us, uh</i>

24:55.016 --> 24:56.809
<i>Uh, driving like I know
I want it</i>

24:56.892 --> 24:59.520
<i>Uh, yeah Celebrate it
if you pull up on 'em</i>

24:59.604 --> 25:00.855
<i>Zone, what up</i>

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<i>Simon got that pretty woman
Uh, yeah...</i>

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Wow. You didn't tell me
your grandfather lived

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on the set of a horror film.

25:08.613 --> 25:11.198
So which one of us do you
think is gonna get killed first?

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I mean, on the one hand,
you're Black.

25:15.161 --> 25:16.805
You guys don't make it long
in horror movies.

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But on the other hand,
I'm already dead.

25:18.497 --> 25:21.334
You seriously
need to stop.

25:21.417 --> 25:24.754
What? Isn't Oregon known
for its serial killers?

25:24.837 --> 25:27.089
Randall Woodfield,
the I-5 Bandit.

25:27.173 --> 25:30.551
Dayton Leroy Rogers,
the Molalla Forest Killer.

25:31.302 --> 25:32.613
There's something wrong
with your brain.

25:32.637 --> 25:34.055
Or is it yours?

25:52.239 --> 25:54.159
You know, this is exactly
how these movies start.

25:57.453 --> 25:59.664
Bunch of bees
over there.

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Wow, so secure.

26:08.214 --> 26:09.423
I feel very safe.

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Grandpa?

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Your grandma's so pretty.

26:28.776 --> 26:29.985
Yeah, she was.

26:31.404 --> 26:32.947
How come you never
talk about your dad?

26:36.784 --> 26:37.827
He died.

26:38.661 --> 26:40.329
Cancer. I was seven.

26:41.205 --> 26:45.167
Well, you should learn to talk about
your dead loved ones more often.

26:48.838 --> 26:50.756
That's an interesting place
for milk.

26:57.138 --> 26:58.889
Hey, there's your grandpa.

27:12.194 --> 27:13.320
Hey.

27:14.405 --> 27:15.489
Hi.

27:16.157 --> 27:17.158
Uh, hi.

27:17.241 --> 27:18.451
Wow, you're doing great.

27:18.534 --> 27:20.578
If you're here for
your grandmother's funeral,

27:20.661 --> 27:22.580
you're ten months late.

27:25.124 --> 27:28.544
I'm here to see you. No,
you're here to check on me.

27:28.627 --> 27:31.464
Your mother put you
up to it.

27:31.547 --> 27:33.424
I'm here
to see you, Grandpa.

27:33.507 --> 27:36.594
I'll bet she guilted you so
bad you just rushed right over here,

27:36.677 --> 27:38.471
didn't even remember to pack.

27:38.554 --> 27:40.806
We did forget the
toothpaste.

27:40.890 --> 27:43.601
- Am I wrong?
- I, um...

27:45.186 --> 27:46.437
I did talk to Mom,

27:47.021 --> 27:50.149
but I'm here because
I want to be.

27:55.988 --> 27:57.448
I'm sorry I left
the other day.

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Upstairs, second door
on the right.

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In case you don't remember.

28:20.346 --> 28:24.391
This house is legit spooky. I saw
a bat earlier. I'm not even kidding.

28:25.559 --> 28:27.561
So your Grandpa Dale does
not fuck around, does he?

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Yeah, nah, that's not
really his thing.

28:32.191 --> 28:33.359
No, no, no, no.

28:33.442 --> 28:35.587
When was the last time your
phone rang and it was good news?

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Don't pick that up.

28:44.537 --> 28:45.538
Hello?

28:46.121 --> 28:48.040
<i>You missed
tonight's session, Merit.</i>

28:48.666 --> 28:49.708
Yeah.

28:51.502 --> 28:54.088
Yeah, I don't... I don't...
I don't know what to tell you.

28:54.171 --> 28:55.673
I'm with my grandpa.

28:55.756 --> 28:57.675
<i>He has
early stage Alzheimer's.</i>

28:58.175 --> 28:59.927
<i>I have to stay with him,
he lives alone...</i>

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We've only got
two sessions left.

29:03.722 --> 29:05.516
<i>We all have demons, Merit.</i>

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But you don't have to
face them alone.

29:26.370 --> 29:28.205
Why is that guy
so obsessed with you?

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Ew.
Guess you still got it.

29:30.583 --> 29:32.918
Oh, please.
Still got it.

31:10.391 --> 31:14.186
Verl. Damn,
what a name. Hmm.

31:14.269 --> 31:16.981
1927 to 1944.

31:17.064 --> 31:18.857
What is that?
Seventeen.

31:20.275 --> 31:21.568
Probably died on D-Day.

31:22.277 --> 31:25.322
Damn, good for you,
Verl. Don't say that.

31:25.406 --> 31:28.283
What? I can joke about the
dead. These are my people.

31:35.499 --> 31:37.751
What is that?
Whatever it is, let it go.

31:40.254 --> 31:41.588
I said let it go.

31:43.298 --> 31:44.800
Hey!

31:46.802 --> 31:47.803
Hey!

31:48.929 --> 31:50.347
Hey!

31:50.431 --> 31:53.100
Holy shit. Sorry.

31:53.809 --> 31:55.394
Whew.

31:55.477 --> 31:57.730
What the
hell are you doing?

31:57.813 --> 32:00.399
Oh, man, you scared
me. Hi. This is a cemetery.

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Yeah, thank you
for the observation.

32:03.694 --> 32:06.822
You're noise polluting, and
you're disturbing the visitors.

32:06.905 --> 32:09.241
To be fair,
there's one visitor,

32:09.324 --> 32:10.743
singular, and, uh,

32:10.826 --> 32:12.995
how do you know
you're not disturbing me?

32:14.621 --> 32:16.165
Look, guy...

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My name's Alex.

32:17.624 --> 32:19.251
It's not even 8:00 a.m.

32:19.334 --> 32:21.253
I'm sorry,
did I wake you?

32:21.336 --> 32:23.922
Were you... Were you sleeping
behind a grave over there?

32:24.006 --> 32:25.090
What's going on?

32:25.174 --> 32:27.051
Right now in the morning,

32:27.134 --> 32:28.427
when it's early before work,

32:28.510 --> 32:30.095
that's-that's when
I'm free, okay?

32:30.179 --> 32:31.180
You don't work here?

32:31.263 --> 32:33.098
You're Weedwacking
and you don't work here?

32:33.182 --> 32:35.184
No, my grandparents
are buried over there.

32:35.893 --> 32:36.953
I know
what you're thinking.

32:36.977 --> 32:38.854
It's very cool that
I'm descended from

32:38.937 --> 32:41.190
one of the first Indian
families in Portland.

32:41.273 --> 32:42.733
Unless you don't think
it's cool

32:42.816 --> 32:44.777
that my <i>thatha</i> and
my <i>patti</i> are buried here,

32:44.860 --> 32:48.322
in which case, you're
a racist.

32:48.405 --> 32:51.533
I'm playing, it's the dandelions.
They grow like damn weeds.

32:51.617 --> 32:52.868
Well, they are a weed.

32:52.951 --> 32:55.329
Yeah, well, I cleaned my, uh...
my grandparents' tombstones,

32:55.412 --> 32:56.538
and they look beautiful,

32:56.622 --> 32:58.624
but then all the other ones
look like shit.

32:58.707 --> 33:02.169
And I-I got this thing
about cleanliness, so...

33:02.252 --> 33:04.588
And then you stomped in
and you started yelling at me.

33:06.381 --> 33:08.217
It's weirdly...
Selfless?

33:08.300 --> 33:10.260
Considerate.
It's very selfless.

33:10.344 --> 33:12.012
But it's weirdly
considerate.

33:14.681 --> 33:17.976
You should get a quieter one.
They're better for the environment.

33:18.060 --> 33:20.604
You're right, thank
you for the tip, stranger.

33:21.980 --> 33:23.565
Merit.
Merit.

33:23.649 --> 33:25.234
Wrap it up, high-speed.

33:31.490 --> 33:33.867
Okay, have a good run.

33:33.951 --> 33:35.702
Get a quieter one!

33:36.703 --> 33:39.456
<i>But
first, let me introduce today's guest.</i>

33:39.540 --> 33:43.293
<i>Bill Stokes is the author of the</i>
Birder's Conservation Handbook.

33:43.377 --> 33:46.839
<i>He's also an ornithologist at
the Oregon Songbird Initiative.</i>

33:46.922 --> 33:48.215
<i>He joins us today
from Portland.</i>

33:48.298 --> 33:50.759
<i>Thanks for talking with us
today, Bill.</i> BILL: <i>Thanks, Tessa.</i>

33:50.843 --> 33:53.470
<i>Let's talk about some of
the birds you cover in your book.</i>

33:56.306 --> 33:57.307
Want a hand?

33:58.517 --> 33:59.518
No.

34:00.477 --> 34:03.230
Reckon you'll just tell me
it ought to be replaced.

34:04.481 --> 34:06.775
Isn't that what
your generation does?

34:07.484 --> 34:10.195
Something needs repair,
you just get a new one.

34:10.279 --> 34:12.698
Well, I can't speak for my
generation, but I was a 63 Bravo,

34:12.781 --> 34:14.741
so I can repair
just about anything.

34:16.660 --> 34:18.412
There.

34:26.753 --> 34:29.464
Wow, Merit,
you're great at affection.

34:30.174 --> 34:32.801
Well, as long
as you're here.

34:34.136 --> 34:36.138
Paper goes in six,
remember?

34:38.348 --> 34:41.810
We don't live in the city. We
sort our own trash out here.

34:43.020 --> 34:44.563
Paper...

34:47.024 --> 34:49.067
...goes in six.

34:52.905 --> 34:55.199
Metal in one,
compost in two,

34:55.282 --> 34:57.659
plastic in three,
burn in four,

34:57.743 --> 35:00.412
trash in five,
paper in six.

35:01.830 --> 35:06.919
Hmm? Metal, compost,
plastic, burn, trash, paper.

35:09.129 --> 35:11.089
Got it?
Got it.

35:12.507 --> 35:13.926
Do you got it?

35:15.177 --> 35:16.511
I don't got it.

