WEBVTT 00:00:18.240 --> 00:00:19.360 align:center So I'm in my flat, 00:00:20.840 --> 00:00:22.040 align:center and Sandy's on the way. 00:00:23.200 --> 00:00:25.279 align:center He knows I've gone to the police. 00:00:25.360 --> 00:00:27.400 align:center I'm the one who marked the grave site. 00:00:34.199 --> 00:00:36.720 align:center All of a sudden, Sandy's slamming the car door 00:00:37.320 --> 00:00:38.640 align:center and storming up to the door. 00:00:41.559 --> 00:00:42.480 align:center My God, 00:00:43.160 --> 00:00:44.800 align:center I think he's got a spare key. 00:00:45.879 --> 00:00:47.840 align:center I honestly thought he was gonna kill me. 00:00:52.040 --> 00:00:55.840 align:center But I was finding this anger just bubbling up inside me. 00:00:56.360 --> 00:00:59.000 align:center What right did he have to threaten me? 00:00:59.680 --> 00:01:01.360 align:center He was the one that did this. 00:01:01.879 --> 00:01:03.640 align:center And so I hit the record button. 00:01:04.599 --> 00:01:07.880 align:center If he dares lay a finger on me, I can take that to the police. 00:01:07.960 --> 00:01:10.560 align:center "Do you know what? Fuck you, Sandy. Fuck you." 00:01:12.200 --> 00:01:15.080 align:center Sandy, why did you get me involved in all of this? 00:01:15.160 --> 00:01:16.360 align:center Why? 00:01:16.440 --> 00:01:19.880 align:center What good did you think was gonna come of it? You have-- 00:01:19.960 --> 00:01:22.479 align:center I'll never forgive myself for what I've done to you. 00:01:22.560 --> 00:01:25.200 align:center -You will for what you did to Parsons? -No! 00:01:25.280 --> 00:01:28.160 align:center I was expecting Sandy to kick off. 00:01:28.680 --> 00:01:29.600 align:center But actually, 00:01:30.240 --> 00:01:32.720 align:center in that moment, he was a bit broken. 00:01:34.000 --> 00:01:35.960 align:center -Sandy, you told me after a month. -I know. 00:01:36.040 --> 00:01:37.040 align:center Why? 00:01:37.119 --> 00:01:39.080 align:center I fucking loved you and I trusted you. 00:01:39.160 --> 00:01:42.839 align:center I mean it, Caroline, when I say, fuck me, I never felt so comfortable. 00:01:42.920 --> 00:01:45.560 align:center I never loved somebody as much as when I met you. 00:01:46.440 --> 00:01:49.399 align:center And I said, "But you've just heard about this Red Bull can." 00:01:49.479 --> 00:01:51.399 align:center He went, "See, at the end of the day, 00:01:52.000 --> 00:01:54.399 align:center whatever happened, happened." 00:01:54.479 --> 00:01:56.399 align:center "But you weren't involved." 00:01:57.440 --> 00:01:58.759 align:center "I involved you." 00:01:59.919 --> 00:02:02.520 align:center Deep down, like, it's not your fault. 00:02:02.600 --> 00:02:04.000 align:center It's my fault. 00:02:04.759 --> 00:02:07.960 align:center Him apologizing to me for everything… 00:02:08.039 --> 00:02:10.840 align:center …it released a lot of the fear. 00:02:13.400 --> 00:02:17.480 align:center Christ, you've done more for me than anybody's ever done in my life. 00:02:18.600 --> 00:02:23.120 align:center One side of my brain is saying, "This is the loving man that I fell for." 00:02:24.160 --> 00:02:25.560 align:center "The gentle Sandy." 00:02:26.280 --> 00:02:29.480 align:center The other side of my brain is saying, "Caroline, this guy's dangerous." 00:02:30.920 --> 00:02:33.040 align:center My emotions were all over the place. 00:02:40.840 --> 00:02:43.600 align:center Sandy and I decided we would stay in touch, 00:02:43.679 --> 00:02:45.640 align:center and he went back to the estate. 00:02:48.040 --> 00:02:50.400 align:center Now, Sandy didn't hurt me that night, 00:02:50.480 --> 00:02:53.280 align:center but it could've gone a very, very different way. 00:02:55.400 --> 00:02:56.560 align:center I went to the police. 00:02:57.440 --> 00:02:59.200 align:center I'd done the right thing. 00:02:59.720 --> 00:03:02.640 align:center But I thought, "The police will support me through this." 00:03:03.160 --> 00:03:04.560 align:center And they didn't. 00:03:04.640 --> 00:03:08.400 align:center They just completely revealed me as the betrayer. 00:03:09.040 --> 00:03:11.760 align:center It made me see the police in an entirely different light. 00:03:12.280 --> 00:03:13.760 align:center What is your complaint? 00:03:14.280 --> 00:03:17.679 align:center Do you understand how much me going to help you guys 00:03:17.760 --> 00:03:20.200 align:center has literally ruined my life? 00:03:20.280 --> 00:03:22.679 align:center And you couldn't even promise me safety. 00:03:23.959 --> 00:03:27.519 align:center Do you understand why this is so sad and serious? 00:03:30.640 --> 00:03:32.600 align:center The police abandoned me that day. 00:03:46.920 --> 00:03:49.280 align:center As head of Homicide and Major Crime, 00:03:49.359 --> 00:03:52.200 align:center I had investigated many, many murders. 00:03:53.239 --> 00:03:55.320 align:center Every one of them is a jigsaw. 00:03:55.840 --> 00:03:58.079 align:center You don't necessarily have all the pieces, 00:03:58.160 --> 00:04:00.560 align:center but you have to put together enough 00:04:00.640 --> 00:04:04.440 align:center to present that compelling picture to a jury. 00:04:05.560 --> 00:04:07.280 align:center At this stage in the investigation, 00:04:07.359 --> 00:04:11.839 align:center the information that we had from Dr. Muirhead led us to the body, 00:04:11.920 --> 00:04:17.120 align:center but it wasn't sufficient to allow us to take proceedings against the McKellars. 00:04:18.159 --> 00:04:21.160 align:center We needed to find more pieces of the jigsaw. 00:04:22.800 --> 00:04:25.880 align:center The police were conducting very, very extensive searches 00:04:25.960 --> 00:04:27.640 align:center to see if they could recover 00:04:27.720 --> 00:04:31.080 align:center Tony Parsons' bicycle, his helmet, his rucksack. 00:04:31.599 --> 00:04:35.120 align:center We needed to find out what vehicle had been involved. 00:04:35.200 --> 00:04:37.520 align:center It was essential that we recover 00:04:37.599 --> 00:04:41.280 align:center every single possible shred of forensic evidence, 00:04:41.360 --> 00:04:47.280 align:center so that we don't allow them to get away without any consequence of their actions. 00:04:49.360 --> 00:04:50.520 align:center On top of that, 00:04:50.599 --> 00:04:55.000 align:center Dr. Muirhead told the police that Robert McKellar had confirmed to her 00:04:55.080 --> 00:04:59.680 align:center that Tony Parsons was alive at the time they removed him to the estate. 00:05:01.120 --> 00:05:02.720 align:center If he was still alive, 00:05:02.800 --> 00:05:06.280 align:center that takes you into the territory of murder or culpable homicide. 00:05:09.240 --> 00:05:13.680 align:center In order to corroborate what has been said to her, 00:05:13.760 --> 00:05:16.640 align:center we need to conduct a full postmortem examination. 00:05:18.360 --> 00:05:21.640 align:center In this case, the receiving mortuary would be 00:05:21.720 --> 00:05:24.360 align:center the Queen Elizabeth Hospital Mortuary in Glasgow. 00:05:25.800 --> 00:05:26.960 align:center Incredibly, 00:05:27.680 --> 00:05:30.760 align:center the human remains of Tony Parsons 00:05:30.840 --> 00:05:33.919 align:center was brought to the same mortuary I was contracted to work at. 00:05:35.880 --> 00:05:40.080 align:center For which I had specialist access to files, to computer programs, 00:05:40.160 --> 00:05:41.760 align:center ID badges, staff access. 00:05:42.640 --> 00:05:48.080 align:center It really wasn't appropriate that she should be in or around the mortuary 00:05:48.160 --> 00:05:50.400 align:center during the time Mr. Parsons' body was there. 00:05:51.080 --> 00:05:54.160 align:center I was then put initially on special leave, 00:05:54.240 --> 00:05:56.640 align:center in case I became a conflict of interest. 00:05:57.760 --> 00:06:00.640 align:center I didn't anticipate there would be any problem for her. 00:06:02.359 --> 00:06:03.760 align:center I was devastated. 00:06:04.440 --> 00:06:05.960 align:center I loved my job. 00:06:11.520 --> 00:06:16.039 align:center In medicine, work does kind of become all-consuming. 00:06:16.760 --> 00:06:19.400 align:center It's just all you do, all you talk about. 00:06:21.479 --> 00:06:26.120 align:center She'd have been training for 11 years by that stage. 00:06:26.200 --> 00:06:29.680 align:center Every day has been about medical school or work as a doctor. 00:06:30.200 --> 00:06:34.039 align:center To have that taken away from you, it's devastating. That's all you have. 00:06:35.280 --> 00:06:37.560 align:center Suddenly, you're at home. 00:06:37.640 --> 00:06:39.359 align:center There's no one to speak to. 00:06:39.960 --> 00:06:42.200 align:center And this was during lockdown. 00:06:43.840 --> 00:06:45.200 align:center Left to her own thoughts. 