WEBVTT 00:32.583 --> 00:34.666 -Did it hurt her? -What? 00:34.750 --> 00:36.250 No. Not at all. 00:36.875 --> 00:40.375 She never cries. She doesn’t even wake up when I change her. Hm? 00:41.041 --> 00:42.916 You know, it doesn’t hurt her. 00:43.500 --> 00:44.583 It hurts you though. 00:45.083 --> 00:46.250 You’re ashamed of her. 00:46.791 --> 00:48.000 My daughter… 00:48.083 --> 00:49.166 PAMPLONA, NOVEMBER 1973 00:49.250 --> 00:51.625 Mmm. You’re so beautiful. 00:54.708 --> 00:57.458 If you helped me give her a bath and held her in your arms, 00:57.541 --> 00:59.083 you’d be over this nonsense. 00:59.166 --> 01:01.000 Look at her. Look. 01:01.083 --> 01:02.541 She’s such a darling. 01:03.458 --> 01:05.458 I don’t want her like theirs. 01:06.541 --> 01:08.166 You don’t know what their lives were like. 01:08.250 --> 01:10.458 It’s been 40 years since you’ve seen either of them. 01:10.541 --> 01:12.416 What do you know about anyone’s life? 01:13.083 --> 01:15.458 But I know what her life will be like. 01:19.750 --> 01:21.666 Wherever her mother is, she’ll have her home. 01:22.500 --> 01:24.000 What are we going to do? 01:24.083 --> 01:26.500 We’ll follow the doctor’s recommendations 01:27.125 --> 01:28.583 as soon as we can. 01:29.458 --> 01:31.125 She’ll never know about it. 01:31.750 --> 01:33.958 No one will ever know. 01:34.791 --> 01:37.666 She’ll have a normal life. Perfectly normal. 01:38.250 --> 01:40.458 You’re going to stop being so squeamish. 01:40.541 --> 01:44.000 You’re going to love your daughter and start behaving like a real father. 01:44.083 --> 01:45.416 Will you be able to do that? 01:45.500 --> 01:46.916 I already love her. 01:51.291 --> 01:53.375 And I’ll do whatever I have to. 01:53.458 --> 01:55.416 I’ll do anything for you, my love. 01:58.458 --> 02:00.625 Your mother will always be here for you. 02:02.166 --> 02:03.375 Always… 02:05.750 --> 02:11.250 MY DEAREST SEÑORITA 02:27.875 --> 02:29.583 -Hello, Miss! -Hi, Miss! 02:30.125 --> 02:31.125 Hey! 02:39.500 --> 02:42.250 DE JUAN ANTIQUE SHOP 02:42.333 --> 02:46.083 PAMPLONA, DECEMBER 1999 02:46.166 --> 02:49.916 “Our preaching is in vain, and your faith is also in vain.” 02:50.416 --> 02:54.166 This means that if Christ hasn’t really risen from the dead, 02:54.250 --> 02:55.833 the Church must remain silent. 02:55.916 --> 02:56.750 Yes, Javier? 02:56.833 --> 02:59.041 But, miss, is clapping for the Pope considered a sin? 02:59.125 --> 03:00.583 Not at all, my dear. 03:00.666 --> 03:03.041 But it’s not what we mean by the fourth commandment, either. 03:03.125 --> 03:05.375 So it’s okay if I clap when I see him on TV? 03:05.458 --> 03:07.083 ’Cause I like him a lot. 03:07.166 --> 03:09.166 Yes, clap as much as you feel like, Javier. 03:09.250 --> 03:10.666 But you’re not obliged to. 03:10.750 --> 03:14.583 Keep in mind that the commandments are obligations for all of us Catholics. 03:14.666 --> 03:15.833 Okay, I was worried. 03:15.916 --> 03:17.541 Thank you very much, miss. 03:17.625 --> 03:20.250 Well, you don’t need to worry and we’re at the end of class. 03:20.333 --> 03:22.333 Remember to practice your parts for the carols. 03:22.416 --> 03:23.250 The show is soon. 03:23.333 --> 03:25.333 -And leave the room tidy, please. -Bye, miss! 03:25.416 --> 03:28.041 We have breaking news on the Wanninkhof case. 03:28.125 --> 03:30.916 In an exclusive interview with a reporter from this station, 03:31.000 --> 03:33.916 family members maintain that whoever killed the 19-year-old girl 03:34.000 --> 03:36.291 must have been someone close to the victim. 03:36.916 --> 03:39.500 Yeah, they say it’s the mother’s best friend, 03:39.583 --> 03:41.666 the one with short hair and a face like a pitbull. 03:41.750 --> 03:44.375 Grandma, that’s just people gossiping. 03:44.458 --> 03:45.833 -Hm. -How can you say that? 03:45.916 --> 03:48.250 Well, I’m not saying she’s guilty for sure, 03:48.333 --> 03:50.500 but she’s making things worse for herself, isn’t she? 03:50.583 --> 03:53.833 That frown she always puts on her face, it makes your blood run cold. 03:54.375 --> 03:56.041 And she’s not very ladylike. 03:56.125 --> 03:58.000 But Grandma, couldn’t you say the same about me? 03:58.083 --> 04:00.625 I’m not exactly the most ladylike person either. 04:01.125 --> 04:02.791 That family is already suffering enough 04:02.875 --> 04:05.208 without having to worry about a killer living with them. 04:05.291 --> 04:07.958 There’s no way you look like that woman. Come on! 04:08.041 --> 04:10.250 I’ve never heard such a load of nonsense. 04:10.333 --> 04:13.041 You have such a nice clean face, the face of an angel. 04:13.125 --> 04:14.291 So that’s it! 04:14.375 --> 04:18.000 We’re just supposed to send all the ugly, unfriendly, unladylike women to jail. 04:18.083 --> 04:19.125 Is that it? 04:19.208 --> 04:21.125 Until we run out of-- Ah! 04:22.958 --> 04:25.208 Grandma? Grandma? Grandma? 04:25.291 --> 04:26.291 Grandma? 04:27.541 --> 04:28.916 Hold on, I’m coming. 04:31.291 --> 04:34.291 Adela, sweetie… What happened? 04:39.708 --> 04:42.500 Grandma, don’t move, okay? I’ll get help. 04:42.583 --> 04:47.041 Just great. And it had to be you, didn’t it, Adela? 04:47.125 --> 04:48.083 -Here we are. -I’m sorry. 04:48.166 --> 04:50.916 For God’s sake, look at my car! You pushed me right onto the sidewalk! 04:51.000 --> 04:52.500 -I’m really sorry, I-- -Snap out of it! 04:52.583 --> 04:54.083 Look at my car. You see that? 04:54.166 --> 04:55.750 You see the damage you caused? 04:55.833 --> 04:58.958 I’m terribly sorry, Begoña, I got distracted talking to my grandma. 04:59.041 --> 05:01.583 Your grandma’s with you in the car? Are you serious? 05:01.666 --> 05:03.958 I’m gonna call my brother because I’m a nervous wreck now. 05:04.541 --> 05:06.375 -Thanks to you! -Hello. 05:06.458 --> 05:08.041 We’ve just had an accident. 05:09.708 --> 05:12.541 On Duque de Ahumada, close to Cortes de Navarra. 05:12.625 --> 05:13.958 An elderly lady. 05:14.666 --> 05:16.083 Please come quickly. 05:27.750 --> 05:29.708 Hello? Can you hear me? 05:29.791 --> 05:30.916 Are you okay? 05:32.000 --> 05:33.791 Yes, I’m fine. Is my grandmother okay? 05:33.875 --> 05:35.541 Don’t worry, we’re looking after her now. 05:35.625 --> 05:36.916 Let me take a look at you. 05:37.000 --> 05:39.958 I said I’m fine! Leave me alone, please. 05:40.041 --> 05:42.458 You won’t let me check you, so it’s your responsibility 05:42.541 --> 05:44.541 if there’s anything wrong, okay? 05:45.250 --> 05:46.125 Grandma? 05:47.250 --> 05:50.291 The police will take me to the hospital right behind the ambulance, okay? 05:50.375 --> 05:52.791 -I’ll be there with you. -Yes, dear. Yes. Yes. 05:52.875 --> 05:55.875 Don’t worry, Adelina, I’ll go with your granddaughter. 06:02.375 --> 06:04.708 FLEUR JAEGGY SWEET DAYS OF DISCIPLINE 06:09.291 --> 06:11.750 Attention please, paging Dr. Gonzales. 06:11.833 --> 06:13.625 You are needed in the surgical ward, unit 4. 06:13.708 --> 06:14.875 I didn’t know you were back. 06:15.625 --> 06:17.166 Since September. 06:17.250 --> 06:19.041 I know I should have come by to say hello, 06:19.541 --> 06:21.375 but I’ve been practically buried alive. 06:21.458 --> 06:24.791 My father is giving me control of the company 06:25.291 --> 06:26.791 and I’ve been trying to catch up. 06:27.708 --> 06:29.916 So you’re not going back to London? 06:31.541 --> 06:33.166 I would have stayed in a heartbeat. 06:34.750 --> 06:36.750 But I always knew it would turn out like this. 06:37.791 --> 06:40.208 I was hoping that my father, the workaholic, 06:40.291 --> 06:43.041 would put off retiring, or not retire at all. 06:44.000 --> 06:45.166 But no. 06:47.458 --> 06:48.791 How was your life there? 06:48.875 --> 06:50.583 Were you happy? 06:50.666 --> 06:51.583 Yes. 06:52.750 --> 06:54.708 It’s a city that goes on forever. 06:56.000 --> 06:59.166 Not to say anything against Pamplona or the life we have here, 06:59.708 --> 07:02.625 but the truth is our Pamplona, your world and mine, 07:03.125 --> 07:04.250 is very small. 07:04.750 --> 07:08.250 We don’t see more than ten streets and a hundred people. 07:09.166 --> 07:11.541 And then, of course, you get to London, 07:12.791 --> 07:14.166 and the world is enormous. 07:15.416 --> 07:16.833 Then you have to come back. 07:18.708 --> 07:20.041 Then you have to come back. 07:22.541 --> 07:25.250 All right, Adelina, make sure you do what the doctor told you. 07:25.333 --> 07:27.125 Go for walks, but slowly, 07:27.208 --> 07:28.625 and always have someone with you. 07:28.708 --> 07:29.583 Oh, my granddaughter! 07:29.666 --> 07:31.166 Oh, I see. She’s so tall and pretty. 07:31.250 --> 07:33.166 Well, then, off you go with her. 07:50.166 --> 07:51.291 Where have you been? 07:53.791 --> 07:54.833 Good evening. 07:55.416 --> 07:56.458 Did Grandma get back okay? 07:56.541 --> 07:58.333 I asked you where you were, Adela. 08:00.000 --> 08:01.083 I decided to walk back. 08:01.166 --> 08:02.833 And you just left your grandma? 08:04.208 --> 08:08.125 Dad, everything’s fine. I was a little agitated and wanted to get some air. 08:08.208 --> 08:09.166 It’s no big deal. 08:09.250 --> 08:12.208 You young people think you can do whatever you want, take no responsibility. 08:12.291 --> 08:14.708 -You don’t worry at all. -Adela, your father is right. 08:14.791 --> 08:17.833 The responsible thing was for you to come straight home. 08:18.375 --> 08:21.000 I just took a little walk. I’m sorry. 08:22.708 --> 08:24.916 There’s some dinner ready. Heat it up for yourself. 08:25.416 --> 08:27.291 And let’s not dwell on this. What’s done is done. 08:27.375 --> 08:30.250 …emergency committees have been set up for every local branch 08:30.333 --> 08:32.708 of the federal government and every public sector office, 08:32.791 --> 08:36.125 but we must approach the dreaded prospect of the Y2K bug calmly. 08:36.208 --> 08:37.875 The most important thing is not to panic. 09:30.458 --> 09:32.833 Hey, they’re ringing the doorbell. Can someone get it? 09:39.583 --> 09:41.833 Hi there, I’m Isabel Goñi, the physiotherapist. 09:41.916 --> 09:43.791 I’m here to see Adelina Arrán. 09:43.875 --> 09:45.666 -Yes, this is… This is it. Come in. -May I? 09:47.083 --> 09:48.166 Okay. 09:48.250 --> 09:51.375 God, this gets heavier every day. Like hauling a corpse around. 09:54.833 --> 09:57.083 -And you are? -Adela, I’m sorry. 09:57.166 --> 09:58.500 Nice to meet you. 10:00.875 --> 10:02.000 It’s that way. 10:02.083 --> 10:04.125 Down there? Let me just… 10:05.041 --> 10:07.041 Sorry it took us so long to come to the door. 10:07.125 --> 10:08.333 No, don’t worry about it. 10:08.416 --> 10:09.833 And my coat? Where do I leave it? 10:09.916 --> 10:11.708 -I’ll put it here for you. -Here? 10:12.416 --> 10:13.916 I’m Isabel. Pleased to meet you. 10:14.000 --> 10:15.041 Yes. 10:15.708 --> 10:18.291 -Come this way, if you’d be so kind. -Sure, I’ll just take this off. 10:18.375 --> 10:21.041 Sweetie, could you grab my bag from the floor there, please? 10:22.000 --> 10:25.000 Adelina, here’s the physiotherapist. Her name is Isabel. 10:25.500 --> 10:27.500 Oh my goodness, Adelina, you’re still in bed? 10:27.583 --> 10:31.083 As soon as I’m done setting up the table, we’ll get you out of there. 10:31.166 --> 10:33.708 Because it’s not good to be lying down all day. 10:34.250 --> 10:37.250 I should think I ought to rest after the accident. 10:37.333 --> 10:39.083 I’m 88 years old, dear. 10:39.166 --> 10:40.333 Well, that’s exactly my point. 10:40.416 --> 10:42.750 If the doctor didn’t tell you to stay in bed, don’t do it. 10:42.833 --> 10:44.791 Our bodies are very lazy, they like to do nothing. 10:44.875 --> 10:45.708 Oh… 10:45.791 --> 10:47.958 Come on, let’s get up like this. Hold onto me. 10:48.041 --> 10:49.875 Up we go, Adelina! 10:49.958 --> 10:51.666 On your side like that. Very good. 10:52.958 --> 10:56.250 Ugh, no. Every year I feel less interested in the whole thing. 10:56.750 --> 10:59.083 And then the amount of food involved, 10:59.166 --> 11:01.500 you know, it makes me sick already, to be honest. 11:02.125 --> 11:03.125 Hm? 11:03.666 --> 11:05.916 Yes. Yes, that’s right. She’s starting today. 11:06.000 --> 11:06.916 Let’s see how it goes. 11:07.000 --> 11:09.541 That’s a traveling dress, huh? That’s a new one for me. 11:09.625 --> 11:13.166 Well, getting married in white wasn’t the thing back then. 11:13.250 --> 11:14.333 Yes, that’s right. 11:14.416 --> 11:18.375 Besides, my grandfather had died a few weeks before the wedding. Hm. 11:18.458 --> 11:21.291 -So I wore black, but I was still elegant. -Of course. 11:21.375 --> 11:23.416 In my cute little traveling dress. 11:23.500 --> 11:26.416 Adelina, turn your head this way now, like before, that’s it. 11:26.500 --> 11:28.166 Push, push, push. Does it hurt? 11:28.250 --> 11:30.250 -No. No, no. No pain at all. -No? 11:30.333 --> 11:31.291 Very good. 11:31.375 --> 11:33.083 Well, you looked very pretty. 11:33.166 --> 11:35.541 A real beauty. Okay, we’re all done here. 11:35.625 --> 11:37.125 Let me get that slipper. 11:38.666 --> 11:39.875 Shall I tell you how it went? 11:39.958 --> 11:42.791 Uh, hold on, I’ll get my mother. She’ll want to hear it. 11:43.500 --> 11:45.500 -Okay then, hold onto me. -Mom? 11:45.583 --> 11:48.458 Oh, that felt wonderful, my dear! 11:48.541 --> 11:49.875 -It did? -Oh! 11:49.958 --> 11:52.583 -I’m glad! -Your hands know just what to do, Isabel! 11:52.666 --> 11:53.958 -Well… -Have you finished? 11:54.041 --> 11:56.000 Yes, all done. She’s fine. 11:56.083 --> 11:58.458 There’s tension, which is a normal response. 11:58.541 --> 12:00.875 I think the sessions we have planned should be enough. 12:01.375 --> 12:03.833 Still, she needs to be more active. 