35:18.722 --> 35:21.058
What's the little one for?
Is that just a mystery?

35:23.936 --> 35:25.687
Okay, Mom,
I'm on my way.

35:59.638 --> 36:01.556
Yes, yes.

36:18.573 --> 36:19.700
Hi, sorry I'm late.

36:19.783 --> 36:22.452
My mother called ahead about
a room for Dale Tillman.

36:22.536 --> 36:23.829
Said you need a family
signature.

36:23.912 --> 36:26.999
Where's the sugar-free candy?
We used to...

36:27.624 --> 36:28.625
Oh, hey.

36:28.709 --> 36:30.794
Uh, it was
"stranger," right?

36:30.877 --> 36:32.254
Merit.
Merit, hi.

36:32.337 --> 36:33.755
Alex.
Yeah.

36:33.839 --> 36:34.923
Wow, you remembered.

36:35.757 --> 36:37.426
So you work here?
Yep.

36:37.509 --> 36:39.386
Actually, my family
owns the place.

36:39.469 --> 36:42.347
You know, they decided not
to go into the hotel industry

36:42.431 --> 36:43.640
'cause my dad was like...

36:43.724 --> 36:47.311
"Hmm,
assisted living. Recession-proof."

36:48.812 --> 36:52.566
My dad is apparently
Yoda. I don't know why I did that. Um...

36:53.525 --> 36:57.195
Wo... Uh, would you like
to see the room?

36:57.779 --> 36:59.823
Is-Is that how-how
it normally goes?

36:59.906 --> 37:01.158
People normally wanna see it?

37:01.241 --> 37:03.660
Uh, yeah, unless they hate
their parents,

37:03.744 --> 37:06.955
then they usually just drop 'em
on the curb outside.

37:07.998 --> 37:09.916
Okay.
Okay. Thank you.

37:12.669 --> 37:13.795
Just this way.

37:13.879 --> 37:16.256
Dr. Castro,
how you doin'?

37:19.926 --> 37:20.927
So...

37:23.305 --> 37:25.974
Is it, um... Yeah,
it's right up in here.

37:26.725 --> 37:28.018
Here we are.

37:32.272 --> 37:35.525
Closet, bathroom,
and bedroom's back there.

37:40.072 --> 37:43.450
People normally sign right
away? Yeah, it's in high demand.

37:44.868 --> 37:46.971
Yeah, my mom says these rooms
are harder to get into than...

37:46.995 --> 37:47.996
Yale.

37:48.080 --> 37:49.800
Yeah, let me guess,
did your mom go to Yale?

37:54.795 --> 37:56.129
Can I ask you a question?

37:57.089 --> 37:58.173
Sure.

37:59.132 --> 38:00.592
Is this a good place?

38:01.551 --> 38:03.595
A lot of people wish
they could be in here.

38:06.139 --> 38:07.974
My grandfather's particular.

38:10.560 --> 38:11.645
My grandmother...

38:12.813 --> 38:15.941
When she died, he became a
different version of himself, you know?

38:17.192 --> 38:21.196
Not worse,
but not better.

38:22.322 --> 38:24.074
It's like when
you lose someone,

38:25.659 --> 38:27.452
you don't know who you are
without 'em.

38:28.412 --> 38:30.664
You want to know
if he'll find a home here.

38:33.792 --> 38:36.294
Yeah.
It's a hard decision. Um...

38:37.462 --> 38:39.172
Take a few days
to think about it.

38:39.256 --> 38:41.967
And, uh,
I'm not supposed to do this,

38:42.050 --> 38:44.344
but I'll-I'll hold
the room for you.

38:45.512 --> 38:47.055
Really?
Yeah. I mean,

38:47.139 --> 38:49.141
even the Yale of assisted
livings has an A-list.

38:49.933 --> 38:51.977
You're scared of my mom.
I'm terrified.

38:52.060 --> 38:54.187
Thank you.
Mm-hmm.

38:55.105 --> 38:56.982
Hey, I know... I know
you don't like noise,

38:57.065 --> 38:59.234
and I'm guessing you probably
don't like people either,

38:59.317 --> 39:02.028
but sometimes I go to this
bar called the WildHorse.

39:02.112 --> 39:08.410
Sometimes, um, like
tonight around 8:00-ish.

39:13.123 --> 39:14.124
Okay.

39:14.791 --> 39:15.792
Okay.

39:29.806 --> 39:32.976
So you're really thinking
about taking him away from this place?

39:47.782 --> 39:49.326
Oh, what the hell?

39:49.993 --> 39:50.994
Grandpa?

39:53.955 --> 39:54.956
You all right?

39:57.125 --> 39:58.335
Not especially, no.

39:59.753 --> 40:01.546
'Cause paper goes
in goddamn six.

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Metal, compost, plastic,
burn, trash, paper.

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Is that hard?

40:08.470 --> 40:10.013
Is that impossible?

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You know, you come here,

40:12.015 --> 40:14.392
you eat my food,
you use my water.

40:15.393 --> 40:16.603
Fine, have at it.

40:16.686 --> 40:20.106
But it defies imagination that you and I
were in the same branch of the service.

40:20.190 --> 40:22.817
If you'd learned anything in the
army, you'd have learned respect.

40:24.319 --> 40:25.695
Do you think I'm crazy?

40:27.155 --> 40:28.949
Your mother thinks I'm crazy.

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Fine!

40:30.116 --> 40:33.995
But as long as you're under my
roof, paper goes in goddamn six!

40:38.792 --> 40:39.876
Clean it up!

40:51.930 --> 40:53.640
Where does
plastic go again?

40:57.894 --> 41:01.690
You know, I've read
about us vets getting PTSD,

41:01.773 --> 41:03.984
but good for your granddad.

41:04.067 --> 41:06.069
Not a lot of vets
trying to give PTSD.

41:09.864 --> 41:12.242
You sure about this?
He's just angry.

41:13.535 --> 41:16.413
But he is not gonna scare
me off.

41:34.889 --> 41:36.266
Gran...

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How's it going over there?

42:19.100 --> 42:20.101
Hmm.

42:24.397 --> 42:28.902
It-It can be complicated,
the trash system.

42:38.536 --> 42:39.936
How's that bird feeder
repair going?

42:40.747 --> 42:42.332
Oh, it's going.

42:56.221 --> 42:58.932
You're really gonna go meet
this guy, the Weedwacker?

42:59.015 --> 43:01.976
I just thought
it would be...

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good to...

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I don't know,
get a change of scenery.

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You mean you don't want
to see me.

43:10.068 --> 43:12.028
It's just for tonight.
Mmm.

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What if he's a murderer?

43:13.988 --> 43:16.308
You don't think he would've
murdered me when we were alone?

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Like in the cemetery?

43:21.496 --> 43:23.039
It's just for tonight,
I promise.

43:24.708 --> 43:25.709
Just for tonight.

43:28.253 --> 43:30.690
<i>The forecast
that we have up at Mount Hood today,</i>

43:30.714 --> 43:33.133
<i>we are going to stay sunny...</i>

43:53.737 --> 43:54.964
They were
supposed to be kids,

43:54.988 --> 43:56.590
but I think they're actually
like adult women.

43:56.614 --> 43:57.949
Really?
I'm not even kidding.

43:58.032 --> 43:59.909
The handwriting, you
can tell.

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The Dynamic Duo.

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Hey, Ramirez.

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Fuck off, Lewis.

44:06.374 --> 44:07.459
What's up?

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Green to green.

44:08.877 --> 44:10.920
Threatcon got bumped up
to amber.

44:11.004 --> 44:13.590
Some jackass from first platoon
said there's a sniper out there.

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Look, we didn't see anything.
Sounds like the bogeyman.

44:16.092 --> 44:19.179
Ser. Charles, you girls
gonna be okay out there?

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Listen, Ser...

44:20.555 --> 44:22.158
Hey, you talk to her
like that one more time,

44:22.182 --> 44:24.392
I'm gonna make you wish
that sniper got you.

44:24.476 --> 44:25.602
What'd you just
say to me?

44:25.685 --> 44:26.686
You heard me.

44:27.187 --> 44:29.689
See me after your shift,
Specialist.

44:31.566 --> 44:32.859
Ooh.

44:35.028 --> 44:36.154
Bye, Ramirez.

44:48.750 --> 44:50.251
You didn't have to do that.

44:50.877 --> 44:52.295
That guy's a fuckin' dork.

44:53.338 --> 44:54.881
Well, at any rate...

44:58.968 --> 44:59.969
So...

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Your cousin.

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Yeah, I think
he's moving to Florida.

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Okay, you think you'll go?

45:07.519 --> 45:10.688
What, and leave all this?
Right.

45:11.564 --> 45:12.982
It's not like you're
gonna reenlist.

45:14.192 --> 45:15.985
I don't know, maybe.

45:17.362 --> 45:18.947
Why would you reenlist?

45:19.030 --> 45:21.115
I don't know, Merit,
maybe because it's an option

45:21.199 --> 45:22.575
that's actually
available to me.

45:24.494 --> 45:26.704
I see you talk about
your grandma and your grandpa,

45:26.788 --> 45:29.457
and I think to myself,
"Man, she's got a home,

45:29.541 --> 45:31.584
she's got a family,
she's got a...

45:31.668 --> 45:34.921
A whole life with meaning
to go back to," you know?

45:35.630 --> 45:37.024
I bet when you take
those career tests,

45:37.048 --> 45:39.467
you don't even think about
how expensive the results are,

45:39.551 --> 45:43.054
how much it would cost to
be an artist or a psychologist.

45:43.137 --> 45:45.682
Do you want to be an artist
or a psychologist?

45:45.765 --> 45:48.726
Because you could be. No.
No, I can't, Merit, that's my point.

45:48.810 --> 45:50.079
The world is not
my fucking oyster.

45:50.103 --> 45:51.288
You think the world
is my oyster?

45:51.312 --> 45:52.456
I'm a Black woman in America.

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With a lake house.

45:55.316 --> 45:57.318
It's my grandparents'
lake house. It is not mine.

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Still a lake house.

46:03.283 --> 46:05.243
Don't worry,
nothing is set in stone yet.

46:06.452 --> 46:08.705
Your aim is definitely not
set in stone. Oh, shut up.