00:06:45.280 --> 00:06:46.520 align:center Oh, my life! 00:06:47.120 --> 00:06:50.120 align:center It must have been extremely distressing for her. 00:06:50.799 --> 00:06:52.000 align:center It was difficult. 00:06:53.320 --> 00:06:55.560 align:center I had no purpose, nothing to wake up for. 00:06:55.640 --> 00:06:56.640 align:center Oh, my gosh. 00:06:56.720 --> 00:06:59.520 align:center I would start recording everything, even myself, 00:07:00.160 --> 00:07:02.320 align:center trying to keep a grasp on my own reality. 00:07:07.080 --> 00:07:08.760 align:center It was a terrible time. 00:07:09.720 --> 00:07:11.560 align:center She became totally paranoid. 00:07:11.640 --> 00:07:12.680 align:center -Mm-hm. -Um… 00:07:12.760 --> 00:07:13.919 align:center And anti-police. 00:07:14.560 --> 00:07:16.760 align:center Anti seeing anyone, talking to anyone, 00:07:16.840 --> 00:07:18.479 align:center doing anything. 00:07:19.000 --> 00:07:23.039 align:center I felt like such a failure to my parents by this point in my life. 00:07:23.640 --> 00:07:26.680 align:center I knew I'd thrown their world into turmoil. 00:07:29.760 --> 00:07:31.560 align:center And I couldn't face that. 00:07:35.280 --> 00:07:37.760 align:center My mum explicitly asked the detectives 00:07:37.840 --> 00:07:40.840 align:center if I could have someone professional to talk to. 00:07:41.520 --> 00:07:44.479 align:center The officer said, "Your daughter's not allowed to speak to anyone, 00:07:44.560 --> 00:07:46.320 align:center or she could compromise the case." 00:07:51.520 --> 00:07:53.599 align:center My support network of colleagues was gone. 00:07:54.320 --> 00:07:56.520 align:center My family was torn apart by this. 00:07:56.599 --> 00:07:58.919 align:center I had nothing in Glasgow. 00:08:00.599 --> 00:08:03.239 align:center I was getting occasional messages from Caroline. 00:08:03.320 --> 00:08:05.359 align:center She was a mess. 00:08:05.440 --> 00:08:08.120 align:center You know, a whirlwind romance, an engagement… 00:08:08.200 --> 00:08:12.799 align:center I don't know if you have an opportunity to suddenly turn those feelings off. 00:08:13.840 --> 00:08:16.080 align:center I was so broken and feeling as if 00:08:16.159 --> 00:08:17.520 align:center no one would want to be with me. 00:08:18.520 --> 00:08:21.479 align:center Sandy would send little photos and little videos, 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:24.640 align:center saying, "Oh, my gosh, I miss you so much." 00:08:25.239 --> 00:08:27.679 align:center I had handed him in and ruined his life. 00:08:28.840 --> 00:08:30.560 align:center He should hate me. 00:08:31.679 --> 00:08:34.880 align:center It made me feel loved, made me feel wanted. 00:08:35.840 --> 00:08:39.280 align:center And that… feeling of being treated well 00:08:39.360 --> 00:08:41.240 align:center when you've not been, 00:08:41.320 --> 00:08:43.799 align:center you cling onto it so strongly. 00:08:44.959 --> 00:08:48.400 align:center I still had that toxic draw 00:08:48.480 --> 00:08:50.280 align:center when he would message me. 00:08:50.360 --> 00:08:52.640 align:center You make me smile more than anybody. 00:08:54.000 --> 00:08:56.959 align:center You make me laugh more than anybody's done in my life. 00:08:57.560 --> 00:09:01.199 align:center I've never met somebody like you before in my life. 00:09:03.800 --> 00:09:05.959 align:center As mad as it may sound to people, 00:09:06.920 --> 00:09:10.800 align:center you can't just turn your affection off even if they've done a terrible thing. 00:09:14.880 --> 00:09:16.400 align:center I drove to the Auch Estate, 00:09:17.160 --> 00:09:18.480 align:center back to Sandy. 00:09:19.920 --> 00:09:22.000 align:center It weirdly felt like I was going home. 00:09:23.120 --> 00:09:24.920 align:center Being somewhere where maybe… 00:09:26.880 --> 00:09:27.959 align:center …I'm actually loved. 00:09:30.320 --> 00:09:33.199 align:center Even if it's the most warped love in the world. 00:09:36.440 --> 00:09:37.920 align:center We've all, at some point, 00:09:38.000 --> 00:09:40.880 align:center done or kept to something we know is bad for us. 00:09:44.000 --> 00:09:45.160 align:center We're all human. 00:09:56.280 --> 00:09:57.160 align:center Morning! 00:10:02.880 --> 00:10:04.959 align:center Aye… 00:10:05.040 --> 00:10:09.079 align:center Being on that estate, you could hide yourself away from the world. 00:10:11.280 --> 00:10:13.199 align:center Ah, to be alone in Scotland. 00:10:13.680 --> 00:10:14.920 align:center Yeah. 00:10:15.000 --> 00:10:21.040 align:center Sandy and I, thereafter, lived in a bubble of our own little false reality. 00:10:23.160 --> 00:10:24.360 align:center It's just the best. 00:10:24.440 --> 00:10:27.720 align:center His brother, Robert, he accepted me back. 00:10:28.240 --> 00:10:30.000 align:center I remember Robert once saying, 00:10:30.079 --> 00:10:32.760 align:center "This is the most fucked-up, dysfunctional situation, 00:10:32.839 --> 00:10:34.160 align:center but we all love each other." 00:10:38.199 --> 00:10:41.520 align:center Me, Robert, and Sandy were the only three in the world who knew 00:10:41.600 --> 00:10:43.959 align:center the intensity of what was going on. 00:10:44.760 --> 00:10:47.520 align:center When you're on the estate and the police turn up… 00:10:47.600 --> 00:10:50.839 align:center Every time a police car would even come past the road, everyone would freeze, 00:10:52.320 --> 00:10:54.839 align:center thinking they were gonna get rearrested. 00:10:55.640 --> 00:10:59.839 align:center I was made aware by the police that she was back living with him. 00:10:59.920 --> 00:11:05.000 align:center And it seemed to me to be a very, very odd decision, indeed. 00:11:07.079 --> 00:11:08.920 align:center He had told her he'd killed somebody. 00:11:12.600 --> 00:11:14.959 align:center A funeral has taken place of a charity cyclist 00:11:15.040 --> 00:11:18.480 align:center whose body was found three years after he went missing. 00:11:23.079 --> 00:11:26.440 align:center The fact that she was still associating with Sandy 00:11:26.959 --> 00:11:30.719 align:center certainly created in my mind a-- a nagging worry or concern 00:11:30.800 --> 00:11:37.400 align:center that she may not be willing to participate as a witness at a later stage. 00:11:42.800 --> 00:11:47.040 align:center She told me that she was moving back to the boys' estate. 00:11:47.839 --> 00:11:49.680 align:center That sounded completely mental. 00:11:52.000 --> 00:11:54.079 align:center I didn't know what she was doing. 00:11:57.400 --> 00:12:02.680 align:center How do you think people will judge that decision to go back to the farm? 00:12:07.199 --> 00:12:09.560 align:center My brain couldn't fathom and cope with the idea 00:12:09.640 --> 00:12:13.600 align:center that the man that I'd fallen in love with was a murderer. 00:12:14.520 --> 00:12:15.760 align:center And I was able to… 00:12:15.839 --> 00:12:18.640 align:center Poor coping strategies or whatever, I was able to change my beliefs. 00:12:18.719 --> 00:12:20.560 align:center I'd be like, "It's the parents' fault." 00:12:20.640 --> 00:12:24.280 align:center "He had a bad childhood," "Didn't mean it," "Under the influence…" 00:12:24.360 --> 00:12:27.959 align:center Or, "If I do this, I can improve, I can change this, I can control this." 00:12:30.839 --> 00:12:34.120 align:center That little bit of your brain that holds onto this idea 00:12:34.199 --> 00:12:37.920 align:center that, "Maybe I was wrong, maybe they are a good person," which is… 00:12:41.280 --> 00:12:44.360 align:center And… we had a bond, 00:12:44.440 --> 00:12:47.079 align:center which, obviously, is not healthy at all, 00:12:47.160 --> 00:12:50.000 align:center but it was a bond, and there was an awful lot of love. 00:12:52.880 --> 00:12:55.240 align:center Love is such a strong emotion. 00:12:55.320 --> 00:12:59.040 align:center It pulls you away from the reality because reality is too painful. 00:12:59.959 --> 00:13:04.640 align:center In this moment, I was desperate to see the good in Sandy. 00:13:08.440 --> 00:13:11.719 align:center Deep down, she didn't want the reality to be that… 00:13:11.800 --> 00:13:12.839 align:center Hello, friend. 00:13:12.920 --> 00:13:16.760 align:center …this person that she'd fallen for had killed somebody. 00:13:18.920 --> 00:13:21.920 align:center I think Caroline wanted, hoped, 00:13:22.440 --> 00:13:24.520 align:center that Sandy had admitted it to her 00:13:24.599 --> 00:13:27.240 align:center so that, actually, he could redeem himself. 00:13:28.440 --> 00:13:30.560 align:center -You found it very hard to… -I did, yeah. 00:13:30.640 --> 00:13:36.520 align:center I think she should just have cut the ties and… and distanced herself. 