12:03.916 --> 12:07.166 Go up and down the stairs, walk a bit, that type of thing. 12:07.250 --> 12:09.166 This girl wants to put me in a green tracksuit 12:09.250 --> 12:11.375 and take me to a ballroom to do the foxtrot, 12:11.458 --> 12:12.791 like those old folks in Madrid. 12:13.416 --> 12:15.750 Well, thank you. We’ll make sure she moves a bit more. 12:15.833 --> 12:18.208 -Great. -I’ll move more when I’m good and ready. 12:18.291 --> 12:19.958 Not a minute earlier. 12:20.750 --> 12:23.000 -And how are you feeling, sweetie? -Good. 12:23.083 --> 12:25.500 You were driving, right? Has that been looked at? 12:25.583 --> 12:27.333 Uh, no, I was just touching my neck. 12:27.416 --> 12:29.666 Touching your neck ’cause you’re in pain. 12:29.750 --> 12:30.666 Lemme see. 12:30.750 --> 12:33.125 Uh… No, but, I’m fine, really. It’s nothing. 12:33.750 --> 12:36.041 Oof, yeah. You’re really tense. 12:36.583 --> 12:38.291 Do you want me to take a quick look at it? 12:38.375 --> 12:39.958 Let her take a look, okay? 12:40.583 --> 12:41.666 Do it for me. 12:42.166 --> 12:44.208 Your mother and I will be in the living room. 12:44.291 --> 12:45.333 Come on, Cruz. 12:45.416 --> 12:46.458 Come. 12:46.958 --> 12:48.666 Unbutton your cardigan if you like. 12:55.458 --> 12:59.000 Sit with your legs pointing outwards and uncover your shoulders. 13:06.875 --> 13:09.791 -It was this side, right? -Yes, yes. 13:10.666 --> 13:11.708 Let’s see. 13:14.375 --> 13:16.500 I need you to lower it a little more. 13:17.000 --> 13:18.125 Undo one more button. 13:19.041 --> 13:20.208 That’s fine. 13:21.041 --> 13:22.083 Okay. 13:25.958 --> 13:28.833 I’ll examine you now, and if it hurts, let me know. 13:29.625 --> 13:31.291 And tell me how intense it is. 13:32.083 --> 13:33.500 Now turn your head. 13:35.208 --> 13:36.375 How’s that feel? 13:36.458 --> 13:38.000 It’s tense, but it doesn’t hurt. 13:38.083 --> 13:39.166 Very good. 13:49.416 --> 13:50.375 Oh! 13:51.166 --> 13:52.291 What’s wrong? 13:52.375 --> 13:54.541 Here, here you go. Did I hurt you? 13:54.625 --> 13:56.041 Are you okay? 14:16.875 --> 14:21.500 That lost stare into nothing Looking for the same thing as you 14:21.583 --> 14:25.166 To learn something in life 14:25.250 --> 14:28.708 To understand love 14:28.791 --> 14:32.416 To discover what the world is like 14:32.500 --> 14:34.208 To understand 14:36.083 --> 14:39.875 To learn something in life 14:39.958 --> 14:43.125 To understand love completely 14:45.250 --> 14:47.791 A dream come true 14:58.916 --> 15:00.666 Come in! Really, come on in. 15:00.750 --> 15:03.083 I just came over to say hi, I have to be getting to work. 15:03.166 --> 15:05.833 Okay. No, hold on a sec. Sorry, I-I can’t hear you. 15:08.291 --> 15:09.875 Whenever I listen to Monica Naranjo, 15:09.958 --> 15:12.208 I’m just transported, she’s so great. You were saying? 15:12.291 --> 15:14.291 That I just came to say hi to you. I’m on my way. 15:14.375 --> 15:17.291 Okay, but sit for a few minutes and have a beer with me, honey. 15:17.375 --> 15:19.375 Another day, I haven’t eaten anything yet. 15:19.458 --> 15:21.666 Don’t worry, beer is full of carbohydrates. 15:22.708 --> 15:24.041 It’s like a meal in a can. 15:24.125 --> 15:26.000 All right, thank you. But only one. 15:26.708 --> 15:27.750 Cheers! 15:29.208 --> 15:30.958 Mmm! Oh, that’s good! 15:32.000 --> 15:33.916 -So, how are you? -Fine. 15:34.000 --> 15:35.500 I heard you had an accident. 15:36.958 --> 15:38.583 It was just a little scare. 15:38.666 --> 15:41.625 You ran into Begoña, right? Her father is Gómez Arellano. 15:41.708 --> 15:44.000 Yeah, she went ballistic on me. 15:44.875 --> 15:46.125 She’s a bit of a dumbass. 15:47.041 --> 15:49.458 Fortunately, her brother was there to handle things. 15:50.041 --> 15:52.958 -The one just back from London, right? -Yes. Santi. 15:53.041 --> 15:54.541 Yeah, he’s a sweet guy. 15:54.625 --> 15:57.000 Well, every cloud has a silver lining. 15:59.000 --> 16:00.916 Do you have any plans for the holidays? 16:03.416 --> 16:05.791 You know the name they called me in Pamplona all my life? 16:05.875 --> 16:06.875 I do. 16:06.958 --> 16:08.000 You do? 16:09.375 --> 16:10.375 Horse Girl. 16:10.458 --> 16:13.916 Those sons of bitches aren’t very discreet, honey, are they? 16:14.458 --> 16:15.500 I just found out… 16:16.000 --> 16:19.625 that some people call me “Our Mother José María.” 16:20.375 --> 16:22.250 -What? -How do you like that, girl? 16:22.333 --> 16:23.458 You’ve gotta be kidding. 16:23.541 --> 16:24.583 So there we are. 16:25.416 --> 16:27.583 We’re still living in the 16th century. 16:28.083 --> 16:32.416 This is a society where people are still scared of tall women and effeminate men. 16:32.500 --> 16:35.500 I have to forgive them because, well, I’m a priest. 16:35.583 --> 16:36.541 But you don’t. 16:38.125 --> 16:39.791 Not everybody is like that. 16:40.416 --> 16:41.458 Oh, really? 16:42.083 --> 16:44.541 There are people here in Pamplona who might surprise you, 16:44.625 --> 16:45.625 in a good way. 16:46.750 --> 16:49.291 Well, you really must tell Our Mother José María 16:49.375 --> 16:50.916 who those people are, okay? 16:51.000 --> 16:51.875 I promise you. 16:52.500 --> 16:54.583 But some other day. I should get going. 16:55.166 --> 16:57.041 How mysterious. I like it. 16:57.125 --> 16:58.666 She’s got style, this one. 16:59.333 --> 17:00.708 Thanks a lot for the beer. 17:00.791 --> 17:01.750 Hm. 17:02.750 --> 17:05.500 Yes, Mr. Gómez-Arellano is away next week. 17:07.041 --> 17:09.166 Call me tomorrow and we’ll arrange something. 17:10.000 --> 17:11.125 Have a good day. 17:12.166 --> 17:14.541 Mamen, can you get me those forms I asked for, please? 17:14.625 --> 17:15.625 Yes. 17:16.208 --> 17:18.416 Adela, how nice! What brings you here? 17:18.500 --> 17:21.041 I’ve been working at my father’s antique shop 17:21.125 --> 17:23.000 and earning a salary for four years. 17:23.083 --> 17:24.958 And I’ve spent almost no money. 17:25.458 --> 17:27.708 -I want to do something with it. -Good plan. 17:27.791 --> 17:30.250 It’s silly to leave your money there doing nothing. 17:30.333 --> 17:32.166 How much are we talking about? 17:32.250 --> 17:33.791 About six million pesetas. 17:33.875 --> 17:34.833 Uh-huh. 17:35.500 --> 17:36.541 That’s very good. 17:36.625 --> 17:39.583 Have you considered real estate? A down payment on a condo? 17:39.666 --> 17:40.625 No, nothing. 17:41.958 --> 17:43.000 Okay. 17:44.625 --> 17:45.958 How much risk can you live with? 17:46.041 --> 17:47.625 As little as possible. 17:47.708 --> 17:48.750 All right. 17:49.333 --> 17:51.666 I’d suggest government bonds. 17:51.750 --> 17:53.708 Low interest, very safe. 17:53.791 --> 17:54.916 What do you think? 17:55.000 --> 17:55.958 Whatever you say. 17:56.041 --> 17:57.041 Okay. 17:58.000 --> 18:00.083 So we’ll do the paperwork, you’ll come in to sign it, 18:00.166 --> 18:02.416 and you won’t have to think about it after that. 18:02.916 --> 18:04.250 I’ll look after it. 18:06.916 --> 18:09.583 Oh, hi. I’m sorry, I didn’t know you were here. 18:09.666 --> 18:11.333 I was just getting a glass of water. May I? 18:11.416 --> 18:12.375 Sure, come in. 18:13.500 --> 18:15.958 -Uh… -Oh, I’ll get it for you. 18:23.833 --> 18:24.916 Thanks. 18:35.541 --> 18:36.916 Uh, would you like a coffee? 18:37.416 --> 18:38.833 I was about to make a pot. 18:39.791 --> 18:43.166 If you don’t mind, I’d love a coffee. I still have a lot of work to get through. 18:50.958 --> 18:52.541 Adela, listen, about the other day, 18:52.625 --> 18:53.708 I’m really sorry. 18:54.208 --> 18:57.250 I made you feel uncomfortable, and I-I really didn’t mean to do that. 18:57.333 --> 19:00.208 -Forgive me. -I’m not very good with physical contact. 19:00.708 --> 19:01.625 And… 19:02.291 --> 19:03.666 I’m sorry about how I reacted. 19:03.750 --> 19:07.375 No, I can come on way too fucking strong, and I’m terrible with boundaries. 19:07.458 --> 19:09.625 You wanted to help me and it was awkward. That was all. 19:12.416 --> 19:16.500 Okay, but, um, if you’d like me to check that everything’s fine with you, 19:16.583 --> 19:18.041 just let me know. 19:18.125 --> 19:21.500 And we’ll find a way to make sure you feel comfortable. 19:22.291 --> 19:25.000 I know I’m bad at respecting boundaries, but I’m really good at my job. 19:25.083 --> 19:27.416 And one thing I hate is pain. Yours and mine. 19:27.500 --> 19:29.541 -I’ll think about it. I promise. -Okay. 19:29.625 --> 19:31.416 Hmm, Adela, please, don’t you think it’s time 19:31.500 --> 19:33.750 to go down and help out your father? 19:36.083 --> 19:38.583 Will you continue with my mother-in-law or have you finished? 19:40.416 --> 19:43.416 We’re done for the day. I’ll just go pack up my things. 20:54.875 --> 20:55.875 Good. 20:57.333 --> 20:58.666 This arm’s all done. 21:16.416 --> 21:18.166 I’m heading out, sweetie. 21:18.250 --> 21:20.000 Yeah, I could hear you coming down the hall. 21:20.083 --> 21:22.625 I bet you could. With this thing, I sound like a garbage truck. 21:24.125 --> 21:25.166 So, um… 21:26.333 --> 21:30.083 Hey, the Casablanca video store, do you know how to get there? 21:33.500 --> 21:35.500 We’re almost there, okay? That’s my car on the left. 21:35.583 --> 21:37.708 Oh! Fucking Åmål. 21:37.791 --> 21:41.000 Wow! This movie is just fabulous. It’s so weird. 21:41.625 --> 21:44.750 Imagine Fassbinder making a movie for children, but with lesbians. 21:44.833 --> 21:46.750 I haven’t seen it. When did it come out? 21:46.833 --> 21:47.833 Just last year. 21:47.916 --> 21:49.791 Shit, I’d have saved myself a lot of drama 21:49.875 --> 21:51.958 if this flick had been around ten years ago. 21:56.041 --> 21:57.916 So, what movie are we looking for exactly? 21:58.000 --> 21:59.750 Um, Carl Dreyer’s Joan of Arc. 21:59.833 --> 22:02.083 It’s a silent movie. The poster is in black and white, 22:02.166 --> 22:04.916 and the actress has super short hair and a crown made out of straw, 22:05.000 --> 22:06.916 and she’s crying. She’s so pretty, beautiful. 22:07.000 --> 22:07.916 Maria Falconetti. 22:08.000 --> 22:10.125 Maria Falconetti, yes, that’s her! 22:10.208 --> 22:11.666 I couldn’t remember her name. 22:11.750 --> 22:13.666 I just love that movie. It drives me wild. 22:13.750 --> 22:16.583 It’s perfect. It’s more than film, it’s like a prayer. 22:17.583 --> 22:18.666 Yeah, a prayer. 22:19.166 --> 22:20.208 You’re right. 22:20.708 --> 22:23.875 She has that powerful stare, you know? With those eyes! 22:24.375 --> 22:27.458 It’s like you spend the whole movie wanting to tell her you’re sorry. 22:27.541 --> 22:28.666 I get the shivers every time. 22:28.750 --> 22:31.083 It was back when everyone was making big-budget epics, 22:31.166 --> 22:33.458 and Dreyer goes in this whole other direction. 22:33.541 --> 22:34.916 It’s so spiritual. 22:35.000 --> 22:36.166 -Yes. -So… 22:37.083 --> 22:38.500 -Theatrical. -Theatrical. 22:38.583 --> 22:39.916 That’s totally it. 22:40.625 --> 22:43.500 You know what? I want you to see the play I’m doing. 22:43.583 --> 22:45.458 -You do theater? -Yes, I’m an actress. 22:45.541 --> 22:47.583 Although the physiotherapy is how I make a living, 22:47.666 --> 22:49.750 and I’m really good at it, unfortunately. 22:49.833 --> 22:50.666 Mmm. 22:50.750 --> 22:53.333 I guess we all have our own antique store, huh. 22:55.458 --> 22:57.291 So, where’s the play? 22:57.375 --> 23:00.041 It’s playing this Thursday night, at the ENT, 23:00.125 --> 23:02.000 in the old part of town, you know it? 23:02.083 --> 23:03.958 We’re doing a version of Joan of Arc. 23:04.041 --> 23:05.000 I’ll be there. 23:05.083 --> 23:06.000 Oh wow! 23:06.083 --> 23:08.166 Okay, like, don’t expect a big production or anything. 23:08.250 --> 23:10.083 It’s just a company with some of my girlfriends, 23:10.166 --> 23:11.416 and I’m no Falconetti, you know. 23:11.500 --> 23:13.750 I hope not. I hope you talk, at least. 23:13.833 --> 23:16.041 Yeah, sure. That I can do. 23:17.041 --> 23:18.000 Well, then. 23:18.500 --> 23:20.125 It’s getting late, I should be going now. 23:20.208 --> 23:22.208 -Okay. -Do you know your way back to the car? 23:22.291 --> 23:24.333 Sure, sure. I’ve got it, don’t worry. 23:38.500 --> 23:40.250 It’s a shame to cut it like this, Cruz. 23:40.333 --> 23:42.666 The best way to roast a piglet is whole or in half. 23:42.750 --> 23:45.416 Mikel, you know very well I can’t bear to see the animal’s face. 23:45.500 --> 23:47.583 Fine, as you wish. You want pieces, pieces it is. 23:47.666 --> 23:49.375 -Yes, I’d like pieces. -Here you go. 23:50.333 --> 23:52.375 -How much is it? -1,500 please. 23:52.458 --> 23:53.458 Here. 23:53.541 --> 23:54.583 Okay. 23:55.875 --> 23:57.500 See you. Happy holidays. 23:57.583 --> 24:00.166 -Same to you. -Okay, we’re done. Let’s go home. 24:00.666 --> 24:02.041 Next, please. Who’s next? 24:06.791 --> 24:08.375 -Mom. -What? 24:08.458 --> 24:09.916 I need to see a doctor. 24:11.833 --> 24:13.791 -Honey, are you okay? -Yes. 24:13.875 --> 24:15.458 It’s something from the accident. 24:15.541 --> 24:17.916 Well, as soon as we get home, I’ll call Dr. Etxebarría. 24:18.000 --> 24:19.125 I’ll go with you. 24:19.916 --> 24:22.416 No, there’s nothing wrong. I just need a checkup. 24:22.500 --> 24:24.416 I mean, I want a checkup. 24:24.916 --> 24:26.333 But not with Dr. Etxebarría. 24:26.416 --> 24:27.666 That’s silly, Adela. 24:27.750 --> 24:30.541 He’s known you since you were born, and he treats the family. 24:30.625 --> 24:32.708 Mom, with a gynecologist. 24:34.625 --> 24:36.291 -See you later. -See you. 24:44.375 --> 24:46.250 Is there something I should know about? 24:47.125 --> 24:51.041 No, nothing. It’s just, I’m 26 and I’ve never had an exam. 24:51.125 --> 24:54.208 If you’ve never been it’s because there’s no reason to go, silly. 