46:13.376 --> 46:15.545
<i>But it's time to move on</i>

46:19.757 --> 46:22.969
<i>The good times</i>

46:23.052 --> 46:25.305
<i>They're not the same...</i>

46:36.524 --> 46:37.692
Hey.

46:39.485 --> 46:41.321
Hi. You...

46:41.905 --> 46:43.573
I didn't think, um...

46:44.949 --> 46:47.827
You want to sit down?
Uh, yeah.

46:49.370 --> 46:50.830
Sorry, I ordered already.

46:50.914 --> 46:52.457
Um, I didn't...

46:52.540 --> 46:53.833
I'm a natural pessimist.

46:53.917 --> 46:57.211
Me, too.
Yeah.

46:57.295 --> 47:00.757
To be honest, I wasn't sure if
you were too good to be true

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'cause in my line of work, the
women I usually talk to are...

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You know, they remember where
they were when we stormed Normandy.

47:20.151 --> 47:22.612
Have-Have you
ever played <i>Buck Hunter?</i>

47:22.695 --> 47:23.696
No.

47:24.906 --> 47:26.658
<i>That's one, that's two.</i>

47:27.283 --> 47:30.870
<i>That's all three. You nailed
it! That's a new record!</i>

47:31.162 --> 47:32.830
Well, damn.

47:32.914 --> 47:36.167
If I knew I was playing with
a sniper, I'd have dressed up.

47:36.709 --> 47:38.544
Light-wheel
mechanic, actually.

47:38.628 --> 47:40.588
There it is,
military service.

47:41.422 --> 47:42.882
I'm impressed 'cause,
you know,

47:42.966 --> 47:47.470
I actually talked to a woman today
who drafted the Truman Doctrine.

47:47.553 --> 47:50.640
How could I
ever compete with that?

47:52.225 --> 47:53.893
How'd you get into
the military?

47:56.270 --> 47:58.022
My grandfather, actually.

47:58.106 --> 48:01.275
Oh, our prospective
resident. That's right.

48:02.110 --> 48:05.071
Retired 22 years from the
army. Lieutenant colonel.

48:06.155 --> 48:07.740
Two tours in Vietnam.

48:12.787 --> 48:16.457
He used to let me play with
his medals and his patches.

48:18.710 --> 48:21.963
He would sit me down, tell me
a story about each one of them.

48:23.381 --> 48:24.966
I was just talking
about this.

48:26.509 --> 48:28.261
But every Fourth of July,

48:29.303 --> 48:31.584
my entire family would stay
at my grandparents' lake house

48:31.639 --> 48:33.575
and we would drive into town
for music in the park.

48:33.599 --> 48:35.119
Yeah, every year, of
course. The fireworks.

48:35.143 --> 48:36.477
And the local
chamber orchestra

48:36.561 --> 48:38.122
would play the <i>Battle
Hymn.</i> Right. If you served.

48:38.146 --> 48:39.731
Yeah.
Yeah. You stand up.

48:39.814 --> 48:41.274
I remember every year,

48:41.357 --> 48:44.736
my grandpa would get up
out of his... His old folding chair

48:45.486 --> 48:48.990
and he would tip his hat
to everybody.

48:49.073 --> 48:50.575
That's so cool.
Yeah.

48:54.370 --> 48:56.748
<i>There's a new sheriff in town.</i>

48:58.416 --> 49:00.376
<i>First to fight</i>
<i>for the right</i>

49:00.460 --> 49:02.003
<i>And to build
the nation's might</i>

49:02.086 --> 49:03.087
What?

49:03.171 --> 49:05.590
<i>And the army...
Goes rolling along</i>

49:05.673 --> 49:07.008
How... Who-Who
taught you that?

49:07.091 --> 49:08.652
Miss Truman Doctrine
taught you that, huh?

49:08.676 --> 49:10.344
No, she can't sing.

49:10.428 --> 49:13.765
Like, seriously, you should
see her on karaoke night, it hurts.

49:13.848 --> 49:15.391
My parents, however,

49:16.059 --> 49:18.227
uh, well, we just had
the immigrant experience

49:18.311 --> 49:20.855
where you double down on
being American, you know?

49:20.938 --> 49:22.690
So we celebrate
every holiday,

49:22.774 --> 49:26.569
and my dad loves
fireworks and hot dogs.

49:26.652 --> 49:29.030
So, I mean, you put
a firework in a bun

49:29.113 --> 49:32.408
and that would blow
his mind.

49:33.451 --> 49:35.411
All right, let's see what I
can do. Are you ready?

49:35.495 --> 49:38.414
I'm ready, let me see.
Okay, oof, oof, oof.

49:39.123 --> 49:41.250
<i>Oh, no, he got away.</i>

49:41.334 --> 49:43.503
- Mmm-hmm.
<i>- Pick a spot.</i>

49:43.586 --> 49:44.754
<i>You need spectacles.</i>

49:44.837 --> 49:47.924
Okay, so, so, so,
you know, zero...

49:48.007 --> 49:49.175
Well...
...deer.

49:49.258 --> 49:51.302
Um...
I-I shoot around them.

49:51.385 --> 49:52.970
I'm a pacifist...
Right.

49:53.054 --> 49:55.056
...so you help them scatter
so they can be free.

49:57.266 --> 49:59.477
You're way better at this
than I am.

49:59.560 --> 50:00.978
Well, you're-you're
a pacifist.

50:01.062 --> 50:02.271
Indeed, I am.

50:05.608 --> 50:07.568
So, um, so...

50:08.861 --> 50:09.862
Drinks?
Yes.

50:09.946 --> 50:11.781
Probably? Yeah,
I'm sure they're ready.

50:12.281 --> 50:13.616
Food, probably not.
Okay.

50:13.699 --> 50:15.699
Yeah, we might have to
wait till tomorrow for that.

50:21.624 --> 50:22.625
Hey, you.

50:23.417 --> 50:25.920
Zeke, you...
You've seen Merit?

50:27.213 --> 50:28.381
Sorry, Dr. Cole.

50:30.716 --> 50:32.385
Have you always
lived in Molalla?

50:33.177 --> 50:34.428
Molalla?

50:34.512 --> 50:37.932
Yeah.
I was born and raised here.

50:38.015 --> 50:39.767
Um, and then my dad,
of course,

50:39.851 --> 50:43.813
wanted me to take over the
family business at Shady Acres, um,

50:43.896 --> 50:46.774
but I did, I moved away for a
little while when I got married.

50:47.650 --> 50:49.068
When you got... What?

50:49.152 --> 50:50.862
Uh, formerly married.

50:50.945 --> 50:52.572
Formerly married.

50:52.655 --> 50:54.365
Oh.

50:54.448 --> 50:55.533
Six years.

50:55.616 --> 50:58.452
You were married for six years, or
you've been divorced for six years?

50:58.536 --> 50:59.871
Actually, both.

51:00.580 --> 51:02.456
That's a long time.

51:04.250 --> 51:05.251
Sorry, d...

51:06.127 --> 51:07.604
Does that...
Does that make you nervous

51:07.628 --> 51:08.897
to talk about the past?
What? No.

51:08.921 --> 51:12.258
No, I'm not nervous
about the past. I'm-I'm...

51:12.758 --> 51:15.553
I'm, uh, well...
I'm nervous about you, so...

51:16.971 --> 51:19.390
Indian people aren't
supposed to get divorced.

51:20.016 --> 51:22.101
It's definitely not
in the job description,

51:22.185 --> 51:25.730
so, um, I was... I was
just... I was so ashamed.

51:26.689 --> 51:30.193
I'd felt like
I'd failed at marriage,

51:30.276 --> 51:31.736
and it, um...

51:32.945 --> 51:37.617
Mmm, it, uh, it had... It had
a power over me and, um...

51:37.700 --> 51:39.869
But then, you know,
I just...

51:39.952 --> 51:41.954
Fuck it, I started
talking about it.

51:43.289 --> 51:44.540
It helped.

51:45.917 --> 51:47.376
Yeah, I mean,
it's not perfect.

51:47.460 --> 51:48.770
I still have PTSD
from my marriage.

51:48.794 --> 51:51.088
I mean, oh, my God,
I can hear her just...

51:52.882 --> 51:54.634
I'm so sorry,
that was so insensitive.

51:54.717 --> 51:56.802
Oh, no. It's all good.
No.

51:56.886 --> 51:58.447
No, there's no reason
for me to say that.

51:58.471 --> 52:01.599
You can relax, the
military doesn't own PTSD.

52:02.850 --> 52:04.727
We do happen to be
the best at it, though.

52:04.810 --> 52:06.646
Okay.

52:07.647 --> 52:11.609
How about you? Do you...
Do you have any war stories?

52:14.528 --> 52:15.571
Yeah.

52:17.406 --> 52:18.407
Yeah, I do.

52:19.951 --> 52:20.952
Um...

52:22.745 --> 52:25.790
Kind of third-wheeling it
tonight.

52:27.541 --> 52:28.876
Yeah, actually.

52:28.960 --> 52:31.629
Uh, when I was over there,

52:31.712 --> 52:33.256
um, Afghanistan, um...

52:33.339 --> 52:35.633
Actually,

52:36.425 --> 52:38.177
when I...
When I came back...

52:41.931 --> 52:43.140
Yeah.

52:46.394 --> 52:47.687
Um, I...

52:51.899 --> 52:53.567
Merit, are you...

52:53.651 --> 52:56.028
Hey, it's okay.
Are you all right?

52:56.112 --> 52:57.196
Are you okay?

52:57.280 --> 53:00.658
Um... I'm-I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, if, uh...

53:01.284 --> 53:02.368
Uh...
It's okay, it's okay.

53:02.451 --> 53:03.577
I gotta go.
It's okay.

53:15.548 --> 53:17.758
What was that?
What was what?

53:19.593 --> 53:21.721
Why would you
ruin that? Why?

53:22.680 --> 53:23.723
Zoe!

53:24.307 --> 53:25.891
That was
my first date since...

53:25.975 --> 53:27.143
Since what?

53:27.768 --> 53:29.812
Something traumatic
happened to you?

53:31.439 --> 53:33.607
Get the fuck
out of my face, Zoe.