00:13:43.160 --> 00:13:47.120 align:center So, at this point, we're still awaiting the pathologist's written opinion. 00:13:51.440 --> 00:13:55.400 align:center The police did what they could to search for Mr. Parsons' possessions. 00:13:56.040 --> 00:13:59.599 align:center But no trace of his bicycle or his equipment had been found. 00:14:01.719 --> 00:14:05.480 align:center What they did discover was the vehicle that was believed involved… 00:14:06.959 --> 00:14:08.199 align:center was Robert's vehicle. 00:14:08.280 --> 00:14:10.040 align:center It's an Isuzu pickup. 00:14:12.360 --> 00:14:13.599 align:center When examined, 00:14:14.120 --> 00:14:18.280 align:center it became evident that the vehicle had been involved in a collision. 00:14:18.360 --> 00:14:23.120 align:center The McKellar brothers had arranged to have the vehicle repaired 00:14:23.199 --> 00:14:28.000 align:center at a remote garage where it would never normally go to be repaired 00:14:28.079 --> 00:14:31.920 align:center at a time that was consistent with the aftermath of the accident. 00:14:32.839 --> 00:14:34.760 align:center And, astonishingly enough, 00:14:34.839 --> 00:14:36.520 align:center when the police went there, 00:14:36.599 --> 00:14:40.240 align:center the mechanic was able to show them photographs 00:14:40.319 --> 00:14:43.640 align:center of the vehicle as it had come into the garage. 00:14:43.719 --> 00:14:48.560 align:center And the damage is perfectly consistent with a road traffic accident. 00:14:50.199 --> 00:14:53.000 align:center As it transpired, the McKellar brothers told the garage, 00:14:53.079 --> 00:14:55.120 align:center that they'd had a collision with a deer. 00:14:55.640 --> 00:14:58.120 align:center They didn't want to claim on their insurance. 00:14:58.199 --> 00:15:00.120 align:center It was a cash-in-hand job. 00:15:00.199 --> 00:15:03.599 align:center All of which is plainly an attempt to cover 00:15:03.680 --> 00:15:07.520 align:center their involvement in the accident involving Mr. Parsons. 00:15:08.560 --> 00:15:11.520 align:center Now, because the vehicle had been repaired, 00:15:11.599 --> 00:15:14.800 align:center that meant that there was not going to be a possibility 00:15:14.880 --> 00:15:18.360 align:center of finding forensic evidence, say, paintwork from the bike, 00:15:18.439 --> 00:15:20.439 align:center fabric from Mr. Parsons' clothing. 00:15:20.520 --> 00:15:23.079 align:center Those sorts of things were lost. 00:15:23.160 --> 00:15:26.920 align:center But the repair itself was highly significant, 00:15:27.000 --> 00:15:29.199 align:center redolent of their guilt. 00:15:31.120 --> 00:15:35.319 align:center All the little bits of the jigsaw were beginning to fit together. 00:15:36.400 --> 00:15:42.160 align:center But it wasn't direct evidence that tied the McKellars into Tony Parsons' demise. 00:15:43.719 --> 00:15:48.599 align:center It was clear to me that Caroline Muirhead was the foundation of this case. 00:15:48.680 --> 00:15:51.800 align:center If we were to try to secure justice, 00:15:51.880 --> 00:15:55.680 align:center we would need her in court to give evidence against the McKellars. 00:16:01.280 --> 00:16:03.880 align:center The days were flowing into weeks, into months, 00:16:03.959 --> 00:16:09.400 align:center and this harmonious little bubble was becoming more somber and quite menacing. 00:16:11.439 --> 00:16:13.120 align:center I tried to go back to work, 00:16:13.199 --> 00:16:16.560 align:center but I really wasn't in a fit state to practice. 00:16:17.319 --> 00:16:20.079 align:center We all knew they were gonna get rearrested, 00:16:20.599 --> 00:16:23.199 align:center but it just seemed to go on forever. 00:16:24.240 --> 00:16:28.599 align:center Myself, Robert, and Sandy indulged in drugs and alcohol. 00:16:28.680 --> 00:16:31.319 align:center Three-day bender, no surrender for me. 00:16:31.400 --> 00:16:32.640 align:center Two for you. 00:16:32.719 --> 00:16:34.240 align:center It was a way of escaping. 00:16:34.319 --> 00:16:36.719 align:center Fuck off. 00:16:36.800 --> 00:16:38.160 align:center Oh, fuck. 00:16:38.240 --> 00:16:40.560 align:center But we were arguing much more. 00:16:40.640 --> 00:16:42.800 align:center In the middle of fucking nowhere, 00:16:42.880 --> 00:16:45.120 align:center and Sandy's in a cunt of a mood. 00:16:45.800 --> 00:16:48.479 align:center Here I was, isolated on a farm, 00:16:50.160 --> 00:16:52.719 align:center just in this haze and limbo, 00:16:53.479 --> 00:16:55.000 align:center wasting my life, 00:16:55.520 --> 00:16:56.520 align:center waiting. 00:16:58.959 --> 00:17:01.359 align:center One night, we're playing Scrabble, 00:17:01.439 --> 00:17:04.319 align:center and… then being high on drugs, 00:17:05.359 --> 00:17:07.760 align:center he started talking about the case. 00:17:10.000 --> 00:17:11.880 align:center And I clicked record again. 00:17:14.560 --> 00:17:17.119 align:center See, when I hit him, we looked at each other and said, 00:17:17.200 --> 00:17:19.319 align:center "What the fuck was that?" And he's like, "I don't know." 00:17:19.399 --> 00:17:21.440 align:center Anyway, I thought it was someone homeless. 00:17:21.520 --> 00:17:23.760 align:center I was like, "Who'd be cycling this time of night?" 00:17:23.839 --> 00:17:27.760 align:center He then starts talking about the bike. "It's under a waterfall somewhere." 00:17:28.440 --> 00:17:31.640 align:center I took it down, like, to the loch and tried to launch it. 00:17:33.320 --> 00:17:34.840 align:center But the loch goes up and down. 00:17:34.919 --> 00:17:37.760 align:center So I had to, like, swim in and get it. Fucking hell. 00:17:38.440 --> 00:17:40.440 align:center Is that up by Loch Lyon? 00:17:40.520 --> 00:17:41.840 align:center Hm. 00:17:43.040 --> 00:17:44.919 align:center Have the police found that bike? 00:17:45.000 --> 00:17:47.440 align:center I have no idea. Fuck knows. 00:17:48.040 --> 00:17:51.120 align:center Then Sandy started to talk about the police investigation 00:17:51.200 --> 00:17:54.040 align:center and conversations he'd had with his own lawyer. 00:17:54.560 --> 00:17:57.720 align:center He says they might have one little thing, which is Caroline, 00:17:57.800 --> 00:17:59.440 align:center but they've got nothing else. 00:17:59.520 --> 00:18:01.399 align:center It's very circumstantial. 00:18:02.399 --> 00:18:06.000 align:center There was an arrogance, almost disdain in his voice, 00:18:06.520 --> 00:18:08.520 align:center of, "We've got away with this." 00:18:08.600 --> 00:18:11.880 align:center "How did that man get there? Was it the boys?" 00:18:11.960 --> 00:18:13.200 align:center "We don't know." 00:18:13.280 --> 00:18:15.440 align:center There was no compassion, no remorse. 00:18:16.680 --> 00:18:18.560 align:center Normal people don't do that. 00:18:21.120 --> 00:18:23.200 align:center He was someone's husband. 00:18:23.919 --> 00:18:25.159 align:center Someone's dad. 00:18:41.320 --> 00:18:43.399 align:center It was a huge wake-up call. 00:18:44.960 --> 00:18:48.000 align:center Who is this man? Who is this monster? 00:18:48.679 --> 00:18:51.080 align:center Whoever I loved didn't exist. 00:18:53.080 --> 00:18:55.040 align:center I was living a lie. 00:18:55.560 --> 00:18:59.159 align:center And being high and drunk made that possible. 00:19:02.200 --> 00:19:05.840 align:center I'd lost my sense of self and my sense of right and wrong. 00:19:10.919 --> 00:19:13.560 align:center Anyways, that's good. Could be an option. 00:19:13.640 --> 00:19:18.000 align:center After that, this false bubble of reality, I knew, was gonna burst. 00:19:18.080 --> 00:19:20.640 align:center I'm not allowing you to completely ruin my life anymore, 00:19:20.720 --> 00:19:22.560 align:center because that's what you keep doing. 00:19:22.640 --> 00:19:25.720 align:center I finally just had to accept that he was never gonna change. 00:19:25.800 --> 00:19:27.800 align:center And so I had to leave. 00:19:27.880 --> 00:19:31.080 align:center -This really how we're ending it? -Yes, it was already ended. 00:19:31.159 --> 00:19:32.600 align:center You're going to jail. 00:19:32.679 --> 00:19:36.840 align:center You have literally ruined my life. Look what you've got me involved in. 00:19:38.120 --> 00:19:39.560 align:center Get out! 00:19:43.159 --> 00:19:45.800 align:center And I actually moved back to Glasgow. 00:19:47.760 --> 00:19:48.840 align:center To my parents' house. 00:19:48.919 --> 00:19:49.960 align:center Hello. 00:19:50.040 --> 00:19:50.880 align:center Because… 00:19:50.960 --> 00:19:51.800 align:center Hey, darling. 00:19:51.880 --> 00:19:53.120 align:center …I'd given up my flat. 00:19:53.200 --> 00:19:56.040 align:center Oh, Blue, hello. 00:19:57.960 --> 00:20:01.080 align:center When she came back, it was such a relief. 