24:54.291 --> 24:58.125 At 26, unless you have strange symptoms you don’t need a checkup. 24:58.625 --> 24:59.916 -When you’re my age… -Mom. 25:00.000 --> 25:02.541 I brought it up because I want you to come with me, 25:02.625 --> 25:03.958 but I can go alone. 25:04.041 --> 25:05.708 Well, you don’t have to say it like that. 25:05.791 --> 25:07.291 I know you’re a grown woman. 25:07.375 --> 25:08.375 Mom. 25:08.875 --> 25:10.916 I’ve been taking estrogen since I was 15 25:11.000 --> 25:12.708 and all I know is that I need it. 25:13.291 --> 25:16.000 Well, yes, you need it for what you have. 25:16.083 --> 25:17.416 But what is it I have? 25:17.500 --> 25:19.583 I know I can’t have children, I don’t get my period, 25:19.666 --> 25:21.541 and I need to take estrogen. So what is all that? 25:21.625 --> 25:23.583 Oh, Adela, that’s all there is to it. 25:30.208 --> 25:32.541 Okay, we’ll talk after the big meal. 25:32.625 --> 25:35.166 And, Mom, listen to me, okay? Don’t make so much food. 25:35.250 --> 25:37.083 Restrain yourself, okay? 25:39.208 --> 25:42.958 Put Auntie in charge, then. There you go, that’s it. Okay, kisses. 25:46.333 --> 25:47.458 Keep stirring, keep stirring. 25:49.125 --> 25:50.083 José? 25:51.625 --> 25:53.625 Before you were a priest, 25:54.166 --> 25:55.416 were you ever in love? 25:57.625 --> 26:00.375 Honey, watch the bowl, you’re gonna spill everything. 26:01.125 --> 26:02.250 Hang on. 26:02.333 --> 26:04.166 Pour it in. Go on, all of it. 26:05.083 --> 26:07.875 There. That’s perfect. Here, give it a try. 26:09.500 --> 26:10.375 Mmm. 26:10.458 --> 26:11.416 Delicious. 26:11.500 --> 26:13.000 The potatoes are just right. 26:13.083 --> 26:14.833 We’ll give it a little time to rest. 26:14.916 --> 26:16.916 So come with me, I have something to show you. 26:20.708 --> 26:21.875 Hey! 26:21.958 --> 26:23.583 Look. 26:24.250 --> 26:25.458 What is this? 26:26.750 --> 26:27.791 Wait… 26:28.708 --> 26:30.083 Here we go, right here. 26:30.166 --> 26:34.000 Ah! Well, well, well! What do we have here? 26:35.000 --> 26:37.375 -What is this? -It’s just scandalous! 26:37.458 --> 26:40.250 It’s scandalous how gorgeous you are! 26:40.916 --> 26:43.958 Come here. If you’re crazy, girl, call me up. 26:44.041 --> 26:45.041 If you’re not… 26:45.125 --> 26:46.583 It’s your loss, sweetheart! 26:46.666 --> 26:47.791 Ah! 27:01.041 --> 27:02.333 His name was… 27:02.875 --> 27:03.791 Alonso. 27:05.333 --> 27:06.375 What happened to him? 27:07.166 --> 27:09.041 AIDS, like everyone else. 27:13.958 --> 27:16.833 Was he your… Were you… 27:16.916 --> 27:17.875 Yeah. 27:18.833 --> 27:20.375 He was the love of my life. 27:24.916 --> 27:26.041 How terrible. 27:28.833 --> 27:29.958 Well… 27:34.708 --> 27:35.625 And you? 27:39.000 --> 27:42.000 Tomorrow, I’m going out with Santiago Gómez-Arellano. 27:44.125 --> 27:46.916 I hope you have a nice time. But… 27:48.000 --> 27:49.583 You’re not here to talk about him. 27:49.666 --> 27:53.666 You told me there were people who could surprise you in a good way. 27:54.541 --> 27:55.583 Who were you talking about? 27:55.666 --> 27:57.750 My grandma’s physiotherapist. 27:58.666 --> 27:59.833 What’s up with me? 28:01.583 --> 28:04.000 I’m supposed to get together with her later. 28:04.083 --> 28:06.750 Have you read Henry and June? 28:07.333 --> 28:09.083 No. Who wrote it? 28:09.166 --> 28:10.458 Anaïs Nin. 28:11.208 --> 28:13.708 A goddess who could write like a demon. 28:14.208 --> 28:17.708 She fucked most of Montparnasse in the years between the World Wars. 28:17.791 --> 28:19.875 She’s marvelous. I love her. 28:20.541 --> 28:22.708 And you’re gonna love her too. Look. 28:23.250 --> 28:24.291 Read this. 28:25.750 --> 28:29.375 “It’s so beautiful to love and be free at the same time.” 28:29.458 --> 28:32.875 “It’s so beautiful to love and be free at the same time.” 28:36.916 --> 28:39.791 But I’m not a French woman in the '30s in Montparnasse. 28:40.375 --> 28:42.458 I teach Sunday school in Pamplona. 28:43.916 --> 28:47.166 Well, my Sunday school teacher, don’t you read the book first? 28:47.666 --> 28:49.208 We can talk after that. 28:50.750 --> 28:54.750 When I was 13 years old, I heard the voice of God speaking to me. 28:54.833 --> 28:56.375 He gave me a mission. 28:58.166 --> 28:59.458 That voice… 29:00.333 --> 29:02.291 came to me around midday… 29:04.541 --> 29:05.958 in the summer… 29:07.583 --> 29:09.375 in my father’s garden. 29:11.458 --> 29:14.708 And after that, I was never alone again, 29:14.791 --> 29:16.250 never helpless. 29:17.166 --> 29:20.208 I have nothing to fear from mankind’s judgment. 29:20.291 --> 29:25.166 And thus I accept the holy fire I carry in my soul, and I burn. 29:26.708 --> 29:28.708 Gather all my ashes. 29:28.791 --> 29:32.208 My heart already hears the voices of the angels. 29:49.666 --> 29:51.125 It was so cool with that lighting… 29:51.208 --> 29:53.625 Hey! Oh my God, you came, sweetie! 29:53.708 --> 29:54.916 I’m thrilled! Did you like it? 29:55.000 --> 29:56.250 -This is the girl. -Yes. 29:56.333 --> 29:57.583 -You didn’t like it. -Yes, I did. 29:57.666 --> 29:59.375 -You thought it was garbage. -No, I loved it. 29:59.458 --> 30:00.291 Really? 30:00.375 --> 30:03.041 Oh, come on now, of course, she liked it, she loved it. 30:03.125 --> 30:05.625 Just listen to what she’s saying. Time for a beer, right? 30:06.666 --> 30:07.958 I’m Ane, by the way. 30:08.791 --> 30:09.958 I’m Adela. 30:10.041 --> 30:11.333 Nice to meet you all. 30:11.416 --> 30:12.666 We’ve heard all about you. 30:12.750 --> 30:13.708 Okay then! 30:13.791 --> 30:15.625 Uh… What’s the plan? Go for drinks? You coming? 30:15.708 --> 30:17.708 -Come on, come on, shots! -Have one. 30:17.791 --> 30:19.625 I’ll have one, but then I need to go. 30:19.708 --> 30:21.000 -No way, stay! -C’mon, girl! 30:21.083 --> 30:22.125 Down the hatch, everyone. 30:22.208 --> 30:24.958 One, two, three, woo! 30:28.250 --> 30:29.208 Oh, yeah! 30:30.291 --> 30:32.375 This boy puts up his hand and asks me, 30:32.958 --> 30:36.166 “But when we take communion, do we have to drink real blood, miss?” 30:37.375 --> 30:40.916 Come on, Javier, you think that’s real blood? Don’t be stupid. 30:41.666 --> 30:43.708 Well, I didn’t actually say any of that. 30:43.791 --> 30:47.416 I talked about transubstantiation and the whole works. 30:47.500 --> 30:49.625 But the poor kid was even crying! 31:06.208 --> 31:08.125 -I don’t know the lyrics! -What? 31:08.208 --> 31:09.583 The lyrics! I don’t know them. 31:09.666 --> 31:10.916 It’s just this! 31:11.000 --> 31:13.000 Sarri, Sarri, Sarri, Sarri, Sarri 31:16.000 --> 31:18.000 Sarri, Sarri, Sarri, Sarri, Sarri… 31:24.500 --> 31:26.000 Yeah! Keep it coming! 31:47.541 --> 31:48.708 Wanna come in? 32:05.875 --> 32:07.416 -Wait here. -Okay. 32:15.416 --> 32:16.375 Come here. 32:27.416 --> 32:29.875 It’s an anonymous piece from the early 20th century. 32:29.958 --> 32:30.791 Wow. 32:30.875 --> 32:32.833 It’s in the style of Guido Reni. 32:33.625 --> 32:34.750 It’s beautiful. 32:36.250 --> 32:37.916 You see the clean areas? 32:38.000 --> 32:39.333 Almost the whole face. 32:43.458 --> 32:44.875 And what’s that? 32:44.958 --> 32:46.458 Is it… the real thing? 32:47.041 --> 32:49.500 Yes, they bring them here to have them restored. 32:49.583 --> 32:51.291 -Really? -It’s kind of a tradition. 32:52.416 --> 32:54.166 Be careful. They’re fragile. 32:54.250 --> 32:55.208 Okay. 32:56.500 --> 32:57.666 Watch out. 32:59.833 --> 33:02.791 -Doo-doo-doo-doo-doo -Isabel, please. Isabel. Isabel. 33:04.375 --> 33:06.500 Over here. Please, Isabel, stop. 33:06.583 --> 33:08.625 I’ll give you a thump, my girl! 33:08.708 --> 33:10.750 Okay, take it off now. 33:12.750 --> 33:14.208 That was a blast. 33:19.041 --> 33:19.875 What? 33:19.958 --> 33:23.416 It looks like Lucía got some makeup on you 33:23.500 --> 33:25.416 when she said goodbye. 33:29.333 --> 33:30.625 That looks very nice. 33:30.708 --> 33:32.541 -Oh. -It suits you. 33:38.833 --> 33:40.875 Oh, that scared me! 33:44.375 --> 33:45.583 It scared me! 33:54.666 --> 33:55.583 Hello? 33:55.666 --> 33:57.875 Adela, what are you doing there so late? 33:57.958 --> 34:00.041 Are you okay? Is something wrong? 34:00.125 --> 34:03.041 Yes, everything’s fine, Dad. I was just doing some work. 34:03.125 --> 34:05.083 You know who called me? Jesús, the taxi driver. 34:05.166 --> 34:07.708 -He saw the door was open and got worried. -I’m going. Bye. 34:07.791 --> 34:09.750 -Wait. Adela, thank you. -What? 34:09.833 --> 34:10.958 What’s that you said? 34:11.500 --> 34:13.083 Adela? Are you there? 34:13.166 --> 34:14.833 Just come home this minute. 34:16.833 --> 34:19.833 Adela, it’s already a quarter past twelve, get up. 34:19.916 --> 34:21.666 Santiago is there with your father. 34:21.750 --> 34:23.375 He says you were supposed to meet him. 34:27.791 --> 34:30.000 Now that we’ve had a drink, I’ll show you something 34:30.083 --> 34:31.708 that’ll blow your mind. 34:33.750 --> 34:34.958 No way! 34:35.583 --> 34:37.458 -How did you even find this? -Hm? 34:39.208 --> 34:41.041 I did the cover art myself, you know? 34:41.125 --> 34:42.375 That’s amazing. 34:42.458 --> 34:45.375 The Javier Castle pilgrimage, 1988. 34:45.458 --> 34:47.333 Oh, look. That’s Fran… 34:47.416 --> 34:49.750 And the one with the thermos is Maite. 34:49.833 --> 34:51.208 And this guy… 34:51.291 --> 34:52.708 -Him? -What’s his name again? 34:53.291 --> 34:55.000 Uh, that’s Eusebio. Sebi. 34:55.083 --> 34:56.708 -That’s Sebi, of course! -That’s right. 34:57.208 --> 34:59.500 -Oh, my God. -Good times. 35:00.041 --> 35:00.916 Yeah. 35:01.000 --> 35:04.458 You know the image that comes to me when I remember those days? 35:06.708 --> 35:10.708 You, at night, holding a hot drink of some sort 35:11.250 --> 35:12.458 in the doorway of the hostel. 35:12.541 --> 35:13.583 Valerian tea. 35:14.083 --> 35:15.875 I still drink it. My grandma got me into it. 35:17.333 --> 35:18.625 I watched you from the window. 35:18.708 --> 35:21.458 You seemed 20 years older than us. 35:22.916 --> 35:24.166 I was… 35:25.916 --> 35:26.750 What? 35:27.833 --> 35:29.041 Crazy about you. 35:32.000 --> 35:34.583 It would have been very nice if you’d said so, you know. 35:35.875 --> 35:38.208 I was an idiot, Adela. We all were. 35:38.791 --> 35:39.958 No, Santi. 35:41.083 --> 35:42.291 You were sweet. 35:56.083 --> 35:57.458 Shit, it's raining! 35:58.125 --> 35:59.208 Shit. 35:59.750 --> 36:01.125 Come on! Run, run, run! 36:02.666 --> 36:03.666 Over here! 36:06.458 --> 36:07.333 Ooh. 36:17.000 --> 36:18.375 Adela, I’m nuts about you. 36:19.833 --> 36:21.416 I don’t know if you feel the same, 36:22.125 --> 36:24.500 or if you’re happy about this. I don’t know anything. 36:45.833 --> 36:46.875 I’m sorry. 36:48.041 --> 36:49.166 I have to go. 36:52.375 --> 36:56.000 AVENIDA SHOPPING MALL 37:06.250 --> 37:08.500 -Merry Christmas, Adela! -Merry Christmas. 37:12.750 --> 37:14.583 The meat just melts in your mouth. 37:14.666 --> 37:16.666 The butcher always gives me the best pieces. 37:16.750 --> 37:18.541 -This is just delicious. -Very good. 37:18.625 --> 37:20.500 What’s in store for us at Mass, I wonder? 37:20.583 --> 37:22.333 It’s the first one from this priest, you know. 37:22.416 --> 37:24.958 He’ll give communion with a limp wrist. 37:25.041 --> 37:27.250 How on earth did that man get assigned to our church? 37:27.333 --> 37:29.583 -A charming gift from the archbishop. -Right. 37:37.666 --> 37:39.041 Honey, we were joking. 37:40.208 --> 37:41.625 I don’t think it was funny. 37:43.416 --> 37:44.833 That’s okay, I’ll do the rest. 37:45.500 --> 37:46.458 I’ll finish up. 37:47.083 --> 37:48.333 You can dry. 37:54.083 --> 37:55.083 Adela, 37:55.583 --> 37:58.541 I know that we’ve been on edge lately. 37:58.625 --> 38:01.416 But I’m just so scared that someone will hurt you. 38:02.166 --> 38:03.375 I’m worried sick. 38:10.416 --> 38:11.500 There. 38:11.583 --> 38:14.208 Mom, I need to see a gynecologist. 38:16.375 --> 38:18.041 Darling, another time. 38:19.916 --> 38:21.416 Leave it. I’ll take care of it. 38:25.833 --> 38:27.000 Do as you wish. 38:29.083 --> 38:30.916 “When my spirit faints within me, 38:31.000 --> 38:33.000 it is You who watch over my way." 38:33.541 --> 38:37.041 "There is no one at my right hand who is concerned for me." 38:37.125 --> 38:38.708 "No refuge can be found for me." 38:39.250 --> 38:41.583 "To no one does it matter whether I live or die." 38:43.041 --> 38:45.000 "Thus I cry out to you, O Lord." 38:46.000 --> 38:50.375 "Deliver me from my persecutors for they are stronger than I.” 38:58.708 --> 39:00.125 "Merry Christmas, sweetie." 39:00.208 --> 39:03.416 "On New Year’s Eve we’re going to the bar. We’re gonna wear costumes." 39:04.166 --> 39:05.083 "You up for it?" 39:05.666 --> 39:07.041 "I really wanna see you." 39:07.125 --> 39:08.208 "Isabel." 39:09.333 --> 39:10.416 Good morning! 39:10.500 --> 39:14.291 It’s just a matter of hours before we say goodbye to 1999. 39:14.375 --> 39:16.000 Tonight, we enter the new millennium 39:16.083 --> 39:20.541 and we finally find out what happens with the famous Y2K bug. 39:31.583 --> 39:33.333 Ah, shit. 39:41.333 --> 39:43.333 -Hello? -Adela, it’s José. 39:43.833 --> 39:44.958 I need to see you. 39:47.625 --> 39:48.750 Come with me. 39:50.083 --> 39:52.541 But where are we going? I have to go home for dinner. 39:52.625 --> 39:53.916 Sure. Just come. 39:59.375 --> 40:01.916 Honey, you’re drunk, and the night hasn’t even started. 40:02.750 --> 40:05.666 When the loneliness gets to me, I come here, I sit down, 40:05.750 --> 40:06.791 and I watch them. 40:08.041 --> 40:09.625 I don’t ever go in, of course. 