53:34.692 --> 53:36.527
Get the fuck
out of my face!

53:37.445 --> 53:39.572
Damn, Merit,
never could take a joke.

53:52.501 --> 53:54.295
Oh, my God. Grandpa?

53:54.378 --> 53:55.921
Oh, my God.

53:56.005 --> 53:58.382
Grandpa, hey, hey.

53:58.466 --> 53:59.717
What?

53:59.800 --> 54:01.802
What happened?
Um...

54:02.678 --> 54:04.680
Oh, my God, you're
bleeding. I'm fine.

54:04.764 --> 54:06.307
Wait, are you...
Are you sure?

54:06.390 --> 54:07.975
Here, can you get up?
I can get up.

54:08.059 --> 54:09.935
I just didn't feel like it.

54:12.104 --> 54:14.148
Where were ya?
I was out.

54:14.231 --> 54:16.317
Well, I could've
used you here.

54:16.400 --> 54:18.235
Okay, here.
I'm-I'm fine.

54:19.528 --> 54:20.529
I'm fine.

54:22.907 --> 54:24.200
I'm fine.

54:29.914 --> 54:33.459
Thank goodness someone was
there to bring you back home.

54:53.521 --> 54:55.231
Hey, Mom.
<i>Hey, sweetheart.</i>

54:55.314 --> 54:56.482
<i>What are you up to?</i>

54:57.400 --> 55:00.069
Nothing, nothing. Just, um...

55:01.028 --> 55:02.822
hanging out with Grandpa
at the lake.

55:02.905 --> 55:04.865
Just, um, watching the geese.

55:04.949 --> 55:07.410
<i>Well, that's great,
I'm glad you have time.</i>

55:07.493 --> 55:09.954
<i>So, I-I was thinking
the realtor could come by</i>

55:10.037 --> 55:12.039
<i>this afternoon at 2:00.</i>

55:14.834 --> 55:16.674
<i>Please leave your message...</i>

55:17.920 --> 55:21.507
You know, when we met, I was sure
you were going to do the work, Merit.

55:23.509 --> 55:26.137
Guess it's never too late
to be surprised, hmm?

55:26.220 --> 55:27.346
<i>Merit?</i>

55:27.430 --> 55:29.723
<i>Hello? Are you there?</i>
Yeah, yeah, I'm here.

55:29.807 --> 55:31.767
<i>Okay, great, so two
o'clock then, all right?</i>

55:31.851 --> 55:33.727
<i>Two o'clock they'll be there.</i>

55:33.811 --> 55:36.147
<i>Thanks so much, honey.
They'll see you at 2:00, bye.</i>

55:48.909 --> 55:49.994
It's a gorgeous day.

55:52.204 --> 55:54.457
We should take the pontoon
boat out this afternoon,

55:54.540 --> 55:55.833
get some sun.

55:57.293 --> 55:59.420
The bird feeder
still needs fixing.

56:01.255 --> 56:04.467
Okay, well, we can go into town
and shop for new bird feeders.

56:04.550 --> 56:06.177
I got what I need.

56:06.260 --> 56:09.013
Maybe not new ones, but...
No, that would be crazy.

56:09.096 --> 56:10.097
...parts.

56:11.140 --> 56:13.017
What is this?

56:13.100 --> 56:14.101
Uh-oh.

56:14.185 --> 56:15.936
It's an iPod,
Grandpa, remember?

56:16.604 --> 56:17.605
Plays music.

56:18.314 --> 56:19.315
Let me see it.

56:20.191 --> 56:21.775
I put some new music
on it for you.

56:29.533 --> 56:31.035
Not bad.

56:31.702 --> 56:35.623
Still, I've seen AN/PRC-25
field radios in the trash

56:35.706 --> 56:37.666
that were capable
of playing music.

56:37.750 --> 56:40.920
<i>That
funny feeling I caught the fever</i>

56:41.003 --> 56:44.924
<i>Seems I've had it for 18 years</i>

56:46.592 --> 56:50.638
<i>I thought I felt all right
But then it happened...</i>

57:13.202 --> 57:16.038
You sure about the
pontoon boat? Yeah, I'm sure.

57:23.295 --> 57:26.966
Well, your grandpa is just
putting shit everywhere, isn't he?

57:28.842 --> 57:31.053
Hmm. Ooh.

57:31.720 --> 57:35.516
These expired in 2012. I
would still eat them, though.

57:36.475 --> 57:38.727
You know, my <i>abuelo</i>
was stubborn as hell, too.

57:38.811 --> 57:40.896
You don't have to...
No, no, really, he was.

57:41.397 --> 57:45.526
I mean, he loved us kids, but
anything we wanted to do was "no."

57:45.609 --> 57:47.152
"Want to go to the movies?"
"No."

57:47.236 --> 57:48.654
"Ice cream?" "No."

57:48.737 --> 57:50.656
Even shit he wanted to do
he wouldn't do.

57:51.365 --> 57:54.201
One time, I stole a <i>Reader's
Digest</i> from the library,

57:54.285 --> 57:55.720
and it had something
on the cover like,

57:55.744 --> 57:57.472
"A hundred fun things
to do with your grandkids,"

57:57.496 --> 57:59.176
and I put it in our mailbox
and just, like,

57:59.206 --> 58:00.850
pretended it got delivered
to the wrong address,

58:00.874 --> 58:02.793
and that con
worked like a charm.

58:02.876 --> 58:04.378
We had ice cream
that afternoon.

58:06.130 --> 58:07.631
Zoe, you're a genius.

58:07.715 --> 58:08.716
Thank you.

58:09.800 --> 58:11.093
Wait, why?

58:14.680 --> 58:17.158
Listen, my <i>abuelo</i> was kind of
dumb, and that was just ice cream.

58:17.182 --> 58:18.827
I don't think this is
gonna work the same way.

58:18.851 --> 58:19.852
No, it's gonna work.

58:21.770 --> 58:22.771
We just...

58:23.939 --> 58:25.566
Just gotta make
the ice cream his idea.

58:26.942 --> 58:29.486
Well, can we actually get
ice cream afterwards?

58:29.570 --> 58:32.031
'Cause now we've said it so
many times, I really want some.

58:44.835 --> 58:47.212
What in God's green hell
is that?

58:51.634 --> 58:53.010
Jesus.

58:53.093 --> 58:55.721
Goddamn it, Emmy! What...

58:56.972 --> 58:59.391
Jesus Christ.
Ooh, you did it now.

58:59.475 --> 59:00.559
This is the plan.

59:03.062 --> 59:05.356
You're gonna flood it.

59:05.439 --> 59:06.607
There it goes.

59:14.740 --> 59:17.409
Be a shame to squander
a beautiful day like this.

59:21.872 --> 59:23.332
Get in your seat.

59:23.957 --> 59:25.668
You're on rocks lookout.

59:26.460 --> 59:28.379
Charlie Mike.

59:55.614 --> 59:58.534
So, what's the plan then?

01:00:00.953 --> 01:00:02.454
The plan?
Yeah.

01:00:02.538 --> 01:00:05.958
You and your mom, I'm sure
there's some scheme afloat.

01:00:08.001 --> 01:00:09.294
She's just worried about you.

01:00:10.212 --> 01:00:11.797
Yeah, what about you?

01:00:14.299 --> 01:00:16.093
I just want you to be happy.

01:00:20.597 --> 01:00:22.878
I've actually been meaning
to talk to you about the cabin.

01:00:24.935 --> 01:00:28.772
You know, your grandma,
she loved this lake.

01:00:30.482 --> 01:00:32.401
Especially in the wintertime.

01:00:32.484 --> 01:00:34.737
She thought it was
prettiest then.

01:00:34.820 --> 01:00:37.072
Always preferred
the summers myself.

01:00:37.156 --> 01:00:39.032
"Too damn muggy," she'd say.

01:00:39.658 --> 01:00:43.495
"Didn't you get
enough humidity in Vietnam?"

01:00:44.788 --> 01:00:49.001
That was her one
Vietnam joke.

01:00:49.668 --> 01:00:51.378
That's what
I think about now...

01:00:53.714 --> 01:00:55.257
hot days like today.

01:00:59.428 --> 01:01:01.388
That's why your little
snot-nosed ass

01:01:01.472 --> 01:01:03.599
used to spend all those
summers out here with me.

01:01:04.808 --> 01:01:08.228
You didn't talk much,
and you...

01:01:08.979 --> 01:01:13.442
You were
a deadeye on rocks lookout.

01:01:13.525 --> 01:01:15.319
Perfect fisherman's mate.

01:01:15.944 --> 01:01:17.112
I loved it.

01:01:18.614 --> 01:01:21.700
I love being out here.

01:01:22.409 --> 01:01:24.411
Why haven't we seen you
in so long?

01:01:29.583 --> 01:01:33.837
I thought for sure you'd have shown
up during your grandma's final days.

01:01:36.799 --> 01:01:38.634
At her funeral.

01:01:41.011 --> 01:01:43.514
Do not tell him.

01:01:54.024 --> 01:01:57.110
I've... I've been dealing
with some things...

01:01:58.946 --> 01:02:00.197
from over there.

01:02:02.074 --> 01:02:03.408
Yeah, let me guess...

01:02:04.785 --> 01:02:06.036
PTSD?

01:02:09.873 --> 01:02:11.542
You Iraq and Afghan vets,

01:02:11.625 --> 01:02:14.795
you know, your whole
entitled generation really,

01:02:14.878 --> 01:02:18.298
blame everything on
something or someone else.

01:02:18.382 --> 01:02:21.301
You know, when we came
back, we didn't have any PTSD

01:02:21.385 --> 01:02:23.095
to blame everything on.

01:02:23.178 --> 01:02:25.556
Call it what you want. Combat
stress, shell shock, whatever.

01:02:25.639 --> 01:02:28.976
Goddamn it, don't
"whatever" me, young lady.

01:02:29.059 --> 01:02:31.103
Our wars were not the same.

01:02:33.397 --> 01:02:36.316
I read in the <i>Army Times</i> that
people line up at the airports

01:02:36.400 --> 01:02:39.528
and greet each and every one of
you when you return home from duty.

01:02:40.195 --> 01:02:41.196
Is that true?