00:20:02.800 --> 00:20:05.440 align:center But very often she was up all through the night, 00:20:05.520 --> 00:20:08.280 align:center and she was in her room all day. 00:20:10.480 --> 00:20:13.919 align:center Being back at my parents' house forced me to acknowledge 00:20:14.000 --> 00:20:16.800 align:center my behaviors and my decisions. 00:20:18.040 --> 00:20:20.760 align:center I felt like I'd let a lot of people down. 00:20:25.840 --> 00:20:27.800 align:center She was not in a good place at all, was she? 00:20:27.880 --> 00:20:28.800 align:center No. 00:20:34.000 --> 00:20:35.880 align:center Oh fuck. Cunt and shitty fuck. 00:20:37.200 --> 00:20:39.760 align:center I just wanted the investigation to be over. 00:20:40.760 --> 00:20:43.600 align:center Sandy had no idea about the recordings I'd taken. 00:20:44.600 --> 00:20:45.960 align:center I thought to myself, 00:20:46.560 --> 00:20:50.560 align:center "Maybe the investigation is taking so long because they haven't got the bike." 00:20:51.200 --> 00:20:56.520 align:center Maybe the bike is vital, crucial evidence to the prosecution. 00:20:57.280 --> 00:21:02.760 align:center And so I called up the detectives, and I said, "I have another recording." 00:21:02.840 --> 00:21:05.480 align:center And two detectives came to my parents' house. 00:21:06.720 --> 00:21:11.480 align:center I played them the secret recording where Sandy was talking about the bike. 00:21:11.560 --> 00:21:14.200 align:center I took it down to the loch and tried to launch it, 00:21:14.280 --> 00:21:15.919 align:center but the loch goes up and down. 00:21:16.000 --> 00:21:19.760 align:center The police acted on that information and searched every waterfall. 00:21:19.840 --> 00:21:22.280 align:center There are countless waterfalls on the estate. 00:21:22.919 --> 00:21:24.760 align:center The police were keen to find the bike 00:21:24.840 --> 00:21:27.720 align:center because there may have been paint from the vehicle that was involved on it. 00:21:28.480 --> 00:21:29.640 align:center But… 00:21:30.320 --> 00:21:31.560 align:center they found nothing. 00:21:35.320 --> 00:21:37.960 align:center -Was the windscreen not fucked? -It was all right. 00:21:38.760 --> 00:21:40.679 align:center Having to sit and listen to this recording, 00:21:40.760 --> 00:21:42.840 align:center I can hear myself snorting the cocaine. 00:21:46.640 --> 00:21:47.560 align:center It's vile. 00:21:48.240 --> 00:21:51.040 align:center And I said, "Look, I need help." 00:21:51.919 --> 00:21:54.080 align:center The detective said, "Have you not been referred 00:21:54.159 --> 00:21:55.800 align:center to the Victim Support Service yet?" 00:21:55.880 --> 00:21:57.000 align:center And I went, "No." 00:21:57.080 --> 00:22:00.200 align:center He said, "You should have been with them from the word go." 00:22:07.280 --> 00:22:08.640 align:center In Scots law, 00:22:09.360 --> 00:22:14.320 align:center witnesses who are in relationships with an accused person 00:22:14.399 --> 00:22:16.919 align:center are to be treated as vulnerable witnesses. 00:22:18.760 --> 00:22:22.399 align:center The police and the Crown had a duty to provide… 00:22:22.480 --> 00:22:23.320 align:center Fuck it. 00:22:23.399 --> 00:22:26.399 align:center …emotional and mental support 00:22:26.480 --> 00:22:30.399 align:center to Dr. Muirhead right from the very start. 00:22:31.000 --> 00:22:32.320 align:center Let's go home. 00:22:32.960 --> 00:22:34.439 align:center As I understand it, 00:22:34.520 --> 00:22:37.320 align:center the relationship was not a lengthy relationship. 00:22:37.399 --> 00:22:39.600 align:center It was a matter of weeks or months. 00:22:39.679 --> 00:22:41.880 align:center I have no doubt that that played a part 00:22:41.960 --> 00:22:44.320 align:center in the risk assessment the police made at the time. 00:22:44.399 --> 00:22:48.399 align:center The length of a relationship bears no relation 00:22:48.480 --> 00:22:52.560 align:center to the fact that she was a highly vulnerable person. 00:22:55.240 --> 00:22:58.439 align:center We could have referred her to help, 00:22:58.960 --> 00:23:01.679 align:center but you have to bear in mind that we're talking here 00:23:01.760 --> 00:23:04.120 align:center about someone who is highly intelligent. 00:23:04.200 --> 00:23:06.320 align:center She's a fully qualified doctor, 00:23:06.399 --> 00:23:09.679 align:center someone who knows exactly what's available to her. 00:23:10.880 --> 00:23:14.720 align:center Dr. Muirhead did not fit the police's stereotype 00:23:14.800 --> 00:23:17.080 align:center of a vulnerable witness. 00:23:18.360 --> 00:23:24.200 align:center And that's where the system started to let her down. 00:23:25.840 --> 00:23:31.120 align:center I just think she was treated appallingly. 00:23:40.520 --> 00:23:43.439 align:center Finally, the results of the postmortem came back. 00:23:44.240 --> 00:23:45.640 align:center The forensic pathologist found 00:23:45.720 --> 00:23:50.439 align:center that Mr. Parsons had sustained multiple blunt force trauma injuries, 00:23:52.080 --> 00:23:55.360 align:center consistent with being struck by a motor vehicle. 00:23:55.880 --> 00:23:59.080 align:center But they were injuries that did not indicate 00:23:59.159 --> 00:24:00.600 align:center he would've died immediately. 00:24:01.679 --> 00:24:04.679 align:center The pathologist's opinion was very clear. 00:24:04.760 --> 00:24:09.399 align:center Mr. Parsons was still alive after the collision. 00:24:10.960 --> 00:24:16.320 align:center Immediately, we need to have an expert in accident and emergency medicine 00:24:17.040 --> 00:24:22.000 align:center to provide an opinion as to how long Mr. Parsons might have lived. 00:24:22.600 --> 00:24:26.240 align:center The expert's opinion was between 20 to 30 minutes. 00:24:27.399 --> 00:24:30.600 align:center It's utterly central to the jigsaw of evidence. 00:24:32.040 --> 00:24:34.280 align:center In Scots law, you can commit murder, 00:24:34.360 --> 00:24:38.280 align:center either intentionally or by what's known as wicked recklessness, 00:24:38.360 --> 00:24:41.600 align:center the carrying out of an act where you don't care 00:24:42.120 --> 00:24:44.120 align:center whether the person lives or dies. 00:24:47.679 --> 00:24:49.360 align:center They don't call for assistance. 00:24:49.439 --> 00:24:52.280 align:center They don't call the police, don't call the ambulance service. 00:24:52.360 --> 00:24:55.200 align:center They don't take any steps whatsoever… 00:24:55.280 --> 00:24:59.439 align:center …to give Mr. Parsons a chance at life. 00:25:00.040 --> 00:25:05.360 align:center It's callous beyond… beyond anything that I can imagine, really. 00:25:07.399 --> 00:25:10.640 align:center Finally, all the pieces of the jigsaw were in place. 00:25:11.280 --> 00:25:14.080 align:center I instructed the police to arrest the McKellars. 00:25:15.240 --> 00:25:18.000 align:center This was the most serious crime it could be, 00:25:18.520 --> 00:25:19.360 align:center murder. 00:25:27.280 --> 00:25:29.080 align:center Can you confirm your name? 00:25:29.159 --> 00:25:30.560 align:center Alexander Gardner McKellar. 00:25:30.640 --> 00:25:32.640 align:center Can I ask you your name, please? 00:25:32.720 --> 00:25:33.880 align:center Robert McKellar. 00:25:34.560 --> 00:25:40.040 align:center During the interviews, the police tactic was to try to humanize Mr. Parsons, 00:25:40.120 --> 00:25:42.840 align:center try to unsettle the McKellar brothers. 00:25:42.919 --> 00:25:44.199 align:center You know who that is? 00:25:44.280 --> 00:25:47.399 align:center Look at that picture and think what you did to him. 00:25:48.000 --> 00:25:49.240 align:center His family. 00:25:52.320 --> 00:25:53.600 align:center I can see the photo. 00:25:54.240 --> 00:25:55.760 align:center Can you see the man? 00:25:59.600 --> 00:26:01.720 align:center Your actions could have kept that man alive, 00:26:01.800 --> 00:26:04.080 align:center and you chose not to. 00:26:05.040 --> 00:26:09.560 align:center Police play a recording Caroline Muirhead had made of Sandy to him. 00:26:09.640 --> 00:26:12.439 align:center We seized a laptop, which was later examined. 00:26:12.520 --> 00:26:14.520 align:center On this laptop were several recordings… 00:26:14.600 --> 00:26:16.120 align:center It was quite clear, 00:26:16.199 --> 00:26:18.320 align:center from the way Sandy reacted, 00:26:18.399 --> 00:26:20.480 align:center that he knew nothing of the recording. 00:26:20.560 --> 00:26:23.040 align:center And you can see that in the way he cracks his knuckles. 00:26:23.120 --> 00:26:24.679 align:center …one of the audio clips in here. 00:26:27.120 --> 00:26:29.320 align:center Because it was either my life or his. 00:26:30.600 --> 00:26:33.240 align:center Fucking stupid cunt shouldn't have fucking been there. 