40:10.208 --> 40:12.083 But it makes me feel good. 40:12.791 --> 40:15.416 It’s like I’m introducing you to my family, you know? 40:16.541 --> 40:17.666 They look happy. 40:17.750 --> 40:20.041 They are happy right now, for sure. 40:20.125 --> 40:23.833 When you get to a place that feels like your own, really yours, 40:25.000 --> 40:27.708 with people who understand you, nothing’s better than that. 40:31.291 --> 40:32.333 What is it? 40:33.250 --> 40:34.958 I kissed Santiago. 40:35.041 --> 40:36.041 Hmm. 40:38.041 --> 40:39.250 I liked it very much. 40:39.916 --> 40:43.041 It was great. But, as soon as I closed my eyes, 40:43.125 --> 40:46.041 the only face I could see in my head was hers. 40:46.125 --> 40:48.166 The masseuse with the big personality? 40:48.875 --> 40:50.083 Yes, Isabel. 40:53.541 --> 40:55.916 When I’m with Santiago… 40:57.333 --> 40:58.666 I feel attractive. 41:00.041 --> 41:01.666 But when I’m with Isabel, 41:02.500 --> 41:03.750 I feel so free. 41:05.125 --> 41:07.416 It’s a totally new experience. 41:08.583 --> 41:10.000 I’ve always tried to… 41:10.583 --> 41:12.375 be invisible, José. 41:13.041 --> 41:14.708 Shut out the whole world. 41:15.541 --> 41:17.583 I was numb about all of it. 41:17.666 --> 41:18.958 My own body, 41:19.041 --> 41:21.208 my… my infertility, 41:21.291 --> 41:22.375 the medication. 41:22.875 --> 41:25.541 All the things I don’t know about myself. 41:28.833 --> 41:30.125 And now… 41:30.208 --> 41:31.291 I wanna live. 41:31.875 --> 41:34.083 Now I want to be touched. 41:34.166 --> 41:37.208 I want to be touched all the time. Do you understand? 41:38.916 --> 41:42.541 It makes me want to throw up, that’s how much I want my own life. 41:48.458 --> 41:49.583 Adela, honey, 41:49.666 --> 41:51.333 life is about passion. 41:51.416 --> 41:54.333 From Jesus Christ to Mónica Naranjo. 41:55.000 --> 41:58.875 When our passions are locked up inside us, we’re cut off from life itself. 41:59.541 --> 42:02.375 And the only emotion we have is resentment. 42:02.458 --> 42:04.958 You don’t wanna go through life feeling resentful. 42:05.041 --> 42:07.083 -I already do. -So get rid of it! 42:07.166 --> 42:08.166 Do it. 42:08.666 --> 42:11.000 Now! Before it’s too late. 42:12.125 --> 42:15.458 The fear you feel now isn’t enough. You have to feel even more fear. 42:15.541 --> 42:17.875 More desire, more everything. 42:22.125 --> 42:23.375 Listen. 42:23.458 --> 42:24.708 When Alonso… 42:25.458 --> 42:26.958 When I lost Alonso… 42:30.500 --> 42:33.791 it was like I had fallen into complete darkness. 42:34.291 --> 42:35.625 It was like a pit. 42:36.250 --> 42:37.708 I’ve never been so scared. 42:38.500 --> 42:39.583 Petrified. 42:41.750 --> 42:43.583 But what the two of us shared, 42:44.333 --> 42:46.958 what I lived through all those years before we met, 42:47.666 --> 42:50.875 the risky life I led, the many sins I committed, 42:50.958 --> 42:52.708 which made me so happy… 42:52.791 --> 42:56.125 It all wrapped around me like a blanket and comforted me. 42:58.000 --> 42:59.666 And when I hit rock bottom, 43:00.583 --> 43:01.708 God appeared 43:01.791 --> 43:03.750 as a result of my excesses. 43:03.833 --> 43:04.916 Boom! 43:05.541 --> 43:07.041 And he was everywhere. 43:07.125 --> 43:08.333 Everywhere. 43:09.666 --> 43:11.291 It felt like I was… 43:12.916 --> 43:16.375 having sex with all the men I’d been with all at the same time. 43:21.125 --> 43:23.083 I’d be telling a lie if I said 43:23.583 --> 43:26.250 that I don’t have moments when I miss Alonso. 43:28.166 --> 43:30.041 I’m not immune to sadness, but… 43:31.166 --> 43:32.833 But I haven’t ever been alone since. 43:35.458 --> 43:37.750 In the church, I serve the Lord, 43:37.833 --> 43:40.083 but when I look at the door of that club, 43:41.000 --> 43:42.208 I see him. 43:42.916 --> 43:44.666 Happy New Year, darling! 43:45.708 --> 43:48.208 But I don’t have a life full of good memories. 43:48.291 --> 43:49.416 There’s no blanket. 43:49.500 --> 43:50.625 So make one! 43:51.500 --> 43:52.625 Push your boundaries, 43:52.708 --> 43:55.000 make mistakes, get dirty. 43:55.083 --> 43:57.625 You actually know perfectly well what you have to do. 43:57.708 --> 43:59.750 Do it. Disappoint someone! 43:59.833 --> 44:02.333 What the hell, disappoint all of us! 44:02.416 --> 44:03.708 Leave us in the lurch 44:03.791 --> 44:06.250 and do something amazing and unexpected. 44:07.708 --> 44:08.833 Yes, honey. 44:10.666 --> 44:11.750 That’s it. 44:13.625 --> 44:15.458 Happy New Year, Father. 44:16.500 --> 44:18.000 Happy New Year, my child. 44:49.250 --> 44:50.750 Hey! She made it! 44:50.833 --> 44:51.833 Oh! Adela! 44:52.500 --> 44:54.250 -Yeah! -Adela, come on! 44:54.333 --> 44:56.041 -Shots on me! -Come here! 45:03.583 --> 45:04.458 Girl. Cool it. 45:04.541 --> 45:05.625 Cut it out, Isabel. 45:06.500 --> 45:07.791 What? What is it? 45:09.375 --> 45:10.458 Adela! 45:12.833 --> 45:14.958 Wait, stop! Adela, wait up! 45:16.416 --> 45:17.458 Adela! 45:19.291 --> 45:20.416 Adela, stop, stop, stop! 45:20.500 --> 45:22.583 Adela, please. What is wrong? What is it? 45:22.666 --> 45:25.000 -I want to go, Isabel. Let me. -Okay, but listen. Look at me. 45:25.083 --> 45:27.333 What you saw back there wasn’t… It wasn’t anything. 45:27.416 --> 45:28.875 It was… No, no. 45:28.958 --> 45:31.708 I was so happy to be seeing you tonight, really. 45:34.791 --> 45:37.541 It’s my fault, Isabel. That’s it. Leave me alone. 45:43.625 --> 45:46.083 Happy New Year! 45:46.166 --> 45:47.541 Happy New Year! 45:47.625 --> 45:50.291 Happy 2000, everybody! 45:59.291 --> 46:00.333 Good evening, dear. 46:00.958 --> 46:02.875 -May I? -Sure, Grandma. Come in. 46:10.083 --> 46:11.333 Look. 46:11.416 --> 46:14.541 This is my aunt Marga with my older sister, Ernestina, 46:14.625 --> 46:16.125 may she rest in peace. 46:19.250 --> 46:21.041 They called them the Butches. 46:21.833 --> 46:25.083 Neither of them could have children and they never had periods. 46:25.625 --> 46:27.708 But they were so tall, and strong. 46:29.083 --> 46:30.125 Like me. 46:30.208 --> 46:31.958 Yes, the same as you. 46:34.625 --> 46:36.500 Why’d my mother never tell me about them? 46:36.583 --> 46:38.041 Your mother adores you, Adela. 46:38.625 --> 46:42.125 But she’s been paralyzed by fear ever since you were born. 46:42.791 --> 46:45.708 She does what she can, what she’s been taught to do. 46:45.791 --> 46:47.750 Like me, like all of us women. 46:49.500 --> 46:50.458 Were they happy? 46:51.000 --> 46:53.541 Well, they had their ups and downs. 46:54.000 --> 46:55.583 We gave them a hard time. 46:56.416 --> 46:57.416 They didn’t marry. 46:58.166 --> 47:00.000 But they had money of their own. 47:01.041 --> 47:03.166 And no men to boss them around. 47:03.875 --> 47:05.708 I’d say, that’s not bad. 47:07.541 --> 47:09.291 Although their beds were always empty. 47:09.375 --> 47:11.375 You’re so wise, Grandma. 47:11.458 --> 47:12.916 Not wise enough. 47:13.833 --> 47:16.291 It’s because of you that I understand now. 47:17.916 --> 47:19.125 I took too long. 47:26.541 --> 47:29.500 The next time you hear someone say “Horse Girl,” 47:30.291 --> 47:33.625 remember that you come from a family of strong mares. 47:36.375 --> 47:37.416 It’s hard to spot, 47:37.500 --> 47:39.666 but if you look closely at the mucous membranes, 47:39.750 --> 47:41.166 you can see the scar. 47:41.250 --> 47:42.625 I wouldn’t have noticed. 47:43.250 --> 47:44.666 It looks amazing, doesn’t it? 47:46.000 --> 47:48.125 Uh, we’re done, Adela. You can get up now. 47:48.708 --> 47:50.375 Let me know if you need anything else. 47:50.458 --> 47:52.166 I really appreciate your opinion. 47:52.250 --> 47:53.958 -See you later. -I’ll keep you posted. 47:54.833 --> 47:57.416 Uh, get dressed now and I’ll see you in my office, okay? 47:59.625 --> 48:01.875 Oh, to take it out, just turn this part. 48:03.000 --> 48:04.208 Okay then, Adela. 48:04.833 --> 48:07.583 I’m going to try to explain things as clearly as possible. 48:08.208 --> 48:10.916 You don’t have your period and you can’t get pregnant 48:11.000 --> 48:12.416 because you don’t have a uterus. 48:12.500 --> 48:15.916 You were born without one, and without ovaries. 48:16.000 --> 48:19.166 Instead, you were born with internal gonads. 48:20.333 --> 48:21.916 Internal gonads? 48:22.916 --> 48:23.958 Testicles? 48:24.791 --> 48:26.333 Yes, but undescended. 48:26.875 --> 48:29.208 Of course, in baby boys, the testicles descend toward… 48:29.291 --> 48:31.500 But… But give me a second, doctor. 48:31.583 --> 48:33.708 You just… You said baby boys. 48:34.291 --> 48:36.291 -What do you mean by that? -Adela, slow down. 48:36.375 --> 48:37.666 I’m not saying you’re male. 48:37.750 --> 48:40.083 You have a vagina. It’s shortened, but it’s there. 48:40.916 --> 48:44.333 In the examination we confirmed that you were probably born with 48:44.416 --> 48:46.083 an unusually large clitoris. 48:46.583 --> 48:50.333 They operated to normalize the appearance of your genitals. 48:52.041 --> 48:53.625 They did a very good job. 48:54.416 --> 48:56.416 Is that the usual treatment? 48:56.500 --> 48:57.583 It can be. 48:58.500 --> 49:00.541 I assume your doctors talked to your parents 49:00.625 --> 49:02.375 and they all made the decision. 49:02.458 --> 49:05.833 It’s the recommended procedure in certain cases of intersexuality. 49:06.458 --> 49:07.708 Intersexuality? 49:07.791 --> 49:09.083 Yes. 49:09.166 --> 49:11.666 Adela, it’s much more common than you think. 49:15.333 --> 49:17.166 And are those internal gonads… 49:17.916 --> 49:18.833 still there? 49:18.916 --> 49:19.958 No. 49:20.791 --> 49:23.291 They must have taken them out when you were a teenager. 49:23.375 --> 49:26.500 It’s usually done to prevent tumors or other pathologies. 49:26.583 --> 49:29.333 -For example-- -The operation I had when I was 14. 49:29.875 --> 49:32.291 But my parents said it was for a hernia. 49:34.625 --> 49:36.791 It is possible that you had one. 49:36.875 --> 49:39.958 And during the operation they also removed the gonads. 49:42.083 --> 49:44.250 But… But that’s castration. 49:44.333 --> 49:45.333 Well, that’s… 49:45.833 --> 49:47.666 a very strong word for it, Adela. 49:49.125 --> 49:50.708 You should have been told the truth. 49:50.791 --> 49:54.583 And your family doctor certainly hasn’t followed up much, but… 49:55.208 --> 49:56.541 I wouldn’t describe that way. 49:56.625 --> 49:58.166 But that’s what it is. 50:00.166 --> 50:01.375 What do I do now? 50:02.541 --> 50:06.250 The best thing is to forget it and get on with your life. 50:07.458 --> 50:08.375 Hm? 50:08.458 --> 50:10.583 If you like, we can do your checkups here. 50:13.500 --> 50:15.916 If I stop taking the Meriestra, what would happen to me? 50:16.000 --> 50:17.416 I don’t recommend it. 50:17.916 --> 50:19.291 Your body needs hormones. 50:19.375 --> 50:22.375 So, what would I have been like now? 50:22.916 --> 50:25.208 With no operations, no treatment, no… 50:25.291 --> 50:27.500 Who would I actually be now? 51:00.500 --> 51:05.041 Never thought you'd make me perspire 51:06.625 --> 51:10.625 Never thought I'd do you the same 51:12.458 --> 51:16.625 Never thought I'd fill with desire 51:16.708 --> 51:18.125 Darling, no. 51:19.083 --> 51:20.166 No. 51:23.708 --> 51:24.708 I am your home. 51:24.791 --> 51:28.125 Me and the dragon 51:30.208 --> 51:34.833 Can chase all the pain away 51:35.541 --> 51:40.250 So before I end my day 51:40.333 --> 51:44.208 MADRID JUNE, 2000 51:44.291 --> 51:45.583 Remember 51:55.500 --> 51:58.500 You are the one 52:01.666 --> 52:05.041 My sweet prince 52:07.166 --> 52:09.291 You are the one 52:15.541 --> 52:17.458 "I think we’re due for a phone call." 52:17.541 --> 52:20.583 "I hope you’re doing well and you own the bar now." 52:21.375 --> 52:23.958 "I miss you. José." 52:24.666 --> 52:27.750 "P. S. I have dreams that rob me of my reason." 52:27.833 --> 52:29.500 "I find myself in a strange dimension, 52:29.583 --> 52:33.916 surrounded by flames that are meant to burn with pleasure, an angel appears." 52:34.000 --> 52:36.208 "Or an archangel. Who can possibly tell?" 52:36.291 --> 52:39.083 The Wanninkhof murder has come to be known in this area 52:39.166 --> 52:41.333 as the Case of The Killer Godmother, 52:41.416 --> 52:44.500 and it has caused great indignation among those who live here. 52:44.583 --> 52:48.083 On one occasion, as María Dolores, was escorted into the courthouse, 52:48.166 --> 52:51.250 the Civil Guard and the National Police had their work cut out for them… 52:51.333 --> 52:54.333 They just keep lying. That poor woman is getting screwed. 52:54.416 --> 52:56.583 They’re all in cahoots trying to fuck up her life. 52:56.666 --> 52:59.625 The girl’s mother is constantly slinging mud at that poor woman. 52:59.708 --> 53:01.833 That mother is going mental without her daughter. 53:01.916 --> 53:05.291 Plus, she’s been jilted. There’s nothing scarier in this world than a broken heart. 53:05.375 --> 53:06.458 Right. 53:07.666 --> 53:08.750 What do you think, honey? 53:08.833 --> 53:11.083 That when a raging mob looks for justice, 53:11.916 --> 53:14.500 it usually finds an innocent person that someone doesn’t like. 53:14.583 --> 53:15.916 Write that down, Isidoro. 53:16.000 --> 53:18.125 I’ve got enough to write down with all the orders. 53:18.208 --> 53:20.333 -Anything else, Patricia? -Nothing, honey, thank you. 53:20.416 --> 53:21.416 What do I owe you? 53:22.000 --> 53:24.416 Tapas and a coke. Five fifty. 53:25.541 --> 53:27.916 A. D., when you’re finished, come see me, okay? 53:31.958 --> 53:33.000 See you later, guys. 53:33.583 --> 53:34.708 Listen to me. 53:34.791 --> 53:37.125 How many times have I told you, bring in your ID card? 53:37.208 --> 53:39.166 I’m up for an inspection, I’m gonna be screwed, 53:39.250 --> 53:40.416 This is your last warning. 