01:02:41.864 --> 01:02:43.323
Did that happen to you?

01:02:45.367 --> 01:02:46.785
You know what
happened to me?

01:02:48.036 --> 01:02:53.834
I had to change out of my uniform
at SFO in a public bathroom.

01:02:53.917 --> 01:02:55.794
And I still got spit on.

01:02:58.463 --> 01:03:00.716
My short hair
and my green duffel,

01:03:01.884 --> 01:03:03.886
that's how they knew
I was a baby killer.

01:03:04.887 --> 01:03:07.431
I didn't know that.
You never talked about it.

01:03:07.514 --> 01:03:08.891
Well, why would I?

01:03:08.974 --> 01:03:10.559
Why burden any of you
with that?

01:03:10.642 --> 01:03:12.436
That's... That's
what a soldier does.

01:03:12.519 --> 01:03:15.105
We go out and do things
nobody else wants to do.

01:03:15.814 --> 01:03:16.982
And we suck it up.

01:03:17.858 --> 01:03:19.651
Well, I am sucking it up.

01:03:21.361 --> 01:03:22.529
Believe me.

01:03:26.533 --> 01:03:28.785
We have each other,
you know.

01:03:29.411 --> 01:03:30.621
Us veterans.

01:03:31.580 --> 01:03:34.625
You know, maybe I didn't talk
about my war with you guys,

01:03:34.708 --> 01:03:37.920
but I sure as hell talked
about it down at the VFW.

01:03:38.837 --> 01:03:41.214
Even brought your mom
a few times on bingo night

01:03:41.298 --> 01:03:44.509
when she was just knee-high
to a grasshopper.

01:03:44.593 --> 01:03:46.428
I bet she took bingo
very seriously.

01:03:46.511 --> 01:03:48.305
She played four boards
at a time.

01:03:48.388 --> 01:03:50.807
She used to yell at us
for talking too much.

01:03:57.648 --> 01:03:58.857
I should've been here.

01:04:03.820 --> 01:04:07.866
Okay, Em, why don't you come
on over here and steer us home?

01:04:09.034 --> 01:04:10.410
Yes, sir.

01:04:42.901 --> 01:04:43.986
Thanks.

01:04:52.077 --> 01:04:54.246
I thought you only ate
that gŸten-free stuff.

01:04:54.329 --> 01:04:56.540
Why,
because I live in the city?

01:04:57.499 --> 01:04:58.834
I'm still your
granddaughter.

01:04:58.917 --> 01:05:01.461
Yeah, you're gonna have
to speak up, darlin'.

01:05:02.504 --> 01:05:06.174
Everybody talks
so quietly these days. Jesus.

01:05:07.592 --> 01:05:11.304
So, the Fourth of July celebration
and craft show is tomorrow.

01:05:11.388 --> 01:05:12.973
You mean the crap show?

01:05:13.056 --> 01:05:16.351
I know you have everything
that you need here, but...

01:05:17.728 --> 01:05:19.938
I thought maybe we could go
to Roy Purdy's booth.

01:05:20.022 --> 01:05:23.108
I'll bet he has some spare parts
to fix that bird feeder of yours.

01:05:23.191 --> 01:05:25.736
Mmm, perhaps.

01:05:25.819 --> 01:05:27.112
I could drive us in.

01:05:28.447 --> 01:05:29.948
First thing in the morning.

01:05:31.950 --> 01:05:33.410
I'm goin' to bed.

01:05:41.960 --> 01:05:43.503
Not really hungry.

01:05:52.012 --> 01:05:55.015
Yeah, hi, I'm Richard,
semper fi.

01:05:55.098 --> 01:05:56.534
I was a marine lieutenant
in Vietnam.

01:05:56.558 --> 01:05:58.226
Platoon commander,
combat type.

01:05:58.310 --> 01:05:59.728
Navy commander,
trauma surgeon.

01:05:59.811 --> 01:06:02.022
I work the ER
over at St. John's.

01:06:02.105 --> 01:06:04.024
Army, staff sergeant, OIF1.

01:06:04.107 --> 01:06:08.111
I was deployed to Iraq twice
and Afghanistan once

01:06:08.195 --> 01:06:10.697
and now I'm a teacher.

01:06:10.781 --> 01:06:12.991
Going back to school,
get my MBA.

01:06:13.075 --> 01:06:15.160
You know, proving
that all marines aren't dumb.

01:06:15.243 --> 01:06:18.121
Now I work in finance,
but I hate it.

01:06:18.205 --> 01:06:21.833
So, um, I tried to find
something that I do love now,

01:06:21.917 --> 01:06:23.477
and it turns out
that's stand-up comedy,

01:06:23.502 --> 01:06:24.711
so I've been
giving that a try.

01:06:25.545 --> 01:06:27.547
"Being in the military's
a lot like being Asian.

01:06:28.381 --> 01:06:30.941
"We all kinda look alike and
everybody thinks we're the marines."

01:06:32.427 --> 01:06:34.721
The world has this impression
of who we are

01:06:34.805 --> 01:06:36.306
when we say
that we're veterans.

01:06:36.389 --> 01:06:38.517
Trying vulnerability
and talking to my friends,

01:06:38.600 --> 01:06:40.310
but realizing, like...

01:06:40.393 --> 01:06:43.855
I can't tell them about the
things that I've done or...

01:06:43.939 --> 01:06:46.775
Eh, all this Iraq
and Afghanistan stuff

01:06:46.858 --> 01:06:48.985
has brought up
some old tapes for me.

01:06:49.069 --> 01:06:52.114
So, I wanted to come here and
share with you what I could and...

01:06:52.197 --> 01:06:55.534
I've lost more guys back
home, though, than I did in Iraq.

01:06:56.493 --> 01:06:57.661
Thanks, James.

01:07:14.553 --> 01:07:15.804
- Hey.
<i>- Hey.</i>

01:07:15.887 --> 01:07:19.516
Uh, sorry, I haven't gotten
back to you about the room.

01:07:19.599 --> 01:07:22.060
Yeah, no, it's cool. You
still got two days anyways.

01:07:22.144 --> 01:07:23.436
I wasn't calling
about that.

01:07:23.520 --> 01:07:26.773
I was just... I was just
checking on you, soldier,

01:07:26.857 --> 01:07:29.359
um, 'cause last night, uh...

01:07:29.442 --> 01:07:30.777
Yeah, uh...

01:07:33.989 --> 01:07:36.700
I'm... I'm sorry,
I don't...

01:07:37.325 --> 01:07:40.078
Look, I'm a forgiving
and noble man.

01:07:40.162 --> 01:07:41.955
<i>So, you're good.</i>

01:07:42.038 --> 01:07:44.291
Yeah, and...
And considerate.

01:07:44.374 --> 01:07:49.504
And I'm also handsome and I
do my taxes on time usually, so...

01:07:51.965 --> 01:07:54.593
Um, when can I see you again?

01:07:57.179 --> 01:08:00.098
How about the Fourth of
July thing? You going to that?

01:08:00.182 --> 01:08:02.184
Yeah, well, I hope so.

01:08:02.726 --> 01:08:05.896
<i>Yeah? Okay, uh, well, um,
thanks for picking up.</i>

01:08:05.979 --> 01:08:08.940
And, um, good night, Merit.

01:08:09.024 --> 01:08:10.233
<i>Good night.</i>

01:08:15.739 --> 01:08:17.115
Oh, shit.

01:08:17.949 --> 01:08:19.576
You scared me, Zoe.

01:08:20.285 --> 01:08:22.621
I'm your shadow. Boo!

01:08:24.789 --> 01:08:25.790
Where else would I be?

01:08:29.002 --> 01:08:30.337
Hey, um...

01:08:32.672 --> 01:08:34.925
next time you want to tell
your granddad about me,

01:08:35.842 --> 01:08:38.762
why don't you tell him about
your big plans for him instead?

01:08:39.596 --> 01:08:42.057
How you're going to take
him away from his home,

01:08:42.140 --> 01:08:43.892
and his boat and his birds,

01:08:43.975 --> 01:08:46.770
and stick him in
a septuagenarian purgatory

01:08:46.853 --> 01:08:49.189
where he'll die confused
and alone.

01:08:56.196 --> 01:08:57.197
Coward.

01:09:49.749 --> 01:09:51.876
You got any other tunes
on this thing?

01:09:53.545 --> 01:09:54.713
Sir, yes, sir.

01:10:02.262 --> 01:10:03.805
Fine, this one
is a good one.

01:10:09.102 --> 01:10:12.522
<i>Once I had a dream
that made me sad</i>

01:10:12.605 --> 01:10:14.065
<i>Made me sad</i>

01:10:15.358 --> 01:10:19.154
<i>How so many people can be bad</i>

01:10:21.197 --> 01:10:23.950
<i>Everybody wants
all they can grab</i>

01:10:24.034 --> 01:10:25.660
<i>They can grab</i>

01:10:27.120 --> 01:10:30.915
<i>No one's ever happy
with their share</i>

01:10:35.795 --> 01:10:38.923
<i>We're all here until
we know not when</i>

01:10:39.007 --> 01:10:40.467
<i>Not when</i>

01:10:41.843 --> 01:10:45.680
<i>Love has gone
And won't come back again</i>

01:10:46.264 --> 01:10:47.265
There's Roy.

01:10:47.349 --> 01:10:49.225
Well, I'll be.

01:10:49.309 --> 01:10:50.643
Is that Dale?

01:10:50.727 --> 01:10:52.645
You're damn right it is.

01:10:52.729 --> 01:10:56.024
How the hell are ya, Roy?
Oh, you know, can't complain.

01:10:56.107 --> 01:10:57.484
Good to see you.

01:10:57.567 --> 01:11:00.278
Ah, we haven't seen you
since Angela passed.

01:11:01.738 --> 01:11:02.864
How you been holding up?

01:11:04.491 --> 01:11:07.452
Oh, fine. Doing fine.
Uh-huh.

01:11:07.535 --> 01:11:11.289
Listen, Roy, I need some material
for an old finch feeder I've got.

01:11:11.373 --> 01:11:14.209
I've had it for years and the
damn thing's falling apart on me.

01:11:14.918 --> 01:11:17.462
What do you think about a new
one, huh? Well, what do you got?