00:26:34.080 --> 00:26:35.840 align:center He was plainly shocked by it. 00:26:36.760 --> 00:26:40.800 align:center It doesn't sound like me, to be honest. It sounds like it's been messed with. 00:26:41.320 --> 00:26:42.439 align:center In my opinion, 00:26:42.520 --> 00:26:46.560 align:center Sandy's body language, his reaction to the tape recording, 00:26:46.640 --> 00:26:49.320 align:center was going to be dynamite in front of a jury. 00:26:49.399 --> 00:26:52.040 align:center Have you no regrets about what you've done? 00:26:52.120 --> 00:26:53.080 align:center No comment. 00:26:57.080 --> 00:26:58.720 align:center Twin brothers have been charged 00:26:58.800 --> 00:27:03.159 align:center in connection with the death of a cyclist reported missing four years ago. 00:27:03.240 --> 00:27:05.480 align:center Alexander McKellar and Robert McKellar 00:27:05.560 --> 00:27:07.120 align:center were charged with murder. 00:27:07.640 --> 00:27:09.720 align:center Both were remanded in custody. 00:27:10.840 --> 00:27:13.080 align:center My phone went, and it was one of the detectives. 00:27:13.159 --> 00:27:17.080 align:center And he called me and said, "Caroline, we just wish to inform you 00:27:17.159 --> 00:27:19.240 align:center that the boys have now officially and formally 00:27:19.320 --> 00:27:21.360 align:center been charged with the murder of Tony Parsons." 00:27:23.679 --> 00:27:26.880 align:center And he said, "Look, Caroline, they'll be held in jail now." 00:27:27.640 --> 00:27:29.240 align:center "A trial date will be set." 00:27:31.360 --> 00:27:33.520 align:center "You'll be called as a witness." 00:27:34.600 --> 00:27:36.480 align:center There was a… a relief, 00:27:36.560 --> 00:27:40.600 align:center but there was also, then, that huge, impending anxiety 00:27:40.679 --> 00:27:43.199 align:center and apprehension of the murder trial. 00:27:43.800 --> 00:27:47.199 align:center I recognized I was gonna get torn to shreds. 00:27:50.040 --> 00:27:53.240 align:center The most common question one gets is, 00:27:53.320 --> 00:27:57.840 align:center "How can you defend people who are accused of murder?" 00:27:57.919 --> 00:27:59.159 align:center My answer to that is, 00:27:59.240 --> 00:28:02.880 align:center "It's not my job to decide whether the person is innocent or guilty." 00:28:02.960 --> 00:28:06.720 align:center "My task is simply to represent someone to the best of my ability." 00:28:07.960 --> 00:28:10.480 align:center When I first met Mr. McKellar, 00:28:10.560 --> 00:28:14.199 align:center he no longer disputed that he and his brother 00:28:14.280 --> 00:28:16.679 align:center killed and buried Mr. Parsons. 00:28:16.760 --> 00:28:18.560 align:center On his instructions, 00:28:18.640 --> 00:28:21.640 align:center I approached the Crown offering a plea of guilty 00:28:21.720 --> 00:28:23.960 align:center to causing death by dangerous driving. 00:28:25.240 --> 00:28:29.240 align:center But I was informed that such a plea would not be accepted. 00:28:29.760 --> 00:28:32.840 align:center The Crown intended to proceed with a charge of murder. 00:28:34.080 --> 00:28:37.480 align:center The Crown's principal sources of evidence 00:28:37.560 --> 00:28:41.240 align:center were the statement from Caroline Muirhead 00:28:41.320 --> 00:28:43.439 align:center that there had been a confession 00:28:43.520 --> 00:28:46.760 align:center that Mr. Parsons had been alive at the time of the collision, 00:28:46.840 --> 00:28:51.199 align:center a matter which I think it's only fair to say Mr. McKellar totally disputed. 00:28:52.040 --> 00:28:54.840 align:center The other evidence was a report 00:28:55.439 --> 00:29:00.199 align:center saying that it was theoretically possible Mr. Parsons had survived the impact. 00:29:00.280 --> 00:29:04.879 align:center But the Crown's expert was really expressing an opinion. 00:29:04.959 --> 00:29:10.280 align:center It was not sufficient, in my view, to take the Crown to a charge of murder. 00:29:11.560 --> 00:29:15.919 align:center Their entire case, in my opinion, was built around one witness. 00:29:17.679 --> 00:29:20.360 align:center And in my opinion, 00:29:20.439 --> 00:29:24.840 align:center Miss Muirhead was unreliable as a witness. 00:29:27.800 --> 00:29:30.720 align:center Following the arrest, I'm still in this limbo. 00:29:30.800 --> 00:29:33.240 align:center Until it's resolved in the courts, 00:29:33.320 --> 00:29:38.600 align:center you still haven't shaken off that shadow of what's happened. 00:29:39.280 --> 00:29:41.280 align:center It's a very long waiting room. 00:29:49.600 --> 00:29:53.320 align:center All great stories do not start with, "I bought a box of home hair dye," 00:29:53.399 --> 00:29:55.280 align:center but I went, "Do you know what? Fuck it." 00:29:56.840 --> 00:29:57.679 align:center Wow. 00:29:58.840 --> 00:29:59.679 align:center Wow. 00:30:01.120 --> 00:30:04.639 align:center I didn't want to even think about my old life or my old reality. 00:30:04.720 --> 00:30:06.120 align:center It is bad, isn't it? 00:30:06.760 --> 00:30:09.439 align:center The trial date was set for July. 00:30:09.520 --> 00:30:11.800 align:center I was told I would be cross-examined 00:30:11.879 --> 00:30:13.480 align:center by both Robert's barrister 00:30:14.080 --> 00:30:16.240 align:center and then Sandy's, back-to-back. 00:30:16.959 --> 00:30:20.399 align:center I'm worried that they will destroy my character to such an extent 00:30:21.040 --> 00:30:24.159 align:center that I might never be able to practice medicine again. 00:30:24.679 --> 00:30:25.760 align:center And, you know, 00:30:26.560 --> 00:30:28.240 align:center the human brain can do 00:30:29.120 --> 00:30:31.560 align:center some really wild things when it's under pressure. 00:30:32.600 --> 00:30:34.159 align:center Doing a 1:00 a.m. hike. 00:30:34.240 --> 00:30:36.879 align:center I started hanging with a crowd in Glasgow I shouldn't have been with. 00:30:36.959 --> 00:30:38.760 align:center Talk to me, baby 00:30:39.320 --> 00:30:41.439 align:center And I turned to drugs and alcohol. 00:30:42.959 --> 00:30:44.280 align:center Namely, cocaine. 00:30:45.720 --> 00:30:47.159 align:center I was on a path of destruction. 00:30:48.360 --> 00:30:50.280 align:center Caroline, when I first met her, 00:30:50.360 --> 00:30:53.399 align:center was the last person on earth who would have ever taken drugs. 00:30:54.000 --> 00:30:56.639 align:center But after she met Sandy, 00:30:56.720 --> 00:30:59.080 align:center she'd been taking drugs pretty regularly. 00:30:59.159 --> 00:31:03.159 align:center That had coincided with her life completely spiraling out of control. 00:31:03.240 --> 00:31:06.600 align:center This is why I don't do ketamine. 00:31:07.080 --> 00:31:10.399 align:center There's been times she didn't come home, 00:31:10.480 --> 00:31:13.480 align:center times when we… we thought we'd lost her. 00:31:16.280 --> 00:31:18.159 align:center According to a number of witnesses, 00:31:18.760 --> 00:31:21.360 align:center Miss Muirhead was significantly under the influence 00:31:21.439 --> 00:31:23.399 align:center of both drugs and alcohol. 00:31:23.919 --> 00:31:28.480 align:center That would, in my opinion, impact upon a jury's view 00:31:28.560 --> 00:31:32.919 align:center as to whether what she was telling the police was, in fact, accurate or not. 00:31:34.320 --> 00:31:39.959 align:center That, together with Miss Muirhead's decision to continue the relationship, 00:31:40.040 --> 00:31:41.679 align:center would be the starting point 00:31:41.760 --> 00:31:45.760 align:center of discrediting Miss Muirhead as a witness. 00:31:46.800 --> 00:31:51.760 align:center If the jury could not be satisfied about her evidence, 00:31:51.840 --> 00:31:55.280 align:center then that would mean they could not convict of murder. 00:31:56.719 --> 00:31:59.199 align:center At this point, I am saying repeatedly, 00:31:59.280 --> 00:32:01.760 align:center especially to the Victim Support Services, 00:32:01.840 --> 00:32:04.040 align:center I am not in a fit place to do this. 00:32:05.320 --> 00:32:07.000 align:center I was concerned about her. 00:32:07.080 --> 00:32:08.840 align:center I was concerned for her. 00:32:08.919 --> 00:32:11.199 align:center But she had placed herself in a situation 00:32:11.280 --> 00:32:14.840 align:center where the Crown had no option other than to compel her to come to court. 00:32:15.879 --> 00:32:19.199 align:center And I wrote a letter to her explaining that. 00:32:20.040 --> 00:32:23.159 align:center This letter, it said, if I didn't testify, 00:32:23.240 --> 00:32:25.600 align:center I'd be held in contempt of court. 00:32:25.679 --> 00:32:29.600 align:center It was, "You do this, or you'll end up in jail yourself." 