53:40.500 --> 53:41.958 Bring it tomorrow. 53:42.041 --> 53:43.833 If you don’t, I’ll get someone else. 53:44.583 --> 53:45.708 I’m sorry. 53:48.875 --> 53:50.041 Patricia, need a hand? 53:50.125 --> 53:51.250 No, I’ll be fine. 53:51.791 --> 53:52.958 Thank you, sweetie. 53:55.666 --> 53:56.958 I’ll give it to you. 53:57.041 --> 53:58.500 But it’s important that you pee. 53:58.583 --> 54:01.250 And by the way, tell Antonio to wash his balls a little better. 54:01.333 --> 54:02.833 Right. Thanks a lot. 54:06.041 --> 54:09.083 Wow. I see the testosterone is making a difference. 54:09.166 --> 54:10.375 Two rounds. 54:12.250 --> 54:14.416 Sure, two little beauties. 54:15.000 --> 54:16.208 No prescription yet? 54:16.291 --> 54:17.583 I’m afraid not. 54:18.125 --> 54:20.708 Well, I’m not going to leave you without medication, okay? 54:20.791 --> 54:22.458 But it’s important for you to find a doctor 54:22.541 --> 54:23.666 and get a prescription, hon. 54:24.583 --> 54:26.000 Here you go. 54:26.083 --> 54:27.875 You boys show it right away. 54:27.958 --> 54:31.166 I’ve had some real studs in here, like out of a porn movie. 54:31.666 --> 54:34.000 You wouldn’t believe the transformation. 54:34.083 --> 54:35.791 In two months, you’ll see. 54:37.916 --> 54:39.250 -See you later. -See you. 54:39.875 --> 54:41.125 Hi, how are you? 54:41.208 --> 54:43.958 Waiting here. You know, you’re a real sleazebag. 54:44.041 --> 54:47.583 That’s what you are, a sleazebag. What you’re doing is unspeakable. 54:47.666 --> 54:49.541 You’re going to give me a fricking stroke. 54:54.875 --> 54:57.875 Check it out, check it out. Where are you going? 54:57.958 --> 54:59.958 -Come here, honey. -Nice tall drink of water. 55:00.041 --> 55:01.875 Why don’t you come hang out with us? 55:10.250 --> 55:11.250 Hello? 55:12.041 --> 55:14.041 Adela, my dear, is it you? Are you okay? 55:14.125 --> 55:18.166 I just want to know if you’re doing okay. Say something. Please. 55:51.583 --> 55:53.958 If he had any idea what it’s like for us. 55:54.041 --> 55:55.291 Oh, he’s here. 56:01.708 --> 56:02.583 Hello. 56:02.666 --> 56:04.166 Hi. Are you okay? 56:04.708 --> 56:06.875 Yeah, sure. I’m going to bed. 56:06.958 --> 56:08.250 Uh. Hey, A. D. 56:09.041 --> 56:10.750 We’d like to talk to you. Come sit? 56:10.833 --> 56:13.250 I’d rather do it another time, okay? I’m tired. 56:21.875 --> 56:23.458 Come on, A. D., we really tried. 56:24.250 --> 56:26.583 We all have issues and you’ve got some stuff to work on. 56:27.166 --> 56:30.333 But Ángela and I have the same ideas about sharing a space. And this isn’t it. 56:31.041 --> 56:33.250 We can’t get you to open up, A. D. 56:33.333 --> 56:34.916 And we feel bad for you, but… 56:35.458 --> 56:36.916 Maybe you’re in the wrong place. 56:37.500 --> 56:41.166 If something we did offended you, tell us, but this situation is shitty. 56:42.125 --> 56:43.833 I don’t wanna live like this. 56:52.375 --> 56:53.416 Are you kidding me? 56:54.166 --> 56:55.041 Was that all? 56:56.000 --> 56:58.833 For almost six months you’ve avoided us because of this? 56:59.458 --> 57:00.375 What the hell? 57:02.875 --> 57:03.833 I’m sorry. 57:03.916 --> 57:05.958 -Why are you sorry, A. D.? -No! 57:06.041 --> 57:07.291 Why are you sorry? 57:07.958 --> 57:10.625 But wait. Do you really believe that my name is Gato? 57:10.708 --> 57:12.791 That my mother has eight tits and meows? 57:14.250 --> 57:15.416 No. 57:15.500 --> 57:17.041 We’re pretty weird ourselves. 57:17.666 --> 57:20.833 You must’ve noticed me going out with guys, girls. Hey, guys and girls! 57:20.916 --> 57:22.875 -With anything that moves. -And this one? 57:22.958 --> 57:25.416 She has no idea who the father of her baby is, for God’s sake. 57:25.500 --> 57:27.208 No clue. 57:27.291 --> 57:28.625 Well, I narrowed it down to three. 57:28.708 --> 57:31.833 Two from back home and this German hippy who lived in a cave. 57:31.916 --> 57:32.791 Enough said. 57:32.875 --> 57:35.416 And I might be in the running. 57:36.000 --> 57:37.250 A. D., sweetheart. 57:38.291 --> 57:39.375 We knew about it. 57:39.458 --> 57:41.500 Well, we guessed and we didn’t care. 57:41.583 --> 57:43.333 In fact, it’s why we wanted you here. 57:43.416 --> 57:45.916 Because you’re the perfect addition to this little whorehouse. 57:46.000 --> 57:47.208 Right, my darling? 57:47.291 --> 57:49.166 And he has all these books in his house 57:49.250 --> 57:51.583 that the Church wouldn’t be happy to hear about. 57:51.666 --> 57:54.000 With a voice like that? He’s a priest? 57:54.083 --> 57:55.583 Plus he’s very handsome. 57:55.666 --> 57:56.916 Let me at him! 57:57.000 --> 57:59.291 I just love all that stuff about the antique store. 58:00.125 --> 58:01.875 Looking at you, it makes sense. 58:02.916 --> 58:05.333 It’s a little bit annoying how interesting you are. 58:07.208 --> 58:08.458 Okay, done? 58:09.291 --> 58:10.416 How about you? 58:11.833 --> 58:13.166 What’s your real name, Gato? 58:14.291 --> 58:15.916 I’m not ready to confess that yet. 58:17.416 --> 58:19.916 I’m from Tacoronte, Tenerife. 58:20.000 --> 58:22.375 Ooh, good work, little prince! 58:22.458 --> 58:24.708 And for now, I’m just working at home. Stuffing envelopes, 58:24.791 --> 58:26.708 assembling keychains, whatever. 58:26.791 --> 58:29.083 -And your family? -My family is kind of like yours. 58:30.125 --> 58:31.541 Good people, I love them. 58:31.625 --> 58:33.458 And I can go back whenever I want. 58:34.750 --> 58:37.083 But when I’m there, I’m a square peg in a round hole. 58:38.666 --> 58:39.625 -And yours? -Mm. 58:41.416 --> 58:42.500 My dad’s a carpenter, 58:43.166 --> 58:45.083 a bigger fascist than Franco. 58:46.250 --> 58:47.750 My mom’s a lovely woman. 58:48.416 --> 58:49.750 -Beautiful. -Mm. 58:49.833 --> 58:51.041 And so smart. 58:52.166 --> 58:54.041 Her mistake was getting married to that animal. 58:55.166 --> 58:56.458 I talk to her every week. 58:56.541 --> 58:57.666 Not to him. 59:06.875 --> 59:08.666 Wait, aren’t you an art restorer? 59:08.750 --> 59:10.333 Hold it gently, like a brush. 59:10.416 --> 59:12.250 Okay, now while you’re inhaling, 59:12.333 --> 59:15.583 imagine you just quit some dumb job you absolutely hate. 59:16.291 --> 59:19.041 That’s it. Here. 59:20.000 --> 59:21.041 A photo. 59:22.250 --> 59:24.166 Oh, so handsome. 59:26.750 --> 59:28.083 Your first time, huh? 59:29.458 --> 59:30.708 Guys… 59:30.791 --> 59:33.000 with that whole scene we went through at home, 59:33.083 --> 59:35.333 I forgot to tell you something important. 59:36.958 --> 59:39.416 I… I’m unemployed as of today. 59:39.875 --> 59:42.375 And what I have saved will last me two months. 59:44.750 --> 59:47.500 The two of us go through constant ups and downs in life, honey. 59:48.208 --> 59:51.000 Two months is a lifetime. Something will come. 59:51.833 --> 59:53.333 You bet your ass it will. 59:56.708 --> 59:57.916 Come on, let’s go in. 59:59.625 --> 01:00:01.583 In you go, little cutie. 01:00:04.125 --> 01:00:05.291 No, honey, no. 01:00:05.958 --> 01:00:09.333 I think it’s about time to make up for all those missed opportunities. 01:00:10.916 --> 01:00:12.708 You’re coming with me tonight. 01:00:18.708 --> 01:00:20.208 My golden girls! 01:00:20.291 --> 01:00:23.583 Like an electric flash 01:00:23.666 --> 01:00:26.666 That could kill you… 01:00:26.750 --> 01:00:27.750 Alana? 01:00:27.833 --> 01:00:28.958 Hey there, doll. 01:00:29.458 --> 01:00:30.708 You look gorgeous. How are you? 01:00:30.791 --> 01:00:32.000 -Hello. -You look amazing. 01:00:32.083 --> 01:00:34.500 -I’ll come back, okay? I’m giving a tour. -Okay. 01:00:35.208 --> 01:00:36.625 Yeah, girl, what a rack. 01:00:36.708 --> 01:00:37.833 Mmm! 01:00:37.916 --> 01:00:39.666 Even tastes like milk. Hey there! 01:00:39.750 --> 01:00:42.333 That could kill you… 01:00:42.416 --> 01:00:43.291 Roberta! 01:00:44.083 --> 01:00:45.125 My love! 01:00:46.583 --> 01:00:48.375 She’s a nympho. Amazing. 01:00:49.458 --> 01:00:50.625 That’s Prohibida. 01:00:50.708 --> 01:00:52.000 Like a flash 01:00:55.500 --> 01:00:56.791 Thank you so much. 01:01:02.875 --> 01:01:05.000 Come say hello to her. But don’t worry, she’s a friend. 01:01:05.083 --> 01:01:06.125 Prohibida! 01:01:06.208 --> 01:01:07.166 -Hey there. -Hi. 01:01:10.708 --> 01:01:12.208 Who’s this big queer? 01:01:12.291 --> 01:01:13.375 My name’s A. D. 01:01:13.833 --> 01:01:15.875 -Andy? -A. D.! 01:01:15.958 --> 01:01:17.875 Ah, A. D.! Pleased to meet you. 01:01:17.958 --> 01:01:21.083 Well, you’ve outdone yourself. You found yourself a real sweetheart. 01:01:22.625 --> 01:01:24.208 You need anything, hon? My life savings? 01:01:24.291 --> 01:01:25.333 Maybe later, sweetie. 01:01:25.416 --> 01:01:26.958 -You sticking around? -Yeah, sure. 01:01:28.291 --> 01:01:30.125 She’d actually give us her life savings. 01:01:31.750 --> 01:01:33.125 A drink? 01:01:33.750 --> 01:01:34.875 Cristi! 01:01:36.041 --> 01:01:38.375 -Look who it is, Gato! -Hello, princess. 01:01:38.458 --> 01:01:40.291 -How are you, handsome boy? -What’s up? 01:01:40.375 --> 01:01:42.750 -What’s your poison? -Uh, two vodka lemon, please. 01:01:42.833 --> 01:01:44.875 Another queer boy in tow? 01:01:44.958 --> 01:01:46.958 How are you? I’m Cristi. 01:01:47.041 --> 01:01:48.375 Welcome to our humble abode. 01:01:48.458 --> 01:01:50.166 Pour, baby. Don’t make them watery. 01:01:50.250 --> 01:01:51.958 Okay, kitty cat. Put away those claws. 01:01:52.666 --> 01:01:54.625 Mmm! I love you to bits. 01:01:54.708 --> 01:01:57.291 Gimme that ciggie. Drinks are on me. I’m so fried. 01:01:57.375 --> 01:01:59.583 -Thanks. -Well, gentlemen, enjoy your evening. 01:01:59.666 --> 01:02:02.791 -Cristi! A scotch and soda! -Wait your turn, I don’t have four hands! 01:02:02.875 --> 01:02:04.750 Just two. I wouldn’t be here if I did. 01:02:04.833 --> 01:02:07.250 They called me queer. Both of them. 01:02:07.958 --> 01:02:09.208 Have a bit. 01:02:13.500 --> 01:02:14.458 Blech. 01:02:15.000 --> 01:02:17.916 The word "queer" is the only word in the dictionary 01:02:18.666 --> 01:02:22.916 that is singular, plural, masculine, feminine, neutral. 01:02:23.000 --> 01:02:24.416 Being queer is a dream. 01:02:24.500 --> 01:02:26.125 I don’t think it works like that. 01:02:26.708 --> 01:02:27.708 You don’t? 01:02:28.958 --> 01:02:30.708 Shut it, shut it, shut it, you queer! 01:02:30.791 --> 01:02:33.625 I have something to tell you that is totally gonna blow your mind. 01:02:35.000 --> 01:02:36.708 You see? 01:02:36.791 --> 01:02:38.541 Not talking to you! So self-centered! 01:02:40.083 --> 01:02:41.416 It’s my song. 01:02:41.500 --> 01:02:42.541 Shall we dance? 01:02:42.625 --> 01:02:44.750 Coming through! Gotta dance! 01:02:51.666 --> 01:02:52.916 You 01:02:53.000 --> 01:02:56.750 What you have to do is 01:02:56.833 --> 01:02:59.125 Get ready and go out 01:02:59.208 --> 01:03:01.916 With modern people 01:03:02.500 --> 01:03:06.583 And dance at a disco 01:03:06.666 --> 01:03:09.416 You should have 01:03:10.416 --> 01:03:12.875 Your school diploma… 01:03:12.958 --> 01:03:15.208 Here you don’t worry about what anyone thinks. 01:03:16.333 --> 01:03:17.333 Be yourself. 01:03:17.833 --> 01:03:21.500 If you want to get somewhere 01:03:21.583 --> 01:03:24.083 What you have to do 01:03:24.166 --> 01:03:27.791 Is wear your coat inside out 01:03:28.791 --> 01:03:31.500 And what you have to do 01:03:31.583 --> 01:03:34.625 Is sign up for an English course 01:03:34.708 --> 01:03:38.833 What you have to do What you have to do 01:03:38.916 --> 01:03:42.875 What we have to do 01:03:42.958 --> 01:03:47.041 Is have a style of our own 01:03:47.125 --> 01:03:50.333 Not give up on doing things 01:03:50.416 --> 01:03:53.833 For fear of what others May say about us 01:03:53.916 --> 01:03:59.750 And finally strengthen our friendship 01:04:05.083 --> 01:04:06.166 Hold on. 01:04:07.458 --> 01:04:09.541 But you know who I mean? 01:04:09.625 --> 01:04:13.625 I was talking about how Jackson Pollock used synthetic resin, right? 01:04:13.708 --> 01:04:16.125 Jackson who? You sound like an encyclopedia. 01:04:16.208 --> 01:04:17.916 A walking encyclopedia! 01:04:22.208 --> 01:04:23.375 Welcome home. 01:04:25.041 --> 01:04:26.375 -Good night then. -Good night. 01:04:28.291 --> 01:04:29.458 Psst! 01:04:29.541 --> 01:04:31.875 Come. Come, don’t sleep alone. 01:04:33.791 --> 01:04:34.708 What? 01:04:36.125 --> 01:04:38.125 Don’t sleep by yourself, come here. 01:04:42.750 --> 01:04:44.125 Ramón Vicente. 01:04:46.458 --> 01:04:48.875 Gato. His real name is Ramón Vicente. 01:05:13.208 --> 01:05:14.083 Who is it? 01:05:14.166 --> 01:05:16.666 It’s Patricia, baby. Come down. 01:05:16.750 --> 01:05:17.708 Patricia? 01:05:20.416 --> 01:05:22.958 What are you doing here, Patricia? How’d you get my address? 01:05:23.041 --> 01:05:24.041 From Isidoro. 01:05:24.125 --> 01:05:26.750 You’re lucky I came to see you and not him, because he’s furious. 01:05:26.833 --> 01:05:29.708 Fine. Tell him sorry from me, if that’s why you’re here, okay, 01:05:29.791 --> 01:05:30.958 but I’m not going back there. 01:05:31.041 --> 01:05:33.083 Hey, hey, relax, altar boy, relax. 01:05:33.166 --> 01:05:35.791 Isidoro can fuck himself. I came to see you. 01:05:36.416 --> 01:05:38.333 Okay. Thank you. 01:05:38.416 --> 01:05:40.416 But right now things are complicated. 01:05:40.500 --> 01:05:43.291 I have to think. And before that I need some sleep. 01:05:43.375 --> 01:05:45.625 What you need is a job and some ID! 01:05:50.041 --> 01:05:51.041 Hold this. 01:05:51.833 --> 01:05:52.916 But… Where are you going? 