01:11:17.545 --> 01:11:19.464
I thought you didn't
want... Oh, hush.

01:11:19.547 --> 01:11:21.549
You must be...
Merit.

01:11:21.633 --> 01:11:24.010
Merit!
That's my granddaughter.

01:11:24.094 --> 01:11:25.678
She lives in the city.

01:11:25.762 --> 01:11:27.806
I don't believe it. Wow.

01:11:27.889 --> 01:11:29.933
Last time I saw you,
you were about this high,

01:11:30.016 --> 01:11:32.352
playing with G.I. Joes.
Ah.

01:11:32.977 --> 01:11:34.312
What are you up to
these days?

01:11:34.396 --> 01:11:35.772
Not much.

01:11:36.773 --> 01:11:38.108
She was in Afghanistan.

01:11:38.691 --> 01:11:39.943
Lightweight
vehicle mechanic.

01:11:40.026 --> 01:11:43.029
And then they stuck her on some
outpost near the Pakistan border

01:11:43.113 --> 01:11:46.574
pulling guard duty detail
for the 10th Mountain grunts.

01:11:47.283 --> 01:11:49.244
Army's run by a bunch
of yahoos these days.

01:11:49.327 --> 01:11:51.955
Well, thank you
for your service.

01:11:52.038 --> 01:11:54.332
Welcome home, young lady.
Thank you very much.

01:11:54.416 --> 01:11:55.834
How much is this one?

01:11:56.459 --> 01:11:59.254
Oh, $40.
For you, Dale, $50.

01:12:00.839 --> 01:12:03.091
Well, fine.
We'll take it.

01:12:04.175 --> 01:12:05.802
Good.
Do you have money?

01:12:05.885 --> 01:12:08.471
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
I think so.

01:12:08.555 --> 01:12:10.432
Good to see ya, Roy.
Good to see you.

01:12:11.683 --> 01:12:12.892
40.
It's 40.

01:12:13.518 --> 01:12:15.019
Sticking you
with the bill, huh?

01:12:17.063 --> 01:12:18.898
Doesn't he know
you're broke?

01:12:18.982 --> 01:12:23.736
We will continue tonight's program
with a salute to our nation's veterans.

01:12:23.820 --> 01:12:27.949
As is our tradition, if you've
served or are currently serving,

01:12:28.032 --> 01:12:30.285
when you hear your
branch's song played,

01:12:30.368 --> 01:12:32.996
please stand
and be recognized.

01:12:41.713 --> 01:12:43.840
<i>March along</i>

01:12:43.923 --> 01:12:45.758
<i>Sing our song</i>

01:12:45.842 --> 01:12:49.804
<i>With the army of the free</i>

01:12:49.888 --> 01:12:53.558
<i>Count the brave
Count the true</i>

01:12:53.641 --> 01:12:56.728
<i>Who have fought to victory</i>

01:12:57.687 --> 01:13:01.357
<i>We're the army and proud
of our name</i>

01:13:01.441 --> 01:13:05.111
<i>We're the army and proudly
proclaim...</i>

01:13:56.621 --> 01:13:58.414
<i>First to fight for the right</i>

01:13:58.498 --> 01:14:00.667
<i>And to build
the nation's might</i>

01:14:00.750 --> 01:14:04.337
<i>And the army
goes rolling along</i>

01:14:04.420 --> 01:14:06.381
<i>Proud of all we have done</i>

01:14:06.464 --> 01:14:08.132
<i>Fighting till the battle's won</i>

01:14:08.216 --> 01:14:11.594
<i>And the army
goes rolling along</i>

01:14:11.678 --> 01:14:14.681
<i>Then it's hi, hi, hey</i>

01:14:14.764 --> 01:14:16.474
<i>The army's on its way</i>

01:14:16.558 --> 01:14:19.811
<i>Count off the cadence
loud and strong</i>

01:14:19.894 --> 01:14:23.940
<i>For where'er we go
You will always know</i>

01:14:24.023 --> 01:14:27.443
<i>That the army
goes rolling along</i>

01:14:46.838 --> 01:14:48.673
Seems like
right up here is good, yeah?

01:14:48.756 --> 01:14:50.008
Yeah, fine.

01:14:50.883 --> 01:14:52.135
Hey, Merit?

01:14:52.635 --> 01:14:53.636
Hey!

01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:54.762
What's up, stranger?

01:14:54.846 --> 01:14:57.307
Hey.
You look, uh, um...

01:14:57.390 --> 01:15:00.018
Hi, uh...

01:15:00.101 --> 01:15:01.477
You must be the colonel.

01:15:01.561 --> 01:15:04.689
Lieutenant colonel. Retired.
Who are you?

01:15:04.772 --> 01:15:08.026
Uh, hi, I'm Alex,
Manager First Class,

01:15:08.109 --> 01:15:10.028
Shady Acres
Assisted Living Facility.

01:15:14.240 --> 01:15:15.783
Come again? What?

01:15:15.867 --> 01:15:18.369
That's a retirement
home, right?

01:15:18.453 --> 01:15:21.205
I...

01:15:23.333 --> 01:15:25.168
How do you two
know each other?

01:15:26.294 --> 01:15:31.382
Uh, uh, we-we, uh...
We met at-at-at...

01:15:33.760 --> 01:15:36.679
Grandpa.
Traitor!

01:15:39.599 --> 01:15:41.434
Fuck.
I'm sorry, I didn't know.

01:15:41.517 --> 01:15:42.560
Of course you didn't!

01:15:42.644 --> 01:15:43.978
Hey, don't you think

01:15:44.062 --> 01:15:46.022
you should give him
some space? What?

01:15:46.105 --> 01:15:47.785
You used to be so good
at giving him space.

01:15:47.815 --> 01:15:49.108
Zoe, let me go.

01:15:52.904 --> 01:15:53.905
Grandpa!

01:16:01.204 --> 01:16:02.205
Grandpa!

01:16:32.902 --> 01:16:34.612
<i>Get back inside!</i>

01:16:34.696 --> 01:16:36.656
What is wrong
with you? Stop!

01:16:39.409 --> 01:16:41.994
Get back inside, now!
Why?

01:16:42.704 --> 01:16:43.830
No, no!

01:16:54.590 --> 01:16:55.842
Mom?

01:16:56.634 --> 01:16:57.927
I...

01:16:58.010 --> 01:16:59.011
Uh...

01:17:00.012 --> 01:17:01.055
Grandpa, uh...

01:17:01.139 --> 01:17:03.766
Yeah, don't worry.
He's here. He's here?

01:17:03.850 --> 01:17:05.685
He's in bed
and he is resting.

01:17:05.768 --> 01:17:07.353
Oh, thank God!

01:17:09.147 --> 01:17:11.524
I'm sorry, okay?

01:17:11.607 --> 01:17:14.360
It's... Listen,
listen to me, Mom.

01:17:14.444 --> 01:17:16.863
He got... He got upset. It
was so fast, he walked away...

01:17:16.946 --> 01:17:20.283
Merit, stop.
I can't.

01:17:22.618 --> 01:17:23.828
We'll talk in the morning.

01:17:51.230 --> 01:17:52.231
Hey.

01:17:53.149 --> 01:17:54.442
Hey!

01:17:54.525 --> 01:17:56.652
Hey, you gonna get that?

01:17:57.737 --> 01:17:58.738
I'll get it.

01:18:01.783 --> 01:18:03.576
S-O-G, this is ECP1.

01:18:03.659 --> 01:18:04.994
Green to green, over.

01:18:17.048 --> 01:18:18.841
I actually get
why you want to reenlist.

01:18:19.342 --> 01:18:20.343
Mmm?

01:18:21.135 --> 01:18:22.136
But you're wrong.

01:18:23.387 --> 01:18:24.472
Why?

01:18:24.555 --> 01:18:26.724
Aren't you the one that calls
us Imperial Stormtroopers

01:18:26.808 --> 01:18:28.559
tricked into
modern colonialism?

01:18:28.643 --> 01:18:30.686
Well, it's not not true.

01:18:30.770 --> 01:18:33.606
What about you could,
uh, I don't know, die?

01:18:35.149 --> 01:18:37.527
Well, then I will die in
a blaze of glory, I hope.

01:18:37.610 --> 01:18:39.320
Oh, fuck you.

01:18:39.403 --> 01:18:40.613
Ooh!

01:18:40.696 --> 01:18:42.406
Small words
from the college girl.

01:18:45.201 --> 01:18:47.078
All right, I got
a question for you then.

01:18:48.412 --> 01:18:51.791
Do you think we would be
friends back home?

01:18:52.333 --> 01:18:55.086
Where even is home for you?
You don't ever talk about it.

01:18:55.962 --> 01:18:56.963
Just answer me.

01:18:57.547 --> 01:18:58.965
Do you think
we would be friends?

01:18:59.590 --> 01:19:00.925
Of course we would.

01:19:01.008 --> 01:19:02.468
Okay, then how
would it work, like,

01:19:02.552 --> 01:19:04.053
honestly,
how would it work?

01:19:04.136 --> 01:19:06.681
Like, would we see
each other once a year

01:19:06.764 --> 01:19:10.685
and then, like, random calls,
and, I don't know,

01:19:10.768 --> 01:19:14.522
just eventually end up just liking
each other's Facebook posts and shit?

01:19:14.605 --> 01:19:17.483
I mean, yeah, why...
Why not?

01:19:17.567 --> 01:19:19.026
We can... We can
do whatever we want.

01:19:19.110 --> 01:19:20.695
Friendships evolve.

01:19:22.363 --> 01:19:24.243
Why don't you explain
where this is coming from?

01:19:25.116 --> 01:19:26.534
I'm just being realistic.

01:19:28.703 --> 01:19:31.581
I don't think you can explain
yourself, even if you wanted to.

01:19:31.664 --> 01:19:33.916
I have been explaining
myself. I told you, it's...

01:19:34.917 --> 01:19:37.628
Not everybody has a happy
fuckin' home to go back to, Merit.

01:19:37.712 --> 01:19:39.380
These are excuses, Zoe.

01:19:41.632 --> 01:19:43.384
You need to be honest.
Honest about what?

01:19:43.467 --> 01:19:44.844
That... That you're scared!