00:32:29.679 --> 00:32:32.040 align:center I was just trying to help her. 00:32:32.560 --> 00:32:35.240 align:center Because I'm looking at this situation, thinking, 00:32:35.320 --> 00:32:37.280 align:center "You're about to throw your life away." 00:32:37.360 --> 00:32:39.399 align:center "You're a young, intelligent woman 00:32:39.480 --> 00:32:41.639 align:center with a fantastic career in front of you, 00:32:41.719 --> 00:32:45.120 align:center and you're about to literally pull the pin on the grenade and go, 'Boom.'" 00:32:48.480 --> 00:32:50.719 align:center There are ways to convey 00:32:50.800 --> 00:32:57.679 align:center the consequences of not turning up without it being blunt. 00:32:59.080 --> 00:33:00.560 align:center As a Crown witness, 00:33:00.639 --> 00:33:05.000 align:center Dr. Muirhead should have been offered the special measure 00:33:05.080 --> 00:33:08.679 align:center of having her evidence taken by a commissioner. 00:33:09.560 --> 00:33:12.439 align:center It's a procedure for vulnerable witnesses 00:33:12.520 --> 00:33:16.879 align:center where the evidence is recorded long before the trial process. 00:33:17.480 --> 00:33:20.439 align:center In my view, she didn't fit the criteria. 00:33:20.520 --> 00:33:23.000 align:center I'm a prosecutor. My job is to prosecute people. 00:33:23.600 --> 00:33:28.120 align:center Her giving evidence in person would be much more impactful to a jury. 00:33:29.240 --> 00:33:31.959 align:center I wasn't the strong person who'd gone to give them evidence. 00:33:32.040 --> 00:33:34.439 align:center I was this pathetic waste of space. 00:33:36.199 --> 00:33:40.600 align:center What if I actually am so discredited they lose their case? 00:33:46.560 --> 00:33:49.399 align:center Twin brothers are due in Glasgow High Court today, 00:33:49.480 --> 00:33:52.919 align:center accused of killing a cyclist and covering up their crime. 00:33:53.719 --> 00:33:57.320 align:center Alexander and Robert McKellar face life imprisonment 00:33:57.399 --> 00:34:01.080 align:center if found guilty of murdering Anthony Parsons. 00:34:02.560 --> 00:34:04.840 align:center You have in the dock 00:34:04.919 --> 00:34:07.560 align:center a man accused of killing somebody 00:34:07.639 --> 00:34:11.239 align:center and the person who's gonna testify against him, 00:34:11.759 --> 00:34:13.639 align:center the woman he was going to marry. 00:34:14.719 --> 00:34:18.839 align:center Whether you, uh, view court as a spectacle or not, 00:34:19.440 --> 00:34:21.360 align:center you know, that is high drama. 00:34:23.199 --> 00:34:26.639 align:center If the Parsons family were to see justice done, 00:34:26.719 --> 00:34:30.440 align:center Caroline's testimony was going to be absolutely crucial. 00:34:31.560 --> 00:34:35.760 align:center I thought that being a woman of significant intelligence, 00:34:35.839 --> 00:34:38.799 align:center she would be a difficult witness to cross-examine. 00:34:38.880 --> 00:34:42.880 align:center I anticipated that she would be quite volatile. 00:34:43.480 --> 00:34:47.159 align:center Nothing suggested she was going to be an easy witness to deal with. 00:34:49.799 --> 00:34:51.880 align:center I woke up early hours. 00:34:52.400 --> 00:34:54.360 align:center My mum's laid out an outfit. 00:34:54.880 --> 00:34:58.839 align:center I'm looking at it and I'm thinking, "That doesn't even fit me anymore." 00:35:01.760 --> 00:35:05.839 align:center It's an extraordinary feeling, really, being in the court of justice. 00:35:06.440 --> 00:35:08.799 align:center As people begin to gather, 00:35:08.880 --> 00:35:10.360 align:center from the lawyers 00:35:10.440 --> 00:35:12.720 align:center to this poor man's family, 00:35:13.720 --> 00:35:16.319 align:center there's a rising sense of expectation. 00:35:19.360 --> 00:35:22.440 align:center And then the accused are brought up into the dock. 00:35:23.319 --> 00:35:26.200 align:center These country lads are wearing their best suits. 00:35:27.480 --> 00:35:29.520 align:center They've had nice new haircuts. 00:35:30.080 --> 00:35:33.440 align:center It's a moment of real tension. 00:35:37.080 --> 00:35:38.440 align:center I was so ashamed… 00:35:38.960 --> 00:35:42.480 align:center …of who I was and what I'd become. 00:35:42.560 --> 00:35:43.640 align:center Court. 00:35:44.520 --> 00:35:46.400 align:center And you're waiting for Caroline… 00:35:49.319 --> 00:35:50.799 align:center to take the stand. 00:35:50.880 --> 00:35:52.600 align:center Call the diet. His Majesty's Advocate 00:35:52.680 --> 00:35:55.920 align:center against Alexander McKellar and Robert McKellar. 00:35:57.839 --> 00:36:01.360 align:center And I just thought I was going to let everyone down. 00:36:02.799 --> 00:36:04.080 align:center And I just panicked. 00:36:10.720 --> 00:36:13.400 align:center I wanted to get as far away from there as possible. 00:36:19.799 --> 00:36:24.000 align:center There was a sense that something had gone wrong for the Crown. 00:36:24.080 --> 00:36:26.360 align:center -Advocate Depute. -Thank you, My Lord. 00:36:26.440 --> 00:36:27.440 align:center I regret that I move 00:36:27.520 --> 00:36:30.120 align:center that the case be adjourned until tomorrow morning. 00:36:30.640 --> 00:36:31.960 align:center Very well. 00:36:34.360 --> 00:36:37.319 align:center The no-show on the first day of the star witness… 00:36:39.880 --> 00:36:42.040 align:center it… it's just extraordinary. 00:36:50.240 --> 00:36:52.600 align:center The phone went. It was the police. 00:36:52.680 --> 00:36:56.080 align:center "She hasn't turned up. Where is she?" And I'm saying, "She's not here." 00:36:56.799 --> 00:36:58.720 align:center And now I don't know where she is. 00:36:59.839 --> 00:37:01.960 align:center You're having to stop your mind catastrophizing 00:37:02.040 --> 00:37:05.560 align:center about what might have happened or where she might have gone. 00:37:09.480 --> 00:37:13.480 align:center I just had this crazy notion that if I found that bike, 00:37:13.560 --> 00:37:15.040 align:center maybe it'd all be okay. 00:37:15.120 --> 00:37:18.440 align:center I know where the bike is. That's something else. It's not just me. 00:37:18.520 --> 00:37:22.920 align:center You know? It's not just the word of a crazy person. 00:37:23.680 --> 00:37:27.359 align:center There might be proof they haven't found that they did do this. 00:37:30.000 --> 00:37:32.920 align:center And so there wasn't much sense in it. Of course there wasn't. 00:37:34.120 --> 00:37:36.799 align:center So, basically, no signal. 00:37:37.600 --> 00:37:39.160 align:center So no one knows I'm here. 00:37:39.839 --> 00:37:41.560 align:center To get to that waterfall… 00:37:42.080 --> 00:37:42.920 align:center Slight issue. 00:37:43.839 --> 00:37:45.160 align:center …that's a long walk. 00:37:45.240 --> 00:37:47.200 align:center If I go all the way round with the flooding, 00:37:47.280 --> 00:37:49.040 align:center that'll take another 40 minutes. 00:37:49.799 --> 00:37:50.720 align:center But… 00:37:50.799 --> 00:37:51.680 align:center Let's go. 00:37:51.760 --> 00:37:54.040 align:center …I had half a bottle of wine once I got out of the car. 00:37:54.120 --> 00:37:56.280 align:center The adrenaline was coursing through me so much. 00:37:56.359 --> 00:37:58.240 align:center Fuck. 00:37:58.319 --> 00:37:59.880 align:center Shit, man! 00:38:00.799 --> 00:38:03.120 align:center I'm getting to that waterfall, getting that bike. 00:38:03.200 --> 00:38:04.640 align:center No one's gonna stop me. 00:38:04.720 --> 00:38:07.680 align:center I'm gonna show the police. I'm gonna do their job for them. 00:38:08.280 --> 00:38:10.280 align:center Three miles in to an 18-mile hike. 00:38:10.799 --> 00:38:12.319 align:center I haven't got much time. 00:38:13.080 --> 00:38:15.560 align:center I was taking snaps of myself. 00:38:15.640 --> 00:38:17.160 align:center Didn't send them to anyone. 00:38:18.160 --> 00:38:22.319 align:center And I think there was this, "Look at me and look at what I'm about to do…" 00:38:22.400 --> 00:38:26.319 align:center And, "I'm this victim. Like, look what people have done to me." 00:38:26.400 --> 00:38:27.359 align:center What now? 00:38:28.359 --> 00:38:30.760 align:center When you start something, you've gotta finish it. 00:38:30.839 --> 00:38:32.240 align:center You're… 00:38:33.000 --> 00:38:34.319 align:center I'm not sane. 00:38:36.839 --> 00:38:40.560 align:center You know, this was my home. I lived here, I love it. 00:38:40.640 --> 00:38:42.359 align:center I lost everything. 00:38:44.040 --> 00:38:45.680 align:center I miss it so much. 00:38:50.760 --> 00:38:54.200 align:center It would be fair to say on that first morning when this happened, 00:38:54.280 --> 00:38:59.880 align:center the defense team was a bit more upbeat than the, uh, prosecution team. 00:39:00.640 --> 00:39:03.720 align:center If your key witness is not prepared to take the stand, 00:39:03.799 --> 00:39:04.920 align:center that's a problem. 