01:05:53.000 --> 01:05:55.791 Look, I can’t help you with ID. But with a job, sure. 01:05:56.333 --> 01:05:58.500 Now, as a waiter you’re fucking bad, okay? 01:05:59.041 --> 01:06:02.041 But you move well. You’re elegant and well-mannered. 01:06:02.541 --> 01:06:03.916 Hotel or luxury store? 01:06:04.666 --> 01:06:06.000 I worked in my dad’s antique shop. 01:06:06.083 --> 01:06:07.375 Of course. Perfect. 01:06:07.458 --> 01:06:09.250 You’re the kind of person I could use. 01:06:09.333 --> 01:06:12.500 I’ll pay you 25,000 more a month than Isidoro. Well? 01:06:13.750 --> 01:06:15.041 I’d be working where? 01:06:15.125 --> 01:06:17.500 In a cute little souvenir shop, very sweet. 01:06:17.583 --> 01:06:20.541 After all that drinking you lost a few brain cells, huh? 01:06:20.625 --> 01:06:22.583 I didn’t want to presume, Patricia. 01:06:22.666 --> 01:06:24.791 I’m a hooker, A. D., not a Falangist. 01:06:24.875 --> 01:06:26.583 Don’t be scared to say it out loud. 01:06:27.500 --> 01:06:30.625 Yeah, but there’s no way I’m gonna sleep with anyone for money, huh? 01:06:30.708 --> 01:06:32.250 Please, for God’s sake, take your purse. 01:06:32.333 --> 01:06:34.750 I don’t care who you screw or whether you charge for it. 01:06:34.833 --> 01:06:36.375 I need you for two things. 01:06:36.458 --> 01:06:38.208 One, take care of reception. 01:06:38.750 --> 01:06:40.458 It’s not what you might think. 01:06:40.541 --> 01:06:42.958 And two, be my personal assistant. 01:06:46.000 --> 01:06:47.916 Why do you want to help me, Patricia? 01:06:48.583 --> 01:06:51.875 Because at the bar, you were the only one who helped me go down the stairs. 01:06:53.333 --> 01:06:57.166 Taxi! Come, hop in. You start right away. I want you to come with me to the clinic. 01:06:57.250 --> 01:06:58.958 No, wait, wait, wait. Patricia, I’m filthy. 01:06:59.041 --> 01:07:00.333 I need a coffee and a shower. 01:07:00.416 --> 01:07:02.125 There’s no time. You’re fine like that. 01:07:02.208 --> 01:07:04.666 You’re like a Pasolini hustler. Come on. 01:07:07.333 --> 01:07:10.416 I trust you won’t have a problem giving me your ID for the job. 01:07:11.333 --> 01:07:12.291 Hmm? 01:07:15.833 --> 01:07:16.916 Understand? 01:07:17.458 --> 01:07:18.583 I understand. 01:07:24.500 --> 01:07:25.416 Thank you. 01:07:26.166 --> 01:07:27.250 Here it is. 01:07:29.791 --> 01:07:32.500 She wants her next appointment to be at the end of the day. 01:07:32.583 --> 01:07:34.500 Let’s see if we can arrange it that way. 01:07:36.125 --> 01:07:37.916 Good morning, Patricia. How are you? 01:07:38.000 --> 01:07:39.375 -Good morning. -Hi, Patricia. 01:07:39.458 --> 01:07:41.625 -They’re ready for you, okay? -Thanks. 01:07:45.250 --> 01:07:47.125 You got me so relaxed, you know? 01:07:47.208 --> 01:07:49.125 Well, that’s what I’m aiming for. 01:07:49.208 --> 01:07:51.375 I woke myself up with my own snoring. 01:07:54.458 --> 01:07:55.541 Oh, there you are. 01:08:04.666 --> 01:08:07.625 I’m gonna find a taxi. I’ll be outside, Patricia. 01:08:20.083 --> 01:08:21.083 How are you? 01:08:21.666 --> 01:08:23.166 You were up super early. 01:08:25.166 --> 01:08:26.291 Hey there. 01:08:27.958 --> 01:08:29.083 I got a job. 01:08:30.125 --> 01:08:31.333 Already? 01:08:31.791 --> 01:08:33.125 Holy shit. 01:08:33.208 --> 01:08:34.333 I’m impressed. 01:08:34.916 --> 01:08:35.916 Where? 01:08:36.750 --> 01:08:39.166 One of the clients from the bar has a business. 01:08:41.208 --> 01:08:42.666 Well, that’ll come in handy. 01:08:43.250 --> 01:08:45.083 Because Amadeo is putting up the rent. 01:08:45.750 --> 01:08:48.625 40,000 pesetas. What a prick. 01:08:49.541 --> 01:08:51.541 Ángela’s gonna really struggle. 01:08:52.083 --> 01:08:53.166 So will I. 01:08:54.958 --> 01:08:56.666 Honey, I have to get going. 01:08:57.333 --> 01:08:58.416 I’ve got work. 01:08:59.000 --> 01:09:00.291 -Change him for me? -Sure. 01:09:00.375 --> 01:09:01.833 Put him on your shoulder so he burps. 01:09:01.916 --> 01:09:03.041 Okay. 01:09:03.125 --> 01:09:04.875 -Everything’s in Ángela’s room. -Hi there. 01:09:04.958 --> 01:09:06.583 -Bottom drawer of the dresser. -Good boy. 01:09:06.666 --> 01:09:07.708 Just go in. 01:09:14.041 --> 01:09:15.041 You okay? 01:09:16.375 --> 01:09:17.333 Yes. 01:09:21.083 --> 01:09:22.583 Before you open the door, 01:09:22.666 --> 01:09:24.666 you have to verify the appointment details. 01:09:24.750 --> 01:09:27.750 Who the client is, who is seeing them, 01:09:27.833 --> 01:09:30.333 in which room, and what they need. 01:09:30.416 --> 01:09:33.208 Here you take their coats and bags and what have you. 01:09:33.291 --> 01:09:36.250 And you store them in the closet across from the desk. 01:09:36.333 --> 01:09:38.125 This is where you’ll work. 01:09:39.958 --> 01:09:43.416 Most of the time they call us up to ask for our services. 01:09:44.208 --> 01:09:46.791 You never ask for their name more than once. 01:09:46.875 --> 01:09:48.250 And never say their name out loud. 01:09:48.333 --> 01:09:49.416 Okay? 01:09:49.958 --> 01:09:51.708 Do I ask them what they want or will they… 01:09:51.791 --> 01:09:54.125 No. You mustn’t ever ask that. 01:09:54.208 --> 01:09:57.166 The first appointment is with me and it’s the most important one. 01:09:57.250 --> 01:09:59.000 They tell me what they’re looking for exactly, 01:09:59.083 --> 01:10:00.541 or the path they wanna take. 01:10:01.041 --> 01:10:03.875 And if they don’t know, I have to guide them. 01:10:05.416 --> 01:10:07.291 This is the Hall of Versailles. 01:10:08.958 --> 01:10:10.666 It’s where Madame Vega works. 01:10:13.416 --> 01:10:14.500 Come on! 01:10:17.500 --> 01:10:19.000 This is the medical room. 01:10:20.166 --> 01:10:21.750 Madame Altair works here. 01:10:22.541 --> 01:10:24.958 And they actually use this for… 01:10:26.333 --> 01:10:27.291 Don’t. 01:10:27.791 --> 01:10:29.291 It’s very important, A. D. 01:10:29.875 --> 01:10:31.875 Don’t judge the people who come here. 01:10:32.583 --> 01:10:34.833 You have to be very brave to confront your desires 01:10:34.916 --> 01:10:37.291 and place them in another person’s hands. 01:10:37.375 --> 01:10:38.750 This is sacred. 01:10:40.750 --> 01:10:42.000 And this is where I work. 01:10:42.750 --> 01:10:43.875 The dungeon. 01:10:48.333 --> 01:10:49.250 A. D. 01:10:50.500 --> 01:10:52.208 One thing you need to remember. 01:10:53.916 --> 01:10:57.458 From the moment you come into this house until you leave 01:10:58.208 --> 01:11:02.583 you will address me always as Mistress Feli or Madame Feli. 01:11:03.916 --> 01:11:05.000 Understood. 01:11:05.083 --> 01:11:08.000 The dressing room is this way. Knock before you go in. 01:11:08.083 --> 01:11:09.541 I want things to be clear. 01:11:09.625 --> 01:11:12.375 The other day he suddenly pulled out this pig mask for me to wear. 01:11:12.458 --> 01:11:15.041 -The Fernando from way back? -Girls. 01:11:17.000 --> 01:11:19.916 Bonjour. I’m Madame Vega. Enchanté. 01:11:21.041 --> 01:11:22.208 How are you, cutie? 01:11:22.291 --> 01:11:23.333 Uh, I’m good. 01:11:23.416 --> 01:11:25.208 I really like him, Mistress. 01:11:25.291 --> 01:11:28.833 It’s so nice to meet you. A. D. 01:11:35.750 --> 01:11:37.125 “Enchanté” for me too. 01:11:40.166 --> 01:11:43.041 A. D., the clients get changed in the rooms. 01:11:43.125 --> 01:11:45.791 Prepare their things and put them there ahead of time. 01:11:45.875 --> 01:11:48.041 Your uniform is here. You have two. 01:11:48.833 --> 01:11:50.291 We open in an hour. 01:11:51.041 --> 01:11:52.458 If you need anything just ask. 01:11:52.541 --> 01:11:53.625 Thank you. 01:12:00.291 --> 01:12:01.875 He doesn’t understand. 01:12:22.583 --> 01:12:24.791 Uh, girls, go on ahead, okay? 01:12:24.875 --> 01:12:27.250 -See you tomorrow. -Okay, see you tomorrow, Isabel. 01:12:46.500 --> 01:12:49.791 I guess it’s my destiny to do physio on all the old women in your life. 01:12:52.125 --> 01:12:53.875 If Patricia hears you call her an old woman, 01:12:53.958 --> 01:12:55.791 she’ll bury you alive in the desert. 01:12:59.791 --> 01:13:01.000 I’m going that way. 01:13:02.833 --> 01:13:04.791 How long have you lived in Madrid? 01:13:06.333 --> 01:13:11.125 Well, my temp contract ended around a month after you disappeared. 01:13:14.958 --> 01:13:16.125 How are things? 01:13:18.166 --> 01:13:20.416 Look, I’m not sure I wanna do this right now, 01:13:20.500 --> 01:13:22.833 this casual chitchat as if we’re just acquaintances 01:13:22.916 --> 01:13:25.041 bumping into each other. I mean… 01:13:25.958 --> 01:13:28.375 I don’t know if I want to tell you what I’m doing here. 01:13:29.750 --> 01:13:30.583 I understand. 01:13:30.666 --> 01:13:32.583 I don’t know what to say. I’m sorry. 01:13:34.458 --> 01:13:35.916 Is this why you left? 01:13:37.000 --> 01:13:38.083 I’m not judging. 01:13:38.958 --> 01:13:40.000 Honestly. 01:13:40.708 --> 01:13:44.041 But seeing you like this, out of nowhere, I mean, holy shit. 01:13:45.833 --> 01:13:47.625 There were plenty of times I thought about it, 01:13:47.708 --> 01:13:49.666 I wondered what it would be like if we met again, 01:13:49.750 --> 01:13:52.333 but I mean, of course, I never supposed it would be like this. 01:13:52.416 --> 01:13:53.458 Right. 01:13:55.250 --> 01:13:56.333 Why did you come? 01:13:59.458 --> 01:14:00.583 Because I ran away once 01:14:00.666 --> 01:14:02.833 and I don’t want to do the same thing again. 01:14:16.875 --> 01:14:18.125 Can I give you my number? 01:14:18.208 --> 01:14:19.250 I already have it. 01:14:19.750 --> 01:14:20.708 It’s a new one. 01:14:21.416 --> 01:14:22.333 Oh. 01:14:22.416 --> 01:14:24.083 In that case, yeah, I’ll take it. 01:14:24.791 --> 01:14:26.041 Go ahead. 01:14:26.125 --> 01:14:27.500 655… 01:14:27.583 --> 01:14:28.750 Yeah. 01:14:28.833 --> 01:14:32.791 34-72-85. 01:14:34.416 --> 01:14:35.875 Under what name? 01:14:35.958 --> 01:14:37.208 A. D. is fine. 01:14:40.000 --> 01:14:41.583 Not much of a stretch, huh? 01:14:49.791 --> 01:14:50.958 Good night, A. D. 01:14:51.041 --> 01:14:52.041 Good night. 01:15:16.166 --> 01:15:17.708 You have steady hands. 01:15:17.791 --> 01:15:19.166 My granny’s diabetic. 01:15:20.750 --> 01:15:22.291 How have your first few days been? 01:15:23.125 --> 01:15:24.958 Fine, I’m adapting pretty well. 01:15:25.041 --> 01:15:27.000 I think so too. You’re doing a great job. 01:15:27.583 --> 01:15:28.666 I’m glad you’re here. 01:15:29.291 --> 01:15:30.166 Thanks, Mistress. 01:15:31.291 --> 01:15:33.666 When the lights are off and the door’s shut, call me Patricia. 01:15:35.416 --> 01:15:37.000 Want to have dinner at my place? 01:15:37.500 --> 01:15:39.208 I make a mean gazpacho, you know. 01:15:40.125 --> 01:15:41.750 No, thanks, Patricia. 01:15:42.750 --> 01:15:43.916 Up to you, honey. 01:15:44.833 --> 01:15:45.791 I’ll be right out. 01:17:00.875 --> 01:17:04.333 THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF ALICE B. TOKLAS 01:17:17.333 --> 01:17:18.541 Hello. 01:17:18.625 --> 01:17:21.708 I just walked out in the middle of an unbearable play. 01:17:26.125 --> 01:17:27.166 That bad, huh? 01:17:27.250 --> 01:17:30.291 No, it was amazing. That’s the problem. I couldn’t stand it. 01:17:32.083 --> 01:17:33.000 You still there? 01:17:33.083 --> 01:17:34.666 Yes, sure, I’m still here. 01:17:36.125 --> 01:17:37.750 I can’t stop thinking about you. 01:17:40.333 --> 01:17:42.458 Same here, and I don’t fucking like it. 01:17:43.166 --> 01:17:46.125 Because I have spent months thinking over and over 01:17:46.208 --> 01:17:49.166 about what happened the last time I saw you in Pamplona. 01:17:49.833 --> 01:17:52.083 It was the first time I felt that way, Isabel. 01:17:52.875 --> 01:17:54.500 I didn’t know what to do. 01:17:55.916 --> 01:17:57.083 And I still don’t know. 01:17:57.166 --> 01:18:00.166 Okay, sweetie, but I’m going out of my mind because, I mean… 01:18:01.000 --> 01:18:02.208 I don’t know who you are. 01:18:02.291 --> 01:18:04.166 Like, I know, it’s you, but not… 01:18:06.333 --> 01:18:08.375 I fell in love with you, I fucking admit it. 01:18:08.458 --> 01:18:10.916 I fell in love with the girl who teaches Sunday school, 01:18:11.000 --> 01:18:13.250 and now I find myself with… It’s… 01:18:14.166 --> 01:18:16.666 I don’t know, it’s like you stepped out of a Calvin Klein ad. 01:18:17.625 --> 01:18:19.083 I don’t know what to say. 01:18:20.166 --> 01:18:22.166 Well, there’s no way I can sleep now. 01:18:22.833 --> 01:18:24.708 And you sound really awake too. 01:18:24.791 --> 01:18:26.625 Do you want to hang out for a while? 01:18:34.333 --> 01:18:36.083 Want some? I just bought it 01:18:41.833 --> 01:18:43.083 So, what was the play? 01:18:45.458 --> 01:18:46.916 A revival of The Maids. 01:18:48.083 --> 01:18:50.875 With these girls who are just spectacular. 01:18:52.958 --> 01:18:54.750 Have you tried some acting here? 01:18:55.583 --> 01:18:58.166 Uh, well, I want to, I’m trying. 01:18:58.875 --> 01:19:02.416 That’s why I’m here, to act. I didn’t come here to give massages, but… 01:19:03.208 --> 01:19:06.125 This city has been eating me alive for four months. 01:19:08.541 --> 01:19:09.875 I loved watching you act. 01:19:11.041 --> 01:19:12.333 Come on, Adela. 01:19:12.416 --> 01:19:14.083 Uh, A. D., I’m sorry. 01:19:16.791 --> 01:19:19.625 You just felt that way because of all the oxytocin in you. 01:19:20.125 --> 01:19:21.208 Don’t say that. 01:19:21.750 --> 01:19:23.041 I was being sincere. 01:19:23.708 --> 01:19:28.708 Look, I remember the way you admired that painting in your parents’ store, 01:19:29.333 --> 01:19:31.166 and the way you spoke his name. 01:19:31.708 --> 01:19:33.125 The painter’s name, it was… 01:19:33.208 --> 01:19:35.000 -Guido Reni. -Guido Reni, that’s it. 01:19:35.625 --> 01:19:37.250 Who I’d never even heard of. 01:19:38.958 --> 01:19:42.750 So I’ve seen the look on your face when you see something amazing. 