01:19:45.553 --> 01:19:48.514
You are scared
of what comes next.

01:19:50.308 --> 01:19:52.268
You wanna know where
your meals are coming from.

01:19:52.351 --> 01:19:54.395
You wanna be told
what to do every day.

01:19:56.063 --> 01:19:58.733
Okay, you think I'm scared?

01:19:58.816 --> 01:20:00.109
I think you're terrified.

01:20:09.452 --> 01:20:10.620
What are you doing?

01:20:11.287 --> 01:20:13.122
Where are you going?
What do you care?

01:20:19.378 --> 01:20:20.671
Zoe.

01:20:20.755 --> 01:20:23.049
What? Stop it!

01:20:24.467 --> 01:20:25.468
Zoe!

01:20:27.553 --> 01:20:28.554
Zoe!

01:20:54.622 --> 01:20:56.582
Mom was right.
You do feed them too much.

01:20:59.961 --> 01:21:01.671
You, your mother, Merit,

01:21:01.754 --> 01:21:05.466
you all seem to know a
lot about what's best for me.

01:21:09.637 --> 01:21:12.473
They are looking kind of
big. They're huge.

01:21:17.645 --> 01:21:21.190
Nice, having you and
your mom around, honey.

01:21:21.774 --> 01:21:22.817
Dad, Mom isn't here.

01:21:22.900 --> 01:21:27.571
Your mother and I, for 22 years,
went wherever the army sent me.

01:21:28.239 --> 01:21:30.116
And then
we bought this place.

01:21:30.992 --> 01:21:31.993
Together.

01:21:33.411 --> 01:21:36.163
Your mother wanted it
to stay in the family.

01:21:37.081 --> 01:21:40.251
I told you... I'm not
planning on letting her down.

01:21:42.086 --> 01:21:44.171
Long as I'm breathing,
I'm staying put.

01:22:12.867 --> 01:22:15.411
Mom... You know, when
the hospital called me

01:22:16.454 --> 01:22:19.081
to approve new medication for
your grandpa, I thanked them.

01:22:19.165 --> 01:22:22.084
I told them I was so happy
you were there as a proxy.

01:22:22.752 --> 01:22:26.505
And then when they told me you were
there 'cause your grandfather fell again,

01:22:26.589 --> 01:22:28.549
and I said, "Oh, I know,
no, Merit told me."

01:22:29.133 --> 01:22:30.134
Mom...

01:22:30.217 --> 01:22:31.260
You lied to me.

01:22:33.262 --> 01:22:35.097
Your grandfather
can't live on his own.

01:22:39.769 --> 01:22:40.853
I love you, Merit...

01:22:42.772 --> 01:22:43.814
but you've made a mess.

01:23:21.018 --> 01:23:22.311
What is wrong with you?

01:23:22.394 --> 01:23:23.479
<i>Stop!</i>

01:23:24.105 --> 01:23:25.731
Now, get back inside.

01:23:44.250 --> 01:23:46.377
Getting us both
fucking killed out here?

01:23:46.460 --> 01:23:48.754
Get back inside now.
No!

01:23:48.838 --> 01:23:51.274
Stop this, why are you acting like
your life doesn't mean anything?

01:23:51.298 --> 01:23:54.635
It doesn't, none of this means
anything. Yes, it does, stop.

01:23:54.718 --> 01:23:58.556
Why? Because I love
you and I care about you.

01:24:01.392 --> 01:24:03.227
Zoe,

01:24:04.145 --> 01:24:08.983
you're so big and your whole
life is ahead of you

01:24:09.066 --> 01:24:10.568
and you don't even see it.

01:24:10.651 --> 01:24:11.861
What life?

01:24:14.196 --> 01:24:15.489
We'll make it work.

01:24:17.700 --> 01:24:19.368
We will make it work.

01:24:20.578 --> 01:24:21.704
Okay?

01:24:24.123 --> 01:24:25.499
After the army.

01:24:28.335 --> 01:24:29.670
We'll figure it out.

01:24:31.714 --> 01:24:32.756
I swear.

01:24:40.222 --> 01:24:41.432
Zoe!

01:24:46.187 --> 01:24:47.229
You swore.

01:24:50.191 --> 01:24:51.650
Isn't that what you said?

01:24:52.443 --> 01:24:54.195
Me and you? You got me?

01:24:57.406 --> 01:24:59.074
I didn't reenlist
because of you.

01:25:29.813 --> 01:25:31.065
I believed you.

01:25:35.402 --> 01:25:36.445
I know.

01:25:38.530 --> 01:25:40.366
I know, I'm sorry.

01:25:41.575 --> 01:25:44.036
I'm sorry I convinced you
not to reenlist.

01:25:47.456 --> 01:25:49.750
I'm sorry I didn't see
how badly you were doing.

01:25:52.962 --> 01:25:54.421
And I am so sorry...

01:25:56.423 --> 01:25:58.634
I am so sorry
I didn't pick up.

01:27:14.418 --> 01:27:16.271
<i>On behalf of the
President of the United States,</i>

01:27:16.295 --> 01:27:18.756
the United States Army,
and a grateful nation,

01:27:18.839 --> 01:27:21.300
please accept this flag as
a symbol of our appreciation

01:27:21.383 --> 01:27:24.011
for your loved one's
honorable and faithful service.

01:27:25.554 --> 01:27:28.349
I hate my...
I hate myself.

01:27:28.432 --> 01:27:30.059
I hate myself for it.

01:27:31.393 --> 01:27:32.561
You, uh...

01:27:36.148 --> 01:27:37.191
Say it.

01:27:47.868 --> 01:27:49.912
You would still be alive
if it weren't for me.

01:27:59.463 --> 01:28:00.881
You can't tell anyone.

01:28:05.469 --> 01:28:07.805
I know,
and it's breaking me, Zoe.

01:28:11.892 --> 01:28:15.187
It's breaking me worse than
I'm already broken. I have to.

01:28:16.647 --> 01:28:17.940
If you tell them,

01:28:18.899 --> 01:28:20.317
you will lose me forever.

01:28:21.235 --> 01:28:23.737
And I will never,
ever forgive you.

01:28:36.458 --> 01:28:37.459
No...

01:28:51.348 --> 01:28:52.516
But Zoe would have.

01:30:33.909 --> 01:30:34.910
Huh.

01:30:41.250 --> 01:30:42.251
Mom!

01:30:42.751 --> 01:30:45.546
Wait, you can't sign these.
Merit, what are you doing?

01:30:45.629 --> 01:30:47.798
I'm sorry, can...
I-I need to stop you.

01:30:50.008 --> 01:30:51.468
Hi.
Hi.

01:30:52.970 --> 01:30:54.388
Can I talk to you
for a second?

01:30:56.056 --> 01:30:58.225
Um, yeah.
Just over... Over here.

01:30:58.308 --> 01:30:59.851
I promise you
I'll explain. Just...

01:30:59.935 --> 01:31:01.655
I will explain, just
please don't sign them.

01:31:05.315 --> 01:31:07.317
Hey. So, sorry.
It's, um... What?

01:31:07.401 --> 01:31:08.902
Look, I know,
I know, I'm gonna...

01:31:09.736 --> 01:31:10.737
Um...

01:31:12.155 --> 01:31:13.782
I'm sorry.
What?

01:31:13.865 --> 01:31:14.992
I'm sorry for everything

01:31:15.075 --> 01:31:16.994
at the bar.
At the bar?

01:31:17.077 --> 01:31:19.663
I'm sorry about the park,
I-I didn't know.

01:31:19.746 --> 01:31:21.206
Oh, it's okay, I...

01:31:22.249 --> 01:31:23.500
I should've told him.

01:31:24.876 --> 01:31:27.713
But thank you and...

01:31:27.796 --> 01:31:29.798
I'm working through
a lot of stuff right now.

01:31:29.881 --> 01:31:32.009
And, um,
I'm gonna get through it.

01:31:32.092 --> 01:31:33.427
Yeah.
So...

01:31:35.262 --> 01:31:38.348
Second chance? Hey.
You're being a goofball.

01:31:38.432 --> 01:31:39.808
Okay?

01:31:42.185 --> 01:31:44.354
Y-Your mom's
looking at us. Is she?

01:31:45.188 --> 01:31:46.857
Yes, she is.
Yeah.

01:31:46.940 --> 01:31:48.042
Okay, all right,
I'm gonna...

01:31:48.066 --> 01:31:50.485
Yeah.
Yeah, okay.

01:31:51.278 --> 01:31:53.363
Okay, okay, Mom,
listen. Um...

01:31:54.072 --> 01:31:56.908
Yeah. Don't sign these.

01:32:08.837 --> 01:32:12.382
Should've used the Loctite,
much better glue.

01:32:12.466 --> 01:32:15.218
I would, Grandpa, if you would
store it in a normal location.

01:32:17.971 --> 01:32:19.056
Tell him the news.

01:32:21.808 --> 01:32:23.602
You're not going
to Shady Acres.

01:32:23.685 --> 01:32:24.978
No shit.

01:32:29.858 --> 01:32:31.360
I'd like to stay here.

01:32:32.069 --> 01:32:33.236
Where?

01:32:33.320 --> 01:32:35.572
Here. With you.

01:32:36.907 --> 01:32:38.909
I can help you
around the house,

01:32:39.993 --> 01:32:42.454
I could fix stuff,
drive you places.

01:32:43.830 --> 01:32:45.666
Build you an organizer
for your glues.

01:33:07.187 --> 01:33:09.481
You should start
with the water heater.

01:33:10.524 --> 01:33:12.484
You gonna be taking
those long-ass showers,

01:33:12.567 --> 01:33:13.819
we'll need it in tip-top.

01:33:22.202 --> 01:33:24.413
All right.

01:33:25.997 --> 01:33:27.332
You sure about this?

01:33:28.583 --> 01:33:29.710
I am sure.

01:33:30.293 --> 01:33:31.795
Okay, yeah.
Oh!

01:33:32.671 --> 01:33:34.256
I gotta go, um,

01:33:34.840 --> 01:33:37.592
I have so much to tell you
both, but I have to go now.

01:33:37.676 --> 01:33:39.386
I'll be back
as soon as I can.