00:39:05.880 --> 00:39:09.520 align:center Dr. Muirhead did not appear in answer to her citation. 00:39:10.680 --> 00:39:12.600 align:center A warrant was sought for her arrest. 00:39:14.520 --> 00:39:17.120 align:center She had been sighted on the estate. 00:39:19.160 --> 00:39:20.480 align:center Hello! 00:39:21.440 --> 00:39:23.200 align:center I've only done seven miles. 00:39:23.880 --> 00:39:26.080 align:center I was supposed to testify, what, three hours ago? 00:39:27.040 --> 00:39:28.160 align:center The hours are going by. 00:39:28.760 --> 00:39:29.920 align:center They'll be looking for me. 00:39:31.600 --> 00:39:33.600 align:center All the cars are going to come along there. 00:39:34.200 --> 00:39:37.480 align:center I've still got another, what, seven miles to get to the dam? 00:39:37.560 --> 00:39:40.000 align:center Then I heard the low hum of the helicopter. 00:39:40.080 --> 00:39:41.160 align:center I mean, it's echoing. 00:39:42.280 --> 00:39:43.799 align:center They're coming, boys! 00:39:43.880 --> 00:39:45.359 align:center Run into the barn. 00:39:46.799 --> 00:39:48.280 align:center Seeing that helicopter 00:39:49.280 --> 00:39:52.640 align:center took even, like, whatever little bit of rational thought there was there, 00:39:52.720 --> 00:39:54.200 align:center and then it was gone. 00:39:54.280 --> 00:39:57.080 align:center I'm so fucking lucky I got here before they did. 00:39:57.600 --> 00:39:59.799 align:center I'm under a table, I'm in a shed. 00:39:59.880 --> 00:40:01.080 align:center There's nobody here. 00:40:01.600 --> 00:40:03.720 align:center There's no trace of me, right? 00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:09.359 align:center For me to get to this waterfall, I am running out of time. 00:40:11.560 --> 00:40:13.960 align:center I needed a faster form of transport. 00:40:15.600 --> 00:40:18.000 align:center Oh my God. See if the keys are in this. 00:40:18.080 --> 00:40:19.160 align:center Oh my God. 00:40:20.120 --> 00:40:23.000 align:center Fucking idiots left the keys! 00:40:23.720 --> 00:40:25.920 align:center Now, I have no idea how to drive a tractor. 00:40:27.720 --> 00:40:28.920 align:center Shit! 00:40:29.000 --> 00:40:30.720 align:center Turn around, and there's the manual, 00:40:30.799 --> 00:40:33.240 align:center still in its plastic casing, in the back seat. 00:40:33.319 --> 00:40:34.640 align:center And I went, "Right." 00:40:34.720 --> 00:40:36.600 align:center With the manual on my lap, 00:40:36.680 --> 00:40:40.560 align:center putting the key in, being like, "Turn this, do that," then… Vroom! 00:40:41.839 --> 00:40:44.280 align:center I have stolen 00:40:45.280 --> 00:40:46.560 align:center a tractor. 00:40:49.040 --> 00:40:53.080 align:center Oh… my… fucking… 00:40:55.319 --> 00:40:56.640 align:center God! 00:40:56.720 --> 00:40:58.520 align:center Whoo! 00:41:00.760 --> 00:41:03.160 align:center I drove the tractor to where the waterfall nearly is. 00:41:03.240 --> 00:41:04.880 align:center Blocked the road. 00:41:05.839 --> 00:41:07.839 align:center Now the police can't get past me. 00:41:09.480 --> 00:41:10.319 align:center Fuck. 00:41:11.960 --> 00:41:12.839 align:center Like… 00:41:14.040 --> 00:41:17.160 align:center I mean, this is crazy! 00:41:19.160 --> 00:41:21.960 align:center We see right there, there's a wee cave bit behind. 00:41:22.480 --> 00:41:25.280 align:center And the pressure of the water, when you throw the bike down, 00:41:25.359 --> 00:41:27.000 align:center it churns it up into the back. 00:41:27.080 --> 00:41:30.319 align:center And… if that bike is still there, 00:41:31.359 --> 00:41:33.160 align:center I'm going to try and find it. 00:41:33.680 --> 00:41:35.319 align:center I'm wading through the water. 00:41:35.400 --> 00:41:38.799 align:center I mean, the water is freezing cold. 00:41:41.799 --> 00:41:44.520 align:center And the shock of the cold water 00:41:45.359 --> 00:41:48.120 align:center actually made me very emotional. 00:42:14.080 --> 00:42:18.040 align:center In that moment, my brain was working so fast. 00:42:18.120 --> 00:42:21.880 align:center Not logically, but so incredibly fast. 00:42:21.960 --> 00:42:24.359 align:center I thought, "Do you know what? Fuck it all." 00:42:25.760 --> 00:42:27.799 align:center "Non, je ne regrette rien." 00:42:41.920 --> 00:42:43.000 align:center Mania. 00:42:43.680 --> 00:42:44.880 align:center Psychosis. 00:42:48.120 --> 00:42:49.839 align:center And that's what I'd become. 00:42:51.440 --> 00:42:54.799 align:center You're an hysterical, broken person. 00:42:59.160 --> 00:43:02.120 align:center Don't let anyone else 00:43:02.200 --> 00:43:04.799 align:center get abandoned and broken like me. 00:43:06.240 --> 00:43:10.000 align:center I have just fucked my whole life up. 00:43:10.640 --> 00:43:12.240 align:center For what? 00:43:12.319 --> 00:43:15.319 align:center For a man who actually killed somebody. 00:43:15.839 --> 00:43:19.520 align:center And that grief, and that loss, and that stress 00:43:19.600 --> 00:43:21.920 align:center culminated into that 00:43:23.319 --> 00:43:25.480 align:center psychotic finale. 00:43:28.440 --> 00:43:31.520 align:center I need to know if the bike is here. 00:43:32.040 --> 00:43:35.080 align:center If there is something more than me. 00:43:35.160 --> 00:43:40.160 align:center I did not start a murder trial for something I didn't fucking see. 00:43:53.560 --> 00:43:54.960 align:center I am found at the waterfall, 00:43:55.040 --> 00:43:56.920 align:center and I am then arrested 00:43:57.760 --> 00:43:59.440 align:center for contempt of court. 00:44:01.000 --> 00:44:02.120 align:center I never found the bike. 00:44:06.400 --> 00:44:08.760 align:center I then get taken to the High Court. 00:44:30.400 --> 00:44:32.120 align:center I'm sitting there, waiting to testify. 00:44:34.040 --> 00:44:35.080 align:center And I'm thinking, 00:44:35.760 --> 00:44:40.920 align:center "My mum and dad will be so angry and upset with me." 00:44:42.640 --> 00:44:45.240 align:center The police called… 00:44:45.319 --> 00:44:46.160 align:center Oh, yes. 00:44:46.240 --> 00:44:48.600 align:center …and said they found her. 00:44:50.640 --> 00:44:52.319 align:center She faces prison. 00:44:54.839 --> 00:44:55.920 align:center I was just 00:44:57.080 --> 00:44:59.160 align:center stunned by the whole situation. 00:44:59.240 --> 00:45:00.839 align:center I couldn't cope with it. 00:45:02.000 --> 00:45:06.080 align:center So much of her young life has been wasted 00:45:06.160 --> 00:45:09.600 align:center by this sequence of events. 00:45:09.680 --> 00:45:11.040 align:center That pains me. 00:45:11.120 --> 00:45:12.520 align:center Because, you know… 00:45:14.080 --> 00:45:16.799 align:center young life is to be lived. 00:45:17.839 --> 00:45:20.240 align:center And that… 00:45:20.319 --> 00:45:21.760 align:center …hurts me. 00:45:32.879 --> 00:45:36.160 align:center The next day the court reconvenes. 00:45:36.240 --> 00:45:39.680 align:center I've heard various rumors why Caroline hadn't shown. 00:45:40.240 --> 00:45:42.319 align:center Someone told me she'd been in the cells overnight. 00:45:45.680 --> 00:45:46.960 align:center Court! 00:45:47.640 --> 00:45:49.200 align:center Sat in the court. 00:45:49.280 --> 00:45:52.120 align:center We thought we were getting a live court case. 00:45:52.200 --> 00:45:54.839 align:center And it… it… it worked in a completely different way. 00:45:54.920 --> 00:45:56.160 align:center It was very unusual. 00:45:56.240 --> 00:46:00.120 align:center I can advise that there has been a development in the case. 00:46:01.080 --> 00:46:03.879 align:center I was waiting for the guard to take me to testify. 00:46:13.839 --> 00:46:15.280 align:center And in front of the court, 00:46:15.359 --> 00:46:19.560 align:center the prosecutor requests that the indictment is amended. 00:46:20.080 --> 00:46:23.520 align:center My Lord, in relation to charge number one, 00:46:23.600 --> 00:46:27.640 align:center in line 11, to delete the word "murder" 00:46:27.720 --> 00:46:30.000 align:center and substitute the word "kill." 00:46:32.200 --> 00:46:34.560 align:center It's very significant indeed. 00:46:34.640 --> 00:46:38.040 align:center The murder charge has become unsustainable. 00:46:38.680 --> 00:46:43.960 align:center I have instructions to tender a plea of guilty to charge one. 00:46:44.040 --> 00:46:46.879 align:center I received a telephone call from the prosecution. 00:46:46.960 --> 00:46:50.480 align:center If Mr. McKellar was prepared to plead guilty to culpable homicide, 00:46:50.560 --> 00:46:52.640 align:center the Crown would accept. 00:46:53.240 --> 00:46:57.160 align:center Culpable homicide is a crime less than murder. 00:46:57.240 --> 00:47:00.640 align:center Those pleas are acceptable to the Crown. 