01:19:46.000 --> 01:19:48.416 You have no idea what it’s like to have to 01:19:48.500 --> 01:19:52.125 look at girls who were born for the stage and compare yourself to them. 01:19:53.208 --> 01:19:55.458 Those fucking girls, they have this way of… 01:19:56.208 --> 01:19:58.500 delivering their lines with such authority 01:19:59.291 --> 01:20:00.458 and also with… 01:20:01.375 --> 01:20:02.958 so much delicacy. 01:20:03.750 --> 01:20:06.958 They have this way of transforming physically, they… 01:20:07.541 --> 01:20:08.791 They’re irresistible. 01:20:09.708 --> 01:20:13.083 And I hear myself say the same lines, with the same intonation, 01:20:13.166 --> 01:20:15.666 and bursting with emotion, but I just feel so ugly. 01:20:15.750 --> 01:20:17.708 I know it’s a weird way to put it, but… 01:20:18.250 --> 01:20:19.916 I feel ugly and I’m full of shame. 01:20:20.416 --> 01:20:22.250 There’s nothing ugly from where I’m sitting. 01:20:22.333 --> 01:20:23.291 Right. 01:20:25.791 --> 01:20:29.541 No, seriously, the best moments in my life 01:20:30.208 --> 01:20:33.583 have always been thanks to beauty that was created by others. 01:20:35.166 --> 01:20:38.708 And of course, I know what it’s like to be the ugly girl. 01:20:39.250 --> 01:20:41.583 Not that I saw myself like that, 01:20:42.083 --> 01:20:43.000 but others did. 01:20:45.208 --> 01:20:46.875 Those assholes have no clue. 01:20:46.958 --> 01:20:48.041 My point exactly. 01:20:53.708 --> 01:20:56.000 You know, I looked up that priest friend of yours? 01:20:57.041 --> 01:21:00.083 -Are you serious? -Mm. After your vanishing act. 01:21:02.250 --> 01:21:05.125 You mentioned him just one time. It was when you were bombed, girl. 01:21:05.208 --> 01:21:06.875 Boy. I’m sorry. 01:21:07.416 --> 01:21:10.333 But I could tell he was someone you really cared about. 01:21:13.250 --> 01:21:14.500 So how was it? 01:21:14.583 --> 01:21:15.625 He was charming. 01:21:17.708 --> 01:21:20.833 He helped me a lot to… understand you more. 01:21:22.750 --> 01:21:24.166 He drops me a line now and then. 01:21:24.250 --> 01:21:26.166 In fact, he knows we ran into each other. 01:21:27.583 --> 01:21:28.791 He hasn’t mentioned that. 01:21:28.875 --> 01:21:31.000 Maybe he’s waiting for you to tell him. 01:21:31.083 --> 01:21:32.625 He fucking respects you. 01:21:38.375 --> 01:21:39.583 Oh, my God. 01:21:43.083 --> 01:21:44.125 I love this place. 01:21:45.208 --> 01:21:47.791 I come here a lot. I say hi to the guys out cruising. 01:21:56.708 --> 01:21:58.958 On Saturday, I dreamt about you. 01:21:59.041 --> 01:22:02.708 We had a band, but we didn’t do our own singing and we got caught. 01:22:04.166 --> 01:22:07.750 I miss you showing up out of nowhere, crying and asking me for advice. 01:22:08.333 --> 01:22:10.291 You made me feel like Confucius. 01:22:10.375 --> 01:22:11.500 I love you. 01:22:12.125 --> 01:22:15.416 P. S. “Had I not created my whole world, 01:22:15.500 --> 01:22:18.541 I would certainly have died in other people’s.” 01:22:18.625 --> 01:22:19.916 Our Anaïs. 01:22:20.416 --> 01:22:22.375 An hour and a half with him. Thank God he’s asleep. 01:22:22.458 --> 01:22:23.916 I was desperate to pee. 01:22:29.291 --> 01:22:30.958 You got in pretty late, huh? 01:22:31.541 --> 01:22:33.000 Mm. Stuff at work. 01:22:33.500 --> 01:22:34.333 Hmm. 01:22:34.875 --> 01:22:37.375 Do my other hand for me? I always mess it up. 01:22:41.875 --> 01:22:42.875 Thanks. 01:22:46.250 --> 01:22:47.541 Must be Gato. 01:22:47.625 --> 01:22:48.791 Mm-hmm. 01:22:48.875 --> 01:22:51.583 I think he might wake up the kid. Get the door for him? 01:22:52.458 --> 01:22:53.833 What’s up? Are you wasted? 01:22:53.916 --> 01:22:55.875 Ah. Here you are, you low life’s. I knew it. 01:22:55.958 --> 01:22:56.916 Amadeo, what is this? 01:22:57.000 --> 01:22:59.041 I need to talk to you and you won’t open the door. 01:22:59.125 --> 01:23:00.666 You can ring the bell or use the phone. 01:23:00.750 --> 01:23:03.125 That’s how it’s done. Not like this, not at this time of day. 01:23:03.208 --> 01:23:05.083 “He who has nothing to hide has nothing to fear.” 01:23:05.166 --> 01:23:06.166 This is still my house. 01:23:06.250 --> 01:23:08.750 No, no, no. This is your property, not your house. 01:23:08.833 --> 01:23:10.166 That’s why we pay rent. 01:23:11.625 --> 01:23:12.750 Look, guys. 01:23:12.833 --> 01:23:14.958 I’m sorry, but I have to raise the rent. 01:23:16.416 --> 01:23:18.500 The way things are going, I have no choice. 01:23:18.583 --> 01:23:20.958 Then there’s… There’s the kid, that’s why I’m here. 01:23:21.041 --> 01:23:22.083 What kid? 01:23:22.166 --> 01:23:24.125 -What kid? My son? Huh? -Well, your son. 01:23:24.208 --> 01:23:26.291 Àngelica, a couple of neighbors complained. 01:23:26.375 --> 01:23:29.458 We have older folks living here, and I don’t want children in the building. 01:23:29.541 --> 01:23:31.958 And so who complained? Who complained exactly, huh? 01:23:32.041 --> 01:23:34.000 “You name the sin but not the sinner,” Àngelica. 01:23:34.083 --> 01:23:37.208 Ángela, my name is Ángela. Án-ge-la. 01:23:37.291 --> 01:23:40.125 And I’ve had enough of your proverbs, so stop fucking saying them. 01:23:40.208 --> 01:23:42.250 You know what we’ll do? I’ll go from door to door 01:23:42.333 --> 01:23:44.500 and find out who complained about a baby. 01:23:44.583 --> 01:23:46.583 Calm down. Please, be quiet, for God’s sake. 01:23:46.666 --> 01:23:48.250 Calm down? I don’t think so. 01:23:48.333 --> 01:23:52.291 -Don’t you “calm down” me, mister. -See, see? Hear that? Hear that bawling? 01:23:52.375 --> 01:23:54.916 -Sounds like a fire truck! So irritating! -We'll find who to blame. 01:23:59.541 --> 01:24:00.625 What’s going on, Ángela? 01:24:00.708 --> 01:24:01.791 Does my son bother you? 01:24:01.875 --> 01:24:03.625 No, why would your son bother me? 01:24:03.708 --> 01:24:06.458 Uh-huh, this gentleman here says my son is bothering the neighbors. 01:24:06.541 --> 01:24:09.375 No, no, I didn’t say it was him, but the whole building can hear it. 01:24:09.458 --> 01:24:12.708 Anyway, that’s just one thing. There’s also the rent. And other things. 01:24:12.791 --> 01:24:15.541 So call and explain your concerns. And we’ll discuss it. 01:24:15.625 --> 01:24:17.666 What was the plan? Throw a little boy on the street? 01:24:17.750 --> 01:24:19.958 It’s impossible to talk to you. Always the same. 01:24:20.041 --> 01:24:22.041 -I can’t take it. -Shh! Okay, okay. What’s up, guys? 01:24:22.125 --> 01:24:23.833 This gentleman is raising our rent. 01:24:23.916 --> 01:24:24.958 You look annoyed, Amadeo. 01:24:25.041 --> 01:24:26.833 He says the baby bothers the neighbors. 01:24:26.916 --> 01:24:28.583 But he’s making a fuss right now. 01:24:28.666 --> 01:24:30.416 Listen to that. The whole stairwell’s shaking! 01:24:32.125 --> 01:24:34.916 I’m really sorry, Amadeo, but I don’t hear a thing. 01:24:35.791 --> 01:24:36.875 Wait. 01:24:38.041 --> 01:24:38.916 Huh. 01:24:39.000 --> 01:24:40.166 Stop fucking around. 01:24:40.250 --> 01:24:42.708 Hm. Nothing. No baby crying anywhere. 01:24:42.791 --> 01:24:44.000 That’s really weird. 01:24:44.083 --> 01:24:46.416 Okay, guys, inside. 01:24:46.958 --> 01:24:50.333 Bye, Amadeo. Always a pleasure to see you. We’ll talk another time. 01:24:52.791 --> 01:24:55.625 Fucking great. Where the hell do we get the money? 01:24:56.791 --> 01:24:58.833 You better fucking pay me! And shut him up! 01:24:58.916 --> 01:25:00.500 That guy’s such a bastard. 01:25:01.708 --> 01:25:03.875 Okay, baby, come here. 01:25:03.958 --> 01:25:05.916 Help me with this boot, please. 01:25:15.458 --> 01:25:16.625 What a relief! 01:25:18.541 --> 01:25:19.791 That looks bad. 01:25:19.875 --> 01:25:21.166 Let me give you a massage. 01:25:21.250 --> 01:25:22.208 Okay. 01:25:29.875 --> 01:25:30.916 Keep going. 01:25:31.458 --> 01:25:32.958 Oh, that feels good. 01:25:33.916 --> 01:25:35.541 Time’s almost up for Feli. 01:25:36.125 --> 01:25:37.750 Plus I’m getting clumsier every day. 01:25:38.916 --> 01:25:40.250 That’s it, that’s it, that’s it. 01:25:42.125 --> 01:25:43.541 It hurts, but it feels good. 01:25:44.750 --> 01:25:46.583 Luckily I have the girls. 01:25:46.666 --> 01:25:47.625 And they have you. 01:25:47.708 --> 01:25:48.625 Yes, they have me. 01:25:49.500 --> 01:25:52.000 And keeping all this going makes me very happy. 01:25:52.750 --> 01:25:54.958 Maybe next year I’ll hang up the boots, though. 01:25:55.041 --> 01:25:56.666 It might be good to slow down. 01:25:57.583 --> 01:25:59.750 There’s no lack of work here. You’ll be fine. 01:26:04.416 --> 01:26:06.041 And what do you want to do? 01:26:06.958 --> 01:26:09.166 Me? I’m fine here. I’m enjoying it. 01:26:09.250 --> 01:26:12.250 You’re smart and talented. You don’t want to spend your whole life here. 01:26:12.333 --> 01:26:15.000 For the time being, it’s convenient, and we all like you. 01:26:15.500 --> 01:26:17.916 But I’m wondering what you really want for yourself. 01:26:19.083 --> 01:26:20.333 I don’t know, Patricia. 01:26:21.875 --> 01:26:24.125 You know what I noticed about my corset? 01:26:24.666 --> 01:26:25.541 What? 01:26:25.625 --> 01:26:26.958 It has your scent. 01:26:27.833 --> 01:26:31.000 But not the smell of that cream you use on your hands. No, your own smell. 01:26:31.083 --> 01:26:33.875 Uh. Well, when I was sewing, I put it on to take some measurements… 01:26:33.958 --> 01:26:35.000 Take it easy. 01:26:35.083 --> 01:26:36.375 I’m not judging. 01:26:37.875 --> 01:26:38.916 This is my house. 01:26:39.000 --> 01:26:41.375 You can use whatever you want in Madame Felina’s house. 01:26:41.458 --> 01:26:43.250 Just clean it afterwards. 01:26:43.333 --> 01:26:45.291 Come. Sit down. 01:26:50.083 --> 01:26:52.416 What do you want, Patricia? What am I supposed to say? 01:26:52.500 --> 01:26:55.625 Tell me how you decided to be yourself. To start hormone therapy. 01:26:55.708 --> 01:26:57.083 What’s with the third degree? 01:26:57.166 --> 01:26:59.541 Relax, I’m just asking you a question. 01:27:01.125 --> 01:27:04.000 I don’t know. It hasn’t been that long. Ever since I left home. 01:27:04.083 --> 01:27:06.458 But I imagine you must have thought about it for a while. 01:27:06.541 --> 01:27:08.625 There’s no right or wrong answer. I’m just curious. 01:27:08.708 --> 01:27:11.166 Well, I don’t know, Patricia! 01:27:11.250 --> 01:27:13.625 They gave me an operation without my permission. 01:27:13.708 --> 01:27:15.875 It was for them, not for me. 01:27:15.958 --> 01:27:17.541 I understand you. 01:27:18.666 --> 01:27:21.583 And you’ve decided to take charge of your life. It’s natural. 01:27:21.666 --> 01:27:25.125 Sometimes you have to get mad and tell the world to fuck right off. 01:27:25.750 --> 01:27:27.708 What they did to me can’t be undone. 01:27:30.083 --> 01:27:32.416 What people can do when they’re standing on thin ice 01:27:32.500 --> 01:27:34.000 can be very cruel, A. D. 01:27:35.208 --> 01:27:36.833 That’s the way the world is. 01:27:37.791 --> 01:27:40.041 What’s considered normal is a bunch of excuses 01:27:40.125 --> 01:27:42.666 that cowards come up with to avoid surprises. 01:27:43.500 --> 01:27:45.291 They even turn them into laws. 01:27:47.208 --> 01:27:49.208 Come on. Help me get up. 01:27:49.291 --> 01:27:50.166 Are you sure? 01:27:50.250 --> 01:27:51.583 Yes, get me my crutch. 01:27:53.500 --> 01:27:54.666 Over to the mirror. 01:28:01.125 --> 01:28:02.958 Do you know how I knew I was a woman? 01:28:04.625 --> 01:28:06.791 -No. -Not by looking there. 01:28:15.875 --> 01:28:17.583 Or by putting this shit on. 01:28:20.000 --> 01:28:21.666 These don’t make me a woman. 01:28:25.958 --> 01:28:27.458 This doesn’t do it, either. 01:28:28.000 --> 01:28:29.875 This says nothing about me. 01:28:30.791 --> 01:28:33.458 I’m a woman because my guts are screaming it, A. D. 01:28:34.750 --> 01:28:38.958 Because everything I say, do, feel inside… 01:28:39.750 --> 01:28:42.375 Whatever hurts and whatever makes me happy, 01:28:44.416 --> 01:28:45.875 my guts scream it. 01:28:47.541 --> 01:28:48.750 It’s here, A. D. 01:28:51.916 --> 01:28:54.833 And if I didn’t listen to it, I wouldn’t live very long. 01:28:56.208 --> 01:28:57.416 I would rot. 01:29:01.208 --> 01:29:03.791 A. D., you can’t run away from who you are. 01:29:07.541 --> 01:29:08.916 It’s impossible. 01:29:17.250 --> 01:29:18.583 What do your guts say? 01:29:24.208 --> 01:29:25.625 I have no idea. 01:29:25.708 --> 01:29:27.875 Inside is total silence. 01:29:31.375 --> 01:29:32.791 I just know I’m angry. 01:29:33.458 --> 01:29:36.041 It took real balls to do everything you did. 01:29:38.041 --> 01:29:40.666 But you’re still conforming and you don’t realize it. 01:29:40.750 --> 01:29:42.416 The horrible thing about hate 01:29:42.500 --> 01:29:44.333 is it makes us hide ourselves. 01:29:44.416 --> 01:29:46.666 But people are gonna hate us in a similar way or another. 01:29:46.750 --> 01:29:49.416 What matters is what you feel about yourself. 01:30:15.458 --> 01:30:17.875 Come. Come meet me. 01:32:07.666 --> 01:32:08.583 You okay? 01:32:09.291 --> 01:32:10.208 Yes, yes. 01:32:26.500 --> 01:32:27.958 I’m sorry, I’m sorry. 01:32:56.333 --> 01:32:58.333 I’m going to try to straighten things out. 01:32:58.416 --> 01:32:59.916 Please trust me. 01:33:00.000 --> 01:33:03.583 Ángela, I want you to cover for me at work for one day. 01:33:03.666 --> 01:33:07.250 At noon, be at 118 Paseo del Pintor Rosales. 01:33:07.333 --> 01:33:09.416 Go to the first floor, apartment A. 01:33:09.500 --> 01:33:11.416 And tell Patricia I sent you. 01:33:12.458 --> 01:33:14.416 I love you. A. 01:33:34.333 --> 01:33:35.458 Good afternoon. 01:33:36.666 --> 01:33:40.458 Oh my gosh! What a sweet little bundle you are. 01:33:40.541 --> 01:33:41.791 I want to eat him! Can I? 01:33:41.875 --> 01:33:44.208 -No. -Hi there, cutie pie! 01:33:44.958 --> 01:33:46.291 Come in. You have an appointment? 