01:33:41.138 --> 01:33:42.178
Where the hell's
she going?

01:33:42.222 --> 01:33:43.862
I don't know.

01:33:47.310 --> 01:33:50.313
<i>And that's when
you need me there</i>

01:33:50.397 --> 01:33:53.275
<i>With you I'll always share</i>

01:33:53.358 --> 01:33:55.193
<i>Because when the sun...</i>

01:33:55.277 --> 01:33:57.571
No! Fuck!

01:33:57.654 --> 01:33:59.757
If this thing dies one more
time I'm just gonna kill myself.

01:33:59.781 --> 01:34:01.461
Don't do that, what
would I do without you?

01:34:01.491 --> 01:34:03.577
Well, you know, you'll get
your own umbrella I guess.

01:34:06.496 --> 01:34:08.266
Come on, hurry up. I
got it, I got it... Ready?

01:34:08.290 --> 01:34:10.751
<i>When the sun shines
We'll shine together</i>

01:34:10.834 --> 01:34:14.004
<i>Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll al...</i>

01:34:14.087 --> 01:34:16.465
Let me
see it, just give it to me.

01:34:17.632 --> 01:34:19.634
Come on.

01:34:21.219 --> 01:34:23.847
<i>Said I'll always be a friend</i>

01:34:23.930 --> 01:34:26.641
<i>Took an oath
Gonna stick it out to the end</i>

01:34:26.725 --> 01:34:29.561
<i>Now that it's raining more
than ever</i>

01:34:29.644 --> 01:34:32.606
<i>Told you we'll still have
each other</i>

01:34:32.689 --> 01:34:35.650
<i>You can stand under
my umbrella</i>

01:34:35.734 --> 01:34:38.612
<i>You can stand under
my umbrella</i>

01:34:38.695 --> 01:34:42.574
<i>Ella-ella, eh, eh, eh</i>

01:34:42.657 --> 01:34:44.743
<i>Under my umbrella</i>

01:34:44.826 --> 01:34:48.705
<i>Ella-ella, eh, eh, eh</i>

01:34:48.789 --> 01:34:50.916
<i>Under my umbrella</i>

01:34:54.169 --> 01:34:56.004
We'd been back home
for about four years.

01:34:56.963 --> 01:34:59.174
He was like the coolest
dude ever...

01:34:59.257 --> 01:35:03.762
...and the last person you'd
ever think that...

01:35:08.016 --> 01:35:09.810
Surprised to see you.

01:35:10.769 --> 01:35:12.270
Never too late
to be surprised.

01:35:13.563 --> 01:35:15.732
We'll see.
Sorry, James.

01:35:17.234 --> 01:35:19.820
It's fine.
Do you want to...

01:35:24.908 --> 01:35:26.117
You ready?

01:35:36.837 --> 01:35:38.213
My name is Merit.

01:35:40.799 --> 01:35:42.384
Served eight years
in the army.

01:35:43.760 --> 01:35:46.221
63 Bravo,
light-wheel mechanic.

01:35:46.304 --> 01:35:49.224
Deployed to Afghanistan
in 2016.

01:35:54.104 --> 01:35:55.480
And why I'm here...

01:35:59.651 --> 01:36:00.944
It's not an incident.

01:36:11.705 --> 01:36:12.956
It's a person.

01:36:23.633 --> 01:36:24.968
Her name was Zoe.

01:36:27.178 --> 01:36:30.390
<i>I've lived my life</i>

01:36:30.473 --> 01:36:34.603
<i>Awaking with the dawn</i>

01:36:36.354 --> 01:36:42.068
<i>Working on this house
To make it a home</i>

01:36:42.569 --> 01:36:45.322
Some kind of wild protection,
although it doesn't really do jack,

01:36:45.405 --> 01:36:48.199
but it makes me feel more
comforting on the inside.

01:36:48.283 --> 01:36:51.745
Did you serve
your country? Roger, I'm really proud.

01:36:51.828 --> 01:36:52.913
You know...

01:36:52.996 --> 01:36:55.707
<i>Looking out</i>

01:36:55.790 --> 01:37:00.879
<i>Feet on the sunlit ground</i>

01:37:04.007 --> 01:37:08.929
<i>Oh, I'm a beautiful ruin</i>

01:37:09.012 --> 01:37:13.516
<i>Memories of loss in my chest</i>

01:37:13.600 --> 01:37:17.812
<i>I thought they'd be my undoing</i>

01:37:17.896 --> 01:37:21.441
<i>But I'm scared to death
I'll forget</i>

01:37:27.572 --> 01:37:31.076
<i>I'm scared to death
I'll forget</i>

01:37:40.877 --> 01:37:46.925
<i>I felt it in my bones
The storm had broken</i>

01:37:50.512 --> 01:37:53.014
<i>A house
with shattered windows</i>

01:37:53.098 --> 01:37:55.934
<i>Still lets the light in</i>

01:37:59.312 --> 01:38:05.151
<i>Lately I've been thinking
Of starting a garden</i>

01:38:07.362 --> 01:38:10.323
<i>Watching it grow</i>

01:38:10.407 --> 01:38:12.158
<i>Breathing</i>

01:38:12.242 --> 01:38:16.871
<i>Letting you go</i>

01:38:18.581 --> 01:38:23.336
<i>Oh, I'm a beautiful ruin</i>

01:38:23.420 --> 01:38:27.882
<i>Memories of loss in my chest</i>

01:38:27.966 --> 01:38:32.137
<i>I thought they'd be my undoing</i>

01:38:32.220 --> 01:38:36.349
<i>But I'm scared to death
I'll forget</i>

01:38:41.938 --> 01:38:45.734
<i>I'm scared to death
I'll forget</i>

01:38:48.361 --> 01:38:53.575
<i>Forget</i>

01:39:43.666 --> 01:39:45.376
<i>I'm out of breath</i>

01:39:45.460 --> 01:39:48.338
<i>Gave it all, nothing left</i>

01:39:48.421 --> 01:39:51.132
<i>Didn't fall, I told you</i>

01:39:51.216 --> 01:39:52.550
<i>Didn't I?</i>

01:39:52.634 --> 01:39:55.220
<i>Just do, you'll be fine</i>

01:39:55.303 --> 01:39:56.638
<i>I'm running</i>

01:39:56.721 --> 01:39:58.139
<i>Hurting</i>

01:39:58.223 --> 01:39:59.307
<i>Pushing</i>

01:39:59.390 --> 01:40:00.892
<i>I got it, though</i>

01:40:00.975 --> 01:40:02.227
<i>You breathe it</i>

01:40:02.310 --> 01:40:03.812
<i>You mean it</i>

01:40:03.895 --> 01:40:06.606
<i>You see it
It's how I know</i>

01:40:06.689 --> 01:40:08.900
<i>I'm standing on a hill</i>

01:40:08.983 --> 01:40:11.778
<i>Looking up, looking down</i>

01:40:11.861 --> 01:40:14.614
<i>Wanna remember how it feels</i>

01:40:14.697 --> 01:40:17.075
<i>Don't forget to look around</i>

01:40:17.158 --> 01:40:22.497
<i>It's amazing</i>

01:40:22.580 --> 01:40:27.627
<i>Oh, amazing</i>

01:40:27.710 --> 01:40:30.130
<i>Oh, oh, oh, oh</i>

01:40:30.213 --> 01:40:31.840
<i>But tomorrow</i>

01:40:31.923 --> 01:40:35.760
<i>Tomorrow's another day</i>

01:40:35.844 --> 01:40:37.720
<i>So we get low</i>

01:40:37.804 --> 01:40:40.390
<i>Go home, don't fade away</i>

01:40:40.473 --> 01:40:43.143
<i>I'm not done, not empty</i>

01:40:43.226 --> 01:40:46.020
<i>Got more blood inside of me</i>

01:40:46.104 --> 01:40:49.107
<i>Full lungs, inhale deep</i>

01:40:49.190 --> 01:40:51.818
<i>Exhale all the chattering</i>

01:40:51.901 --> 01:40:53.069
<i>Fighting</i>

01:40:53.153 --> 01:40:54.529
<i>Another one</i>

01:40:54.612 --> 01:40:55.864
<i>Keep it up</i>

01:40:55.947 --> 01:40:57.490
<i>Until it's done</i>

01:40:57.574 --> 01:40:58.825
<i>Taking ground</i>

01:40:58.908 --> 01:41:00.201
<i>From me</i>

01:41:00.285 --> 01:41:03.121
<i>Making sounds
and moving my feet</i>

01:41:03.204 --> 01:41:05.540
<i>I'm standing on a hill</i>

01:41:05.623 --> 01:41:08.251
<i>Looking up, looking down</i>

01:41:08.334 --> 01:41:11.087
<i>Wanna remember how it feels</i>

01:41:11.171 --> 01:41:13.631
<i>Don't forget to look around</i>

01:41:13.715 --> 01:41:19.179
<i>It's amazing</i>

01:41:19.262 --> 01:41:23.933
<i>Oh, amazing</i>

01:41:24.017 --> 01:41:26.811
<i>Oh, oh, oh, oh</i>

01:41:26.895 --> 01:41:28.396
<i>But tomorrow</i>

01:41:28.479 --> 01:41:31.024
<i>Tomorrow's another day</i>

01:41:32.233 --> 01:41:34.194
<i>So we get low</i>

01:41:34.277 --> 01:41:38.031
<i>Go home, don't fade away</i>

01:41:38.114 --> 01:41:39.741
<i>But tomorrow</i>

01:41:39.824 --> 01:41:42.327
<i>Tomorrow's another day</i>

01:41:43.620 --> 01:41:45.622
<i>So we get low</i>

01:41:45.705 --> 01:41:48.708
<i>Go home, don't fade away</i>

01:42:12.232 --> 01:42:13.566
<i>Tomorrow</i>

01:42:13.650 --> 01:42:16.277
<i>Tomorrow's another day</i>

01:42:17.779 --> 01:42:19.447
<i>So we get low</i>

01:42:19.530 --> 01:42:22.242
<i>Go home, don't fade away</i>

01:42:23.534 --> 01:42:24.786
<i>But tomorrow</i>

01:42:24.869 --> 01:42:27.789
<i>Tomorrow's another day</i>