00:47:00.720 --> 00:47:05.359 align:center Because a plea was agreed, then there is no trial. 00:47:08.080 --> 00:47:11.879 align:center The twins Alexander and Robert McKellar had been due to stand trial 00:47:11.960 --> 00:47:14.080 align:center for the murder of Anthony Parsons. 00:47:14.160 --> 00:47:15.839 align:center But today, here at the High Court, 00:47:15.920 --> 00:47:19.240 align:center at the start of what was expected to be a lengthy trial, 00:47:19.319 --> 00:47:24.280 align:center Alexander instead pled guilty to the lesser charge of culpable homicide 00:47:24.359 --> 00:47:27.799 align:center whilst his brother Robert admitted to teaming up with Alexander 00:47:27.879 --> 00:47:30.440 align:center to hide and then bury the body. 00:47:33.480 --> 00:47:37.240 align:center The court official said to me that "The boys have accepted a plea." 00:47:37.879 --> 00:47:39.560 align:center "So you are free to leave." 00:47:41.400 --> 00:47:44.400 align:center "And you don't have a criminal record for contempt of court." 00:47:49.879 --> 00:47:52.600 align:center "And the Parsons family want to thank you very much." 00:48:00.799 --> 00:48:03.440 align:center -Did you go to the sentencing? -I did. 00:48:04.160 --> 00:48:07.600 align:center It was the final door to close. 00:48:07.680 --> 00:48:09.640 align:center Call the diet. Adjourned diet for sentence. 00:48:09.720 --> 00:48:10.799 align:center His Majesty's Advocate 00:48:10.879 --> 00:48:13.160 align:center against Alexander McKellar and Robert McKellar. 00:48:13.240 --> 00:48:14.120 align:center Please be seated. 00:48:15.480 --> 00:48:18.359 align:center From where I was sitting, I could see Sandy. 00:48:21.319 --> 00:48:22.160 align:center And that… 00:48:23.440 --> 00:48:24.839 align:center was really overwhelming. 00:48:25.600 --> 00:48:27.200 align:center Mr. McConnachie. 00:48:27.879 --> 00:48:30.240 align:center Sandy's barrister read a statement 00:48:30.319 --> 00:48:32.200 align:center on Sandy's behalf to the judge. 00:48:33.480 --> 00:48:36.960 align:center He accepts that whilst catastrophically injured, 00:48:37.040 --> 00:48:40.200 align:center Mr. Parsons was alive at the time. 00:48:41.000 --> 00:48:42.280 align:center The only explanation 00:48:43.480 --> 00:48:49.160 align:center which he offers is simply fear and panic. 00:48:49.240 --> 00:48:54.400 align:center Using his words, he says he was too much of a coward to come clean. 00:48:54.920 --> 00:48:58.040 align:center When he met Caroline, 00:48:58.120 --> 00:49:00.160 align:center and she went to the police, 00:49:00.240 --> 00:49:04.040 align:center he fully accepts that, ultimately, 00:49:04.120 --> 00:49:07.160 align:center she made the right decision in doing so. 00:49:09.120 --> 00:49:12.319 align:center Very well. Alexander McKellar and Robert McKellar, please stand. 00:49:13.200 --> 00:49:16.200 align:center Then the judge gave out the boys' sentences. 00:49:17.680 --> 00:49:19.240 align:center Robert McKellar, 00:49:19.319 --> 00:49:21.520 align:center the sentence which I now impose on you 00:49:21.600 --> 00:49:25.640 align:center is one of a period of imprisonment of five years and three months. 00:49:25.720 --> 00:49:27.600 align:center Alexander McKellar, 00:49:27.680 --> 00:49:32.080 align:center you have pleaded guilty to grave and serious crimes. 00:49:32.160 --> 00:49:34.520 align:center He wasn't convicted of murder, 00:49:35.400 --> 00:49:38.120 align:center but he did take an innocent man's life. 00:49:39.680 --> 00:49:42.240 align:center So for me, he's a coward and he's a killer. 00:49:43.120 --> 00:49:44.160 align:center Alexander McKellar, 00:49:44.760 --> 00:49:50.000 align:center I will impose on you a single sentence of imprisonment of 12 years. 00:49:51.480 --> 00:49:52.920 align:center That is all. 00:49:58.879 --> 00:50:01.600 align:center At sentencing, a friend of Tony Parsons said these boys 00:50:01.680 --> 00:50:03.240 align:center had got away with murder. 00:50:05.120 --> 00:50:08.960 align:center There was a sense that without Caroline's evidence, 00:50:09.040 --> 00:50:11.400 align:center the full facts of this case, 00:50:11.480 --> 00:50:15.000 align:center the full horror of it, perhaps, never quite got across. 00:50:18.240 --> 00:50:23.720 align:center I can well imagine that the family feel there hasn't been a closure, in a way. 00:50:25.600 --> 00:50:27.480 align:center If people think or wonder, 00:50:27.560 --> 00:50:30.480 align:center if I had testified, would they have had a harsher sentence? 00:50:32.040 --> 00:50:33.359 align:center The state I was in, 00:50:34.319 --> 00:50:35.240 align:center who knows? 00:50:38.120 --> 00:50:41.839 align:center Had Caroline Muirhead decided to say nothing, 00:50:42.520 --> 00:50:46.040 align:center then Mr. Parsons would still be buried on the estate. 00:50:46.640 --> 00:50:49.520 align:center She did absolutely the right thing. 00:50:50.160 --> 00:50:54.120 align:center You have to applaud her bravery, 00:50:54.799 --> 00:50:57.480 align:center but the pressure must have been unbearable. 00:50:57.560 --> 00:51:00.399 align:center You'd be a hard person indeed not to sympathize with her. 00:51:00.480 --> 00:51:03.200 align:center Does part of you sympathize with Caroline Muirhead? 00:51:03.280 --> 00:51:04.120 align:center No. 00:51:04.200 --> 00:51:06.240 align:center The whole circumstances 00:51:06.319 --> 00:51:10.080 align:center in which she did not deal with things 00:51:10.160 --> 00:51:13.120 align:center in a manner which people would expect her to, 00:51:13.200 --> 00:51:15.000 align:center take away, I think, 00:51:15.080 --> 00:51:19.040 align:center from any sympathetic view I might feel about her. 00:51:21.120 --> 00:51:25.720 align:center If the criminal justice agencies 00:51:25.799 --> 00:51:29.560 align:center want people to come forward as witnesses, 00:51:29.640 --> 00:51:33.040 align:center they have to do better at every single stage. 00:51:34.399 --> 00:51:37.680 align:center There needs to be a real awareness 00:51:37.760 --> 00:51:42.600 align:center of the trauma experienced by witnesses. 00:51:52.000 --> 00:51:54.760 align:center I have no regrets about coming forward. 00:51:55.280 --> 00:51:58.280 align:center This is what happened to me. It's my story. 00:51:59.680 --> 00:52:01.720 align:center I just hope other people can learn from it, 00:52:01.799 --> 00:52:03.600 align:center so they don't make the same mistakes I made. 00:52:03.680 --> 00:52:07.319 align:center Because, my God, I made a hell of mistakes. 00:52:14.920 --> 00:52:18.560 align:center I am so lucky to be able to move forward in my life. 00:52:20.160 --> 00:52:21.960 align:center I've moved to the coast. 00:52:22.040 --> 00:52:24.280 align:center I've managed to get myself clean. 00:52:26.399 --> 00:52:28.319 align:center I now see a psychiatrist. 00:52:30.240 --> 00:52:33.200 align:center And I tackle a lot of the insecurities that led me 00:52:33.280 --> 00:52:36.040 align:center to be in the vulnerable relationship to begin with. 00:52:38.399 --> 00:52:41.520 align:center Change… 00:52:41.600 --> 00:52:43.120 align:center Three, two, one, smile! 00:52:44.560 --> 00:52:47.839 align:center I've got a much better relationship with my family. 00:52:48.760 --> 00:52:49.879 align:center Like skin… 00:52:49.960 --> 00:52:51.080 align:center I met someone new, 00:52:52.120 --> 00:52:55.080 align:center who is incredibly kind. 00:52:55.839 --> 00:52:57.160 align:center When you love yourself, 00:52:58.319 --> 00:53:00.359 align:center you will attract healthy love. 00:53:00.440 --> 00:53:01.520 align:center Like the leaves… 00:53:01.600 --> 00:53:03.480 align:center Onwards and upwards. 00:53:03.560 --> 00:53:04.640 align:center Like a butterfly… 00:53:04.720 --> 00:53:07.399 align:center -That's it. -Thank God. 00:53:08.040 --> 00:53:09.240 align:center Would you live forever… 00:53:09.319 --> 00:53:11.160 align:center -We're done. -We're done, Caroline. 00:53:14.960 --> 00:53:20.680 align:center While everything around passes? 00:53:22.640 --> 00:53:28.040 align:center Would you smile forever Never cry? 00:53:29.480 --> 00:53:35.040 align:center While everything you know passes 00:53:37.160 --> 00:53:43.240 align:center Death's like a door 00:53:43.319 --> 00:53:50.120 align:center To a place we've never been before 00:53:51.399 --> 00:53:56.760 align:center Death's like space 00:53:58.200 --> 00:54:00.520 align:center The deep sea 00:54:01.799 --> 00:54:04.240 align:center The suitcase 00:54:05.920 --> 00:54:11.160 align:center Would you stare forever at the sun 00:54:12.920 --> 00:54:17.560 align:center Never watch the moon rising? 00:54:19.960 --> 00:54:25.319 align:center Would you walk forever in the light 00:54:26.960 --> 00:54:33.280 align:center To never learn the secret Of the quiet night? mily.