01:33:46.375 --> 01:33:48.541 No, no, no, no, no. I’m a friend of A. D.’s. 01:33:48.625 --> 01:33:50.125 I’d like to see Patricia. 01:33:50.208 --> 01:33:52.166 Well, just a moment, okay? 01:33:52.250 --> 01:33:53.291 Okay. 01:33:59.125 --> 01:34:02.000 He left a letter saying he was going to fix the money thing. 01:34:02.083 --> 01:34:04.083 That I should show up here, and that’s it. 01:34:04.166 --> 01:34:06.125 Uh, it’s just for one day, as far as I know. 01:34:06.208 --> 01:34:08.333 Can you fucking believe this kid, or what? 01:34:08.416 --> 01:34:10.375 He’s a mystery wrapped in a riddle. 01:34:12.208 --> 01:34:14.333 Anyway, shall I show you the ropes? 01:34:14.416 --> 01:34:16.291 The problem is, what do I do with the baby? 01:34:16.375 --> 01:34:18.875 There’s no one to leave him with. My other roommate isn’t home. 01:34:18.958 --> 01:34:20.916 Don’t worry about it. It’s not a problem. 01:34:24.541 --> 01:34:25.958 Come on, Bichi! 01:34:27.750 --> 01:34:28.750 Come here. 01:34:38.541 --> 01:34:39.500 On your feet. 01:34:41.166 --> 01:34:42.416 He’s a doctor. 01:34:42.500 --> 01:34:44.708 He’s got three kids, and he’ll be here all day. 01:34:45.708 --> 01:34:46.666 He’s got this. 01:34:46.750 --> 01:34:47.791 As in… 01:34:47.875 --> 01:34:48.833 Yep. 01:34:58.041 --> 01:34:59.166 Don’t worry, he’ll be fine. 01:35:39.000 --> 01:35:40.083 Hello? 01:35:41.833 --> 01:35:43.125 Hi, Santiago. 01:35:47.375 --> 01:35:48.708 Adela, I should just hang up. 01:35:49.708 --> 01:35:53.083 Yes, you should, but I’m asking you not to, please. 01:35:53.708 --> 01:35:54.833 I need your help. 01:35:54.916 --> 01:35:56.708 Adela, what’s going on? What’s wrong? 01:35:57.250 --> 01:35:58.750 Whatever it is, it can’t be that bad. 01:35:58.833 --> 01:36:00.791 There’s nothing wrong, Santiago. I’m fine. 01:36:00.875 --> 01:36:02.916 But you’re the only person who can help me. 01:36:03.000 --> 01:36:06.625 Of course. Adela, why don’t you come to Pamplona and tell me about it? 01:36:07.708 --> 01:36:10.041 No one has to know, we can find somewhere private. 01:36:10.125 --> 01:36:11.416 If that’s what you want. 01:36:14.208 --> 01:36:15.833 Adela, are you still there? 01:36:16.541 --> 01:36:18.875 Y-Yes. Yes, I’m here. 01:36:22.083 --> 01:36:26.125 Santiago, I’m having some problems with money and I need my investment. 01:36:28.458 --> 01:36:30.083 You have some nerve, Adela. 01:36:32.666 --> 01:36:33.708 Unbelievable. 01:36:33.791 --> 01:36:36.416 Six months without a word from you. Nothing. 01:36:37.416 --> 01:36:40.416 With all kinds of nightmare scenarios playing out in my head. 01:36:40.500 --> 01:36:42.375 Your parents are refusing to talk to me. 01:36:42.458 --> 01:36:44.500 And there I am begging Father José María to tell me 01:36:44.583 --> 01:36:46.125 if you’re even alive. 01:36:47.500 --> 01:36:49.458 And the first time you see fit to call me up, 01:36:49.541 --> 01:36:51.083 it’s because you want money. 01:36:52.958 --> 01:36:53.875 That’s all I am. 01:36:54.708 --> 01:36:56.541 No, that’s not how I see you. 01:36:59.000 --> 01:37:00.916 I’m sorry. I wanted to talk to you. 01:37:01.916 --> 01:37:03.666 But I would’ve had to come back. 01:37:04.250 --> 01:37:05.583 It was too much. 01:37:05.666 --> 01:37:08.500 Forgive me, Santiago. Forgive me, please forgive me. 01:37:08.583 --> 01:37:10.625 C’mon, I deserved an explanation, at least. 01:37:12.625 --> 01:37:14.250 No matter what, I would understand. 01:37:14.333 --> 01:37:15.583 Adela, fuck! 01:37:16.250 --> 01:37:18.666 The last time I saw you, we were making out. 01:37:19.166 --> 01:37:20.416 I’m so sorry. 01:37:21.833 --> 01:37:23.375 I’m sorry, I really am. 01:37:27.208 --> 01:37:30.250 An investment isn’t the same as making a deposit in the bank. 01:37:31.916 --> 01:37:34.750 There are conditions, and it’s hard to cash it out quickly. 01:37:36.833 --> 01:37:38.333 Is your account still the same? 01:37:38.416 --> 01:37:39.458 Yes. 01:37:40.291 --> 01:37:42.708 I can pay back what you invested out of my own pocket, 01:37:43.833 --> 01:37:45.708 and I’ll keep the bonds. Does that work? 01:37:45.791 --> 01:37:47.458 Uh, that’s perfect. 01:37:48.458 --> 01:37:49.916 Santiago, thank you. 01:37:50.000 --> 01:37:52.000 I don’t… I don’t know what to say. 01:37:52.541 --> 01:37:54.541 Well, then, I guess we’ve said everything. 01:37:55.125 --> 01:37:56.583 No, wait, Santiago, don’t hang up. 01:37:59.916 --> 01:38:00.958 If I hadn’t gone, 01:38:01.750 --> 01:38:03.750 if I’d been able to stay in Pamplona, 01:38:04.666 --> 01:38:05.791 it would’ve been you, 01:38:05.875 --> 01:38:08.000 and it would have been perfect. 01:38:10.291 --> 01:38:12.083 I hope you find what you need. 01:38:14.208 --> 01:38:15.458 Same for you, Santiago. 01:38:17.125 --> 01:38:18.666 What’s in store for me is… 01:38:20.791 --> 01:38:22.458 ten streets and 99 people. 01:38:51.125 --> 01:38:56.083 DE JUAN ANTIQUE SHOP 01:39:29.000 --> 01:39:30.375 Did you manage to call the plumber? 01:39:30.458 --> 01:39:32.750 No, I didn’t get around to it. I’m sorry. 01:39:32.833 --> 01:39:34.708 Ugh. The ceiling’s gonna come down on us. 01:39:34.791 --> 01:39:36.583 -Yeah, I know. -Coochie-coo. 01:39:36.666 --> 01:39:38.458 -Bouncy legs! -Coochie. 01:39:40.000 --> 01:39:42.666 Oh my God. Where were you? We were super worried. 01:39:43.333 --> 01:39:44.583 Is something wrong? 01:39:44.666 --> 01:39:48.208 The rent thing is all worked out. No need to worry about it anymore. 01:39:48.833 --> 01:39:50.208 But how can we not worry, A. D.? 01:39:50.291 --> 01:39:53.000 Ángela, Ángela, Ángela. Let’s leave it for later. 01:39:53.791 --> 01:39:55.416 I just don’t get it. 01:40:18.208 --> 01:40:19.166 Hi, honey. 01:40:19.875 --> 01:40:22.583 We really missed you. But your friend did very well. 01:40:23.708 --> 01:40:24.791 Want to have a chat? 01:40:25.458 --> 01:40:26.833 We can order Chinese. 01:40:26.916 --> 01:40:28.833 No, I’m not hungry, Lidia. Thanks. 01:40:28.916 --> 01:40:29.791 Sure. 01:40:32.000 --> 01:40:34.458 But if you feel differently, 01:40:34.541 --> 01:40:36.958 just remember that my door is always open. 01:40:37.458 --> 01:40:39.291 Well, that’s true for all of us. 01:40:41.291 --> 01:40:43.500 And if you feel embarrassed, keep in mind 01:40:43.583 --> 01:40:46.000 that we deal with embarrassment all the time. 01:40:46.625 --> 01:40:48.000 And turn it into happiness. 01:40:48.083 --> 01:40:49.083 And how! 01:40:50.083 --> 01:40:52.166 Well, okay, don’t stay too late. 01:40:52.250 --> 01:40:54.458 That’s right. Leave that, I’ll finish it. 01:40:54.541 --> 01:40:56.458 Good night. Bye, honey. 01:40:56.541 --> 01:40:57.416 Ciao. 01:43:11.875 --> 01:43:15.416 A. D.! A. D.! A. D.! What are you doing? What is it? What’s wrong? 01:43:15.500 --> 01:43:18.625 -Leave me alone! Go away! -Stop, A. D., stop, stop, stop. 01:43:18.708 --> 01:43:20.416 -Stop, stop. -Go away. 01:43:20.500 --> 01:43:22.250 Listen to me. Just listen to me. Okay? 01:43:22.333 --> 01:43:24.416 You’re going to scare the baby. It’s okay, it’s okay. 01:43:24.500 --> 01:43:26.250 -My body. -Ángela. 01:43:26.333 --> 01:43:27.541 -I’m here. -I… 01:43:27.625 --> 01:43:30.166 I don’t want anything to happen to it! 01:43:30.791 --> 01:43:32.333 My body, Gato! 01:43:32.416 --> 01:43:34.708 It’s okay, sweetheart. 01:43:36.041 --> 01:43:38.333 Ángela! 01:43:39.000 --> 01:43:41.958 -It’s okay. -I don’t want anything to happen… 01:43:43.500 --> 01:43:44.708 …to my body! 01:43:44.791 --> 01:43:46.500 Nothing’s going to happen to it. 01:43:46.583 --> 01:43:49.500 I promise. I promise, we’ll look after it together. 01:43:49.583 --> 01:43:51.875 -Right, Ángela? -Of course we will, baby. 01:43:51.958 --> 01:43:53.125 Of course we will. 01:43:53.833 --> 01:43:55.458 Nothing bad is going to happen. Okay? 01:43:55.541 --> 01:43:57.958 -That’s it, baby, that’s it. It’s okay. -We’re with you. 01:44:03.708 --> 01:44:05.708 It’s okay. It’s okay. 01:44:56.833 --> 01:44:59.458 Mm. You’ve been talking in your sleep. 01:45:02.000 --> 01:45:03.458 What did I say? 01:45:04.750 --> 01:45:09.166 I don’t know. At one point you were asking about the Ten Commandments. 01:45:18.125 --> 01:45:19.416 Why are you here? 01:45:21.041 --> 01:45:22.291 Because… 01:45:23.541 --> 01:45:25.125 they told me what happened. 01:45:26.000 --> 01:45:27.333 And because… 01:45:28.291 --> 01:45:30.291 I’m always thinking about you. 01:45:32.125 --> 01:45:35.458 And because, like I told you, I hate pain, A. D. 01:45:38.333 --> 01:45:40.708 I’d like it if you would say my name. 01:45:43.416 --> 01:45:44.833 I hate pain. 01:45:44.916 --> 01:45:46.625 Yours and mine, Adela. 01:45:49.041 --> 01:45:50.708 I’ve been missing that. 01:45:51.958 --> 01:45:54.000 I know what you mean, girlfriend. 01:46:00.375 --> 01:46:01.958 So now what do we do? 01:46:07.291 --> 01:46:08.583 Insist on it. 01:46:09.708 --> 01:46:11.708 Insist, sweetie. Insist. 01:46:12.208 --> 01:46:13.791 Come on, let’s go. 01:46:13.875 --> 01:46:15.500 Get out of bed. Up now. 01:46:15.583 --> 01:46:18.125 Our bodies are very lazy, they like to do nothing. 01:46:18.208 --> 01:46:19.250 Come. 01:46:40.458 --> 01:46:41.916 Oh, look over there, there. 01:46:47.708 --> 01:46:50.625 “It is fitting to make merry and rejoice, 01:46:50.708 --> 01:46:52.916 because your brother, or your sister, 01:46:53.000 --> 01:46:56.458 or this hot mess over here, was dead and is alive again." 01:46:56.541 --> 01:46:59.250 "They were lost and they have been found.” 01:47:00.875 --> 01:47:04.375 I don’t fucking believe it. What are you doing here? 01:47:04.958 --> 01:47:07.333 Y’know, the Lord moves in mysterious ways. 01:47:07.416 --> 01:47:09.333 So it’s time to deliver a sermon now? 01:47:09.416 --> 01:47:11.750 No, actually, the Partridge Family here… 01:47:12.625 --> 01:47:14.625 They called me up and told me how you were doing 01:47:14.708 --> 01:47:16.125 and I said, "I’ll be there." 01:47:17.208 --> 01:47:19.625 Come on. Let’s go out on the balcony, it’s beautiful outside. 01:47:19.708 --> 01:47:21.083 -You’ll see. -Come on. 01:47:21.166 --> 01:47:22.500 -Move your ass! -Ouch! 01:47:22.583 --> 01:47:24.208 Look. 01:47:25.000 --> 01:47:25.833 Huh? 01:47:35.875 --> 01:47:37.083 Wanna go down? 01:47:43.625 --> 01:47:44.541 Tomorrow. 01:47:45.750 --> 01:47:47.125 Tomorrow. Sure. 01:47:47.916 --> 01:47:48.833 Is that… 01:47:49.541 --> 01:47:50.458 Yeah. It is. 01:47:51.958 --> 01:47:53.291 I love you! 01:48:04.125 --> 01:48:08.208 I am not just the silence 01:48:08.708 --> 01:48:15.000 I am not the wound I couldn't close 01:48:15.083 --> 01:48:22.041 I am not only the fear in the mirror 01:48:22.125 --> 01:48:28.625 That pushed away The ones who wanted to embrace me 01:48:28.708 --> 01:48:34.958 I leave behind the reflection That made me doubt 01:48:37.666 --> 01:48:40.875 I place myself in my own hands 01:48:42.625 --> 01:48:45.791 I uncover myself slowly 01:48:46.791 --> 01:48:50.208 My body is my home 01:48:51.125 --> 01:48:53.333 I am my own home 01:48:54.041 --> 01:48:57.208 I don't hide in old lies anymore 01:48:57.291 --> 01:49:00.166 I don't bite my tongue To keep the peace 01:49:00.250 --> 01:49:05.208 In my eyes I carry the light that's coming 01:49:05.875 --> 01:49:07.875 I am my own flag 01:49:08.708 --> 01:49:11.375 I stand steady in my peace 01:49:12.291 --> 01:49:15.625 And with the wind 01:49:15.708 --> 01:49:20.083 I start dancing 01:49:21.583 --> 01:49:23.791 I place myself in my own hands… 01:49:23.875 --> 01:49:26.375 MY DEAREST SEÑORITA 01:49:26.458 --> 01:49:29.166 I uncover myself slowly 01:49:30.500 --> 01:49:34.125 My body is my home 01:49:35.125 --> 01:49:37.125 I am my own home 01:49:39.791 --> 01:49:43.375 I choose the light 01:49:44.708 --> 01:49:47.791 I choose my steps 01:49:48.791 --> 01:49:51.500 I choose my name 01:49:53.958 --> 01:49:56.375 I choose my love 01:49:57.916 --> 01:50:00.750 I face my shadows 01:50:01.250 --> 01:50:03.708 The guilt, the disguise 01:50:04.541 --> 01:50:07.083 I welcome the girl 01:50:07.583 --> 01:50:10.375 Who didn't know how to cry out 01:50:11.208 --> 01:50:13.208 I embrace the fury 01:50:14.333 --> 01:50:16.666 That once silenced me 01:50:17.791 --> 01:50:19.875 And the habit 01:50:21.125 --> 01:50:23.708 Of holding my breath 01:50:23.791 --> 01:50:28.250 I leave behind the reflection 01:50:28.333 --> 01:50:31.541 That made me doubt 01:50:31.625 --> 01:50:34.875 I leave behind the look 01:50:34.958 --> 01:50:37.708 That tried to confine me 01:50:37.791 --> 01:50:41.166 I come to museums when I feel lonely, too. 01:50:41.958 --> 01:50:43.125 Do you know why? 01:50:43.625 --> 01:50:44.708 Why? 01:50:44.791 --> 01:50:47.833 Because it's so peaceful and silent in here. 01:50:48.500 --> 01:50:50.416 And when I go outside, 01:50:50.500 --> 01:50:54.041 I find myself swept up again in the hustle and bustle of life. 01:50:56.375 --> 01:50:58.708 But don't you feel even lonelier out there? 01:51:00.333 --> 01:51:01.583 Sometimes, yes. 01:51:02.625 --> 01:51:04.458 But I feel even more alive. 01:51:05.708 --> 01:51:08.041 And life is a wonderful thing. 01:51:19.958 --> 01:51:21.083 Miss? 01:51:22.916 --> 01:51:25.000 Could you walk me to the exit, please? 01:51:25.750 --> 01:51:26.750 Thank you. 01:51:30.625 --> 01:51:33.875 I place myself in my own hands 01:51:35.458 --> 01:51:38.708 I uncover myself slowly 01:51:39.708 --> 01:51:42.791 My body is my home 01:51:44.291 --> 01:51:46.500 I am my own home 01:51:48.916 --> 01:51:52.375 I choose the light 01:51:53.875 --> 01:51:57.458 I choose my steps 01:51:57.958 --> 01:52:00.625 I choose my name 01:52:02.875 --> 01:52:05.416 I choose my love